#ali.writes

[casboobs]

set my blood on fire i'll spill more

inspired by the fic between love and agony by duckyboos

#cw gore #cw cannibalism #murder husbands #destiel #deancas #hellraiser #ali.writes

[casboobs]

only my father's soldier never my father's son

for spn poetry month: day 8 - transnatural - @spnpoetryrenaissance

another dean poem i'm sorry i just hold trans dean very close to my heart

#trans dean #ali.writes #spn poetry

[casboobs]

a cas poem for his birthday courtesy of dean

#happy birthday cas and happy birthday lazarus rising !!! #destiel #spn poetry #ali.writes

[casboobs]

born like this - jo's addressing ellen after she's fled the roadhouse to pursue hunting

for @mrcowboydeanwinchester 's celebration for jo's birthday

prompt: runaway

#josjoyousbday #ali.writes #jo #ellen #spn poetry

[casboobs]

LIFE ON THE EDGE

my first dean poem for dean's birthday

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forced into a life that isn't yours

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LIFE ON THE EDGE

crushed into a million pieces

feeling so small

there's not much left of your soul

and you

blame yourself

hate yourself

harm yourself

every way you can

.

unaware of your innocence

taking on more

than any creature ever did

how could anyone understand

your reasons

hiding away your skeletons

give those shoulders a rest

take off the weight and lay down your head

you should be righteous

but deep down you're so insecure

your exhaustion comes out of every pore

.

pushed into a role that was never yours

you're still the best

holding onto your duty for dear life

a better soldier never took a breath

and you're doubting your own worth

unaware of your own maturity

not knowing what's all this for

what is this madness you latch onto

living on the razor's edge

.

fool or folly

just a jester in someone else's plan

#i'm sorry it's not happier and it's not my best work but i think the point is understanding his struggles he was innocent #happy birthday to my favorite source of serotonin #deansbirthdaybash #spn poetry #ali.writes

[casboobs]

like a broken bird

for spn poetry month: day 21 - apocalypse - @spnpoetryrenaissance

inspired by one of my favorite songs (11th dimension)

set in s9 after naomi's lobotomies cas feels lost because painful memories start coming back to him in flashes that haunt him and he just doesn't know how to make sense of them

no free will angel no party so that would be the real apocalypse

#cw lobotomy #spn poetry #ali.writes

[casboobs]

rose undone

happy birthday mer this one is for you @castiddies <33

#as soon as i wrote i was like i gotta dedicate this to mer #this one was inspired by listening a little too much to hozier and specifically first time #spn poetry #destiel #ali.writes

[casboobs]

more than a home, you're my church

for spn poetry month - day 5 - faith @spnpoetryrenaissance

a cas poem from dean's pov

#hope this makes sense anyway #ali.writes #spn poetry

[casboobs]

couple doomed souls

for spn poetry month: day 23 - mlm rarepair - @spnpoetryrenaissance

a sam x patrick the witch poem from sam's pov

#a crack-like poem this is not super serious but i am compelled by this pair #sampatrick #sam x patrick #spn poetry #ali.writes

[casboobs]

earth angel you are missed

for spn poetry month: day 9 - heaven/angels - @spnpoetryrenaissance

for dean and sam's real dad: bobby

i imagined dean because he was the one who felt more this type of responsibility wrote this to cope with the loss of him (but it could be read from sam's pov as well i think)

#sorry i'm late yesterday was too chaotic #ali.writes #bobbynatural #spn poetry

[casboobs]

for an eternity and a half

for spn poetry month: day 17 - possession - @spnpoetryrenaissance

a poem about how dean became possessed with anger during his moc arc

#moc dean #spn poetry #ali.writes

[casboobs]

safe when i'm with you

for spn poetry month: day 11 - home - @spnpoetryrenaissance

inspired by one of my favorite songs (bad magic)

a poem about dean and castiel's relationship from the pov of AU human!cas (limited edition: wizard /hj)

#hope this makes sense!! i personally really really like this one even if it's old i wrote it in january #spn poetry #destiel #ali.writes

[casboobs]

cold hearted bitch

for spn poetry month: day 22 - wlw rarepair - @spnpoetryrenaissance

ruby x anael poem from anael's pov

#ruby x anael #anaelruby #rubyanael #spn poetry #sapphicnatural #ali.writes

[casboobs]

this was inspired by faith!dean and i'd like to dedicate it to my fav faith!dean enjoyer so this one's for you Peter <3 @savingpeople-huntingthings

i hope you like it!

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Transcript

grew up too fast

i never had time for regrets

what should i even repent for

.

i bury them deep inside me

the burdens i carry

aren't they enough

to grant me

a little peace when i'm gone

.

sacrificed my whole life

and i still don't know what for

yet you ask me for more

but i've already worked my fingers to the bone

.

a little peace was all i ever asked for

so forgive me father if i welcome death with open arms

#sorry it's gloomy and dark kinda reflects my soul i guess #tw death #faith!dean #this is just a lil smth only the beginning #hope you've had a fantastic day!! #ali.writes

[casboobs]

on righteousness

~~~~~

for @faithdeans 1k celebration

i imagined faith!dean's response to this bible passage:

"But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ [...] But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you" - Matthew 6:30-33

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solid blocks of concrete guard my heart

but since you claim to have

a cure for my illness

insisting so kindly with your fake smiles and your cult-like crowd, dear pastor, i'll let you in

here i confess

i sought your beloved righteousness

and i am still sore

because there was nobody there

not a single soul that could offer us food, drinks or clothes,

i was the only one around that could care

i trust what i see that's real

and that i am sure to be true

so even if i wanted to

how could i ever trust anyone here?

how could i trust you?

and how am i supposed to trust a god

who stands idly by

while i strive to survive

do all i can to provide

for me and my brother,

that's what i've done all my life

#faith!dean #spn poetry #my poem #faithdeans1k #tali tag #idk how to tag this tbh but i am very excited to share #ali.writes

[casboobs]

invisible

for @roublardise amara days

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out of the ice cold dark waters

of the abyss i was born

now i sympathize with all things

rotten out there festering alone

.

why is everyone else enough as they are but not me

and don't try to tell me it's my perception

i've had enough of your make believe condescension

i am hurting and you mock me again

you try to gaslight me but i'm done

.

because i'm sure of what i know

and i feel it in the way i am treated

i am, unlike most, invisible as a spectre

and i don't want to be loud i shouldn't have to be

i want people to invite me in without having to ask

but i go unnoticed

so i bleed in the dark

hoping to run out

cease this painful existence somehow

#amara #spn poetry #amaradays #tw depression #tw self harm #i mean they're metaphors but yeah #ali.writes