#and more specifically watch him ramble

[kagooleo]

aside from my rice here’s a doodle dump of my timeskip johto kiddos all scribbled during classes! forgot to upload this some time ago but it's a mix of silly doodles, profile studies and outfit ideations 📝

#kagoodles #pokemon gsc #pokemon hgss #rival silver #trainer kris #trainer ethan #trainer lyra #tag wall incoming guys waHA #practicing with profiles is fun but keeping consistency at various angles? hoogh #alright time for more rambling abt these guys (specifically lyra and ethan) for a bit :D #I wanted lyra's champion dress to have a bit more inspo from filipiniana dresses but also retain parts from her sygna suit in pmex! #celebi inspired to honor her role as ilex's shrine protector when her grandparents pass that torch to her #not sure of a specific battle gimmick but it would involve hp recovery and defense/sp def buffing with a mix of lessening critical hits #and then she hits ya with the steel chair equivalent azumarill backed with huge power + belly drum!!!!!!!!! sweep em girl!!!!!!!!!! #silver and lyra would be the last guys you'd face for double battles at the battle tower but Watch Out #what else what else uhhh ETHAN #ethan's revolves around the pokeathlon so he's a bit more showy in competition compared to when he does photography work #he can jump between being a popular pokeathlete to intensely focused on taking wildlife pictures with like. several 'mons surrounding him #very dedicated to his research and study; his friends would find him in crazy phototaking positions just to take a pic of a heracross #i think it'd be funny that ethan and kris are rivals at the pokeathlon they would have some beef (they'd tally wins against each other) #I haven’t forgotten abt everyone else tho I have so much on the mind I wanna draw #maybe I’ll finish some of these doodles for when I feel like working on my neocities but website building is a whole beast in and of itself #but I’ll persevere if the results come out decent >:]

[coquelicoq]

what i love about the Famous Actor Natori Shuuichi of it all is that...it's not just that he's famous and therefore widely recognizable wherever he goes. like yes that is very funny because he was an exorcist before he became a famous actor, which means he CHOSE, on purpose, a day job that would make it harder to hide his double life/secret identity from the hordes of his adoring public, but it's more than that. it's not just that he's famous, it's that he's famous specifically for being an ACTOR, aka a person whose job it is to dissimulate, to make believe, to inhabit roles and emotions other than his own. like he decided he was going to become as visible as possible (which again was literally not necessary! he could have gone into any other career for his day job!!) but in such a way that everyone would see him but no one would see him - they would just see his various made-up personas, including the Famous Actor Natori Shuuichi persona. i can't decide if he's a genius or if he just made so many absurd decisions that they canceled each other out and circled back around to working out. he's either playing 9-dimensional chess or he's eating the pieces. too soon to say.

#the other thing i love about it is that in a very real sense it's his actor day job that is his alter ego #being an exorcist is his normie job. he's just a famous celebrity on the side #which isn't that uncommon in secret identity setups but it's still very funny #natsume's book of friends #natsume yuujinchou #natori shuuichi #natsuyuu meta #my posts #f #i think probably the actual answer is that acting was a very natural career choice because he already masks so extensively #both to hide that he can see things other people can't (and that youkai exist and that he exorcises them) #and to hide what he's really feeling so that no one can use it against him #so if it's already something he has to do & he's good at it...why not have someone tell him exactly how to do it & get paid for it? #and the other part of the answer is that most ppl don't go into acting assuming they'll get famous. the fame was a side effect #so each decision as it was being made probably made perfect sense. but put them all together #and you have this hilarious assortment of elements that seem to directly contradict each other #okay also i would be remiss if i didn't mention the other possible answer which is that the attention came first and was unavoidable #and the acting developed from the need to protect himself from the attention that he was going to be attracting no matter what he did #because he's so beautiful. and (in the exorcist world specifically) because he's the last of the natori #the more i talk about it the more i'm like no becoming a famous actor was the only path that made any sense for him lol #1) he's gonna be watched no matter what bc he's him -> gotta figure out how to hide his secrets -> learn to act as self-defense #or 2) he's got secrets -> he's gotten a lot of practice hiding them -> hey you could make a career out of this! #all roads lead to actor natori shuuichi. and since he's beautiful...all roads lead to FAMOUS actor natori shuuichi #i love it when i ramble so much in the tags that i end up contradicting my own post lol #he's neither thinking ten steps ahead nor is he irrational. he's simply making sensible individual decisions #that follow logically from what is available to him and what his priorities are

[oddly-casual]

I think Mutant Mayhem is the first tmnt propriety to make Leo my favorite turtle right off the bat.

Not that I don’t like Leo anywhere else, but usually it takes me like a second rewatch or something to really pick apart Leo’s character in full to appreciate him- and even then he’s usually not my favorite.

But MM Leo is my favorite for reasons I cannot identify.

Maybe it’s the way he walks, his cringe fail personality, I don’t know but I care about this loser so much.

Idk he cares so much abt his siblings despite the fact that they can be so mean to him sometimes. He is also the one who continually pushes to do the right thing when theres nothing (or even sometimes worst things) to gain from it.

Even his attempts at being cool come off as dorkish but it’s charming in a way only little kids can be. In a ‘you’re doing your best sweetie’. Leo is a single mother of three while also being a teenage boy, that takes work.

He’s such a silent but calculating character, ironically when he doesn’t try so hard and does what he feels is right he gets the best results (ie his leader speech, the plan to be accepted, gaining the acceptance of other mutants) for all his fumbling and try hard attitude he has such natural potential it’s insane.

#tmnt #mutant mayhem #mm leonardo #character appreciation #idk I might do a proper one where I go into his character in depth this was more of me rambling #It’s so weird this has never happened #like usually I need to warm up to Leo’s character with a few episodes or a rewatch of a movie #but after the first watch of MM I had the adoption papers in my hand #idk what it is maybe it’s the inner Kinnie or the fact that we see him struggle so hard #like he fumbled the bag so much!!! #he was nervous he was not confident!!! he literally looked to Donnie for every strategic plan #and yet we see him try so hard too #like he lies to splinter to make his brothers happy he snitched on his brothers bc of his honor #Leo literally was at his best when he listened to himself and trusted in his decisions #and obviously if Leo trusted in every decision he made we wouldn’t have a movie and they wouldn’t be going to school #BUT I hope tottmnt look into that where Leo doesn’t have confidence in himself and it makes things harder #there’s so much that happens in the silence of this movie- everyone say thank you to Hanna Cho!!!! #it wasn’t just her but she was specifically credited with the silent expressions in this movie and I love her for that

[sysig]

I did some Souichi studies because I’m love he <3 (Patreon)

Bonus:

Here are the Studies compared to their Originals btw :3

So like, not a joke, not an exaggeration, I’m pretty sure this is my favourite panel in the entire Challengers/KoiBo continuity (and I decided to draw it first lol - it’s ‘cause I have such big feelings about it!!) It just hhhhhh, it so perfectly encapsulates everything he’s feeling in that moment; disbelief, betrayal, uncertainty, distrust, conflict - every moment of love he’s built up to that point has been thrown into immediate relief to what he’s been told and it’s all there, right on his face, it’s such a masterfully done expression ;; <3 I legit cry every time I reread, that whole scene is just so good, I could actually talk forever about his relationship with Morinaga in that one moment

The rest aren’t nearly so intense lol, mostly just grabbed from moments when I thought he was being especially cute <3 Concerned lad! His hair is so swoopy in Challengers hehe <3 <3 It’s actually even fluffier in his super early-on appearances, which are also excellent >:3c But I still like his KoiBo look best ♪ You can also see it’s a bit of a challenge to make his face as slim as he actually is, just thicken the lines inward until it almost looks right! Lol

I love this panel haha, everyone so silly chibi’d out. You can also really get a good look at how ridiculous his hair is, look at how the tuft that’s tucked behind his ear joins up with the tie! How does he tie it up like that, consistently?? How is he allowed in labs like that!! He’s ridiculous <3

Confused and blushy Souichi ft. Morinaga, I just kind of filled in the details he was covering lol. I love Souichi being dumb and having no self-awareness <3 He’s actually quite intelligent and emotionally aware a surprising majority of the time! But his blind spots leave big gaps haha

I love when he has his eyebrows in a relatively neutral position, he’s normally so grumpy! He looks so friendly even with just a neutral expression :D Plus his hair!! The way it’s communicated to be thin and feathery by being able to “see through it” to his lab coat, ah <3 Handsomest

Shy boy <3 I also really love the way his hands and wrists are shaped, such cool lines ah

I could’ve sworn he and Morinaga were like, almost the same size in Challengers... I guess Morinaga did have a second growth spurt, but still! It’s just an excuse to see him being cute!! Oh noooooo (lol)

Grump man <3 Beauty boy <3 His hair flows so beautifully!

It’s also fun to see a younger Souichi in a flashback, rather than in the Challengers style haha. He was a mess by himself, he’d hate to hear it but he really only does well with others haha. I also love how this scene is from the POV of one of his admirers, Momo is such a good girl and she’s so right <3

He’s being such a meanie to his sister in this scene lol, he’s the worst! <3 I was going to leave it at that, but adding his little frameless-glasses stem holes really made it look like Spamton’s googly eyes and I about lost it lol

#Doodles #Koisuru Boukun #Warning: Mushy design and characterization love ramblings under the cut lol #My beautiful trash boy <3 <3 #So I actually have a folder specifically dedicated to just Souichi's beautiful face/interesting behaviours lol #They're mostly collected from the last big reread but I have some from years and years and years ago! #The last big reread also included Challengers because Morinaga >:| Fucker Supreme (derogatory) #I needed to look at his characterization from original to spinoff #But Souichi is the only one with the dedicated folder lol #He deserves it <3 Little insect man <3 <3 Poison nerd Engrish enjoyer Idiot man <3 <3 <3 #He actually really fun to draw??? I ran out of room on my paper but I was like ''Well I could fit just one more...Well maybe just one more!' #I ended up with several half-finished sketches because I just straight up could not fit any more on the page lol #If I'm able to capture even a little bit of the reasons that I find him so beautiful and lovely and interesting in my own art then I'm happy #His hair! His eyes! His caring nature! His opinionated blind spots! His childishness and his trauma and his self-expression hhhhhh #I love him so much what a beautifully flawed character <3 <3 <3 #Watching him grow into himself for over a decade has been such a wonderful experience as a reader hh #Plenty of bumps along the way lol but I don't think I could stop loving him even if I tried hehe

[bulletbilltime]

Thinking about how Schaffrillas Productions' videos are in essence a guy choosing to make videos rambling about whatever game or movie he loves, and people are here for it.

He reviewed the Pikmin games. He ranked all the Mario Kart tracks from each of the main entries in the series. He did a 6 part super-retrospective of Bojack Horseman. He does rankings of animation studios' outputs. He does analyses of Wario as a character, and uncovered a conspiracy about why Toad Factory from Mario Kart Wii never returned in later games. And unless the topic is something I wanna watch later, I'm always ready to pull up a new video of his to watch. You can just feel the passion he has for those properties, how he can acknowledge their flaws but also sing the praises of their quality. It's so clear that these are videos he wants to make, because they inspire him.

(Also I just love how his style of humor involves him splicing quotes from random shows into his scripts, like some sort of video echolalia. It's shocking how close his style of humor is to mine, it makes me feel seen)

Whenever I think of his channel it makes me want to make my own video essays, to talk about all the things that *I* love, even if they're the most niche things ever. I want to talk about my favorite game franchise that 20 people in the world are aware of. I want to make videos ranking songs that *I* listened to in like 2016. I want to make a video about how level editors in games are one of the most important features in games to me. I want to ramble endlessly about things that matter to me, try (mayhaps in vain) to communicate why I love the things I do, and have even just a handful of people love it and be here for it all.

tl;dr: I love how Schaf can just talk about things he loves in his videos, and it inspires me to want to make my own videos about things I love

#bulletbilltime rambling #schaffrillas productions #it hadn't fully dawned on me just how inspiring his stuff was until I finished watching his Whisper of the Heart video earlier today #but damn I just love his videos so much #easily one of my top video makers now #up there with the likes of the snapcube crew #his stuff just scratches such a specific itch for me #and I love it even more when he talks about stuff I love obvs #but he can even make unfamiliar stuff interesting #some time ago I started scripting out a video essay because of him #someday I will make it

[finnpeach]

Home - Vash

hm are any of us surprised i churned this out at 1 am because i binged this show and couldn’t sleep? no? me neither

Anyway, *SPOILERS* ahead for Trigun Stampede (I’d say if you’ve seen episode 8 you’re safe), but nothing too crazy. This takes place in one of the random 150 years of Vash’s adventures. Enjoy Vash finding out he’s allergic to lavender and being the best boy ☺️

Also, sorry if some of these characters don’t act very canon. I’ve only seen Trigun Stampede and not the original or the manga and thus am kinda guesstimating how these characters would act in this scenario

Vash hasn’t visited Home in nearly twenty years. Even though time doesn't really have any meaning to him, it does to the people he cares about, so he can’t help but feel a little guilty as he approaches the ship. He knows he should come by more often to visit, and that Brad and Luida and the rest of the Home team would love to see him, but he can’t help but feel like a burden every time he does.

His cybernetic arm is hanging by little more than a thread, torn apart in a recent brawl over yet another plant that he’d only narrowly managed save. He’s exhausted. His arm hangs uselessly at his side, only jolting with the occasional shocking twitch.

To his luck, Brad and Luida are out of cryosleep and both wrap him up in a warm embrace as he walks through the ship’s doors, nearly sweeping him off his feet.

“Vash!” They both cry. Warmth spreads through Vash’s chest as Brad ruffles his hair and Luida buries her face in his shoulder. He remembers the days when he used to look up at them as a child, but now he towers over them.

“How have you been? Are you all right? We were hoping to see you this time when we woke up,” Luida says. She looks older, maybe in her late 40s now, and Brad looks about the same. Their hair is beginning to become streaked with white, and deep wrinkles have already set across their faces. It’s part of the reason he hates coming back here, to see them getting older while he stays eternally young.

“I’m okay, I missed you both. Have you been well?” Even though his arm is killing him, he doesn’t want to bring it up yet. He’s too wrapped up in the feeling of being welcomed home and seeing friendly faces, seeing the pride and affection and love in their eyes. If only he could bottle up this feeling and take it with him.

“Yes, we’ve been— Christ, Vash, what’ve you done to your arm this time?” Brad finally takes notice when a spark of electricity spikes off his arm. He gently picks up the appendage, turning it over in his hands with a practised grace.

“Ah-ha, well, about that…” He grins sheepishly, cheeks burning red as he scratches the back of his head. “I saved the hand this time, though!”

Brad rolls his eyes and starts walking towards his room, waving him along. “C’mon, I’ve got my tools in your room, as usual. Luida, we’ll be done in time for dinner.”

“Don’t take too long! I want to catch up with Vash too!” Luida calls after them. Vash turns to give her a beaming smile and a wave goodbye before following Brad down the hall.

It feels so good to be Home.

A couple of hours later and lots of admonishing from Brad, Vash’s arm is beginning to regain feeling again.

“You should go out into the garden and see the new flora that Luida has been working on,” Brad tells him as he’s bent over his forearm. He’s just putting on the last of the stabilising touches to make it “Vash-proof”, as he calls it.

“There’s this new one called lavender. It’s got a long, thin stem and purple bunches of petals at the top. The humans on Earth used to use it for its calming effects. Smells great too. Go check it out, but make sure you’re back in time for dinner.”

One more flourish with welding tool, and he’s done. Brad pushes himself out of the chair, swiping his palms together. “And take better care of that arm!”

Vash chuckles, flexing his left hand. The joints feel better already. “Thank you, Brad. I’ll go take a look.”

He slides into his coat and follows Brad out of the room before making his own way down to the garden. The path is so familiar to him, he could do it with his eyes closed.

The garden looks gorgeous as it always has. It’s sunset now, creating a golden, rose-tinted shadow across the flora. He walks down the stone path, taking note of the new blue flora popping up, a new tree that's grown, before he finds the lavender that Brad had been speaking about.

Huh, Vash hadn’t expected it to look like that. It looks more like a bush or a tumbleweed than an actual flower. He bends down to get a closer look.

The purple petals are so stunning that he almost doesn’t notice the itch blossoming in his nose. He reaches his hand out to touch the stem, then feels the soft petals with the pad of his finger. Ah, that’s the scent that Brad mentioned. He loves it. It smells light and clean.

He rubs at his nose as he bends closer to the plant. He doesn’t dare break off a stem to get it closer to his face, so instead he crouches into a squat to lean forward and smell it.

It does feel calming. Vash can see why the humans on Earth liked it so much. Craving more, he inhales deeply through his nose just as the itch becomes too much to bear—

“Hih’iTSHhh! Hh.. H’TSCHhh!” The two sneezes catch him by surprise. He has to catch himself on the ground to avoid losing his balance.

Shaking his head, he sniffles and paws at his nose, which is beginning to take on a pink flush. How strange, he thinks. Must be something in the air. Usually only dust and the desert sand makes him sneeze, but there’s none of that in here.

He wants to sniff the lavender again and reaches out to feel the petals, but the itch has buried itself deeper in his nose. His breath catches in his chest, his aquamarine eyes slipping shut as his lips draw back over his teeth—

“H’TSH’itsch! Hh.. hihh— h’ITSCHhh’ue! Hh’eHTSSHhh’iu!” The last sneeze is so forceful that it makes him lose his balance. He falls back on his ass and tumbles flat on his back. His glasses are askew on his pink, irritated nose. Allergic tears fill his eyes as he stares up at the rose sunset sky.

Can he be allergic to flora? Or perhaps it’s this one in particular? He’s never had such a reaction to flora before, even in Rem’s garden.

Vash sniffles and rubs at his nose, which has now started to run. Instead of abating the itch, it only serves to set him off again— “H’ITSHhhiew! Haah.. heh-hh! H’ihdTSShh!”

It must be the lavender that's causing this. He can’t help but feel a bit sad, because he had really liked the scent of the lavender. Maybe Luida will have some medicine to offset the symptoms.

He lays there on the ground for a while, staring up at the sky, feeling a swirl of melancholy and happiness in his chest. Those two emotions seem to be the familiar, funny feeling that he always carries with him, even when he's back on the ship.

He stays there, sneezing occasionally and sniffling, until Luida calls for him for dinner. She chides at him for laying on the ground and says he’ll catch a cold like that, which makes him grin. He lets her shoo him inside and down the corridor towards the dining hall. Vash can’t help but revel in the tenderness he feels at her gentle reprimands, the way she fixes his hair or dusts off his coat or gives him one last hug before they enter the dining hall, because it all feels like Home.

#how many times did you watch the clips of vash sneezing to get inspiration Finn? yes #I hope this is good but if it isn't well. this is all I got #im so tired lmfao but I wanted to do this bc if I do a fic like this when i' #when I'm fresh and not tired then it'll be too Long and we all know how I like to ramble in fics. this is the shortest fic I've ever #written and it feels wrong #anyway #my writing #snzfic #I hope I captured vash's sweetness but also his undeniable sadness bc that's what I fucking feel after finishing the show #can a plant be allergic to a plant? Idk! but he is! #I mean like lavender barely counts and anyway its so specific and fragrant that I figured why not right #I kinda feel like vash would like being allergic tho bc it means like.... idk I have this theory that he wants to be human in some way #or like wants to be more connected to humans #so being allergic to flowers would make him happy bc it means he'd be more alike humans if that makes sense? but idk I don't want to push #a million theories into a snzfic im just here for a good time #if I open this tomorrow morning and reread it and think it sucks im going to die #enjoy the one allergy fic I post a decade guys

[mleemwyvern]

howdy! it's day 1 of MCYT fanfic appreciation week, and i was wondering if you had any future writing projects or other ideas that you wanted an excuse to talk about :D no pressure whatsoever to answer this ask, just thought i'd reach out ♡

ive got a couple ideas but no current WIPs. considering writing a sequel/alt pov to but i still hold out hope that maybe someday (also known as the rancher games), following a new character watching the games from back home, and having to live with what happened afterwards. jimmys sister, to be exact. i cant say much about this one without spoiling the original fic, but. there will be pain. and if you've read the original you know why there is pain. but there will also be seablings.

my second idea would have a more unusual format- ive got a massive superhero au i havent talked about here, just going feral on discord, but i was thinking about writing something for that. not plot, it doesnt really have much of that, but some kind of guide to all the hermit heroes. in the format of notes taken by the resident power copier, beef! with help (scribbles in the margins) from a zedaph.

the main thing stopping me from writing those right now is that i do not have a good handle on the characterization of either lizzie or beef. ive never written them before and having them as POV characters will be a challenge.

#superhero one is mostly an excuse for me to ramble about the many many cool powers i gave them #i have every single hermit and several adjacents all with unique and complex powers! #this is enrichment for me. #beef technically isnt the only power copier there's also a mumbo but mumbo can do more than that. #also mumbo doesnt like to copy powers much because he has to drink someones blood to copy them and that tastes bad #(mumbos ability was inspired by his s8 becoming what he eats bit) #beef can copy powers but cant use them directly he has to turn them into cards first! #anyone can use the cards to mimic the powers of whoever the card is of. zed often uses them because of his specific fuckery #normally the cards get used up theyre not an endless supply of powers they have charges. but zed somewhat bypasses that? #and zed also doesnt have powers that help him fight directly so he could use some backup cards anyways #and for the rancher games one. im very attached to the lizzie jimmy tango dynamic i created. #theyre soft. as they should be. #but yeah lizzie had to watch. That. had to see her brother get reaped #and had to watch him [SPOILERS] #not fun for her at all!

[limitlessscion]

I think about how in that year after Riko's death, Satoru in his manic fixation on honing his techniques just, taking really stupid extreme risks. And it just always paying off, so he's just rewarded for it, it becomes normal for him.

The first mission he goes on after failing to protect Riko, he just, drops Limitless when he sees an oncoming attack. On a whim. Takes the hit. Get absolutely shredded. His lungs get blended, major arteries blown open. And he heals it up and finishes the fight without losing any momentum.

So he confirms that his RCT healing wasn't just that one time fluke, he gets it. He has full control. And just immediately starts jumping to the extremes, as if what he did wasn't already extreme. If that's the case, then he can push himself as far as he wanted and he'd be okay.

He starts operating Limitless full time, he heals off the damage even to his brain. He's fine. He continues testing any new ideas live during missions, often leaving himself unprotected. He's fine. The first time he tries to do a full Domain Expansion, it's a success. Then he does it two more times in the same day. He's fine.

#>> ramblings #okay new tag for when i go on tangents that aren't quite heandcanons but also aren't completely ooc #but like imagine him just with this huge proud grin telling shoko 'i've really nailed down this RCT thing' and just #stabs himself #and he acts like it's absolutely no big deal and is the coolest thing in the world while everyone else is just watching in horror going wtf #also when i say he used domain expansion like 3 times in a day that wasn't the bullshit where he uses RCT to heal his technique #it's just spaced out more #that specific gojo-styled bullshittery vs sukuna i think he actually just improv'd on the spot with only the slightest pre-planning lol #aka doing exactly what he was doing as a kid again

[tragedykery]

it’s sooo fucked up that boromir’s last words were “I’ve failed.” literally sooososo fucked up

#lotrposting #it’s interesting how the scene in the movie & specifically what boromir says differs from the book tho #I mean they made it more dramatic for the film obviously but also the speech in which he essentially accepts aragorn as the/his king #while in the book he specifically calls the people of minas tirith his Own people; not aragorn’s #elli rambles #also fun fact I watched the fellowship of the ring with my brother a few days ago #and after boromir’s death scene my brother (who normally thinks shipping is stupid and I always try to make everything gay) #said ‘okay yeah I ship them now’ #and he seemed pretty serious? so gay win 🌈💖 (getting my brother who is occasionally homophobic by accident (often either bc he wants to #annoy me or just by virtue of being a thirteen year old cishet boy)) to ship two guys #anyway. I’m not even especially fond of the lad (he’s. fine. shrug. good for showing the power & danger of the ring even on good people) #but this is soo evil to me. he redeemed himself through fighting for merry & pippin (or at least if you see it like that) but his last #thought was that he’d died in dishonour and as a failure #he couldn’t withstand the power of the ring and couldn’t return to protect his home #also aragorn choosing to keep boromir’s betrayal a secret so that it wouldn’t tarnish gimli and legolas’s memory of him… #tolkien

[leejihoonownsmyheart]

Actuallly, one last personal life story this week kinda just to air it out? One of my coworkers who like graduates high school within the next month was serving with me on friday and he just out of nowhere looked me dead in the eyes with a like smile on his face but a kinda lost… helpless look in his eyes and said in a kinda scared desperate voice: “I think I might be depressed”

And like we aren’t really close? I’m his manager and he’s a team leader and he does talk to me a lot but just like over silly things like star wars and he asks me to watch movies and listen to music he likes sometimes, so my first thought was it’s a joke right?

But he’s not the kinda person to joke about that? And we were…. Kinda busy…? So i sort of just started asking him if school was almost over, cause he’s in a bunch of ap courses and had a lot of tests that week so i knew that was probably part of it

But then, i didn’t really… talk to him about it? And I didn’t close for once and forgot to circle back?

So all weekend I’ve been worried about him cause he’s literally just this… kid who is super smart and leaving us for a great college in the fall but is starting to get depressed and he clearly trusts me??? Which is horrifying, like of all the people he chose me to confide in???

So my plan is to get him something. Like physical that he can hold that will remind him that people care about him and are rooting for him and like i know that’s not going to cure depression but like maybe it’ll make him feel a little better

#i wanna buy him a crystal that is specific to what i think his situation is #but he is NOT a crystal boy #but it’s the thought that counts right…? #it just needs to be physical and he can hold it a lot #a compass??? #like dumb follow your heart type shit??? #HOW DO I CIRCLE BACK TO HIM ON THIS #I’m gonna have to actually start watching his movie recs cause i honestly NEVER DO #but i jUST FORGET OKAY #I DIDNT KNOW THAT HE TRUSTED ME LIKE THAT? #I THOUGHT HE JUST LIKED ATTENTION (and I mean this in a really positive genuine manner) AND I GAVE HIM ATTENTION #i kinda hate that my love language is goft giving #like if I had MORE TIME IT WOULD BE BETTER BUT THIS IS KINDA URGENT BECAUSE I LOWKEY LEFT HIM HANGING ON FRIDAY??? #i feel so so so bad #And we don’t text because he’s a CHILD #so i couldn’t just text him??? #I’m fucking 23 #reaching out to an 18 year old? #i know it’s to check up on him but i feel like it’s kinda weird and awkward still #i’m just rambling at this point #if you made it this far sorry 🙇‍♀️ #but also if you have any advice on what to get him!!! #i’m all ears

[risingsunresistance]

TRUE!!! the original post was just made in reference to things that had inspired my own design and a wish to see more variety among the masked long-haired braided human designs that were absolutely DOMINATING the place at the time (nothing wrong with that, love those ones and i've drawn a few myself, just came from a perspective of missing seeing the truly unique designs that made me associate the design with the artist ;-;) but yea it definitely applies outside of just him. and outside of just pigs, looking at random animals can be a great reminder of how varied and weird some stuff can actually be :D

one of my favorite ocs, who i have drawn a grand total of two times bc i have been very lazy with art lately, actually ended up happening only because i got inspired by my own post fkjdhg

even tho it's a full year old at this point, still a pretty good drawing imo. i like his face :]

babirusa btw if you couldn't tell. he's a zombie piglin who has been withered :0

#i should draw him again #oh i should. wait i should give him an outfit i've had sitting on the backburner for a while #i have more nether outfits but just havent had any use for them. i should give him one i've been thinking about #this post was made solely to ramble a bit and show him off again #dude it is. so funny looking back at the 2019 art i have saved #and then seeing when The Shift happened. where everyone got inspired by the big artists at the time and it just took over #AGAIN NO HATE TO THOSE ARTISTS OR ANYONE WHO FELT INSPIRED I AM TRYING SO HARD TO MAKE SURE I DONT SOUND HATEFUL #IT WAS JUST REALLY FUNNY TO WATCH EVERY OTHER DESIGN DISAPPEAR FOR A LITTLE WHILE HKJFDG #some old designs are So <3 i still look back on those pieces a lot #anyone remember the short hair blond ones. miss those guys #that art of him with the knives on his fingers. if you know you know. evren this is targetted at you specifically fkjdhg #a lot of ppl have been expanding their horizons and straying from the expected designs which is fun to see again! #i still see a lot more human/humanoid art tho (not that i see much art today anyways) which sucks bc i looove how varied the pig designs ge #yes i play favorites. i favor the pig design a lot. i am a biased party <333

[mikiruma]

any other autistics feel like this when you see someone talk about your special interest but they give off huge vibes they actually have no idea what theyre saying and get basic info about it wrong

#talking #silently taking a break from twitter bc i obliterated my profile & everyones feeds <3 #also hi i watched some of caddicarus's video on ps1 accessories and hearing him talk about bemani games made me rabid #fixating on bemani & having any game other than ddr get discovered by comedy game reviewers #i know its for the funny but come ON..... PLEASE use google..... #actually i love reading the tags ppl have added so heres some more rambling #konami has in-house artists making music for their rhythm games. its not 'random weird stock music' #the guy who majorly disrespected tomosuke's orange lounge project like that..... die!!!!!! #the way ppl say ddr is by nintendo or think bemani is a shovelware company bc they dont recognize the name #but yeah daddy caddy specifically saying its ddr mixed with rock band drums. violence violence violence #bitches will play ddr rock band and guitar hero exclusively and try SO hard to compare other rhythm games to it #i cant wait to explode peoples brains with chunithm (not bemani) or sound voltex or wacca (also not bemani) or museca or dance evolution

[enchanted-lightning-aes]

me: *has no energy to continue a show that’s gotten 100+ episodes*

also me: *wants to watch scenes featuring specific characters*

#enchant rambles #i got some behrad tarazi feels #i know some things about him #but i don't want to watch #100% of l.o.t #to see this specific boi #more than john constantine tbh

[frostbite-the-bat]

remembering old fandoms and rps and aus i had and im realizing this isnt the first time an au version of frostbite interacted a lot with someone who at least in text had a quirk that does something to the letter s which is ironic considering their name

#...........im talking about hr again sorry my condition gets worse each day especially when im more open about it #the previous/other one was a few years back. #it was . my gorillaz days...! and my gangreen gang specific hyperfix...! (never actually watched ppg) #they were besties with snake and there was a joke they adopted him and that he was their “sssson” even if they were only like a year older #our au ggg was very different bc it was like 4-3 ppl rping our own shit but it was very found family and backstories were Angsty #and obviously snake hisssssesss hisss letter sss #then hr haff hiff liffp #fun fact i used to have a pretty nasty lisp when i was younger before i got my teeth fixed up a bit so i honestly unironically love #characters with any kind of lisp even if its the daffy duck kind (who may be a bit hard for me to understand when voice acted like that but #i still Enjoy) #(i need subtitles for literally anything anyway) #anyways ggg au frostbite is also the edgiest of all the au frostbites that exist #least developed/just cool design is glamrock frost #most developed as a character and MOST goofy is toontown frost #anyways back on the lisp whoever put the letter s into the word lisp genuinely needs to die. and the word stop. yes i got bullied about #my lisp why do you ask #ok since im rambling heres a bigger ramble #both gorillaz and hr make me feel better abt my teeth #all the band members in gorillaz have mad fucked up teeth and i didnt have access to a good dentist until like 2020. i was endlessly #bullied for my teeth and i had difficulities eating some things and other health issues because i had horrid teeth bc of genes + my parents #didnt teach me to clean my teeth properly like wow you gotta go BETWEEN the teeth. the white stuff that covers your teeth ISNT GOOD ACTUALL #and hr has a mad overbite and i have that too so that makes me feel better..ive been rlly subconscious abt that lately actually #still wondering why nobody bothered gettin that fixed but i guess everything else was a bigger issue #and the fact i was missing my front teeth #yeah my health back then wasnt the best ! and i was bullied abt it even by my own best friends parents! no good! but seeing silly band #members who r fictional who i was hyperfixated on helped me feel better #man wish i could hide stuff from appearing in tag searches bc i just like rambling in the tags #but then i say one word and it appears in the tags and im super subconsious about it now bc i made one ramble and boom why is it in the #hr tag :sob: :skull: #OH WELL.

[eijiroukiriot]

it’s like every day i flipflop back and forth between “katsuki should say ‘eijirou’ as many times as he can all the time. ‘eijirou come look at this’ ‘jesus christ eijirou it’s 7 a.m.’ ‘eijirou, steak or fish tonight’” and “i need krbk to call each other baby or else i’ll die” 

#idk if it's obvious from the every piece of content i've made in the last 6 months but i've like been stuck on this one #and not to like accidentally peek a little deep into my psyche but it might be bc for the brief time i had a gf last year #we dove like REALLY hard and heavy into the pet names #i did not enjoy being in a relationship with her (largely bc it was so affectionate so fast) but. i did like the affection #and honestly thinking back on the times where we did call each other 'baby' specifically it felt like so much bigger than 'babe' #which is probably why it sounds so gross to some people but the more time goes by and the more i think abt what an actual good #relationship would look like to me. the more i feel like being able to say 'baby' and not have it be cringe would be a factor #which is why i've been so stuck on making things that make krbk say baby. as stupid as it is #i really do love bkg saying eijirou and think that's the more in character option anyway #sometimes your krbk has just gotta be a little self indulgent though you know? #and other times it can be realistic and so so good #if this fic i started last month ever does see the light of day....and it might bc i do like the premise #it'll maybe be the most realistic take on bkg as a part of krbk that i've ever written #not to keep rambling but also thinking back on the way i've written bkg over the years i really do think his character lends itself to #a lot of levels of realistic vs indulgent #weird wording but i'll explain #in canon he's so analytical and thoughtful at heart you know? but he's also 16 and brash and impulsive and plain dumb sometimes #once again thinking about how i didn't actually like him that much on my first watch until the latter half of s2 #where his characterization starts to become a little more day-to-day instead of really heavy digging into HIS psyche #so he just shows up over and over again to get mad about something stupid and it's endearing #like 'who is this guy' #so you can write a bkg who's very out of his element and hotheaded and thinks of himself differently than he actually comes off #or you could write a bkg (like the bkg as of late) who's very in control and calculating and doesn't let his guard down #neither side is technically inaccurate but it can be hard to strike a balance bc those things sound very out of sync with each other #so within krbk you can write a very 'actions speak louder than words' bkg who is kinda neutral-cold most of the time #or you can write the goofier 'i won at romance and i'm gonna rub it in your faces' easily swept off his feet fandom favorite bkg #which can be very good #and if anything the fact that he really does keep his guard so high up so often makes you WANT to write him being sappy #especially when he's grown up #have i ever mentioned that like the stock photo of krbk in my mind has aged up?

[noxtivagus]

i'm rlly happy i started listening to the 1975

#🌙.rambles #at first i thought they had more sus songs so i didn't listen to them for a while #n the first song i listened to them was fallingforyou n the only song i rlly listened to for a while #n then. i listened to some other popular ones at first which were more on the ballad slow type yeah #which i like too but then. i listened to more n now. oh my god #i really appreciate their views on society ! in abiiof i rlly. understand where they're coming from #that kind of thing is smth that means a lot to me yk? just. a lot of things in society in general n then #while i may not relate personally to the ones more on the topic of love n uhm yeah yk #i do understand them well n probably more than i shld 😭 i don't have experience myself but for me it's just #understanding n learning is just really important to me. so i know of more.. mature things still #i rlly love how. w their beats n the music. n then the meaning behind it. i really appreciate it. i love it so much #n then live they're just !!!! really performers #i really love how they just. do what they want yk? be who they are #n then. particularly since i know more of him w stuff i've watched n read #matty really is intelligent. he looks at life deeper than most. n i relate to a lot that i know of him #also like getting more into music w the bands n all rlly reminded me of how i rlly want to make my own one day #like. a lot of my goals n dreams r like. relating to literature n games n science n music #both in like learning or taking n then creating in a way #specifically in music here yk i really grew up w music. a lot of influences from so many artists n then #i played piano ever since 8 n then i rlly learned well but we stopped having lessons n i got more busy w my studies #since i'm.. an academic achiever as well n my grades have always been great in general n then #i love all genres. i can't even rlly write abt that rn bcs my love for music is rlly just so much #n then i don't know how to explain it but.. when i listen to music i really really Listen to it like. yk i take in everything abt it #i love music so much. oh man #i cld ramble on even more abt the 1975 too i think they're rlly special in the industry #i rlly love how they juxtapose darker topics w their upbeat songs? #i'm gna be productive now phew i'm rlly glad we have a long weekend. i'll make the most of this time.