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Hiii besties, i'm back to my bullshit 🤡 Two months ago my therapist invalided and humilated the fuckkk out of me bc I was trying to seek help </3 But yeah all good bc I'm not underweight, so I don't need help 😀 I'm not going to do that EVER again, fuck her, I'm going to show everyone how sick I can be, maybe then I can stop

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tag urself <3 part 2

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Okay, fuck this. I'm going to start liquid fast tomorrow. I will fast till Friday bc of the new year. I'm so tired of not seeing the results, but no wonder nothing changes because I don't. I'm such a clown 🤡 I didn't weight myself today but I was 63,6kg yesterday so that's my starting weight.

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🦋 Day 14 | My next goal is 59kg, ugw would be like 45-43kg. That better be in 2022 or else 🥲

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🦋 Day 13 | Unhealthy way, I guess. No way, I could be some healthy queen with 2000+ cals a day and wanting to build a muscle. Lol, I want to be skinny asap

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🦋 Day 12 | I usually eat oatmeal w/ babyfood, boiled eggs, soups, vegetables and yogurt. Pretty boring, I guess but good 🍵

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If this ain't me

Who developed an eating disorder preteen and is now in their 20s still struggling?!?👀

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🦋 Day 10 | At this point I don't even know. I have totally lost myself in this illness. Things I thought I'd never do, well I do them now. So many lies, so many years waisted. But yeah, I loooove candy and can't have my faves anymore lol

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🦋 Day 9 | Yes, very much. When I was at my highest weight my family would throw commets at my weight for me. Like everyone did the same thing. My cousins, uncle, stepmom, brother and bullies at school. Bc I have always been overweight (till now) I had to listen their bullshit all these years. It really did something to my self- esteem

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Morning

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🦋 Day 8: Workout routine | I don't have one. I just like to walk a lot and sometimes I do those YouTube dance workout videos.

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I'm chestpain and reLAX babe 🥱 hbu

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Also, sorry for grammar mistakes. My first language isn't english and sometimes I'm too lazy to correct my text 🐝

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🦋 Day 6 & 7 | I used to binge everyday. And I mean literally multiple times a day. But I don't binge anymore almost at all. It's very rare. It's crazy, at that time I thought I could never stop overeating and look at me now 😦 I just don't crave food that much anymore, my hunger signals are broken 🥲

I don't live with my parents anymore so no. Sometimes when I was a minor I said that I'm going to lose weight. But yeah, they don't know.

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🦋 Day 5: Reasons | I have been overweight my entire life. I have shamed my body ever since I was a kid. I wan't to know how it feels to be skinny. To be able to borrow my friends clothes, not always be 'that chubby friend' and just to look better. For real. I have so many reasons. But mostly bc I've always been overweight, and I'm getting tired of it