#Estatic Fear

[fuzzyminte]

roasted s’more

#epithet erased #molly blyndeff #ee molly #molly ee #fuzzy arte #inktober #its for the fire prompt! done early because it was also combined with a school hw prompt of fear #fear and fire? oh boy #free real estate. for me in particular #rare that i work in black and white but i think it turned out good :] #i actually gave her fingernails and i like Never draw fingernails so :0 ! #yayyy :3 #click for higher quality it may look like ass since its scribbly

[lunarharp]

things.. uh... Gentry era au

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i wanted to leave the first images separate but it means they're not looking at each other any more......This aint right #i was reading pride & prejudice and what if oru was like a Mr darcy type figure. yeah. sure #is miss qifrey going to kidnap the 4 poor orphan children whom he is governess to. We can all live in mr oru's estate <3 #There will always be four there will never end up just being 3 i will make it be 4 i will rescue coco in every lifetime. #have thought how qifrey is a bit like mr rochester (jane eyre) though what with keeping secrets and going blind. anyway #maybe that's just because i wrote my fic and the idea of a combination of betrayal of trust & increased disability sits heavy here #& the sadness about how fictional disability often exists alongside narrative punishment and how i fear for qifrey every day and i love him #one good thing about posting art online again is that i really had little drive to bother scribbling little comic type things just for me #then there are things i feel less inclined to draw now that im in Posting mode again. oh life is very mysterious is it not

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Bro I was reenacting the "Just So" clip while I was putting away the dishes and when Frank yelled at Barnaby I was gonna say "oi fuck you" y'know because I was being silly but what came out was an almost PERFECT imitation of Barnaby's voice- I couldn't even finish the "fuck you" because I broke down laughing

Btw the reason this is so funny is because I'm a 5'2" Latino AFAB with NO experience in voice acting whatsoever yet for some reason the spirit of Giant Blues Clues decided my vocal chords were the PERFECT place to set up real estate

Anyway peace and love

HAGHASBCAKJSCNAKLD I WHEEZED

#the spirit of giant blues clues were the perfect place to set up real estate #PLEASSSSEEEEEEE #how dare you people come into my inbox and be leagues funnier than me- #fuck now i really want to hear barnaby's va say 'fuck you' In His Voice... what i wouldnt give... #i think it would heal something in me! i can imagine it well enough but to Hear It... #but yeah thats so fucking funny. peace and love Indeed! #rambles from the bog #i actually had a similar experience once if you dont mind me uno reverse carding you #when i lived with my mom i made a game out of trying to scare her #so one night shes downstairs in the dark. messing with the printer by the light of the stairs #and i am not a light person by any means. but im fucking Quiet. i regularly sneak up on my cats #so i snuck up behind her- #and im afab w/ no experience in va too. my voice is a lot higher than id like it to be. #but holyyyy shit when i said 'Hello' - STANDING RIGHT BEHIND HER MIND YOU!!! - my voice dropped Several octaves #im talking roadhog from overwatch level deep. deeper than mark introing three scary games #im talkin Downright Demonic The Devil Himself Possessed Me deep. deep as the marianas trench #to this day i have never startled or scared anyone that badly. she literally almost fell over. i saw true fear in her eyes #so. 🤝

[hiboulu]

⚠Novel spoilers⚠

The comic is about that arc so spoilers up to chapter 304!

And the next drawing is about chapter 327 (with a screenshot of that escene because it just hurt a lot,,,)

#tged spoilers #the greatest estate developer spoilers #tged #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #javier asrahan #my art #the fact that javier first thought was that lloyd could choose to stay in seoul and not come back so he was ready to drag him back #and lloyd all but wanted to just go and return as quick as possible while having a fear of getting stranded #that being said. im still not okay from the emotional damage the jewel of truth arc gave me #no i will not shut up about lloyd thinking 'was my existence itself a nuisance?' that chapter destroyed me

[lloydfrontera]

lloyd being an only child, losing his parents and then getting a new family he loves so much he's willing to die to keep them safe is something that can be so personal actually

#i talk a lot <3 #tged #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #it's about. him going through one of the worst fears any only child has and then coming to love another family that loves him in return and #him being willing to do almost anything so he won't have to lose it again.

[bidonica]

Hey! I see you're into fragile/higgs ship and caught myself quite like them too recently (tho i've been in DS fandom already for a year and mostly thought about them as a friends)

Just wondering why do you like them? Do you have any headcanons/interesting thoughts? I'm very curious 👀

Hi! First of all apologies for the wall of text you're about to get, but unfortunately you came knocking at my door after I spent nearly two months ruminating about this ship basically by myself sooo I'm dumping it all here

Well the short (lol) version is that in my first playthrough I mostly just absorbed the characters and storyline, but by the time I got to their final scene on the Beach I was like wait a minute... their whole shared storyline feels way too loaded for them to simply have been business associates, that shit is personal, even Higgs wanting to damage Fragile feels way too pointed to just be justified by "he was a turncloak with a secret agenda." Now, I'm not against a "they were simply close friends" interpretation, it works just as well to explain the emotional weight of their falling out, BUT I also cannot ignore the zest, the flavor, the spice of them actually having been involved romantically at some point. And honestly going into my second playthrough with the shipping goggles on I can't help thinking that Fragile speaks about Higgs like he was an ex that hurt her, and the way that she is suspiciously cagey about the specifics of their relationship makes my ears shoot up like a German shepherd.

On a Doylist level I also find it interesting that Kojima gave Higgs extra backstory that connects him to Fragile in the Director's Cut, and also how the behind the scenes for the DS2 mocap show Troy and Léa sharing a scene... I think Kojima is not done intertwining their story and we'll get more info in the sequel.

Now for the headcanons... I have enough that I might or might not be writing a long-ish fic about it, but I want to finish this Director's Cut playthrough before completing it (I could just look stuff up on the wiki but that's not fun). Also I have some art in the pipeline about it that I hope to post within the week. Anyway, the bite sized version of how I envision their relationship:

I hc Higgs as being immediately attracted to Fragile but not really acting on it, while she develops her attraction after getting to know him a little. Then she's down bad but she doesn't even realize it until it's so obvious it hits her in the face

A few people at their joint Fragile Express/whatever Higgs' operation was called co-op assume they are an item long before anything ever happens, because they just hang out together a lot. They have a similar penchant for corny jokes and puns and enjoy some light banter; Fragile finds Higgs' flair for theatrics endearing, while he is drawn to how gentle she is because he has known so little softness in his life (also he thinks she's insanely pretty, which duh. It's self evident because Léa Seydoux) (it's his first serious girl crush anyway; I hc him as bi and as having had mostly experiences with men before her)

They bond over their DOOMS condition and Higgs is fascinated by Fragile's powers, while she is less enthused by all the collateral effects. In my hc, at this point she has yet to become as skilled at traveling through dimensions as she is in the game, which makes her reluctant to agree to Higgs' requests to show him the Beach. This sows the seeds of his resentment towards her, because he feels she has a privilege she doesn't make use of and doesn't want to share.

They are both pretty touchy feely (canon!) so when their relationship goes from friendly to romantic it gets physical immediately and enthusiastically. Yes even accounting for the worldwide lowered sex drive. If there's one thing I never do is put characters in horny jail 🫡

 I think Fragile got to know a version of Higgs that was quite different from what we see in the game, which you sort of can gauge from the more optimistic pages of his diary. Like there's a part of him who's starved for love and connection and a sense of belonging and gravitates towards people like Coffin (he never had a mother) and Fragile herself; ironically, the pull towards Amelie answers to the same need but in reality it feeds on his more nihilistic, call-of-the-void side. I'm not saying that Amelie brainwashed him or anything, but I think she saw what was already there – a  deep seated resentment towards a hostile world and towards those he feels got handed a luckier deal than he did, that he countered by clinging to the notion of being special because of his DOOMS, but then there's someone like Fragile who's even more special and doesn't seem to be doing much with it. Amelie gave him a chance to fulfill what he felt was his potential and shared her power with him, but the tradeoff was severing  the connections he had, "killing" the part of him that wanted to be loved to make space for what he perceived as a higher form of love ("I found someone who completes me" which he says to Fragile specifically like he wants to rub it in her face? Like she wasn’t  enough to fulfill that role?)

That’s why I think it’s significant that he lost his hands with his power-up, because the (holding, welcoming) hands are strongly associated with Fragile; and to me it makes sense if he purposely ruins her body also because it’s a way to stifle his attraction to her. There’s also a lot of projection because HE is the one who’s felt like damaged goods all along, who grew up being  crushed psychologically and physically. I also think that both of them coming close to annihilating the other but choosing not to – leaving them in a dicey situation but not entirely without escape – shows in some twisted way that their bond still exists, which makes me giggle and rub my hands like a nasty little goblin knowing we have another game coming.

So… That’s the gist of it. Sorry for rambling on but as I said, I don’t really get the chance to talk about this ship much – greetings from rarepair hell, etc.

#replies #death stranding #fragile x higgs #higgs x fragile #greetings from rarepair hell #embarrassing amounts of mental real estate have been allocated to this... The mental illness is in full display i fear #i dunno they just make so much sense. to me #and i just enjoy the inherent tragedy of it all because i love to make myself suffer

[owlbee-writing]

Helen Richardson vs Helen distortion

#door lady solos your fav real estate agent #haha my sillies (​fears beyond mortal comprehension) #gaslighting gatekeeping and girlbossing her way through the apocalypse #Helen is the 1 jmart shipper #the magnus archives #magnus archives #tma #helen distortion #helen richardson #the distortion #the spiral

[zorosdimples]

i kind of alluded to this in all of the asks about childe, but one of the precious few people who know about your relationship with him is capitano. and i don’t mean that the first harbinger knows of you; i mean that he knows the most intimate details of your relationship.

#i’m plotting this scene where he visits the estate and meets you for the first time and at first you’re scared bc childe is wild card #but this man—ostensibly his boss—is bigger and masked and just… oozes authority. but he’s nice to you #he doesn’t tease you like childe does. and he’s gentle with you. so and you take to him like a moth to a flame. #he sees the fear and rage that’s laced into your being and tells childe that he needn’t be so rough all the time— #look how pliant you are with tender affection #but all childe sees is red; he doesn’t take his frustration out on capitano. he takes it out on you after capitano leaves. #after all: no one knows you like he does. #tw yandere #cw yandere

[optiwashere]

I'm literally Bilbo staring at the One Ring while I think, "I've got plenty of time to write a second chapter for Blades in the Night... it wouldn't be so bad, would it? What's 7-10k words between friends? I could leave it finished and expand on it whenever I have an idea for it... Who could it hurt?"

Meanwhile, I stare at one of the many half-finished one-shots in my docs and think, "Oh, I could do that this weekend most likely... and then I could write another couple k for Nightsongs if I just skip a few hours' sleep..."

Madness begins at the fingertips, I swear.

#random rambling about writing #and Blades is already a part of Light Casts a Shadow so like it's free real estate #my drafts folder is just chaos right now #the minthara/lae'zel is haunting me and I fear I've hit a block on it >:( #the nocturne/shadowheart vague concept as well; i sigh because I still don't know what I want to do with it

[chiropteracupola]

all I wanted was a restful night’s sleep and instead my subconscious presented me with a comparatively well-written three-act horror movie

#em dreams stuff #hitting lots of the major fears such as: #disbelieved by everyone about the problem that’ll kill us all #loved ones succumbing to something that leaves them physically unchanged but internally hostile #downhill skiers preps and real estate agents #a dead man’s journal recording his various suspicious discoveries (also his own murders) #an incredibly strong supernatural force that will Get you and Is in fact more likely to do so the more you know of it #and of course: a semi-immortal pig with mind control powers and a taste for human flesh

[dailyblackkalev]

Daily Black Kalev: Day 4 - Disapproval 3:

I got distracted by the new dead estate update and didn’t realize what time it was so here’s black kalev looking at me disapprovingly for being late on today’s drawing lmao

#fear and hunger 2 #fear and hunger #fear and hunger termina #fnh #fnh2 #black kalev #dead estate is so good guys please play it

[the-busy-ghost]

In addition to cormorants, seals, and a horse and trap regularly clopping down the high street, this morning I was delighted to discover that my neighbours have employed a goat in their garden

#Earth & Stone #I've always been worried that they would tidy up and ruin that garden #Granted everything needs managed but it's always been a bit of a nightmare that one day #I feared they might pave over the whole things whereas right now it's a wonderful haven of flowers and wildlife #But a goat? That's by far the best possible outcome; it's even an improvement #Honestly this town is just a nice balance of humanity #Could I do without the drunks screaming at 3AM? Yes but in a new housing estate you never see goats #We're all just existing here and it's lovely #Even if the other neighbours over the street do feed the seagulls which is insane #It's like a spare bit of Fife that the developers and the curtain-twitchers and SUV brigade forgot #But at the same time it's not as Quaint TM and pretty and expensive as the East Neuk #It's the dandelion of towns

[curiousorigins]

So we all know about the older generation freaking out about the birth decline right? And that one of the reasons has been that they're worried about not enough people around to care for them in their old age.

(Hence one reason why supposedly there was a push to revoke Roe V. Wade because that would magically solve it. [even though lots of women died of birth related complications prior to Roe and now people are literally getting themselves sterilized to prevent that fate.])

But anyways, I have a new theory, it's about real estate. If people are truly dying faster at a significant rate than people are being born, then one, a lot of us will be inheriting property. Two, there may be an excess of real estate very soon, if birth decline trends continue.

What is one of the hardest things in a person's life to attain, property a place to live. Which has definitely been used to control people.

There's also a fact that real estate up until fairly recently was considered one of the safest ways of investing money. Most people would rather sell their home than not pay their mortgage.

What are the two ways that rich people make money without labor or control their workforce (if they're even business owners at all.)?

In interest, via people paying for their mortgages and in owning and renting property. Who's going to bother renting if there's a bunch of houses? How worthwhile will their many acres be if there's a ton of empty houses? Their land won't be gaining value just by existing in their names anymore.

If a true excess of houses happens, then the main money in real estate ventures will actually be in repairing them, maintaining them, and customizing them. All jobs that would be considered blue collar work that actually requires real labor.

The rich people paid various analysts to say that a declining birth rate would make the old people not get care (Which makes sense because the party that serves the richest also tends to be voted for via old people.) So they chose a fear that most of their voters would care about to take advantage of...

But yeah, it's about real estate and banks and not making interest anymore for doing nothing but holding onto resources. Also obviously the less people there are, the more valuable all laborers would be too. When there's more people than jobs, that's an employers market, right? They can lowball their workers and the workers have to go for it because they need a place to live and eat. Where there are more jobs than people, that's an employees market. Where the main negotiation actually favors them, because they are hopefully empowered to know that the company needs them more than they need that company.

#Capitalism #U.S. Politics #Mentions of Roe V Wade #Birth Decline #Using fear of dying old miserable and alone for their propaganda #Real Estate #Property Rights #U.S. Banks #Worker's Rights #The Proletariats vs the Bourgeoisie #Also this is very much the argument about college too. #College Admissions got harder when the average person began to be able to afford to go to college #Because the rich wanted to keep that less accessible... so they had one up on their impoverished counterparts. #But doing so all blatantly went against the ideals that supposedly the country is founded on...so they found another argument. #America is a Plutocracy masquerading as a Meritocracy. #The American Dream sells the idea that if you work hard you will be rewarded and become part of the elite class. #(But we know that's not correct.) #When your body is your only means of attaining wealth... your ability to gain wealth is directly dependent on your health. #And your health can go south by means entirely out of your control at any time. #Anyways there's nothing scarier on earth to those people than a level playing field. #Because it may put their wealth in jeopardy and definitely puts their delusions that they 'earned' it in jeopardy.

[grahamdollton]

#my peculiar wife #i'm not rewatching speaking of sex atm i just found this in the vaults (my screenshot folder) #then again i might rewatch it today because i feel like shit and seeing him in such a..... state..... might improve matters #at least yesterday wasn't a total bust #and by that i mean i actually had a decent day yesterday which i haven't been able to say in ages #i left my cave and went to an estate sale where an incredibly attractive middle aged gentleman with silver hair let me have #these two big wooden roll top boxes full of cassettes (many of which are sealed blanks!) for five bucks..... #i haven't gone through them thoroughly yet but it looks like there's a lot of early appalachian gospel #can't go wrong there......... #the man kept calling me sir #sometimes it baffles me that i “”“pass”“” these days because my hair is so damn long and i keep my face clean shaven #so that's nice #with how depressed i've been sometimes i hate to acknowledge when i have a decent day or even a decent moment #because i almost superstitiously feel it will act as a magnet for my depression to swoop in and feed on it #and out of that fear my depression has developed this sort of..... personified stubbornness #where i both consciously and unconsciously avoid what might allow for an opening for “decent moments”.. pleasure.. joy.. whatever might #might grant me relief from pain even just for a moment etc #i don't know what i'm trying to describe here all i know is i feel trying to announce or acknowledge any sort of happiness i experience #feels like i'm directly endangering it #my brain is too scattered right now to try to articulate anything and i don't know why i'm doing so in the tags of a photo of #my peculiar wife james spader #just trying to exist again and not let myself be a hermit to the extent of harold smith which is very much the path i've been on for a long #long time #and i'm chipping away at that nonexistence in strange ways but chipping away nonetheless.......

[lloydfrontera]

had a thought. if lloyd were to ever be infected with a poison/curse that makes him think of everyone as a threat and/or something happened to him that made him lost a limb and became increasingly paranoid to the point he'll resort to irrational solutions (basically if he got alicia's fate instead), would javier stay loyal to him and still follow his orders despite it all? :<

because imagine if things got too extreme and javier would have to be the one to kill him (⁠˘⁠･⁠_⁠･⁠˘⁠)

mmhhh i gotta say i don't particularly like that change of the webtoon. alicia's not paranoid because she's under a curse. she's paranoid because she went through a traumatic experience, is under a lot of stress and her mind is just prone to turn towards paranoia. which is much more fun imo!

but! let's focus on the second scenario for the sake of fun mental exercises.

would javier stay loyal to lloyd if he started becoming paranoid and irrational? mmhh,,, i think it would depend on who lloyd becomes paranoid against.

if lloyd turned paranoid against absolutely everyone, including his own family, then no, i don't see javier staying loyal to him no matter what.

see the thing about javier is that his loyalty is not mindless or just dutiful. he's not loyal for the sake of being loyal. he only gives his loyalty to the people he genuinely thinks deserve it. he's not sir blanc, who was loyal to the queen til his very death and only in his dying moments allowed himself to ask tkobai javier to stop her. javier is constantly thinking about whether the things he's doing are good and he protests and speaks out when he thinks something is wrong.

he's loyal to arcos because arcos has proven to be good and kind. and he's loyal to lloyd because lloyd has proven to be good and kind (in his own way) too.

if they weren't, then i don't see javier being all that loyal to them in the first place

(that's not to say that javier isn't flexible with his morals if it comes down to doing things for the people he's loyal to tho! a big step in his relationship with lloyd, is him being willing to compromise in things he thinks aren't in complete alignment with his own moral code, because he either 1) comes to understand where lloyd is coming from 2) thinks is the best way to protect lloyd and the fronteras or 3) just because lloyd asked him to. but that only comes after lloyd proves he deserves being trusted and he does by proving he wants to help and protect the fronteras and the estate.)

so if lloyd turned against the family and estate that javier loves so much, i don't think javier would be able to remain loyal to him, no matter how much he'd want to

now, if lloyd's paranoia were to manifest in an extreme need to keep his family and home safe from everything around them that may hurt them, that would give us a lot more wiggle room to play with

and we have to take into account that even in canon, lloyd looks irrational plenty of times. sure, he finds way to justify himself, but a lot of the things he does make no sense from an outsider perspective! javier is already working from a 'this may as well happen' kind of attitude in canon. if lloyd were to suddenly get paranoid and act out in irrational way, i don't doubt it would take people a while to notice that there's something amiss lol

so let's say something terrible happens, something that none of them can avoid, something javier can't defeat in time and lloyd is horribly hurt because of it.

no one would blame lloyd if turned more wary and cautious after that, least of all javier, who'd be wrecked in guilt at not being able to protect him.

they also wouldn't bat an eye if lloyd started to raise his estate's defenses, increasing their power and preparing their people for an attack. they just saw the consequences of not being on guard, their young master just paid the price of their complacency, no one would protest against making sure it never happened again.

and if lloyd suddenly declared that another territory, another kingdom even, was plotting against them, scheming for their downfall, well, why wouldn't they believe him? a trusted knight betrayed their lord, another territory already poisoned their water, a good portion of their population is formed of refugees from an attack of a foreign power, this wouldn't be the first time they've been hurt by others. and it had always been lloyd that saved them. why wouldn't they trust their young master this time?

and lloyd, who's been hiding how he knows things he shouldn't know for a long time now, has a lot of practice making irrational things sound perfectly acceptable when coming out of his mouth. and in his mind, his paranoid thoughts would make so much sense, he'd be convinced he's acting for their own good, he'd be able to spin all his incoherent fears and anxious thoughts into something compelling. he always has.

and javier, who already said before that he would trust lloyd no matter how insane what he said sounded like, would follow along because to do otherwise, after he failed him like that, would be unthinkable. and lloyd's acting for the good of the family, for the estate, just as he always has, why wouldn't javier follow him this time too?

he'd want to prove to lloyd and to himself that he can be trusted, he can be worth having lloyd's trust, he'll try harder, he'll do everything to keep him safe this time.

it would take quite a bit for javier to decide he can no longer follow lloyd's will, not when everything he's doing seems to be for the good of the family. it would have to be something truly horrible for him to reach that point.

i'm also torn?? on how likely it is that javier would even be around to see what lloyd is actually doing. because on one hand, lloyd is not the sort to stay behind while his people are working on getting rid of anything he deems a problem and anywhere lloyd goes, javier goes with. but on the other hand, if lloyd's paranoia is about keeping the people he loves safe at all costs, then javier is very much included in there. and maybe he'd think it too high of a risk to have javier risking his life when the entire world has turned against them.

and if he's giving in to all of his paranoid thoughts, then i can also very easily see him being too wary of letting javier be too involved in his plans, precisely out of fear javier will turn on him. lloyd knows javier, he knows the way he thinks, what he cares about, he knows javier is, more than anything, a good person. and good people don't always have what it takes to do what's needed. he wouldn't turn on javier, he's a part of the very thing lloyd wants to protect no matter the price he has to pay, but i can see him hiding the truth from him, convinced as he is that he's doing the right thing.

crying and throwing up at the idea of javier having to be the one to kill loyd to stop him tho. because. javier is the person lloyd trusts the most in the world. 'There was no one else he would be able to trust as much as him'. imagine this lloyd, lost in his paranoia thinking the whole world had turned against him, but still trusting javier wholeheartedly, believing he's the one person he can count on no matter what. only to be betrayed and killed by him. oh i would go insane actually

very fun scenario thank you for sending it!

#hey i got an ask #teh-inggris #tged #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #javier asrahan #the thing about lloyd in this scenario is that... he wouldn't be wrong. not really. #he does have the world plotting against him. he does have reasons to fear the people around him. #he himself acknowledges it would take very little for alicia to turn against him and decide he's too dangerous to be left alive #he's the kingdom's first defense he's the perfect target for anyone looking to invade magentano #there's an all powerful force looking to kill him and his family off #is it really paranoia if you're right about it is what i'm saying

[wisteriawatching]

Taylor: This song is a real guided tour through all the things I tend to hate about myself

Taylor: I think my cat is my son

#then in the mv she leaves her estate to her cats! #the humor of it thinly disguises her fear that human children could betray her #just as everybody else has! #the words of a sister come back in whispers to prove she was not... #leaving like a father [figure - i'm looking at you scotty b] #people haven't always been there for me!!! #ww