#AND I DON'T WANT TO BE TAKING THIS CLASS

[francisforever2014]

okay now i’m in such a bad mood bc i was in that class that i never go to for that “lab” (literally just a worksheet) and she told us to work in groups but i was like i’m just gonna do it on my own so i can just get it done and not have to deal with the awkwardness and annoyingness of doing one easy ass assignment with multiple people . and then this sorority girl saw me by myself and was like can i join you :) and i was like fine she seemed nice enough idc . and then this OTHER guy asked to join and i was like WHATEVER so they’re on either side of me and i’m writing and i get nervous with people watching me write and think so i was being a bit awkward and they were really close bc of the chairs so i was just uncomfortable in general. but we move so we get through the assignment and it’s fine but like it would have been better by myself bc like i said i have a really hard time thinking when people are just staring at me so i was having trouble explaining my thinking and stuff out loud + i'm super tired but like . i knew the answers and i was literally the one writing everything down while this one guy got to just say the easy answers and i was the one having to actually transfer it down and elaborate . so we finish it and he’s going over the work and he’s like second guessing my shit all the time and insisting we ask the prof about something and i was like . fine i get it it’s your grade too so at this point i’m just annoyed bc i really just wanted to get this done and if i was on my own i could be done by now and i’ve had such a long day but WHATEVER i get it.

so anyways he asks the prof and lo and behold in right. big surprise. but while we were waiting he was like what are you guyses grades in this class and i told him that i have a 96 and he was like REALLY????? like fuck you omg. and i was like yeah 😐 does that surprise you and he was like haha idk you were just struggling with the answers haha and at this point i'm pissed bc like . first of all i literally wasn't i did the entire lab for us i just wasn't in the mood to explain everything out loud and was right about things that he was fully wrong about. and second of all that's so rude?? and he was like questioning me like what did you get on the tests etc etc and i told him i got all A's and he was acting so fucking shocked . and to top it all off that sorority girl literally just stopped talking halfway through our lab and just got up and left the second i wrote down the last answer like i should've erased her name omg. and i should have asked that guy what he has bc the way he was acting i'm sure it's less than mine . and i should have showed him my 4.0 too like omgggggg i didn't even want to work with you in the first place

#AND I DON'T WANT TO BE TAKING THIS CLASS #its my last gen ed and i'm just trying to get through it but it keeps pissing me offfffff like why tf do i need a natural science credit #im a mf liberal arts major #sorry for this everybody i want to rant to is busy so you get this

[mokeonn]

"But if college was free, then people would abuse that and get useless degrees" hell yeah I would! If I could go to college without debt I would make it my job to get a degree in every little thing that interested me. I'd get a doctorate in film studies. I'd have a bachelor's degree for every science I like. I'd try to learn at least 5 languages with varying results. I would learn something "useful" like coding and then follow it up with a ""useless"" degree like art history. I'd be the world record speed run holder for getting every degree possible.

But I can't afford college without going into massive debt, so instead I spent the last 5 years trying to figure out what I am passionate enough about to consider going into debt over, because unfortunately being passionate about everything is extremely expensive to pursue.

#simon says #i love learning so much and I hate the USA's college debt system #once they make that shit free I will be unstoppable #this topic sprung up because I had the idea that im very academic and annoyingly analytical that I might as well get a degree in it #because without a degree you just seem like an autistic asshole #but with a degree? then you look like a CREDIBLE autistic asshole #don't worry I will still learn but I still want that funky piece of paper to tell everyone I learnt it #also there's some things that are VERY difficult to learn #like I would love to persue this topic further but unfortunately I would need help with that #also before you say 'try taking [blank] classes instead! it's less expensive than a degree!' im broke #my only learning resource is the library sorry about that #also this is not the post to give me unwarranted financial advice #finances are one of the topics I DO NOT care about and I WILL NOT listen to a word you say

[birdmenmanga]

I think there's no greater indication that disco elysium is sympathetic towards communism when it literally says "communism is failure" and then the literal gameplay itself rewards trying and failing. The most obvious one being the Shivers check at the FELD mural, which is an Impossible 20 check BUT opens itself up again and again the longer you spend in the world doing things, but even just looking at sheer probabilities, for any given white check, rolling first and THEN putting a point into that skill upon failure is more likely to grant you success than putting a point first and then rolling, but that would require failing first.

Other things too: Precarious world saying you'll 100% fail red checks no matter what (not necessarily a bad thing, btw!! throwing the boule into the sea is a success but like. in some other ways one would want a perfect petanque throw instead. but people wouldn't typically assume that failure is desirable sometimes from the start) persuading you to accept that you'll fail some things that is irrevocable, for a world where everything is just a tiny bit easier.

The faux game over screen when you faint after reading Dora's letter— emulating a sense of failure on the scale of the entire game. When it rolls up most people go "What?? Game over?? No way, what did I do wrong!!" and waking up after that, with no huge or lasting impact on Harry's health or morale really tells the player, "Sometimes things will seem so bad that it all seems like it's coming to an end, but it's not the end, it's really not the end, go drink so water, you can still go on despite this failure"

I'm sure there are other things as well that are eluding me but like. The literal gameplay rewards failing and succeeding far more so than simply succeeding every single time, and I think you get a fuller experience of Elysium that way too

#just thinking thoughts... #disco elysium #idk man when did we get so scared of failing!! #people never want to speak in class because 'what if I'm wrong :(((' #well then you are wrong... that is okay... it's normal to fail... sometimes saying the wrong thing is a great way to jumpstart a topic... #'getting a good grade in X is both normal to want and possible to achieve' #okay sure but have you made peace with the fact that getting a BAD grade in X isn't a bad thing? #a bad grade in being friends... okay... so you didn't check up on someone in 3 months... you failed... that's fine... #you can learn from it!! you can learn how to keep in touch with people. how to take care of them when they're sick. #how to resolve a dispute. how to communicate and compromise. these are all things you are not born with #and will fail first before succeeding at #Like yes I get that in the age of surveillance your failures may be recorded and preserved forever and that's not great #but if we don't normalize failure I really think we'll just suffocate and die

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

you cannot tease wei wuxian and hua cheng hunting for funsies and not show that to us??? it has to go one of two ways right? either an absolute visious blood bath where everyone cowers in fear or the equivalent of a teenage girl's slumber party. both??? both.

Hunting each other for sport is the keystone to a fun slumber party

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #tgcf #wei wuxian #hua cheng #I was so happy to get this ask because it have me the perfect segue to show these two being silly together #This comic also kicked my ass while trying to draw it....I have learned a lot while gasping for breath outside of my comfort zone #action scenes are hard....help I don't want to look at this ever again..... #But yes. These two would have a lovely time being *silly* ^_^ together (actually winding up for a sparing match). #Then go right back to being very casual and chill. They have lots in common! #Both of them love to fight and would be thrilled to have a partner for it. Then talk about paint mixtures. #How long LWJ and XL take with their cooking classes is up for interpretation. But these two are frolicking the entire time #Everyone loves being hunted and hunting. That's what tag is all about. This is just tag with swords. #I hope everyone enjoys looking at HC's bare feet. He puts those cold puppies on Xie Lian every night.

[qqueenofhades]

Unfortunately, I have once again gone ahead and applied to graduate school.

#hilary for ts #school stuff #yes it is the second MA i was kicking around a while back #yes i had to choose between the two programs that both wanted me #yes i will be working full time in one college of the university and taking classes part time in another one #don't look at me i have nothing to say for myself

[fromtheseventhhell]

I don't think anyone who believes Arya is focused on revenge has ever actually read her chapters, it's just been one long game of telephone where people repeat a take they heard so they can pretend they know what they're talking about

#arya stark #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #and usually the evidence is that she's with the faceless men?? when it's been made clear she's with them because she has nowhere else to go #this isn't even subtext it's literally just what written plainly on the page but people still have trouble understanding it #Arya's focus has always been to return home and to her family and that hasn't changed + won't change in the future #if she truly wanted to hunt down the people on her list then why hasn't she ever thought about doing so?? #or thought that she wants/needs to stay with the faceless men so she can learn their skills to take revenge? #people act like we don't have direct access to the character's thoughts and try and fill in the blanks based on assumptions and vibes #I challenge anyone who thinks this to give me any actually evidence to prove that Arya is solely focused on revenge #need idiots who lowered the curve of their english classes to stop speaking on complex characters they can't seem to comprehend #like Arya isn't the one poisoning a disabled child cause she was told she'd benefit from it worry about that instead of speaking on her

[sergle]

Hey Sergle, how does one learn how to draw? Like, I am in my 20s, can barely draw a stick figure, and feel overwhelmed whenever I try to look up tutorials. Do you have any advice on how to start?

my Unprofessional advice on how to start in earnest, is to do it the way little kids do when they start learning to draw! which is to not approach it as learning at all. sitting down and scribbling out whatever comes to mind, reading a book or watching a movie and trying to copy the way the characters are drawn. draw a page full of cats. do it while you watch tv. doing all that w/o the Grown Up impulse to be embarrassed that you're new at a skill.

#I don't care if this advice isn't structured- i think this is the more fun way to learn! #I could send you a masterpost with links on tutorials and How Tos and Beginner Guides For Dummies etc but that's not.. the way I think #that it should work. #you could take a class or follow tutorials you find on yt and that's fine too. but like you said #it's overwhelming that way. bc then it feels like homework. and then it feels like there's a Certain Way to do it #and if there's a certain way to do it then that means there's a wrong way to do it. #oh the second part of this advice is to use physical art supplies. digital art is amazing #but traditional art and the practice of putting ink to paper is satisfying in a tactile way that digital art isn't #and you don't have to Set Up any art program to have the exact like. tablet settings you want #idk baby you should just pick up some art supplies that inspire you and get the ball rolling #steal some watercolor from hobby lobby if you must! paint some flowers. or some shit! have fun! #sergle answers

[clonerightsagenda]

Didn't add a generative AI statement to my syllabus because I thought "none of my assignments play to those tools' strengths, using AI wouldn't work and would be really obvious" but lo and behold the students are using it anyway. It's not working and it's really obvious.

#writing feedback to a student like hey. you submitted a list of citations published in the future. how did that happen #like guys. you are PAYING for this class. all I want is to help you practice the skills #I would not even assign grades if I didn't have to #posting an announcement going I'm not going to punish you for these tools bc I didn't forbid it #but I WILL take points off if you keep submitting sources that don't exist #at least check your work

[musicalchaos07]

Anyways, so incredibly unrelated to anything but I genuinely think if we had just one scene in s3 where Jonathan said something along the lines of "I can't afford to lose this job" before the fight it would've done so much in terms of the audience understanding him better.

#we do not talk about the class dynamics of the Byers family #i hate to say it but media literacy is dead #and being shown that Melvalds has no customers and him saying he didn't want to get fired isn't enough #they needed to tell the audience WHY before him and Nancy get into that fight #bc ppl love taking Nancy's side bc she was right about the rats #but that's not Jonathan's point! #and i get it i love that boy more than anything but he does tend to take it too far #but there isn't a right or wrong #anyways no one wants to hear about poverty #and the burdens Jonathan faces because of it #and not understanding that is why people don't understand Jonathan #i could fix it (st 3) #jonathan byers #stranger things

[sciderman]

I'm a lesbian and I'm pretty sure you'd beat me. I present more masc but ain't no way do I have the strength

i am made of toothpicks and tissue paper

#BUT. i'm taking big gay boxing classes this year. so watch it. #sighs. my old boss tried so hard to sign me up for mexican wrestling classes. he knew me to my core. he knew it was my calling. #but they're not running those mexican wrestling classes anymore. kicks the dirt. #anyway i've never been in a fight and i would like to get into a fight. i want to scream and punch. aren't you tired of being mr nice sci. #don't you want to go absolutely apeshit!! !1. ! 1 #sci speaks #sighs. i remember as a kid the only thing i ever begged for was for my parents to sign me up for a karate class. #and when i finally got them to do it. the first class i accidentally shut the door on my hand AS I WAS ENTERING for the first time #and it was so bad i cried and had to go home. and i didn't go back because i was so embarrassed i couldn't show my face. so lame. #so im a weak little pansy made out of toothpicks all because of that stupid DOOR THANKS A LOT stupid DOOR. #lame lame lame LAME LAME LAME LAME!!

[brown-little-robin]

AUGH

#Robin processes emotions on main #so for my honors project I HAVE to print out copies of my poetry chapbook. and I HAVE to do it with the Official Campus Print System. #and the Official Campus Print System only prints things that are made using PROPRIETARY DESIGN SOFTWARE #that not ONLY would I have to pay multiple tens of dollars a month for #it isn't even compatible with my computer apparently. #WHAT IF I JUST DROPPED OUT OF THE HONORS PROGRAM RIGHT NOW. WHAT THEN. WHAT WOULD THEY DO ABOUT IT #SIIIIIIIIGH #I hate not knowing what I'm doing!!! #I don't usually get angry at anything but this is making me angry because it's so POINTLESS #just let me print my stupid poetry book in PEACE 😭 I'd even bind it myself if I had to!!! #I would actually be seriously considering dropping out of honors right now except for 3 things #1) I do want to finish writing this chapbook. I do want to physically produce it (though I'm frustrated with the requirements for that). #2) I'm working with my favorite professor on this project and I don't want to give up that experience #and 3) if I lost these 2 credits it would mean I'd have to take a whole nother semester of a summer class. and pay for it. yikes.

[essektheylyss]

I am obsessed with how narratively convenient Lark's divinatory abilities are. She's the only one of the protagonists who is both pragmatic and has a working sense of self-preservation, so having some internal impulse that is actually the guiding hand of the cosmos pushing her into doing the REALLY stupid shit is both necessary and really useful.

Like, I am the type of writer who kind of scoffs at the idea that characters are beyond the writer's control and will completely screw over your outline, because on one hand, a sensible outline will follow the characters' personalities and tendencies anyway. Obviously in an ensemble cast you will need to do some wrangling, but in theory your characters are responding to varying degrees of stimuli in order to maneuver them into the places you need them to be for things to all come together in the end.

But more importantly, "curse from god" is the funniest and easiest way to push any character to do things beyond the realm of reason when necessary, and frankly, what the fuck is the point of playing god if you don't embrace that?

#midst podcast #midst spoilers #cr meta #anyway at all times I am advocating for taking full responsibility for your characters and overall story #this is also why I laugh at those posts like 'um if you're not going to treat your characters right then you shouldn't get custody of them' #sorry babe there is no CPS in my head. I am the cruel custodian and these are my poor darwinian orphans. #that's a joke but really like. look. yeah sometimes you gotta fabricate scenarios to make characters do what you want #but like... you do that by going 'who is this character and what would it take to push them to x'??? #and especially in an ensemble cast sometimes that thing is 'curse from god' or 'divine insight' #fun fact: I LOATHE that post about 'my writing teacher made a joke that the characters are driving and the writer is locked in the trunk' #absolutely fucking hate it. #because THE WHOLE POINT OF FORMALLY LEARNING WRITING IS LEARNING HOW TO BE INTENTIONAL. #it is perfectly possible to write successfully without ever having a formal teacher but IF YOU HAVE A FORMAL TEACHER. UH. #like yeah yeah 'workshopping' but like. okay go build your own workshop group don't pay somebody jfc #(cuz it's not like most creative writing teachers know how to teach you to workshop. let's be fucking real.) #if you wanna learn how to workshop take a script class for the love of god. #ANYWAY rant over but I'm correct. the highest purpose of a writer is to be a control freak and to play god.

[front-facing-pokemon]

#registeel #and now this guy is maybe a bit less interesting. from this standpoint‚ i mean. the eyes being just dots make it a little hard to like #feel *connected* to them when they're ffp'd‚ y'know? i feel like it's kind of a reductive angle. which is why i zoomed this one and the last #one out a bit. so you can see a bit of the rest of their body. it's maybe less funny but would it really have been funny to just see 7 red #dots on a gray background and have to read the tag to know it's registeel? i dunno. maybe. maybe it would've been. but i like this more #maybe the explanation is that i'm taking these pictures myself. i personally know all these pokémon and have to ask them if i have permissio #n to take these pictures of them. but registeel said i couldn't get too close. so we settled with this. hehe yeah that's why :) hehe :) #anyway. you now have the aegis cave theme stuck in your head #hi it's me from the present. saturday morning. in yesterday's queued post i came up with the idea of maybe doing a monotype run of a pokémon #game. i don't know which one yet but i wanted to do water-type. but i was like. maybe i'll liveblog it on my main blog. yesterday #and today i came back and saw those tags as i was queuing up today's 'mons and i was like… hell maybe i could stream it if enough folks are #interested. but if anyone is then i didn't want to wait that long for the queue to get to that post bc that's gonna post on like. august 18 #and class for my last semester of college Ever starts back up on august 21st and i don't. know if i want to start another pokémon playthroug #h that close to classes starting. especially not one where at least one (1) individual out there might be waiting for it So i put 'em here #they'll still be on that post but. they're here. just in case someone out there is chronically bored enough that that's something they'd be #interested in. y'never know there's a lot of folks here #anyway i will now queue up kricketot. see you then… or i guess see you whenever if you like send in an ask or a message or smth…

[fictionadventurer]

Slotting The Long Winter alongside North and South as a book about life in the nineteeth century that counts as a sci fi because it explores how technology affects the lives of the people whose society depends on it, and explores what kind of duty a man has to care for his own business vs. that of the community.

#preliminary thought is that north and south is kinder to the poor and more community-minded #because there's a lot of stuff in the long winter about how you need to care for yourself and not rely on others #or the scenes where the guy's like 'why should i have to give up my seed for folks who were too dumb to get their own supplies?' #and the response is 'of course you don't have to. of course we'll pay you for it' #as if letting people starve would have been a valid option #but then there are scenes that push back against it #namely the scene with the storekeeper trying to pricegouge the wheat #(contender for new favorite scene in the book) #where they show the other side of capitalism/free market #where of course you have the right to charge what you want #but get too greedy and the community will remember #so it's in your best interests to be decent #and now that i put it that way WOW is that a cynical take #but it's still a nice moment when they make the storekeeper change his mind #but anyway it's kind of interesting that the working-class take is more 'every man for himself' than the genteel english take was #the long winter #north and south #little house #laura ingalls wilder #elizabeth gaskell

[anglerflsh]

#[.art] #self #not exactly a pride post this is more a ''I don't want to be doing this'' post? #I don't know I think being around people in my class just shows me how much the internet is a bubble about these things. #people still are very much homophobic and me being out as queer in my school is only fine because I don't talk to people/ #/or at least because I'm first to make light of it. #The climate here requires an amount of making yourself socially acceptable- to be a good example let's say -because there are consequences #and it makes me- you know that comic going around? about the rabbits and wolves? Yeah. #And I can be told that I should not care about being pallatable for society a million times it will not change that I do want to be that #I know many people are empowered by being combative and loud and by not taking steps down about their identity and it's great for them! #I'd just rather not. I'm not living down the God I Want To Be Integrated In Society allegations I guess :/ #I'm never getting that but you know. I can dream /j

[7hyein]

read tags ;--;

#soo ermmm im not that type of person who likes to say these stuff but errrrrt #i decided i might quit tumblr cuz it's kinda actually ruining my mental health a lil bit #and school is driving me crazy like there's so much work to do #and i have to take exams for 2 more weeks + i have online classes on saturday too 😨😨 #SIDE EYE #if I decided not to quit then I might take a LONG BREAK FROM TUMBLR ;--;;. #anyways I'm not gonna make new mbs tho #I'm gonna post my old drafts that I've made before instead #sorry if u guys don't like my new mbs . 🌚 #and what bothers me is that I mostly spend my time on tumblr instead of studying #🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚 #and I might fail my exams cuz of that reason ;// #i DO not want to get yelled by my mom for failing 🔥🔥💯💯 #if i fail my moms gonna take away my phone n i don't hv access to my tumblr acc #ughhh i hate my school for giving me to do exams ffor 3 weeks straigjt #THIS SUCKS #ARGHJEHEHEBB #i study like everyday #i haven't got sleep for like 2 days cuz of the ugky goofy ahh exams #TMR EXAM WEEK CONTINUE AGAIN. 🌚🌚 #manifesting that I will pass ECONOMICS 💯💯🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 #PUKU PUKU POW POW RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 💯💯💯💯💯💯💯🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 #AND IM GONNA START BEING IA #I'LL POST 5 OF MY OLD DRAFTS TMR MORNING. #and the fact taht i still HAVE to study during the time I get to school #SORRY FOR BAD ENGLISH UGHHH #I'M DEAD #Я МЕРТВ 🔥🔥🔥🔥💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯 #jumps off a cliff #🌚🌚🌚