#I can find it again if anybody wants it

[thimbleb3rries]

I had a more finished version of this but my file got corrupted and I lost it 💔💔 I’m disappointed to say the least

But hey! Kagami and Marinette :DD

#marigami #miraculous ladybug #mlb marinette #kagami tsurugi #marinette dupain cheng #mlb kagami #I referenced this off a post from Pinterest #I can find it again if anybody wants it #I just wanted to draw them together ❤️ #miraculous ships #miraculous ladybug fanart #I really wish I had the higher quality/finished version of this drawing :( #I think I drew the little symbol on kagami’s jacket reversed oops #not necessarily meant to be ship art but feel free to interpret it that way! #they are very cute either way #i love these two #my art <3

[babydarkstar]

so many griddlehark doomers on this website. smh my head…….theyre doomed by fate AND the narrative to be intrinsically intertwined no matter what. i cannot conceive of a finished locked tomb series where theyre not lying dead in each other’s arms or existing together in some fugue state of unbeing. not even death can separate the lesbians that scratch each other bloody and then cry in each other’s arms. they have been fated to orbit one another literally since their conception. one flesh one end, bitch.

#also harrow literally lobotomized to forget gideon and she still couldnt in the end #anyways i often think abt the whole #‘i gave you my whole life and you didnt even want it’ #and the thing is like. yeah gideon. she didnt want it because she never wanted to lose YOU who was attached to it #you who she just bonded with. has had a very tumultuous girlbestfriend situationship with #when i think abt how young they are i fucking scream #this is why i hate john gaius. insane man. kill him to death alecto #tlt #griddlehark #tlt spoilers #anyways. thinking about the saddest girl in the whole world tonight :( #this is a john gaius HATE account all my homies HATE john gaius #anyways. why is everybody so so scared that theyre going to have a terrible endgame #baby theyve already been falling through a terrible endgame thru the duration of their entire existence #i will say. if harrowhark ends up with anybody else i’ll have to off myself #i support womens wrongs but ianthe can go be wrong somewhere far away from harrow #im about to go through the entire series again so i can screenshot and prove why im right about this #theres a narrative thread to follow #and never once have i been afraid of them not finding their way back to each other #the thing is like. above everything. these girls exist to orbit each other #gideon thinking harrow is her past when harrow has always been her present and her future #harrow thinking gideon’s death will be her undoing #because to harrow. gideon is unable to die. she WOULDNT die for so long #and when she found something to die for. she went to it with her whole being #but heres the thing. one flesh one end is more than just becoming one body and dying one death #idk im incoherent i need to talk abt this in a post instead of tags #i will. soon

[moongothic]

You know I wasn't going to post about this, but the more I think about it the more it drives me up the walls

So when Luffy and co release Crocodile from jail, it's specifically under the threat that if Crocodile tries anything funny, well, Iva-chan has a trick up their sleeve to put Crocodile back in-line.

So what the fuck was that actually about? What is Crocodile's secret weakness? I'm specifically looking at the way this is phrased in the manga, because the anime's added dialogue kinda messes with what's implied here. But what Iva specifically says is that Ivankov in particular holds the key to one of Crocodile's weaknesses, but they'll stay quiet about it as long as Crocodile behaves himself ("Vataashi wa koitsu no yowami wo hitotsu nigitteru", a very clunky but literal translation could be "One of his weaknesses is within my grasp". The way Viz translated the line is a bit different so I'm not bothering with getting a cap of the panel, you wouldn't be able to tell how these lines were phrased in Japanese based on Viz's translations anyways) (The dialogue Toei added was Crocodile furiously shouting at Iva-chan, telling them to not say anything and Iva-chan reminding Croc to watch his tone or else they'll reveal Croc's past to everyone. A lot of people don't remember this was in-fact added by Toei, hence I wanted to clarify/remind what happened in this scene originally)

And now. Obviously. When Oda went out of his way to introduce a brand new character whose entire personality is being queer and their power is giving people magic HRT. And then like five chapters later re-introduces Crocodile. And tells us that these two have Secret Beef. And never proceeds to fucking tell us what the hell that was about. Yes, the natural conclusion one would come to would be that Crocodile is stealth trans. That is basic, good storytelling. You (re)introduce two characters, tell us they have beef, one has a very specific ability; you're supposed to connect these dots in your mind. So that now, if Oda revealed to us tomorrow that Crocodile was canonically trans, it would not surprise anyone because it's already been set-up in the story, by this very scene. It's a logical conclusion.

But. I'm becoming more and more convinced that Iva-chan's blackmail might actually not be about Crocodile being trans.

Like the general fandom assumption for the past 15 years has been that Crocodile's stealth trans, but we actually don't know he's stealth. He could be openly trans, and between that being a borderline requirement for Crocodad to be real (since he would've been a Shichibukai for years before Luffy was even born) and the possibility that his earring could specifically be a gay earring, like. Yeah. Crocodile could be openly trans. If Crocodile's perfectly happy to let the whole world know he's gay, then him being trans shouldn't have to be a secret either. We the readers could just be unaware of it because it wasn't relevant information to us, and his transition would be old ass news in-universe and not worth bringing up.

And thus, if Crocodile isn't stealth, then Iva-chan can't blackmail him by threatening to out him, becaus he can't be outted.

Now for a while I did considder that Iva-chan could've been actually threatening to detransition Crocodile if he tried anything funny. Surely he would hate that, so much so that he might not have wanted to even hear Ivankov suggest it. But thinking about it. Unless Iva-chan can use Armanent Haki or get Crocodile moisturized, they shouldn't be able to hit Crocodile actually. Like Croc's Logia makes him impossible to hit unless he specifically allowed himself to be touched. So even if Iva-chan tried to surprise attack Crocodile with Estrogen, Croc should just turn to sand automatically, the attack should not land.

Meaning Iva-chan shouldn't be able to detransition Crocodile against his will, at least not without Haki and we don't know if they can use it, so that can't be Crocodile's weakness either.

And so we have to ask the question. What the fuck is that weakness then that Ivankov mentioned?

All we really know is that Crocodile doesn't want this weakness to be brought up, it's a secret. And for all we know Iva-chan might be the only person in the world who knows about it.

And I just. Like.

There is one weakness, kind of a universal one that many people could have, one that has been brought up time-and-time again post-timeskip, one that has become more and more relevant in the story, especially now at the begining of the Final Saga.

A secret weakness.

If pregnancy is what cracked Crocodile's egg and he transitioned immidiately/soon after giving birth, then it's entirely plausible Iva-chan could know Crocodile had a secret child. And surely he'd want nothing more than for his child to be safe, not end up in trouble because of him. And Ivankov most certainly could put that child in danger, especially now that Crocodile was officially no longer on the World Government's side, there'd be no protection for the baby. All Ivankov had to do was leak the information out, that Sir Crocodile had a child, and anybody who had beef with him could get their revenge by attempting to find the child.

Like I'm just saying. This could line up nicely, actually

#Moon posting #OP Meta #Sir Crocodile #Crocodad #Keyword COULD #I know one might WANT to argue that surely Ivankov wouldn't put someone's child in danger #But Iva-chan can be mean or cruel if they feel like it. Remember they had no intention to help Luffy nor Bon-chan Luffy not begged.... #...for them to save Bon-chan while HE was on death's bed. And they did forcibly transition that prince (to be fair he did attack first etc) #Point is; If Crocodad Real then Iva-chan would know that Crocodile's Secret Child would be 17 by now #And even if they did leak the info about the child's existence as long as they don't know the child's name it might not do that much damage #Like it could send people on a wild goose chase to find the child but without any leads how could anybody find the kid #And again. The kid would be 17. Surely that's old enough for them to defend themselves if they did get discovered #And hey what's the alternative here. Ivankov outting a fellow queer. That's not exactly great either. #The blackmail's gonna be kinda fucked up regardless but also Crocodile did attempt to nuke 1 million people so who cares about his feelings

[em0-opossum]

sick of people acting like being alone/lonely = being single. ofc you're allowed to feel like that, I'm aro and could not care less that I don't have a partner so I have no idea what it feels like to have that experience, but god just once I'd like to find poetry and art made by people who know how it feels to have no friends and feel lonely no matter how many people are around you and know that you don't belong no matter where you are

#I'm lucky enough to have two good friends right now who i love very much #but that doesn't mean that they understand how i feel or how i have felt #and knowing you're alone in that overbearing loneliness just alienates you more and further perpetuates the feeling #i still miss out on so many opportunities to be friends with people i genuinely want to be friends with so bad because i can't talk to them #i still get so paranoid sometimes and stop replying to anyone because I'm convinced they hate me and there's something wrong with me #sometimes to the point where i avoid teachers who i need to talk to because i am sure that everything i say will be wrong #even someone being nice can feel awful because i think that they just feel bad or are pretending and actually trying to make fun of me #i know nobody actually knows who i am or how i feel because i hide everything to fit in with people and what they need/want #i have never felt like i belong anywhere and trying to explain that to people is so hard #there are times i love being alone but knowing that I've missed out on every regular human experience is so isolating #i just want to be normal and have friends i love and hang out with and talk to and not feel like every word i say could be the end of me #and when i try to find anybody who relates all i get is “oh im alone again :(( being single is awful” #i really do empathize with those people but it is nothing like my experience of loneliness #(tags are just for finding people who relate) #social anxiety #avpd #avoidant personality disorder #actuallyavpd #loneliness #chronic loneliness

[sailor-aviator]

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#y'all my anxiety has me spiraling as of late because it just feels like my whole life is falling apart at this point #i got fired from my job a couple of months ago and i've been scrambling to try and find a new one #i work part time at a store i really love but it pays shit #and i've had all of these interviews and no one wants to hire me and i just feel unhireable at this point and it's hard not to despair #and on top of that i'm struggling with my self esteem again #i know i'm not ugly per se but i'm struggling with feeling confident in the way i look as a big girl #and all of my old insecurities are rearing their ugly heads and i want to cry just thinking about it #and i feel like such a failure right now even though i know that life has its ups and downs but my stupid brain just won't chill #and i don't really have any friends in the area because they all either moved away or didn't live here to begin with #and i'm tired of living at home because of my stupid student loans and not being able to afford to live on my own #i have one person i hang out with and we just met and i don't want to scare them off because they're a great friend and person #and i just feel like i'm never going to meet anybody who's going to love me the way i want to be loved because of my looks #also because it's me. and i feel like i'm so flawed as a person that no one will ever fall in love with me #and i've just been feeling really alone lately and i'm trying to do things to make me feel better but it's just so HARD right now #and i love writing because it gives me a chance to explore some of my feelings and it's something i genuinely love to do #and i'm sitting here waiting for the day things start to get better. and i know we all joke and i'm gonna sounds so dumb for saying this #but i feel like i was meant to be famous? or do something great idk and it's something everyone has always told me #and idk if my feelings of inadequacy are because of that or what but i'm scared that my life is going to mean nothing in the end #anyway this was a lot and you can pretend like you didn't read it. i just wanted to write some of my feelings down

[babacontainsmultitudes]

Alright tumblr it's been real but I gotta take a break for my own sake, which knowing me could mean for 2 days or 2 months. In any case I'll still be checking tumblr just hopefully a lot less- as per usual don't be shy to @ me if you wanna make sure I see something, and my ask box is always open! And do take care all of you 💜

#idk why I always feel the need to notify people when I'm gonna be away lol I guess I don't want anyone to think I'm ignoring them #but anyways yeah no way I'll be able to keep myself away from tumblr completely but I've been overwhelming myself a lot #once again at a point where fandom is sort of getting in the way of me actually being able to enjoy the podcast too #which isn't anybody's fault just y'know how it is. #which is also why I probably won't be in certain discord servers very much either at least for a bit #this and well socially I often find myself a bit overextended and that can be overwhelming at times #but friendos don't be shy about DMs! #Oh! Clip requests still open btw. Nobody's sent any in haha but for the record they're still open. #ok ok that's it that's it lol seriously though take care folks <3

[rocaillefox]

the anime romantic killer does genuinely seem like just a tone shift away from becoming a horror show

#ramblings #only a few episodes in but if this happened i think i would bite somebody #maybe it is the lgbt in me but being forced into potentially romantic situations #AND HAVING PEOPLE MIND CONTROLLED INTO THOSE SITUATIONS? #seems Genuinely horrifying. i would not feel comfortable getting into a relationship with anybody in this situation #not bc of anything on my end but bc mind control . completely erases all consent #and like. forget about Informed consent eithrr if they dont know about the wizard #and a wizard thats intentionally taking away things that you find joy in ??? #instead of encouraging you to meet other people through those interests????????? #a wizard whos forcing you to wear more 'girly' clothes despite discomfort??? #like. actually wearing clothes that have cats on them is 100% fine! you can make that into a style! #and forcing you to wear makeup?????????????????? #sorry this would be literal hell on so many levels for me. im watching to see how horrible a situation it wiuld be for me #and also; shock that there are people who might adapt well to this #edit: NOT TO MENTION THE WEIRD MORALIZING ABOUT FOOD? #like yeah eating only chocolate isnt healthy but its her choice if she wants to do that? #but again: forcing someone to give something up instead of idk. Offering Other Options In Addition ??? #and also the stealing away her cat... #AND LIKE. she doesnt need to become dependent on a person. and taking away her comforts until she does is blackmail #like if a guy was unable to play sports until he got a girlfriend that would be obviously fucked up right #why is it suddenly seen as more acceptable and not abusive to take away everything relating to a girl's interests until she finds a boyfrien #ntm the literal destruction of property to organize the whole scenario wtf.

[akchually]

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#so there's this girl #and there's this conversation I had where I told Prettyboy about a coworker whose version of polyamory is #'she says she needs me back in Washington but I don't have a job there. I keep telling her to get another boyfriend while I'm out of town #just make sure he's not around when I visit so I don't have to fight anybody' #That tickled me. And the conversation ended with me getting like a third of a hall pass. I gotta call if anything happens. #Call so Prettyboy feels like he's part of my romantic life even when the romance isn't him #Which is the opposite track of the one I was giggling about okay yeah #But like my best friend here is. Super pretty. Ridiculously pretty. #And kind and works hard and takes care of the people she loves. She's always finding ways to help me. #And she's vegan and loves my cooking and that's my love language okay #I wanna make sure she eats I wanna see what happens if she's given full reigns on dominance I want I yearn #And we talk for hours about nothing but it's been weeks since I've been like one third available and I dunno how to tell her #Or if I should or if I'd be just another person in her life who wants her for what she can do for them #I think my intentions are good but it's lonely. The long distance and the seasonal work and the isolated town up in the mountains. #And maybe I just want to be held. #I know she's grey ace and a lot of the romantic relationships she's had in the past were very manipulative and not what she really wanted #Maybe that's what's pulling me in so hard like am I just insecure and want to prove myself yet again #I've always been drawn to flaky people #I wanna be the one person they show up for #This is the thing that I actually need to process in therapy and can't just lsd the anxiety away #Though that worked for most things #Take hallucinagens. Once. #I'm such a hugger but only worked up the courage to hug her a few days ago. #We've been talking (lowercase t) for months. #And I know she has her own long distance unicorn relationship back in Kentucky. I'm hoping the subject will just surface again. #And then I can say hey #I think you're really pretty

[dutybcrne]

It’s always so fun to explore genderbends for how the story gets affected

#//Yes; this is abt me mulling over Fem!Kaveh again jdnfnf #☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Like #//Make hkvh both gals and ofc; it’s basically the same. but Yuri #//Which for me personally? I find it Good Shit. Always love a good wlw; ESP with their dynamic #//Plus it’d make the whole of the archon quest so much funnier/better for me for various reason djbfb #//Then the mixed ones is so good too! #//Fem!Haitham & Kaveh? Girlboss and sad wet cat man #//Fem!Kaveh and Haitham? Girlfailure and Unbothered King #//In both of those cases; Kaveh having an Extra incentive to keep their cohabitation a secret #//In the first; bc he won’t want anyone talking bad abt Haitham bc he’s living with her #//Won’t allow it; Refuses to increase the chance for any rumors to bother her. Would FIGHT if anybody talks smack #//Even if she prolly doesn’t Care abt any rumors anyways. he’s Deffo head over heels partly bc of that side of her #//And bc she’s just so Cool. Strong stoic lady; badass in all she does. always has been; always will be. how can he NOT admire her? #//Deffo buys her unprompted gifts in gratitude & they bicker over his mora use lol. he deffo complains less over the housework #//Instead; takes over more of it so she can focus on her duties and have more free time for herself; out of personal feelings #//with Fem!Kav? Kav is worried abt her AND his rep. She’s already in debt and in a mess as Is #//But roping Haitham into the mess of the rumors and what could result from them? She worries how he’d react #//Either favorably or not. Bc that is a Lot to deal with either way #//Doesn’t know if it’s be worse for him to kick her out over them. bc she’d DIE if he tried ‘taking responsibility’ otherwise hfbfb #//Esp since he takes care of a Lot for her as IS. It’s embarrassing depending on him so much; feels it’d only make him resent her in the en #//It embarrasing in every version; tbh; but Fem!Kav would find it more frustrating in particular #//Esp depending on her needs and how the clients treat her. Op; that’s going into a Serious topic #//Ahhh; but that’s PART of the charm of the gender ends and stuff! #//Prolly not for a little post like this tho nfnf. Better save THAT for a verse write up #//Which there WILL be; mark my words; bc Fem!Kaveh has a GRIP on me #//Her and other lil bends my brain has been toying with hdbdbdb

[ennuidays]

i actually cant do this

#im literally the dumbest person i know #everyone else works so much harder and they get so much done #even the way they talk is motivated even if they say its not #everyone is so smart and im slow and cant get anything done correctly or on time #i wish i got straight a's i wish i had something to prove myself #all i have to go on is numbers that dont even matter because nobody takes them #im just some lazy piece of shit who happens to be good at test taking #i dont know anything #im failing my clasdes again #i can barely keep myself above a 3.0 #how much time will it take to get me fixed ???? everyone says its a slow process and you have to find what works for you #but i dont know what works for me and neither does anybody else #every therapist i talk to is at a loss w wht to do with me #am i trying ??? am i worse off than i thought???? #i tell myself i can function like anyone else but i cant even prove that #im undeserving of what i have #i get stressed when anythinf good happens to me whrn other people would kill for this opportunity #God strike me down ive wasted my years here i cant keep this up #i ddont deserve the painful death i want #Haha okay im over it

[bugsmoocher]

saw a big fat cricket at work today

#now that everybody has been distracted by rhe cricket i am going to complain in the tags so dont look unless you really want to ^_^ #god my prides gotten so fucking stomped on these past few days i dont even know what i did wrong at the job interview #how do they hire this deadbeat i know but not me #ive never gotten turned down before and i did everything well and i said yes to all the shit they wanted from me #everybody was so sure id get it and it was going to fix everything #but now im sitting here worried about finding a new job all over again #once more worried about not getting an apartment because i dont make enough #once more getting sprayed in the fucking face with rotten fish at my shitty job and trying not to cry in my car #sitting here trying not to bother anybody with it #idk how longer i can do this shit man #if more shit goes wrong i think im gonna drive my car into a lake

[quenthel]

Also reading list of books that got recommended to me, or stuff I wanted to read (NOT scientific stuff):

Haunting of Hill House

Annihilation

rest of Earthsea

the Witcher books (in Hungarian bc the eng translation sucks supposedly)

Circle by Madeline Miller

The Algebrist

Miracle in the Andes

Dune

The Disposessed

Stuff I found in my yearly notebook I just wrote down and forgot abt:

Ariadne’s Threads: The Construction and significance of clothing in the Aeglan (?) Broze Age by Beruice A. Jones

stuff from Kristeva,  Irigaray, Zizek

Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami

Giovanni’s room

Brothers Karazamov (in Hungarian too)

How you lose the time war

Comics n Manga:

That one Batgirl run everyone is insane about

All of the Outsiders

Csm Manga

Berserk

#quenthel special #i dont remember the rest AUGH #reading list #if anybody wants to recommend me more shit OR we talked abt them feel free and i will add them #also i really should dig trough mel's drive again to see what i can find bc there was so much interesting stuff there

[jovalencia]

just.whatever.

#okay this is gonna make me sound like the loserest loser ever but we all know I have a hard time finding friends #and I haven’t made any at college and the couple of people that I’m closest with I don’t really like #and I think that it’s only gonna get harder for me to make friends since I don’t. drink or smoke or anything. #and I don’t like being around when people are. and that’s not me being like morally superior or something I don’t care if you do but I just #don’t really like being around people when they’re high or drunk. like I Really don’t like it it makes me super uncomfortable #(I could have a whole conversation about that but you get it) #and I never will be the type of person who wants to do any of those things which is fine and I also don’t like to party or dance #nor do I like crowds or anything #which again is fine #but it seems like when anybody hangs out it almost always involves drinking or smoking of some kind and I just #like yeah if those people want to be friends with me they can not do it around me and that’s fine #but they’ll always have their friends that they will do it with and I feel like they’ll be like…closer #god this all sounds ridiculous since this is literally not a situation that has happened yet but #if/when I do make friends I feel like I’m always gonna be like a b or c their friend at least #not to make my life seem like a sob story but I’ve probably only had about two friends in my life that I think had me in their a tier #and It’s just gonna get harder because I’m some fuckin weirdo who not only doesn’t drink or smoke or go out but also somebody #who wouldn’t even want to be around while any of that was happening #and that severely limits my friend pool when I already have a really difficult time making friends. slay

[somelazyassartist]

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#i know I've been venting a lot recently and I'm really sorry but i am. so stressed out with my job right now #for multiple reasons and it sucks so bad #and it just got worse a bit and so I'm conflicted with what I'm supposed to do #because i WANTED to give myself a later deadline so i can take the Etsy stuff slower #because you know!! already stressed about that and tons of other stuff!! #but now i feel like i have to push my deadline up even further than it was before because of some stupid bullshit #pardon my language. it's not anybody's fault. it was two cases of website malfunctions. #I'm not ranting about the people working at either place because they weren't in control of it I'm just kinda mad about the issues itself #cuz i made a bunch of stuff for the Shoppes right?? but it turns out! #there was an issue in the system which meant they couldn't sell anything and nobody thought to tell me until i asked why my stuff wasn't up #and so that's like. 3 cloaks‚ 8 hats‚ and 4 plushies that i could've sold on Etsy a month ago that just never were up for sale #and today at Joann's i had a few issues with mechanical based issues too! #so i went there to get more supplies because if the shop isn't selling i need more stock to sell online to make up for it right? #so i put in half my order for pick-up and was going to get the rest while i was there because i had coupons for both #soooo. the other things i was going to get there were said to be on sale. and then i find out there #that the website hadn't updated right and the sale was cancelled early. so i paid way more than i thought i was going to #and! since the website wasn't updating right! the order i put in for pick up didn't show up in their system until too late in the day! #so i have to go BACK to pick up the half of my order i already paid for and didn't get today #and again since the website didn't update some of the things that it said were in stock sold out in this store so i have to get them online #which is another bit of money I'll have to spend to finish the projects i got fabric for today #i know worrying and stressing isn't going to do me any good #i know that i should probably just sleep this off (if I'm able to) and sort things out tomorrow when I'm feeling better #but it's just kinda upsetting already having a lot of other personal issues i don't want to talk about publicly to deal with #and then having issues with my job and only way of making money on top of it #i know it's a small stupid thing to be upset about #but it's like a needle in a haystack but if the haystack was also all needles #sure i can fix that problem-needle but i hurt myself on every other little problem-needle i have to dig through #it's just so many little things and it all just has been wearing me down. and i know it'll be fine eventually but it still sucks right now #vent #again I'm sorry for venting so much i just kinda have to get this one thing I'm comfortable talking about off my chest

[fancycolours]

New Chicago single out this Friday! 🖤

#Again... you can find it on Spotify / Apple Music / Deezer / and YouTube #A reminder for anybody who is interested in checking it out! #I know a few of my mutuals might give it a listen and that makes me happy omg. #We should totally talk about it after and share our thoughts. If you want to that is. #Told y'all that this is all I'm talking about for now! #So exciting! #lexie lamm talks