#also idk i just. love myself LMFAO

[astrxealis]

i love the term omnisexual/omniromantic bcs it feels like god

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #omnisexual = omniscient = omnipotence #and those two latter terms remind me of orv and then gbf respectively LMFAO obviously so for the first but for the second #it is very specific to a certain guy ^_^ more like a song ..... but yeah ^_^ #hiii i'm alive btw LMFAO life has been fun. altho i have not been taking care of mysef much and i am a mess. whoops. #i love my friends tho and it is all okay..... :3 life goes on and so do we! memento mori! #i'm scared to graduate tbh sigh only a few months more but i am so attached to my teachers and classmates and friends ... anyway. #last field trip in my school and in hs was just a few days ago !!!!! crazy. #i'm not going to ramble here even if i do miss rambling abt random stuff and also my interests for reasons #but uhhh my friends say i am pogi a lot ... <3 i agree HELP LMFAO but nah fr it makes me rlly happy and giddy :333 #i mean there was also them calling me a fuckboy bcs look. all of us wearing our pe school uniforms. #but i wore my browngrey hoodie the whole time (found out later in the field trip i could not take it offeven if i wanted to for embarrassin #reasons i blame my forgetfullnes for) so uh yeah. my hoodie BUT ALSO my headphones #both of which none of them have seen me w actually which is funny. but abyway at some point i wore my headphones and hoodie over my head #+ a cap my friend lent me for the sole purpose of taking pictures of me wearing them (they wanted me to... all of them...) bcs i looked like #a player. funnily enough i took a lot of pics w my friends too and you have me and them like. Soft Launch pics. im two-timing.......... #player fr LMFAO ANYWAY RIGHT :3 #idk. confidence ig and loving yourself and also mu haircut in 2022 went a longlonglong way #short hair >>>> for me !!!!!!! also im probably a tad bit in asian beauty standards but in a cute way so rip #also idk i just. love myself LMFAO #i nerded out sm actually bcs one of the 3 places we went to was an art museum #which we went to b4 for another field trip so at first i was not excited but KABOOM. yeah. #so theres me playfully flirting w friends (cue in me being a 'player' too) #but also seeing a statue of narcissus but by an actual bond and also another named psycopompus uh i forgor how to spell #but a statue of one of those but Artsy and i basically rambled to my friend abt it and my fav teacher was there and asked me abt it AGGGGHHh #so yeah :3 bye <3 take care loveu all !!!!! #im not omnibbtw. i used to go hy that but isk i just go by pan or queer now. #party tho ngl bcs omni is less used and also harder to explain... so ya

[moe-broey]

SORRY this tag completely undid me LMFAOOOOOOOO

He needs to buy some fucking shirts........

Sketch vers under the cut bc I was originally just gonna leave it at that but. I was possessed I think.

#fire emblem #feh #secret deeplore i gave alfonse a flip phone bc i misremembered the og vid (was convinced they had flip phones) #but i just. kept it. idk it's just such a funny accidental characterization like it just fits. to me. #also baby vero bc. i haven't finished book 6. love her new design but she's still baby to me. #+ i have a better feel for her baby characterization vs her renewed self. bc. i haven't finished book 6. #book 6 bruno death isn't real it can't hurt you. #ANYWAYS I. HAD SO MUCH FUN W THIS LMFAO???? #i love inventing new and creative ways to avoid digital art LMFAOOO #not even cause digital is hard actually like. it's not. that is the medium i taught myself in for 'finished' works. #but like idk what prompted it but i was just fuckinh sick of it. this shit sucks actually!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #it took a bit but i really love working traditional now! it's engaging and rewarding! #always some damn learning curve too LMFAO but that's actually fun too! when. it isn't devastating #high risk high reward i guess. #but genuinely i am SO happy w how this came out it's SO fun to me #fe alfonse #fe bruno #sharena #fe veronica #my art

[ubersaur]

y'know? after years of dread abt dying alone I think I'm now ok with it. I'm pretty damn grey/demi-aro and Im finally starting to feel okay about that!!

#thanks meds? Thanks representation? thank you all my friends who i love so dearly? I dont fucking know! but #over the last several weeks/months suddenly it's whatever and im accepting the aro aspects of myself! #I'm not gonna shut myself off from the possibility but like. I want to be realistic about it yknow? #crushes/Romantic interest come around very rarely for me. Rarer still for them affections to also be returned. #hell i barely remember why i dreaded being aro. I guess for simplicity #I just didn't want to be alone. But I'm not. I love my friends! #still feels a little alienating sometimes sure #but i already have so many OTHER intersecting queer & alienating aspects abt my identity what's one more lmfao. #imma jsut be a little weirdo its fine #idk just loving myself a lil more every day :) #rambling / #u

[crybaby-bkg]

I’m starting a drawing class soon for school and I’m sooooo nervous bc I haven’t drawn anything in years bc I got really intimidated and now I’m even more scared bc we have to critique each others work every week and i don’t think I’m secure enough in my art to receive it well ☹️

#like writing???? yes all day long!!!! I love it!!!! #BUT DRAWING???? ART???? THE THING I STOPPED BC I GOT SO INSECURE???? #idk I’m so nervous but also kinda excited #I just hope it gives me the confidence to start drawing again like I used to #pause I told my artist friend I wanna start drawing again and he said he’d teach me #then said nvm bc he thinks I’ll use my ‘drawing power’ to draw myself kissing anime characters #he already KNOWS!!!!!!! #lmfao I hate him #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[charmac]

PLEASEE POST A NEW CHAPTER OF THE SUGAR DADDY FIC I AM ON MY HANDS AND KNEES 😭😭😭😭😭

Updating All These Nights tonight and then Sugar is next to be updated, promise promise.

#ask #sugar daddy fic #i have been in a writing rut that is known #so i needed to work out some more canon stuff to get the voices back yk? hence updating the other fic first #but also i still feel like the last chapter fell off hard cos i got like no comments #which i know is like 'who cares' but i think i majority switched the style (like for myself) last chapter and i really like it but #if people didnt respond to it #im a little stumped on where to go #(again not in the story but style-wise) #people do not respond to long chapters? people dont respond to the dennis chapters? too much time wasted on sex? idk im #yeah like just a little lost on what people enjoy in the story and what i should gut/cut down on i guess #cos last chapter is hands down my favourite ive written #content wise its close to 6.. #but style-wise i know its so fucking long but i thought it flowed really well and god i love exploring dennis' weird relationship with sex #but to me like only 4 people finished that chapter #to clarify. in my head there are literally only max 10 people who read this thing #and 2 of them are my random friends who arent in this fandom and just want to read what im writing #and neither of them bothered with a 27k chapter.. lol #so im stumped trying to pace the writing and rework how i thought it would go #cos i dont know what people enjoy in the fic!!! and seemingly did not respond to in what i thought was the best chapter so far.. lmfao #sorry you caught me on 30hrs awake and way too much coffee

[dichromaticdyke]

after the knitting project i just finished i feel fairly confident in saying that one day i will open up a knitting etsy shop :)

#dichromaticdyke.exe #yes it will be mtl/dethklok themed #would probably only be able to do limited runs of each item...could MAYBE do a couple made to measure pieces on commission #but also for more popular stuff i'd be willing to sell the patterns so ppl could make them themselves! we'll have to see #all i know is i LOVE the design i just finished and i have enough yarn to make at least 2 more of it #the only thing that would suck is figuring out pricing since reimbursing myself fairly would NOT match up with what ppl are willing to pay. #i didn't actually time how long it took to make but i'd have to estimate around 15 hours? i think? idk lol. but assuming that... #for minimum wage plus cost of materials i would have to charge $240. and no one will want to pay that lmfao. $30 is probably fine.

[piplupod]

one of the cashiers at the grocery store i go to is so fucking fixated on shoplifters and it drives me crazy any time i check out through him (i try to avoid him but his checkout is often the most open/empty - hm! i wonder why! - and im often on a tight schedule w the bus). he brings up shoplifters every opportunity he gets and he seems so convinced that theyre a huge problem.

BUT WHAT REALLY GETS ME ,,, is that today the customer in front of me was needing a price check on one of the items bc it should've come out to be cheaper, so he was kind of apologetic abt it and saying "ah well, yknow, six dollars is six dollars, especially with how expensive groceries are right now" and i was nodding and agreeing (trying to show that i dont mind the wait and also solidarity my guy good for u for speaking up and getting the price fixed on that) AND THE CASHIER AGREES. FULLY ACKNOWLEDGES AND BEMOANS THE FACT THAT GROCERIES ARE CRAZY RN. AND THEN GOES ON TO COMPLAIN ABOUT SHOPLIFTERS. HUH ??????

so you agree that groceries are unreasonably expensive... and that sometimes ppl can't afford them... and yet ....................

#HE MAKES ME SO FUCKING ANGRY CMONNNN THINK ABOUT IT DUDE.... #i knew him in highschool (small town things lol) and im pretty sure he was one of those kids who thought cops were really cool. so. yknow. #not surprised. just annoyed fdjkl #i would say smth like ''oh does ur paycheque get docked if shoplifters come thru or smth?'' but i dont want to piss him off #i would like to remain civil with the cashiers here bc its the only grocery store i can get to most of the time fdsjkl #but like. i would love to find out why he hates shoplifters so much #when i worked at DQ in highschool and ppl stole dilly bars or FULL CAKES... i did not give a single shit #even though the managers and boss would get kind of angry at us (but they knew we couldnt do anything abt it really lmao) #and then we had to put locks on the customer-facing freezers which was a hassle for us #AND STILL. I NEVER FELT ANGRY AT THE SHOPLIFTERS. BECAUSE WHATEVER DUDE LIFE IS EXPENSIVE GO GET THAT ICE CREAM!!! #also i was not paid enough to care LMFAO and i know for a fact that this cashier isn't paid enough either bc my brother used to work there #I DUNNO DUDE. HONESTLY I HAVE MAD RESPECT FOR SHOPLIFTERS #i've potentially done it a few times and its fucking terrifying esp w the amount of cameras installed now fdsjkl #i dont do it now even though i need to more than ever bc i was making myself sick every time i possibly did it #i'd get home and sit in the bathroom for an hour trying to make sure i wasnt about to throw up from the stress fdsjkl #also it was stupid to do honestly (but . needed. so yknow.) bc again. i dont have any other options for accessible grocery stores really #ANYWAYS. fuck that cashier i hope he realizes what a little narc he's being and gains some class consciousness or smth idk #all for one and one for all etc etc etc we're all in this together my guy #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[brainrotdotorg]

one thing you need to know about me is that I do not have the constitution to b a hater. I am too people please-y for my own good . In some aspects this is something I need to work on (as someone who is afraid of conflict and still has residual issues with like. Needing approval on every situation etc etc) but for the most part I’m not someone who can self-describe as a hater. More power to my friends and mutuals who have the strength to hate and I MEAN that!!

#just read that tweet that’s like. ‘you shouldn’t want to be charming and unproblematic all the time’ #‘you should want to love like a human. not like a dog’ #I’m also just a very. sensitive person in general #so not getting into discourse/conflict is pretty good for me #idk . lots of thoughts percolating today about this sort of thing #don’t know how to vocalize it #hope you understand what I’m trying to say?? #i like to have fun and not worry about shit I don’t have to worry about. do you feel me #spending a majority of my life as an overly conscious and anxious person made me adverse to #disagreements and whatnot. yanno #not too many hills I’m gonna die on. but then again!! #i need to stick up for myself #hold my ground!! be stubborn!! have opinions!! #not worry so much about what everyone things!! i am worried all the time tho is the thing lmfao #ugh I’m rambling. sorry alsjfhslsh

[jrueships]

isaiah hehe

PLEASE TELL ME YOURE TALKING ABOUT THOMAS

#THOMAS?? THOMAS!!!!!! #i LOOOOOVE isiah but not in a like cutesy heehee my tiny angel 🥰🥰 who did no wrong bcs mj is BIG MEANIE 😠😠!! way #i think he is a calculating little cretin who tries rlly hard to seem the angel to save face but in reality #is very much. not mr angel face #like he started off as a hero for chicago and detroit and then mj came and took everything away from him #including magic LOL #so now hes kind of like the unfortunate never meant to be hero villain who sort of embraces it until it goes too far #and rlly honestly misses being lauded in a heroic light so hes desperate to do anything thatll turn the tables but hes already dug his grave #with his actions and the season has already been cancelled early so a redemption arc is practically impossible but he cant understand that #bcs hes part of the show and not the one behind it despite all his thinking b4 as the hidden little puppet master #IDK i just LOOVEE all the sick kinda irony surrounding him like i looove ironic fates for ironic people it's just soo Interesting to me #i wouldnt call him Pathetic or helpless.. bcs thats what he wants u to think so he can keep in the secret advantage #BUT... hes rlly not as put together as he pretends to be. so u have this weird balance thats also a Liiittle off kilter #if u shift ur glance a certain way.. #idk LOL it's like watching a coiled spring like. is it all gonna set off. or not. hes just. ugh. so fascinating to me #i looove writing him but also no one cares abt old ppl so i have to keep my delusions to myself 😭 #BUT I LOVE EXPANDING ON THEM SO THANK U FOR THE CHANCE #ted tumbunity things #zeke the freak #he is a scrungy but elegant goblin. best i can describe him is that evil little girl from cats dont dance LMFAO #and bill is the big butler that he punches and breaks his hand on

[dykedragons]

man. should rlly start bringing my sketchbook to work

#ramblies #its raining and we work outdoors so ive just been sitting here on my phone for an hour #I JUST WANNA CREATE STUFF #idk WHAT happened (i do know. college happened) but ever since working full time i just itch to create shit all day. ive been having my #best ideas. i get home from a 9 hour day make myself dinner and inmediately draw most days #like its just. an itch. that needs to be scratched. its whatever the opposite of that burnout i used to have wss #like i JUST WANT TO CREATE FREELY. i just want to LEARN. but i have less time now! #im so excited to do the cool shit i have planned for portfolio and open up my shop and revsmp my commissiok website #jm gonna learn so much and get so good and make the BEST fuckjng portfolio snd make so much money #my girlboss era. to be fucking honest. #ive been insanely busy ive barely touched video games in a couple months. im always jsut… doing shit and being alive #for the first time ever! im so tired! but like. its good #like im saving money and im loving creating things and im making such good memories with my friends #we can do someyhing so simple like. go to the park. and its so nice i make core memories bc we just do stupid shit. its magical. its magica #life is so fucking tiring and overwhelming but for the first time i rlly feel like im living and i havent even gotten my own place yet or #anything like that. like ooggh this is the connection i was missing out on #having mixed feelings abt my ‘stay inside and be a gamer’ era bc no doubt that time has fuelled my drive to work like an ox now (i have #something to prove- i light a fire under my own ass) but also i couldve been having these experiences sooner #but not with the same people im with now. so thats okay #i digress. anyways i wanna draw LMFAO #IM GONNA MAKE MONSTER HUNTER STICKERS its gonna be so rad

[astrxealis]

hi guys please wish me luck for my college entrance exam tomorrow for one of my dream schools xoxo

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #LET'S GOOO MGA PAREH 💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅 #i'm so chill for some reason even if ik i will never forgive myself if i don't get in. anyway. manifesting!!! i will pass with flying colors #IT'S REAL DAMN STRESSFUL FOR ME bcs i am aiming for honors courses which means i have to be top 15%... i am top 15% (and higher) in my batch #in school anyway but... urgh... #so. yeah. give me all your best wishes thankyousomuchxoxo AHHEHEHWHSHFJAH sobbing (but fr. if you do. i really appreciate it!!) #i believe in myself :] mostly. the time limit scares me and math and abstract reasoning bcs 5 minutes for 30 items but yeah. okay. #i am Smart ..... bro i literally got perfect on my physics exam and got 100 in statistics (i am really proud of these in particular) #my extracurriculars are good !! all my math scores are insane (cue a math nerd) and science (science nerd) english (god. no explanation #needed) honestly every subject is slay and so is my essay-making but ERGH. honors course... top 15%... #i will try to be chill! honestly i am already lol the nerves aren't getting to me somehow. gl to me and all that i know and do not know. #both here and irl :3 also to fellow ph kids (who are most likely younger than me if they aren't older and yk not worrying abt cets anymore #LMFAO) err idk if . okay idk what i was going to say LMFAO anyway i'm busy af and idk if i'm good with teaching others #but if you ever want any tips from me (honestly i don't really have tips. i do what i do and just make it. but there's a lot involved there) #feel free to come to me for anything ^_^ anything at all tbh. doesn't have to be acads idk i like helping others in general. BUT IT DEPENDS. #but yeah just hmu whatever i will have you know i am genuinely a smart & responsible kid and i am proud of that bcs my family is amazing w #smarts but also the Hard Work is there so :3 !! english is my forte science is my forte math is my forte. also socsci and whatever tbh. #i'm probably insane but i genuinely love all those topics and what we learn in school FISHFK so yeah !!! okay i shut up now #will do my best... zzz... and then i will work on myself. to be better than i already am and even better than i could possibly be. ya. fun! #the mga pareh is a joke btw i like imitating filipino kids like that. like yooo mga pareh let's goooooo wahee!!!!!

[finex09]

a local promoter/management agency is hiring graphic designers and other interns and i wanna apply soooo bad it sounds so fun and i would love love LOVE to be apart of the local EDM scene but 1) i need to be part time bc im still in school and want to focus on my studies 2) i already applied to a local club, and didnt get a response, and just now realized that the lady whos in charge of submissions w the club ALSO owns this promoter agency and so I'd have to send my resume to this poor woman....AGAIN......

#i cant help but feel this seems desperate #but tbh thats bc i am LMFAO #im so tired of working my current job and i would LOVE having a job in the music industry #even if i cant be an artist myself helping artists and hanging around other artists/musicians just. god that seems so great #also it just sounds like fun and i think id really really like it !! #idk i rlly wanna apply but. idk idk 😣😭 #bird babbles #i will be very anxious abt this but ill most likely apply jadfojwefow wish me luck

[munamania]

kk i’m torn between am i ever gonna say anything like. fr to her. or just let this go. i don’t think i can let it go ik you don’t need to closure in every situation but like. i do this time. but im in no rush to have the feelings talk. actually i am it’d be nice to just get it out

#would be sort of funny to ruin their one year anniversary. or embarrass myself depending on how u look at it. #idk man im just tired of feeling like my feelings might be put on blast between them and im not even the one acting like a freak. #and then they just get to carry on in their stupid little relationship #just once i'd like to throw it back in her face like i think your bf is pathetic for the way things have been handled #and ive been nothing but kind and respectful to both of u (even if im privately seething). and i dont deserve to be #an ego boost #or to like. have to suffer all this confusion just because their relationship is insecure and stupid. #and also it's pretty dang naive to think you're gonna fucking marry your first love but i wont say that one out loud. #esp yk. given how weak the foundation is. lmfao #yea we got together bc he was obsessed w me from the start #(ofc) and then we’d get wasted and hang out and wake up together and i realized i liked him because i wanted to make a playlist for him #instead of studying for a midterm and then i initiated our first kiss really drunk and he later said it was a bad kiss #makes me sick to think she’d ever simp for him sorry that’s mean to say. like whoops jk totally cool for her #whatever. i’m sure beyond that they’re um… great… #i say the same shit to u guys over and over sorry imagine being up here tho 24/7. #can’t wait to go home so i can just write abt it except i can’t bc i’m so busy today lol #lol o ya i’m like straight but he freaks out when he sees me interact with u. lol

[jademight]

Kinda wanna take up poetry / prose-y writing

#;ooc tag #I wrote a piece for my voice project that I performed today and. I forgot how much I love writing about myself and my emotions actually #like I love writing roleplaying but when I get to go FULL prose-y and flowery I just. gah. #I really adore the piece I wrote lmfao if anyone wants to see it just lmk I love being vain #like roleplaying can be mentally taxing but writing in other contexts is just. [vague gestures] Ya kno? #also idk something something being even more artistic something something

[peapod20001]

I wonder how much time I actually spend on drawings cus like,,

Sometimes due to ADHD I’ll be drawing over the span of 7 hours and only come out with like, 1 or 2 half bodies...

But then other times I can whip out an overly detailed bust in a couple minutes so I really have no idea lol

#random post #I once sat in a chair for legit 10 hours just. drawing and watching YouTube #YouTube and social media is primarily the reason it takes me so long to do ANYTHING cus I’m always getting sidetracked lmfao #hell I get sidetracked from being distracted and suddenly I’m just falling into the black hole of adhd HDIF IF DIDBS #idk idk. I would try timing myself and/or recording myself. but I get nervous when I think ppl are watching lol #and then I’m hyper aware of all my body movements 😭 #uodiddh what was this post about again?? how long it takes time to draw #uhhhhhh. I think one factor of me drawing is like. who I’m drawing lol and what they’re doing #like. characters I never draw are difficult to do. especially heads and faces. #if I mess up one feature they look wrong so 😭 struggles #also also. I draw relatively small. so I think that cuts down on time some. my drawings are hand sized ^-^ #lol I’d love to livestream my drawing process... but I’m very chaotic as some of u may know lol so #and I can’t see too great so my head always covers the paper 😭 iog #ofddgnnnnmmm brains ded uhhh. yea

[basedhoya]

i cry so easily on my period it’s so bad… like it’s not even nine am dawg why did I have a whole sobbing session before nine am

#i was watching fb videos… #there’s this documentary abt this 26 yr old girl with terminal cancer #n I know this is stupid but I was thinking what I would do in her shows #shoes** but yeah #just made me feel so bad but proud of her for taking it so head on too #it’s not easy it’s so tough and she’s so strong #her parents love her so much too #bro I’m tearing up again I can’t do this LMFAO #saara rambles #i feel so sad but I’m also okay it’s just like #a lot of shifts in my life rn? so I think it’s normal to feel emotional and stuff? but idk #maybe I’m being hard on myself too #i should let myself cry more #it’s become harder