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@dire-kumori MMMM. EVIL. pure, unadulterated evil you have brought unto my dash, I love it.
Just. Evan trying so hard to reconcile the image of this stranger covered in blood beside him in the next loop, except the memory is so hazy he doesn't know what to make of it. At first he wants to hope that he was wrong and this stranger isn't actually working alongside the animatronics, but the more Ev tries to remember that cycle, the hazier the memory gets. And Evan can't stop thinking about how the very next thing that happened after he saw the stranger bleeding beside him, was getting attacked by the monsters. He opened his eyes and saw the stranger beside him-- just lying there, not even PRETENDING to be trying to help him anymore; the stranger killed himself just to get away from Evan, and he just left Ev alone to die.
When Evan wakes in the next loop, he can't even muster the energy to get out of bed. He knows the monsters will drag him out of bed if he doesn't get up, even without the stranger yelling that particular fact at him, but he can't help but just lay there.
The stranger tries keeping the doors shut alone, apparently having decided to keep pretending to help. Evan still can't get out of bed. He only has the effort to sob: "I can't do this anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. Please just stop!"
Maybe, eventually, Mikey gives up and curls up next to Evan in the bed with his arms wrapped protectively around his little brother. Or Maybe Michael scoops Evan up and tries running them both out of the house. Either way, Evan doesn't have the energy to fight against the stranger's hands on him. Either way, they both end up dead.
And speaking of Evan’s memories being confusing jumbles. Before Mikey tries revealing himself, back when Evan still thinks of Mikey as some stranger, maybe Michael has to listen to Evan beg for "Mikey" to come save him.
Evan doesn't remember who this "Mikey" that he is screaming for is anymore. When Evan was alive, he thought of his big brother Mike as being the adult he was supposed to be able to turn to for help, the person who would make everything okay. Now, dead and stuck in this nightmare, Evan has the vague sense that there was a Mikey in his life, someone who was supposed to be there for him and make everything better. Evan holds onto that single memory, that one vague hope that his mysterious Mikey might help him.
It encourages Mike to risk telling Evan the truth in one cycle, except when Evan learns that the Mikey he's been begging for help from and the cruel Foxy-mask boy in his memories are one and the same...
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Evan is *outraged.* He's dealt with a lot of pain and suffering and betrayal, but THIS?
Evan is in the middle of screaming at Mike thay he can try to be a good person all he wants but will NEVER make up for what he did when one of the animatronics gets past their defenses. Evan doesn't even notice at first; he's still mid-sentence screaming at Michael as the animatronic tears him apart.
Then Evan dies, and the cycle restarts, and Evan Forgets. Except, Michael can't help but notice that Evan never screams for "Mikey" to save him ever again.
And don't get me started on THIS.
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After getting so offended at me calling you a monster, I offer you the chance for a happy ending where Mikey and Evan resolve their issues and move on, and you teAR IT TO PIECES?? FOR SHAME
i mean, don't get me wrong, it's a beautifully horrific ending and i love it, but holy heck. I am going to need 3-5 business days to emotionally recover!!!
Michael slowly fading as he is FORCED to realize he can't save Evan after all. Evan’s hope of finally being at peace savagely crushed, as he is forced to remain stuck in the simulation until the software and hardware his spirit is attached to slowly crumbles with time and too much use.
And the idea of him (and Mike) getting recorded onto Help Wanted is PHENOMENAL.
I'm just imagining Evan cowering inside the Night Terrors/Fnaf 4 section of the game. Despite the lifetimes worth of awful memories he has inside that room, it's the first familiar place that Evan stumbles across, and he craves the comfort of the familiarity of his prison. He much prefers it to the unknown, and he's been stuck in this room for so long that the outside world (or, well, the other virtual recreations of the various games) are too big, too scary, too overwhelming. Besides, Evan has learned from his father’s simulation that bad things happen when he tries leaving this room.
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Thunder in Our Hearts
my contribution to the flood of fix-it fics <3 read it on AO3 here!
Part Two
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Billy woke up the first time in who knows how long. He wasn’t even sure he wanted to know how much time he had been in this hellscape, where the only thing he could do was replay his memories like a horror movie made specifically to torture him. There were only so many times he could watch his mom leave, the disappointment on his father’s face morph into violent anger, Max crying over his dying body.
There were only so many times, and he was terrified when he realized he wasn’t sure what he would do when he finally snapped. He’d hurt so many people already, had been hurt so many times before. What new hell would he unleash unto the world? He was afraid, and tired and a million other things he couldn’t process, so he had slept.
Except he wasn’t asleep anymore and he wasn’t sure why.
He opened his eyes to find that he was in the same world he had been in since he died, a twisted version of Hawkins covered in vines and ash. Though he wasn’t sure why or where he was going, he found himself walking through downtown Hawkins. He knew it was the Shadow Monster’s will, and there was no point in fighting it anymore. Max was safe. Her nerdy friends were safe. He couldn’t hurt anyone anymore. Not here, trapped in what he could only assume was hell.
He passively watched the world go by as the Shadow Monster directed his body, trying to empty his mind again before the memories could start. It wasn’t very long before his body stopped and he tried to look around some. Most of this place looked the same, especially the further you got into the woods. The oppressive blue light, the vines that slitered like snakes. The only variation was what appeared to be decaying tombstones, all crumbled marble and obscured names. This was a new one for him. The Shadow Monster had never taken him to the graveyard before.
Dear Billy, she started. I don’t even know if you can hear this.
He could, but why? What was she doing here? It had to have been another sick game for the Shadow Monster to play, trying to break Billy’s already broken soul.
He and my mom started getting into fights. Bad fights.
Fuck. Now he knew it was a hallucination. He knew Neil loved Susan. As much as his father could love someone. He certainly valued their picture perfect family too much to jepordize it. This was just the Shadow Monster trying to fuck with him. Still, he couldn’t help but send out a useless thank you to the universe that Max had gotten away from him.
And sometimes I imagine myself running to you, pulling you away. I imagine that if I had, you would still be here.
Billy wanted to cover his ears and scream, but he couldn’t make his arms move. He wanted the Shadow Monster to quit with this bullshit. Hadn’t he suffered enough? Why couldn’t it let him drift away?
I imagine that we could’ve become friends. Good friends. Like a real brother and sister. And I know that’s stupid. You hated me. I hated you. But I thought that maybe we could try again.
No. It wasn’t stupid. He wanted that too. He hadn’t known how to be a brother, how to open himself up and use his words rather than fists, but god he wanted to try again. Try to be better, for her. Try to be someone she would want to call brother.
But I think that maybe a part of me died that day too.
I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry.
Something snapped deep inside his chest at Max’s apologies. This may have been an attempt to shatter him, but the Shadow Monster had taken a wrong turn with that one. Instead of hiding his wounded pride, he did what he’d always done. He fought like a wild animal, teeth bared as he desperately tried to regain control over his own body. He wanted to run, to scream, to cry. He wanted to be free, to have control again. He wanted to find Max and tell her not to cry over him. He wasn’t worth it.
And then a fog began to roll in, and through the haze he could see the outline of a figure begin to flicker into existence. No. No. He’d died to save her. Why the fuck was she here now? Fucking brat can’t stay out of fucking trouble.
No, it had to be fake. Just like all of the other memories. But why did this one feel so much more real?
He felt the Shadow Monster begin to drag his body forward and a new force push him to start speaking.
“Max. I’ve been waiting to hear those words Max. Waiting so very long,” the Shadow Monster lied. Billy had never wanted to see his little shitbird sister again. At least then he would have known she was safe. But instead, she was here and he couldn’t tell if she was real or just a nightmare.
“But it wasn’t the full truth, was it Max?” The Shadow Monster had finally pulled him close enough that he could see her face through the fog, and it felt like a punch to the gut. Seeing her eyes puffy from crying, fear clouding her face. It was an expression he was all too familiar with, having been the cause of it himself over the years they’d known each other. But this time it wasn’t just himself. This time it was some other thing, something Billy could have protected her from. Had died trying to protect her from.
He ached to reach out and touch her. Surprisingly, the Shadow Monster allowed him this, moving his arm to touch her face more gently than he had ever managed to in his life. She felt so real. Could this really be something other than a trick?
“You know, I think there’s a part of you, buried somewhere deep, that wanted me to die that day.” He was forced to admit his deepest fear, to watch Max’s face twist down in guilt, to feel his cold dead heart ache. He couldn’t blame her though.
“That was maybe even relieved.” Of course she would be. He was her monster, her shadow in the closet. Her Neil. God, he wanted to puke. Instead, he redoubled his fight against the Shadow Monster’s control, if only so he could just run away. “Happy.”
Max said something in response, but it fell on deaf ears as Billy poured his concentration into getting something, any part of his body back in control. He felt the Shadow Monster responding, but it was all a blur. Until…
“And why, late at night, you have sometimes wished to follow me.” Something cracked deep inside of him, inside the part that had laid dormant ever since the kids had locked him in the sauna. He sobbed in pain, and it must have been strong enough to do something as he felt a single tear drip down his face. Maybe he could do it. Break free from this neverending nightmare.
The Shadow Monster must have felt the crack too though, as it spit out some threat that tasted like bile in the back of his throat, because as soon as it finished using his voice to intimidate Max, he felt himself be violently ripped away from her, from the graveyard. The last thing he saw as he began to pass out was a true monster, something that looked like it had been ripped out of a horror comic, leered over Max as she tumbled over the raised edge of the grave.
He hadn’t fought to stay conscious since the battle in the mall, but he felt himself strain as hard as he could until nothingness consumed him once again.
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s/o to @ihni and @hrngrvlv for being amazing cheerleaders! Thank you guys so much
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