#(but that’s a discussion for another day lol)

[nalyra-dreaming]

Some comments on episode 3 / episode 10 - SPOILERS * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Daniel not wanting to eat the living fish…. yeah I can empathize

Raglan James - Is that a real name???? (LOL)

Love the banter

Daniel doubting how many Rashid’s there are… indeed

I like that they’re echoing Louis being away in last season this one as well

The underlying threat of Armand being able to kill them all if he so chose

That audio visualization will become important still I bet

How do you hide from the cloud indeed

Louis being asleep during the day?! Why this time? He was awake during the day before?

“Lestat’s prophetic vision”

Yes, be snarky Daniel :)

Flashback!!!!

Ugh incineration by fire gift

Oh Armand watching Lestat as harlequin - he has it baaaaad

Armand hinting that Lestat has powers he has not touched, and them talking to each other in their minds….

Viens a moi! Come to me!!! There it is! Armand said it to Lestat, yes baby!

And Armand admitting to stalking and then kidnapping.

And I love that they’re doing it all in French - I cannot quite judge but hope it’s well done

mhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh YES I CANNOT LIE I APPRECIATE IT AND I LOVE IT

the time freezing was so well done

Gosh Nicki. Gosh that feeding

to summarize: Liar, liar, pants on fire (LOL), but I love it. Ah yes, great fanfic, I like

Great now I will imagine Lestat and Armand beeeeeeeep in that box for ETERNITY lol

And Daniel… not buying it lol

“He abandoned xyz”… ohhhh there we have it. There we have it (not). The crux of the whole matter.

Louis knows what’s up. Deep down he knows. But them matching the stories is almost cute.

Claudia humbling herself like this to be part of it all breaks my heart

The sneezing made me cry with laughter

Ahhhh the wet room. And the rats. And the tombs. The tombs. Ohhhhh they’re so gonna lock Louis up there later. Oh boy.

“That’s a bit german” re the incinerator !!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Holy shit?!)

God Lestat interrupting that moment. And Armand sensing “Bruce”. Daaaamn.

Daniel getting distracted but the Talamasca. Who have access to his computer. (!!!)

“Where is Claudia at this point” 😔 (and no answer)

Santiago’s maker being down in the tombs is IMMENSELY interesting. WHO THE FUCK IS HE

Also him telling Claudia that her lies are almost convincing….

The “come to me” scene. Even better in total. Oh Louis. Armand calling him out on it.

And the philosophical discussion there. The admission despite the warning. Something Louis ALMOST remembers…

“that’s debatable” - “she did”. Oh MAN LOUIS

“I told you I loved you” - “And you said nothing.” Holy hell.

THAT KISS. the music.

It’s RAW.

God they’re on another level

AND THE PHOTO: Lestat being there… and then vanishing!!!!

Louis knows. He knows. Also that little story Claudia makes up there… oof.

The Bacon triptych - that is so weird. WHO wants to buy it. I BET that’s important.

And Daniel using the time to go through the material and find the proof of the theater burning.

The coven pressuring Armand. I LOVED that. The trepidation. Ugh.

And them throwing Louis out when she is initiated. Does he know of the five laws??????

And Claudia’s expression at the laws. Oh maaaannnnnn.

And I KNEW it!! Armand is playing with the fire there “threatening” Louis. I mean, he ultimately doesn’t, but he ALMOST does. The discussion in the sewers. The foreshadowing once more. Louis calling on what Armand promised, and Armand throwing the lies into his face. DAMN.

And Armand stating that Claudia won’t be there for long.

God I knew the coven would go and humiliate Claudia with that role. I knew it. Damn. Her face.

“The Savage Garden”. The roaring of the fire behind Louis. More foreshadowing.

“Did he break you? Or did you break him?” 😭😭

A century ago. Yesterday. So much pain.

That kiss. And Louis inviting Armand in on the premise that he won’t kill him!!!!!!!!!! Holy shit.

NO PAIN.

AAAAALLLLLLL THE PAIN.

Argh, loved it, maybe a favorite so far. There is so much going on. So much foreshadowing. So much knowledge suppressed, or endured. So much bitter realization. So many things hinted at and introduced.

Also, as clear as it is (and was said in the episode insider) that this is Armand’s little fanfic version… (as Assad how much of it is used to "paint Armand in a good light"?!) :))) . It was a LOT of fun. :)

And that banquet scene will be in the next episode already!! Whoop whoop, cannot wait!

#iwtv spoilers #iwtv s2 #iwtv #amc iwtv #interview with the vampire #interview with the vampire s2 #amc interview with the vampire #interview with the vampire amc #iwtv amc #lestat de lioncourt #louis de pointe du lac #loustat #armand #loumand #lesmand #iwtv claudia #claudia de lioncourt #nicolas de lenfent #iwtv nicki

[genericpuff]

hi, i know the episode came out weeks ago, but i wanted to talk about ep 277 and your essay on it. i thought it was very well thought out and had brought up lots of concerns abt apollo's other victims and the harm persephone caused to others that i just. hadn't really thought about myself because honestly this webcomic is a BLUR to me LOL. thank you for writing these insights and putting them online for others to read ! i think you manage to keep a respectful distance to rachel [1/]

Yeah, regarding how the SA was handled...

I think Rachel did exactly as well as anyone might have expected someone like her to write a plotline like that.

Honestly if Rachel really did want to do the arrow thing, I think it would have worked WAY better if she had used the arrow of hate. First of all, because it had already been established back in S2 when it was shot at him by Psyche, but ALSO because making it an arrow of love confirmed that Eros literally did what Apollo asked despite the fact that he's Persephone's best friend and should have been more suspicious of what he was going to use it for. Why not just do a bait & switch where Apollo is under the impression that it's an arrow of love but Persephone trusts in her friend and pieces it together that it's probably an arrow of hate? It would also payoff the whole "news crew being nearby" thing (as well as all the other gods that just randomly showed up) because uh oh now they all see his true nature and he can't hide behind his lies anymore!

After all, as I mentioned in my previous post about this (the one I believe you're referring to) it's not like there wasn't already foreshadowing that Apollo was going to fall on his own sword the way of Mr Waternoose from Monster's Inc, he was already showing signs of cracking under the guilt that he was feeling towards how he treated Persephone/Eris/Hermes/etc. so why did it have to be Persephone taking a massive risk by sticking him with an arrow of love that still doesn't fully explain why he would even suddenly be a changed man? Loads of people like Apollo think they're in love / define their infatuation as love so I don't see how an arrow of love would suddenly make him empathetic to her pain. Especially when, again, he still begs her not to make him confess, so the guilt he's feeling is still completely empty and unmotivated.

I will leave this with one final thing that I saw the other day that very much reminded me of the Apollo SA plotline and I think it rings very true for the misdirected conclusion of the plot itself:

One of the biggest issues of the Apollo SA plotline, at least in my opinion, is that it never really gets to the root of why people like Apollo exist. There absolutely were strong foundations for this - he's the son of a guy who's known for being a serial cheater, he's popular and egotistical and is used to women wanting him, etc. - but all of those foundations kind of fell to the wayside in favor of turning Apollo into just another boogeyman, especially to lift Hades up as a "good man" by comparison (when Hades himself also falls on this spectrum). But many people like Apollo aren't just random guys in an alleyway or conspiring with some "higher power" that's manipulating them, they're men who fundamentally do not understand consent and assault on the varying spectrums in which it exists from "SA just exists, oh well" passiveness to "I'm an actual monster who gets pleasure out of victimizing women" aggressiveness. I think there's a lot to discuss about how people like Apollo exist WITHOUT sympathizing with them, but LO manages to do neither - not only does it give us uncomfortable and unnecessary looks into the rapist's POV more than we get the victims, but it does it in a way that doesn't actually address the issue of how people like Apollo come to be, it's just "Apollo is the big evil boogeyman who raped Persephone". Not only does it not actually put enough focus on the victims, but it reduces the societal and cultural complexities of where Apollo's brand of egotistical entitlement comes from to just "some guys just be evil like that". Guys like Apollo don't just come out of the womb like that, they're often shaped into what they are by a society that both excuses them for awful behavior towards girls ("Boys will be boys!") and enables - if not outright encourages - them to objectify women as trophies that they're entitled to. Even the seemingly innocent and sentimental practice of "giving away a bride" at a wedding is rooted in these patriarchal systems, with the belief that a woman first "belongs" to her father before being "given to" her husband.

It's the part of feminism that often gets overlooked - it's not just about uplifting female voices and helping survivors speak up about and heal from SA, it's also about deconstructing and challenging the patriarchal systems that lead to SA victims being created in the first place. Sure, Apollo got sentenced to building temples in the Mortal Realm, but what is that actually doing to address the bigger topic of how men like him come to exist in the first place? Especially when it was also treated as a good thing for TGOEM to be disbanded, instead of, idk... reworking it into a women's support group for survivors like Persephone?

IDK, it's a very complicated subject that you can approach from a million different angles, I don't think that my criticizing it should outweigh the opinions of those who were satisfied with the punishment that was given to Apollo (my saying the SA plotline sucked doesn't mean you're not allowed to find your own validation in it) but I do think that, at best, Rachel ended the SA plotline the only way she could because she herself is just not equipped to tackle such broad subjects that require a lot more education, experience, and nuance than what she's capable of writing. There are definitely 1298423108 better ways that plotline could have been resolved, but not with Rachel Smythe at the helm.

And that's my many cents on that.

#lore olympus critical #anti lore olympus #lo critical #ask me anything #ama #anon ama #anon ask me anything

[carlyraejepsans]

ohghh i have a REAL fun idea for a fic but now I'm too excited to actually write it i just keep pacing around my room instead

#trying to do that 3rd person narration types of fic that still keep the talking style of essentially the pov character #(it's sans lol who else) #and i am havingg FUN #me and jpeg were discussing the other day about how it's so hard to imagine sans and chara interacting at all #because of just. how quintessentially alien they are to one another's worldview (in spite of their similarities!) #but i was revisiting an old fic idea i had a while ago and i think i struck on something good

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have a big google doc thing where I keep track of media and stuff (putting everything in loosely ranked categories), which is mostly just for my own reference so I know what tv shows I've already seen before, etc. and I never really look back through it, typically just a quick "okay, watched two movie in the past 8 months, need to quickly slap them somewhere in the lists. okay. done. save document. exit". But today I was actually reading through some of the old notes and there are like... MULTIPLE places where my comment is basically "It would have been good if it were about elves" or "I wish there was a fantasy show made in this same style" or "It's well made, but I just keep thinking about how I would like it more if everyone was an elf or was in old 1700s costumes" or etc like...... lol.... Most biased media ranking system on earth blatantly made by someone with an extremely hyperspecific range of narrow interests. It'd be like if a food reviewer only had 5 foods they actually liked, so they'd just go to a pizza place and be like "eh, the pizza was okay, but I just think it would be better if it was cereal instead. :/ ...2 out of 10"

#Which.. I mean... I am allowed to be biased because literally it's just for my own personal reference (or occasionall #y to send to friends or something if we're discussing the topic) so like.. nowhere am I saying 'I am the god of perfect taste and these #rankings are objectively the absolute truth and everyone should have my same opinion' or anything #BUT still.. it's funny to me sometimes #'Succession would be 100x better if it had the same cast/character quirks and shaky camera style and #acting choices/weird dialogue and general concept etc. EXCEPT it takes place within an elven noble family or something #managing the family business and everyone is in fantasy costumes now'' like.....okay...... but it's NOT that way..soo... thats not the show #''I like the acting style/general tone of Fleabag but i don't care for any of the characters or any of the subject matter and I wish it was #set in the 1800s and had vampires and was about magic instead'' okay..... again... you are making up an entirely new show in that case lol #OR my other beloved typical complaint ''The concept is good but theres too much plot and action and not enough people just sitting #around doing nothing and exposition dumping world and character lore'' ''this needs more goofy sideplots and filler episodes'' #''this Drama was too dramatic I think it should be more lighthearted & people need to sit around doing nothing just being weird more often' #''the Action Movie was ok except for the action scenes - which I skipped through all of- but I liked the costumes and worldbuilding'' etc. #ERM sorry your plot has too much plot. also elves have to be included somehow. bye #BUT SERIOUSLY!!!!!! I literally genuinely believe that any show I like (or even dislike) could ALWAYS be improved greatly by #putting people in fantasy or historical costume/setting/etc... why the FUNK would I want to see bland jeans and cars and cell phones #when I could see elaborate velvet cloaks and fantastical landscapes and interior design and innovative takes on historical or #magical technology or etc. etc. etc. I LIVE in the modern day. I see it all the time!!! BORING! stinky!! boo!!! #ANYWAY... another social divide for me.. People love to bond by discussing media. which is hard when I'm like #'I literally will not watch something at all unless it fits into one of these 10 extremely specific categories which are all i care about i #the entire world''.. I say this and yet I still dislike most fantasy or historical things I've watched lol. ok TWO main criteria then!! #it must 1. be in a different world or time period. 2. be goofy silly. Nothing ever has BOTH. It's always overly serious boring drama action #fantasy/history stuff OR it's comedic lighthearted but with modern day characters... WHY.. anguish and woe and so on.. #ANYWAY jhjnk... at least I can make that divide. Some people seem to project their own personal preferences and get really emotionally #defensive if you say you didn't like something - as if the fact that they DO like it is some Objective Truth or something rather than just #opinion/preference based. I can still easily say ''this is well made/well written/acted/good in a technical sense/has a lot of #points of appeal that most people would be drawn to/etc'' and admit that it's a GOOD show probably. I just PERSONALLY think its #bad because my tastes are very narrow. Some things ARE actually made badly but. things are not bad INHERENTLY just bc they dont suit ME lol #Better to recognize/accept whats odd about you and be peacefully aware of it than just being mad at everyone all the time for not fully #agreeing with you even when you're the one with the Weird opinion in that case lol.. I am right though :3 but.. lol... still. i get it

[saving-people-haunting-things]

Like there's an interesting comparison between how people treat Dean fulfilling his destiny versus Sam. Dean is the Michael Sword. He is a weapon, something to be used. In contrast, the demons want Sam to be a willing participant. Lilith wanted him to actively raise Lucifer, she didn't force him at gunpoint to kill her. The entire point was that he had to choose it. He wasn't to simply be used, he was to be seduced. And I think that difference is really shown in how Lucifer vs AU!Michael treat them as their vessels. Lucifer gives Sam twisted "gifts" because he's a sadistic asshole but also because he wants Sam to like it deep down, while Michael basically treats Dean like a particularly well-made suit or an expensive accessory.

#my commentary #sam and lucifer #dean and michael #i think when some people discuss sam's autonomy being violated they really ignore the nuance of how it was exactly #he wasn't being forced-- that's the entire point-- he was being manipulated #which while it is similar it's kinda different if you're talking about like literary symbolism and stuff #(they also ignore that dean has very similar themes but that's a rant for another day lol)

[foolshoujo]

last wednesday evening my household received news of a passing within our family. because of this my activity may be spottier than normal, i know its already slower due to playing reload, but i want to thank everyone for their patience. next weekend its likely i will be traveling out of state to attend the funeral & say my final goodbyes, i may or may not be mobile during the travel but absent from here or im / disc communication regardless during that time frame.

while kind words are appreciated & im not saying they are unwanted; the best way to help or show support if you want is to just aid in distraction. asks, threads, plotting etc help more for me as a person than a ear to listen. so dont fret over special attention nor avoiding the topic of death that is so prevalent in this series, i'm alright & this online space is a good reprieve for me. again, thank you so much & have a good day !

#( ooc; farllee opens his yap. ) #death mention // #finally able to properly discuss the mood shift as the family is being more open abt it #im a private person by default so i just get a wee uncomfy tryin to talk about stuff even to like irl ppl around me so sorry for #being so vague ! but im mostly ok somewhat overwhelmed but im fine ! #unrelated but i wont be here much during the day today due to a preplanned fam thing that had no relation to this n that will be good #for the brain n for some of the directly effected fam which is mostly me LOL #anyways if theres another tag yall need for this post and the future rbs pls lemme kno ill gladly add it

[bitegore]

god i really forgot that every business management professor specifically is the most unpleasant human being alive for no good reason. i have two business classes with like econ and accounting professors respectively and those look fine and then oh my god if i have to go back to this class with this professor i think i might actually kill myself

#red rambles #she's not. *mean*. she is. um. fucking. i think condescendiing is the word #she made us do a kahoot in class on questions we didn't know explicitly because she knew we didn't know them. i hate kahoots #she went through the syllabus like we were children which. fine whatever every professor does that it's why i hate the first class #but she also kept going off topic to give us life advice. never give me life advice ill fucking kill you #im really not sure what else was my fucking problem but i genuinely felt like i was being psychologically tortured #also i have done one of the several assignments for the class already and they're babyshit but its going to be one of my most #busywork heavy classes and she wants us doing discussion questions every fucking week #and i have to download yet another fucking app for her class #and i need it for my degree plan but oh my GOD. i need to get the fuck out of it #im gonna try and find a different session of the class taught by a different professor and switch in #do you know how much i have to hate a class if im willing to eat two entire finished homework assignments to get out of it #eta. i take it with this professor or i take it with a different professor i know and already know i cant stand #who is also going to work us like dogs unlike this prof who is going to apparently treat us like we are 14 years old #i guess its not college if i'm not being forced to experience psychological torment for an hour and a half every couple days lol #ill just have to like eat something before that class and do my best to fortify myself before i go in and turn evil

[a-dotrivenitupontop]

it’s so funny when terfs are like ‘um actually that trans historical figure was really just a woman dressing up to escape the patriarchy!!1!’ because like.. you mean to tell me a person dressing as a man despite ‘not actually being one’ was a) believed because people knew someone’s gender was none of their fucking business and b) an important contributor to whatever they contributed to + didn’t just dress up to look at coochie in public bathrooms

#also insisting a historical figure can’t be trans is stupid why don’t we look at actual sources that aren’t @wombgoddess1488 #and realise only that historical person could gives us any real confirmation #plus! if you think dressing as a man is the Solution To Patriarchy then you probably don’t have the right idea on what the patriarchy is #(but that’s a discussion for another day lol)

[seventh-fantasy]

what is your favorite film of all time?

21. favorite animated film?

38. in your opinion what's the most overrated movie?

1. what is your favorite film of all time?

here is my top 4 currently on letterboxd. i'm pretty sure the first 2 are going to be permanently there for at least the foreseeable future...MOVIES OF ALL TIME

21. favorite animated film?

哪吒闹海 nezha 1979 hands down! i don't really watch animated films to begin with out of preference (though i should try more at some point) but it is very special to me!

38. in your opinion what's the most overrated movie?

lolol this is the most difficult one so far!!! man, there are way too many movies i do not like/enjoy as much as people seemed to. NOT the most overrated, but one of the representatives for me is f/rewell my concubine 1993, considering its status as ""number 1 of chinese cinema""...... hoping nobody stones me to death at this point :] not saying it's bad-bad, just saying i personally didn't manage to connect with it and the ultra high praises surrounding it.

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movie/film ask bait

#it's a 'everyone finds out about rin's deeply unpopular movie opinions' kind of night (i'm gonna have to answer the other asks another day) #it might actually be quite wild to hear that i love mb 1993 but not fmc 1993. given how much they're discussed in the same breath #always happy to talk about them if anyone wants except my memory is bad so idk how much i can rmb in detail for discussion(?) lol #asks #soliloquize #my posts

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#welcome to another installment of: angel spits out all his thoughts about autism cause if he keeps them inside his head will explode #in today's episode: is it possible that my ''panic attacks'' have been autistic meltdowns all this time? #then answer is maybe! #ok so i was watching this youtube video from channel I'm autisticn now what? (check it out it's great!) #and meg was talking about the different types of autistic meltdowns and how they might manifest #and then in the comments people were discussing autistic meltdowns vs panic attacks and how cofused they used to be about them #and that got me thinking... there's a big thing that needs to happen during a panic attack for it to be a panic attack #and that is anxious thoughts... many people talk about fear of death during panic attacks #and that was never my experience. I don't feel like I'm going to die when I have these ''attacks'' #they feel painful and like i'm completely out of control but my head is quite clear in that regard #i always thought it was because i don't think dying is like The Worst thing that could happen to me so maybe that was why #and it never ocurred to me that it could be an autistic meltdown because i always saw those as ''little boy hits his head against the wall' #(horrible i know) but it's more than that! (plus i sadly started self harming when the ''attack'' is too bad so not i fit that idea lol) #it's the uncontrollable crying. the throwing anything you have at hand across the room. the not being able to utter words #(other than ''no'' in my case) it's the complete lack of control #and that fits so much more to what i experience! i even related to meg's personal anecdote about a meltdown she had as a child #being separated from my mom made me go into full panic modes as a kid and that was seen as a tantrum but it was more than that to me! #and as an added bonus the only therapist i've ever seen in my life used to call my panic attacks ''pseudo-panic attacks'' #because even she felt it didn't quite fit in the description (not that she was a good therapist so i can't put her as an example lol) #but anyways... yeah every day that goes by i'm more and more convinced I am autistic and it scares me to fucking death #because of the way my mom reacted when i first raised the question. so yeah this is for nothing lol nothing will change in my life #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #angel talks #personal

[mad-hunts]

what chess piece represents you?

the black knight.

you are a black knight, the black sheep, the underdog. as the only piece that can jump over others, you can easily get yourself in and out of situations - always catching people off guard with your charisma and cunning. you move in the shadows, trading information with shady people, getting the upper hand through not always good methods. how far do you think this road can take you? for all your charisma or cunning, lies can only get you so far. one day, that mask you've put on will slip, and you'll be left defenseless. but until then, oh black knight, live like there's no tomorrow - because there might not be.

tagged by: @divingdownthehole.

tagging: @lvebug, @twcfaces, @talentforlying, @forensisch, and anyone else who might like to do this quiz!

#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings. #rp memes. #wow... these quizzes really can be surprisingly accurate at times huh? LOL #i was watching a show today and one of the quotes that was within it REALLY resonated with me whenever it comes to who barton is- #as a character. it was ' tell me from the moment you were born have you ever told the truth? ' because barton really does lie like a rug- #y'all. and although he may think that people don't notice it if you know his ' tells ' then you'll find this out rather quickly. #he did grow up in an environment where he had to learn to lie to survive which is extremely unfortunate but i feel as if there- #have been multiple chances for him to unlearn that behavior and heal from it but he hasn't taken it. either because he doesn't know how to- #or because barton just simply doesn't feel remorse for lying all the time or perhaps a mix of both. idk BUT #barton may put on the persona of the ' charismatic but slightly awkward doctor ' in front of ' normal ' people but- #that's just what it is. a persona. and he always ALWAYS makes sure he has an ' out ' out of any situation he gets himself into pretty much- #so the fact that this quiz pointed out that he gets himself in and out of situations easily is... also accurate haha #but yeahhh. for all the risks that barton takes on the daily i would not be surprised if it catches up to him one day finally- #and he pays the ultimate price for it. because like the quiz states... it is an ugly truth that tomorrow is not guaranteed. #one of barton's least favorite topics to think about is his own passing though so he hardly ever does it. in fact he fears it #but that is a discussion for another day (':

[be-the-glenn-to-my-maggie]

Real quick PSA for the followers, just to make sure my positions are clear on some issues and to make sure I am not causing any unintentional harm (that devolved into a minor hiatus):

-If I'm intending to talk about something specific, I'll mention it, I promise.

-I do be forgetting that you all recognize me on both my A03 and my tumblr. It is surprising to me every time. I tend to be vERY flippant on here, especially in my tags. I think we have reached a point where I should be more careful lol. I am not used to having an actual effect, so if I have an effect you don't appreciate, or I say something hurtful, please please bring it up to me! Dms, anon, replies; idc, I'm always down for a conversation.

-I am not in the business of apologies I do not mean, and I certainly do not back down from my opinions, I think that's been fairly clear. So, if I apologize it's because I mean it, and that won't change.

-I make a lot of posts that are critical of fandom culture in a lot of different fandoms, and culture around specific characters as well. I want it to be very clear that unless I am directly interacting with another user, then the criticism should never surround anyone specific. I never want to direct hate ever, unless I'm tagging.

-If there are questions about the appropriateness of my headcanon posts in response to asks, that can be changed. I would really hate to be making my very small community uncomfortable. I had thought I was fairly clear on the blogs boundaries and what I think is appropriate, but perhaps I haven't been careful enough. Please feel free to address issues with me, or to block me. That is always an option of course.

Uh, that being said, I might take a couple days. I have used this blog for fun and friends since 2015, it's not my first time fucking up nor will it be the last. But, it's upsetting to me that my blog might be harmful to some (who I hadn't intended it to be harmful to, it's always been an active warzone for irredeemable character excusers lol, since 2015). The queue will go on as usual but no new posts for a bit while I figure out if things need to change. I'll respond to DMs tho, probably, bc I'm obsessed with my mutuals.

#rip to the finish the asks today mission I was on #i'll probably feel less bummed tomorrow hopefully #but i have disturbingly strict morals for some reason and it makes me upsetty spaghetti when i feel like i wasn't living up to them #but again; this is not aT anyone please god i'm simply wordvomitting #what i said got me here and that is my fault of course and thats fine that's a non issue #i just am now worried that i was being harmful before that #my therapist also named melissa is gonna love this #i have a list going of things i think we need to discuss and before today it was “i should be diagnosed with something” #“is it bad to keep peer pressuring my mom to get a new dog” #and “what does it mean that when my mom folds my clothes i have to refold them like marie kondo” #now we finally have a real topic lollll #that kid at work better not say everything is my fault when i make him wash his hands again i might loose it #that was a joke for claritys sake #gimmie a day or two to put back on the armor back on lol #i am moral and always have a clear well written and opinionated answer that i feel strongly about #and won't ever change my position on and everything i do is for the good of the oppressed #that armor #hubris is the ultimate enemy of self doubt #that is another joke #melissa og #melissa bullshit

[gracetoldmeto]

@temporarydaydream sent in this question ages ago and I loved it so much that I wanted my answer to do it justice. 

Dude, I ate this question up I loved it soooo much, I will be going hugely overboard on this answer because I have THOUGHTS haha

For reference, this is the post...

Also, I know you didn't ask about Matt but Im including him here too (for good reason, you’ll see) and ALSO I am nowhere near as well versed in L as I am with Mello and Matt, so his description may be a bit more brief.

....

Wammy’s Boys and Asexuality Headcanons

(ft: L, Mello, & Matt)

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L:  Aromantic/Asexual (Sex-repulsed)

Oddly enough, L was the most difficult to write for.

L knows that the title of “L” needs to be what everyone thinks him to be. Very little emotional personal life, a need to be perfect or “pure” in a sense (something something Lawlight foot scene and how its a biblical reference yada yada) and a career-focused life dedicated to detective work.

This outlook was likely introduced to him, as well as the other children at Wammy’s at a very young age, but L knows he is simply best fitted to fulfill that standard. He took on the title because it worked for him. He is able to function with less "distraction" than others simply because a romantic or sexual connection is not what he personally values. Only justice is.

Which means he chooses to value refining his skills in his free time, rather than seeing it as work. That's also why Lawlight exists. Light is the only other person able to keep up with L, and both of them value each others intellect in a personal and possibly emotional way. L's values are in his work and no one was ever able to really empathetically understand him until Light. And in a way that understanding and appreciation is intimate enough, especially for L.

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Mello: Demiromantic/Asexual 

Like L, Mello’s lofty standards for self-achievement are reflected in his sexuality. And a big reason as to how Mello is able to dedicate his entire life to his cause is because he does not have to “deal with” the “affliction of sexual attraction” (if I were to put it in his words). 

However, unlike L, Mello is not sex-repulsed in the slightest. Well, not in a typical sense. Mello has a pretty active sex life but not for the reason some onlookers assume him to be. Mello specifically and exclusively uses his attractive appearance and sex appeal as a tool and ONLY as a tool. Whether it be to obtain information for a job, or just as a no strings attached stress reliever, Mello has gotten in the routine of using sex for a non-sexual purpose because of the one-up it gives him. It him feel powerful and in control in an area many others would feel exposed. 

Consequently, Mello actively avoids sex in his personal relationships because the idea of a sexual relationship has been tainted due to his unhealthy use of the act in his line of work. And that can also be difficult with his demiromantic alignment, if he doesn’t know how to express his feelings. So I think Mello represses. A lot. Which brings me to his relationship with Matt.

I’ll get into Matt’s details next, but Mello is in fact capable of having romantic feelings for Matt, but his actions have left him stuck without a way to communicate that in a way Matt understands. We have an epic stalemate of love languages between the boys and it’s often a train wreck of a miscommunication because neither is capable of meeting the other’s romantic needs without compromise. And Mello already doesn’t do that well.

Mello already does not feel sexual attraction to begin with (even if we ignore his questionable work relationship with sex) and Matt would never dream of trusting a stranger to share a bed with him. They are circles of a Venn diagram that will never naturally intersect.

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Matt: Greyromantic/Demisexual

Ah Matt. I see him as very similar to myself, so I usually base a lot of my HCs for him around my experiences.

Matt is complicated. He is Mello’s foil in a lot of cases, but in terms of their sexualities, they conflict in more ways than they agree. Specifically because Matt exclusively cannot feel inclined to have sex with anyone unless he knows and feels safe with them. And that is rooted in a lot of trust issues, especially including when Mello abandoned him at Wammy’s. But specifically, Matt would much prefer to feel safe in everything he does, and being in a vulnerable state without trusting the opposite party is just not something Matt can do comfortably.

So when we look at that in the context of his near-lifelong relationship with Mello we run into a massive problem. Matt wants to express his feelings in a more sexually intimate way, whereas Mello actively avoids that in personal relationships in which he is emotionally and romantically invested in. The only way Mello intends to communicate intamacy is in asking Matt for help in his work. And that leads to A LOT of the tension we see between them. 

If Matt wasn't complicated enough, his crushes are usually people he knows as close friends, but not always. However the shortest crush Matt has ever had was about 4 months. The longest (excluding Mello) was 4 years and was on a friend he lost touch with after an unrelated falling out of their friendship.

He almost never acts on his feelings but doesn’t exclusively fit the demiromantic description. The demi label confuses him immensely and is the source of a lot of insecurity on top of his confusion and anxiety around his relationship with Mello, so he falls more into the grey category.

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***I am not an expert in this (I’m still learning) these are personal observations and opinions as a questioning demi if I say anything offensive, please let me know and I will correct it, I mean no ill intent here just well-intended character analysis***

Hope this answered your question! Thank you SO much for asking, I had a lot of fun writing this up <3

fin

#i am SO sorry this took so long #over the last 3 weeks ive been in 2 different countries 4 states and was sick with covid for a solid 7 days #when i got this ask i jumped on it i even got to discussing with @mamaturtle but i didnt have my laptop with me AHHHH #another disclaimer im not ace BUT im trying to come at this with a demi/greysexual lens since thats what *i think* i am lol #death note #L #l lawliet #mello #mihael keehl #matt #mail jeevas #dn #dn mello #dn matt #matt x mello #mellodramattic #lawlight #mail jeevas x mihael keehl #mihael keehl x mail jeevas #l x light #wammy boys #wammys boys #my writing #asks

[ayakashibackstreet]

Went to a place where alcohol is served and was so brave about it. I obviously didn't order anything, my friends ordered a beer and a spiked lemonade of some sort so that we could sit there.

When they suggested the place, I immediately stated 'I don't drink though.' to which one of my friends responded with 'Chill, I'm not drinking today either, spent enough money today.'

When we were going, I said that I might actually just go home, but they were so chill and understanding that I decided to stay with them in the end. 'Seriously, you don't have to drink, we're just gonna try out the cool board game I bought.' 'Don't even worry about it, it's not like we're going there to get sloshed, or even drink, really.'

And there was genuinely no pressure, no asking, no nothing. We literally did just try out the board game and it was really cool.

With how strong the alcohol culture is here, with how many family members and random people insisted on me drinking or got blackout drunk around me (with no way for me to escape) despite my goddamn trauma, I'm just so genuinely moved? They have no way of knowing what's up with me, I never told them. They can only suspect something is up with the way I never go with them whenever they meet up specifically 'to go to a pub'. Yet they're way more understanding than my own damn mother.

This is such a basic thing - respecting people's boundaries - yet here I am, getting sappy about it. Man, I love my friends. I really got lucky, many people don't get to hang out with their friends from grade school like I do.

#if I ever manage to overcome this trauma even a little #it'll be with stuff like this #alas! I get back home to discover my mother just HAD to get drunk while I was out for the day! #and she just HAD to start throwing weird comments my way! #at least she fucked off when I went to my room #anyways love to my friends #walked so much #my joints still hurt even though I took my meds #though it's pretty dull compared to what it was earlier and I should be able to sleep #had so much fun #got in a heated discussion about VTuber modelling funnily enough lol #ah yes. a passionate discussion: one man who's never done a model before #vs another man who's never made a model before & a man who's made about 1.5 a model (aka me) #anyways now it's REALLY eepy time

[halforcdad]

really saw someone call lucy immature and compare lucy not telling kate she was looking for a new apartment to lucy getting upset at kate for not telling her why she made the move from DIA to FBI (to point out the hypocrisy of not communicating) like what is context

#ncis hawaii #i hesitate to call the discussion around the sneak peek discourse and blow it out of proportion but y'all LMAO #not every slip-up in communication is a huge problem thats just real life i thought we wanted imperfect characters #comparing lucy getting upset bc of the big reveal that kate cared enough abt her to stay in hawaii and turn down a big promotion #after a looong day of compounding emotional turmoil and thinking kate was gonna die #does not really compare to lucy doing this and not telling kate #and lucy wasnt mad at kate for not telling her she was moving to fbi she was mad bc kates whole thing was keeping secrets #and not being upfront abt feelings and how much their relationship meant to her until it was too late #looking for a new apt probably is a thing you would normally tell your SO to be fair but like #this is obviously supposed to be a feel-good ep for kacy and i feel like some of the talk around it and esp lucy has not been in good faith #its just one sneak peek but fandom is all about over speculating and discussing and theorizing and i love that #but some ppl are a little too quick to dogpile on lucy always lol #i also dont think lucy masterminded that as her way of telling kate to get a reaction #bc she seemed genuine when she said is everything okay and pleasantly surprised when kate brought up how often shes over #like lucy probably thought this was all nbd just another thing i have to do and wasn't even thinking abt moving in but obv im speculation #might delete this later i didnt expect to get so spirited over the discussion #I was focusing on lucy saying her life is just work gym and kate like wow thank u for my life #communication is always a work in progress whether youve been together for 5 months or 50 yrs

[punkwixes]

also i need people tagging that mask post with “actually i hate masks, i’ll wear them because i have to but i need to remind everyone that i’m the specialest person around and i haaaate wearing masks” to remember that they can just: Not Participate In Posts! sometimes you are not the target demographic for a post and that is okay!

#it is SO ANNOYING. #i think discussions abt not liking masks & wearing them anyways have a time and a place but that’s not here! #also i think it’s sooo funny to be like ‘oh so nobody else here has sensory issues with masks i see!’ #doubly funny because i’ve had multiple people do this to me when i make an innocent comment like ‘lmao i love not having to smile’ #or ‘lol i love when ppl don’t know i have piercings’ #like. yes! i do! it’s like. i have sensory issues with the seams on Almost Every Shirt I Own. i still wear shirts every day! #and many of the shirts with Bad seams are still my favorites! #i also think this is another one of those things where it’s like. these people are seeing posts from people they follow On Line #and assuming that people who just LOOOOVE wearing a mask is the default #(for reference: despite my sensory Issues i’m a person who just LOOOOVES wearing a mask) #and feel. that their experiences are not being Considered #but it’s like. hating masks is the default. actually. the world is full of those people. #outside of my friendgroup everyone i know who still wears a mask (we gotta wear them at work) whines about it #the world is full of people who think they are the exception!!!! #people who are like ‘yay masks!!!!’ are not running victory laps around you lmao. we’re just having fun.