#and then my FUCKING car breaks down! \

[mo-ok]

red boys?????????? red boys 😌😌😌😌

#sentai #go onger #hurricaneger #zyuohger #liveman #carranger #kakuranger #gingaman #super sentaisuke #everyone is here. it counts. sentaisuke+ #to no ones suprise its all birds cars and ninjas #and ryouma lmao hi ryouma #i love him so so much but like fuck man if i ever have to draw his outfit again i'm going to chew my laptop charger in half #every time i look at yusuke i want to grab his cheeks and shake him violently #would he like it?????? probably not but i imagine he'd put up with it for at least a few seconds #been doing a lot of full body/pose practice by drawing their ending dances #the two here are not an accurate reflection of just how many i've drawn lmao #finally drew sasuke in the pants. also decided he needed a crop top its an actual crime that he doesnt have a crop top #yusuke takes one look at him and just breaks down into tears #red racer + speedor crossover plot nonsense pls enjoy #kuru kuru doru doru engine magic if you will #i'm in my red period. picassoing up in this bitch #2023 art tag

[dylanconrique]

‼️💡 (ʘ_ʘ) SCARY THOUGHT (ʘ_ʘ)💡‼️

lucy getting fatally injured and tim pleading with her the same way she did when he ended things with her, and repeating that same phrase through tears as she's bleeding out, like "don't do this. please, don't do this. don't leave me."

#*carly catalogs #LISTEN IK SHE'S NOT A DAMSEL BUT IDC I WANT HER TO GET HUUURRT!!!!! WTH LOTS OF BLOOD!!!!!!!!!! #ALL SO I CAN WATCH THIS MANS TEARS STREAM DOWN HIS FACE FASTER THAN NIAGARA FALLS #*GRITS TEETH* I WILL BREAK THIS MAN IF IT IS THE LAST!!! THING!!!! I DO!!!!!! #lmaooooo it's almost 5am and i can't get any sleep thanks to this soreness in my ribs from that damn car accident #just imagined lucy lying across his lap and like.... spits up a little bit of blood or something sending him FUCKING SPIRALING 😭😭😭🤧🤧🤧 #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well

[crimeronan]

had to call justice (mechanic qpr) in a panic for the millionth time because my engine overheated while i was doordashing & i was like [on the verge of tears] i don't know where to get it towed to and i can't afford a tow anyway and what if something's really wrong with it after all the money i spent trying to fix it up....

and she was immediately like okay i'll be there in 15 minutes. don't panic. It's Okay

15 minutes later she arrives opens the hood and goes "wow. that IS hot" followed by "sooo. the amount of coolant in your tank is.... zero."

#TWAS BONE FUCKING DRY IN THERE. #she put some universal coolant in right there in the parking lot and now the car is working perfectly again. mysteriously #justice: oh yay im done with work i can make dinner then relax with some video games and chatting with friends :) #me: hello light of my life. i need to commandeer your Entire Evening actually #head in hands. CAN MY CAR NOT BREAK DOWN FOR EXCEEDINGLY STUPID REASONS. *FOR FIVE MINUTES* #delivery antics

[zerodaryls]

i often find myself questioning reality and i'm thinking that maybe people shouldn't let their 8 year olds watch The Truman Show (1998) because it might actually create lasting psychological damage

#anyone else see The Truman Show as a kid and still catch themselves wondering if the entire world is a Set Up or nah?? 👀 #like i know it's a pretty narcissistic concept to believe the entire world revolves around you lmao but i mean. the paranoia sometimes... #i genuinely 100% blame that movie for this #like i actually think that if i'd never seen that movie then i would just dilly dally on my way through life #never questioning the very fabric of my existence #...i mean realizing that christianity was bullshit might've still ended up doing a number on me #but like. HELL what if watching that movie opened my brain up to be ABLE to consider that my concept of reality (in which YAHWEH is real) #was actually bullshit. and i needed that movie in order to be able to eventually break free from the bullshit. #who knows lmao #but dear god... the other day i was driving #and i noticed that most of the cars would like. ease off the brakes jUST BEFORE the light turned green. like they KNEW. #and logically i'm like. 'that is because they are watching the cross traffic slow down and anticipating their turn.' #but Truman Syndrome Brain was like 'THEY HAVE CUES. THE DIRECTOR IS TELLING THEM TO GET READY TO GO.' #which is dumb bc if i were running a large scale program and had actors driving around i'd just tell them to follow the basic traffic rules #but ya know. the 'Truman Syndrome' or 'Truman Show Delusion' is a legit thing. there's a Wikipedia article on it. lmao #that shit done fucked some of us up :| #unreality #unreality tw #my posts #ramblings #my life is not nearly interesting enough to warrant a tv show #...but then again neither was Truman's. which was the point.

[lucyvaleheart]

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#so first of all I'm fine. #second of all I don't know if that's a lie or not but like. by some stretch it's gotta be true #so it doesn't count as a lie to my code of honor. #anyway. I keep fucking losing it y'all #I.... even now on depression medication I'm still breaking down what feels like fucking daily #it's just in different ways #crying harder than I have in a while and feeling more panicked about than like I'm releasing emotion #it's more distant but for some reason it's. easier to conceptualize uh #....tw here for like self harm and suicidal thoughts don't read the rest of these if you don't wanna see that #some reason it's easier to conceptualize the idea of. cutting myself? it never felt like a possibility before #id think about it and know I'd never do it. but. now.... #.....i can't help but find myself wondering if it *would* feel good. to hurt. to see my own blood #........there are so many people who's lives I've touched that would be saddened if I were gone but #it's.....harder to use that to ground myself. to pull myself away from the thoughts of just...... #..........stopping #ending everything. i dunno. fuck. #....a few weeks ago I found myself wanting to roll out of the moving car and could feel myself able to #reach for the seatbelt buckle and the door handle #........im not okay and honestly I don't know if I care #sometimes I do but when I feel like this it feels impossible TO care #it feels so distant. i feel so distant. I feel so nothing and so bad at the same time #i feel so fucking ugly #so much self hatred rearing it's head where I thought I'd gotten past it #i have a therapy appointment at the end of March and I'm not sure if that's soon enough.

[mirrortouchedsea]

Day 5

Madara is running, mind trying to keep up with everything that just happened. Take a left and then a right, there’s a contact there that can help. He feels blood dripping down his arm but he has to keep going. The shouts behind him are getting louder so he takes a left instead of a right, hoping to find a place to hide for a moment and catch his breath. 

He has to make it to the meeting point and get his arm checked out before his date with Leo later. If he has to cancel again over this… He’ll make it. He has to.

Madara must have bled more than he thought at first. He’s stumbling and it’s harder to breathe and he almost doesn’t notice when he runs into someone else until that familiar voice cuts through the fog. 

“Mama? Mama are you okay?” Why is he here? Did he have something going on? Madara tries to turn around, find a different place to hide. He can’t talk about this right now, not with Leo. Leo grabs his hand and Madara is too weak to pull away. 

“I’m fine, Leo-san.” The shouts that were following him seem to be getting quieter. They must have taken the bait. He relaxes just a little bit. “I have somewhere I need to--” He collapses before he can finish, everything goes blurry and he has to force himself to focus on Leo’s voice. He can tell that someone’s speaking but he can’t tell if it's himself or Leo. Stay awake stay awake stay awake. 

He feels his lips moving and he’s trying to say something while Leo is on the phone and applying pressure to Madara’s arm. Please don’t leave. I love you I love you I love you. Leo places a hand on his face and forces Madara to look up at him. Leo is saying something but Madara can’t hear it. I’m sorry you had to see me like this. Leo looks stressed. Madara caused this. He needs to leave before he makes it worse but Leo pushes him down when he tries to stand. His arm is throbbing. 

Someone hands Leo a bottle which Leo then puts to Madara’s lips, cool water quenching a thirst he didn’t realize he had. His head clears just a little bit and he can hear Leo finally. Stay with me Mama, please stay awake. I love you too. 

There’s more talking and Leo is pulled away while the emergency responders put Madara on a stretcher and put him in the ambulance. He tries to grab Leo, get them to let him into the ambulance as well, but they just strap his arm to his side and begin to assess the damage. 

Madara wakes up in the hospital, Leo sitting in the chair next to his bed. Leo tackles him in a hug before he can say anything and the nurses are running in to check on his vitals. He’ll be okay but he won’t be released until tomorrow. 

“I’m sorry, Leo-san. I really wanted--” 

“What’s going on? Don’t lie to me.” Leo’s voice cracks. 

“I was… trying to protect you. There are a lot of people who want to hurt you and I can’t…” 

“I can make my own decisions, Mama.” 

Madara doesn’t speak. He opens his mouth but any words he could say die on his lips. 

“I know you want to protect me but I don’t want you to get hurt because of me either.” 

“I know.” 

There’s silence and Madara is afraid Leo might finally break things off. His cheeks are wet and he refuses to look at Leo. Instead, Leo grabs his hand and squeezes it. 

“I love you. I don’t want to see you hurting.” 

He was much more serious than the Leo Madara knew and loved. He couldn’t bear to see Leo hurting either, especially if he was the cause. 

Madara squeezed Leo’s hand and made a silent promise that he’d be more careful from now on. Something had to change and continuing to get hurt like this wasn’t helping anyone. Maybe someday they could be happy together with nothing to worry about, but he would have to work to make that happen. 

#shay writes #january writing challenge #madaleo #cw for blood/injury and violence (though the violence is just mentioned) #I'LL DO SOMETHING CUTE WITH THEM ON THE 8TH I PROMMY #HOLD ME TO IT #i just had such a bad day at work today oh my fucking god #it was so busy and we had two people who had to leave early #(they carpool and one of them got a call that their kid got hurt at school and he's already sick so. they went to go pick him up) #and then we just. got slammed from like 1-1:45 i didnt actually get a break or anything #i took 10 minutes to eat some food and that was my break #we were kinda slow from 2-3 but at 3 we got busy again #died down for 15 minutes and then another 10 cars in the drive thru and 5 people in the dining room #at least one guy gave us a little tip so that was sweet of him #i'm just so out of it but i had to write. i had to i'm determined to keep up with this #if i skip a day i'm going to lose steam so on we go #no guarantees for quality i'm falling asleep as we speak snork mimimimi

[nyxwoven]

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#had a pretty bad breakdown yesterday #can't handle this job anymore #woke up feeling tired and defeated #trying to shake it off but im dreading the phone calls so fucking badly #i know i needed this job but i shouldn't have taken it. i feel so stupid #and i feel so stupid bc i do have a decent amount of time to do whatever i want and i like MOST of my job #but i can't handle the constant yelling #i feel weak. ive tried my whole life to not be intimidated by yelling or people being mean but i just. break #and I'm gonna try to find a new job but we're down to one car so it pretty much has to be something remote #and it took me a whole year to even find this job. i applied to so many places last year and i only got three interviews and one job offer #really wondering wtf is wrong with me that I can't find a job worth doing #especially when i have friends who have similar experience to me who have gotten the first fucking job they wanted #fuck

[velvetineblue]

I just want to share an OOC update with you all because it is funny and that is that I have officially Fractured My Ass. i cannot believe this..........................

#i tripped going down my parents wooden stairs and thusly broke my tailbone... #I HATE THis STUPID BAKA EARTH THAT ALLOWED THIS TO HAPPEN TO ME AJKDHJKHJK #i went to watch kung fu panda with family yesterday and my god............... the agony of sitting through an entire movie........ #and then sitting through a car ride there and back..... #it's a pain you cannot understand until you Too break your ass. #u ____________ u #thank fuck for standing desks!!!! #and pls be careful with baggy pants on stairwells: YOUR SWAG ISN'T WORTH HAVING A BROKEN ASS !!!! #( the old ppl were right all along oh god..... they warned us of the danger of baggy pants and we never listened...................... ) #( ThEIR PROPHECY HAS BEEN FULFILLED ................... ) #( but also this fall happened abt a week ago so no worries i am fINE now i'm just still healing from it LMAO )

[bunnyb34r]

Boy oh boy my car is gonna be a shitload of money (: yay

#my mom's cousin was like oh well you shouldve have (her husband) do it! hed only charge you parts! #like no if i had him do it he would only do my oil which is what i went to the mechanic for and theres a reason my mechanic has so many #auto awards and shit from various places like you go in for an oil change and they check EVERYTHING to make sure you're not gonna #get fucked by your car breaking down and suddenly something they could've caught early is now $5000 bc many moving parts are broke now #and if he did catch it then i wouldnt feel comfortable having your husband do it bc thats a lot to ask someone to do #so i need new brakes bc of course i do 🙄 #it's never JUST an oil change here though but again id rather them catch something than get a check engine light come on when im in like #pa or something yknow?? #and when i got my car we took it to him and all i needed was a new cabin filter bc they sold me it WITH A DEAD MOUSE IN THE CABIN FILTER #AREA which is why i couldnt drive with the ac on for a month 😭 he was like car looks great but mickey died in the cabin filter so uh 😬 #marquilla

[arrowpunk]

I want all of my friends to know that I love y'all so so much and I'm sorry I've been so bad at responding to DMs and stuff these past few weeks, I do not think that is going to improve for at least another few weeks because I am just so so busy and everything is so so so much and I am doing my best and I love all of you people in my phone and I will do my best to actually Talk to you all more and better in a few weeks when everything has slowed the fuck down and I'm no longer stressed to the point that it feels like my brain is leaking out of my ears.

#ramblings of an arrow #wedding on saturday #roadtripping and moving 1500 miles in a car prone to breaking down in 2 weeks #in the middle of work tests for a job I'm trying to apply for #don't know if I'm gonna get that job or if I'm wasting my time on these work tests #need to get a job b/c I spent over $3000 getting my car repaired last week #which WIPED out my savings that I spent the past few years trying to build up #right before getting married and moving me and my wife TO THE OTHER END OF THE COUNTRY #I'm sure everything will work itself out and be totally fine in the end #im sorry I swear I'm not trying to ignore anyone #everything is just so much right now and I'm holding it together as best I can #I keep getting mood whiplash from this job application/interview process #literally if I get this job I know that will fix all of my stress #because it's mostly financial stress #wedding i can handle #moving I can handle #it's being broke af and feeling responsible for me and my wife's wellbeing while not being able to financially provide for her #that fucks me up #ANYWAYS #im sure it'll all be fine #I just cannot exactly control my brain's stress response #I replayed all of dishonored the first one and got ghost and clean hands #because videogames help me cope with intense stress lol.... #but now I've finished dishonored and dishonored 2 and hades and I'm just sitting here like aaaaaa #need new viddy game #brain wants so so bad to play BG3 #I should probably just open one of the unplayed games I ACTUALLY OWN #maybe I'll see if Batty wants to watch me play Later Alligator #or if there's another game of mine she'd prefer I play #I don't know

[chenziee]

I really miss writing for myself but hell, if I didn't have deadlines hanging over my head, I would probably never write anything again

#i miss it i really do #i'm just so fucking TIRED #i don't even feel like doing anything at all #never mind writing #i hate this year #walking on the edge of a mental breakdown all day every day #every time i feel like shit's calming down #something else happens #i'm so sick of it #i wish i didn't at least need to buy a whole ass fucking car this year #but my current one said fuck you (it's getting fixed rn but who fucking knows when the next thing breaks) #katie thinks she's relevant #delete later #i really really want to do that newspaper zine thingy but #yeah #no one would buy it anyway #i wasn't planning on paywalling it just voluntary pay-what-you-want but i doubt anyone will download it even so never mind actually donate

[doctorweebmd]

hello i am turning [REDACTED] in five days and i would like to confirm: my back hurts

#its not a secret lol i'm... turning 32 :( #i've been on tumglr.com since i was 18. so. thats clearly a good sign. #it really does sneak up on you. #like my knee got fucked up from running four months ago and it still hurts #i have multiple grey hairs instead of the 1-2 i'd catch intermittently #drinking is rarely worth it now in days because the hangovers suck #i've somehow been driving my car for as long as i've not been driving my car (got it when i was 16....) #my mother is starting to realize its not a 'phase' when i say i dont want kids and there's a LOT of pregnancy pressure from everyone #a lot of my coworkers are having kids. sometimes multiple. on purpose. #while i'm here. writing my anime boy fanfiction #not complaining. my life is dope. but the body starting to break down once you hit 30 is some bullshit #wdym i can't be 25 forever. why not. #...how do you do fellow kids

[leezardweezard]

one thing that pisses me off as a new driver is that like while i do use my turn signal 100% of the time like. ppl insist on riding my ass and once or twice honking at me for deigning to slow down before making a turn off the highway instead of attempting to make a sharp turn at fucking 44 mph

#to be clear i am not driving 40 mph on the highway that just seems 2 be the point where ppl get mad at me. #i try to signal and slow down as far in advance that's still reasonable bc i don't want to wear out my breaks. but like its not long! #my car is fucking old as shit i gotta b careful with that thang #it only takes me a few seconds and fucking yet. god forbid ppl not be 15 over the speed limit for 7 seconds

[lesbiten]

had to go in to work this morning because the girl scheduleds car broke down last night. i almost got into 2 separate accidents from losing control of my car and then proceeded to get honked at and passed at mach speed by some asshole because i was going 5 under the speed limit ❤️

#im going to kill myself #i was slowing down bc the guy in front of me was turning #some people have nothing but the fucking nerve #anyways yes i did almost slide into a ditch and i did barely miss an exit sign on my way there! #i know you arent supposed to slam your breaks when you hit ice but i panicked and thank god it actually stopped my car #along with jerking the wheel #im pretty sure i handled it in the most incorrect way to handle ice but #i deserve to be proud of myself becausei also did not! pull over afterwards to have a panic attack #mostly bc pulling over anywhere would've made me more likely to get into an accident #anyways im gonna go lie down and never drive again.bye #simon says

[stolenbythewestwind]

there is something inherently tragic yet freeing about knowing that, even though you didn't get what you needed when you were younger, it's still possible to build that life for yourself as an adult.

you're not trapped or destined for loneliness. you can always build. again and again and again, as many times as you need to. the love and the freedom and the kindness and the connection, it's all waiting for you. you'll get there.

#was spiraling pretty bad this weekend #its been a year and a half since my brother died #my mom is going through another psychotic episode unfortunately and isnt really all there #my dad is trying but hes also not supportive of me being trans so theres some contention there #my car keeps breaking down #my cat got out of my apartment last night and scared me half to death; thankfully rescued her from the street before she got too far #a horse died really traumatically two weeks ago at the ranch (literally bled out all over me) #and all of these things put together meant that i felt so fucking powerless and hopeless. #i felt like life had given me a bad hand #and i was just suffering for no reason #BUT #i realized at some point that there *are* things i have control over #like being kind to myself and others #being courageous despite the fears #feeding and washing myself and tending to my plants #playing games and completing pretty puzzles and reading good books #finding sea glass at the beach #a new favorite song #getting a big ol bear hug from my roommate #everything is hard but there is good. there is still good and its worth finding and building #trying to remind myself of this every day #text

[sharkieboi]

the true, utter hatred I have for my life right now is unparalleled I just cannot catch a FUCKING break on ANYTHING

#shhh sharkie #work and family and friends and relationships and money and now THE FUCKING CAR. AGAIN. #I ONLY HAVE THIS THING FOR LIKE TWO WEEKS. JUST TO MOVE AND GET BACK TO CT FOR CHRISTMAS. #WHY DOES IT ALWAYS BREAK ON ME. #AND WHY IS IT ALWAYS IN THE WORST WAY. #LIKE HONESTLY ID RATHER JUST GET HIT WITH A BUS AT THIS POINT INSTEAD OF BREAKING DOWN ON THE SIDE OF THE ROAD /AGAIN/!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I had some very nice strangers help me get it out of the road and into a parking spot but it’s just. completely powered down. #why is it always me. I haven’t had this car in months and when I take it for two fucking weeks. #just drive a nail straight through my forehead at this point i’m fucking done.