sad-writer

[sad-writer]

If I pretend I never cared

will it hurt any less when my

anxiety

turns out to be right?

#I got a boyfriend #and i’m scared #short poem #writers #sad poem #queer poems #anxitey

[sad-writer]

TW: mention of un-alive

My brother is younger than me,

He’s more good looking than me,

He has more friends than me,

But one time, late at night, he said he wanted to die,

I stared in silence, and he did the same.

My brother is younger than me, and he has friends and he’s nice and sweet and everything that I am not,

Except suicidal.

No matter how far we go, how different we are,

We were raised in the same house, and we think the same thoughts

#short poem #abusivefamily #writers #sad poem

[sad-writer]

Adam and Eve were doomed from the start

They were expected to fail

God made us flawed, capable of choosing to do good or bad, but never giving us the chance to be perfect in his eyes.

Because at the end of the day, could you blame a dog for biting when it doesn’t know the consequences of its actions?

#bible #I have strong religious trauma #short poem #bible poetry

[sad-writer]

Kinda nonhuman because mental illness, kinda nonhuman because not being properly socialized as a kid, kinda nonhuman because queer, kinda nonhuman because angry at humanity, kinda nonhuman because longing for the unconditional love of a pet and it’s master, and kinda nonhuman because secret sixth thing.

[sad-writer]

Is it too much to ask to be loved unconditionally? To be loved like it’s the last thing we might do?

Is it unreasonable of me to want to burn with romantic passion?

I want to love and to be loved so hard that it consumes my soul.

What do I need a soul for, if not to destroy it?

#writers #short poem #sad poem #queer poems

[sad-writer]

Two moods

[sad-writer]

lie with me as you would with a woman

But please do not forget I am not one

#writer stuff #writers #short poem #queer poems #trans guy

[sad-writer]

I tricked myself into thinking I loved someone, when really I just wanted to feel normal

#writers #writer stuff #short poem #aromantism #aromantic #aromantic spectrum

[sad-writer]

I always thought I remembered everything

But I’m reading words that I recognize as my own, and I don’t remember them

I don’t remember writing them

When did I write them?

What have I lost?

[sad-writer]

Just finished PromptOber, starting NaNoWriMo, possibly gonna do December Writing challenge.

The holy trinity

#writers #promptober #nanowrimo #writing challenge #ao3 fanfic

[sad-writer]

Let yourself feel

For once in your life, just feel

Live in the moment you’re existing in

It’s enough,

Just for today, let it be enough

#writers #writer stuff #short poem

[sad-writer]

She has the most beautiful eyes

The darkest eyes I’ve ever seen

The purest black irises in the world

I could be surrounded by art, but I wouldn’t, not for a moment, stop admiring those eyes

She is the only art I see

#for my best friend #writers #writer stuff #short poem

[sad-writer]

Loving you hurts more than any of the scars on my body

You loving me hurts the both if us, and still we love

It’s not good, not healthy

I wish we didn’t love each other as we do, but I crave your presence like a starving man craves a meal

We hurt each other so bad

What are we doing, darling?

#writers #writer stuff #short poem #toxic relationship

[sad-writer]

I never expect to be reciprocated

Not romantically, but neither platonically.

So, when I am told I am reciprocated

I feel my whole heart clench

I know I am not worth reciprocating

And I ruin the bond

Before the bond could ruin them

#writers #writer stuff #short poem #sad poem

[sad-writer]

When I love, I do so wholeheartedly,

I bare my soul to another without fear.

My kindness is often mistaken for weakness

But there is no other way for me to love,

For to love just a little,

Is like not loving at all

#writers #writer stuff #short poem

[sad-writer]

I had to set the table yesterday night

I had to set it for four because you’re not here anymore

We’re not five anymore

I set the table for five yesterday night

#writers #short poem #sad poem #grieving

[sad-writer]

I want a love I can take for granted

I don’t want to hold onto every ‘I love you’ like it might be the last

I want a simple love

I want to come up to you and embrace for no reason, and for you to do the same

I want a love I can take for granted

I want a person I can take for granted and for them to take me for granted

#writers #writer stuff #short poem #my poem