#The dread of knowing she's walking back to a fight without zidian and trying to keep up brave face one last time...chilling.

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Don't Wormy About Me.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #yu ziyuan #Please allow me to make it clear how important I think the hug between YZY and JC is in regards to several aspects of their characters #For one - it is the resolution and reveal that behind all the harsh words and bitterness...She really did love her son. #A hug is a soft gesture that you would never expect from someone like YZY and the fact she shows JC this affection now - #-Tells us how she knows that this upcoming battle is a death sentence for her. #Her giving away Zidan is honestly overkill but another sign of her truly showing him how she loves him and wants him to survive. #The dread of knowing she's walking back to a fight without zidian and trying to keep up brave face one last time...chilling. #Zidian represents legacy and promises. And this is going to both save and destroy Jiang Cheng as he carries this weight alone. #Heartbreaking stuff! Didn't draw it in the comic because I wanted to draw a silly worm on a string! #WWX tried to help JC out of the knot but got stuck in it. #Those worm on a string tricks are harder than they look! #Also; it's been about a year since the last boat joke - but indeed this is the 11th boat of pd-mdzs. No need to do the math.

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POV for the writing meme, if you please!

This is Lan Xichen’s POV from this Inktober for Writers fic and it got slightly longer than I anticipated. Warnings for child abuse and homophobic language.It’s over 1.7k, so there’s a read more.

Lan Xichen iswaiting in the pavilion one of the Sect disciples had led him to, but when hehears the crackling sound of Zidian he quickly leaves.

If theYunmeng Jiang sect is being attacked, he will not just sit idly by.

He followsthe continued crackling around a corner and then time slows down.

It takeshim a second to understand what he is seeing but once the situation trickledin, ice-cold fury spreads through Lan Xichen.

Madame Yu israising her hand, clearly intending to bring down Zidian on her son a secondtime, even though he is already down on one knee and Lan Xichen moves fasterthan he ever has in his life.

He stillhears the gasped, pleading “Don’t” Jiang Cheng brings out between his clenchedteeth and then Zidian is whipping through the air again.

Lan Xichencatches it in his hand, allows the end to wrap around his forearm and then hejust bears it, because no one, no one, is allowed to hurt Jiang Cheng.

Least ofall the woman who calls herself his mother.

“You,” sheyells and tries to yank Zidian back, but Lan Xichen will not give her anotherchance to hurt her son.

Lan Xichensees from the corner of his eyes how Jiang Cheng pushes himself to his feet, unsteadyand stumbling and the fury inside of Lan Xichen only gets colder.

Jiang Chengstumbles close enough to grab the back of Lan Xichen’s robes and even withoutlooking Lan Xichen can feel that he is shaking.

He wants toturn around and gather Jiang Cheng up in his arms, but he doesn’t dare put hisback to Madame Yu, not yet, not when she is still glaring at Jiang Cheng likethat.

“Don’t dothis,” Jiang Cheng whispers, voice shaking almost as much as his hands do andLan Xichen’s heart clenches painfully in his chest.

Lan Xichenthinks back to how relaxed and almost happy Jiang Cheng had always seemed atthe Cloud Recesses, and how small and scared he was right now and decided thenand there, that he would not allow Jiang Cheng to stay here.

And if hehad to steal him away, then so be it.

“JiangCheng is a close personal friend and a trusted ally of our Sect and I will notallow you to treat him like this,” Lan Xichen says coldly and delights in theway Madame Yu’s eyes widen.

She may be knownas a fierce warrior, but Lan Xichen has his own reputation and his youth on hisside. If he has to fight here, and he willif she doesn’t back down, he’s confident that he can win.

Zidian isstill crackling around his wrist, but the pain is bearable at least for now,and he enjoys the way Madame Yu tries to get it back, to no avail.

“‘A closepersonal friend’,” Madame Yu spits out with a scathing look at Jiang Cheng anda new hatred for her forms in Lan Xichen’s gut.

He doesn’tlike what she’s implying, and he certainly doesn’t care for it either.

“Don’t tellme you’re a cut-sleeve like your brother,” she goes on, her gaze now on himagain, and Lan Xichen has to fight to keep the last shreds of his restraintstogether.

There isnothing shameful about being in love with a man, and if she insults his brotheragain, he will show Madame Yu her place.

“And don’tyou think I will allow you to become just as wrong and warped as that bastardis,” Madame Yu hisses at Jiang Cheng and Lan Xichen clenches his teeth so hardthere’s a faint cracking noise.

He will notallow Jiang Cheng to stay here even a second longer.

“There isnothing you can allow or deny us,” he presses out, voice forcefully calm and hefinally drops Zidian.

His firstpriority is to get Jiang Cheng out of here now.

He turnsaround to Jiang Cheng, puts his back in a clear sign of dismissal of hertowards Madame Yu and gently takes Jiang Cheng’s hands in his.

“I’m sorry,”Jiang Cheng breathes out, not meeting his eyes and Lan Xichen wants to hug him,wants to keep him close and protect him and love him, if Jiang Cheng will allowthat, but it’s not yet time for that.

He has toget him out of here first.

“Are youokay?” he asks, because Jiang Cheng did take a hit from Zidian that had senthim to his knees.

If JiangCheng is severely wounded, Lan Xichen needs to take care of that first. He’ssurprised to see tears in Jiang Cheng’s eyes, and resists the urge to wipe themaway with his thumb.

“What areyou doing here?” Jiang Cheng asks instead of answering Lan Xichen’s question,and scrubs his hand over his eyes before his tears can fall.

“Pathetic,”Madame Yu says behind Lan Xichen and a shiver runs down Lan Xichen’s back whenhe hears the disgust and disregard in her voice.

If he hadknown that Madame Yu treated Jiang Cheng like this, he would have come to stealhim away years ago.

“I’m hereto see you,” Lan Xichen gently tells him, completely ignoring Madame Yu, andhis heart falls when Jiang Cheng tries to take his hand back.

“You shouldget back to the Cloud Recesses,” Jiang Cheng mumbles and avoids his eyes again.

Lan Xichensees how acutely aware Jiang Cheng still is of Madame Yu behind his back and heshifts a little bit, to bring the focus back on him.

“Yes, weshould,” Lan Xichen says and he can see that it takes Jiang Cheng a momentbefore he realizes what Lan Xichen had said.

“What?”

“You’recoming with me,” Lan Xichen tells him, and curses himself when Jiang Chengshrinks in on himself.

He didn’tmean to make that a command.

“If youwant to, of course,” he adds, and gives Jiang Cheng a small smile to take the commandout of his previous statement.

“He doesn’t,”Madame Yu answers in Jiang Cheng’s stead and Jiang Cheng ducks his head as if thatwould help him escape his mother’s hatred.

Lan Xichenhas never wanted to punch a person in the face as much as he does right now. Heknows his interference will cause an incident, no matter if he takes JiangCheng with him or not, but he remembers Wei Wuxian’s worried look every time hetalks about Jiang Cheng, remembers the cautious way Jiang Cheng walks and talksthe first few days when he comes to the Cloud Recesses and he couldn’t careless.

Let therebe an incident.

When heexplains this to his uncle, he won’t send Jiang Cheng away. They will all bemore than glad to help him protect Jiang Cheng. There is nothing more despicablethan hate and violence when they should love and protect their children.

“JiangCheng,” Lan Xichen softly says and brings Jiang Cheng’s attention back tohimself. “Do you want to come with me?”

Jiang Chengseems lost in thought for a moment, and Lan Xichen patiently waits him out.

“Yes,” hefinally chokes out and the fury inside Lan Xichen finally ebbs a bit, thoughhis heart still breaks at the desperation in Jiang Cheng’s voice. “Please don’tleave me here,” Jiang Cheng goes on and grabs Lan Xichen’s robes again, as ifhe would just walk away if Jiang Cheng let go of him.

As if LanXichen could ever walk away from him.

“I won’t,” LanXichen promises and finally dares to pull him into a hug, presses him into hischest, one arm securely around his waist, mindful of his no doubt tender back.

Jiang Chengpresses himself even closer, buries his face in Lan Xichen’s chest and LanXichen briefly presses his lips to his hair.

“It’s okaynow,” he promises him, because it will be, Lan Xichen will make sure of that,and then gently and regretfully breaks the hug, though he keeps his arm aroundJiang Cheng’s waist. He doesn’t ever want to let him go again.

“Let’s go.Do you need anything?”

Jiang Chenghesitates for a second, and then his hand goes to Sandu in his belt. When hefeels the sword there, he shakes his head. Lan Xichen lets out a relieved breath,because he really doesn’t want to give Madame Yu more opportunity to hurt JiangCheng, be it with actions or words.

“Alrightthen,” Lan Xichen says and steers Jiang Cheng away from Madame Yu, wanting toget a bit of distance between them, before they get on their swords.

The hairson Lan Xichen’s neck stand up, before he even hears the tell-tale whir ofZidian and the fury makes a vengeful comeback.

He hasnever felt that much hate for one single person.

Lan Xichenturns around, deflects Zidian with Shuoyue and then tightens his grip on JiangCheng when he tries to get away from him.

He knowswhat Jiang Cheng is doing, knows he’s just trying to protect Lan Xichen, but hecannot believe that Madame Yu got her claws so deep in Jiang Cheng that hehonestly thinks staying here will be better for everyone.

He pullsJiang Cheng into his side again, not allowing him to move away, and all thewhile he stares Madame Yu down.

He wishesshe would attack again, he almost dares her to, because he’s itching to giveher a taste of her own medicine. But she must see something in his gaze, becauseshe scoffs and finally retracts Zidian.

“Fine. Thentake him. He’s not good for anything, anyway.”

Lan Xichenworks his jaw and he has to take a deep breath before he can even say somethingwith a steady voice.

“And that’swhere you’re wrong,” he tells her and immediately turns away from her.

Lan Xichensees the ashamed look on Jiang Cheng’s face, and he will not allow him to eventhink for a second that Lan Xichen thinks the same about him as Madame Yu. Hepresses a soothing kiss to Jiang Cheng’s temple, wants him to know that thereis nothing Madame Yu can do or say that will ever diminish Jiang Cheng’s worthand then he finally drags him away from this dreadful place.

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