#- he clarified autistically

[theshriekingsisterhood]

The way I SPRINTED to my computer to make this the second Risky showed me this textpost

#what we do in the shadows #wwdits #nandor the relentless #Nandor #Autistic Nandor the Relentless #Autismposting #deadass i didnt even have time to rip HD screenshots I needed to get this baby OUT #a more Nandor ass post has never before been made #Obviously Nandor doesn't know wtf Autism is bc hes a nearly 800 year old vampire #In my mind tho Colin Robinson called him Autistic once and Nandor just assumed it was a complimentary adjective akin to Awesome or Majestic #'Guillermo which of these capes makes me look more Autistic?' #'Guillermo is that not the most Autistic painting of a horse you have ever seen?' #Colin Robinson wasn't saying it as an insult also just to clarify #Just as like #a neutral descriptor #which obviously applies to Nandor #Risky I love you and your brain it is huge and wrinkly

[milimeters-morales]

I don’t really have the right words but i like the idea of Hobie doing quick checks for people’s safety without even really moving too much, as both a skill learned from his childhood and just a way he would be anyway. Like let’s say Gwen is calling him and she’s crying but sounds very detached. Hobie’s gonna do a quick mental checklist like this: (Injured? -> Alone? -> Aware? -> Show up -> distract as hiding weapons -> calm her -> check speech -> move location? -> check for injury) and it gets more complex as need be. He’d do this with all his friends and the people he helps in general, and it’s a quick and barely noticeable process unless he tells you he’s even doing that, which he usually doesn’t. I also like to think he was kind of doing this when he was talking to Miles on the way to meet Miguel, just very toned down (for him).

#like. you know how people keep you talking to keep you distracted and your body ends up giving away a ton of info like that #miles has a nurse mom and is so nursebug to me. so he can also do this but purely medical not mental health really besides do u wanna talk? #so he can pick up on what hobie’s doing sometimes #but yeah hobie does this whenever he thinks his friends are in serious danger of hurting themselves #and i think growing up the way he did (in the comics) really. made this urge to protect and check stronger but he keeps it leashed. which #is such an unhobie thing to do but there’s a fine line between control/not trusting and concern for wellbeing yknow #and he sees leashing the habit as the lesser of two evils really #anyway i realize how autistic this kinda looks. i was actually trying to achieve the opposite but yknow how it is with me #wait wait to clarify i don’t think miles is bad with helping with mental health i think he is just not as experienced/good at it as Hobie+ #might be in his sorta cold hard truth learn to live with me way #hobie brown #spiderpunk #spider punk #m&m posts

[catboyrichardkarinsky]

*last night*

my dad: you know what's tomorrow?

me: the ides of march

my dad: that's when caesar was killed

me: i know

my dad: how?

me: everyone on tumblr celebrates it yearly

my dad: because they're a bunch of autistics?

me: well yeah

#ides of march #to clarify he knows I'm autistic and talk mostly to autistic people on the internet

[aq2003]

horrific news. i loved rex is not your lawyer and i'm sad there isn't more

#i would kill rex if he existed in real life but he is so entertaining to watch #tbh he has all the traits of a Quintessential David Tennant Character #a) neurotic little freak b) probably autistic c) bad at masculinity d) terminally bitchless e) genuinely intelligent behind the cringe fail #like the 'smart but terrible around other people' trope can be done VERY wrong a lot of the time #but whenever david does it it's so good. that one post was right he could play sherlock but b*nedict c*mberbatch couldnt play the doctor #edit: i probably need to clarify beyond the 'horrific news' but there are so many issues with just this pilot writing wise #and i get why it didn't get picked up. but in the alternate universe where this show is real #i wouldve watched it. loved it. rated it 3 stars on letterboxd

[septimus-heap]

Big fan of the idea that marcia genuinely is completely unaware that she's autistic and just thinks everyone else is being weird on purpose. Like she knows abt autism and that it exists but that's kind of it. She's absolutely convinced she is the most normal person in the room at any given time

#sep talks #marcia overstrand #septimus heap #I hc that it's septimus who for whatever reason ends up reading a list of Autism Symptoms #and hes like huh this sounds kind of like me. But this sounds even more like marcia #when he brings it up she's like what r u talking abt. I am literally so normal. All of the things on this list are normal things to do #(septimus like YES they r normal IF U R AUTISTIC) #and then she goes off and does her own research and then she comes back like okay I see your point now #and in conclusion she doesn't do anything about it #to clarify she doesnt have like internalised ableism she's not in denial #she just genuinely believes she is the most normal person and everyone else is weird

[freakwiththeknifecollection]

Aromantic autistic Sam. Yes I will elaborate

#TO CLARIFY. I'm not against him ending up with someone endgame I want that for him I'm saying he doesn't experience romantic attraction #aromantics can be in relationships aromantic doesn't automatically mean never wanting a relationship #I'm just saying the attraction isn't there. Sam doesn't seem bothered by the fact that he's single that often. he's pretty content with it #it comes up sometimes. but more often than not when Sam brings up the idea of the apple pie life it's about Dean and not himself #not that Sam never thinks about that for himself. but for the most part Sam longs for normalcy and stability #also I realize why it didn't work with Amelia for example and it's not cause he's aromantic that's not what I'm saying either #autistic sam winchester #aromantic sam winchester #sam headcanons #spn headcanons #I didn't mention anything about him being autistic here but I can elaborate

[monstertsunami]

WAIT TELL ME ABOUT TRANS FEM YURA (hcs him as the opposite)

YESSSS THE MOST IMPORTANT ASK OF THE CENTURYY

i have a looottt of thoughts about yura and repression.. like there is no doubt abt it hes already a repressed bisexual just add some unaddressed gender feelings in there and its. the perfect mixture.

like a LOT of my lgbt feelings for pafl revolve around the environment that theyre all in, which is. generally not very good.. misogynistic and homophobic and you know. with all the toxic masculinity that comes with that. im kind of interpreting this all as the source for sergei's weird stoic toxic masculinity, nikitas misogyny, and yura's.. everything because! these things dont exist in a vaccum! these characters were raised in Not Good environments that fostered these behaviors and that is fucking interesting!! it adds depth to headcanons!!

(this is why i dont really pay much mind to pafl trans headcanons that r compliant to canon genders bc personally i believe their character arcs would be heavily affected by transitioning in that environment.. i save that all for post-canon funsies yk. other than olya who is mysterious enough to stealth and temnova whos too cool for gender obv)

anyways anyways anyways. yura is the most repressed thing out there he copes by dating around and evey other vice known to man bc he wants to be so fucking normal and deep down he KNOWWS he isnt.. good lord. he just wants to completely ignore all his gender and sexuality feelings so bad like. theres something fucking wrong with him jesus christ im going to hit him with a car. god. hold on i have a source

YURA WOULD YOU LIKE TO SHARE WITB THE CLASS WHO WOULD BE GOOD FOR SANYA. A GIRL PERHAPS. cough cough. he has so many fucking complexes about romance and sex. he sleeps around bc thats what HE sees as important in the male ideal (alongside stoicism bc we all know how well that went for him) and he is fighting tooth and nail to try and be a guy and repress anything that might suggest otherwise. body dysphoria is complete hc but tell me it wouldnt fit seamlessly with his character.. guy (girl) that hates himself so so fucking much

#i probably have . more thoughts than that but i am running on 3 hrs of sleep o7 #i might come back to this when im more coherent.. #btw if you wanted to know. transmasc butch sanya transmasc ace katya transmasc butch sergei #transfem olya and temnova but this is known #OH AND . TRANSFEM DIMAAAA!!! #either way on dima works flawlessly i believe in temnova helping him transition during his time in the facility #(<-transmasc dima i didnt clarify) #and olya helping hook him up w hormones when he escapes.. ough #*pats dima* this autistic thing can fit so much transgenderism in this #the good pafl end is where everyone comes to terms w their gender and transitions freely #boss makes a dollar i make a dime thats why i answer asks on company time #schizobabble #pafl #yura #pafl yura #OH MY GOD I MEANT TRANSFEM BUTCH SERGEI I CANT EDIT TAGS OR REARRANGE THEMMM

[alltimewhat]

being a schizophrenic th fan genuinely fucking sucks more than anything ever

#the way the Entire fanbase treats someone who is (supposedly) schizophrenic is fucking exhausting #TO BE CLEAR: i dont view it as like. an excuse for actions etc etc #but the fact that i feel the need to clarify that says enough about the way the fanbase acts about it #no a schizospec diagnosis (if thats what it even is) does not excuse grooming kids. believe it or fucking not. #and it also doesnt make someone inhuman or impossible to communicate with #and also you dont have to “save” or “fix” a grown man who needs an actual real world support system #that DOESNT JUST EXCUSE HIS ACTIONS (matt) #and ESPECIALLY you dont have to brute force send messages to him through weird and unusual channels that would like #very easily be seen as fucking threatening and scary to a schizospec person. if i had an account and a stranger was fucking #uploading shit to my account through a loophole to send me a message i would be freaking the fuck out #it would absolutely induce an episode #it just astounds me like. how a fanbase that is full of people who are like. autistic adhd etc etc. just absolutely refuses to treat #schizophrenia with respect or the care it deserves #also its even more frustrating seeing another schizospec person ALSO treating him like a zoo animal+studying him like a lab rat #just ignore the fucking guy block his account stop giving hiim attention stop talking about him #he uses the attention you give him to do the shit he does that ends up hurting people #can you people just acknowledge schizospecs as human and also use your fucking brain and stop interacting

[ocarinaofpride]

we have to have a discussion about how horribly read hermes’ character was by the ffxiv community bc Why is he the one guy that everyone loses their media literacy when seeing him. what the fuck is so different about him that he got like cast aside in favor of other characters 😭😭😭

#ive been meaning to gush about how lovely his character is #and how important he is to me #and kinda go into his personality / disabilities (thatre very obviously there) #bc hes so. so so autistic to me but also clearly struggles with anxiety and depression #and the way he interacts with others… #and has a canonical safefood/hes very picky… #he is Juust like me /j #but seriously though hes awesome and more ppl need to realize this #ffxiv hell posting #no. this isnt about fandanny i am strictly talking about hermes elpis guy #should clarify that

[nazumichi]

fighting for my life trying to convince myself that people in my life don’t hate me for the unforgivable crime of uhhhh. asking for things.

#raii talks a lot #my brain does the equivalent of putting a hand on my shoulder and going “no it went bad. you’re evil” bestie i did naught #it’s like that comic #“i told my friend that i want him to use tone indicators and clarify whether he’s joking or serious sometimes because even though we’re goo #friends and joke around a lot sometimes i really can’t tell and it’s not reflective of anything bad on either of us but i think it’s a #reasonable request and will improve the quality of our friendship” “christ you are extremely fucking selfish DIE” “i am autistic” #it went fine i just get worried when it comes to friends sometimes. like really worried all “ohh my only two friends hate me” bitch false #probably not the best place to talk such a personal problem but fuck it we ball

[aintashes]

i just finished season 8 of t/wd tonight and i have hand written over 50 pages of notes.... daryl my beloved.....

#i've filled over half of a notebook. someone save my poor hands #i should clarify that my notes are not all just about daryl and that i care very much abt other characters LMAOOO #he's just......... the One u know #i overanalyze his scenes like any good autistic enby would #they're hugging in minecraft! ( astraea )

[lilnasxvevo]

I will say. That I saw someone the other day, and I don’t remember who and I’m sorry if it’s someone who follows me and I want you to know there’s no hard feelings, saying that they didn’t get why LWJ is the character everyone latches onto as being the most obviously autistic when (other character, I honestly don’t remember who) is more obviously autistic in a way that isn’t, like, clearly influenced by his upbringing and the rules of his sect.

And I kinda disagree with that because like, yes it’s true that Gusu Lan is Autism Heaven in many ways (and autism hell in others, as I imagine that people who have trouble controlling their volume have a bad time in the Cloud Recesses, and also stimming in public is pretty much explicitly not allowed in Da Rules), but Lan Zhan is…how do I say this? Significantly more autistic about it than the rest of his clan.

I don’t have the brain juice to make a full big post about it right now but Lan Zhan has problems with black and white thinking that the rest of his clan struggle with way less, and he sticks to the rules way more strictly than the rest of his clan who are more willing to bend the rules when it comes to making nice with other clans or just making things easier for themselves (and in this I’m kind of on Lan Zhan’s side—what the fuck is the point of the rules if you don’t follow them??). Lan Zhan is very very rigid in his thinking and gets equally upset by someone breaking an minor rule as someone breaking a major rule. He also seems to struggle with unspoken social rules that Gusu Lan definitely still has, and sometimes faces disapproval for failing to follow these rules that are not written down.

He also speaks equally formally regardless of social context which is not true for other members of Gusu Lan, leans waaaayyyy into the vague rules of his time period that keeping your eyes lowered is polite in many circumstances and uses those rules to avoid eye contact whenever possible, and avoids verbal communication whenever possible, as if it is difficult for him.

Is he the only autistic-coded MXTX character? No. There are lots. But he IS so so so autistic and I love him so much.

#this looks bad when paired with my previous post so let me clarify: #Lan Wangji being obviously autistic is one of the only ways in which I DO connect with what’s happening in his brain #all the ways in which he’s the weirdest guy of all time are actually mostly unrelated to the autism #the autism I understand.

[andthebeanstalk]

Every few hours or so, I see something that makes me feel aggressively in love with autistic people as a whole and I just have to somehow deal with that and then like, remember I made tea.

I'll see posts from strangers that I never intend to follow up on or dig deeper into, and usually it's just, like, the simple things, like... bro, did you just see a photo of a train and then identify the exact make and model of that train down to the smallest possible manufacturing detail for no other reason than you could and you wanted to, bro??

I am in love with you, bro. I am kissing you on the mouth. I am picking you up by the waist and twirling you. I am serving you warm fresh butternut squash bisque on a crisp fall day in our backyard. I am cherishing you always, you beautiful son of a bitch. You legend. You fucking precious sunbeam of human life who deserved and deserves the best in this unnaturally cruel and dark world.

I am holding your hand through the years, bro. I am cradling your soul in mine through the long long storm until we've finally made it somewhere soft.

I will make this world soft for you. I will start with myself.

Your face is aging and yet you grow more beautiful each year. You give off your own light. Did you know that? It doesn't hurt my eyes at all. It is warm. I am proud. Unspeakably proud. The light on its own was always enough.

I watch every evening as the gentle sunset reflects its soft gold into your eyes. It never gets old.

I long for nothing more than to see you alive and at peace.

This is a thing I could never regret fighting for.

Oh my god I made tea

#adhd #autism #autism positivity #autism appreciation #autistic pride #original #fav #everything everywhere all at once captures this adhd vibe exactly #i don't need to know anything about this person because i never even bothered to read the name this is about a concept #- he clarified autistically #I may have also been having some feelings about my partner this week. very positive gay feelings. in case you couldn't tell. #love that autistic bitch i pulled by being autistic #'I long for nothing more than to see you alive and at peace. ' is probably the rawest thing I've ever written #this is about you in the same way that any good poem is about you. #and i meant every word.

[gingaswag]

having creative parents is cool but sometimes annoying in a way I can't really explain to anyone. Like how do I explain "man I'm tired with my dad infodumping about his sentient rat world book" in an everyday conversation lol.

#to clarify I like hearing about his rat world #it's just that he can really go on about it at times #and I love him but the story is very 'redditor writing' in nature if that makes sense. #the joys of having 3/4 of your immediate family members being autistic lol

[albeitinzane]

incredibly ironic that my undiagnosed father reposted a tweet about how undiagnosed children continue to go undiagnosed because their undiagnosed parents think that neurodivergent behaviors are normal. i couldn't make this shit up if i tried.

#how does he NOT KNOW that he's autistic #it drives me insane #autism #let me clarify that i'm not diagnosed #i got evaluated but the psychologist said i didn't have it??? #none of my friends (who are all autistic) believe her #but i don't see the point in getting evaluated again #it would just be a waste of time and money

[crabs-nonsense]

Something I love is my mom's romantic relationship. Like her partner and the ways they interact are both so wholesome and amazing. So you guys are gonna unlock some lore here.

Over two years ago my dad cheated on my mom and she said their relationship was over, because that was a rule she's always had for herself, once a cheater always a cheater. After that she started dating her current partner in a long distance relationship. They are an enby who lives in Norway and the two of them met on tiktok because they both cosplay the marauders era from Harry Potter.

In the two years they've been together my mother has gone and spent several months visiting them and meeting their family twice, once for summer and once for winter. Their family loves her and regularly invites her to things even though she can't attend. They video chat pretty much daily and text constantly. They've seen eachother at their highs and lows and been there through it all. An extremely funny fact is that my mom started learning Norwegian from a 6yr old with a very specific dialect and a speech impediment, because her partners son mostly speaks Norwegian with a bit of English.

Anyways the reason I was thinking about this is that yesterday I was in a voice chat with my bsd cosplay friends and my mom was across from me talking about the paperwork for getting citizenship through marriage with her partner. And I'd said she doesn't have to be engaged for a long time before getting married, which very much confused my friends and I had to explain. So it's been on my mind lol.

I love that they've talked about the steps needed for all of us the get citizenship, and how to get my sister and I onto disability there. And they even told my mom they might get a bigger house just so we can all still live together. They also send us Norwegian candy from time to time (sending things to the US is super expensive so it's not very often). They also send all her kids presents both randomly and for birthdays and Christmas. I have a crocheted pokemon plushie from them that I absolutely adore.

But yeah despite my mom being completely done with my dad he spent a year and a half trying to "win her back" but in like a really semi toxic roundabout way that all of us could see would never work except for him. And he only this year finally moved out of the house. Divorce papers FINALLY got filed and we all know he's going to drag it out and fight for full custody just to spite her. So because of that my mom and her partner are only dating, but mom has said the moment the divorce goes through she wants to take a small trip to Norway so we can all meet them in person and she wants to propose in person. Her partners son (again he's six) insists he's planning their wedding (they've never said anything about getting married to him), and he collects rocks and shells every time they go to the beach to use as center pieces for the tables.

Another thing is that with the safety of trans people quickly fading here they've also talked about how if things get bad enough that we are in danger here, we can all go to Norway. Like they told my mom if she suddenly said hey we're getting on a plane and will be there at x time, they will get their family together to get large enough transportation and housing for us (I have 4 siblings so there's 6 of us in all).

And and and!!! They are also disabled and have been since they were a kid. They don't have the same issues my sister and I do but they do have joint problems and chronic pain just like us so its been amazing to be getting first hand advice for a lot of things. They are so amazing i can't wait to meet them in person and give them a hug honestly.

#long post #story time #i love my moms significant other soooo much #sorry i just wanted to ramble about this but didnt want to bother anyone so its a tumblr post instead of a dm aha #to anyone whos heard me talk about the whole physical abuse trauma from my dad id like to clarify here that my mom didnt know about that #i didnt acknowledge really to myself that i had physical abuse trauma and that it wasnt all normal until last year #and he never did anything as extreme when she was around so she never saw it happen and i guess we all assumed she knew so never said much #but after they separated and she would talk about stuff with the oldest two kids (my brother and i) we mentioned something about it and #she was very upset about it and it is a huge part on why she wants full custody of the kids #anyways yeah #someday i will go to Norway and if im really really lucky i wont have to come back #the US government is not good and would rather i was dead so im very much not interested in staying here aha #being trans autistic and disabled was not a good call here but alas it was not my choice #sorry for the rant #crab says words #im completely normal :D