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violence as a form of love

the goldfinch, donna tartt / twin size mattress, the front bottoms / genius annotator thejluz / paper girls episode 5 / crush, ethel cain

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sovietnam on ig

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Søren Kierkegaard, Diaries 1813-1855

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[Showing you my camera roll] oh yeah heres me lost in the forbidden wood, afraid

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"what do you do in spare time" i yearn and i dream about a life where im loved and nothings ever wrong and it takes up all of my evenings and weekends doing that

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‘im a girl’ ’im a boy’ okay well ive got boulders on my shoulders collarbones begin to crack there is very little left of me and it’s never coming back

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pomegranate

22.1.24

i don’t know how to separate the love from the grief

my two religions

i will eat fruit for days on end only to find myself

insomniac laid prone on the mattress on my floor

and suddenly my ribs split apart

ash and crack away

and there’s a sooty cavern in my chest

and i no longer feel like i can fill it

and the person who used to fill it is only 2 streets away

but it wouldn’t change anything

to show up on your doorstep

pomegranate seeds crushed between my fists and dripping red on the carpet

just to know that you will still open the door 

and see my red sticky hands

and let me wrap my arms around your neck

and not care about the stains

and not care that i won’t talk

and not care that i will only stay long enough to look into your eyes and remember that you are still real and this person who was the entirety of my old life is not a dream but a t shirt wearing boy who loved me and loved me and loved me even if you don’t exist anymore

there was once someone who loved me with their whole being

broken and decayed as it was

the garden may have been full of weeds and rot

but at least there was a garden

pomegranate growing from the mould

that house is too haunted for me to return to

but at least there was a garden

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Thank you Jon Wurster for posting this gem on your Instagram page

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on shame and yearning (pt.2)

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Miller's Girl (2024)

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House of Wolves - My Chemical Romance

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every time i make a mistake im like theyre going to put me down like a sick dog

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jajajjsjanwhahbaka. yeah.

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wishbone, richard siken / ginger snaps (2000)