#and it's honestly been kinda frustrating

[vettely]

as someone who is starting a new uni at 23 but is blending in perfectly with the 18-year-olds i'm curious and i need to ask

feel free to reblog and tell me in the tags what age do you get mistaken for, and do you find that to be a bad or a good thing :))

#my whole life people thought i was younger then i really am #and it's honestly been kinda frustrating #but now i find it to be a blessing ngl #polls #tumblr polls

[dennistakesamentalhealthday]

dennis is an angry character btw im sorry but he is full of rage but that rage is not exclusive his anger does not negate sadness and fragility and insecurities in fact they work together and dtamhd was one of the first times where his anger was not used as a joke via a surface level rage explosion from him but instead explored the fragility of his anger. the way he keeps reassuring the workers he encounters (and himself) that he's not mad. when he tells daisy he's not mad but he is a little bit upset. dennis is angry and that anger is what makes him so fragile. he was upset and it manifested as rage bc he doesnt know what to do with his own sadness

#disclaimer tags yes i would like to see his emotions explored more but i disagree that we ONLY saw anger in dtamhd #and EVEN IF IT WAS ONLY ANGER... anger is just as VALID and fragile and vulnerable as sadness. they are family #we saw how his anger makes him fragile how it exhausts him #how it works with his stress and fears and insecurities and sadness #he was UPSET!!!! #angry dennis in dtamhd WAS big feelings dennis in tends bar. that was the same #he expressed anger in tends bar bc he was upset he expressed anger in dtamhd bc he was upset etc etc #and i think the sadness people were expecting was present. the sadness and fragility we would have seen if he cried on the beach like most #of us anticipated (btw he did cry at the beach <3 technically <3) was THERE. it was just in his anger #sewerkingcharlie talked about this already and worded it very well but im honestly kinda bothered by how some people have treated #the portrayal of anger and emotions in this ep #you dont have to like the ep or how they portrayed dennis but some posts have really given the vibe of #his anger and his emotional outburst not being as valid because it wasnt portrayed in the way you expected #or that it wasnt palatable enough #and honestly if you dont like it thats okay! but can we please be careful with how we talk about mental illness and anger outbursts! #yes it is frustrating when people ONLY see dennis' anger or see dennis' anger in a very shallow way #which a lot of the audience unfortunately does because its been treated like a joke #but it wasnt a just a joke here #and maybe this will all go past dudebros heads frankly i dont give a shit lol but thats for another post

[unorcadox]

i love making text-heavy stuff tbh. i think i've realistically "outgrown" weirdcore at least with regard to the more heavily edited stuff, but i still deeply love the idea of making my writing pieces look like they're fucked up pieces of old web lost media, so i think i've found a way to keep going despite that

#not edits #this is not a disparaging statement to any editor or concept btw i just am at a point in my life where i wanna make stuff that has #more textual meaning and less visual surrealism. call it traumacore or whatever but that's where i'm at with it lol #i've been kinda doing poorly mentally these last few months and i honestly consider it a blessing for this blog cuz like #even tho the growth on here has slowed to a fucking snail's pace. i feel like i make the most Potent stuff in this state #my sillier and more heavily edited works generally just frustrate me ngl. feels like i'm phoning it in a lot of the time #all of this is to say that the textcore is here to stay basically. at least for now #i've edited like 15+ edits in a single sitting tonight which is like. unprecedented for me nowadays so yippee

[wooahaes]

Hiii!! I just wanted to check up on you. How are you feeling? Are you doing ok? I hope you are taking care of yourself and able to enjoy the holiday as much as you can. Thinking of you ❤️

hii lovely

life has kinda quieted down some? which is good and things are going okay when im not frustrated with the rest of my family (feels like im the only one whos rly... being a caretaker at all...) but im just kinda taking it one day at a time rn

ty for checking in <3 i hope u get to spend the holiday happily as well <3

#wooahaes.ask #completely-zoned-out #ive barely been writing lately and i think im more frustrated over That than anything else #just bc its always been my outlet ykno? so not being able to do it is just.... hnnghghgh #i did get the 25 + 31 fics written and ill schedule em #maybe i can get a couple other days done and posted if i feel up to it? idk #i honestly nearly pulled the plug on them entirely like 'i dont think i can do this' but im glad i kinda just let myself have time n space #to work as i please p much since i think that helped a lot more than i thought it would #sorry abt the wonu fic when it gets posted its... definitely affected by my life rn. obvs nothing has happened Yet #but it does like. ykno. pull from it a liiiiil bit

[curiouschaosstarlight]

person #1: "[character i really love] should die violently!"

me: okay, bye

person #2: "i love this character!"

person #2: "[other character i really love] should die violently!"

me:

#not important #chaotic rants #if i had a nickle for every time one of my non-villain favorites got bashed i'd... #i'd be rich honestly why the fuck does this keep happening to me #i feel like i've made this post before #anyways i dont want to get directly specific because i dont want this to show up in searches #but if anyone's wondering the characters are Sampo and Argenti from HSR #i love those two immensely #i also love Kafka WHO ALSO gets bashed a lot i've noticed :\ #i think i'd be deeply uncomfortable with ANYONE wishing violent death on any character #it's a feeling i genuinely cannot relate to in the slightest despite having characters i dislike and dont really want to see #but it's especially distressing when it's my favorite characters #in case you're wondering this is why you'll never see me participate in direct character or ship bashing on my stuff #maybe i would have in the past but everyone is someone's favorite #and whenever im about to directly namedrop a character or ship that frustrates or annoys me i just kinda pause and go #'okay but what if someone who really likes this character/ship sees this and feels ashamed for their enjoyment?' #And Then I Don't Do It #not because anyone's making me but because the internet is a public space and frankly #there's already enough toxicity in the world #...i should post more character positivity and dress up/picrew stuff (and art but my art block's been severe lately) #maybe i'll build a queue in a bit if i can get my energy up #(if y'all are wondering why i have so many posts that are me complaining about fandom attitudes) #(it's 'cause spite gives me a temporary energy boost and i've been severely lacking in energy lately) #i -am- a bit hesitant because i know my takes on certain characters (particularly Dottore) are #insanely niche in a way i dont think anyone reading this before i've posted anything demonstrative of that fact will expect #and then i feel self conscious putting my niche stuff out there to be looked at #but! that's why i have custom character tags anyway i s'pose

[justagaycryptid]

Just saw the fnaf movie and I am literally so glad that my favorite stupid fucking bastard was in the movie and we got a springlock failure scene like was the movie the greatest no but I got exactly what I wanted so goddamn it I'm gonna be happy about it

#genuinely that portion w/William at the end was the best part of the movie hands down #like there were some things that I wish could be different and Vanessa being all cryptic to Mike was kinda frustrating #but honestly its about what I expect out of scott bc to be honest he is not a good writer #i very desperately need the next two movies like I need air #they better do mangle right in the second one and if I hear even one gender joke I'm burning the entire theater down #bc unless its a trans person making a gender joke they are not funny #and I just know it isn't going to be a queer person writing that line so it will not be funny #I do hope we get to see mark in the second one and I mean it fits since out of the first three games the second is his favorite #also the matpat scene was literally so fucking funny #also I dont watch Cory x Kenshin but he was good for his cameo in the movie #I do also wish that there was a portion that was a bit more like the traditional game #I was a little disappointed at how little we actually saw the animatronics much less them being an actual threat #like mike was able to take them down with the tazer pretty easily #which like yeah they weren't The Big Bad but like y'know #also somebody LIED bc someone said that there was a character that hadn't been revealed yet in the movie #and like everyone we saw was accounted for #so a lot of people (myself included) #thought it was going to be the marionette #SAD! #not the end of the world though #someone else also said the characters were going to talk which they also lied about but im actually glad they didn't talk #I do like how mike and abby seemed like actual siblings though with their dialogue #overall id give the movie 3.5 out of 5 stars #about what I expected #some things could have been better but I got the main thing I wanted #I mean the springlock scene I wish was a little more dramatic but I mean there's only so much you can do in a pg 13 movie #so I'm not too disappointed #overall pretty satisfied and awaiting the second one #wonder when it'll come out since like I don't think it'll be as fast as the time between like scream 5 and 6 #cuz 6 came out really quickly after 5 I feel

[byanyan]

ㅤdon't look now, byan is holding their barely started math homework over the flame of their cheap pink lighter.

#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ic status ⋮ fighting a fight i'll win anyway. #( open to mutuals. ) #homework frustrating?? burn it. burn it all. #hi putting words together has been like pulling teeth today (': #i have one thing like. mostly finished but i'm not happy with it and dunno how to finish it so i'm. kinda sitting on it for now #waiting to see if eating dinner helps me function but honestly this might be the only ic thing i manage to post today #which is v annoying bc i had such high hopes but my brain fucking sucks lmao

[thewritingpossum]

Seriously though, if i can just survive until monday i'm gonna spend the whole entire day writing and hopefully finish that one thing i'm working on because i'm getting sick and tired of only getting to write 2 or 3 sentences at the time when i can find a few minutes, it's lowkey driving me insane

#like i have a lot of school stuff to do during spring break but i deserve a day to just write as much as i want #i might even be able to start on sunday depending on how long i spend on that one paper i'm gonna send in late #(my bro prof already said it was ok so that's all good) #but yeah it's been years since i enjoyed writing so much and it feels amazing #kinda frustrating that it happens when i have so much things to do and not back when i had nothing but free time #then again i was dealing with accute mental illness back then so i honestly don't feel like blaming myself for it

[dangerliesbeforeyou]

i really wanted to like bones & all but... for such an interesting premise the characters and story were kinda tedious imo lol... like idk maren is supposed to be the main character but i feel like the film is more interested in lee & his story than hers which is mildly frustrating lol...

#personal #+ the romance element was kinda boring lol... i honestly kinda think this wouldve been more interesting from maren's mum's pov #like... having that killer instinct but having to stop urself hurting ur own family? ur own child?? like... that's such an interesting thin #but 'conventionally attractive teenagers go on a roadtrip' just... didnt do it for me lol #also kinda a nit-pick but as much as i really like the soundtrack (the guitar playing is really pretty) it's so REPETATIVE lol #also what the fuck was sully about lol?????? what in the fucking scooby doo ass villain was he about lol?? #how could u make mark rylance legend of stage and screen be some weird caricature of a person lol... idk #i mean... i dont hate it as much as cmbyn though so that's a plus in my book pfft #but it does suffer from the same 'let's focus on how everything looks and ignore making a compelling story' imo pfft #no shade to anyone who like this tho (which is.... a lot of people according to letterboxd) #it just really frustrated and disappointed me lol

[brightokyolights]

sigh 😔

#so fucking frustrated with my sleep rn! #was trying to fix it so last night i slept like??? 3/4? hours? #and i literally refused to go anywhere near my bed all day. made sure i was always doing something and i waa quite productive tbh #only to feel exhausted at 10.30pm and think ok. Maybe you can sleep now and get a full sleep then wake up early #i can usually only sleep 6 hours at a time which is enough for me i think #anyways so i fall asleep. only to fucking wake up at 11pm. so i basically just had a nap #and i know what im like. i wont be able to sleep for at least a couple hours now so basically my sleep was fucked #i tried so hard to just force myself to lie back down and try to sleep again but i couldnt do it #i know its not that big a deal but im just so. fucking tired. and i guess i just kinda hate how hard i tried to sort my sleep just for it #to fail so miserably. like its usually not great. hasnt been for years but this is honestly on some other level. #anyways idk why im here complaining about it. will probably delete this later. time to go do whatever awake ppl do i guess #le text post

[hiratelier]

Many thoughts running through my head as I prepare to upload my last UTAU cover of the year because I'll barely touch the silly singing robot program next year when I have more exciting things to work on...but even then it feels like you're saying goodbye to a close friend you've been with for almost 9 years

#mine #text #currently i am trying to finish a cover for my utaus' 9th anniversary next year and man #the spark for making robots singing usually isn't there nowadays but when it comes to my own utaus #god it does feel nice working on something! #this entire year i've been pumping out covers that first started as an outlet for my creativity #but then halfway into the year i kept getting into creative ruts and it was frustrating because i only limited myself to one outlet #so discovering animatics...gaining new interests...and picking up new skills has helped me branch out from utau significantly #but i will say that using utau bestow me lots of skills that will prove useful beyond just making utau content #i guess working on this one cover helped me reflect on that some more...but god it's kinda making me emotional #even most of my friends who used utau back in the good old days have moved on to other things now and i'm sort of in that boat... #it's not too fun trying to enjoy utau by yourself but honestly i think it all boils down to the fact that i was forcing myself to-- #--enjoy using utau constantly. and that spark to create new covers just dies out. #i suppose that coming back to utau once in a long while to work on something nicd amidst working on other projects is something that's-- #--more healthy for me yknow? i know i'm sort of betraying my utau-oriented audiences on youtube and bilibili with the way i've been slowly- #--moving away from utau and uploading other kinds of media and interests #but i'm opening up a new chapter for myself in making more oc media and animatics and they're more than welcome to stay along for the ride #i think i'm running into tangents at this point but what i'm trying to say is that for me uploading utau covers weekly was draining #and with me moving away to other projects and not being too hard on myself...my creative drive is slowly coming back #and maybe once in a while my creative spark for using utau apart from anniversary reasons will come back better than ever #and i will try to keep my own utaus alive as ocs apart from singing robot shenanigans and diffsinger development #it is a hobby i enjoy for myself after all and its not supposed to be a chore

[imyourcomputergame]

Honestly I kinda wish ze was more popular so that we had other things to talk about in narrative fiction other than "your choices matter". Like nowadays people (and devs) act like its sooo revolutionary to have gameplay like "doing X thing gives you Y ending" when Uchikoshi has been eating that shit up and spitting it out as something new since 2009 with making narrative flowcharts part of the gameplay and then messing around with how you engage with said flowcharts. Kinda wish ztd and aini were better games because those aspects are SO original..

#also i just generally wish the series was more accessible in terms of less weird dialogue etc etc but i feel like that's a problem with a #lot of VNs sadly :( #typing this while walking out of class kinda out of frustration at the only example of interactive fiction being that netflix black mirror #thing. Granted I haven't watched (played?) it but it seems very much like the telltale formula of “multiple choice game. it has multiple #endings. please clap“ #like there's sooooo much better than this out there its just locked behind the shittiness of ztd and aini. frustrating!! #EDIT: just remembered u dont engage with aini's flowchart in the same way u do in ztd but it still applies bc it's used as a narrative twist #honestly i dont think ive ever been this articulate on something outside of writing essays im kinda toying with this as a potential #dissertation topic now..... #nnr txt

[littlerosetrove]

...

#leaving my commentary in the tags #I've already posted twice about how I Really Hope #in s7 of 911 that Buddie rises above subtext #I also Really Hope that in s7 Buck will finally #get to move forward in life because honestly? #and I'm not saying this in anger but kinda #frustration for Buck as a character and as an audience member #Buck has predominately been stuck. for 5-6 seasons #yes he has some seriously deep and nuanced trauma #absolutely. but for a show? I just really want #Buck to truly start to heal and move forward at this point #as I just said he's mostly been stuck I'd say narratively #sorta start and stop but mostly in the same place #the 'biggest' thing he's done was call it quits with TK #but that slog of a relationship was born out of a #trauma response and Buck clung to it because: trauma #he cheated and clung harder #and it took TK waving the biggest red flag #(aka wanting to put Bucks family in danger for her benefit) #for Buck to FINALLY call it quits #yes good for him but *helpless gesture* #for the sake of his character I want to Learn and Grow ya know?? #cause right now he pretty much just keeps #making the same mistakes and same choices #let my boy grow 🙏

[winterdusktales]

yg has conditioned ot7 ikon to be a touring group so now even when they all left yg, all they (ikon & hanbin) do is tour and join various music festivals. like i know those guys would prefer inviting other artists to guest in their concert over inviting them for a quick tiktok challenge or something

#also why they dont have much close idol friends outside yg or ex yg artists #kinda frustrating sometimes as a multi cuz i want them interacting w other artists who arent or never have been related to yg #they love that slow build friendship over music collab than a quick tiktok challenge for clout sksksk #but like theyre capitalists too so which easier way to get those 💸💸💸 and keep ur stans loyal than a tour #all they have to do is perform on stage (which theyre v comfy with) and do some fan service #so its a win win #plus they get to travel #if i were an idol i'd prefer this tbh #imagine if yg didnt gatekeep and sabotage their career before #theyd be soooo rich now w all the sold out world tours every year #but yg did and theyre still on the nugu side #so i think they should consider doing different things outside their comfort zone to promote themselves better #hanbin is actually doing well w it despite the restrictions #but ikon.... #can they stop relying on their company cuz even their new one isnt doing a great job promoting them #honestly they need a better team behind them #they did change companies but their managers are still the same sksksk #so how theyre managed is still the same -.- #i have so much to say but i just realized i put way too many tags #lol bye #one of those days again where i have to let smth out before i sleep TT #but u know... one can always say theyre doing it for the art and not the fame 🤷🏻‍♀️ #but knowing my man #junhoe #i know that diva wants to be famous #while still be in it for the art #he literally had an old interview saying ikon has a potential to be famous #my fellow envisioner <3 #jana rambles

[nuclearnyx]

people who don't use the tags to be sad and vent are so powerful lmao couldn't be me

#real talk it has been BAD lately #the POTS has gotten MUCH worse lately #for example. yesterday i had to call someone to bring me a sports drink because sitting up in bed made me almost lose consciousness #like i am DREADING leaving the house because im having minor-ish episodes at least twice a day #and the new scary part is that when i have an episode i cant speak well #i can say a few words at a time but thats it #which is scary and also frustrating because people tend to freak out and ask a lot of questions and its hard to answer #and it sucks because i know i cant do certain things when im home alone anymore #like showering (huge trigger) or cooking (also trigger sometimes) because its honestly kinda dangerous now #its very humbling to have to lie down on the floor because painting for 20 minutes triggered an attack #and a lot of the people around me arent handling it well so thats a whole OTHER set of issues #im honestly thinking of writing out a 'what to do during an episode' plan for the people in my family to make it easier #and another 'how we explain this to people' plan because everyone is giving different accounts and kinda minimizing to not scare people #which i get because it all SOUNDS very scary and we dont want people to be worrying (and frankly bothering us about it) #but if i show up to an event or whatever and have an issue or i start using a mobility aid (maybe?) they'll get weird #ANYWAYS this all sucks but also im hanging in there (and yes my doc is on top of this dont worry) #its going to be really interesting to see how things play out over the coming weeks and months

[daz4i]

if i may complain for a bit about something that doesn't actually matter and can be easily avoided. god i hate fics that baby-fy chuuya

#yeah yeah i know just don't read them w/e. there's no tags to avoid these unfortunately 😐 #it kinda feels like a fanon of fanon. it's so far removed from his canon self even if some core elements are there. #why write him like a 15 y/o even as an adult. and the thing is. even when he was 15 in canon he wasn't this childish. c'mon. #a lot of the most popular skk fics have him characterized like this and man I'm tired. look how they massacred my boy. #ok complaining session over. i feel like i sound kinda mean. sorry abt that. #it doesn't actually matter that much just a bit frustrating when it keeps happening when you're already a couple hundred words into a fic #edit: i lied I'm not done complaining i gotta turn this into a rant bc ppl misunderstanding my favorite character online is a crime. #childish was the wrong word for me to use ig it's more like. innocent. #girl. bestie. he has been part of criminal organizations quite literally since he remembers himself. #he is not some sweet uwu baby who's a bit of a tsundere or w/e. he's got genuine reasons to be angry yknow. he's been through shit #and he's not innocent? he's in the fucking mafia lol we literally see him kill like 20 people in 5 minutes at 15 y/o. #he's not naive either???? he may not be dazai levels of smart but he's still capable of figuring things out himself???? #like he did figure out rimbaud's thing by himself. he's not stupid or slow. he wouldn't be a mafia executive otherwise. #and that's also the reason he can't be naive like... he is in constant danger after all #and idk watering down all this^ for aus is boring and turning him into practically an oc but it's even worse in canonverse #or literally any au where he suffers the same amount as he does in canon. bc then what's your excuse for watering him down. #it feels like forcing him into this very clear cut mold you see in every media when he is literally. not that. #no one in bsd is honestly that's part of its charm imo. they all subvert your expectations of their character archetypes #i think this is why it's making me so angry bc it doesn't feel like just misunderstanding the character but also the whole story. in a way. #am i going too far? perhaps. i dunno. i do feel less Dirty after letting out this frustration tho. #complaining session is now officially over okay. yes. sorry. i don't mean to offend anyone sorry if i sound mean at any point.