#I've just finished the last video

[icarianarts]

This is my final for one of my graphic design interactive media class...LMAO I would have liked to do more but I was going over the time limit. One of these days maybe I'll be able to expand upon this + improve the black sabbath scene + etc.

#me art #devilman #ryo asuka #akira fudo #ryokira #we were given less than two weeks to work on this... on top of a bunch of other projects expected to be completed #a lot of my peers I saw were doing simply just lyric videos and having fun with like transformations in adobe after effects #which in retrospect is probably a better idea than what I did which is. as you can see. hand drawing every panel for like 2 minutes worth #of content. I hope I will be able to have energy to pull through and finish this term.... after everything I've been having to deal with #I really hope this will not be my last graphic design class :')

[jils-things]

by the lighthouse.

dividers

#alright i suppose i should tell what's up lately! im mostly posting this like a mini update or whatever haha #so - since i made that last post on my disappearance i worked endlessly to finish my animation project and thank goodness it's finally over #i had to take a break from trying to be social here and just stay in my own space and i did that by having a smaller side blog to ramble #the project was very... tiring - definitely took out so much energy from me post physically and mentally and i was just frustrated everyday #so i just took my time to be alone with a few close people and i like to think im okay now? #i like to think so - since i was able to deliver a few commission drafts today so i'm relieved that im back to my usual pace #I'll post a few of my doodles here i did during my project just to fill the void haha #i've acquired a minor familial from another video game and i care for him a lot :] idk ill bother to talk abt it here but yeah thats funnn #also indulging a lil bit of t.n.m.n content as of late also thanks to my friend who knows abt it hehe #soo yeah! I don't know if ill be active like the usual but know that i'm doing alright now! hope everyone's doing okay too xoxo #ill probably still stay in my smaller blog for a little longer but will occasionally pop in here! #sooo yaaa #~ art #♥️ memoryshipping #also yea i think no.rton only had like. 10 days worth of being the blog brand here until i switched back to the usual guy lmaooo sorry 😔

[mattodore]

hello good morning happy thumb in his mouth tuesday (a day i just made up for matthias's slutty little whims)

#river dipping #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #echthroi #a burning house to live in #ts4 #blender #now i just have to make a pose where theo's thumb is in matthias's mouth so everything goes full circle #you already know matthias is gonna be on his knees for it 😌 #but anyway i finished making that first pose last night while recording a little video showing nene how i make poses #and then when i woke up i jumped back into blender to make another version of the pose but like. hornier. #i love making poses rn like i'm in blender so often these days... honestly i'm in blender more than i'm in the sims lmao #there's one i started working on like two days ago that is so... i wish i could share it on here but cock and balls are out in it </3 #placing so many curses on tumblr hq #...........i did make a pillowfort account tho so :) #i'll post the wip of it onto there when i get further along bc the pose is kind of messy atm. still trying to figure out the anatomy 😁🔫 #i actually made a pillowfort yesterday just to post an old screenshot from the casual oc save that i found again and had a good laugh at #i've been messing around on there and i really like how you can set posts to being just for logged in users / followers / mutuals #and there's an 18+ label you can slap onto your posts too #like it's great!!! tumblr sucks so bad why don't we have those options on here... seriously #ALSO you can turn off reblogs on pillowfort any time you want and you can set it so that it DELETES ANYONE ELSE'S REBLOGS OF THE POST!!! #WHY is that not an option on this website like i hate it hereeeeeeeeee #but anyway pillowfort also seems to not have that many people on it so like. that's literally perfect for me and my avpd #i'll probably end up posting on there a lot #...... oh and #nsft #?? just in case i mean matthias does in fact have a handful in that second pose there so. for the blacklists ☝️

[tblsomedoodles]

(Pssst! look at this!

my youtube channel is only 6 people away from 4k subs!

1, that's super cool. I'm pretty sure it was at 1k a year ago so thank you all!

2, once it reaches 4k, i'll finish/post that exceptionally stupid Adopted Mikey video that i wasn't sure i'd post b/c it was so damn stupid that it borders on cringe (at least to me. i keep flip flopping between "it's so stupid, i love it and need to share it" and "It's so stupid, if anyone sees this i will melt into a puddle of embarrassment." it's very frustrating.)

Thanks again!)

#random stuff #you can ignore this #i just noticed today and was very shocked #no joke #i made a 1k thank you vid april of last year #it's been a little over a year and i've got 3k more of you now #i am shocked and very thankful #so a stupid angie video i will finish for you all #as a very heart felt thank you #even if i end up melting into a puddle upon it's completion lol

[r2y9s-notartblog]

evening/night boop! (how are you doing?)

morning boop! (i've lost track of the time whoops!)

I'm doing well! have a cat butt!

#replies #uygfiug #not my cat but he is when i'm there lmaoooo #my friend's cat his name is Witcher! he's very cuddly! #the more allergic to cats you are the more he wants to cuddle with you! #to the chagrin of the friend of said friend who often comes by for video games with us #i uh. may have impulsively submitted an application to a communitiy college. #i haven't taken college classes in 8 years haha #but i was like ok i have a BS in art but what if i got an AS in forensic science huh #wouldn't that be cool #i'm just out here about to start collecting degrees orz #also can i even pay for it? even if it's part time? #financial aid save me #fuck if i'm gonna apply for another damn loan after i just paid my last one off #ANYWAYS got into a new video game and it's eating at my brain but at least i've got some great art inspo coming in #i never stay in a fandom for long which is why i never publish any of my fics bc i'm in a new fandom before i can even finish the fic lmaooo #i hope you're doing well! i think ur classes started up again? #gl and take care of yourself! #take breaks and eat and all that u know how it is

[minotaurmutual]

I'm so fucking bored and there are so many things I should be doing but I can't get myself to do them because I can't even get myself to do anything fun because nothing is fun

#the last few days I've literally spent all my free time just sitting there trying to think of something i would like to do and failing #and when i feel like this the only thing that can get me out of it most of the time is a good fanfic but i fear I've genuinely read #everything good at this point #the one i finished a few days ago was so perfect and it was so healing for my soul to experience some nice fucking emotions but now I've #just been wasting my time starting to read fics that turn out to be not my thing after a chapter or two and ugh. just ugh #i wish i could get into anything right now #a long ass book or a tv show with 8 seasons could fix me i think #BUT I CAN'T GET INTO ANYTHING!! #send help please #i can't even find joy in video games right now the situation is truly dire

[girlscience]

People who don't restart/replay video games I will never understand you.

I am on my tenth? playing of SWtOR and I just figured out how stronghold design layouts work, how dye module previews work, what veteran means for the flashpoints (hint. it doesn't mean you've played it a lot so you can skip the cutscenes and just do the battle... I did have to abandon that one lol), how to properly use legacy storage, and how to successfully utilize crew skills with multiple characters. I was doing zero percent of this my first several plays. This makes my most recent two characters the best characters I have ever made. I haven't finished any of my play throughs yet, but my first several I really didn't know what the hell I was doing so they weren't good characters anyway! And I know as I get farther into these two's games I will probably learn even more things to apply to later characters. All this means I am enjoying the game significantly more now than I did when I started playing 4 years ago (jesus. I did not realize it'd been that long).

Personally, I think this is how games were meant to be played. This is exactly how I played Dragon Age Inquisition, and my only finished play through was probably something like my 15th character. I just think games were meant to be started and stopped a few hours in and restarted over and over again until you have the beginning memorized and completely understand the game mechanics, and then you can go through and play the whole game (though you should probably restart again around the middle of the game a few times just to be sure lol).

#I just don't get why you would play a game you don't want to memorize? seems wack to me #why would you want a character to start lame and get better as you learn more #rather than restarting and getting a sick character from the beginning who becomes a complete badass #why would you want to play a character where you missed things??? #this is why I think I probably dislike bg3 a bit. seems too open ended #how do you optimize your character and game play when you can completely change the game every single time you play??? #how can you memorize the game when you can change that much about the game every time???? #seems terrible and stressful #I like a game with big world maps #a pointed main storyline that is mostly unchangeable by player actions #and a lot of side quests that you can prioritize finishing over the main storyline #in order to 100% the game and also OP your character before finishing the main storyline quests rendering them super easy #......game difficulty leveling was made for me I think now that I'm thinking about it. #play on story/easy mode till I memorize the game and then up it to normal and then hard #that is what I did with dai. played on story a Lot and now anytime I play I am on normal #I've been considering doing a hard play through but I am worried that would mean I need to use tactics and fuck that #any way. I played swtor from like 9 until about 3:30 am last night and it was great and I am having a great time #and everyone should play video games this way I think. it rocks

[uncanny-fellow]

life is too short I wanna replay SO many video games

#can you believe ntwewy is two years old?? i wanna replay it #hell we're coming up on the game's announcement trailer's third anniversary. i remember that day vividly #meanwhile i recently replayed pokemon oras and enjoyed it. been a long time since i enjoyed a pokemon game #i wanna go back and finish my now about five year old file on heartgold. idk why i stopped on the eighth gym #so maybe I'll do that next #i also wanna play xenoblade 3 before much longer but first i wanna replay the first game #sometimes i work on the last achievement i have yet to achieve in rdr2 and that always makes me wanna replay it #i beat it once and got to 100% completion and restarted it twice since then but kept stopping when i got to the latter half lol #anyway i gotta finish totk at some point. got distracted bc genshin updated and then my friend started playing it #so we're playing together all the time lately whenever I'm not at work or drawing or reading #OH MAN and I've been listening to kh osts lately. and i keep thinking. what if i replayed literally any of those games lol #augh I'm just over here chewing on video games like a beaver at 5x speed

[obliviousriki]

I finally finished Future Connected. The game has been out for over two years at this point

#xcde #xenoblade #whats up. im alive #ive been posting on my sideblog awareriki pretty frequently these days but have had no time to play games #and suddenly its winter break #and i remember i haven't finished this game #this semester almost killed me #trying to do engineering and music at the same time does not leave a lot of room for playing videos game #unfortunately i will not be purchasing xenoblade 3 yet #i doubt i'll have time to finish it over winter break just based on the number of hours I've seen people say it takes to see most of it #and i would want to go through basically every sidequest #looks fun though! i haven't seen much gameplay but the characters look pretty fun #i might buy it in the summer but honestly i dont know what my summers gonna look like #because last summer i had a 9-5 and spent like a collective two weeks traveling to opposite sides of the country #and i was living in another city! so who knows #its wild to think about how much i've changed since i started this blog like i was a little baby when i posted that first photoset #but anyways ive got some stuff coming up and maybe ill do another landscape gradient thing people seemed to really like that one

[sysig]

Just keep on drawing through the pain

#My art #I made a video to cheer myself up lol #That last transition always makes me giggle #I’ve come the conclusion that Spamton corrupted my files for the lulz #Rude but on-brand #This is technically my first animatic! I've been waffling for probably close to a year and half and stressing about how to make one #Turns out I can just pfffbtlbtl a scribbly nonsense comic and then set it to music and sound effects lol #Break the ice! Make something stupid! Finish it! Post it! Now your first project is done #And if it sucks? Only place to go is up! If it doesn't? Great start! #Nonsense nonsense nonsense

[simple-persica]

Ayo ya boi got herself a job! So between that and school, I'm gonna be swamped. As a result posting might become a little more sparse than it already is.

But I still wanna stream at the usual time, so I'm just not gonna post here when I do stream. I'll be better at scheduling streams ahead of time so people who are subscribed can see when the stream starts.

Commissions are staying open too btw.

#also streams might not just be art anymore #I wanna have fun and do things I enjoy #like stardew valley #also that horror game I started and never finished becuase last time I played I got sick #those two events probably aren't related but #anyway streaming's gonna be a little more diverse now #also...might just...pose videos #like actually #I've already drafted a script for one that was supposed to be a tiktok #but it was too long

[noxtivagus]

the whole world of ffxiv is very dear to me

#🌙.rambles #[ ffxiv. ] #i'm catching up on some quests. particularly the role quests for crafters rn n #THE WRITING IS SO GOOD #i love how the side stories n all these side characters. have. actual character to them #i remember a few months back when i finally finished the. hmmm. i can't rmb but it was the one with the harp. or the bard idk #I CANT REMEMBER BUT YK THE QUEST WHERE THE SONG FROM. ONE OF THE OLD FINAN FANTASIES #THE LUTE! THE LUTE YK FROM. AAAA WAS IT FFIV OR FFIII OR SMTH ELSE I CAN'T REMEMBER 😭 #that said though i rmb something abt that like.. oh my god shadowbringers n. #HOPE! hope is one of my favorite themes ever n ffxiv always does so well w it for me #n then. stuff like. guilt. regret. past present n future.... ffxiv touches on it all is such a personal way. #then again. maybe i also really like the feeling of playing the protagonist or 'hero' through a video game #helping people. making memories through this fantasy world. having profound achievements n being productive #i've said this so much but it's bcs i rlly mean it; ffxiv as an mmorpg really changed my life #i'm. really happy. for the past year my motivation n energy has been really inconsistent n all but #recently.. i've managed to be kinder to myself? #idk oh man i remember last year i wasn't rlly too conscious of time in a. kind of obsessive way like i am now but not really hmmm #wait i'm just reflecting rn UWAH THAT SAID THOUGH #i'll just do what i can! i know i'll be able to do what i want in time anyways #that's just the kind of person i am. i'll work hard. i'll succeed in every aspect i want to. #it's certainly not easy n failure n disappointment will be inevitable but i know i'll make it through it all n do my best. fly. bloom. #being able to rest n take it slow w like ffxiv or wtvr's rlly helped #my social battery is nonexistent still but i always feel safe at least when i'm certain with myself #but i'll always challenge myself to do better. once more i'm excited for the new year #i'm rambling hdkgjskg but indulging in stuff i love like ffxiv rlly just!!!! makes me remember myself!!!! #this is who i am!!!!!!!!!!!! next year i'm gna do a lot better let's fucking go #THE OST OF THE CRYSTARIUM MEANS SO MUCH TO ME. SO MUCH MEMORIES. I MISS SHADOWBRINGERS :<< #hehe i'd really love to live in ffxiv. or to create my own world like it. a dream come true.. but i'll just do my best in this world. #i love the amaros so much :c 'still good in this world'.. yeah. the past few years have taught me that. #i. want to be like my wol honestly. but yk i do know deep down that it's enough to just be myself. that's what i love anyways.

[the-busy-ghost]

Worst thing about being more of a history person is that when I finally do get the drive to sit down and Write, nine times out of ten I can’t follow up on that drive because you can’t just sit down and write history and I don’t just have a pile of research sitting around waiting to be written up

#And it takes me ages to research stuff #Even when I was at my most productive in early 2020 I still wasn't getting regular writing practise #And I do tend to retain information better by using output methods (writing or explaining to other people etc) #So I'm not even retaining a lot of the information I gained through research until I get to the writing point #Which means that if I don't get the research finished quickly for whatver reason (one source being unavailable for a while for example) #A lot of it just falls out of my brain again #So no benefit either way- no written essay accomplished but also no new info gained for my brain to store #It is also not a very portable form of writing #I'm in between houses at the moment and hauling around twenty books for whatever project I'm currently working on #plus a laptop with access to all my primary sources #Is not really a recipe for regular and effective working #Maybe it would be easier if I was one of those people who read one dubious source then make a tik tok or youtube video about it #But that is not great practise #I did used to write stuff from memory a lot when I was younger but I wouldn't do that now #While working from memory is fine for conversational education (i.e. as a guide at a historic property or being interviewed) #Written media lasts a lot longer so I have a vested interest in fact-checking before I write it down #And then it's like a drug #One source leads to another and you're never entirely satisfied with the end result but you used as much information as you could find #To be fair I still get it wrong a lot of the time even when I DO do lots of research but at least I know I've tried my best #Maybe I should go back to short posts occasionally with basic memorised info #But I'm not sure how helpful that would be to people since they can get that on wikipedia #And it wouldn't be great writing practise either #Plus it doesn't really encourage people to research further on their own if you can't provide a good source they can go to next #If I wrote about the interesting stuff from memory I would want to provide sources to back it up and make sure I described it correctly #And like the only stuff I would be willing to put out there without sources is the boring stuff people already know #Ach well #First world problems #Writing

[i-put-the-s4p-in-s4pphic]

s i g h... I might have to add link and zelda to the f/o list

#don't let the sigh fool u I've actually wanted to make zelda ocs for a while now #I am just mentally drained lol #zelda is the main f/o bc she is hitting hard in the latest game #link is like the get 1 free who comes w her.. the silliest guy (/pos) #but also riju is sooo cute in this game!! #not to mention the great fairies who I've been eyeing since last year👀 #do i want a different oc for each of them or do I just have one for all🤔 #I've started playing b.ot.w to try and get a better understanding #but my sister has been playing too and we share a switch #so I might end up watching videos on lore.. #god I can tell this will take over my personality and I am NOT ready #kinda wanna change my blog theme to zeld a tho #but I'll wait until my sister finishes the game #💘. rambles

[vitiateoriginator]

I've been going thru a major creative block recently and I'm really depressed over it

#there's so much stuff I want to do but can't #I'm trying to finish some valentines adopts that I want to sell but Im struggling to finish the linearts as well as find good colors #for the characters #I've also gotta publish the next chapter of my book which is late AGAIN #but every time I open the word document to write I cannot put down anything interesting or coherent #I tried to switch to preparing some draft one shots for ockiss week but even with that I'm facing the same issues #I talked to my therapist about my creativity block and she said I just need to carve out time for myself #like. alone time where I can be creative in a way where it also doesn't feel like a chore to make things #but I don't have the ability to make that time #between work and my datemate almost constantly being around I have no way to get that #and even during the times I do get to be alone all I want to do is scroll thru tumblr and reddit or watch videos #I can't even imagine amvs to music anymore for fuck's sake! #I'm literally always fucking tired and mentally drained #I can't do the things I once loved anymore because it feels too overwhelming to put in the energy #I've tried ti meditate too to see if that would help but my brain is constantly thinking #so that doesn't help at all #and I have nobody to talk to or interest in any media to help get the creative juices flowing again #AND on top of that everyone in my life just seems set to make sure I'm as miserable as possible 24/7 #ok maybe that last part is just the depressing talking but it does still feel that way #I feel so lost man. I just want to sleep for 2 months straight #sam's rants about life

[alchemypanda]

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mini heart attack all my incorporated episode after 4 were broken and/or converted incorrectly. I managed to get new 1080p files but damn the world is against this video.

#alchemypanda is rambling #alchemypanda talks vidding #first I got covid then my episode were corrupted sigh #I wanna finish this vid and upgrade my vegas #also I wanna finish it before my trip in 1.5 month but ugh #I could resurrect my channel with a video I've been sitting on for 4 months but I'm afraid to look at it because last time I hated it lol #don't mind me I'm just rambling to myself I'll probably upload the vid anyway and finish the other one relatively soon #complaining is a great motivator for me haha