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Heal forward, heal forward...

I’m learning so many things as a curious person. I’m learning more about how to be curious about how I think, and feel. I’ve always had pretty good control of my body. Remember when Leia said to Tarkin, “The more tightly you clasp your fingers, the more star systems will slip through your grasp.” (Did not look up the exact phrasing, so the quotations may be only for decoration.)

Time for this star system to shine.

What is my sun? I already know the planets. I’m their sun.

The moon is a sphere cut out of the earth. That’s why it draws the tides. It belonged to them. It belonged to her. It was from the place where she was wounded, but instead became a place of divinity. 

Heal forward.

The moon is a piece cut out of the earth. The space between her and the earth... it matters. The life drained, and she found out silver was her color. Secrets were kept, no matter how many men trampled on her. Or stuck flags in her. No matter the jealousy of some women. The ones who celebrated her journey were given the understanding of the moon. Secrets the world willingly gives out, but the moon helps wise women to understand. She’s beautiful. While she made not create her own light, she found a way to borrow a bit of the sun’s best rays to make her glow, and give even the darkest hearts a moment of… warmth.

#shadowwork #surviving trauma #traumahealing #pagan #moon

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Edges

I married an opera singer

And had the best Italian wedding

Rural Iowa could host

We never bought the pictures

Though there’s this picture of my dress

Cascading down a bannister

With the backdrop of a stained glass

Rose window

So man beautiful ideas

So many painful lessons

It took me awhile to see where the stains were

Longer to know the stains weren’t my fault

I left him when I saw his letters to another woman

It wasn’t enough to leave

when he beat me

I was used to loved one’s touches hurting me

It wasn’t enough to leave

When every setback smelled of sour grapes

That later bloomed all over my skin

His eyes

So green

Went lime when drunk

Bloodshot, hateful eyes that looked through the house

Stomping and cursing as he looked for me

A pound of my flesh every time he got upset

Often I found the right hiding place to bunker the storm

Sometimes I didn’t and I bled

 He was an opera singer

Isn’t tragedy part

Of the trajectory?

 I escaped

He pissed himself in the street

And got arrested for it

And all the preacher’s horses

And all the evil queen’s men

Would never put the girl they wanted

In their own image

Back together again

 Cuz, bitch, now I got edges

#trauma #domesticviolence #shadowwork #poetry #dryad #fuck christianity #edges #surviving trauma #loaa

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I’ve been wanting to do a thing like this for a while. Behold my amazing animu mongah skills there wow swoons

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I am so sick of dudes I have in my life telling me that I am “coming at them”, when I’m not even raising my voice. Literally not doing anything abusive, just saying how I feel without all the fucking niceties without the “don’t upset fragile ego” filter.

Like... if I come at you, I have enough trauma behind me that you’ll fucking freeze. You won’t be talking over me.

Jesus fuck, just listen to what I’m trying to fucking say without judging every semantic to deflect my words.

#surviving trauma #traumahealing #mansplaining #awakening #shadowwork #witchblr #ego

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AMAZING SPIDER-MAN (1999-2013) #502

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Catholic Church in Germany (jaclynkbrown)

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Grandma wanted a porcelain doll

Grandpa wanted a sex doll

My parents gave them me.

When I told them

They said

“Who’ll you accuse next

Your brothers?”

There it is, folks.

#traumaheal #traumahealing #surviving trauma #adverse childhood experiences #childhoodtrauma

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Portrait de la jeune fille en feu | Portrait of a Lady on Fire (2019) dir. Céline Sciamma. 

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I’m an orphan

But not one of those sexy ones

The ones with parents who are good people

Murdered by evil

Instead

That womb I inhabited

Is still rotting in Iowa

A place of fertility

That is smothered

By someone else’s trauma

Someone else’s betrayal of her trust

She didn’t want to face

So she punched me in the face

instead

Well, the face of my feelings

She always kept her hand wide

When she threw it at my cheek

A punch is honest

A slap is pain

Tinged with just enough humiliation

To make you always question

Did I deserve it?

Why do I deserve pain

For all of my feelings

My honesty comes from a good place

But it’s hurts you

And the beast inside you gets hungry

You fed me to it

Chained to the rock

Sacrificed to your own

Denial

I’m done

Fuck you

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Oh, wow.

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Ten Rules Of Community

1.Thou Shall Be Kind

2.Thou Shall Repeat Be Kind

3. Thou Shall Not Shame

4. Thou Shall Love Freely

5.Thou Shall Be Comfortable

6.Thou Shall Be Restful

7. Thou Shall Be Helpful

8. Thou Shall Be Curious

9. Thou Shall Be Playful

10.Thou Shall Treat All With Dignity

#tencommandments #myreligion #selflove #liferules #lifehacks #socialwork #community #myloverules #beautifulworld #messyworld #adhd #adhdlife

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Song To Myself

I am a child of the elements.

A child of the universe.

A child of stardust and beautiful storms.

I am a creature of earth.

A creature of magic and good intentions.

A creature of science.

Let me feel

and experience life

with the joys and sorrows

that will weave my golden thread

through a life I’ve lived well.

#innerchild #shadowwork #traumahealing #druid #songwithoutmelody #traumaheal #lovetoself #magicalcreatures #divinity #songtomyself #rememberyourpower #childhoodtrauma #aces #adverse childhood experiences

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Guardian Angel by Travis Limonious

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Cleansed my altar for spring, and added this hyacinth to remind me that Gaia is taking the first deep breaths of waking. https://www.instagram.com/p/CLaJm1Hnyrc/?igshid=uvesfwmggrck

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Is it my normal dose, or should I expect company?