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My head is just such a dark place I just want to sleep.

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well i mean, not wrong // credits: @screamingemonight on Instagram

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I am thinking of writing again… specifically for the acotar/tog/cc realm. Anyone have any ideas or requests? Or any interest in reading?

#acotar fanfiction #throne of glass fanfiction #crescent city fanfic #tog #throne of glass #acotar #a court of thorns and roses #azriel #rhysand #cassian #hunt athalar #rowan whitethorn #fenrys moonbeam #fan fiction #writing

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HOW TO DEPRESS THE TOG FANDOM IN TWO WORDS:

Sam Cortland

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hoping my soulmate is russian because i want to be called malyshka but also italian because i want to be called mia cara but also spanish because i want to be called mi alma but also desi because i want to be called meri jaan but also british because i want to be called love with a british accent but also—

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My daddy issues are showing

#but its okay

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Screaming crying throwing up. While i am first and foremost a rhys girl, Azriel had a very very very very very special place in my heart

headcanons about azriel’s wings because I can’t sleep and they’re all I can think about

- first of all, he definitely has the largest wingspan, but he’s not cocky about it and let’s his brothers think that theirs are bigger

- they twitch when he’s irritated, or pissed off, or even sometimes when he’s turned on

- he’ll shoot one out in front of you so you don’t walk away from him or to prevent you from going any further somewhere else

- he uses them to shield you from things or other people and it has you standing on your tippy toes to try and look over them but they’re so damn huge that you can’t

- he’ll curl one around you to guide you closer to his side

- they flare slightly to show his dominance whenever another male looks at you a little too long for his liking and it always has you rolling your eyes at him

- he’s so needy and when you’re not paying attention to him, he’ll flap them, sending a gust of air in your direction and he smiles when you finally address him, even if it’s just to scold him for ruining your hair

- he drapes one across you while you sleep and it’s just like a second blanket

- you’re the first and only one besides healers he allows to ever touch his wings

- you’ll sit at the edge of the bathtub and clean them for him because “you get all the hard to reach places”

- and don’t even get me started on wingplay…

- the first time you gently stroke a particularly sensitive spot, he whimpers, yes whimpers

- you like to dance your fingertips along the membrane just to see his eyes closed and face scrunched up

- you’ll lean to kiss them because they’re just so beautiful and he’s coming undone within seconds

- there are plenty of times that you’ve made him finish by just playing with his wings

- anyway…

- the first time he comes to your small studio apartment, they bump into everything and you’re giggling as he tries to catch all the things that are falling off counters and shelves

- they slump when you’re upset with him or just sad in general because he hates seeing you like that

- similarly, they perk up whenever he sees you or hears your voice or laughter

- he’ll reach out and gently stroke one down your spine just to let you know he’s there

- he likes to cocoon you in them often, because he says it feels like it’s just you and him in the whole wide world

there’s a lot more but you get the gist

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Everyone chooses other people over me. Every. Single. Time.

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I blatantly flirted with him today. He didn’t seem to mind. He also didn’t seem to mind my short shorts.

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How would I know he’d have a diet Mountain Dew sitting in his car

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No one knows that all I ate today was a piece of cheese and a coffee

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Yeahhhhh I wanna fk him

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In fighting the urge to do something completely self destructive, I climbed into the shower. I turned the water all the way up, allowing the searing water to redden my skin until it was brighter than the pink acrylic that donned my nails. It burned, but at least I was feeling something, right? My heart went a mile a minute and some how stalled at the same time. Eventually though, your skin numbs to the pain and the urge comes straight back.

#stfu #thoughts

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I hate myself. Genuinely.

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#2 - Mine Do…

#i know they dont. #but it hurts less to think they do. #stfu