#I almost miss those days...almost

[comixandco]

cleo sertori had a fear of swimming since she was a child and nobody considered for a second that getting stranded on a boat in the middle of the sea then falling into a cave system where she had to swim through subterranean water tunnels to the ocean where she had to tread water until a s&r team found them would be traumatic and exacerbate her fear into full aquaphobia

secretly becoming a mermaid helped her get over her fear but to everybody else her being cagey about the pool party and washing the dishes makes 100% sense when they stop for a moment and consider she’s probably terrified

#h2o just add water #cleo sertori #lewis like ‘i don’t know what’s going on with her lately’ bestie you know what’s going on #they were missing for hours #it’s fucking rude that her parents weren’t more supportive like ik it was the 2000s and nobody believed in therapy but it wouldn’t be that #hard to switch cleo from dishwashing to hoovering and bin duty or fucking. yard work. or if it’s about helping out at dinnertime they could #teach her how to cook she could do meal prep #honestly not enough people thought cleo was pretty courageous like she was out there facing her fear everyday #she went through those tunnels she painted her room like the ocean and kept fish she helped emma with her training before the incident on #mako she was trying to overcome her fear every day #also. emma’s parents thinking she had depression and trying to help was A+ parenting but it was also possible that emma was also traumatise #like?? it’s one thing to swim in a pool and be fast it’s another to push against currents while pulling your friend who can’t swim #and the tunnels were long too they almost ran out of air #i think after that her reluctance to swim should make a bit of sense lmao

[theheirofthesharingan]

“Tell me, father, which to ask forgiveness for: what I am, or what I’m not?

Tell me, mother, which should I regret: what I became, or what I didn’t?”

- source

#i realized i almost never do anything with itachi and his parents so this one post is dedicated to them #the regret of killing them would have killed him before his actual death #what kind of child he was to raise a sword against his own parents? #his parents weren't even angry that he'd betrayed them at last #all the nightmares that would have followed him in which they hated him for everything and he would have no defense #who held him when he cried thinking of his mom? who comforted him when he choked on his tears thinking of his father's last words? #who was there for him when memories of his family became too much to handle and he would just collapse unable to breathe #maybe just maybe when the first symptoms of his illness showed he thought #that it was just one of his regular coughing fits that came with the onslaught of the memories of his parents #did he ever want to crawl back to sasuke and tell him how miserable he was and how much he missed their parents #where did the strength to be entirely indifferent and inhuman composure come to him #how much practice did it take? how many days? months? years? #did people around him ever suspect how much he was suffering? #all from thinking about his dead parents whom he killed #whose blood never left his tiny fingers and soaked into his flesh and blended into his own #how much misery was encapsulated into those expressionless features that never gave away even the slightest hint of pain #itachi uchiha #uchiha itachi #itachi #mikoto #mikoto uchiha #fugaku uchiha #fugaku

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

my brain keeps Flinching because i've had March 1st ingrained in my head for long enough now that every once in a while i'l glance at the date/time and go THE UPDA-ohhhh yeah...

#man. man... gazing longingly out of my window... #one more week. plus a few days for me probably. but one more week... #ALMOST THERE YALL WE CAN SURVIVE THE AGONY OF WAITING #reminding myself that it just gives me extra time to Draw Something and Flesh Out The Whiteboard and Post Those Theories- #absolutely unprompted #god i miss them. i miss them so much #re-listening to the audios just to Feel Something... #When Will They Return From The War...

[koffeenoe]

Them 💜💖

#illustration #my fanart #pmmm #puella magi madoka magica #akemi homura #kaname madoka #ultimate madoka #madohomu #homumado #homura x madoka #goddess madoka #HELLOOOOOOO A NEW DRAWIN AFTER SO LONG #it was almost a month 😭 #and it’s a sketch!!!!! 🤧 i’m sorry but not feeling really like drawing lately #haven’t touched my tablet LOL so I feel like I forgot everything I knew about drawing xd #I was thinking of sharing some pics of my trip here 👉🏻👈🏻 #I already miss those days lol #BTW I MISS YOU GUYS #been into bts so much lately as I am an army #and they’re like some of the best thing that has ever happened to me this 2022 even tho I knew about them since 2013 #and idk why I’m telling you this but yeah #VIVA MADOHOMU #when was the last time I made a pmmm drawing? 😭 ANNND MOST IMPORTANT I NEED SOME INFO ABOUT THE SEQUEL #T_T i’m going crazy you know aaaaargjsjj #I’m so sorry to homura my bby cuz I haven’t made enough art of you this year ;;;;;

[abirddogmoment]

I uncovered an archival Maverick photo from messenger chat files this week ❤

#dogblr #maverick #mav memories #my face #oh my god i miss mav #there arent really words #its been three months and its a little easier #but it still cuts straight through me like a knife #he deserved so many more years and so many more adventures #we deserved so many more adventures #big ones and little ones and life changing ones and ones that kind of sucked #its not fair that we didnt even get five years #but we stuffed a lot into those almost five years #a lot of adventures and a lot of accomplishments and a lot of love #and that has to count for something #every time i unconver an archival mav photo its a delight #but i also sort of dread it because i know theres going to be a day where there are no more archival photos to uncover #and thats a whole different unfairness that i didnt expect

[irritablepoe]

I WANT SOMEONE TO LOVE ME. I want someone to casually sit beside me and nudge me every now and then to get my attention. I want someone to pull me into a side-hug because they've been laughing about a joke of someone and want to share that joy with me. I want someone to carefully take my hand into theirs and look at my fingers or perhaps the lines on my hand just because they can. I want someone to look at me absentmindedly while they're thinking of something. I want someone to sit quietly beside me when I'm feeling down and just take my hand and squeeze it to tell me I'm not alone anymore.

#christ alive dhdhhsjwhddj this is so dumb🫠 #I'm sorry #had a lil bit to drink and I'm feeling affectionate okay #also my brother had his last day of school and he's been telling me about his plans with his friends while- #- he has free time and I'm literally so nostalgic rn #like that free time was so nice #i was basically eating dinner with them out qnd about and been going to bars and stuff #also sitting at a lake and the park and the river almost every day like. those were the times fr #those were the times i wasn't a isolated bitch lmao #well i was. just not that much #hhhhhhhhhhhhh i miss my irl friends😭 #if they're all back in germany we have to meet up literally omg🥲 #but also... they've so different lives now. I'm such an outsider somehow and idk #i can't really connect with them as much as i used to #which is fine but. i don't have any other friends with whom i could meet up #maaaaaaan life's so complicated 😔 #johnny's silly rambles #(also yes this is the kind of qp love i want plsplspls #)

[ohmygodthemuppets]

I have just been racking up the muppet finds over the past couple of weeks...

#had a good antiquing day today!! #bought those two as well as two different versions of oz #and i got 4 vinyls (not muppet related but finally found something with cab calloway on it!! i literally almost fainted) #i also saw a muppet show lunchbox but it was $60??? so sadly did not get that (it even had the mayhem on the back :( #me rambling #my things #muppet treasure island #the great muppet caper #the muppets #muppets #kermit #kermit the frog #miss piggy

[pfhwrittes]

charlie is a sleepy boy

(ft my voice going ‘whatta booooy’ and one of my housemate’s going ‘aww he’s so cute!’ in our own versions of the Talking to The Cat Voice)

#the horrible creechurs #ack! my voice! #do you remember on tumblr days of yore when you’d do accent challenges? #or your mutuals would ask you to read things and you’d record it? #i almost miss those days #(please note this is my special speaking to a cat voice)

[strawberry-cowmilk]

#nana polls #concert is not even until very long so theres a good chance I'll go with third mystery option #and the only thing I own is the corset #the playsuit was gone in the store in my size and I'm not paying shipping so one of these days I'll have to hunt it down at malls #I'm just excited about the whole thing #concerts I mean #except for that time the artist of my favorite song was performing somewhere I had the chance to travel to and I was booking tickets #but then I realised I'd miss the family vacation flight if I would go and we already paid for that so I had to miss it #I was about to grab a friend and go over there but rip to those plans #omg almost forgot both outfit options got lace

[ghost-proofbaby]

i’ve said it once, i’ve said it twice, i’ll say it a million times — writing willow and eddie will always feel like coming home to me. i know eddie x oc isn’t popular but- god, these idiots are so near and dear to my heart.

#i had to reread chapter 21 of shire for the scene i’m writing and i just #they were just babies #their early interactions will always get to me #eddie making jokes about sacrificing people in the woods?? subtly trying to remind willow of his reputation?? #willow not even so much as flinching and going on to show just how comfortable she had grown so quickly with him???? #the way she trusted him so ardently??? #the way he always saw bravery in her and had unwavering faith in her?? #god #sometimes when i reread it i can’t fathom that *I* wrote this shit #the metaphor of her running right into the water being her running right into the relationship with eddie??? #IDK WHO WROTE THIS BUT IT CERTAINLY COULDNT HAVE BEEN ME WHAT THE FUCK #ITD BE AN HONOR MISS JENKINS WHAT THE FUCK #THEIR ALMOST KISS WAAAHHH #‘don’t die on me’ hehehehe #aw no it’d be a shame if he ever had to say that in a serious context #psh no it wasn’t foreshadowing on my part ever who would do that #a monster that’s who #wow those of you that read my tags are gonna have a fuckin field day my bad #mordor #hailey shut up #hailey talks too much

[stinkrascal]

im almost at a follower milestone........!!!!!!!!!

#and also its almost 4 am but that part isnt important no the follower milestone however thats neat #jumps for joy #idk what i'll do for it maybe another sim dump but those are kinda annoying to put together so maybe not #maybe i'll just give all my followers a high five one by one i hope that suffices #thanks for idek how many years of antics it has been ! and trust me it has Been alright ! #love it here love u guys!! #i wrote straud legacy stuff all day today it was fun! i missed my strauds so much wow #anyways gn xo

[li-esonthefloor]

come closer

i am a normal fan and can be trusted with jade curtiss and luke fon fabre

#i am ofc missing jade chibi pillow. it is $$ when it pops up #and im missing the matching glasses standee set cause i didnt have $80 to spare when they were available.... #ive been looking at the slightly underwhelming normal figure set but they are a bit pricey for the quality as well #and the terribly ugly little chibi figures. maybe ill get them one day but that day is not today #i THINK this is everything i have #i might have two or three more charms squirreled away somewhere #i am Extremely unorganized so............. it is difficult to say #jadeluke #chatter tag #remember when the roll-on fragrances came out. i seriously almost dropped $150 on those things #and the jl ring.... man i still want it (SO BAD) but it doesnt exist anymore #ALSO I HAVE GOTOU-SAN'S SUMMER JL STANDEE ON THE WAY!!!!!! #i am so very sad i missed their doujin preorders but at least i got the charm #i wonder how much more my collection will grow #actually there are a number of things i still want but [averting eyes monkey] ive said enough i need to stop #anyway so like. yeah. totally normal right. im very cool and not weird about them

[stedebonnit]

Been thinking a lot recently about a post I saw that talked about how Stede has never really been vulnerable around Ed and has spent most of his time ensuring that those around him feel safe and comfortable. Its not like he's afraid to cry. Stede, always gentle, always radiant, doesn't seem like someone hiding his vulnerability, but when you think about each moment he shares with Ed - Ed is open and vulnerable with Stede (in a way he isn't with anyone else). Stede on the other hand never truly shares his feelings with Ed. At least not those darker ones that haunt him. Those about his family, about his childhood, about his self-doubt & self-hatred. I'm thinking about how that post mentioned that, in the end, what led Stede to leave was the fact that his own trauma and insecurity was so powerful and unaddressed that it led him to run. And now I'm thinking about how the most vulnerable Stede ever was with Ed (consciously, because he was vulnerable in his fever dream state) was when he looks to Ed for reassurance on the beach when he says "all I have are stupid ideas"

And how Ed, not very adept at reading the more subtle social cues, assumes this is just Stede being hyperbolic and casually says "shut up" in response. Because the truth is, he has no reason at this point to think that Stede truly thinks of himself that way, because up until now he's seen the kind, caring, and often outwardly overconfident mask that Stede wears around others.

And when he's told to shut up, Stede does. He's used to being shut down, not allowed to show vulnerability, and while this is far from being the dismissive, even mocking rejection that he's used to, he still takes this as a sign that he shouldn't talk about what's going on in his head, and following that he allows Ed to take the lead on the conversation, allows him to guide where they go next - asks Ed questions about himself.

In an extremely subtle, very timid way, this scene is Stede gently reaching out to Ed for support. Asking ever so quietly for comfort. Ed, understandably, doesn't see this. Again, why would he? He has no reason to believe that this is what's going on in Stedes head. And so he moves past it. And Stede, instead of clarifying that this was an invitation, shrinks back - hides away his vulnerability again - and allows this to be a conversation about what Ed wants. Its not like he doesn't want it to be about Ed, either. Thats why he draws back so quickly. The moment he senses some sort of need in Ed he jumps on it, ready to protect again. It doesn't even really feel like a rejection. He does get comfort from the conversation they have. He feels comforted by Ed's presence, the warmth of their plans, the love in that moment. Why would he risk losing that to be vulnerable?

And so he pulls that mask back on.

But it makes me wonder what it would look like, either in that moment, or in another moment in season 2, for Stede to truly be vulnerable for Ed. To extend that invitation and for Ed to see it for what it is - to see that this is Stede saying "let me bear myself out for you. I won't do it without your permission, but if you'll let me, I'd love to be honest with you."

And I want to see Ed reach back. To take that invitation and say "I want to see you. You don't have to ask, but because you did I need you to know you have my permission to be open. To be vulnerable. To be weak. To be you"

#ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd meta #stede meta #ed x stede #gentlebeard #sorry this is a lot lol #i just think about that moment a lot #because as a therapist (in training) those are always signs i look out for #people are great at putting on masks #but almost no one will say 'id like to be vulnerable' #instead they extend an invitation #a self depricating joke - a lighthearted story with underlining trauma #an offhanded comment about self worth #and these things are so often missed because theyre MEANT to be subtle #but when i first heard it my inner therapist was SCREAMING for ed to say 'what makes you day that' #and to see the invitation missed was painful #and itworked in the scene #again i wouldnt trade the content of that scene #and i dknt think ed was bad or wrong not to notice (most people dont!!) #but GOD did it stick out to me as a moment where stede was BEGGING to be seen

[girlcrushau]

#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/ #but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to. #until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you) #and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text. #i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in. #just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me. #im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest. #and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am

[fangomango]

😮‍💨 alas against all of my attempts to nkt fit into the Texas stereotype

It's was all futile for I am a simple Texan who eats breakfast tacos all the time and drinks sweet tea every god damn day

#i am not joking i do drink sweet tea almost every day #that cant be good for you.... #i mean i didnt pop out the womb and drink sweet tea but maybe for the past 3 years...probably less ive had sweet tea almost every day #...only with dinner though... #its a dinner drink...and an after school drink #and a lounging around drink... #ok basically a not breakfast drink #breakfast tacos though 🤤 ncfndnsndn i will marry them #like i normally get bacon and eggs but my favorite is carne asada with grilled onions and cilantro #fjfnfnfn YESSSS #like 2 days ago we had tacos for dinner with some really good tortillas (homeade is superior but we had no time to make em) and likencnf #jgnfndfk #i miss those tacos #we put homeade hot sauce(we had homeade salsa but it went bad :( ) and Pico de Gallo #some avocado too along side some local salsa #and CILANTRO OH MY GOD I LOVE CILANTO #i would eat it like a salad #im rambling #go take my breakfast taco order its good #its very basic but great #and go make homeade salsa #texas

[widevibratobitch]

my god. skinny people really just have like. No Idea huh just absolutely not a single clue lmao it's almost funny to watch fr but then id lie if i said i wouldn't fucking kill to be able to be that ignorant

#girl i am SO sorry people react with surprise when you say you're studying to be an opera singer because you're #*checks notes* skinny and attractive. so so sorry that must be literal hell for you huh how will you ever recover :(((( #no no please keep talking about how equally bad that is to the brutal fucking fatshaming and ED glorifying #in the industry that me and the only other fat girl in the room were talking about before you interrupted us <3 #anyway. we were talking about this one review of a quite famous professional music critic whose only comment about a fat mezzo in the cast #was 'miss xyz.... lose some weight'. not a single word about her singing/acting/whatever. but yeah no you're too sexy for an opera singer #and THAT is the real problem here girl i totally understand yeah <3 thoughts and prayers dearest. #earlier that same day this same girl was standing next to me in her bodycon dress and went #*pointing at her stomach that's so flat its almost concave* 'ughhhh what do i have to do to not look pregnant in this dress 😩😫' #and i said 'girl' and just looked at her and like the sudden horrified realisation on her face was lowkey hysterical #like omg you really did forget you're not talking to your other skinny friends with whom you can pat each other on the backs #and reassure each other that 'dw girl ur not fat at all ur so so sexy!' huh sjshsjshsjs #but yeah i dont like making people uncomfortable irl so i did reassure her she looks hot and pretty and skinny as all shit #let at least one of us have a nice evening and not feel Absolutely Fucking Disgusting ig <3 #and the day before that after i saw our (last ever btw never photographing myself with them ever again <3) picture and had a mini break down #the other even skinnier and smaller and petite-er crouched down next to me with the most guilty fucking expression and quietly asked me #if im alright and do i want her to delete those pictures (that she posted on two separate social media pages) and like #the look of immense fucking pity on her was even worse than seeing those pictures #like i know she meant well and was trying to be nice but my god. this really is how you all see me huh #like looking like me would be fate worse than death for yall #not even gonna mention the thing i just learned this friday that the retired ballerina who leads our ballet classes said about me #trying to cheer up the other fat girl who happened to have a bit of an emotional breakdown in the middle of the class :))))))) #like i am sooooooo so glad and honoured to be an inspiration to you. really. always happy to help. the exemplary Fat Girl Who Fucking Sucks #But Doesnt Let It Bother Her <333333 #like on one hand. yeah it really does make me wanna jump off a cliff. but on the other. its just hilarious sjdgsjsgsj #you sure are right miss ma'am. i sure don't let this bother me at all. i am famous for my uncanny ability to Not Be Bothered by all this <33 #but shes new. its ok. how could she know about the last two years when i was getting panic attacks and sobbing myself to sleep every tuesday #but yeah no. [lauren cooper voice] am i bovvered? am i bovvered tho? i aint even bovvered!