#I love writing this kind of stuff tho

[crybaby-bkg]

method actor boyfriend yuuta who gets a little too invested in his upcoming movie role. he’s playing some psycho character; someone calculated and manipulative; cunning; a stalker; eventually a killer. he’s always been a good actor, but sometimes he has to delve deep in order to portray a role to the best of his abilities.

you start to notice a difference in him after a while, though. he tells you he has to leave you for a few hours at a time, only for you to catch sight of his gaze lingering in the bushes outside of your home. or do you? you’re never really sure, always catching glimpses and glances that make the hairs on the back of your neck stand up. but you’re never really sure if you see him, his low stare, his tightly pulled mouth, the weapon his character uses slung over his shoulder.

he starts speaking to you differently, too. his vocabulary starts to be riddled with love and devotion and adoration, every chance he gets. he holds you close to him, too close, too tight, rests his face against your hairline, whispers against your skin, “don’t leave me—don’t ever leave me—I love you—you love me, don’t you?—don’t you?—you love me, right?”

sex with him isn’t really the same, either. he doesn’t even call it that anymore, calls it making love, and it wouldn’t be as unsettling if he didn’t look at you like that every time. like you hung the moon and the stars with your bare hands, like you breathed life into his very being, like you broke off a piece of your rib to place it so delicately inside his sternum.

his eyes get so rounded, so wide, seeing every inch of you, even the pieces hidden under the covers. his hands are so soft but they grip you so tightly, as if he’s scared that you might slip away if he blinks too long. his mouth constantly connected to your skin, whispering praises, his love for you, how you’re meant for him, how he can’t wait to be one.

he’s already inside of you, though. how else could he connect his body to yours? you know he’s playing a killer, someone willing to cut and scrape and bruise and maim the one he loves most. but he knows that it’s just a movie, right? that you’re not the star, that you’re his real partner, that he’s not actually like that? right?

#first posting of him ever and it’s on New Year’s Day 😝 #but that means I have to make a masterlist for him tho 😔 #I love writing this kind of stuff tho #creepy and unsettling without ever being full on horror #bc I’m too scared of my own imagination LOL #I have to watch the new season too bc I also wanna write for choso #he is. so pretty. but I don’t know him well enough yet :( #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #yuuta treats! 🍬

[amethysttribble]

I have a thought rolling around in my head about how fandom has a very rigid, very bland, very one-dimensional idea of what a ‘good’ parent looks like, and how this vision is entirely fantasy and wish-fulfillment

#like they come off as soooo ‘I wanted my parents to be supportive in everything I did and never get mad ever no matter what’ #and like… that’s not a person doing right by their child that’s an fantasy to make you feel like everything about you is good #you’re imagining robots that pat you on the head and call you good all the time #those aren’t PEOPLE #parents are people #which- and I’m sorry people don’t know this- but you would know if you had a positive healthy relationship with any kind of parental figure #and it gets me cause I think I write feanor as a very positive kind of father #but Ive gotten SO MANY comments going ‘oh I don’t like bad dad fenaor but your stuff-‘ and I’m just like ??? #I don’t write him as a bad dad! I write him as a person! a personality! and not some validation dispensing machine #and even the ‘good’ ‘great’ parents mess their kids up in some ways it’s literally impossible to not have a few hang ups from your parents #it’s about TRYING and TALKING and LOVE tho #not being perfectly accepting of everything no matter what #anyway that’s just what I had to say #new fandom challenge- write interesting parents #Tribble post

[leviathiane]

yes, death mark is a rather flawed game. its got a lot of problems in all three iterations and in some ways death mark one, while being less technically impressive (lack of animations, no character sprites actively moving, art a little worse overall, less character sprites in general) it kind of handled a lot of very important aspects of the game better. namely, the plot, character integration/interaction, timeline, and yashiki just being a lil baby who isnt straight up inexcusably bad at his job--

but you must consider this:

Death mark 2 yashiki bondage CG,

#its got so so so many problems that felt easily fixable with just. more or better writers #the ghosts are less scary and the fanservice is still gratuitous to hell #the new system for battling is cooler i Think maybe havent decided but #man MK ghost was So disappointing it was unreal #thaat ghost was just... not scary #they went a kind of comedic route with the designs that feels underhanded #why do they have googly eeyes who decided that #also the weird student teacher love stuff #which makes sense considerin ght eplot but i wish it was handled better #in general a lot of the writing could have been handled btter by far-- #regardless of that tho the presence of flaws make it easier to latch on as a creator #bc theres LOTS to do in terms of fix ups and changes in fic #and lots to discuss #depths' talks #death mark #i really hope this isnt the last of the series but according tot he studio it is #which SUCKS im DEPRESSED

[thebest-medicine]

what’s crazy to me abt that anon is ur literally the only blog on here that i actually get so pumped when there’s a new fic 😭😭 like ur writing style scratches such an itch for me, ive read every critical role fic youve posted and ive literally never watched a single eps of critical role LMAO

like ur writing is genuinely good. youre able to portray characterization sooooo well that for me, critical role is literally thebest_medicine show. ur a great writer and that anon genuinely confused me bc im not sure they know how to read lol

this is such a sweet message to read omfg ok… thank you so much first of all.

me getting this tattoo’d on my eyelids lmao

ALSO though there’s quite a few other bangers of fics / writers out there for critical role but omg that is such a sweet and wonderful compliment thank you!

#answered #anon #thank you so much omg!!!!!! #also tho me being like hmmm…. I also feel like this person hasn’t read anything by me… - first instinct #writing stuffs #kind words #aww #I love you thank you mwah

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

The Saint of Bright Doors

a surreal Sri Lankan fantasy about colonialism, revolution, mixing fantasy with the modern world

follows a man raised by his mother to kill his father, a god-like cult leader

but as an adult he puts aside his life of violence and moves to the city for a quiet life

he becomes fascinated with ‘bright doors’ around the city that never open and have no other side, and joins a group studying them to find out more

and a support group for those with divine heritage that becomes increasingly revolutionary, until the task he was made for reemerges and his life upends

#the Saint of Bright Doors #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #this is kind of hard to explain I dont know if I did a very good job here lol #it is weird and full of so many interesting elements. I’m still not entirely sure how I feel about it but?? I really liked it mostly??? #It starts pretty small scale focused on the MC & slowly unravels the wider worldbuilding and narrative elements in a really interesting way #The first chapter or two I assumed it was typical high fantasy but then it’s like. oh this is a modern city. with emails and stuff. #The pacing is a bit weird - it’s quite meandering and also pivots significantly in the second half. tbh I’m still ????? about the ending lm #but also I am happy to float through on vibes. #and there’s some elements (like the doors that become….not that relevant) that I want to know more about. (as an aside - I saw someone say #that it’s a very clear retelling about Buddha’s son? which idk enough about but probably could give a deeper context to a lot of it) #writing style is kinda detached from the MC but also there is a reason for this that makes sense with the twist near the end! #which is a kind of twist i LOVE. Maybe I wish it had been emphasised a bit more over the story though? unsure. #I thought his mother's story was interesting also - you think she's an terrible parent just there for background context at the start but #then when she tells her story it's like ohh there's more context here. #also I hesitate to just say ‘if you like the spear cuts-- you should read this’ because I think the elements that are similar are done in a #kinda different way and might disappoint you if you’re expecting it to be the same as spear….but regardless the sort of dreamy writing #rich world; narrative with fantasy but also modern day elements; some of the writing style; mlm MC (tho not a romance) #idk. it will definitely not work for everyone but I enjoyed it overall #also it is full of queerness #bisexual books

[marsixm]

yknow normally i hate it when media handholds the audience too much, so i’m like well why am i fine with ofmd’s flashbacks then? and like half of it is amv brain. its the turbo autism of it all. like yes thank you i DO want to see stede and ed staring at each other again! how did you know!

#also in s1 they were less egregious so i got used to it? #(but no i wish theyd do less ones of stuff we already saw!) #and i dont rly judge sitcoms on the same rules #namely- bc i was also thinking about this- #obviously i also love media that makes u think and is different #honestly ofmd also makes u think and things are not all totally obvious #i think the things that they handhold over are things they want to be unambiguously clear like the love story #and thats cool #but still i feel like this is still primarily a sitcom #the fact that it has murder and a rom com and bizarre chaos is already kind of doing a lot? imo? #idk thats just my 2 cents tho #and also its actually genuinely funny and not annoying about the way it does 80% of its jokes #so much comedy is hampered by writing Obvious Jokes ™ #instead of letting characters be Characters and the comedy coming out naturally

[ghostbeam]

Send me ur fav and a Halloween related word and I’ll write a little drabble<3

#Is this stupid??? idk I kind of like the idea of building off like one specific word tho #btw #this is my apology for not finishing vampire empire btw #also I’m only posting that on ao3 now🫶a little update for u #bc I just got too behind #but it’ll be done soon I promise so sorry I love u #anyways yeah send me some stuff I wanna do a little bit of writing todayyyyy #ghost thoughts #ask game

[set-phasers-to-whump]

question. should I do the tmfu gift exchange…

#I been thinking about it but idk #bc like. I write whump and that’s it and it’s not a whump specific event #and also I’m nervous of writing something for a specific person even tho I do requests which is like the same thing #idk I guess I’m worried that they wouldn’t like it #I’m probably overthinking but it does sound fun and I love the fandom #also. worried that my stuff would be too short there’s a lower limit of 1k but like most of my stuff is 1-2 and that’s not a lot #ugh I’m just too nervous of a person for this but idk #I do kind of want to do it but. the agony. #i say things #not whump #this is not even related to this blog really but idk

[raksh-writes]

Somehow, after months of not moving a muscle, I managed to get off my ass and do some light stretching + a whole damn abs routine too, that I still have no idea how I got through it, I remember it being hard on Normal day, and now my whole body is feeling this little workout and I'm like?? WHo are you?

Now to keep it going, tho...

#personal #Raksh posts #the anxiety and stress started creeping in #tho I have A FULL WEEK OFF with no classes nothing #so I was like - I might as well Try to get rid of that nibbling stress #and like damn this feels nice #also made me realize how out of shape I am :''') not that it's a surprise but still #gonna try and keep it up with at least like One thing a day #a couple of stretches or an exercise here and there so it's not just a one time thing (I Am prone to doing that) #tomorrow I have some logistics to maneuver around since Im going to the theater with a couple friends in the evening #and we're meeting earlier in the day for some drinks too bcs my last train is not late enough to go After the spectacle #but anyway I guess I'll try to do some stretches before noon and then figure out food before I go to the train station #damn maybe I can start getting myself back together #like I even started rereading my Voiles stuff - esp the BatB AU #and if I go back to writing it? goodness help me #I Know there are still people reading the ship but oh my god really?? #anyway I had to throw this out of myself I guess xD #Im still debating on making some pizza dough today and maybe making one to eat later hmmm #it's like - me making homemade pizza seems to always be a sign of getting out from some kind of slump/depressive episode #because I never have the energy or motivation when it's Bad but I Love pizza and actually enjoy making it so #yeah we'll see I guess #still half a day ahead hah

[manasurge]

So, I was just adding stuff to my ideas notes/lists (for scenarios I want to draw in the future + whatever OC ideas I have so I don't forget them later), and I accidentally got a little TOO into this Mourynn and Faolain scene that was originally just meant to be a funny and snarky jest exchange. But uh, it suddenly went a lot gayer than I was expecting, and now I REALLY wanna work on it laskjdflaskj (this is Firstborn era stuff before the Secondborn exist, for a bit of context) (I mean, I'm still doing two big WIPs atm, and I don't wanna get caught in never ending WIP hell, but HNNG I really wanna do this... I COULD give myself three WIPs... how many WIPs is the minimum needed requirement needed to properly qualify for WIP hell...? I can get away with one more, right??? )

#OC stuff #screaming internally #gotta love it when you're super tired and your brain goes into autopilot daydream autofill writing mode #I think I have enough info in this scene to sort of give enough of a context to what's going on with the 3 of them #Tho I wasn't expecting the first one that I wanted to work on to be a Faolain one; but it just kind of happened naturally #then again there's not a lot of Faolain art out there so maybe this is a good thing that I add more to the wild #and yes I know she's a horrible person; but I still love her too. I love my villains; they make things extra spicy #however I'm angry that the next two days are my longer shifts at work; so this is gonna be very frustrating bc all I wanna do is draw

[boxwinebaddie]

so i was filling out my fashionably late ao3 wrapped post no problem, but then when i got to the section about what my favorite part of any of my fanfictions was, i had to stop and think, bc i feel like it should probably be that part in pep about the cherry nyquil/stan calling kyle medicine, but it's actually this flashback from og chapter 12 of pep that i deleted -- which good riddens, that chapter was a fucking nightmare from hell...but smack dab in the middle of it, i wrote my favorite flashback of all time and every time i think about it ( because it makes me want to scream and cry ) or the fact that i had to delete it, i want to tear the skin off my face, so i'm linking it in a google doc.

( yes, it's the one where they're on the roof and stan is drunk and talking about what his ideal future life would be like...i'm screaming. )

#listen like theres something about it #i wanted to cry when i was writing it #theres something about pep stan and everyone wanting to touch him and posess him and feel entitled to him that makes me want to SCREAMMMMMM #like his small town big tragic hero thing and just being doomed / constantly perceived by everyone bc hes beautiful against his will #when all he wants is to be literally no one and hide and live a quiet life being a veterinarian and helping people im AAAA #stan makes me so feral like im obsessed w writing about stan like maybe this is just my weird take on him but I FEEL HIM IN MY BONES #and specifically in kyles narration like if someone wrote abt me the why kyle writes about stan marsh in peppermint thats what LOVE is #like actually this entire flashback is what i based ravenstans private life around just like stan being sweet and humble #and going to the farmers market and making little kids laugh even tho hes all punk rock and wanting to kill randy and be someone else #and people just grabbing at him and being insane w him and not respecting his body autonomy and AAAAA AAAAAA #like everyone treating his beauty and talent like a blessing but its his curse he thinks hes hideous and gets taken advantage of #for his kindness AND AAAAA ANYWAYS THIS FLASHBACK MAKES ME WANT TO START BREAKINg STUFF #i could talk about this forever i'm passionate abt this AAAA #ALSO THE BOYS ARE SO TENDER IN THIS I WANT TO ACTUALLY SCREAM ANYWAYS ANYWAYS KEEP THIS #I FORGOT STAN WANTED TO CHANGE HIS NAME TO STANLEY WILLIAM NAKAMURA KIMBLE I LOVE HIM ;-;;;

[thekeatoncadet]

15 + Aspen (or any of them tbh) for the OC thing

15. What places hold significant meaning or memories for your OC? Do they have a positive or negative association with those places?

Ohhhh no you hit the ramble button. Ok so. To answer that requires a pinch of lore and some Aspen background, which I'll put under a readmore because ilu all:

- Kelpies have to fully submerge themselves in water every few days to survive, for roughly an hour. Any body of water will do, and it doesn't have to be an hour all on one go, but failure to do so is fatal (thats just an oc thing afaik there's no folklore like that? Anyway.)

- Kelpies also have a tense relationship with humans. Most kelpies won't prey on humans. Many of them find it immoral, and those that don't still find it not worth the trouble. Even so, a minority WILL, and both groups often clash over bodies of fresh water, so they regard each other as a threat.

Alright, that out of the way:

When Aspen was a kid (not sure how old yet, but preteen at the latest) she and her family lived in a modest lake near a human village. Both parties were wary of each other, but had a tense truce to just share the fresh water that was crucial for both group's survival, and otherwise avoid each other.

But then a child goes missing, and after a few days of panicked searching, they find the kid's remains in the lake and jump to blaming Aspen's folks. (They had nothing to do with it - the kid was just a tragic accident. Aspen even tried to look for the kid when they caught wind that they'd gone missing)

The villagers are too scared to confront a couple full-grown Kelpies and their foals on their home turf, so they beg their god to take care of the kelpies for them. He agrees in exchange for great praise and tribute. He dispatches the kelpies in a needlessly cruel way: He sprouts a mass of tree limbs and vines from beneath them, ensnaring them and hoisting them up just out of reach of the water. Aspen's parents and younger brother are left to wither away over the course of three days, the water they need to live just barely out of reach. Aspen only escaped the same fate because she wasn't around when the god attacked them - she was still out looking for the lost kid.

She can't do anything for them, and they beg her to run away before the villagers/god find her too.

AL OF THIS TO SAY she holds very intense, complicated emotions about her home. There's lots of precious memories of her family and childhood there, but it's overshadowed by the cruelty and grief.

She has very intensely negative feelings specifically about the old, gnarled tree that's found by the eastern side of the lake, the bark of which still traces the forms of bones and fangs and hooves, that villagers revere as a sign of justice and their god but Aspen knows is nothing but a sick display of cruelty and murder.

She's a very cheery girl.

For a happier note...mm...there's a mountain lake in Keres' territory she likes visiting. The environment itself is pretty different but it still makes her think of home and her family, and she can feel secure in the knowledge that Keres well maintains her territory and just about nothing dares intrude it.

Sometimes Keres will join her, and the two will talk a bit and stargaze

#so sorry darner but Aspen is one of the ocs i have Many Thoughts about #and ive had this stuff sitting on the 'write/draw/whatever' list for uhhhhh a while #all this is also why shes so aggro and 'no good deed goes unpunished' #survivors guilt and unchecked childhood trauma will do that ✌️ #tho despite that shes mostly just lonely and scared to be vulnerable. she still has a kind streak you just gotta dig reaaaaaal deep #sorry aspen is soldily daighter tierm love her. #asks #oc #aspen #keaton quiz

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads // twitter thread

Zombabe

paranormal YA set in a small town in 2003 where weird things happen that mostly get ignored

a boy is resurrected by his best friend after dying just before graduation. but he’s maybe a zombie now and if he ignores his hunger for flesh an ancient evil might start causing bigger problems

thankfully one of his friends’ aunt is a cop who has no problem helping get rid of some of the local nazis

queer teen friend group, m/m

#zombabe #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #i.s. belle #lgbtq books #i loved this!!!!!! #the like. 3rd person omniscient (i think) in a modern (ish) setting works really well actually? #and its one of those books that has little snippets of various side characters yknow what i mean. #it’s kinda slow building up until the end when it happens very fast #i have no idea where the next books will go???? #I also really liked that like. while obv there's homophobia in the world (& the aforementioned nazis very much bully them up for being gay) #there's not any internalised homophobia or anything like that. and like even tho the nazis like threaten to kill them I guess- #you never feel like the actual threat and danger of it from the narrative. you know the bigots are just gonna die lol #is my intense fixation on wanting to bite my best friend a zombie thing or is it just the gay yearning i’ve been trying to ignore #I already made a post about this but tentatively comping to in the flesh.....zombies....slightly anachronistic small town people who #turn a blind eye to stuff..dark with a bit of humor...kind hearted quiet blonde gay boy MC.... #I will say that ITF is a lot heavier re: mental health and like systemic oppression and stuff #(.....because I just rewatched it again. prompted by reading this book) #I will also note that; while I don’t think this is reskinned fanfic; the author used to write a lot of It movie fic #so if ur into that you might like this apparently it has similar vibes #nz author

[arytha]

at this point i want to scrap what i have built for era and lorne bc figuring out details with the bits i have randomly set up now is fucking annoying me

#i love them dont get me wrong. i kind of want to change how things work with them tho #also epoch has really solidified as a concept now too so i need to make it match that #at this point era wont get his own story besides being a mysterious main camp leader in Mimi's story #which is post- their death ofc bc they have to be dead to show up there #you get cryptic backstory hints from the charismatic guy era with his scary husband lorne #maybe make era's stuff into a scenario within mimi's stuff... to simplify things. and keep me from having to write a 300 chapter novel #Era #Lorne #hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm essential dungeon scenario in Mimi's infinite flow....... #mara's shit

[orcelito]

So with me getting a big art commission for ITNL, it makes me think about how I've never gotten any commissions for discacc... and like yes ok I've been neglecting my big baby (I'm Sorry,,,,) but my love for it remains. The 500k word count is testament to my dedication to it, even if it's currently on hiatus.

But for me putting actual real money into ITNL and not discacc...

Well...

It ultimately boils down to the fact that in discacc they still look just like their canon counterparts lol so there's really no point to doing a commission for it. ITNL Vash already looks different from his canon counterpart (due to the lightning scars, which are the main focal point of the commission).

So... no it is NOT me saying I love ITNL more. ITNL and discacc both are very dear to me. I'm just doing objectively crazier stuff in ITNL and Thus, big differences have happened. And so it goes.

#speculation nation #itnl shit #discacc shit #i do have some rather Uhmmm mean kinds of plans for discacc. that would perhaps leave lasting damage and/or scars. #but those have not happened yet. and wouldnt for a While. #in ITNL i not only gave him lightning scars but i also broke his NOSE #plus potentially more stuff to come. #ive been emotionally mean to goro but vash really takes the cake in the physical sense. teehee. #i can not choose between ITNL and discacc for which i love more bc they are both so dear to me #...tho i can easily say i love them more than the rest of my works hfkshfjd #sorry ladue and Sentido but u r not my main focuses. RIP. #theres a kind of love that comes from spending months (or years) working on One Thing Only. #i wanna do right by both discacc and ITNL. i wanna see them through to the end. #i wish it wasnt so hard for me to write rn... and that i didnt struggle so much with splitting my attention. #it really does make me sad to leave discacc on indefinite hiatus like this #but it just isnt the story i want to write rn. that's ITNL. #but i will return to it someday. i still love it so very dearly. #That is a Promise. #anyways yeah i paid for the comm for ITNL and im very excited ehehehe #And Now We Wait.

[brittlebutch]

one of the many reasons Aabria is such a good GM is because of the very keen eye she keeps on the social dynamics and interactions that happens at the table and i absolutely Love her for it

#N posts stuff #ppl have been talking about it a lot for the interaction between Thorn and his followers -> the mostly joke the Player was making #about giving Ava advantage on an intimidate check turning into a Serious confrontation about the dynamic Thorn has w/ those followers #which is an Excellent example but i'm watching a court of fae ep and she does it really well here as well; in and After the convo rue & hob #have about the Goblin Court Marriage -> there's an overt Disparity in how Rue views courts and how Hob does that colors a kind of #miscommunication between them; Rue and Hob know each other as kindred spirits in feeling Alienated from their courts #but Rue tends to see themself as wholly Separate from their court (barely part of it at all) whereas Hob still clearly Does take a staunch #Identity as a Member of the Goblin Court -> so when Rue talks about the marriage and Hob's role in it they see it as something Hob is being #manipulated or Commanded into caring about whereas Hob pretty clearly seems to take it as a Personal wound - Rue doesn't care #about the dynamics or standing of their court bc they're Separate but Hob DOES care about those things bc he's still Part Of it #even if he still feels alienated from it at the same time; they take a different approach in how they feel in that alienation #which is why Rue's sentiment of 'take care of yourself' seems to leave Hob on the verge of tears; bc he doesn't Share that approach #and Aabria seemingly takes serious notice of this because the Immediate next convo is between Rue and an NPC who calls Rue out #for that disparity -> saying they're a Fool if they think that Everyone around them doesn't feel the Weight of their court behind them #ie; even though Rue sees themself as Separate they're still reaping a social Privilege in Being a member of their court anyway #a 'you can't have it both ways' kind of call out that is So choice and i love it a lot; rue having to Immediately confront #their own perceptions like that even tho they still wont quite Acknowledge it; tasty i love it <3 #btw i've decided to start being SO annoying about my thoughts on subjects; this is bc i take So so many notes on them & i like to share :3 #but my Fic Writing words have been screwed to hell lately so. one billion analysis posts upon ye instead