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chunkymamatam · 8 days

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Hii its me, the many-questions-gal :)) My name is Reena!! Just wanted to thank you for answering my many questions! I wish you the best of luck with your mental health and with shifting!

I myself have shifted a few times to parallel realities, but have yet to shift to twst, so do excuse my curiosity for the boys, I just cant help but miss them.

I wanted to ask how it is with gender on campus. In your reply to my last ask you mentioned briefly that you are refered to as "she".

Did the students assume so or did you tell them to refer to you as she? As a girlie, I am unsure whether I would want to tell everyone that Im a girl or just pretend that Im not :') And side-question, how long do you think I would be able to pretend without getting discovered lol?

Anyway, thanks again for answering my questions so thoroughly, hope you have a nice day ^^

-Reena

Thank you! Good luck shifting to TWST! Also that's really cool shifting to parallel realities. I've considered doing that myself tbh. I like to cover all my bases when answering questions! The more details the better for answering things like this. Plus I just really enjoy talking about my DRs to other shifters. It's a win win for all of us (❁´◡`❁)

Anyway Gender on campus is really funny for me personally because I'm genderfluid so it really depend who you're asking. The general consensus on campus is just calling me they/them I just kinda type like that cuz its what I'm used to lol. They're chill with it even on my hyper fem day. It's really funny because Leona somehow always knows the gender of the day even though I've never told anyone my state of gender.

The student body mostly assumes I'm some brand of trans masc since "all boys school" and they're mostly right but it still cracks me up cuz most of the time people assume I'm just straight up a girl cuz of how my body is built 😭

Like yeah there are those select few who assume but they're the minority in this situation

Here's an itemized list of who calls me what /j

Jokes aside if you want to hide your femininity all you gotta do is hide your boobs (Optional if you're part of the Itty Bitty Titty Committee) and your curves. You'd probably be able to get away with that for a few weeks to a few months. If you're lucky they'll just assume you're a very effeminate man lol

I might have some tips to sounding and looking more masc in your movements and how you talk if you want them.

Thanks for asking so many questions honestly. It always brings a smile to my face to answer them. Have a wonderful what ever time of day it is for you ❤

#shifting realities #shifting to desired reality #reality shifter #shifting to twisted wonderland #group shifting #shifting antis dni #shifting blog #shifting community #desired reality #shiftblr #reality shift #reality shifting

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enneamage · 3 months

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the not complimenting thing was probably most definitely him (i give maybe 10% of reasonable doubt, but that’s just so i can keep my analysis humble). he mentions it both in msr and something similar was brought up by him that he just completely isolated himself from everyone around him during his tour after each and every show they did.

it was to cope with his panic attacks yes, but the isolation he described was definitely unhealthy even in just a general sense, but if you apply that same behavior to a intimate relationship, it’s MOST DEFINITELY unhealthy. imo i see it as somewhat a form of self-sabotage. in his msr he mentions feeling “wrong” that despite being at his “best” with a good career and good relationship, his mental health was never reflecting that, and it caused somewhat of a disconnect between him and (seemingly) everyone else.

honestly that album felt like listening to someone’s shame spirals and intrusive thoughts that their journaling to “get it out of their system” 😭 he’s fascinating on a fleabag level. studying him could be a full time job

anywho 😃 do u have any thoughts about his new move to nyc? apparently staggeringly few ppl knew about it outside of like lovejoy and sbi…i hope it’s good for him, but i remain concerned

America has always meant something unique to Wilbur. I think the hope and symbolism he's put into that space is something I can only ever guess at, but I know it's been important to him for a long time. Turning towards America to help level his mental health out makes a kind of sense as a move-- part of it is 'getting away from it all' while also putting himself in a new environment. At this point it will probably do more good than harm to try something new. My only concern would be what it might do to his brain if things keep not working out, but for now he’s got something to do and a place to do it.

#gen wlbr tag

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degreeofdisorder · 2 months

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young royals s3e4 episode reaction

okay, this is already stressful

you know what? linda makes sense. i do think they should move. they have the settlement money, i understand community is important but they're all sooooo far beyond thinking of just community. for safety reasons they really should move.

"the police can't do anything?" bro can't you? you're the goddamn crown prince???? do something??????

"had they done this to me they would've seen it as a threat to the nation" YEAH WELL I MEAN

"and you're my boyfriend, so" ok

listen I understand this is serious

but every time they call each other boyfriend my brain goes into hibernation mode and I can't focus on anything else

they're BOYFRIENDS

aaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

"I'll talk to the royal court" THANKS WILLE

though tbf I feel like the royal court might agree that they should probably move lol

like if i had that kinda money and I knew my kids were in danger I'd be leaving the goddamn country

of course vincent is drawing a dick in the sand. that man is just *so* predictable lmao

oh man in all this I forgot about the bitter divorce plot between felice and sara

ISN'T THERE A CONFLICT OF INTEREST oh boy vincent if you Knew

NOT SIMON SAYING HE'D PREFER A DEMOCRATICALLY ELECTED HEAD OF STATE IN FRONT OF HIS BOYFRIEND, THE FUTURE NON-DEMOCRATICALLY ELECTED HEAD OF STATE

LMFAAAAOOOOOOOFKDLFJDKFJSLFJSLFJDLFKSL

"you're so fucking pathetic" "😘" okay that was the funniest exchange in the planet

like. fuck vincent. all my homies hate vincent. but my man is so goddamn hilarious even when he's being a pathetic dick

NOT VINCENT KSKFKSKFLSKFDKJFDKKF STOP THATS HILARIOUS

I can excuse demonstrations but I draw the line at them being done by poor people

oh. oh SHIT

OH SHIT

"can you?" oh FUCK

oh this is insane I can't believe they're having this conversation

YOU SOUND LIKE JAN-OLOF AAHSKFJDKFJDKFJDKF

oh baby that is Not a real job jdkgjfkgjdkgjdkf

dya think edvin was like saying those lines thru his teeth like "yes the monarchy is good and has a place in modern society actually"

ugh I want wilmon to be endgame so fucking bad but the more this season goes on the more I'm realizing they're simply too incompatible and idk how they're gonna solve this unless one of them compromises way too fuckin much

#abdication pls tho

what kind of life is that? 😭

"it's a privilege not a punishment" ok mr kristina

tbf to simon i feel like if i was already anti monarchy and started dating the crown prince whose life problems begin and end with the monarchy I would be even MORE for abolition.

like before it was more of a general sense. now it's fuckin personal. free wille

shouldn't they exclude the literal future king of sweden from this exercise about future?? like we all already know what he's gonna end up doing lol.

god this is gonna be so bad

who's this flustered ass boy and what did he do with cunt august???

YOU NEED TO HELP SIMON - ok

that felt too easy?

oh. okay I'm sorry is ludwig not his own person? can't he attend his own son's damn birthday???

AND AUGUST????????????? YOU CAN'T BE FR

every time farima is on screen it takes another year off my life

until jan-olof pointed it out I didn't notice how genuinely unsafe the eriksson house is but damn

simon said "okay" way too easily. I don't like that.

I mean like, honestly, farima is right and he needs to lay low, but also I know simon isn't gonna do that shit and it worries me

they keep having these absurdly serious conversations and it keeps Not blowing up and I'm afraid when it blows up it's gonna be super ugly

I like simon's idea of mental health in young people tho! I get what he means re: lgbtq+ issues but I also think wille is right in that he can't represent all ~the queers just bc he's in love with a boy yk

I get them both and they both have their merits. I also think wille is making a huge change just by being out and I'd be really fuckin annoyed if I was a public figure and had to do shit for the queers just bc i was also queer like no. idk. i get them both. I'm more on wille's side on this one.

but also fuck that thing about supporting lgbtq+ issues being a political statement. I hate that he's right. it shouldn't be political.

NOT GOING ON STRIKE JSKFJDKFJDKFUDKFJ DISGUSTING

vincent is such a lil bitch

if i were simon i would literally just. take the bus back home. that's it fuck them rich kids I can't deal with the bullshit.

SO YOU CAN ONLY TAKE A STAND WHEN IT DOESN'T COST YOU ANYTHING????????

BROOIFJDLFJDKFJDKFJDK WRECK HIM SIMON

god that was delightful. it was a delight. i need simon to keep this specific energy all the time because oh my god this episode is incredible.

oh and he's also wrecking sara? can we bring the other guy back so he can, in colombian, cantarle las verdades en la cara? like simon has enough fists for everyone. bring the queen in. bring fuckin erik so he can tell him off for dying

the strike looks very cozy. i wish real strikes looked like that. rich people are so funny.

so lady from the incredibles' response is to starve a bunch of rich kids including the crown prince? is she aware of the consequences of that?

oh he gave up

JALFJSLFK FOR A LOLLIPOP?

I love rich kids. they're so funny. so stupid.

"don't you find it nice to be hungry sometimes?" FIND A GODDAMN THERAPIST AUGUST. JESUS CHRIST.

"that sounds like an eating disorder" FINALLY. MY FUCKING GOD.

they do kinda sound like a fun group of friends. that was a bit of a genuine moment. I liked that.

aaaand back at being snakes. gr8.

awww my babies who are total opposites

wilhelm could really learn more from simon actually

OH NO HE'S SO HUNGRY DKFIDIFIDU

THREE HUNDRED CROWNS SJDLSJFIDJFKSJFLSJFLSUFODJFOSKDL

STOODKGLDJGLDIG

THAT'S LIKE LORD OF THE FLIES IN THERE THEYRE GONNA MURDER AUGUST AND EAT HIM

JDKFJSKFJSKFJSKFKDKFJDLFKDK FREDRIKA

NOT DICKS OUT FOR HILLERSKA IM LOSING MY MISNFKDLFKDKFKDLFKFLGKFLFKFLFKDLFK

like a pair of lil street urchins, those two. I love them

"did you sleep well?" "no. did you?" "no" my BABY BOYS

NOT CLUTCHING THE CHIPS TO HIS CHEST SJFKDJFKSJFLSKFLDK

hm. so a group of people striking actually got what they wanted? Wonder if there's any lesson to learn.

IN A BATHROOM? are they gonna KISS???

"I'm so thankful you were my first real friend" oh. my god.

i have managed to make it fully unscathed so far but that simple sentence sent me into a sobbing spiral oh my god

oh go d

"since when do you care what the royals think?" "since I learned what it means to be with one of them" oh. ooooohohohohohoho

he's gonna write him a song isn't it

rosh and ayub are the realest. honestly. such real ones. day ones. I love them

is this gonna be couples therapy ooooooo let's GO

I mean, idk, that reveal doesn't really hit hard bc obviously if it happened to august and nils then it had to be erik's class, right?

it's the bashing that's horrifying. erik would have participated in beating someone up for the slightest inkling of being gay that is horrifying

oh my god yeah nvm that hit super hard. wille. oh no. oh god.

fuckkkkk

#yr livenats #yr s3 spoilers #young royals spoilers

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daz4i · 3 months

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actually i AM gonna post abt this again. sorry

like when i say they make me feel like i'm in a story. i mean it

we started talking and immediately clicked. talked nonstop for days really

we both had relationships like that years before, but then paused that behavior bc we were young and it wasn't the healthiest, but now we were adults and knew better. it was the first one after that break for both of us

i avoided this behavior for awhile bc i knew it's not the healthiest but it felt so good when it happened. i (rightfully) feared the crash but at the time, the high was so worth it. and everything was going so smoothly too. things kept aligning just right all the time

every time i thought something is gonna come up or that i did something wrong and now it's all gonna blow up, they proved that i had no reason to worry, bc they let it slide immediately, even liked it

we kind of completed each other in every way. liked the same things and had a lot in common, but were opposites in enough things that we weren't TOO similar

i stopped worrying abt annoying them relatively early into the whole thing (usually it takes me months or even years, or i never stop at all. here it was maybe 2-3 weeks)

we became actually close right on their birthday. a small thing but you gotta admit if this was a story it'd be poetic as hell

every time they had a problem and i jokingly said i'm sending a spell their way to fix it, it passed after like 2 minutes. absolutely insane coincidence stuff

i mentioned this before. and this is gonna be embarrassing but. we met through, well, kin stuff lol. they kin chuuya, i kin dazai, we joked abt kindating etc. anyway my mental health was shit but they genuinely uplifted me a lot. they made me want to live for the first time in who knows how long, maybe ever. i think you can tell why i prefaced this story with that fact 🥲 embarrassing but real

and now this shit? 😭 another small thing but like. i make a post abt them bc now is generally around the time we started talking, and someone i follow queued a post from their blog and it posts right now?? they've been decativated for nearly a year HOW did this line up like that 😭

they unfortunately made me believe in the concept of soulmates :/ but as my friends (and mom. bc she saw me cry over the whole thing for days) said. if they cut me off and hurt me like that, they weren't ~the one~

and another thing that made me feel more like i'm in a teen movie is. i legit spent a day and a half in bed crying and barely doing anything else, after they cut me off. truly cliche stuff. actually that's a good way to put it - they made me feel like a cliche. still do when i think abt it a year later. it was a good thing at first, bad when it ended. i could make a movie abt this barely changing any detail and it'll be an average teen romantic comedy (except i'll have to add some happy ending there)

anyway let me finish all that by saying. who the fuck blocks someone on spotify 😭 dude...

(it's been a year and i got burned so badly from this whole thing that i seriously doubt i'll be able to love someone this much again. i need it to be an instant obsession to actually feel good about love, but i'll never be able to confidently go into any new relationship with that purpose because i'm just too scared things will hurt this much again. it's honestly so depressing lol 🥲 but what can ya do)

(i also became the most suicidal i've ever been since lol. probably bc of how big the drop was. it still hasn't gone away. part of why i see no point in life is bc of that previous paragraph. so.)

#vent #but it's me being obsessive and weird probably #(trust me when i say i can be way worse tho! 😎)

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drdtnsfw · 10 months

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MOD VERONIKA, I FEEL THAT DEEP IN MY SOUL 😭

David is just such a soft partner in general. His love is so gentle and sounds very adorable. I can imagine him doing all those sappy things, probably even getting ideas from movies and books. He never knew what love was, but believe me, he’s in no way bad at expressing it. It’s canon he dislikes expensive things, but things like picking flowers for you, the love drafts you mentioned, cooking whatever he can, they all sound so sweet!!!

Honestly, your whole existence just gives him so much validation that he is, in fact, worthy of good things or at least, one good thing in his life. I want good things for this man, it’s not even funny. I want to praise him so much (even though he’s probably be very uncomfortable, so in that case, I’ll just overstimulate his brains out :))

Let me ramble more then.

He likes giving and receiving words of affirmation. A good pair for him would be someone with an auralist kink because let's face it. He has one too.

He'd go to botanical gardens with you or hell if you have a house with him I could see him having a garden and working on it with you. Bringing fresh flowers and herbs in the house.

A home away from the pressures of society that's peaceful for him and feels just as good for you.

He'd like someone with the love languages of quality time and physical touch.

It would honestly be hard for him to get used to physical touch at first since with his status I see people trying to invade his personal space all the time.

So if he's Letting you touch him? That mean's you're important to him and he's comfortable around you.

He is worthy of good things, he struggles with his mental health and see's himself poorly so having a partner that reminds him of his good qualities and that love is something everyone should have. I.E that it's not that anyone needs to earn it or be deserving of it. Everyone should and will have love and you chose to give him yours.

#mod veronika #david chiem #drdtnsfw #chiem stars #david nation #stardust simps #when I say I can talk about this man all day? I mean it in its entirety.

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pinksapphicprincess · 2 years

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(💙) 1-11, 17, 34, and 40! c:

Thanks for sending so many, love 🥰

1.Do you have any tumblr crush? If yes, @ them. @moonlight-lesbianism, @cherryykitten, and there's a few others but I'm too shy to @ them unless they do me first, and also the @ function isn't working??? EDIT: nvm it’s working XD

2.Do you like receiving flowers or do you prefer other kind of presents? I like any and all gifts. Flowers are lovely of course, but you can get me anything and I'll be so happy.

3.Receiving or giving oral pleasure? I don't know from experience of course, but honestly I like the sound of both equally.

4.What is your favourite piece of clothing? I have this super cute purple top from the brand Candie's (one of my favorite brands) that I got in plus size from Kohl's. It's so pretty, it's got flowers on it and is just so dreamy and princess-like.

5.What is your favourite dessert? Those sugar cookie with the pink frosting and sprinkles you can get at like every grocery store. Everyone hates them but me and I don't get it bc I could eat those every day they're so fucking good oh my god

6.Sweet or salty snacks? I'm always someone who leans more towards sweet than savory or salty, but with snacks it sort of depends on the mood. Most of my snacks are protein based so that means usually they're sweet.

7.What is the most unusual fantasy you have ever had? I uhh, just saw a post today about cumming in your gf's panties then making her walk around all day wearing them and I just 😳🥵 yes please

8.Sex with multiple people- turn on or off? The idea of it is a huge turn on, but honestly I think it'll be a very long time before I can actually do that. And even then it's probably only going to be with people I consider soulmates.

9.Favourite song recently? I've had Heart Beats Slow by Angus and Julia Stone and Firefly by Skyhill on repeat for the past few days, so I'd say those ^^

10.Date ideas: chilling at home or fancy restaurant? Oh that's a tough one, because I love being spoiled but I also hate leaving the house. I think it depends on the state of my mental and physical health honestly. The biggest question is whether or not the place serves salmon, because if it does that's my favorite food besides peanut butter. And knowing myself from personal experience the only thing I'll order from said fancy restaurant from that moment on is the salmon X3

11.What is your favourite colour of underwear? Pink! But like a soft pink <3

17.Booty/ titties / thighs? Thighs for sure. I love booty and titties, but something about girl's legs just has me 😵‍💫

34.Ability to fly or ability to read minds? Read minds. It would have so many benefits to it, and also I'm so terrified of heights I get heights vertigo so that's a no haha

40.Reveal one of your secrets. I don't care if it's silly. I can't listen to the OG version of Ocean Man without crying because Stephen Hillenburg's death is the only celebrity death I've ever actually cried about. He was dying from his autonomic disease at the same time I was getting my own figured out, and getting sick is the reason for my horrible mental illnesses. He contributed so much to the humor culture of several generations, especially mine, plus of course major nostalgia. So knowing that entire album by Ween (but especially that song) literally inspired so much of Spongebob, plus the fact that the movie was where the story was supposed to be done and was when he took his exit as the executive director (he'd told the story he wanted to by that point but Nickelodeon wanted to continue it since it was so financially popular). He got to end it where he wanted and did so by getting to have that song on the movie. I'm EMOTIONAL about it. And when you go on literally any video for that song (not the meme version obvs), all the comments always say "RIP Ocean Man" and I just 😭😭😭

#thanks for sending this hon <3 #i hope you're having a good day and sleep well tonight

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cutemeat · 2 years

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no you’re so right for that, op was honestly being rude and probably didn’t expect you to see it (altho i see that they did tag it as sunny so maybe they just don’t care). when i started out, the ppl of this fandom have always been so unapologetically vocal abt their theories and interpretations, and it was so welcoming to me to see that everyone was having fun rambling into the void, knowing that we care enough abt each others’ ideas that even if we don’t always agree, we Get it. like that’s what sunnblr is for, pardon the brainrot but it comes with the territory. you were one of my first (and also only lol) sunny mutuals and i know for a fact i didn’t used to share my thoughts the way i do now before following ppl like you. PLEASE keep rambling, it is good for the soul

thank u Danny!! 🐀💘

it means a lot more to me that I have had that kind of impact where anyone feels more unapologetic n enthusiastic abt talking abt their interests n interpretations n theories! cuz I care so deeply abt that n think (esp cuz this is a space all about enthusiasm n hobbies) it is so fun to hav a place where ppl can do that!! (obv we should be mindful depending on subject matter, but just general rambling abt shit is, as u said, good for the soul 😌😌) U are also just such a creative person n i rlly admire yr style n yr skill u are just so thoughtful and intelligent so u Should be so loud n proud abt those things!! u are such a treasure n ily!!

I hold no grudge against op, cuz i do recognize this kind of thing is just apart of a larger pattern I’ve seen forever since using the internet where a lot of the internet likes to preach abt de-stigmatization n mental health awareness… but unfortunately the internet doesn’t rlly create platforms that are conducive to actually keeping that kind of thing in mind and practicing it effectively. ik that most times (since this is a problem that started in the real world n sure as hell hasnt been solved any better lmao), that unless you are just experiencing palatable symptoms like depression or anxiety… u are opening yrself up to that kind of thing, n i know that just comes with the territory of being mentally ill and havin any public account. im sure its even somewhere in the fine print of the terms n conditions that no one ever reads LOL. i try to brush it off, but it is still hurtful sometimes and so that’s why I left that reply to just explain where i’m coming from and why i left those tags in the first place. cuz again they dont know me and idk them so its not anything personal! but again ik thats sorta the game u play when u post anything yknow? like for all anonymity’s benefits, there are cons like ppl don’t Know i experience manic type symptoms or fixate excessively if they dont know me or follow me, esp when i don’t leave that stuff in my bio anymore or always post abt it so they Don’t Know. and it’s just generally very prevalent to see someone saying Wild Shit n immediately be like ‘wtf?’ n post it without rlly giving it much thought. I mean, I’ve probably done that before myself w/o rlly giving a second thought to what I was doing 😭. so I try not to take it too personally n hope ppl will be sympathetic if they do see the other person’s side of things, at least!

But again I do rlly appreciate u sending this cuz it was still very reassuring and again im rlly happy u feel more inclined to share ur thoughts after following me cuz again u are so thoughtful n passionate n i still love reading ur posts n seeing ur art abt anything u are interested in even when its not Sunny stuff, theres always so much detail in everything u do its incredible! 💖 and dont worry abt me cuz i def dont plan on stopping the rambling myself anytime soon BSJDBDJ

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aeterna-auroral-avenger · 3 months

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Hello again, another late update because I got distracted with some things. This ask is also super long, oops 😅

Anyway, I finished the second book when I said I would. Actually a day earlier, so Sunday (11th). It was good timing too because there was a three day movie marathon coming up and I didn't want to be thinking about plot twists of the book I'm reading 😂

I gotta say, I like this one a lot! I think I like it more than the first one and I don't mean that as an insult. There was just something about it that drew me in a little bit more. I think it's just one of those natural things where the more something continues, the better it gets. That's how it should go anyway lol.

I think one of my favourite parts was Watson teaching Charlotte how to 'fence' lol. I really liked seeing the two of them bond some more in general tbh. More Livia was nice too, I think she's a good sister. Oh and on the note of family, I loved when Charlotte stood up to her father. Certainly wasn't expecting her to have a gun with her. Way to go 👏👏👏

And as a more 'technical' thing, the narrator still did a good job. I decided to check and see if she narrates all the books, and apparently she does from what I can tell, so I won't have to worry about inconsistencies there.

So there's the really quick rundown of my thoughts for this one. I think what I'm gonna do now is read a physical book, then check out the audiobook for the 3rd Lady Sherlock.

As a completely random side note, what's your favourite Court Stevens book? The next time I go on a road trip, if they don't have any Lady Sherlock, I might go with one of Stevens' books. They're standalones, right?

I was also thinking of picking up Vicious, but I checked out the trigger warnings out of curiosity, and apparently suicide is a theme in it? That's a really personal trigger for me, so I gotta be careful with it. If it's not super graphic, I can usually find a way to handle it, but if it's graphic, it's a bit rougher and I need to be in a "good headspace" to read something like that. It might sound "weak" or whatever, but I'd rather be safe than sorry, you know?

-Book Anon

Hey Book Anon! It's good to hear from you! Thank you for the update; I'm so excited that you're still liking the series. That makes me really happy because I think it's such a good one. In fact, you and I discussing it makes me want to go through it again, but I have so many I want to get to that it's so hard to make myself choose. 😭😭😭

*sigh* The struggle of an avid reader. I need to be paid to read; that would be a dream job indeed!

Now then, my favorite Court Stevens book, now that's a difficult choice honestly. I haven't read her latest, so that's not in the running. I think it's probably a tie between We Were Kings and The June Boys. They're all wonderful, but I think those would have to be the top contenders for now.

If anyone ever told you that making sure you're in a good headspace for a certain media or avoiding something altogether for your own mental health and protection is weak is being ridiculous. It's the furthest thing from weakness. You've got every right to protect yourself that way, and I commend you for being careful about that kind of stuff.

Frankly, Book Anon, without giving too much away, the Vicious series deals with a lot of near death experiences because the two main characters decide to study them for reasons that would be too spoilery to share right now. And some of those are of a nature that is triggering to you.

For your own sake, I personally do not recommend the series if those things bother you. I am willing to divulge more information in as safe a language as I can if you want more information from me.

#tb responds #book anon #the lady sherlock series #court stevens #vicious #vicious series #books #reading #too many books #not enough time

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elaichoi · 10 months

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tw: bit of discussion on mental health [diagnoses]; talks of depression/major depressive disorder, [social] anxiety, panic disorder, mention of agoraphobia, god idek tbh im sorry

YES LOL THEY WERE ANNOYING TO DO BUT $5 GIFTCARDS N SHIT ^_^ nooo i almost never did the surveys cus i get random emails and thats annoying and they also take forever,, so i only did the ones where u have to download whatever app (usually a game) they tell u to, use it for x amt of seconds/minutes (i forget) and u go back to the app and it gives u points or whatever that u redeem for giftcards! that's how i got superimpose actually 😭 edit tutorial accs would promote their code for that app/site (i don't remember what its called im not gatekeeping i swear) bc using their code gives both u and them extra points,,, and i wanted superimpose so i gave it a try and well what do u know 🥰🥰

my mental health story is kind of long and redundant and not that exciting so i shall spare u,,, well actually i rewrote this 383299 times bc i ended up trauma dumping i think... so um basics i got depressed my freshman yr of highschool, time skip- got diagnosed w depression, generalized anxiety disorder & agoraphobia, which the agoraphobia turned to be a misdiagnosis and i went somewhere else and got rediagnosed w panic disorder. child of a generational trauma that my asian parents do not think exist🫶 i alr knew a lot (90%) of my anxiety was social anxiety but i did not receive that diagnosis until this year. i lost my panic disorder diagnosis yay! andddd also got a diagnosis for major depressive disorder which was kind of an 'ohhhh' moment for me bc a lot of times i felt like antidepressants made me a lot better i felt cured lmfao i was hardly ever depressed,, except i sometimes get depressive episodes and im still struggling w the symptoms of depression that is not depression itself...if that makes sense...those symptoms being memory issues!! quick act surprised!! focus issues, i procrastinate a lot now.... which is important bc before all of this i was a very.. is high-functioning the right term? i genuinely dk if that's a term im supposed to be using,, but basically i was like top of the class student, always on-time and organized, never procrastinated, always remembered everything, i guess kinda type A personality lmao,,,, and now i am not 😃

im probably forgetting some other key stuffs but its okie,,,,, probably irrelevant but ive always been a fairytale hopeless romantic except a dumb long-term relationship got thrown into the middle and peak of my mental health mess (who told me that was a good idea 👺) has made me v antiromantic if u will 💀💀 i girlbossed myself into thinking im wise emotionally but i honestly am v v naive and sensitive and i will be a crybaby if snri's allow me to at that moment 👍

i used to be v smart but im kinda v dumb now but im also kinda trying to get back up again bc i feel? like im slowly improving in general? idk tbh,,, idk what im doing 😁

erm im v sorry this was very mentally unseggsy of me 😗 can u tell i have no concept of oversharing im so sorry for clogging your feed, qiwis followers pls forgive 🙇‍♀️

wbu? same question u asked me on mental health n cognitive functions ^^ only if ur comfortable answering ofc!

i think u could do it if u rlly wanted to, again u talent/hobby vacuum 👺 /j maybe like for blog milestone or something would be an excuse for a one-time video edit then you wouldn't have to continue if u don't want to ? hmm

whenever i didn't have ideas i would like choose a specific edit i rlly liked and use the same audio and like ""recreate"" it (not to post, its just for me & practice purposes lol). like the editor wouldve already split the audio for transitions and stuff so you can split your audio according to the transitions in their edit and add ur own clips over top. u can try to imitate their transitions or do ur own or whatever. i like doing that to practice bc it gives me somewhere to start! idk that's what worked for me personally,, just an idea for if u ever feel up for it no pressure!!

i don't think i could get into the video editing scene again bc i would want to progress to be a good editor and be confident ab my edits but capcut makes me insecure lol bc if everybody can do it then why should i take the time to grow and progress 😗 (that makes me sound like a pick me but again.. its similar to like ai replacing real working humans yk..😭😭)

my relationship ramble thingy ^ means that i also i love angst and making myself cry 😍😍🫦🫰 crack anything is 1000% your brand ‼️

omg yea real life inspo for ur reincanation aus ☺️ ehehe BUT YAY I LOOK FORWARD TO UR REPLIES SM HAVE UR NOTIFS ON LOLL i love talking to u! <3 consentual kisses! ^_^

wait....did we get engaged and/or married here,,,,,,,, on ur nsfw acct FJDJSK😭💀

oh my god i never tried that but i think there were some apps fr that were like ah yes get this free version and then watch a few ads and get one or two watermark free edits per day. BROOO THSI BRINGS BACK SO SO SO MANY MEMORIES!! (i think i rarely did that bc i was one lazy mf also vindictive so i did what i could to work with free apps)

life really tossed you like a salad damn baby I'm sorry you had to go through all that LIKE YOU COULDN'T CATCH A BREAK oh my god bro it seems like you kinda burned out? if that makes sense? because im sure a lot of things were expected of you ( asian parents here too also BRO THEY DONT think trauma EXISTS!) im glad you're getting better bit by bit HERE'S TO GETTING EVEN BETTER IN THE UPCOMING DAYS!!! we will kick mental illness's ass together lmao!

tbh third world country so never really got diagnosed properly but like most of my time i was suffering from. depression i was gaslit into thinking I'm just being whiny and uts not depression and because of this i developed repressive emotions where NOW it's my own turn where i refuse to acknowledge any kind of shit that happened to me like theres a sense of embarrassment where i can't like outright say like yeah this, and this happened to me because I don't anyone's "pity" and some huge ass shit happened to my family which made me haha something i cant say on here but im like over that now ( lol i need to go therapist for this) but yeah OH and I get the depressive episodes because i get that too oh my god like for weeks but my best friend once gave me, like just feel the emotions and let it pass like sure it will feel like a tractor running u over but it will get over and then one day you will take that shower and brush ur hair and feel a lil better!!!!

ooh but LIKE TUMBLR video platform sucks ass but i really like the idea omg i will think it through!!!

BRO NO WAY CAUSE I DID THAT TOO BUT LIKE WITH edits lmao but you're so freaking TALENTED DO YOU KNOW THAT?! i will have to try it I think with all thr tiktok edit trends now it's become easier to do those things i actualky tried to do some of it for my friends bday and it's coming up again so ill have to try!!!

okay but even if capcut exists which I think in a way is kind of good for people who loved editing but couldn't edit bc they couldn't work with, or afford fancy softwares yk but you can't deny the polishness that alight motion or vs will give you. you can't outdo the doer 💅🏼💅🏼 so you really should give it a try!!

you're SO SWEET I LOOK FORWARD SM TO YOUR ANONS TOO LIKE I ONLY COME HERE TO CHECK FOR YOUR ANONS LMAO i love talking to you too 🤭🤭

we're already married,, yes on nsfw kinda on theme don't you think so??

#love mails from my beloved anon!

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hello hello i saw u had a matchup event going on so >:] also ! be as mean u want to me i thrive off of lighthearted bullying 😋 /hj

so i would like to request a matchup for twst ! my favorite genre of music is probably alt/indie ig ?? [arctic monkeys, keshi, cavetown] also quite partial to j-pop tho lol [eve, yonezu kenshi]

at the top of my head i can only remember this one time that i like ?? was playing w these other girls at recess and they were all doing handstands so i was peer pressured into doing it with them and just . fell on my back and got the wind knocked out of me 🤡🧍‍♀️

then i was sobbing and telling the teachers to make sure they tell my parents and sisters that i loved them bc i genuinely thought i was abt to die lmfaooo 😭 the stupidity was real when i was in 4th grade ig 💀💀

i don't rlly animals tbh but cats r cuter than dogs sorry dog lovers 😕❗

generally i find that i like ppl who are reasonably smart, like they don't have to be a genius but they can't be like,,,, too stupid for this world ☹️ i also like ppl who will be mean to me in a teasing way bc i show my affection the same way 😼 we gotta be on the same wavelength y'know 😫⁉️ but at the same time they gotta respect my boundaries and understand my emotionally stunted self bc like,,, bpd tingz 😟‼️ (hELP THE EMOJIS MAKE ME SOUND FAKE IM NOT I SWEAR JUST COPING HUMOR IDKBWJJXKS)

i've never attended a christian all girls school but i did attend a co-ed catholic school 🤷‍♀️

and i sleep w two pillows and like eight stuffed animals bc u can never be too old 😍😍

n e ways thanks for reading through this mess of an ask/matchup request i hope u have a good rest of ur day/night >:]

Genuinely, and I don't mean this in a bad way BUT THE BPD TINGZ IS SO FJCKING FUNNG???? IDKY? But thanks for participating YAYYYY. You say you like someone smart and not too stupid for this world,,,, but you thought you were about to die... AT FOURTH GRADE?!?? you've got to be joking. ANYWAY here's your matchup YAYYYYYY 🎊🎊🎊

I match YOU WITHHHH 🥁🥁🥁🥁....

JAMIL VIPER !!!!

He's not too emotionally open, so he's definitely a tough one to crack. However, once you have him attracted to you, he's on his hands, knees, anything for you.

He's pretty fun to poke fun at, given that he's constantly denying the blush creeping up his neck as he pulls on the strings of his hoodie to hide his embarrassment.

Always up for whatever playful banter you have in store for him that day, or whether your mental health decided to take the wheel that day. Honestly, he's really sharp when it comes to these kinds of emotional problems and can pick up on the slightest shift in your personality.

Canon that he's really fucking good at cooking so if you need your comfort food that day to help cheer you up, he will somehow produce a carbon copy of your favourite comfort food.

In terms of his love language, it's pretty obvious that he leans more towards acts of service and words of affirmation. Having grown up as Kalim's servant from start and probably finish, it's only natural that he convey his love to you through his actions!

When it comes to physical affection, he's not the best an initiating it; if you crave his touch then you're the one who has to make the first move. Not that he dislikes it or anything, he just doesn't want to die of embarrassment LOL. However if a tiring day really starts to take a toll on him, expect arms snaking around your waist and his head tucked into the nape of your neck. He's craving your touch after a long, tiring day and who's gonna hate it when your boyfriend is being so adorable?

He's pretty reliable when it comes to academics and he's more than willing to offer his services to you, though it may or may not come with a price ;)

He's pretty much ready for your bullshit shenanigans every day though it might result in him getting a migraine. But hey! Anything for your beloved partner (i guess lol).

Literal power couple: chaotic idiot x somewhat serious idiot! Spectacular couple yayyy

#twst x reader #twisted wonderland #twst headcanons #twisted wonderland headcanons

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ok u asked for it

50. What's your favorite kind of weather?

- Summer! My ideal is probably like 77*F, sunny, and minimal breeze. I really loathe the wind. It's always flipping the pages of my book when I simply did not ask it to. Very rude.

48. Describe your ideal kind of partner.

- Oooo, this is a tough one cause there's so much and also somehow so little LMAO. I would say someone very laidback and kind. Most importantly, someone who can put up with all my bullshit DFDSHIAJ. I tend to be a little high strung and controlling, so someone who's willing to just kinda... go with the flow(?) would be a good balance for me, I think. But, in general, just be kind and make me laugh so hard I piss my pants and we're good to go.

37. Have any tattoos?

- No, but I WISH I DID. I'm planning to get one with my friends when I go back to school this fall. I also have plans to get matching pineapple tattoos with my brother <3

34. What's your coffee order?

- I'm a simple woman. Iced coffee with almond milk and sugar-free vanilla syrup. Even in the winter, bitches.

32. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick?

- Hmmmm... I wanna say AOT because then I could have a slow burn friends to lovers arc with Levi, but I also would 100% die, sooooooo... I'll go with something more like Middle Earth (minus the whole sauron thing LMAO) I could get me a handsome elf and we could live happily ever after, thank you very much.

30. Tag someone you want to talk to, but have been too shy to message.

@arlerted 👀

27. What's your pet peeve?

- LEG BOUNCING. If we wanna get personal with it, I have a type of OCD that makes me averse to small, repetitive motions. Like, I get ANGRY. Not just annoyed, ANGRY. Like, I want to yell at you and throw you across the room. Bye, that's so dramatic BAHA. But, yes, leg bouncing. Or pen tapping. Or when people clean their fingernails. Or play with their hair. Oops, my mental illness is showing 🤪

19. If you could change your name, would you? What would you change it to?

- Good question! Honestly, I don't think so! I like my name very much! I used to think it didn't really fit me when I was a kid because it was too "pretty" and I was literally a demon child, but now that I'm no longer throwing 10 hour tantrums, I think it fits pretty well LMAO.

12. What's one of your fantasies?

- OOP. WE TALKIN', LIKE, SEXUAL FANTASIES HERE??? Hmmm... probs being tied up so tight I can't move and I'm at the complete mercy of my partner. Yep. Idk if that one's kinda lame or not, but... there you go SDJKSIDH.

10. Do you have a secret sideblog?

- Yes and no. I have a sideblog that I use to store writing resources like vocab words and tips, but it's nothing juicy.

2. What are you obsessed with right now?

- Hm... Levi Ackerdaddy, as always, but other than that... not really much??? I have a very obsessive personality, so I try to limit myself when it comes to things I really like, so that I don't get too sucked in. Otherwise, my mental health tends to suffer.

1. What's your sexual orientation?

- Straight (Derogatory). 😭 I apologize. My tik tok algorithm thinks I'm bi, tho, so if that redeems me at all, I put that in for consideration. (At least I'm not on straight tik tok ☠️)

#thanks for all the questions BESTIE #feel free to send more if you'd like!#hope i didn't overshare LMAO #💌↬ breebox!#ask games!

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