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I think if I was a vampire I’d be like Nosferatu.

#vampires #vampire #nosferatu #nosferatu1922 #he looks oddly autistic?? #I think it’s the eyes

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All my love and joy to the people who make the marauders playlists on YouTube.

#mauraders #Harry potter #Sirius black #Remus lupin #peter pettigrew #James potter #the marauders #marauders era

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He’s literally so pretty here! Long messy hair, dark circles 🥰🥰🥰

#Spencer Reid #criminal minds #Matthew gray gubler #mgg

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THEY ARE LITERALLY THE SAME!!!! AND I NEED THEM!!!

#Spencer Reid #Zack addy #bones #criminal minds #autistic coded skinny white boys

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need to be so head over heels for someone i puke and get a fever

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god i love coming home and being at home and sitting inside my home and staying home

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grabbing every 13 yo girl by the arms and yelling "YOU LOOK FINE !!!!!!! DON'T SPEND UR ALLOWANCE ON CONCEALERS GO SEE A BAD MOVIE INSTEAD !!!!!!!!!!! BEAUTY IS POETRY AND SONGS AND LAUGHTER W FRIENDS AND COLORFUL LEAVES !!!!!!!!!! GO READ A MARY OLIVER POEM AND YOU'LL BE OK!!!!!!!!!"

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Need a Victorian zombie to be obsessed with me guys.

#lisa frankenstein

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Does anyone else not feel like a real person. not in a derealization or depersonalization way bc i’m fully aware of my surroundings. and not in a low self esteem way either because logically i know i’m generally likable and deserve a good life. maybe more like i’m an alien trying to imitate human behavior and i’m constantly on edge that everyone can tell and perpetually feeling shame because i don’t belong anywhere. like if i go anywhere that hasn’t explicitly been established by someone as a Place I’m Allowed To Be i feel like an outsider who is going to get in trouble even if it’s a public space. because i don’t view myself as part of The Public. or if i dress up nice i feel humiliated instead of good about myself because everyone knows that i’m trying to look good. i am incredibly uncomfortable by the fact that everything i do reveals something about me. every time i talk to one of my peers it feels like i’m constantly pressing the wrong dialogue option in a video game. and every time i do something that is a Human Act in my mind i think of it as though i’m a character in a movie because i can’t imagine it as something i’m actually doing irl. like i just feel strange and wrong all the time and i look at everybody else moving through the world with seemingly ease and wonder how they do it.. how did they learn that they’re allowed the same privileges as everyone else in public. erm well anyways. maybe it is a low self esteem thing but like i said earlier it just feels Different than that to me. this got longer than i thought sorry i love oversharing. Not looking for sympathy or advice just want to know if anyone else relates. 👍

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they need to lock this album in a cage and keep me very far away from it. alarms should start blaring if i even think about pressing play

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This is how it feels listening to The Smiths in your early 20s

#the smiths #the perks of being a wallflower #back to the old house specifically #I would like to clarify I do not like morrissey #but he whines like no other man #can’t believe Charlie is only 15 #morrissey

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bitches love me for my deeply tragic yearning concealed with boyish mischief

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