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Bluebells, oak, and ivy in Devon. by Terri Windling

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so i went to hobbiton and took a picture of my fifty year old copy of the book. no big deal. i mean, it’s in front of bag end, but no big deal.

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I judge how good a book is based on how disoriented I am with my physical surroundings after closing it.

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I don’t like when you sit there and tell me your childhood was worse than mine. That me and him are different than you and her because you both went through “real physical abuse.” Each of us had messed up lives in that house, who are you to say my trauma isn’t enough? To say I wasn’t physically abused? You don’t know anything that’s ever happened to me and you never will. I don’t need to justify myself to you or “prove” that I was abused.

Screw You. I can’t believe you’d say that.

#rant #ariels words #abuse mention #tw abuse

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Some reminders about DID/OSDD 🖤

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Gonna start a post with blank memes. Please add any you have on hand and reblog to spread them.

#long post

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I really don’t like the idea that siblings “make up” by just moving on to a new thing after a fight. Like if we have a serious fight about something and don’t talk for 5 hours I’m just supposed to laugh with you again when you tell me a joke. I’m not supposed to feel any sort of way or still be upset about your words because it’s in the past. This just normalizes the whole “you don’t need to say sorry” thing and honestly... makes me feel guilty for holding on to bad feelings. Feelings that can never be properly dealt with because instead of settling an issue, siblings are expected to just laugh it off and ignore it.

Saying “I’m sorry” is such a foreign thing between siblings, at least in my house it is, if someone is apologizing you can assume it’s because they’ve been told to or it’s sarcastic. I know that the over all beloved ideal about siblings is that they can get through anything together and understand each other without words but... honestly... words are important. Reiterating into peoples minds that doing nice things after doing bad things is a replacement for an apology is toxic and starts a dangerous cycle with families.

Children who grow up with their closest family members never saying sorry, how are they supposed to expect sorry’s the outside world? If someone hurts them is it okay if instead of saying “I’m sorry” they take them out shopping over and over again?

Let siblings apologize. Teach your kids how to apologize to each other. Break the cycle because I promise you, saying sorry might seem small but it makes a big difference.

#siblings #family #fighting #apologizing #family dysfunction #dysfunctional family #let kids apologize #say im sorry #rant

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Actually life is beautiful because the sound I make while trying to breathe around hot food sounds like my dog trying to eat an apple. When I yawn my cat tries to put his face in my mouth like a little dentist man and when he yawns I put my finger in his obligate-carnivore trapzone and we both know he will not hurt me. When I do not fold my clothes, they do not hold it against me.

I am demonstrably sad, and lonely, and full of fear. But there are other people who will hold my hand, who will point out the hawk overhead, who will give you That Look in a public place. The other day at a coffee shop a child said "look! It's snowing!" so all of us strangers went to go look out the windows. It wasn't the first snow and it won't be the last but wasn't it lovely like that?

How wonderful to live in a world where birds and frogs both say beep! How wonderful to have an ocean of beautiful sharks with their dinosaur teeth! How wonderful the moon and her changing face, how wonderful the bees and their dancing to communicate, how wonderful shrimp and their forbidden layers of vision! How wonderful, you, and what you will give the world! The way we love things enough to spend entire blogs devoted to them? How people will let me explain my Pokemon team to them? How we will both jump at the scare in the movie, how we laugh so loudly, how it feels to give someone your baking? How wonderful to be alive. I am sorry for forgetting.

This is the process of getting better. With wonderful people and wonderful strangers and wonderful friends: I am getting better, slowly. Thank you, whoever you are. In some way, you've been wonderful, and left a wonderful place in the world to ripple out to me. In some small way - isn't it beautiful - I promise, you've been helping.

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me in the middle of writing a post: you know what *discard*

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Tony Hawk is like fucking Perry the Platypus because if I saw him without a skateboard I'd be like "A man" and the second he picks up a skateboard I'd be like "TONY HAWK?!?!?!?!?!"

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My cat has to wear a cone this week and it made me think of an angel whose halo is a cone.

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Peeps, I hope you’re having a good day, night, evening, wherever you are. I’m in my therapist office waiting for my session to start and I just wanted to check in with you and let you know that I’m still here. We’re still here. I know we used to blog a lot more and we’ll jump back into that soon I promise.

There’s a lot going on and it’s easy to feel disregarded during these times, easy to put others before yourself and decide to practice self-care later but I’m here to remind you to take a deep breath today. Take breath, drink some water, honestly just do a few stretches today and remember where you are. You’re important. You’re surviving and by taking take of yourself you can begin to thrive. Treat yourself like you’d treat your favorite plant, your pet, your favorite pair of shoes.

Ahaha, just value yourself today please. That’s it.

Ariel.

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