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minzbollchen · 1 year
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I should probably post this old piece I did ages ago here as well xD
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thegreymoon · 6 months
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Post-canon Taxian-jun is 100% going to do boy math on both their ages and come to the conclusion that he is now, idk, some 42 to Chu Wanning's 29, just so that he can coerce him to call him "Gege" in bed 🤣🤣
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I’ve been thinking about this all day...
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chen-feiyu · 1 year
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Because I hadn't said it here since Twitter is the main social media website I use: my series of Mo Ran meta will be long, meticulous and supported by canon evidence as much as possible.
My main thesis is that Mo Ran, just like Chu Wanning, is demisexual and he displays symptoms from the following conditions throughout the novel: BPD, ADHD, and PTSD — As for Chu Wanning, I perceive him as an autistic-coded character who struggles with masking heavily due to the dehumanization that has been enacted in him all of his life.
Having these mental conditions affect Mo Ran's perception on plenty of things, to the point the reader might end up having the incorrect opinions that Mo Ran holds about his person if several of his behaviors aren't analyzed as trauma responses, mental illness symptoms or mere misconceptions due to constant emotional manipulation.
One of the main BPD symptoms that characterize Mo Ran 1.0 is black-and-white thinking, in the sense that he hates Chu Wanning, gradually changes his view on him as he gets to know him better, then goes back to hate when he's triggered. He can only think about Chu Wanning in absolutes (God he admires for his strength and desperately craves approval from/heartless hypocrite)
The second symptom is his warped view of self: he has faith in his cultivation and boasts about his accomplishments as Taxian-Jun, and in the next paragraph he calls himself stupid, uncultured and incapable of grasping difficulty concepts.
As for Mo Ran 2.0, he doesn't like himself at all and experiences full time BPD episodes with dissociation, intrusive thoughts, self-harm and even hallucination. He's the phase of Mo Ran who carries the most gruesome side of BPD and shame.
Now, for Taxian-Jun, I'll focus on the "favorite person" part of BPD and how his impact was so big in baby Mo Ran, his mind latched onto the love he felt for Chu Wanning and tried to find ways to thrive among the hostility that surrounded Taxian-Jun due to the flower.
I'm not a professional, but I'll be basing all of my arguments on my own experiences as a person who struggles with BPD, ADHD and PTSD.
The meta essays I'll be posting throughout the next months are the following (not necessarily in order)
1. Analysis of his core beliefs and ethics and how his love for Chu Wanning turned into an anchor and entire reason of existence, which explains Taxian-Jun's cognitive dissonance when it comes to Chu Wanning.
2. Justification for my theory that he can only be a strict dominant top for claiming control about sex reasons + his PTSD symptoms when he gets restrained or beaten by Tianwen. He could never take degrading talk in bed unlike Chu Wanning, who actively enjoys it.
3. A complete description of all of the BPD and PTSD symptoms displayed in the novel, along with his comorbid ADHD.
4. Examination of all his self-harm behaviors in the novel (including casual sex)
5. His wrong perception about his cognitive skills which comes from all the verbal abuse and internalized classism that he received from multiple sources, but especially Xue Meng, the "beyond remedy" comment, his period of homelessness and his childhood at the brothel.
As for other non-Mo Ran 2ha meta that I want to write eventually, these are the topics I'll be addressing:
1. An analysis of classism and patriarchy in 2ha's cultivation world.
2. Finding evidence for autistic Chu Wanning in canon.
3. Long dive into Chu Wanning's fantasies and how his experiences with sexual assault in 0.5 shaped his tastes in sex, which is Chu Fei's tragedy, because Taxian-Jun was forcing him to experience things he clearly liked but it wasn't out of love, just punishment and humiliation.
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zimtameise · 20 days
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Theme: blood
Taxian Jun got bitten by a certain someone.
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jeong-guwon · 2 years
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Bitches be having a mental breakdown over a low quality hyx gif.
I'm bitches 😭
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kukuandkookie · 1 year
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I am so late but merry Christmas...and now happy new year, you guys!!! I'm glad to finally try and fulfill my vision from around 1 year ago (even if I do feel a little embarrassed drawing something like this for the first time). 🤣
And yes, you guys get a bonus less Christmas-y version because I didn't know which one to go with FKGSFDJHDF.
You can find the old post under the cut below or by following this link here!
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Thanks again for sticking with me through 2022, you guys! Let’s go face 2023 head-on! 💪
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thegreymoonwtf · 2 years
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A sketch I am giving up on. Meh :(
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theherocomplex · 2 years
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Knowing how much time he has left clarifies his mind, and his resolve: he will finally kill the monster that killed Mo Ran, and then he will die, and that will be the end of the story.
And perhaps, in one of those other — better — worlds, he has said no, and Mo Ran is alive. Perhaps the story told by the days of his life is a happy one: he grows up brave, just, and kind, with a dim but fond memory of his shizun who loved him, but who did not let that make him weak. May there be a thousand worlds like it.
Chu Wanning thinks of those other worlds more and more as his days grow fewer. He forgets the courtyard, the pond full of fish, the changing halls; instead he turns the painting, and there’s Mo Ran, alive and strong and laughing. Loved by a better version of Chu Wanning, who kept him safe.
But loved, always. It all comes back to love.
In which Chu Wanning sees his end approaching, and Taxian-jun's thoughts turn to promotion.
A Tear in the Vein - Chapter Three is up!!
2ha | ranwan | canon divergence/alternate universe | 32k | 3/4 chapters | explicit
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silverstark · 1 year
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Fever Dreams Pt.2 of 2
An AU of "Sanguine" my 2ha au fic of the 0.5 timeline featuring mpreg. This au has a hopeful ending. Major spoilers for the novel.
cws for all the 0.5 timeline plus mpreg and implied forced pregnancy
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Liu-gonggong's voice sounded some distance away. It had probably been the thing that woke him.
"...Yes, they confirmed that Hua Binan has been living in Guyueye all these years," Liu-gongong was saying.
Hua Binan...that name had appeared in his nightmare. Chu Wanning wondered why it was showing up in his dreams again. Hua Binan's face, so terribly familiar, appeared before his mind's eye again.
Chu Wanning must have stirred or made a sound. There was a hand running down his back soothingly. Chu Wanning frowned in some confusion. The gesture was too gentle to be...
"Mo Ran," he murmured hoarsely.
"Shh," a voice said.
This unfamiliar person was right next to Chu Wanning, sharing his bed. Chu Wanning opened his eyes in shock and outrage. He froze at the sight that greeted him.
Mo Ran was looking at him. He had been the one gently stroking his back and urging him to sleep. Chu Wanning waited for Mo Ran's expression to twist into disgust and paranoia like it usually did.
"..."
"Wanning," Mo Ran said. Then he grimaced.
"..."
"...Shizun," Mo Ran said.
"..."
There was something strange about Mo Ran's expression. He seemed almost sheepish.
Before Chu Wanning could figure out just what was going on, Mo Ran suddenly took his arms back and wriggled off of the bed. He knelt on the ground facing Chu Wanning. Then he kowtowed.
"Shizun, please forgive this disciple."
"..."
Chu Wanning was more confused than ever. He looked at Liu-gonggong for a hint about what to do, only to find that Liu-gonggong had also prostrated in imitation of his emperor.
"No, I meant...I know I'm beyond forgiveness. I know I was wrong," Mo Ran sobbed. "I can never atone for what I did. But, Shizun..."
Chu Wanning stared. A wild, heartrending hope was burning through the fog in his mind. Perhaps it had not been a dream. Perhaps it had been real.
"Mo Ran," he began.
Then he remembered the nightmare half of his dream. If there was a chance that he really had killed Hua Binan, then there was a chance Hua Binan had succeeded in his own goal too.
"Mo Ran," he asked urgently, "is our baby-"
Mo Ran suddenly looked up at him with wide, startled eyes. He didn't answer right away. Chu Wanning began shaking in terror. He put his hands over his abdomen in denial, in grief. But then Mo Ran spoke up.
"The baby's fine! The baby's okay. I'm sorry, I just..."
Chu Wanning exhaled in relief. All the fear turned into annoyance at Mo Ran for leaving him in suspense.
"Then why are you apologizing?" he snapped.
Mo Ran flinched and returned to his prostrating.
"I...I was wrong. I know now," Mo Ran said. "I remember everything."
"..."
Chu Wanning's heart had just begun to calm down. Now it began racing again; this time with hope.
"What do you mean?" he asked warily.
"Liu-gonggong overheard about the Eight-Sufferings-Long-Hatred Flower," Mo Ran explained.
Chu Wanning inhaled sharply. Mo Ran shouldn't be able to remember that name. The curse prevented him from discovering it. Unless the curse had been broken.
"I realized, even though the curse was broken," Mo Ran continued, as if the world hadn't just changed for Chu Wanning, "the flower was still in my heart. I destroyed it."
"..."
"And all these memories came back," Mo Ran concluded.
Chu Wanning couldn't say anything. His mind was spinning. His heart was racing. His eyes were fixed on Mo Ran.
"..."
"I'm sorry," Mo Ran said.
"Get up," Chu Wanning replied. "Come here."
Mo Ran hesitantly obeyed.
Chu Wanning stared at him. Mo Ran's face was miserable and pale. There were deep shadows under his eyes. But there was a light in his eyes that Chu Wanning hadn't seen in many, many years. Not since the terrible, cold night when the rift opened and Shi Mei fell into the snow. Chu Wanning had noticed the change in his disciple but he had been unable to look past his own guilt and self-disgust to realize what it meant. He had failed to notice the curse take hold of Mo Ran. And Mo Ran had suffered for years because of it.
The longer Chu Wanning stared at Mo Ran, the blurrier Mo Ran's face became, until Chu Wanning blinked and felt a tear spill over onto his face.
He and Mo Ran spoke at the same time.
"I'm sorry."
Mo Ran looked confused and weary. "How can it be you that is apologizing?"
"I didn't protect you."
"How could you have known?" Mo Ran asked.
That was precisely what was wrong!
"I didn't pay attention," Chu Wanning said shakily, "I didn't notice the curse."
It was an apology he had held in his heart ever since he had learned of the curse. Years' worth of sorrow and regret flooded through him, choking his throat with tears. He closed his eyes in mingled grief and relief. He could finally get to say what he always wished he could say to Mo Ran.
"I didn't know until after...after I lost my core. And then I didn't know who had cast the curse or how closely they were watching us. I had to pretend not to know."
Mo Ran was quiet in response. He murmured, "Wanning" softly but then said no more.
"I'm sorry," Chu Wanning repeated. "I know I was unkind. I couldn't risk them finding out that I knew."
Mo Ran finally interrupted him. "How can you say that?"
Chu Wanning opened his eyes to meet Mo Ran's. Mo Ran's eyes sparked with frustration now.
"How can you say that you were unkind, when I-" he cut himself off.
His expression crumpled. Chu Wanning could see shame, guilt, and regret. It was not right for those emotions to be on Mo Ran's face or in his heart.
"That was not your fault," Chu Wanning said gently. "The things you did...they were because of the curse."
"You're wrong," Mo Ran muttered.
His eyes flickered to Chu Wanning's hands. Chu Wanning still held them over the baby. He had kept them there less out of protectiveness and more because he found it reassuring to feel his baby safe beneath his hands. Now that Mo Ran was looking, Chu Wanning felt protective again.
He suddenly realized he didn't know this form of Mo Ran. Taxian-Jun had loved this child of theirs- but Taxian-Jun's mind and desires had been distorted by the curse flower. The child only existed as a result of the flower's effects over him. Chu Wanning didn't know if Mo Ran could love such a child. He didn't know what he would do if Mo Ran rejected them.
"Shizun," Mo Ran suddenly pleaded. He dropped to his knees again to kneel before him. "I know I have no right to ask this. I know I sinned against you. But, please, can we...can you...please, I- I really want this child."
Chu Wanning glared to hide his immense relief.
"What are you kneeling for? It’s my child too.”
Mo Ran seemed surprised. "So then, you truly want this child?"
A sense of humiliation rose up in Chu Wanning. Taxian-Jun's words echoed in his mind, calling him a whore for feeling pleasure in the torment that Taxian-Jun put him through.
"It's my child," Chu Wanning snapped. "No matter what, I will keep them safe."
"Oh," Mo Ran replied dumbly.
He stopped pleading for their child's life then. Chu Wanning thought it was the end of it, but then Mo Ran spoke again.
"That's why you didn't want anyone to know that I...favored our child," Mo Ran said slowly. "It wasn't just the Empress you feared. You knew that Hua Binan would be watching."
Chu Wanning didn't say anything. It was true. Mo Ran didn't need a confirmation at this point.
“Hua Binan attacked you because I didn’t listen,” Mo Ran concluded.
“No,” Chu Wanning countered.
“Why else would he seek you out?” Mo Ran asked bitterly.
“He came to Sisheng Peak to make sure you survived,” Chu Wanning said. “He only found out about…about the child once he was here.”
Mo Ran looked skeptical. Chu Wanning understood his confusion.
“He needed you alive. The reason he cast the curse on you, was so he could use your power,” Chu Wanning wearily reminded him.
“Oh.”
Mo Ran thought it over for a bit.
“Why? To what end?”
Chu Wanning sighed. He had been asking himself the same question every day for years now.
“I don’t know,” Chu Wanning admitted.
He closed his eyes. He was suddenly exhausted.
"Shizun should rest," Mo Ran said after a moment.
Chu Wanning didn't have the energy to argue.
"Will Shizun stay here? That way I can- my guards can watch over you."
For once, it seemed a genuine question. Chu Wanning didn't know how to respond. It was too much, all of a sudden. Mo Ran had returned to himself. Mo Ran had asked to keep their baby. Mo Ran was asking Chu Wanning to remain in his bed. Chu Wanning's head was heavy with the remains of a fever and he was afraid that this was all a dream.
Instead of answering, Chu Wanning lay back down and curled up in Mo Ran's bed. Mo Ran said nothing more to him. He heard him whisper quiet orders to Liu-gonggong, or perhaps his guards. Then he walked back to the side of his bed and hesitated there. Chu Wanning could feel him watching him even though his eyes were closed.
"Wanning?" Mo Ran called quietly.
Chu Wanning did not respond. For some reason, his heart began beating faster again.
"I'm sorry," Mo Ran said in that same quiet voice.
"..."
Mo Ran said, quieter still, "I don't know how to atone..."
Chu Wanning had wanted to pretend to be asleep. But, upon hearing Mo Ran's lost, sorrow-filled lament, Chu Wanning couldn't help but sigh and open his eyes. Mo Ran winced.
"I didn't mean to wake-"
"Are you going to stand there all day?"
Chu Wanning glared. Mo Ran met his glare, looking both chastised and somehow stubborn.
"...I want to keep you safe," Mo Ran pleaded.
"You're injured."
"I'm mostly healed."
"Oh? Then why were you in bed just now?"
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Mo Ran's handsome face blushed with color. Chu Wanning hadn't seen that reaction since what felt like another lifetime. He unwillingly softened his expression in response.
"Let me stay," Mo Ran stubbornly requested.
Chu Wanning should have sent him away. But...
"It's your bed," Chu Wanning reminded him.
Then he turned his back on Mo Ran and drew the covers over his head. He unconsciously held his breath. There was a long pause. Then, the bedding rustled as Mo Ran slipped into bed behind him. Chu Wanning sighed in relief.
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Author's Note: I wrote this to celebrate Seven Seas' official English translation of 2ha, come out next week. Let me know if you liked it!
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minzbollchen · 1 year
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Finally home so I can upload another old meme haha
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thegreymoon · 6 months
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Hello! Hope you are having a good day!
I began to reread Scum Villain and began to think about the similarities between the Xin Mo and Flower of Everlasting Hatred. Like both of them heighten the negative feelings, except the latter is a bit more one track. Both contribute to the darkening of the person in possession of it, except for Xin Mo it has the added imagery of being the driving force of the OG stallion novel. It attempts to perpetuate the old plotlines, attempting to transform Bing-mei to Bing-ge,,,,,both are present as the symbol of a higher power manipulating the narrative (Hua Binan/The System), albeit for different reasons. "Forced to become evil due to freaky magical influence" is a trope that has incredible potential for angst™.
Aaaaa, thank you for the ask! I love SVSSS/2ha parallels so much!! 🤗
2ha was my first danmei and it is also the book that is more suited to my tastes, so while I did end up enjoying SVSSS for what it is, my favorite parts were definitely the ones where I could see the direct parallels with 2ha, especially the parallels between Bingmei/Bingge and MZS/TXJ. My absolute favourite bit in the whole book was when the PIDW Bingge created the rift and ended up in the SVSSS timeline.
With that said, I always connected Xin Mo with Bugui, but your parallel also makes so much sense from the POV of both Xin Mo and the 🌺 being a corrupting magical influence. Xin Mo seems to have both a higher state of consciousness than either Bugui or the 🌺, and an agenda that is independent of its master. All spiritual weapons in 2ha seem to have some level of sentience, but they don't seem to have a will of their own and they certainly do not have an agenda independent of their wielder. Bugui was a destructive entity because Mo Ran himself was destructive. The 🌺, though, did not have sentience or will of its own. It was just a cancer. Xin Mo may have been corrupting, but it also gave its wielder power. The 🌺 did not, it just twisted and corroded. Also, the main difference for me here is the element of choice. Luo Binghe chose to take up Xin Mo, knowing the risks but doing it anyway because it would yield him unimaginable power. Mo Ran had no choice.
The corrupting magical artefact that Xin Mo reminds me more of is the One Ring from The Lord of the Rings. It is, in essence, sentient and has its own agenda. It magnifies your inherent power to a massive degree, but it also eats away at you until you are nothing but a shell of your former self. Both of them are parasitic, but at least for a while there, there is an element of symbiosis (for comparison, the 🌺 in 2ha is definitely parasitic with no benefit to the host, and Bugui is symbiotic, with no negative side-effects at all).
What is interesting to me about Xin Mo is that Bingge actually mastered this sword and found a way to control it instead of the other way around, even if this is a constant work in progress and the sword still seems to be looking for ways to chip away at his defences (hence his constant need to channel its negative energy through sex). Bingmei never did and the sword very much infected his mind in a way that it never did with Bingge. I think that this is (partly) because Bingmei left the Abyss sooner than Bingge and thus never fully mastered his demonic powers, but also because Bingmei's goals were different to Bingge's. Bingmei's big dream is to be a househusband for his Shizun and live in domestic bliss, while Bingge wants to rule the known universe. The latter is much more in line with the demonic sword's own nature, which craves and thrives on chaos, which is why I think Xin Mo was an actual asset to Bingge and an active factor in his own destruction for Bingmei.
Hua Binan and the System, though, go into different categories for me. Hua Binan is the actual villain of the narrative, with a personality and a goal that is influenced by in-universe factors. On the other hand, I view the System in the same way as I view all AI. It's a computer program that does what its code tells it to, but it is not actually intelligent, nor does it have any independent design. It is dumb and easily fooled, but also inflexible and unable to realise when its actions could lead to its own destruction (such as Shen Qingqiu dying being a viable option to this "game", which would absolutely lead to Luo Binghe spiralling and self-destructing and taking this whole universe, including the System, out in the process).
Anyway, there is SO MUCH I want to talk about concerning the parallels between Bingge and TXJ (and their respective shizuns' reactions to meeting their blackened selves) but this is getting loooooong as it is, so I am going to stop here for the time being 😭
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ashedddaisy · 1 year
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⛥ 2HA ⛥ 01 ⛥ 29. THIS VENERABLE ONE DOESN'T WANT YOU TO DIE. ⛥
Truth be told, Mo Tan had never understood just how he felt about this person.
That white cat's sharp teeth and claws had left Mo Ran covered in wounds.
He'd once regarded Chu Wanning as the cold moon in the ninth heaven, had wholeheartedly revered him—adored him. But what was he to that cold moon, really?
During that time, if Shi Mei has praised him with "well done," he would've flown into the sky with happiness. But if Chu Wanning had been willing to give him a "not bad," he would've gladly given his life.
Mo Ran had been about to lose it. Heaven knew how much he'd wanted to grab Chu Wanning by the face and make him turn around, to force his shizun to look at him, to see him, to take back that "vile by nature, beyond remedy"!
His blood trickled out drop by drop as his life drained away bit by bit.
But why, even at death's door, was that man still so indifferent?
Chu Wanning, who was on the verge of death, who had been defeated by Taxian-jun, pitied him! He actually pitied him, he who stood at the apex above all else, who held boundless power. He, he actually—he actually dared!
"You have no disciple like me? Then who taught me to cultivate? Who taught me martial skills? And my cold-blooded ruthlessness—who taught me that?! And the whip scars all over my body that still won't fade—let me ask you, who gave me those?!"
"...Are my bones too lowly or is it my blood that's too filthy? Let me ask you, Chu Wanning, let me ask you—what did you mean by 'vile by nature, beyond remedy'?"
"You've never seen me as your disciple, never thought anything of me! But I-I once... really did see you as my teacher. I really did respect you. Adored you! Why did you treat me like that? Why did you never spare so much as a single word of praise? Why was it that no matter what I did, I could never earn the slightest bit of approval from you?!"
"I'm sorry, Mo Ran. It was this master's fault..."
Many things should have passed through his mind at that moment. Glee, smugness, ecstasy. But none of it did. There was but one strange thought in his head, and only that one: When had he become... so much taller than Chu Wanning?
He had changed his mind. He no longer wanted Chu Wanning to die. He hated Chu Wanning, and he wanted him to live—live...
If Chu Wanning died, then what would he even have left in this world...?
He wouldn't leave, but he wouldn't go in either. Standing outside the window, he propped his elbows on the frame, rested his cheeks in his hands, and stared at Chu Wanning from far away.
And so the white cat knelt all night, never turning around.
And so the dumb dog stood all night, never once leaving.
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thevapollo · 2 months
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Taxian-Jun, my beautiful boy, did you spend nights awake, mind buzzing, chasing something you couldn't quite decipher? did you hold Chu Wanning so tight so he couldn't escape? did you see the roundworms around you? did the rain make it seem like they cried with you?
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zimtameise · 3 days
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BREAKING NEWS:
A servant claims he saw a hidden bald spot on Taxian-jun's head. Unfortunately, we couldn't find that servant anymore, when we wanted to reach out to him for an exclusive interview.
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vivernt · 4 months
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some spoilers to erha's ending, be carefull
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