Currently obsessing over the blue hoodies they had both Jess and Rory wear for the "Goodnight Dodger" scene, that neither of them ever wore again (to my knowledge)... Just for this.
He was wearing this hoodie for their first meeting and then their second meeting (this one), but never again. And I think this was the ONLY time Rory ever wore this, which seems... Significant.
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part of what's so heartbreaking about all of this is, despite the scumminess and scheming and cutting corners and lies that jimmy has been responsible for or complicit in, throughout his erosion and shifting self, there's only one thing he's consistently wanted, and it's a life with kim. it was an office. it was, you and me, is this happening, even if i choose not to take this cushy job you've helped arrange for me, and then, even after i tank this cushy job? it was taking the cigarette directly from her mouth being tantamount to a kiss even when things were too unclear to just kiss her. it was daydreaming about horses and getting a smoker. it was doodling WMs together like a giddy kid with a crush. it was taking her to a fancy open house and giggling when they turned on the shower, the suggestion that maybe someday they could have this. it was admiring her, telling her she deserved to be somewhere where she was valued, where they cared about her. it was letting her in on hurts and vulnerability and vindictive plans, and then trying to give her an out - you'll never hear about things like this again, i know we went too far here - only for her to help, or go even further, or push him frantically against the wall, and him realizing she wanted this too, and all their jagged edges and pieces fit. it was screwing up and being terrified of losing her only for her to say, maybe we get married, and the marriage of convenience and disguise and legal arrangement being something real and true and tender. it's the intimacy in their space, the only times we see them with all facade stripped away, curled together watching movies and eating take out on the couch. she's not in the game, she's not even game adjacent. the only thing that kept me going out there was you. if anything happens to her, i can't do this. it was taking care of one another through injury and trauma - the car accident, chuck's death, the mugging, the desert - through personal and professional setbacks, through jimmy, you are always down, through, i had an urge not to tell you, so i'm telling you. through am i bad for you and implying he should leave, and her defiantly reaching back to hold him tighter, as if she'd let him go after she thought she'd lost him.
they are intertwined in every sense. they have no one else. not family, not friends, not colleagues. no one knows them or cherishes them for themselves except one another. they come from damaged places but make each other's worlds fuller, complete. so jimmy daydreams of them working together, then he daydreams of them having a home.
the sanctity of their home has been invaded and turned red, our color association with the criminal in their world. all that blue splashed crimson. but more than the law, more than simply being alive from one moment to the next, the very worst thing they could ever lose is the foundation of their love. that's (the kind of heartbreak time could never mend...) their something unforgivable. how do you recover from losing the mirror and twin flame of your soul?
they desperately, damagingly cling to one another. when someone insults him, she takes it personally because it's demeaning to the part of her that IS him. it's not as simple as corruption, or one makes the other worse, because that implies they don't already understand one another. it's much more a revelation, of identity, or darknesses, of light. all this, messes and tragedies and comedies of error, all of it is their love story. i did it for kim. they love each other. that's the beginning and end of everything. that's what will be the most terrible to lose.
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the main antagonist of nel arc is kaiser but isagi became kaiser so the main antagonist of nel arc is isagi but isagi is kaiser so the main antagonist of nel arc is kaiser but kaiser became isagi so the main antagonist of nel arc is isagi but kaiser is still kaiser so the main antagonist of nel arc is kaiser but blue lock engages in genre commentary by switching their roles so the main antagonist of nel arc is isagi but blue lock nonetheless exists as isagi’s story so the main antagonist of nel arc is kaiser but
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