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carcinized · 9 months
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also, screaming this one of the rooftops: stop saying queer people dont like sports!!!! you are adding queerphobia to an already queerphobic space!!!!! queer people can and do like and play sports!!!! support us while we fight for our right to do so!!!!!!
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britneyshakespeare · 15 days
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the fact that all grown up ran for five seasons is unaccountable
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trans-axolotl · 9 months
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for about two years now ive struggled with relapses in self harm and have not really known how to deal with my desires for harm, health, and existing thoughts on antipsychiatry. ive been accessing psychiatric resources for well over a decade with a lot of trauma inflicted over that time. ive also dealt with really harsh approaches to reducing self harm that both began the problem in the first place and worsened it.
ive been working with my therapist to stop self harming but, to be honest, i have no desire to stop. i try my best to reduce risk where i can such as not self harming in an emotional state, using clean implements, and keeping it light. previously i didnt care about any of those things and self harm was mainly a dangerous coping mechanism. but now i see it almost as a form of body modification with a lot of intentionality to it.
i really dont know what to think. its objectively dangerous since i am harming myself but i also cant agree with the general aims of therapy and psychiatry to stop self harming as an ultimate goal. i want to be happy and healthy and for me that means living with self harm as a reality of something i will continue to do. and i think its my right as an autonomous person to choose what i do with my body, even if its harmful. yet i can feel the claws of psychiatry and feel so much shame and hatred towards the fact i cant stop. or more significantly, that i dont want to.
sorry for such a long ask, but essentially what im getting at is, how does one handle harm reduction when there is no desire to ever fully stop? i believe in my own right to bodily autonomy but ive also been told repeatedly that using my bodily autonomy to harm myself makes me undeserving of it and instead in need of carceral punishment. how do i even begin to navigate those contradictions of feeling like ive been horribly hurt and dehumanized and feeling like on some level ive deserved that dehumanization because of the pain i inflict? is self harm as body modification even a concept or idea that people have discussed? since i mainly just see it discussed as a coping mechanism.
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Hi, anon. Thanks so much for reaching out.
I really resonated with so much of what you shared. It's really hard to try to navigate all our feelings associated with self harm when we are constantly hearing from society that our self harm makes us dangerous or unworthy or unable to live outside of institutions. For me, it honestly feels really violating when other people like providers try to push their narrative of what self harm means onto me. My relationship with my self harm is so personal and there's a lot of different meaning I attach to it, and I want the room to be able to talk about it in a way that actually makes sense to me.
Something that's helped me in trying to navigate all of this for myself is really just to come back to these values of bodily autonomy and harm reduction. A really important harm reduction value for me is that it is completely okay if people don't ever stop (whether we're talking about drugs, self harm, disorderly eating, etc). It's important to me that we can defend people's right to do all these things and recognize that harm reduction should not be just another method of coercion trying to convince people to stop. I strongly believe that people can have meaningful and valuable lives that also include self harm as a part of our lives. I want to build a world where we can say that we're not interested in completely stopping self harm and that statement is not reacted to with shame or blame, but rather with curiosity and respect for the fact that we are the experts on our own lives and choices. Part of encouraging autonomy is recognizing that we are allowed to make choices about our lives that might not be what the psych system wants us to make.
Anyway, all of this is to say: I think it's okay if you're not interested in ever stopping self harming, and I know a lot of people who also feel similarly to you. You absolutely have the right to interpret your self harm in a way that makes sense for you. I've definitely heard other people talk about self harm as body modification (I think some of the harm reduction zines in this google drive might talk about it, but I haven't read through them in a while. Continued content note for discussion of self harm, self harm methods, and diagrams of anatomy and self harm). It makes a lot of sense why you might connect self harm and body modification, and that's something that would resonate with a lot of other people. You have the right to build a life that includes self harm as a part of it, and find a way to do it that makes sense for your body and life.
That feeling of dehumanization you described is so so real. I really just feel a lot of rage towards a psychiatric system that makes us feel so hurt and conflicted. Untangling that learned shame and hatred towards ourselves is so fucking hard, but just know that you are not alone in that and that we have the right to reject the ways the psych system punishes us.
And I want to be clear that none of this is to downplay the very real harm, pain, or risk that can come with self harm, but rather to point out that abstinence only methods, shame, and carceral psychiatry did not do anything to support me with that. Instead, it left me feeling trapped and like it was worthless to even try to figure out what I needed in really difficult moments. So I also really just want to acknowledge and celebrate all the stuff you listed in your ask--using clean implements, not self harming in an emotional state, and keeping it light. I'm really glad that you've found some steps to take that make self harm more manageable for you. Those are not lesser steps or a waste of your time just because you are not interested in stopping self harm, and those things are such a great example of how harm reduction doesn't require you to stop self harming in order to make some changes that reduce risk.
Just sending a lot of love and solidarity to you, anon, from another person who is not interested in completely stopping self harm, even as my relationship to my self harm shifts and changes over the years. There are a lot of us out here and we deserve to have the space to openly talk about these things without facing judgement.
💜💜💜💜
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lord-squiggletits · 30 days
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"Rodimus is a better Prime because it didn't hurt for him to bond with the Matrix while for Optimus it did" headcanon/theory my beloathed.
One day I'm literally gonna snap and make a whole post addressing why what's wrong bc I'm tired of the inaccuracy and tired of ppl not understanding the Point TM of IDW and its version of the Matrix/Primacy and even more tired of people putting down Optimus in favor of Rodimus by essentially arguing that being unworthy means you deserve to be punished/put in pain bc you just weren't good enough to hold the Symbol of Ultimate Authority
#it's wrong on so many levels both in terms of lore and as well as like what the general themes of idw1 are#it's just a validation contest using the matrix as some magical symbol to decide who's the most special#which is ironically something that was a plot point in exrid/OP. specifically how stupid of an idea that is ldskjflksd#ppl revealing that they havent read anything besides mtmte/ll as usual#like half the reason ppl think optimus is a bad prime and rodimus is a good prime is literally bc like#optimus was written by an author who was specifically trying to deconstruct him (sometimes to the point of absurdity)#and rodimus was written by an author who takes a more optimistic/idealistic approach. and is also better at writing#but also like am i seriously the only person who thinks that that argument is fucked up?????#like 'OP felt pain which means he's unworthy/not a real prime/not a true leader'#ok so you think that there's a hierarchy of moral goodness in which anyone who falls short of that Moral Ideal should suffer#as a sign of their unworthiness?? like does that not sound dystopian as hell to any of you?? why would you WANT the matrix to work like tha#even if the theory were true (which it isn't) why would you view the matrix as a good authoritative moral judge of character#if its idea of 'moral judgement' is to inflict pain on anyone who's supposedly not truly good/worthy#wasn't the entire point of the ending of LL (including rodimus being a good leader) that everyone is worth it?#like rodimus literally said 'you ARE damn well good enough' or something like that#so what? everyone else in the universe tries their best and that's enough but somehow when OP suffers it's like#a sign that he's not actually a good prime/leader?? we're really going with the punitive perspective purely for One Guy??#swear to god ppl are projecting their authority issues onto Optimus the way they shit on him for things they would excuse#if any other character did it#Optimus is uniquely deserving of pain/being marked as unworthy bc idk he was a cop once and that offends my delicate sensibilities#what's even funnier is how much harm was inflicted by rodimus as a captain sheerly due to his stupidity or ego but everyone forgives him#i guess bc as long as the matrix likes him that means he's valid no matter what he actually does as a person#WHICH IS SOMETHING IDW ITSELF ARGUED AGAINST BC A LOT OF THE PRIMES THAT WERE CHOSEN BY THE MATRIX#WERE DICKS AND THE FACT THEY COULD WIELD THE MATRIX DIDN'T MAKE THEM GOOD PEOPLE#like oh my god stop using the matrix as an arbiter of moral authority in idw1 it literally goes against the themes of the story#including the themes that are embodied in rodimus himself#idw op love
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shibuiking · 1 month
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can I hear more about the mephrit dynasty you're cooking?
emmm ill be honest i kinda put the water on boil and then sat down to finish the rest of the necron books and i never put any food in. ive never rly done this kind of thing before my ocs are usually just designs to play with and dont even have any story or personality necessarily x0
ive thought about stuff like since its a vassal it doesnt have to focus on the same stuff as mephrit so i could have it be more bureaucratic or something. like more of a closely tied supporting dynasty. bt it would depend on the characters id make for it. and i havent done that yet. so mostly i was just thinking about colours lmao. the deathmark i doodled was when i was messing with colours and tried a bunch out bt i just love the sleek look of clean white+black+bright orange and my other fav colour (green) makes it look too human military esque? i dont rly like the aesthetic. shrugs. the white/black/orange scheme looks reallllyyyyy nice but its a bit simple and not very unique which bothers me.
the most ive really gotten is just the idea for the deathmark i actually wanted as an oc which i think ive gotten a personality down and will draw a design eventually when ideas come to me. the problem is just figuring out how to make it look unique without outshining its superiors (ive got ideas)
so tl;dr: theres not much. just colours.
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silenthillbunni · 5 months
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#i feel like im going insane and tonight it's esp bad so i need to.... vent :$#some time ago i had the fortune of a very very wonderful person entering my life. and since day one BOOM i think of them every single day#im not even exaggerating.. like every single day i just think and daydream of them. i've had sm extra inabiloty to focus -#bc i just need to constantly stop and think of them.....#there is so much abt them to adore and admire. so much!!!! i didnt know someone like them could exist..#i love talking to them and i just wanna kno everything there is to know abt them!!! everything regarding interests me#there's also the aspect of how i feel talking to them. i know they dont judge the same way as other ppl do so it's easier to talk to them#tho i still have avpd so i often start over explaining myself and get insecure etc etc. i need to get out of my head!!!!#idk.. idk... it has never been like this for me. so im also scared#what do i do.. how do i navigate this? i've never been here before and i feel lost even if it's def not a bad place to be in#every single day... i just wish that i could be with them more and more. this wish never calms down it just gets bigger#but. how? how do i break this loop and make it into reality? is it only gonna stay as a desire and a daydream? :(( i rlly dont want that#im scared too. bc what if i want and can make it my reality but it just wont happen? what if it just wont#im also not the only one in this equation that decides. what if... i have to face rejection.. what if im a disappointment. what if what if#i dont know!! i only know that i think of them all day every day. it gets more nd more intense each day.#i also get more sure that it's what i want...#anywayyyy. im actually.. driving myself insane with how obsessively i think of this#i cant quite put it into words but i had to get at least some of it off my chest#like how. do i express my feelings to them. how do i turn it into reality. how do i face that fear of the unknown and smth i've never done#but also how do i face that fear and prepare for the fact that even if i want smth dreams made into reality cant be certain.#there r so many life things that decide what happens too.... not just my will and desire#but as well as.. how do i prqepare myself to deal with the potential oh whoops maybe im the only one who rlly want this.#maybe this is onesided maybe my feelings just flew out of control nd idk how to reel them back in whoops.#like i dont know at all what could happen.. all i know is what i wish.. hmm gosh this is all just making my head spin every day.
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sequencefairy · 1 year
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Love to open a fic tagged with my two favourite forced intimacy tropes only to find:
1) that the dubious consent part of the trope has been entirely removed in favour of having an explicit conversation about consent - and yet, the fic is still tagged dubcon.
2) a judgy a/n that makes me, a person who uses dubcon as a search term to find fic to read, feel bad for liking something.
Sex pollen and/or fuck-or-die are #problematic, sure, but that's the fucking point. Also, they're not real. Stop applying real world concerns to fictional tropes.
If you can't write it without the fun bits, then maybe it's a trope you aren't actually that into.
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i-hear-a-sound · 7 months
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ppl who judge ppl’s “goodness” as a person based off only things like how they look. how they talk. etc. they’re Daph Enemy number One
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black-quadrant · 10 months
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what someone used to ship or stopped shipping is not an indicator of who they are as a person in the present - please catch up
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niishi · 8 months
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hey btw it's cool of y'all to be like "different things to say when things go wrong instead of " I'm gonna kill myself"" and everything but stfu bc im still gonna say it and i KNOW gen z idiots hate when I do it bc they look at me like they're just DYING to teach me about self deprication and how it effects your mental health and I just want y'all to know that i don't care. and as someone who's worked very hard to find self love, I don't want people who have no confidence in themselves and actually hate themselves to be telling me how to have good mental health practices. absolutely bonkers.
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ronanlynchbf · 11 months
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this summer i need to cut my hair and buy silly t-shirts and stop being apologetic abt merely existing and do things even though i'm very bad at them and be earnest & bouyant and stop thinking i'm being punished when bad things happen and read books i've never heard of and be in any body of water as much as possible and be less afraid of people crushing my heart when i give them it!!!!! Basically i need to go on walks even when i don't feel like it so every time i do i will be enraptured by the world like i always am 🙏❤
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february-academia · 1 year
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28.04.2023
So much happened this week. (In tags I'll rant about it)
N4 is coming and my prep is not at all good. Took a test today and i failed🥲. But i know my prep is soo bad,it was bound to happen. So have to study for that.
College exams are coming🥹 also have to study for that. The dissertation proposal is in the finalising stage,so that's good. But have to work on it properly imo.
Then i also proposed another research study to my professor and he has encouraged me to go for it. So,also have to work on it.
These very cutu plants in the scorching heat were a treat to eyes and mind.
Got this book from the library and I'm really enjoying reading the essays.
( correction in a tag- she scored less than me in class and she was all sad sad. With her i had to suppress my happiness at moments like these)
#here i go#so here in this clg i have 2 friends mainly they are my classmates and one is roomates also so thsi roomate is very toxic i kinda knew it#from the start but ignoted it bcs we became friends when we used to have online lectures and haven't met each other and somethings happened#in which she helped me so i was kinda obliged to stay w her. and after sometime i kinda strted feeling it. all the bad vibes#the toxicity she carry for other ppl judging them on their appearances and whenever i trued to correct her tries to manipulate things#like she jas all of the mean girl vibe but i the clown couldn't just had the courage or ways to not be w her i so wnated to but couldn't#it was all so fucked up and living w her. i changed i started judging ppl. this was so bad. she went through soem toughtimes and as i frien#friend i cared for her i was there for her almost all the times and most of the times whenever i needed her she was not.#tries to dominate always and the incident due to ehich I'm writing all this is - I'm not earing well properly well from past month she know#and last sunday i was very excited to this dish and i wanted to take more and she said very rudely how much more will you eat? i said i did#not had lunchand almost didn't eat the ehole day what's yhe nig deal abt it why tou saying and stopping me like that and she said i did not#say it she said again i did not say it with that rude voice like she can never be wrong and ppl wjom i rarely talk to have noticed that#I've lost weight but she who luves wirh me almost all the time do not know it whom I've talked to abt this don't knwo it . i didn't have#any appetite after that i just stuffed the food unsideand went outside wiyjout syaing anything 8 wanted ro puke so bad i controlled my#i couldn't beleive what just happened i didn't try to talk to her and she obviously wouldn't bcs of teh ego and then there's another friend#and classmate of us and she has a great bond w her then after taht incident she is also not talking ro me and. avoiding me in the corridor#making me feel like I'm the onw wrong here and thwse 2 ppl were not on talking term a week ago again ego calshes this other girl didn't#so yeah i got snakes here#now I'm all alone but this feels great literally like yes i cried and couldn't sleep bcs even tho i knew they are not always what they show#they were the only obes here i was able to form a bond with ( i hate this part so much now)and i care abt friendships alot but it ended#they are not talking to me I'm not talking to them. but thus whole thing made me free now I'm free i don't have to wait for them everytime#i want to go to library or to a class or to a walk bcs they wanted everything to be done in a grp#and I'm going everyday out to study to walk and to jyst peacefully live bcs now I don't have to deal with negativity and toxicity anymore#i feel myself again my trye self who was kind to ppl who wanted to just study quietly in evening who wanted to just go in class on time#i don't have to feel that if i di this will she judge me I'm feeling free with what I'm wearing I'll enjoy and celebrate all my wins#and achievements of the last year bcs i couldn't even enjoy those when i was with her just bcs she didn't got less tahn me#I'm smiling more nad I'm loving more myself to actually avle to come out of thsi spiral i didn't even know i could so yay#listening to you're on your own kid in loop and it made me so happy#that's it done. there was so much to say ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hope you got some idea of what's happening in my life#sending you all love and light and if you find urslf in somesimilar situation or any difficulty rn hope you get out of it very soon<3
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pepprs · 2 years
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ok mutuals i know this is cringe i am so aware and i am so sorry. but this is my…………………… warrior cat oc who represents me (i am so so so so sorry. i am so sorry.) and im doing some tweaks to her design rn and i can’t decide whether she looks better with or without this like spiky cheek fluff that’s supposed to make her face look more starlike. so what do u think. vote now on ur phones (without fluff on the left, with fluff on the right)
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#my art#i have been doodling this silly little cat all over the place for almost 10 yrs btw. and i VERY much suffer from same face syndrome with#both cats and ppl and ive been trying to add like unique variations and stuff when i draw but it’s rly hard. (also ive been getting back in#into drawing if u couldn’t tell. i straight up stopped when i was in college bc i just couldn’t function and this was not the thing i#thought i would come back to once i got out of school but here i am swimming in warrior cats stuff again at age 23 💀💀💀) BUT ANYWAYS. i am#adding butterfly and star motifs to this character who is also me. like u can see her ears are kinda wobbly bc they’re supposed to be shape#like butterfly wings! but the star thing isn’t as evident so I thought maybe the cheek fluff would be nice but then it’s like.. the ear#wobble is already a change and im just worried i will forget the cheek fluff when i doodle her and stuff. ive been rly lenient w how i draw#fluff on cats and stuff and i want to get better at it but i feel like i’ll annoy myself if i mess around w it. but it looks good and is#symbolic so idk 😭 ofc like i would be the best judge of this bc I know what my comfort level is and stuff but … do u like the fluff is what#im asking i guess. and do u think i should carry it forward and make it a thing even if it takes a while to get used to#purrs#i feel so cringe posting my warrior cats characters but idk. it’s my blog i get to post whatever i want so this is what im posting 🤸🏻‍♀️#ALSO plus when i doodle i already majorly simplify her markings so it’s just the freckles. and the markings im whatever about but i feel#like the physicality is really important smth i would always capture no matter how intense the drawing is and smth i kinda want to#challenge myself to get better / more consistent at a little bit. so yeah. idk#pepe
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monsterbisexual · 6 months
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i hate how i feel doing or not doing certain stuff for/because of the pain + fatigue since im a fat person :///
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cherryistired · 8 months
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my opinions on your favorite splatoon gear brand
nobody asked for this but i have OPINIONS
squidforce -the brand is basic, but if you tell me that's your all time favorite brand? I have to respect that level of authenticity. there are better brands for basic tees and shoes but don't let me stop you. live your truth
zink - BEST SHOES IN THE GAME. not the best sportswear brand but i have massive respect for your taste in shoes
krak-on - you've got good taste. i'd be surprised if you wore krak-on exclusively tho (and dissapointed. i hate brand loyalties)
rockenberg - one of the few popular brands i actually like! if you wear all rockenberg tho stop doing that (unless you're doing cowboy shit. then good for you howdy hat supremacy)
zekko - i was about to say zekko was mid but then i remembered they have the varsity jacket. you're on thin ice tho
forge - yeah forge does have the best headgear in the game. can't even argue about you with that
firefin - mid. what even is the appeal here. this just looks like a generic splatoon brand
skalop - best graphic tees in the game hands down. kinda mid otherwise tho
splash mob - why??? is it the hats??? the hats are cool ig but like. why
inkline - it's fine. definitely more of a cohesive style to this brand than some others, i can see why you'd like it
tentatek - kinda mid. it's sportswear which is fun, but like. there are better brands for that
takoroka - W BRAND. I LOVE TAKOROKA SO MUCH. LITERALLY NEVER MISSES
annaki - poser. point and laugh
enperry - you only like this brand bc it has 1 piece of gear you like don't you
toni kensa - i hate this brand. you're not fashionable because you only wear black and white. get some real style and then we'll talk
z+f - the "new brand" hype has died down. why are you still stanning this collab. granted the crocs are cool but still. it's not fresh anymore, move on
barazushi - it's kind of a worse inkline. i'm right sorry
emberz - never met an emberz fan that wasn't cool
grizzco - now, i could make a capitalism joke here, but i won't, bc grizzco gear unironically slaps. go get those scales girl
cuttlegear - yes, i also miss agent 4's gear and the new octoling armor. they're not in the game. move on
amiibo - there are 2 type of ammibo gear wearers: people who bought amiibos, and people who are cool. if amiibo is your favorite brand you're the first type of person
any brand that isn't in splatoon 3 - the newest game is the best in the series, you're literally just blinded by nostalgia. move on alreadyyyyyyyy
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awek-s-archived · 2 years
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just watched speak no evil and it was literally so promising until the last 30 minutes when it just went to pure shit. it’s like the (very single and lonely) creators got bored of their own premise and decided to throw it away at the last second.
#i don’t mind spoiling tf out of it bc I’m harshly judging anyone who watches this willingly (myself included)#basically it’s about a Dutch family and a danish family meeting on holiday in italy and becoming friends. after they leave the danish send#a postcard to the Dutch asking them to come spend a weekend w them bc their kid son misses their kid daughter and they all had such a good#time together. they go but these ppl are freaky as hell. but they’re kinda put forward as cultural differences.#like disagreements about lifestyle (meat eaters vs pescatarians) or raising children or restaurants. class difference etc#but then the dutch dad sees the danish dad spying on them as they have sex and the dutch mom catches the danish couple sleeping w her#daughter in the bed while they’re buttfuck naked#they go back for reasons unimportant bc the danish promise them a great last day but fuckin hey Ho that doesn’t happen#the son won’t stop crying in the night so his dad drowns him and the other dad goes to investigate and finds his body. he also finds#photos and luggage from previous families and in a compilation of photos u find out that#the danish couple basically kidnap families#steal their children#and kill the parents#and then pretend the kid is theirs. and they cut out the kid’s tongue so they can’t tell anybody#obviously that’s what happens here too but it’s fucking wild bc they get away ans then it gets so sloppy and stupid#the dad could’ve pushed the car that got ‘stuck’ but instead decided to swim a fucking river to get to a house in the distance ?????#wife somehow got signal and called the killer couple to help them?????#killer couple take them to the middle of nowhere and someone comes and holds the mom…… who just yells and girls at his arms a little…..#while the other woman cuts her daughters tongue out………#then the rando guy just takes the kid. who just kicks her legs a bit in protest and yells. and then the mom just beats on the window and#screams. no attacking the psycho lady or anything#the dad says nothing he’s just vibing like 🧍🏻in the passenger seat#then they take them to the middle of nowhere. make them get naked. and then make them stand a metre away#AND THROW ROCKS AT THEM#LITERALLY#JUST THROW ROCMS AT THEM#TIL THEY DIE…….#no escape plan both just completely submit to their fate im like#this entire movie u have fought tooth and nail for ur daughter and now ur like#well <3 she has no tongue now so <3
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