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[rolaana2]

My stupid ass INJURED my back and I haven’t been able to work out for TWO weeks and I feel like shit the only thing that let me eat was working out and now I can’t even have that but I’ve rediscovered food now and after starving for so long everything just tastes better than it did before my ed so now I have to give that up again until my back gets better and it’s gonna be even harder to get back into working out and eating healthy again.

But then I think “why do I have to do this to myself I could literally just eat normally then go back to the gym when I feel better and it wouldn’t make a difference.” So idk I’m just really upset I think I gained like half a kg and I don’t wanna gain any more.

#ana advice #anamia #ana

[rolaana2]

Is this a relapse? Let’s wait and find out😁

[rolaana2]

TW !! : Why did I feel better physical health-wise before I attempted recovery? Like ik I had bruises everywhere and my hair fell out and I lost my period and my mental health was shit but now that I’m eating normally (intuitively) and working out with rest days and all that, I feel like my hair is falling out even more ?? And my dark circles are way worse and I always feel bad and low on energy and I generally look BAD. Like, I may as well still be anorexic. I hate everything I just want to be normal.

#ana advice #anamia #ana #ana recovery #ana progress #tw #ed #ed things #ed recovery

[rolaana2]

Recovery is hard. Like I’m telling myself I’m recovering but I’m still counting every calorie, im still choosing the lowest calorie options despite the taste, I’m still body checking and weighing myself every day, I’m still proud of myself for not eating. Today I had a small piece of fruit and felt bad about it. And the thing is I know that under eating doesn’t help me lose any weight with my body type, and what really works for me is a healthy diet and regular exercise, but I still don’t eat. Yesterday I went 400-500 cals over my limit because I was so hungry and the tiny serving I had for dinner wasn’t enough, so I pushed myself to have another serving, and I was so scared but when I woke up today I was still skinny, maybe even skinnier. And I work out every day too so I’m supposed to give myself a little extra room to eat, but now I’m over exercising and fasting bc I’m gonna be eating out tomorrow and on this weekend too.

The whole point of recovery was to be happy again. Not to avoid bananas or apples or avocados. I know I need to eat, but I can’t stop thinking the way I do.

[rolaana2]

Day 6 of recovery: literally barely changed my daily intake, but I’m honestly taking it one day at a time. I don’t wanna gain weight so I’m gonna increase my intake after awhile so my body can get used to it.

Today I had a McDonald’s burger and fries, a donut, and spaghetti, and a few bites of a birthday cake, and sparkling grape juice. I don’t think I regret it because I knew I’d be eating a lot today since I was at a birthday party and social events revolve around food. I’m still happy I got to eat all these foods I’ve avoided for so long, I never even liked donuts that much but I’ve been craving them so bad and I just gave into it and I’m fine now.

I’m not gonna continue bingeing for the next 2 weeks like I used to every time I went even slightly over my limit. I’ll still go to the gym everyday bc it makes me feel good, and this time I’m trying to focus on macros. I genuinely want to eat healthy but I still wanna indulge every once in awhile bc that’s healthy too. Hope it works x

#ana advice #ana recovery #anamia #ana #ed #ed things #ed tumblr #ed recovery #anorex1c #anorecsick #anor3xia #anorexik

[rolaana2]

Me: I’m gonna recover:))) no more ana, I’m gonna make my relationship with food healthy!!! and I can still lose weight and be happy !!!

Also me: *turns to excessive exercise instead*

#ana advice #anarecix #anor3xia #low cal ana #anamia #ana #ana tips #ed

[rolaana2]

Hi guys I’m gonna recover.

My idea of recovery is high restricting 😭 but it’s a start. I wanna lose weight in a healthy way and actually be happy.

So I’m gonna record this date: April 16 2021

And I’m staying off this app for awhile. Lowkey TERRIFIED but this disorder has taken up enough of my time and energy and ruined so many great moments for me. Wish me luck :/

#ana advice #anarecix #anor3xia #low cal ana #anamia #ana #anaaamiaaa #not pro ana just using the tag #anorecsick #anorexik #anorex1c #ed #ed things

[rolaana2]

Me an hour ago: mmm maybe I should recover.

Me 5 minutes ago: cookies yum

Me now: YOU ARE A FUCKING PIG AND YOURE NOT EATING SHIT FOR 2 DAYS

#ana advice #anarecix #anor3xia #anamia #low cal ana #ana #anaaamiaaa #not pro ana just using the tag

[rolaana2]

~ 45 CAL Mug Cake Recipe ~

Time needed: 5 minutes

Calories: 45 calories

What you need:

1 Tbsp flour

1 Tbsp sweetener

½ tsp baking powder

½ tsp cacao

1 tbsp lowfat milk

How to:

Mix everything together and place the mug in the microwave for 1 or 2 minutes.

You can also add berries, cinnamon, vanilla extract, applesauce or banana if you like.

Bon Appétit! ♥

[rolaana2]

I swear nobody makes me more suicidal than my mom. And she doesn’t want me to move away for college she wants me to stay in the SAME CITY bc “why would you leave your family?”

Ok let’s pretend I didn’t pull an all nighter and decide to wash all the dishes, unload the dishwasher, clean the kitchen, and bake fresh banana bread for you to wake up to in the morning running on 24 hours of NO SLEEP just to make you happy then have you scream at me bc I ALMOST cried bc of something that upset me even though I’ve been showing visible signs of depression for AWHILE.

Literally can’t take it anymore I’ve never slept more than I do right now.

[rolaana2]

-200cal pancakes-

Ye i make a lot of pancakes leave me alone pls haha

You need:

60ml milk

25g flour

1 egg

Some baking powder

Sweetener and vanilla if you want (optional)

How to:

Just mix everything and put in a pan...you're done :)

I did a single big one but normally it would make around 3-4

[rolaana2]

I want workout clothes so bad but I’d be too insecure to wear them. Like tight yoga pants and sports bras? Please. Talk to me when I’m skinny.

#ana #anarecix #anor3xia #low cal ana #anamia #not pro ana just using the tag #Ed #ana advice

[rolaana2]

How ironic

#ana advice #anarecix #anor3xia #low cal ana #anamia #anaamiaa #anorecsick #anorex1c #anorexik #ana tips #ed #ed things #not pro ana just using the tag

[rolaana2]

I don’t want to support EDs, so this is gonna be a PERSONAL vent + progress blog, just for me. I’ll also be posting low cal recipes to encourage people with EDs to at least eat something.

My account was already terminated once and I lost all my mutuals and friends. Please don’t report, this is my only way of coping :(

[rolaana2]

Anyone else scared of water?

#ana advice #anarecix #anor3xia #low cal ana #ana #anaaamiaaa #not pro ana just using the tag #ana tips #anorex1c #anorexik #anorecsick #ed

[rolaana2]

My goal weight is 40kgs AFTER eating, so like, 38-39 in the morning. I need to get there by summer, but I’ve plateaued at 45 :(

#ana advice #anarecix #anor3xia #low cal ana #ana #ed #anaaamiaaa #anorexik #anorex1c

[rolaana2]

I WEIGHED MYSELF AFTER EATING AND I LITERALLY WENT 2 KGS UP EVEN THOUGH I DIDNT EAT THAT MUCH IM CONVINCED THIS ISNT JUST WATER AND FOOD. IT PROBABLY IS BUT IM SO PISSED I WAS 45 THIS MORNING AND NOW IM 47

I’ve been increasing my intake to 450-500 + working out and I think it’s working bc I just hit 45kg :)

#low cal ana #anarecix #anor3xia #anamia #ana advice #ed