#Void (also a transmasc) is more open about being trans and such

[old-school-butch]

Hello again <3

I sent you an anon that you replied to on April 1st, which was me asking how ex-TIFs are received back into womanhood. Your reply gave me a little foothold which ended up very comforting as I started coming out rapid-fire to all my friends as detrans. this is primarily a message for other people in my situation, who are afraid and might want a template of what you might expect will happen once you do come out with it.

Predictably, most of my friends dropped me; I've 3 friends left. Two of which continue to support trans people but can accept that i have different opinions (as long as i'm "not mean") and one of which has seen the gender critical arguments, accepted them, and agrees. So, heavy losses, but not total losses. My two siblings seemed to sigh in relief and reveal that they never believed in genderism at all, which is odd, because in my 10 years of being trans not one of them challenged me on it. my mom fell into heavy guilt over "letting me" do all this, although i was 18 when i took testo and 19 when i got surgery, so she really could not have stopped me, legally. i suppose she mainly grieves knowing that had she had the right arguments she could have saved her kid this, but i've told her she is not to blame and i hope she recognizes that.

i haven't received any real harassment, not from anyone that i PERSONALLY know, though my family has received... harassment targeted at me? my sister had a classmate begin sending her copious pro-trans propaganda (contrapoints videos) which she instructed should be sent onward to me (sis did not comply). hilarious how my 10 years of direct experience is suddenly null and void and i'm assumed to know nothing about transness.... 6 months ago i was helping people sensitivity-write trans characters. now, i'm told i can't speak for the trans experience at all, and that i do not know what it's like to be a transmasc person. told that i need to listen to the arguments more carefully, that i don't LISTEN, when i literally lived this for 10 whole years. girl, on god? they tell me i don't get it and need to educate myself. and have empathy of course.

but in general, detransing, i've discovered that there are PLENTY of people who do not actually believe in genderism but who will play along simply out of fear or social pressure. my friends aside, who i knew through "queer" circles, everyone in my family (expect my mom) has revealed they never actually believed in it. i think this might contribute to why trans people bully dissenters so badly. they know this is the truth, that no one really buys it. i think, subconsciously, i have known that too. i never downloaded grindr, i never went into the men's bathrooms. i knew that despite testo and surgery and pronouns i could never challenge men as an equal in their eyes.

interestingly, making new friends is not that hard. I lead with the fact i'm detrans and "don't believe in all that shit" and people are VERY eager to be able to, suddenly, voice their real opinions without being called transphobic. they begin with probing questions, uncontroversial statements like "i agree they shouldn't put males in women's sports..." but if you continue to agree and not punish this daring on their part, they will reveal, with much relief and enthusiasm, what they really think. most people, normal people, really do not believe it all? i'm a brash person and can take irl confrontations quite well, hence i feel safe putting myself up as a transphobe off the bat. and people are very into this. so. the old ass saying, just be yourself.... normal people will not volunteer anti-genderist opinions on their own but when i continue to state thing after thing they open up and agree and eventually feel safe enough to admit their own thoughts. making friends, especially with non-gendie women, hasn't been that hard.

i'm going to write another message about same-sex attraction in the genderverse, but it's also a can of worms so i will make it separate from this one. again, thank you so much, for having anon on and listening, and letting us listen to each other without fear. i would hug you. to be continued

Thanks for the follow up!

My only comment is that I think most people play along out of kindness, it's not all bullying and fear, but that does impose a silence on everyone so everyone feels quite alone with their doubts.

[scoliosisgoblin]

more doodles of Void and Charlie, feat. Morty, Summer and Maddie

Btw, the Void, Maddie and demon (Lilly) doodle is from my "friends" au, where my friends and I put some of our oc's together and, yk, made an au. Might post more of them, cause I have a bunch of stuff with them :)

#just the sillies #these are also quite old... #might draw Rick later idk #“eat your doritos. bitch” #oh yeah so in most au's Maddie's other parent varies #and in the friends au Lilly's the other parent :) #her and Void are only friends though #God I wanna make more drawings of Void. Morty and Summer when they were younger #their dynamic is so cute and I just can't explain it that well #also in my au Morty is trans. I didn't wanna draw him “like a girl” #cause he doesn't like being seen as one and prefers to just be remembered as a boy essentially #Void (also a transmasc) is more open about being trans and such #which is why I'd draw him “as a girl” and not Morty #just like how I won't deadname my Morty and rather just have his name like [Morty] #if I were to make a comic strip of him younger or something #here's me rambling again #sorry #Void #Charlie #Summer #Morty #Madeleine #Lilly #rick and morty #rick and morty fandom #rick and morty fanart #my art #queer representation #doodles #friends au

[tabzsoda]

I saw you say you could ramble on forever about gender intricacies and I am BEGGING for you to do this about equius

FINALLY THE MOMENT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR

Why do I think Transfem or Transmasc could work for Equius? Well, first let's examine his Classpect - Heir of Void. This aspect gives us insights into his personality beyond what is shown in the comic itself. The void aspect is associated with infinite possibilities and secrecy. Like Roxy, another void player, Equius may see the potential within emptiness rather than focusing solely on its absence. However, the impact of the aspect depends on the individual wielding it. While it can be beneficial, it can also lead to indifference and apathy. How Equius lets the aspect affect him is crucial.

Now, let's consider his class, Heir. Heirs begin the game already influenced by their aspect, as we see with John, who is a free spirit. Equius, on the other hand, is extremely secretive about himself, concealing rather than being open and honest with his friends.

We can now interpret this in a literal sense, relating it to gender. In Alternia, the only physical characteristic distinguishing individuals on the male-female spectrum is breast tissue; otherwise, there isn't much to differentiate the two genders. Trolls possess both sets of reproductive organs, making it challenging to determine their sex. It's essentially arbitrary.

Let's delve into Equius further. In the comic, he is strongly tied to the caste system and adheres to specific roles. He believes trolls of lower castes are crass, but he contradicts himself by fraternizing with those beneath him, such as his Moirail Nepeta. This suggests that he may not fully agree with the system or its ideals. However, in a society that dictates how you think, it's instinctive to lean towards those ideals.

Equius also displays an obsession with strength and prowess. He admires muscular Hoofbeasts to an uncomfortable extent but also engages in Nepeta's playful antics, which contradicts his masculine ideals. Equius himself is exceptionally strong, but he is upset about it. He frequently builds robots just to destroy them due to his own strength. It's evident that he has a complex relationship with his own strength, contrary to his admiration for other strong beings. There are two ways to interpret this.

One interpretation is that he could be Transfem. The only time he drops the masculine persona is when he is with Nepeta, which makes sense as they are Moirails. While he demeans femininity around others, it can be seen as his reluctance to express that he enjoys femininity to some degree.

His explosive anger towards his own strength could be another indicator that he doesn't fully embrace his masculinity. To compensate and feel "normal," he surrounds himself with extreme levels of muscles and dominance, which can be seen as a coping mechanism. It's not uncommon for queer/trans individuals to deny aspects of themselves and conform to societal norms that are expected of them.

On the other hand, Equius could be viewed as Transmasc. He is more comfortable expressing femininity with Nepeta but outwardly presents himself as masculine. He may want to maintain the image of extreme masculinity, while still being able to feel like himself naturally with Nepeta. Being feminine with close friends doesn't diminish one's identity as a man. However, with other friends, he feels the need to uphold a certain identity.

Despite his frustration when his strength causes harm, he does enjoy being recognized for his strength and masculinity. Trans individuals often surround themselves with what makes them feel comfortable in order to be seen as their identified gender. In Equius' case, it can be seen as a way to cope with wanting to be perceived as masculine by his friends, which is a common experience for many transmasculine individuals.

This analysis of Equius allows us to gain a better understanding of him as a character, using the information provided in the comic. The void aspect represents infinite choices, as shown by Roxy's comfort and fluidity represented in fandom. Equius inherits the void, so we can explore the infinite possibilities within his character. There is a lot of potential in understanding him this way.

Ultimately, both sides of the argument can be valid, as each point can be interpreted as either FTM or MTF. The beauty of analyzing characters that the comic doesn't extensively explore is that we can draw insights based on what is already defined.

Just my thoughts and if you read through this clusterfuck of a post, thx for sticking around!

#homestuck #equius zahhak #transgender #homestuck fandom #character analysis #/// holy fuck Ive wanted to share my thoughts abt him for so damn long #sorry for such a long post but I can't condense my points #and by god ill take any chance to ramble if I can

[escapehatchsworld]

Gender Identity Post~

I am transmasc and I’ve recently discovered xenogenders and neopronouns. I want to talk about both things and maybe bring light to them. I came out as trans at 15. The first few years were rough trying to understand how I identify. I would settle on gender-fluid because my family wasn’t open to my being a man. This made me feel like I had to please everyone around me and settle on something everyone would be slightly okay with. DO NOT do that to yourself. It is so much heartache. Eventually, I concluded that I am a guy and no more negotiating would happen.

However, it still felt like at times my gender and how I view myself was just “OFF”. I experience dissociation as well as many other mental health struggles. Many times it felt like my gender was an endless void of some kind. As if I was in darkness. I couldn’t connect fully to my identity but I knew I wasn’t Fem or any of the other gender identities I would look at from time to time. I always felt masc but also felt like gender is solely a social construct and that my gender for me personally was either full or empty or endless.

That is when I discovered neopronouns without knowing what xeno or neo was at all. I looked at the neutral pronouns, found some I identified with, and added them to the pronouns I already use daily. My current pronouns became he/him, they/them, void/voidself, abyss/abysself, and cloud/cloudself. The last week I found out about xenogenders and what it means and that a lot of people who identify with it explain it differently and view it differently (depending on who you ask).

I see Xenogender (at least for me personally) as a way to describe my gender that isn’t coded in the binary. It’s a different way of explaining how I view myself as a whole that doesn’t include masc or fem or other common terms. It is like reading a book and seeing how the author describes their characters in depth. It is something that helps describe who I am as a whole. Something I identify with and feel connected to on top of my identity as transmasc.

My xenogenders are space gender and cloud gender. My other identity is trans (female to male) and I find the xenogenders add to this identity as a whole.

#transgender #transmasc #xenogender #xenopronouns #spacegender #cloudmasc #cloudgender

[sumacthing]

That post about the ex-terf trans man is circulating again. Really wanted to reply to it or reblog it to voice my frustrations but that would be a Bad Idea. But hey I have basically no followers so let me scream into the void for a bit.

I'm glad he stopped being a terf. And I understand he was in a vulnerable place when he was radicalized. And I do think we need to be better about extending community to people who detransition and aren't hateful.

And yet the way people talk about him REALLY rubs me the wrong way. And the way people talk about trans women expressing discomfort with that is worse. There's this tendency to act as if this wasn't his fault in any way, as if it's entirely the fault of the people who radicalized him, as if he didn't still spread transphobia in general and also, very frequently, transmisogyny in particular. And the transfems in the notes pointing this out are told "don't act like you couldn't be radicalized. Acting like this drives more people into the terfs' arms."

And it just feels so deeply fucked that we are being held more to account for his transphobia than he is.

Not only is him having been a terf not his fault because anyone could be radicalized, it's actually the fault of the people who don't immediately forgive or feel safe around him, the people he victimized.

And then they call us victim blamers for it.

I often feel like discourse on this website (and on social media as a whole) ends up pitting transfems against transmascs in a way that isn't productive or helpful (or, for me personally, congruent with my offline experiences). Sometimes I think that tma vs tme discourse ends up being a bunch of deeply traumatized people misinterpreting each other due to that trauma and I'll make a mental promise to try to think more about it through that lens when it comes up next.

And then a post comes along where the dynamics are just laid so bare. It's all just out in the open and I don't even know how to begin approaching it. I could view this through that trauma lens. I could understand on some level if trauma would lead people to deemphasize the ex-terf's agency in this situation, to make him purely the victim and to treat what he did as the fault of cis terfs working through him. But if that read is correct then I don't see how I have any option but to withdraw more from that corner of the trans community, because that feels irreconcilable. And I don't want to do that. But literally what are my options?

#transmisogyny #transphobia