#I could only really make noises

[mipexch]

since layer 7 dropped you can send literally any enemy to go kill something wicked repeatedly & v2 being the one to do that is just really funny to me

#ultrakill #something wicked #v1 #v2 #its gonna fucking KILL YOU!!!! #it literally circles around them like it does v1 and its really funny to me. like Really funny #you can hear something wicked start hissing as v2 hunts it down #literally almost got me when i was camping out in the terminal room but v2 saved me......... #very fun to mess with #minos was funnier but much worse #couldnt even figure out where they went i could just hear him going DIE and slamming into the ground before something wicked started making #-noises again and teleporting #i stand by something wicked being the ONLY thing v1 is afraid of #because me too. honestly #gen art

[puppyeared]

When you backread through a fun conversation you had with someone for hours an angel gets its wings

#I was talking to my brother about Norman doors and I had fun in my UX class and he was telling me about demon cores and the trolley problem #in his class. AND I remembered to take my meds today so I can feel every cell in my body. i can feel the neurons rubbing together #and yesterday I infodumped about the specialists bullseye chart to crow and how it ties with witch hat atelier #WHICH I MANAGED TOGET THEM TK READ IM SO HAPPY. I MAKE SQUEALING GUINEA PIG NOISES EVERY TIME THEY TELL ME WHAT THEYVE READ SO FAR. AHH #i might not even be scratching the surface with witch hat there are so many themes i could not possibly fathom or go over my heasd #and thats what makes it so exciting there are so many spaces in between that you can fill with your thoughts and i. i #waves my hands around manically #for anyone interested in my insane ramblings. the bullseye chart is from are we all scientific experts now by harry collins #in my own words its basically saying everything we know about anything is a game of broken telephone #and it discusses how information gets lost in translation between experts and laymen including things that arent in control #one of the main points was how things that happen between experts are complicated including debates and findings #that you can only really understand thru research and experience in that field and cant be smoothly shared without it being reworded #and risking some of those key points. or even concepts that are hard to understand that cant be shared at all #like if you tried to tell me about how DNA works using words scientists are familiar with but i am NOT- i risk missing concepts that i need #to understand to know how it works on the level you understand. or i risk having it reworded and understanding it but not on that level #AND IT DOES TIE TO WITCH HAT THE WITCH AND NORMAL FOLK COMMUNITIES I PROMISE. ITS SO INTERESTING #anyway i spent hours reading back thru that conversation and i might as well admit it goes for almost every fun conversation i have #and it might be the 20mg of adderall in my body but i am in such a state of peace and love i have to verbalize it. ahh #yapping

[silenthillbunni]

lately i've been finding it so so hard to be positive and hopeful. and it's making me so bitter and hateful. i hate it but i dont know what to do about it

#idk it's just all too much to deal w #i have sm pains and physical discomforts. money issues. stress bc my avpd is making school very hard for me to finish #i have suicidal thoughts and really bad anxiety every single day. i've basically begged the mental health care system for help for 7 months #like i've kept contacting them and asking them but they havent done anything at all for me. i dont even get to see anyone and talk #i just dont know what to do or how to handle it #im so stressed abt the future. i have to finish school but then choose smth so i can go to school/get a degree & get a job #im holding my mom down and back and i need to find a way to kove out from her and support myself #i have no friends to meet or hangout with and destress with etc etc and im really feeling the lack of it #idk the list just goes on and on and on #nothing is working and idk how to fix it. but also i know that me and only me have to find a way bc there is no help #i struggle bc of my avpd and mental health but there is no treatment for me to get. they just dont wanna give me *any* help at all #im just so frustrated. and every day is the same. everyday is full of some physical pain anxiety stress worries suicidal thoughts etc etc #i cant break free idk how!!!! my life is so fkn boring and pathetic and miserable #i never get to relax bc all of a sudden last year i got extremely noise sensitive. and it's never quiet anywhere in this city #anyway yeah i could just keep going. and like now im feeling anxious bc my tooth is aching :(( #it -everything- never stops or lets up or relents. and it makes me wanna die even more. #so... idk im just incapable of being hopeful abt anything and that's really killing me idk

[sysig]

Bad time of it, all things considered (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Blood #Just a bit but y'know - Enough #It honestly made me So sad that it took until his canonmates saw it happen that someone /finally/ acknowledged his spontaneous cuts D: #Like I get it it's dark and it's hard to see but his skin just opened up and he made a noise about it! The possible danger!! #And then by that point he's just so used to everyone ignoring it that their concern for him is barely even a factor weh ZEX ;; #Plus it's just a cool effect haha - sudden blood from nothing! Very rich mental movement #At least Max had someone concerned for him about it <3 Not that he could do anything about it but even just the validation of seeing it! #He has enough cuts on him :( Poor tenderized flesh #He gets all crabby from being sore from healing constantly haha :'D Of course he would! #One thing I found very interesting was the scar sidedness :0 Most of the examples in the gallery have his scar and missing eye opposite #But that's not necessarily the case! I actually scoured mid-read and there /are/ a couple instances of matching side! #They're very tiny so I overlooked them upon first viewing hehe ♪ But they're there! It's very interesting to me! #I like the aesthetics of the opposite - probably because I'm more used to it lol - but I can see the appeal and reasoning for the other way #I do honestly enjoy how much is open to interpretation and allowance uwu♪ And what's consistent! Like how it's always his right eye :D #That tracks hehe ♫ #Haha his meeting with his delightfully inept counselor - I'm pretty sure I was actually more angry about his supposed injury than he was #He chilled out pretty quickly while I was just - A Scratched Cornea??? The disrespect!! #So happy with his eyebrow expression on that one as well ah <3 #It really does make me curious for how the staff is kept there - they don't /seem/ malicious during the day! But they're also unaware #It's interesting where the lines of reality are between everyone :D Very interesting ♪ #Capping off with another song my playlist is looking quite healthy now hehe #Flagpole Sitta is one of those songs that only comes up for me every half dozen years or so but when it Does - phewph #It is /such/ a ZEX song to me now hehe <3 The flirtiness and exasperation - the defeatism even! So many killer lines #I think my favourite is ''I'm not sick but I'm not well'' ask me to read into that I will I'm gonna I'll do it even if you don't ask me lol #So fun to draw those lapses in control the poor dear ♥ #The digital reconstruction there was a lot of fun as well actually :D I think I nailed it :3 Pulled around from all over the page! Pleased ♪

[pawbeanies]

in a horrible embarrassing no good turn of events i woke up today squirming and grinding against a pillow between my legs ..?? was i doing it in my sleep ..???? it will forever be a mystery to me...

#like i dont usually move much!! in my sleep!! or at all really #but i usually have a pillow between my legs bc of how i like to sleep #so like .? this is new. and perplexing. much to think about i fear #like woke up mid squirm and mid making a little noise(?????) i think ????? #which like. whuh. huh?? whuh??? #even when i was doing leik. pk mn sleep where it tracks if u Make Noise it never picked up anything for me so like. thats New .?!?! #was i DREAMING liek i dont even dream!!!!! #it was also one of those liek. wake up at 4am go back to sleep type things so like. what !! what !!! #this is my diary im more embarrassed than anytjing like. i didnt know i could do that!! #now im sitting here at work like what if ive done it before and i just didnt know. what then. what is my recourse #unfair sick and twisted that im apparently squirmy and whiny but only when im not. AWAKE to be aware of it!! bitch!!! #i can never sleep w anyone again )like sleep next to them #because what if like were sleeping and i do THAT it's EMBARRASSING

[unlucky-words]

contemplating wyllstarion and the “where were you twenty years ago? ten years ago? where were you when i was new? when i was one of those innocent young maidens you always come to? how dare you! how dare you come to me when i am this?” quote from the last unicorn

#horse noises #theres a post somewhere about astarion and why it makes so much sense that he would hate you being heroic in act 1 so much #thats like ‘hes done the impossible and escaped the worst only to find out that the world doesnin fact care.’ #‘people go on long dangerous quests for othe rpeople without promise of reward and the world overflows with compassion’ #‘but for whatever reason those fonts always dried up before they reached you’ #I WOULD BE MAD TOO #like #OUGH #i fucking love that post #wish i had it on hand #because #man. wyll could really fuck astarion up

[sylvanskull]

As someone who's always quiet, as in I've never made a whimper or a moan or anything when I'm engaged with myself, I absolutely adore when anyone makes noise- a moan, groan, whimper, whine, growl, any of it like YES tell me how you're feeling babes I LOVE that.

#i only thought about it cause i was listening to an audio #but it really makes me wish i made noise more. like i wanna make the cute sounds :( #but nothing comes out #maybe a dom could help me out with that? #just kidding of course #unless one of yall wants to take one for the team to try to guide me #im just saying i cant possibly be completely non noise making there has to be something there #nsft #nsft sub #nsft puppy #nsft bottom

[sonknuxadow]

every time someone tries to make the i love captains scene in sonic prime about that one pirate shadow costume that has never been relevant to anything ever while completely ignoring that knuckles was the captain actually being discussed there an angel loses its wings

#honestly i just find it annoying in general when people take stuff from sonic and knuckles' relationship/interactions #and apply it to sonic and shadow instead even if it doesnt make sense or is a huge reach while acting like knuckles doesnt exist #this isnt the only example of that but its definitely one of the most blatant #i feel like sonic and knuckles could literally do the gayest shit imaginable on screen #and people would still ignore it or find a way to make it about shadow somehow #well this isnt JUST about shipping just their dynamic in general but i definitely notice it the most in the context of shipping #people want sonic and shadow to be sonic and knuckles so bad yet continue to obsess over so/nadow and ignore so/nknux. sad ! #another thing i notice is sonic could have a very similar interaction with both shadow and knuckles but with knuckles its cricket noises #and with shadow people act like its the height of romance and theyre basically canon boyfriends already . like #actually when it comes to sonic shipping specifically the more popular a pairing is the more likely it is to annoy me #so maybe its for the best that most of the ones i actually really like are usually being ignored and overshadowed all the time #but also i probably wouldnt be so annoyed by popular sonic ships if the sonic fandom would pick actually good ships to make popular #(not saying s/onadow is bad that last part about popular ships being bad was more about other pairings)

[unexpectedbrickattack]

What are your top 3 Peppino ships?

I feel like i am not the person to ask about this bc i only have one ship and its pepstavo 😭😭

#answered #// #/// #//// #///// #i dont even know other popular ships 😭 #like i think i saw him w the noise but i dont really like. the noise… not enough to ship him w anyone but noisette #if i were going to really REALLY try to make a ship out of something #through the specific lens of ‘platonic but homoerotic at the same time’ it would be him and pepperman bc of the comic #as in #when peppino is invited to galas and art exhibits people are like oh my look at him; a new consort?? #and meanwhile hes like eating the entirety of the appetizers table #‘no no no; not this time. he is simply my muse…and i cannot live without him.’ #*dramatic sigh* #tbh i am more shocked that u said 3 bc that implies theres more than 3 and i could ONLY list three if i tried super hard 😭 #can u tell i really dont go through the main tag??? 😭 #NOT to sound like some fucking snob or elitist #but i am like so wholly devoted on characterization #bc at my core i am someone who loves worldbuilding sm #that ships kinda come afterward #(person who has 8 unfinished comic ideas) #theres a reason why i havent really shared any pepstavo stuff either #bc it kinda comes second #its also why i can make almost any ship make sense #augh #*make sense to me #bc if i put enough effort into characterization; i can see how to characters would have chemistry; romantic or not #*TWO #its why despite pepperman being some rando boss #that one comic had people go like 🤔🤔🤔 i can see that…

[homophyte]

it is interesting to me that ive seen lately (n yknow this is subjective and likely not any real social force just what ive seen) many queer people simultaneously talking about taking back and embodying unpalatable and ‘unmarketable’ queerness (the recent return to the terms faggot and transsexual come to mind) which i think is pretty evidently shaped by the conservative moment were in of demonizing queer ppl and especially gnc and trans people as predators--it reads as a return to queer isolationism in the face of external hostility, imo--while at the same time ive seen a lot of rallying around the “original” 6 stripe rainbow flag as opposed to any of the purportedly ‘factional’ flags of different queer identities, with the assumption being different identity flags divide us while the rainbow flag encompasses everyone and its kinda fascinating to me bc the rainbow flag is probably the single most marketable and palatable and uncontroversial symbols of queerness which has been seamlessly uptaken by those who wish to sell it back to us as gets pointed out every pride month with all the cringey pride merch.... i dunno you could maybe take that as a point of hypocrisy and claim the queer community is itself in a conservative moment rn where its returning to a sense of history and historical continuity (perhaps even out of that sense of external threat) or even that the queer community has for some time been in a conservative moment given the like, decade of identity discourse and lashing out at any people deemed to not have a sufficiently established history or however we should categorize the bihets/ace discourse/transtrender-tucute discourse/pan discourse/bi lesbians discourse (because lets be frank its essentially all the same discourse just keeping up its momentum by leapfroging from one target to the next) which i think is, like, SOMEWHAT true but not entirely? its more interesting to me, in any case, as an expression of a conflict the queer community is facing given that current state of affairs RE antitransness and that very recent history. like, the simultaneous need to retreat to a safe sense of community which is welcoming to the very things the outer world is demonizing ie mutable gender, complex or contradictory experiences of gender, gender expression which is hostile to the cis binary, but also the ways in which it has to grapple with those discourses which have largely defined the community infighting for again the past decade. its queer people begging the question ‘how can we make the queer community welcoming to the girlfags and genderfucks and tboys who are being threatened when we have spent so much time making the queer community a hostile place for anyone with a non-conventional or not easily (or even just palatably) sortable sense of queer identity’. and the answer it seems to be grappling with at the moment is like, welcoming all that diversity of experience but being absolutely averse to naming it. yes we love all the fuckery with gender and sexuality never be marketable but like, ew, why are you calling yourself [insert microlabel here]. you can be genderweird but you cant call yourself genderweird. you can only exist as queer in the broadest possible way (the all-inclusive gay pride flag!) but if you try to name the specifics or use those identity labels weve been fighting over for years youre doing it wrong (the progress pride flag is now ugly and cringey and ‘too much’). i think theres something also to the way (at least on this site) transmisogynistic discourses have really taken hold as legitimate (though yknow i wont downplay how much a problem transmisogyny has like. always been in queer spaces no matter what) in the name of protecting n defending trans people. like its just regurgitated transmisogyny but its being mobilized supposedly in the service of helping trans people. idk its definitely getting a little late for me to string this together fully coherently but theres a throughline there, in the ways certain ideas are being consolidated and reified as ‘yes were more progressive now!’ when i think theres definitely something to question there in terms of like...are we? are we actually? are we doing better by the people were trying to help or are we setting strict standards and forcing ppl to adhere to them again?

#myposts #this is long and honestly probably Nothing #i dont even really have a way of proving its the same group of people saying both things except fro anecdotally seeing it #and even thats not proof either is a real social force with like power. i could be entirely wrong on every count here #but i do think theres something to the idea that like #as ive seen said #yknow 'ace discourse never ended you all just accepted ace people didnt deserve support and then moved on w those views internalized' #i think thats more broadly true for like. all those discourses i mentioned. and for the transmisogyny i alluded to #but honestly i dont even want to name the specific phenomenon im talking abt there bc those people. scare me. #but yknow ill say it ive felt way more pressure lately to not call myself pan than i did at the height of pan discourse #before it became cringe to care about it and instead of actively shitting on pan ppl we moved on to passively doing it #ive largely started just. calling myself bi to avoid the arguement. which i predicted i would have to do years ago #and now look at me doing it! not really a fluke that its happening now. i think #which isnt to say were moving 'backwards' per se but that these ideas are not now and never have been really challenged #so weve just internalized their logics--reactionary logics--and its having an interesting effect now that we need a progressive community #for our safety. #now we cant say anything about it because to bring it up is jeopardizing everything weve built and the people were keeping safe! #cause we dont count as people deserving of safety were disruptors who only belong when we dont make noise. idk. or thats how i feel #again i dont really know if this is true at all im more just...thinking through it i think #basically like what im seeing--i think--comes from simultaneously that need to be unmarketable in the face of hostility #coming into conflict with a decade of momentum to make queers solely marketable. and i think thats producing some interesting--but sucky #--discourses in the current moment #last disclaimer that i might and am likely totally wrong! okay lauren out. post send *nervous sweating*

[zincbot]

an unfortunate fact about me is i just want to be singing all the time

#i can not express how important singing is to me #it's an autism thing (singing is literally my top 1 stim forever. the need to do it gets crazy esp when i'm having an overwhelming day) #it's a family thing (connects me to my dad and grandfather) #it's a I WORKED ON THIS thing. like i'm not a good singer BUT I'M NOT BAD EITHER. #and i've never been trained the only reason i'm not bad is because i 'practice' literally every single fucking day #practice is a strong word cause i don't know what i'm doing. but i sure do sing #its a trans thing. #i just. if i could live in a world where nobody minded my noise. and my throat didn't get sore. i don't think i wld ever stop #i wanna make music really bad but i have no ideas for melodies and beats ever all my songs are unfinished and scraps #but i've never really connected to any part of making music other than singing anyway rip #my dream is to get paid to cover things all day long maybe lol #i do love doing va stuff i hope i can get back to doing that soon #but singing man. ugh #i want to do karaoke with my friends more than life

[thealphabard]

Man, I dunno. It's kind of bitter sweet bc I really burned myself out of final fantasy xiv at literally no fault to the game even a little bit. I ended up in the center of some drama that fucked up my relationship with one of my favorite people. This whole thing was built upon gaslighting and manipulation.

And none of it from my side lmfao it's wild what people will do to be the center of attention.

But I have also found a new love for a lot of other games too with some other fantastic friends

LIKE MH

#jace noises #i pride myself in making a safe place for the people i care about #but i also have hard boundaries for my own safety #this person not only fucked up those boundaries #but lied to many people about my character #tried to ruin many relationships with other friends #and really thought they could try and convince me two of my closest friends were bad people.

[boomerang109]

spent my birthday money on replacing my loops cause somehow i lost them and this world is too loud

#i only just figured out i lost them yesterday and i wanted to wait a bit to see if i could find them #and then today every noise made me ANGERY #so I was like damn guess I need my loops #but I signed up for the one time student discount and got quiets and engage plus #and the ones I have from before are experience plus so even if I find them they’re technically different #one review of the engages said it’s better than the experiences cause it doesn’t make your chewing echo the way the experiences do and I’m #🙏🙏🙏really hoping that’s true cause by far that was my biggest complaint #like when you’re wearing both experience plus loops you want no noise no nothing and then you have to take ‘em out cause holy fuck it’s #making me own chewing echo in my head? those are the bad days lmao #but the engage plus doesn’t actually dampen as MUCH sound since it’s supposed to work better for being *engaged* so idk. could be good or #bad I’m not sure. we’ll find out #but that’s why I wanted to get the quiets too. Just in case #and hopefully my experiences will turn up and then I’ll just have ALL the earplugs #life of a boomerang #oh I just realized no where in this post did I use the word earplugs #if you’ve somehow made it this far and are still wondering what tf im talking about. loops are an earplug brand and my neurodiverse ass (and #many others. I’m not unique) swears by it

[mycological-mariner]

Energy bills are making me want to commit acts of violence. Maybe several.

#I’m very tired I may only have one act of violence in me #for today #but SERIOUSLY???? #between rent and council tax and energy and water and groceries — #I’m gonna stab a mother fucker #yeah we’re still in an energy crisis #still in a water shortage #fuckin groceries are disgustingly expensive #I’m getting a second job soon #will it cover everything? not really but it’ll help #lol it’ll be brown paper and paraffin oil to my financial knee getting blasted to hell #moving up to Edinburgh is looking better and better by the day #I like Edinburgh. that wasn’t a jab at the city of Edinburgh lol #I’ve never lived in a city before (always from the sticks lol) #I can barely handle TRURO in the summertime and that’s not even a city proper #I may have some sort of social claustrophobia - is that a thing? #crowds and things. noises and smells and overstimulation #I’m sure I could make myself get used to it #the heat might kill me though #never lived anywhere that wasn’t near an ocean therefore: constant breeze no matter how hot it got #i ramble i know #anyways #delete later

[numetalpuppygirl]

v.. vomit story...? if u uhhh want to.. elaborate...

well alright, since ya asked :)

so as i've perhaps mentioned, i'm kind of a scrawny whelp of a person, and this was even moreso the case when i was in school. unfortunately for me, physical education class exists and is required in most public schools including mine. in high school, we were required to take two p.e. courses, each worth a half-credit, and the first one had to be a basic fundamental p.e. class, while we had a little more freedom with what we took for the second class.

that's how i ended up in a fitness class centered entirely around walking - i'm not gonna hold up in a game of flag football, but i can handle walking, and it fulfilled the second half of my credit, making it the last time i would ever have to take physical education. sweet deal, right?

except we were doing all of our walking outside, so if the weather was bad we had to find somewhere else to go. sometimes we would go use the fitness equipment for which we had a separate, specialized room (still no idea where the FUCK the school district found the money for that) but sometimes we would instead be merged with one of the other teacher's team sports class. dramatic music sting goes here.

on one of these latter days, we got stuck playing.... well, i don't know, to be honest. it was some kind of handball-type-thing, because the teachers were basically just making shit up. but it involved a LOT of running. back, forth, up, down, everywhere, weaving in between other players. i'm a scared little mouse even to this day, so i was playing as hard as i could to make sure the 6'5" coach didn't sniff out my weakness and tear off my arm with his teeth as an example to the others.

cut to after the game, where they make us get our stuff and wait for the bell to ring. why? because public school is a cruel and unusual form of punishment. so i've got my bag and i'm feeling the effect of the hour and a half of non-stop physical exertion i just did. i start hovering around a giant trash can they keep by the doors. eventually i have to sit down. i feel like if i could get moving, i might be okay, but right now there's nowhere to go. i'm continuing to sweat, and i figure it's bc i'm in a big crowd of other students waiting for the bell. so i get the really and truly brilliant idea to walk all the way to the other side of the gym and sit down against the wall there. no trash can, no exit, but at least there's no people!

once i sit down, i can't move. i'm swaying from side to side, knowing what's going to happen but unable to stop it. the best i can do when i finally hurl is crane my head to the side and get it on the floor instead of myself. it takes several minutes for anyone to notice.

luckily, as soon as the vomit demon was excised from my body, i could get up and move just fine. i located the least hateful of the gym teachers and informed them of the situation, expecting (and feeling like i deserved) to be put in a deep dark pit for the inconvenience. they instead seemed pretty neutral on the whole situation, and proceeded to mopping.

before returning to routine, i was asked if i would be going home due to illness. i stated confidently that i couldn't, because i had a test next period. i then rinsed my mouth out with my water bottle, and went about my day. and that's a good picture of how i was essentially a living caricature of a nerd from a dumb teen movie.

#there are a lot of other things in this story that make me go wow what a fucking dumbass kid i was #but it's already. quite long. sorry about that btw #emeto tw #<don't usually tag that but i feel it's called for in this case #*char noises* #char asks #i think the worst part of the story is that i thought i was really cool for sticking it out for the rest of the day #GOD i don't hate the kid i was then but sometimes i just wish i could noogie some sense into them #you guys are getting insight into a whole other world rn. that's nearly a different person entirely than who i am right now #sometimes i feel like all my stories are from high school but it's only because that's the last time i set foot outside #okay i promise i'll shut up now bye

[cinnamon-grump]

POV you just caught me lurking in the yard keeping watch for the stray cat that’s been pissing on our porch and terrorizing our cats

#ive been spotted.. #doodle #i was too lazy to draw my leg hair.. but thats the only inaccuracy #i am a fancy feral creature.. and this little black cat should respect/fear me #fr tho this cat is.. really weird #very ballsy and rude.. and idk it looks kinda wrong to me?? but it could just be that it has a tiny tiny face #ashwyn draws #new art tag dropped.. maybe #and no i wasnt gonna hurt the cat #i put on my fluffiest coat and teased my hair to be Bigger and was just making weird noises at it #i was carrying a bat but mostly bc it was dark out and i do NOT trust anybody who lives near us