#and you might be in love with someone but sometimes your paths don't always align

[ixiot-ghostrebel]

Time for brain rot for honkai star rail

Reader as prhopet of aeon that represents the chaeos: aeon of chaos belives the universe as is it is chaotic and becose of that universe is perfect so anyone who wants to destroy the universe or make evryone imortal are enemy of chaos

As for how reader becomes the prophet of the aeon of chaos well that simple the chaos helped readers home planet in deafting the fragmentun monsters and reader and few other are the first of pepoles who chose to take path of chaos

And reader as the prophet has role of spreading the knowledge of chaos to more and more pepole in universe and is good at it

As for reader personality they are kind of like trailblazer or travler form genshin impact but if we chose most of the time the funny lines like calling painon emergency but they can be serious if the situation is died or if some one badmouth the aeon of chaos

Image reaction of pepole like bronya,fu xuan and sliver wolf

OHOHOHO...First Honkai: Star Rail post, here I come! Thanks for the brainrot, @zardas75 ! :)

Btw, I'm sorry—I deleted your previous brainrot due to my lack of motivation :') Hopefully this shall redeem myself!

Some context before we dive in: the "Prophet of Chaos" role is a title specifically for the soul that is chosen with the highest blessing of Chaos—given by the Aeon of Chaos themselves, Khaos.

The Prophet of Chaos's job is to spread word of the principles that the Aeon of Chaos heavily believes in. In Reader's home world, Erisnyx, the Prophet of Chaos also maintains the shrine estate that is dedicated to Khaos.

They don't mind anyone else that do not worship Khaos—so long as they behave themselves. Because they are blessed with the Path of Chaos, anyone who dares defy their words in the Shrine of Chaos will meet their unrestful doom.

You, the Reader, have decided to take a slight detour on the traditions, wanting to see the vast universe outside of Erisnyx while also maintaining your job as the Prophet of Chaos.

Naturally, when you meet others, religion isn't always going to be your first topic. Not even with friends, sometimes.

Prophet of Chaos!Reader with Bronya, SilverWolf, and Fu Xuan!

(Warning: May be OOC!)

Bronya Rand

The first time you both met, you were as chaotic as ever that Bronya was beginning to worry that you might cause trouble in Belebog.

Safe to say, she was relieved when you behaved yourself. Now you guys were friends—mainly because of you throwing your chaotic-self into her life. It's made quite the impact.

She's actually pretty glad that you're in her life lol. She isn't sure how she got someone with a nice yet chaotic balance such as yourself. You were basically the scale, the fine line, of chaos and peace.

When you randomly mention right out of the blue that you're actually a Prophet of Chaos—someone blessed by the Aeon of Chaos themself—she was kind of shocked. I mean, sure—she's seen stellarons and the trailblazer get...you know...but this was a little more different. You were completely normal, someone that anyone would assume to be just one of those "gremlin friends"

"So...Khaos causing chaos, simply because they believe the universe is chaotic and it's perfect that way?" "That's why trash cans are a miracle to walk upon."

Yes, that's how it goes. Your chaotic-self messing up Bronya's brain of comprehension. Not that she's complaining—she loves you the way you are :)

Fu Xuan

The moment she foresaw you in one of her divinitions, Fu Xuan thought she would have to deal with another, and perhaps even greater than the General himself, headache and nuisance.

When she first met you, though, she was surprised. You were not only chaotic, but very peaceful. You were a perfect balance—as if the hexagrams, the stars, and the planets have aligned perfectly, in harmony, forever and always.

Sure, you do give her a headache from time to time, but she's overall glad to have you for a friend (or something more 👀), even if you do do stupid things.

When you tell her that you were the Prophet selected by the Aeon of Chaos themself, Fu Xuan isn't exactly surprised. It doesn't take that much to connect the dots that you follow a specific aeon and their principles—following the Path of Chaos actually fits you, if she was being honest.

"I can certainly see how you fit your role, Y/N. You certainly have the personality and strong will to hold these principles to your heart." One of the few times she smiles, even if it is a small one. The Master Diviner is also highly interested of what you do back in your homeland, so please indulge her in a few stories on her break time!

Silver Wolf

When she first met you, she didn't think much about you. Not until you practically bombed your way into her path.

She absolutely loves your chaotic energy, even if she won't say it. Sure, sometimes they're a little too much, but it's endearing to be with people that interest you, no?

When she gets to know you better Silver Wolf is pretty intrigued of how you became the Prophet of Chaos. Did you have to go through trials? Challenges? Rites? What kind of stuff do you do? Where they that boring that you left your homeland?

"So the entire universe is just a perfect form of chaos?" Though her tone doesn't show it, Silver Wolf's perspective of this entire game that is the universe gets suddenly shifted when you're around now. It's like you can make even the most mundane and boring things into a grand invitation for an epic event that doesn't disappoint.

"Be sure to touch some grass." Silver Wolf also loves your sense of humor. You fit her gamer slang too well.

And we're done! I hope you enjoyed it :) Thank you for being my first HSR fanfic requester, Zardas75!

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[polyamorousmisanthrope]

Don't Be the Cool Chick

https://polyamorousmisanthrope.com/wordpress/2016/05/25/dont-be-the-cool-chick/ I am in a relationship and in love with someone who is poly-curious, but I also currently don’t trust him. I met him several years ago and we had a strong connection that left me broken-hearted when he (very sheepishly) admitted that he had a long-distance girlfriend. He then left overseas for a winter, during which time, I was catapulted to a whirlpool of self-abuse. I am currently realizing and coming to terms with low self worth issues and am making great strides!

After the winter, he contacted me and wanted to patch things up. He had broken up with his girlfriend and had felt guilt over what happened. I forgave him and we eventually became a couple. But I soon realize that our perception of our relationship were not aligned. Last November, he revealed to me that he met another women that he felt a strong connection to and have similarly led her on, betraying both of us. I cannot tell you how bizarre it was to be on the other side of this and how stupid I felt to be deceived twice. He is also on his own journey of self-discovery and has made indications that he might be polyamorous or at least poly-leaning. I am trying to figure out if I am okay with being in a poly relationship, but it has been a big struggle. He is genuinely sorry and promises to be honest from now on.

In a way, polyamory seems like a utopia where all of my worst flaws – insecurity, jealousy, obsessive behavior – have to be dealt with and resolved in order to work. I wondered if I could be poly if only I didn’t have this past or maybe in other relationship. However, we both know that our past cannot be separated from us and I am currently in this relationship.

He is clear that he wants me to be his partner but in order for him to be happy, he has to not feel constraint to explore the connections he feels with other women. He said that he would not pursue a physical relationship, but does not want to and will not stop an emotional one. I press him to define if he means polyamory, but he refuses to label it. Would it be fair to ask him to use labels? I feel like I am being accused of being restrictive and closed minded if I do, but using strict vocabulary would be so helpful!

I am working on myself every day and he has been supportive and a big part of my self-discovery in this and other areas. I know that love clouds judgement and would appreciate some observations on this situation. I am trying to trust him, but I am always thinking in the back of my mind – if i am betrayed again, i will be the biggest fool of them all for not ending it sooner.

Thanks again for your time and thoughts.

You are right that working on jealousy, insecurity and obsessive behavior are great things to do.  No matter what path your life takes you down, this would be a good thing.

The thing is, when we work on trust issues, this isn’t to tie ourselves into knots to trust people who don’t deserve to be trusted.  He has to earn your trust, cupcake. You’re not being closed-minded.  You’re being told you’re not The Cool Chick because you expect some damn honesty, and want some expectations set.  This isn’t about his needs or any confounded journey of self-discovery. It’s about you being told you’re more developed if you’re convenient.

If he really, honestly, wants a relationship with you, he is going to have to re-earn your trust.  Thing is, earning trust is not necessarily about him always telling you what you want to hear. It’s about telling you the truth, even when it’s hard and he’s worried that the truth is going to be a deal-breaker.  We do not want relationships under false premises, right? 

I would encourage you both to read the article I wrote sometime back on How to Rebuild Trust. The tl;dr version is basically that the person who has broken trust has to commit to being fully truthful and forthcoming – no rules-lawyering, and volunteering info they know the partner would want to have, even if it’s uncomfortable.  The person whose trust has been broken will need to presume benevolence and not put the person’s behavior under a microscope.

As I think about your situation, though, it’s not as if he screwed up, is very sorry, and is committed to repairing it.  He’s developed a pattern of dishonesty. He still refuses to commit to saying specifically what it is he wants to do. By not nailing it down, he denies you an opportunity to make an informed decision about whether or not this is really what you want. From your letter, he does not exhibit behavior that looks in any way to me like someone who wants to repair a relationship. It seems to me he just wants to get the demanding bitch off his back.  Sorry for putting that in such a harsh way.  I don’t think insisting on honesty as a condition for a relationship is particularly demanding.  However, people who are into emotional manipulation are past masters at using any compassionate feelings you have combined with insecurities as a choke chain strong enough to hold Fenrir.

While a healthy polyamorous relationship is not supposed to be some sort of “get out of jail free” card for the commitment-averse, I’d be a diamond-studded liar if I said that the label was never used that way.

I know there’s a lot of pressure to be the Cool Chick—the tolerant one who’s just so damn easy to be with.  I’ve given in to that nonsense myself.  While I think kindness, forbearance, and being forgiving are all excellent traits, and even necessary in a relationship, being the Cool Chick means giving up your own needs and identity to keep a relationship.

I don’t think that’s really a great way to live.

[albionpark]

7 Essential Questions to Ask When Buying Used Cars from Sale

When it comes to finding that perfect ride, the allure of used cars can be undeniable. They offer the promise of a great deal, the charm of previous adventures, and the potential to be your reliable companion on many future journeys. 

But let's face it, embarking on the quest to purchase a pre-owned vehicle can sometimes feel like navigating through a maze. You want to emerge victorious, keys in hand, without falling prey to hidden pitfalls. 

That's why we're here to guide you through this labyrinth with seven essential questions that will illuminate your path. 

So, buckle up, future used cars Illawarra owners, as we embark on this journey together to find your next road-worthy steed.

What's the Car's History, and Can I See the Service Records?

First things first, the backbone of any wisely used cars Illawarra purchases lies in understanding their past. A vehicle's history can tell you tales of glory or caution you of impending woes. 

Ask the seller for a detailed account of the car's lineage, including previous ownership, any accidents, and the all-important service records. These records are golden, offering a glimpse into how well the vehicle was treated and whether it received the tender love and care it deserved. 

Remember, a used car with a well-documented service history is akin to finding a treasure chest in the world of pre-owned vehicles.

Has the Car Been in Any Accidents?

While on the topic of a car's past, it's crucial to delve into its accident history. Even the most well-maintained used cars can hide scars of past accidents beneath their shiny exteriors. 

Don't shy away from asking this direct question and request documentation or reports that verify the seller's claims. A car that's been in minor fender benders might still be a worthy contender, but knowledge of any major accidents can significantly affect your decision. 

It's all about knowing what you're getting into and ensuring that the car's structural integrity remains uncompromised.

Can I Take the Car to an Independent Mechanic for an Inspection?

This question is your shield in the used car buying battleground. Even if you're armed with service records and accident histories, an independent inspection by a trusted mechanic can reveal hidden issues that only a professional eye might catch. 

It's a step that could save you from costly repairs down the line. Sellers confident in the condition of their used cars should have no qualms about this request. If you encounter resistance, consider it a red flag. After all, transparency is key in these transactions.

What's the Mileage, and How Does It Reflect on the Car's Condition?

Mileage is often seen as a used car's heartbeat, giving insights into its life expectancy and how much adventure it's already seen. 

High mileage isn't always a deal-breaker; it largely depends on how those miles were accumulated and how well the vehicle was maintained throughout them. Urban miles, for example, can be harder on a car than highway miles. 

Use this question to gauge not just the car's condition but also to spark further discussion about its maintenance and how it was used by previous owners.

Are There Any Modifications or Non-Original Parts on the Car?

Used cars with modifications or aftermarket parts can be double-edged swords. On one hand, they might enhance performance or aesthetics according to someone's personal taste. 

On the other, they can introduce complications, especially if they weren't installed professionally or if they affect the car's warranty. Understanding any changes made to the vehicle helps you assess its current state and foresee potential future issues. 

Plus, it's an opportunity to discern whether these modifications align with what you're looking for in a car.

What is the Ownership History?

The number of previous owners a used car has had can tell you a lot about its history and potential future. 

A car that's changed hands frequently might hint at underlying problems or dissatisfaction. Conversely, a vehicle with a long-term single owner might have enjoyed a more stable and caring environment. 

This question can also lead to insights about the car's history that aren't evident from service records or inspections, such as reasons for selling or peculiarities in its use.

What Are the Terms of the Sale?

Last but definitely not least, understanding the terms of the sale is crucial before making any commitments. This encompasses everything from the price, any warranties or guarantees, to what happens if issues are discovered shortly after purchase. 

Clear terms help protect both parties and ensure that the transaction is as transparent and fair as possible. It's the final piece of the puzzle, ensuring that once you decide to purchase the used car, you can do so with confidence and peace of mind.

Conclusion 

Purchasing a used car can be an adventure filled with excitement and a bit of trepidation. 

Armed with these seven essential questions, you're now equipped to navigate this journey with a clearer map. Each question is designed to peel back the layers, offering a deeper understanding of the vehicle's past, present, and potential future. 

Remember, the goal is to find one of the best used cars Illawarra that isn't just a mode of transportation, but a trusted companion on the road. 

So take your time, ask the right questions, and let the quest for your perfect pre-owned vehicle begin.

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[redheadbigshoes]

i can't stop thinking about the concept that before you know you're a lesbian you might find yourself invested in m/f couples for a variety of reasons, and then after you find out you're a lesbian you stop caring about m/f pairings as much because you realise you were only invested for the woman/imagined yourself as the man/pretended the man was a woman/etc. because this happened to me... kind of

there's a m/f couple i adore, have for a long time. i've always enjoyed imagining them in romantic and sometimes sexual situations. very recently i realised that all along i'd been projecting onto the guy when imagining these situations. this was a massive epiphany and opened up the path for me realising i'm attracted to women. the thing is... i still like projecting onto the guy. i've spent so much time shaping my self indulgent interpretation of him that exists only in my head so that he's just like me, and then putting him in situations with his girlfriend which i find very enjoyable because his girlfriend is hot. and even now knowing i'm a lesbian, i still find it enjoyable and don't feel the need to imagine him as a woman instead. so i'm confused about what this all means. am i a butch lesbian or a straight trans man in denial? i know i'm attracted to women and not attracted to men but my gender identity is throwing me off. when i try to picture myself in a romantic or sexual situation with a woman, i picture myself as a woman (or more accurately, more aligned as a woman than a man bc i'm butch and genderqueer). the love i desire is very much Sapphic, no men involved. but i still love projecting onto this One Fictional Guy. i'm a bit at a loss

THIS! I used to be way more invested on m/f couples before I figured my identity, and, like you said, for a number of reasons. Now I usually just find boring most m/f couples media.

I think yes, it’s possible that maybe you’re a trans man, but just because you don’t mind changing the character’s gender when you imagine yourself it doesn’t necessarily mean you’re a guy. Maybe you just really the male character (in a platonic way) but since you’re not attracted to guys and you find the girl hot you don’t feel the need to imagine a girl dating her.

If your only reason to question on whether you’re butch or a trans man is because of that imagination, personally I don’t think you’re a man, especially because you don’t actually see yourself as a guy in any other situation and your desire is sapphic, that probably means you’re not a trans man.

I’m sorry if I couldn’t help you much, considering I’ve never went through the same! But I hope there’s someone who sees this who can relate with you and share their experiences as well!

#stephanie answers #anon #long post

[shinjaeha]

ipytm ep 1 (thoughts + spoilers)

so it’s been SUCH a long time since i last did one of these thoughts/recaps posts but !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god, i’m just so happy that ipytm is HERE. FINALLY. it’s felt like forever, but it’s so wonderful to have our boys back again, and to be continuing on with their story :’) even though i know we’re all in agreement that this won’t be an easy journey for the two of them (or us).

the usual ‘this is not a proper analysis’ disclaimer here. i’m literally just rewatching the whole thing and getting all my thoughts out here (so idk if this is even considered a proper recap but oh well). just whatever comes to mind so it’s as unstructured as always.

SO. we start off with teh and oh-aew playing rock, paper, scissors over having to do something they both clearly don’t want to do. it seems that we all had the same thoughts on this bc as they were playing, all i could think was “imagine if they’re doing this to buy condoms” only, low and behold, for it to ACTUALLY be true 😂 but good to know that our boys are practicing safe sex, i’m so happy for them :’) chaste/virgins no more!!!!! teh being as awkward and fidgety about this as always (I’VE MISSED THIS SO MUCH). they’re just so cute and i’ll never shut up about it!!!!! watching the last ep of itsay was like me exhaling and finally getting to relax a little, but i know that now ipytm’s started i’m gonna have to start holding my breath all over again. so i will def try to enjoy as much of the fluff as i can. i’m never taking that for granted ever again!!

one thing i really love is how itsay ended with them at promthep cape during the sunset as a new couple, and now ipytm’s opened at night, the both of them on the beach in the moonlight, as proper boyfriends. the contrasting images we get at both these scenes is so poetic and beautiful. just seeing their clothes strewn on the hammock is enough to bring all those memories rushing back.

they already kind of set the tone for how both boys, particularly oh-aew, were going to feel with ‘last twilight in phuket’, so it’s not altogether surprising to see oh-aew’s reluctance to leave phuket, and teh’s excitement to go to bangkok. this also makes a lot of sense in terms of their personalities. teh has always been the one that was the more ambitious of the two, so of course anything that brings him a step closer to his goals will excite him, and uni in bangkok has been the first major goal since the very beginning. oh-aew, on the other hand, has never been quite as decided or sure in terms of his goals and aspirations as teh, which would certainly make him feel a lot less enthused about leaving the comfort of home. he’s always been more cautious and careful, where teh tends to be the more impulsive one, so naturally he’s the one that feels more worried about this change while teh’s basically counting down the days till they can leave, not a care in the world.

the contrast between phuket and bangkok is already so jarring from the beginning. where phuket was so relaxed and sleepy, so many open spaces where there was no one else but the two of them...our first shot of bangkok is busy and bustling, cars and skyscrapers everywhere. the two shows are obv connected, but with this new setting, this is a completely different story. we’re (literally) in new territory!!

SO HAPPY TO SEE TEH’S FAM AGAIN!!!!! i’ve missed them too (esp hoon!!!!!). i love it so much that his mum just KNEW. and that she let him know that she knew in the most thoughtful way too. in a way where she was looking out for oh-aew as well :’) it’s interesting how i was genuinely expecting that they would focus a little more on teh struggling to be out in public, but it looks like that that was the main obstacle of itsay, and they’re looking to tell a different story now. he’s so much more comfortable with himself and it really shows. the one person that teh always wanted approval from was his mum (i mean, the initial reason that he wanted to become an actor in the first place was bc she told him how much he looked like yongjian), so once he realised that she knew about him and oh-aew (and they had her blessing), it’s like that’s all he needed. just that acceptance from the person that he respects the most in the world. it reminds me so much of that time he cried to hoon about liking oh-aew and how he was afraid that he wouldn’t be accepted bc he liked boys, and hoon was so clear about how he was okay with it no matter what. teh’s family are always showing him how much they truly love and care for him, and it’s so beautiful. just another weight off his shoulders now that he’s finally free to be himself and to love oh-aew out loud in public and not care about anything else. i’m glad that they got that out of the way so early on so we know that it’s likely not going to be one of the conflicts for the two of them in ipytm at least.

anyway, i’m so happy that they’re finally communicating directly to one another now that they’re a couple...hopefully, no more passive aggressive ig stories pls 😂also, the way safe zone starts playing the moment they see each other!!!!!!!!!!!! i wonder if nadao will also has sad acoustic/piano instrumental versions of safe zone on hand that’ll make me cry like they did with skyline........

FIRST BANGKOK DATE IN THE AQUARIUM!!!!!!!!! the cinematography is just a+++++ but then we knew it would be. i love that shot of them in the aquarium with the fish as their backdrop. it’s just SO stunning. 

the voice recording was SO SWEET. and the way that oh-aew was so touched by teh’s mum’s approval. it’s a weight of his shoulders now too. one less thing to worry about for the future. it’s prob esp emotional for him bc hearing her talk about coming home to phuket to have a meal together must make him feel so incredibly homesick too.

“your mum is romantic, isn’t she?” and then teh really one ups his mum by KISSING OH-AEW IN PUBLIC. it’s the romance for me!!!!!!!!! with the fish in the background...like saying there are so many fish in the sea but you’re the only one for me...sorry, i’m a sap but i just love them so much okay ;;; i live for teh referring to the both of them as a couple/boyfriends and oh-aew pretending like he doesn’t absolutely love that and teh teasing him about it. he’s grown so, so much since the very first ep of itsay. even since ‘last twilight in phuket’ when he was too shy to kiss oh-aew on the cheek and now, in an even bigger city, he’s kissing him on the cheek AND the lips in public like it’s nothing. like it’s the easiest thing in the world. remember back when bas was confessing to oh-aew in their chinese class and teh had his breakdown bc it was so easy for bas yet it was something he couldn’t do?????? LOOK AT HIM NOW. WE’VE COME SO FAR. the character development makes me feel like a proud parent, and i’m SO happy that he’s happy and proud to be with oh-aew. and most importantly, proud to be himself. he really went through so much to get to this point 😭

ANYWAY, this kiss is everything. the contrast between their first kiss, when they were both underwater hidden from view, and now, still surrounded by water, still in their own little space, but on land this time. out in the open. no longer hiding. how you can hear everyone around them speaking in the background, but then when teh leans in, all the sounds fade away bc they may be surrounded by other people, but it’s still just the two of them. their underwater kiss was beautiful, but it always left me with this sadness bc of how restricted they were. this one is so much more satisfying now that they can love each other uninhibited like this. out loud. i really, truly just love them with every beat of my heart ;;;

teh talking about how one day he’ll be on that movie poster reminds me of when they were kids watching ‘sword over the moon’ and he jumped up and told the gang that he wanted to be an actor when he grew up (oh-aew was the only one who didn’t laugh at him back then too). he’s still that same boy, young and idealistic :’) and it’s also so nice seeing how confident teh is now about the two of them both being the male protagonists. like back when oh-aew originally brought it up (and asked if two male protagonists would be okay), he could barely nod his head in response, and now here he is boldly proclaiming that the both of them will be protagonists (a real couple) on movie posters, in different series’ and movies together. although we know the naiveness of this, and that things will prob not work out as smoothly as they’re imagining it will at this moment, it’s still very sweet. they’re just so young and in loooove.

teh spending his first night in bangkok at oh-aew’s place!! first thought, damn oh-aew’s place is real nice...so different from the dorm that teh’s sharing with his roommate. second, they could not be anymore adorable :’))) third, teh leaping out of bed in panic the second he heard what time it was was me yesterday morning after staying up half the night watching ep 1 and realising i was late for work...itsay/ipytm being relatable as always haha.

i like how from the get go they show you how different school in phuket and uni in bangkok is. teh was late a bunch of times in itsay too, and would sneak in without any of his teachers realising...but here he’s late and gets reprimanded on his very first day. anyway, must be nice to have a boyfriend surprise you by preparing milk for breakfast for you (well, i guess unless you’re lactose intolerant like i am hah).

i got soooooooo excited the second i saw goy (and oab!!)...i love the both of them so i really can’t wait to get to know more about their characters (as well as the rest of the new cast of characters) throughout this. it’s one of the things that i’ve been most looking forward to them exploring in this series. but yeah, teh fanboying over top?? i agree with kim. super cute. anyway, i’m already esp intrigued by jai...i was leaning towards him just being a senior/mentor for teh initially (which i still think will be the case), but i also get ~vibes from him that there’s something more to that (though i’m just speculating for now). he’s mysterious, and i have no doubt that there’s more to the story than meets the eye js.

all the tables and chairs at this restaurant are blue and red (as well as their uni ties)...they really gave us our official itsay/ipytm colours whenever possible 😂 in all seriousness though, i feel so sad for oh-aew. when teh asks how his first day was and he’s just like “i have the most fun being here with you now” and then you can see the sudden concern in teh’s face and voice when he’s like “why’s that?” that hurt :( seeing oh-aew sad is the worst...he’s just such a sweetheart. and just like in itsay where teh’s confusion and struggle in accepting his sexuality was such a relatable experience, oh-aew’s difficulty in adjusting to uni and life away from home is too. i totally understand where he’s coming from, and it fucking sucks. making friends in uni (ESP when you have no other friends that went with you to the same uni, and everyone else already seems to know one another) is so. damn. hard. i’ve been in this position so many times before...i’ve gone to unis and gone semester after semester without making ANY friends. it’s such a different experience from high school, and the transition can be really, really difficult. that plus the culture shock of being in an entirely new city with barely any support. i’m actually really glad that ipytm is delving into this experience a little bc i don’t think a lot of shows do tbh.

it also makes me think about how when you’re in high school, getting into uni seems like the end goal a lot of the time (the way the admission exam was always their main goal in itsay), but then you get to uni and you realise that it’s just another step. there’s so much more life once you get in. and that sometimes it’s really not all that it’s cracked up to be.

that sequence of teh progressively waking up earlier and earlier as the sky also gets progressively darker (and taking all sorts of different methods of transport) to get to class on time made me feel so bad for him. working on the play until almost midnight and then having to wake up at like 5am every morning (and not even being able to do fun things like teach oh-aew chinese at 4am anymore?)...the poor kid ;;;

i love plays/musicals but tbh i know next to nothing about how anything backstage works, so i really do love that we’ll get to learn more about that in this series. kind of like how the itsay/ipytm documentaries teach me so much more about how the acting/filming process works behind the scenes. i’d never even really thought about how the stage crew would have to adjust their eyes to the darkness in order to rearrange the props on stage, so that was fascinating to me. it’s such a visual and symbolic aid for the show itself too.

i get the feeling that teh and kim will become a lot closer, and i can’t wait to see how their relationship develops. it’s so great that teh has all these new seniors that he can learn from. just like the blindfold helps him adjust to the dark, having them there to guide him through makes it so much easier for him to adjust to this new city and this new stage of his life.

i knew that oh-aew telling teh to sleep at his dorm was coming bc poor teh was running himself ragged, and oh-aew’s always been so accommodating of teh. he’s always been able to understand...but he’s having so much trouble adjusting, and he’s SO lonely and homesick, it makes my heart ache for him. all these little things tend to build up over time. they’re still in the sweet, honeymoon period of their relationship so it doesn’t seem like a big deal now. but when life gets busy, it becomes increasingly easy to grow apart from someone without even truly realising it (and it’s the same for any type of relationship or friendship).

the emptiness of oh-aew all alone in his huge place :((( like although teh might not particularly like his roommate, he’s basically never alone like this, even in his dorm. he’s homesick and when everyone else is busy with their own lives, it can also feel like you’re being left behind.

yes, they’re playing pp’s new ost!!!!!!!!

FINALLY we meet oh-aew new group of friends!! they seem so sweet. also, why is oh-aew saying his own name like the cutest thing in the world to me :’) i was smiling about how glad i was that he finally found a new gang of friends and then my poor boy started CRYING...but then they basically adopted him into their group and it made me feel more at ease again. i constantly want to hug and reassure oh-aew this whole ep. q making him bingsu to give oh-aew something as close to the taste of home as he could was soooooo lovely. he really needs a friend atm, and i’m glad that he found a bunch of them.

i was so afraid that teh was gonna drop the prop as he was waving to oh-aew haha. that interaction?? adorable. then again, it’s teh/oh-aew, so of course they are. also wondering if there was any significance to that glance between jai and oh-aew bc i know this crew never just puts things in this show randomly hmmm.

aaaaand i was waiting for the first real crack to appear, so when kim was saying they were gonna have to keep fine tuning the play for the contest, i was like OF COURSE. i have no doubt that teh would give up working on the play if oh-aew told him too, but we all know that oh-aew would never ask him to do that. it would be like teh relinquishing his place all over again. and oh-aew knows how goal oriented and driven teh is. this is one of the minor conflicts that has been brewing since the start of itsay, but i think that it’s going to become a much bigger deal now that their actually adults and there are new goals they’re striving towards. the both of them have pretty much always had the same goal, but what happens when this changes...

“but i’ve given so much of our time to other people already” they had to hurt me with that one huh.

but also, the “text me once you arrive at your condo” is a special one for me bc to me that text in itsay was the moment when oh-aew realised that teh might have feelings for him...and i feel real nostalgic about it.

if you think about it, in regards to his aspirations, oh-aew has always been pushed or motivated by teh in some part. when oh-aew was yongjian in the play when they were kids, teh helped him remember his lines, and this in turn made him want to become an actor. when they fell out the first time, one of the reasons oh-aew was so driven to succeed was bc he wanted to prove to teh that he wasn’t going to quit. teh tutored him in chinese so he could get into uni. the first time they ran to the cape, he almost gave up if it hadn’t been for teh motivating him to keep going. he nearly didn’t sit the admission exam until teh relinquished his spot which then spurred him to keep studying so he could get in on his own accord. in oh-aew’s own words, teh has basically always been his biggest rival and inspiration. and even now that they’re in phuket, oh-aew’s been so dependant on teh bc he’s been so lonely...and doesn’t have anyone else in bangkok with him (up until he met his new friends).

originally, i’d speculated that while itsay focussed on teh’s journey of discovery and self-acceptance, ipytm was going to focus more on oh-aew’s journey of discovery and self-growth. and i think based on this ep, it does seem to be heading in that direction? i just get the feeling that oh-aew’s going to learn to become more independent throughout the course of this series. he’ll grow and change, and as a result that may mean they grow apart, but i also think it’s a necessary and healthy thing for the both of them. and just bc you grow apart doesn’t meant that you can’t grow back together again eventually, you know?

but yeah, still doesn’t mean it’s not going to pain me to watch the angst we all know is coming. when teh gave the flowers back to oh-aew, that made my heart ache too. and it felt even more symbolic after watching pp’s mv for ‘hold me tight’ where the sunflower seems to represent oh-aew himself (always turning towards the sun...but what about during the night??). when oh-aew closed his eyes, opened them, and couldn’t see teh on the stage?? it’s both kind of like he’s imagining some sort of future where teh isn’t there with him AND that he’s realising that maybe the stage might not be for him anymore. the passion isn’t there...just darkness. like it was signalling a new chapter starting for oh-aew...and everything in this ep up to this point was just the set up for this realisation.

in the end, what i really want is for the both of them to be happy. that’s always been what i’ve wanted from the start. but i also really want to see how they mature and grow through this experience. watching this ep felt bittersweet in a way bc of that underlying angst that was threaded throughout (even in their happier moments). i only expect that to get heavier with the upcoming eps, but i’m also weirdly a lot more at peace with this than i was during itsay. maybe bc i think it’s arguably even more important and necessary for them to grow as individuals, than as a couple (as much as i want to see them together). i genuinely do believe that they’ll find each other again in the end though.

#i promised you the moon #ipytm #text #the first time i watched this i was like man idek know to SAY and then i rewatched and ended up writing a whole essay (again) #another thing that i like (is like the right word?) about this conflict is that this is no one's fault?? #like you can't blame anyone directly bc sometimes you get busy...life gets in the way and there's nothing you can do #even if you try your best #and you might be in love with someone but sometimes your paths don't always align #this is hitting esp close to home with me bc one of my friends just broke up with her bf and i've been talking her through it recently #and the changes in life goals thing is eerily similar to what went down so :(((

[highdio]

Got an ask and follow-up re: whether Dio is an "archetypal villain" so doing it as one reply (fwiw I just did a reply re: Dio's nuance so keeping this to the 'archetype' part of the ask).

“so, i seen some people say Dio is simply a archetypal villain, perhaps even flat. what would you say to someone that told you he was without nuance? i plenty believe he has, but sometimes i dont know exactly what to say”

“someone i asked about what was their favorite villain told me he was a archetypal villain. and i think two years ago i saw a meme pic about how Dio fans are obnoxious or something. i mostly got my liking from him by analyses, alongside the fact that i do think personally that he DID change as a character, not completely, but he had some development.”

I partly agree with that, although maybe there's not one single 'archetypal villain.’ The person you spoke with probably meant that Dio's is Evil with a capital 'E,' as opposed to a villain who does the bad things for understandable reasons, or who gets corrupted by events outside their control. Araki's vision for Dio (in Part 1 especially) is, morally speaking, black-and-white, with Dio's Evil defined by Araki as an innate trait rather than the effect of his circumstances.

fwiw David Mamet's got a good list of eight villain archetypes - the anti-villain, the beast, the bully, the machine, the mastermind, the evil incarnate, the henchman, and the fanatic - and I thought for the purpose of this reply it's helpful to defining Dio's specific brand of badness. Of those archetypes, two stand out as defining Dio's *specific* type: the Evil Incarnate and (technically not on the list but inspired by it) the Anti-Hero.

(fwiw you can read my convo here about why Dio isn't a bully type. I see him mistyped this way especially by people who want to expand Jonathan's role in the series. tl;dr, basically it comes down to the fact that Dio's charisma - his most important character trait btw - draws people toward him while a bully actively seeks out confrontation. The bully barges into a room, the charismatic character gets you to barge into a room. Dio is the latter.)

Evil Incarnate's almost self-explanatory - Dio's literally called that in the series (邪悪の化身) - although I can talk more about this if you want. By contrast, his anti-hero role's maybe less obvious ... but that designation offers us a way of reconciling some of the stuff listed under Mamet's 'Evil incarnate' that doesn't work with how Dio's written. Specifically, an Evil incarnate-type villain's primary role in the narrative is usually as an obstacle to the hero's journey, ie, as an antagonist. imo, Dio functions instead primarily as a parallel protagonist.

(I've written about this before but) Araki's said this a lot: Dio joins Jonathan as a dual protagonist in Phantom Blood, and Dio's own story follows a Hero's rising arc.

(Was surprised I didn't notice this until I hunted a gif for this reply: while the Part 1 OP features both main characters throughout, it's Dio alone who's given a special manga panel mini-montage during its bridge, emphasizing his hero-style arc.)

In a lot of ways Dio's more fleshed out than the actual hero since Araki had already worked out the specifics of his personality in a prior series (whereas Jonathan was vaguer to Araki, even as Part 1 was being published: "just as Jonathan was unsure how to live his life, I was unsure as to where to take his character.") Phantom Blood starts off with Dio's introduction, not Jonathan's. As Araki puts it,

The title of the series is Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure, but first and foremost, I actually wanted to draw Dio.

The hero's introduction is inserted within Dio's introduction, as a story-within-a-story recalled in a flashback by Dio's dad. We don't get to meet Jonathan on his own terms until the next chapter, and, because of this ordering, if you read Part 1 cold you could start off thinking it's Dio who's going to be the hero. Dio's story's a riff on your stereotypical rags-to-riches tale but with the obvious twist that he's written as unapologetically Evil. Like the rags-to-riches protag, Dio's faced with increasingly difficult setbacks and challenges throughout his story's progress, and, in spite of these, he keeps moving forward. Araki, again:

Dio moves in a rising direction, like Jonathan. Dio accepts and embraces his evil nature and follows his dark path without hesitation. In other words, both Dio and Jonathan are living life with everything they’ve got, and both always maintain a rising personal arc.

In other words, Dio has his own upward rising arc by design and it's independent of the hero's. ofc his interactions with the Joestars throughout the series are significant and their back-and-forths drive the larger story, but the trajectory of Dio's arc remains largely the same throughout all this.

If you see Dio as a protagonist then you also recognize that Jonathan's (and later Jotaro and company's) relentless pursuit (yes, they pursue him, because charisma is a gravitational force) provides the antagonistic force to Dio's arc. (And going back to the Araki quote, that "without hesitation part" is really important - Dio's willful embrace of his Evil nature and the intentionality of his actions throughout Part 1 again align him with a heroic type: it's a positive character trait, just in Dio's case it's executed wrongly.)

So call Dio an anti-hero or, if it makes you more comfortable, a Villain who thinks he's the Hero in the story. This isn't a unique situation (and probably as you're reading this you might be thinking, well all villains have their own story arc too)  but imo Araki writing Dio with this specific perspective and intent sets him apart from what we think of as the more generic model of a villain, whose role within the narrative is secondary to the hero's and whose arc is cleanly set up as in opposition to that hero.

Ofc, a villainous anti-hero is by nature appealing because we know we really shouldn't root for him. We should hate him ... but we still sort of love him, especially when, because of that rising story arc that Araki gave him, he keeps coming back after stupidly impossible odds. Usually when you get decapitated you lose but Dio's not like that, and there's something compelling about a character who repeatedly breaks the narrative flow by improv-ing his way through impossible situations.

tl;dr, basically if you're looking to characterize what 'type' of villain Dio is (and why he's attractive), Dio is Evil personified fused with the inconvenient fact of his also being more or less protagonist-identified. Araki wrote Dio with a hero in mind, and that fact keeps him interesting on his own terms and places him in the contrarian posture of a particularly reprehensible anti-hero.

#Anonymous #replies tag #jjba #jojo's bizarre adventure #dio brando #mp #dioposts #dio talk

[thequietuptown]

I remember when I was a young girl, I wanted to be a tomboy. I was never girly or anything like that, just me. But I fought hard to identify as a woman, and get past the hardships that has brought me. I'm a proud feminist. But... more and more I feel like I may be gender neutral or fluid. I feel like an imposter though. How do I know if what I feel is right? I don't want to change, just be me. I fear that others will view me as an imposter too, because it's not a "me" thing to do.

Hello friend,

I am sorry to hear that you are struggling with feeling like you’re an imposter in exploring your identity. Gender is complicated and messy, and we are told constantly that you have to fit into certain roles, that you have to be either masculine or feminine. For those of us who self-identify as perfectionists, or even just curious individuals who like to learn everything about a topic, we tend to feel those feelings more intensely when there isn’t a nice succinct answer. We burden ourselves with that desire for a perfect label, and when things don’t align like the planets in Disney’s Hercules, we are uncomfortable.  That feeling is also playing off underlying fears that ultimately you are the only person that you can depend on. It is incredibly isolating, especially when you’re trying to do something that is so personal as being true to yourself.

I only recently decided to be more open about my own gender fluidity. While close friend and loved ones have known for a while, it’s become important to me to be more vocal about my identity. My gender swings back and forth between high femme and mostly masculine, and, when I feel that switch, it’s obvious to me, even though there might not be an obvious physical change that accompanies it all the time (though my posture or my tone of voice or even the way I kiss have all been identified by others). I’ve been working towards a more androgynous neutral look that makes that switch more comfortable for me, but I am always up for challenging gender expectations.

And that’s really what you have to do.  While it is philosophically true that the concept of our person is influenced by the stories that others tell about us, the only individual that can ultimately make a decision regarding the truth behind that identity is you. Gender is such a massive part of our culture, but this is an excellent time to explore what your gender means to you.  Challenge the expectations you have for yourself and others have for you. Surround yourself with people who are going to be supportive of your journey. Be honest about how you’re feeling in specific situations when you’re feeling that you don’t belong and talk with someone through those moments to help decipher if you’re feeling that way because something that you’re doing doesn’t feel right, or if because you think that others will say you’re not being you. Play with different looks and different body language. If the perfect label is important to you, take deep dives into some of the more obscure gender labels, like demigirl: a gender identity describing someone who partially, but not wholly, identifies as a woman, socially or mentally.  New identities are developing all the time, as we are culturally exploring what gender actually means

Gender is performative, but it’s not always method acting. Sometimes it’s improv, and that’s not just saying that everything is made up and the points don’t matter (though, that’s mostly true), but it’s also a chance to “Yes, and...” your identity. Even the messiest people among us are creatures of habit who desire some form of order, some sort of pattern to follow. It’s natural to want a clear label or to have a clear narrative, with an obvious beginning, middle, and end, but you need to forgive yourself, when you don’t measure up to those expectations. Take a step back and recognize that because life tends to move in a single direction, any sort of exploration is necessarily a move forward. It’s okay to feel like a girl in some moments, and to feel like you have no gender in others. Embrace that fluidity if that’s what you want to do. Or reject labels altogether. It’s not about a clear destination, it’s a bout having fun and finding the path you want to walk.

Ultimately, the only person that can determine what is true for you is you, but that doesn’t mean you’re alone. A loving support network who can remind you who you are in those moments of doubt can do wonders. If gender performance seems to be one of those things that’s triggering those feelings that you’re co-opting a narrative or that you’re some how serving as an imposter or even if just makes you want to hide in a vent, a la Among Us, it can be helpful to focus on things that you know to be true for you that don’t really have anything to do with gender. And gender exploration is one of my favorite things, so if you ever need to talk more in depth about this sort of thing, please know that I will always be excited to talk about this with you.

I wish you peace as you continue to push those boundaries. You are a beautiful human.

With love, friend.

[textsfromtheborderline]

I burnt bridges with everyone. And I don't know how I feel about it. It's just good knowing that I'll never be in doubt if they really care or not, because it's over. With everyone. Now I can work with my distractions without them weighing me down. It sucks, but it's better than the alternative. And whoever truly wants me will seek me out. But I know no one will.

Wow, this message isuncanny because I was thinking along these same lines this morning while I wasdrinking coffee.

I appreciate that you feel comfortable ventingon this blog. I hear you. I feel you. I think your message touches on a lot ofimportant things we can all learn from, which is why I want to offer my owncommentary. 

 From my reading, it seems that the underlyingtone of your message is bitterness. You refer to your finished relationships as“distractions” now (which is perhaps a sign of slight devaluation at this pointin time).

 Further, your statement that you “know no oneever will” seek you out, comes across as self-sabotaging. It cannot be truethat you aren’t wanted; you are an important part of someone’s life whether youare in a state to perceive it or not: people enjoy talking to you. Theyappreciate your smiles. They like knowing they’ll run into you. They value yourwork. They care for you.

It is not reasonable to expect people to chaseafter you, though. And it wouldn’t be fair to drop people just to see if they’lltell you to stay, or to if they’ll trail after you. Please don’t play gameswith people’s lives by setting unrealistic expectations like this.

Being chased after (and chasing others) is notan indicator of healthy, genuine interest. Rather, it’s a sign of insecurityand desperation (I’ve been there before myself). Do you really want someone who is desperate and insecure as your partner?Do you really want to be that kind of partner?

Expanding on this point, I want to share thatover the course of this year, I’ve learned the power of putting myself outthere. This has led to new friendships, relationships, job opportunities, adventures,and learning experiences.

Sure, sometimes I definitely wish that I couldbe “found.” But that’s simply not possible if I’m not out there. It’s the total opposite of self-isolation. 

One of the benefits (if I can call it that) ofmy relationship with my Narc is that she completely shattered my comfort zone.I had to think on my feet, adapt, try new things, enforce boundaries, and testmy strength in order to overcome her abuse.

My comfort zone is no longer a place I want tofind myself in for very long. I guess I use it to recharge, but I’m always chasing, if you will, opportunities thathelp me grow and become better (thanks Nietzsche). This is different from chasingafter people out of insecurity and desperation, because working toward goals,learning, and becoming better are all healthy. I strive for excellence and hopeto inspire others to do the same.

These are life changes. And that brings me tothe central theme of your message: change.

Burning bridges, especially with everyone, isa radical change. Whether it is done in order to set boundaries, to spite, orto move on, it marks a distinction between beforeand after.

I identify with your message because it canfeel so damn good to just cleanse your life. To let everything go up in flames,so that you can arise from the ashes. As if your resolve is hardened bysacrificing relationships. It seems that the dearer they are to you, the morethey hurt, and the more the pain keeps you moving forward. Only time will tellif these sacrifices are for the best.

 And you’re right that sometimes, the certaintyof things being over is a lot betterand more liberating than the uncertainty of things staying the same. I would also like to point out here that just because it’sover, doesn’t mean that you were never cared for. Or that the person stoppedcaring for you just because things are over.

Whoever wants you will not chase you. Theywill stay with you. And they willensure that they make room in their own life for you to stay.

You are not some prey, to be chased and hunteddown. But if you really want to consider a relationship through these lens, thethrill of the chase, the seduction of the mutual hunt, is far better as ashared experience than is a game of cat-and-mouse.

Most importantly, your message reveals thatyou are not quite at peace with your decision to burn bridges. 

You say: “It sucks but it’s better than the alternative.”

 And what, exactly, is the alternative in yourmind?

I crave real, human connection. Vulnerabilityso deep that I can purely revel in someone’s love, acceptance, andunderstanding washing over me. I want breathtaking intimacy. 

The way I see it, this is the alternative. So being alone doesn’t seem all thatbetter to this alternative, in my mind. I was not put on this earth to live alone, y’know. I’m here to do great things.Preferably with someone worthy right by my side.

However, I completely relate to your point as well. Relationships can be distractions from time to time, and knowingthat they are over frees up energy, time, and space to do things for yourself. I’mstill learning how to be alone without experiencing the accompanying painfulache of loneliness. And how to do my own thing without necessarily be soselfish about it. 

I suppose I don’t regret the bridges I burned.I exercised a gentle sort of ruthlessness. At the end of the day, my lifechoices are the proof that I chose the right path. I just reaffirm where I amnow, and it is clearly far better than where I used to be. I am proud, happy,and glad for my accomplishments. I know why I’m capable of and who I’m strivingto be. That’s certainly a victory in and off itself.

But I must admit…my loneliness comes fromnot having someone to share all this with. To give myself to.

As twisted as this is, I confess that Ienjoyed giving myself-heart, mind, body, and soul-to my Narc because shewelcomed me with open arms. I’m not sure our reasons necessarily aligned at thetime, but it just felt so good tohave someone that I wanted to build a life with. Someone to come home to.Someone who knows me and doesn’t flinch away.

Let’s be honest: most people don’t care toknow someone and be known to that level of detail. Most people don’t care tosimply reply back to a simple “how are you?” Most people are terrified ofknowing and being known. It’s impossible not to fall in love, just a littlebit, with someone who not only cares to know but in the process of doing so,manages to become a companion and partner in the truest sense.

 I love her because she took my lonelinessaway, as only she can.

There’s much pain I still have when it comesto her. So I tell myself that burning that bridge was the best thing for bothof us. That she was a distraction and that I’m better off without her.

I’m certainly better off without her bullshitand abuse, that’s for sure. She’s better off without my emotional volatility,clinginess, anger, and possessiveness. We’ve removed each other from temptation’sand harm’s way.

I like to think we’ve both moved on fromtoxicity. I guess she’s found someone else, probably for the long term, whofulfills her in ways that I apparently could not.  I remind myself thatshe doesn’t miss me and that I don’t miss her, or that it’s only our connectionthat we miss. I tell myself I don’t crave that again.

I swear I won’t search for her. I won’t lookfor her, because then I might find her. And that is just..too much for me. Or worse, I find that after all, it’s really only me that is haunted by her, by us, and what we meant to each other. I have cravings I cannot fulfill without her. 

Sometimes I just can’t take the fact that we have to exist without each other. It drives me crazy (and I didn’t even think that was more possible than it already is).  I’m scared that if I search, I’ll find her…but she won’t find me.

Things are not the same anymore.Things have happened to us in the meantime. I don’t even know whether our liveshold a place for each other anymore.

I promise myself that I don’t want to knowwhat she’s doing or who she’s holding in her arms. I actively turn my thoughtsaway from ruminating about what might have been, should have been, could havebeen.

 I chose what was. I consciously made thedecision to burn a bridge, for my own damn good. I can live with that decision.I am a woman without regrets for the decisions I’ve made because they’ve shapedme into who I am today. They are part of the path I’m walking.

 I have no regrets. And if I had a choice, Iwould do it all over again.

I firmly believe that change is a good thing.The point of it is upheaval. I would not have the knowledge I do or be who I amtoday if it was not for the process of change.

The thing about a burned bridge is that it’simpossible to repair. It cannot he crossed ever again. So if you’re going toburn a bridge, you’d better make sure that you’re prepared to cross anotherbridge in the future. You’d better be strong enough to get burned throughoutthe process. You’d better ensure that you’ve come to terms with your reasoningand the consequences. And you’d better cross that bridge fully, instead of gettingburned along with it.

Maybe we’re all just searching for that bridgethat we won’t have to burn this time; that bridge we can cross together.

 I hope I’ve understood your message correctly.In any case, I’m glad that it’s helped me worked through a lot of my owninternal processes along the way. 

 Thank you for reaching out! 

#*Careless Whisper plays softly in the background* #may the bridges I burn light the way... #anon #q + a #textsfromtheborderline

[edream93]

Hi, thanks for writing my prompt about the Hook kid. I don't know why but I love read about them together and actually caring for each other. And thanks for the little huma on it, I love how Uma and Harry are always at least mentioned on each others prompts and CJ jealous of Uma always with her big bro was so cuteeee *_*

Hi anon!

I’m glad you liked what I did for your prompt! I actually didn’t even intend to put Uma in it (even just in mention) but I’m kind of using these recent prompts to build a background for the Hook siblings for “We’ll Light the Fuse” some of the stuff I might alter a bit and use in that story but I like doing these Hook kids prompts because it gives me practice with defining their characters and their relationships with each other. 

Like for Harriet, I’m starting to define her as the protector of the trio, she spent her whole life making sure Harry and CJ would be able to survive on their own. Though she’s not perfect (she did leave her siblings to suffer their father on their own for a few years) I hope it does come through in these prompts and eventually in the actual story that she does care for her siblings, she just also wants to find her own path, whether on or off the Isle. Also, despite her protectiveness of her siblings, Harriet is not above messing with them and ruffling a few feathers, especially Harry.

If you were somehow able to ask her for her truest wish: It would be for all those she considered her true family to be happy and safe sailing on a nice ship with her father preferably making a trip to old Davy Jones’s locker.

Harry we already know a bit of. Though I think Hook was a horrible father to all of the siblings in some way (forcing Harriet to meaner, tougher, ruthless and forcing CJ to be manipulative and selfish) Harry unfortunately got a lot of the physical and verbal abuse all because he was a born a boy and his mischievous personality reminded him all too much of a certain boy who would not grow up. So a lot of Harry’s life was trying to figure out what he was doing wrong to please his father and there is where the hook and even the over emphasis of his accent comes in (because we apparently actually get our accent from those in our peer group, like our friends, and not necessarily from our parents). If acting like himself makes his father angry, then why not act like his father? I think this causes a lot of trouble between him and Harriet sometimes because though Harriet is not afraid to use her father’s influence in order to get what she wants, she doesn’t want to be like him. Harriet wants to be a better pirate and thinks that their father is a has-been and that Harry should try to pave his own way. Harry obviously doesn’t listen to her, and tries to still please his father even though deep down he knows the man will never care about him. Thankfully, he has another stronger happier thought than receiving his father’s approval. I’ll give you a hint: She’s the captain, he’s the first mate.

If you were somehow able to ask him for his truest wish: It would simply be to good enough. If not good enough for his father, then definitely good enough for the girl he lov- is loyal to.

CJ as the youngest has a lot of pressure put on her. Some how, she wound up being their father’s favorite (probably because she’s not a boy and doesn’t look a thing like him - Captain Hook also has a lot of internal self-hatred for himself so that’s another reason why Harry still can’t seem to please him) and she also has these two siblings that in different ways have made a name for themselves on the Isle. Harriet is known as one of the fiercest pirate captains on the Isle (only really overshadowed by Uma) and Harry, though only a First Mate, has the charm and deathly impulse to either make someone swoon or sweat out of fear. Harry steps into the room and people move aside, never really sure what he’ll do. And CJ wants that. She wants to be a Captain and to be fierce and to be respected but she always manages to just be Harriet’s and Harry’s bratty little sister. It also doesn’t help that Harry, the sibling she’s closest too in age and who had been her only playmate starts hanging out more and more with this girl who at least to CJ, doesn’t seem special and has been publicly shown to be “weak”. CJ just doesn’t understand the fascination with Uma and doesn’t understand why Harry wouldn’t align himself with someone like Mal, who has the influence of her mother backing her up while everyone knows that Ursula works Uma like a dog. Also, unlike her siblings, CJ wants to get off the Isle and go on adventures and doesn’t understand how her siblings would hesitate to take an opportunity to get off the Isle.

If you were somehow able to ask her for her truest wish: It would be a life of never ending fun and adventure and fame, where people recognized her for who she is and not for who she’s related too.

Wow…that was a lot more than I was planning to write…but thanks again for sending the prompt! It’s really helped me with some character development that I hope to use later on.

#edream93 answers #descendants dreamcast #Hook siblings #harriet hook #harry hook #cj hook #calista jane hook #I just love them all so much #poc harriet hook #poc cj hook #zendaya #thomas doherty #hayley kiyoko

[devilryrevelry]

People need to realize that even the deepest soul connections don't entitle you to a relationship in that particular incarnation. You can have soulmates who have reincarnations where they are nothing to each other or even enemies.

I know what this is about, but I’m gunna talk mostly just about these particular words, because I don’t think people fully understand this. In retrospect, half way through writing the post, my psychotic ass probably isn’t going to help anyone understand anything, but I’m gunna finish this ramble anyways.

People agonize over what their purpose is. It’s one of those existential, soul-shaking questions that everyone deals with sooner or later, and it’s not one you can ever really be sure of the answer to, more likely than not. 

If you don’t believe in reincarnation or any of the things at play here, you’ll likely only look inward for the answers. When you believe your reiterating yourself over time, or you’re a part of a greater entity, there’s no longer a question of if you even have a purpose. There’s no real pondering if your life has meaning, you just have to figure out what the hell it is. And when you consider that you’re not the only iteration of an entity on earth at the time, when you may not be the only iteration of even yourself at one time, and the same is true for everyone else, you have to come to terms with the fact that your own path won’t always cross with those it’s crossed before in this life time.

In fact, you can spend an entire lifetime dedicated to the sole purpose of loathing someone you love for the sake of context. It’s actually probably pretty healthy to do if you think of yourself as the sum of all you’ve ever been. Sometimes the purpose of life is suffering. 

No matter what, though, your purpose is defined by choices made by and around you. Assuming you align with someone else might be critical to what you need to get done, but trying to seize a relationship with someone and manipulate them will rarely line up with what you’d like to happen.

#Anonymous

[alltheselights]

How did you decide what to major in in college? I'm in my first year in college and I don't really know what I want to do exactly. I'm a PR major right now because I got interested in how publicists market companies/people and how public images work and can shift people's perceptions-part of the reason why I like this fandom, lol. But now I'm kind of doubting my decision. I just don't really know. I like to write and research and analyze so I thought journalism might be good, but a lot of (1+)

(+) say that it’s a dying profession, and ofc I want to get a stable job. So I like things along that vein. I’ve even thought about majoring in psychology and going on and becoming a mental health counselor, but I don’t think I’m up for that much school plus the money. Do you have any advice Emma?

Sorry, this is a super long answer, so I put it under the cut.

Ahhh yes, the major decision is a tough one. I actually entered college convinced that I would be a psychology major because I’d taken a psychology class in high school and loved it, but upon taking a psychology class my first semester of college, I quickly realized that wasn’t for me at all. Toward the end of my first semester, I was chatting with a group of friends about how I really had no fucking idea what to major in, and that’s when one of my friends said to me “well, you’re obsessed with politics, so why don’t you try Political Science?” Her brother was a Poli Sci major so she knew quite a bit about it, but I had never even considered that major before - I’m not sure I’d even heard the term “Political Science” before entering college, actually. Once she said that though, I was like….damn, why aren’t I a Poli Sci major? I never wanted to be a politician, but that major isn’t just for politicians, it’s for anyone even remotely involved in politics, and once I discovered that, I decided to change my major to it on a whim, knowing I could change it later if I needed., I ended up loving all my classes, and it was the best decision I made during my college career. I declared Women & Gender Studies as my second major about a year later because I’d loved a few classes I’d taken as electives (bonus: a lot of them related to politics) and because at least at my university, most Women & Gender Studies majors had it as their second major rather than their first major, which meant it was a very flexible course schedule and easy to manage. And I ended up choosing my second major, Political Communication, my junior year because I’d found my Political Communication-related classes to be the most fascinating of any of the other Political Science classes.

So that’s my story, which really was quite easy mainly out of luck more than anything else. As far as advice goes, my first piece of advice would be to try taking electives related to any majors you’re considering so you can get a bit of a taste for everything and narrow down the list of what you enjoy and what you’re considering. It’s easy to say “I’m interested in this, so I should maybe major in this” - that’s what I did with Psychology - but once you start actually taking classes, you start to get a real understanding of what the skills or topics you enjoy so much are actually like in practice in a particular field, so that can sometimes make it easy to cross something off your list.

I do want to address two things you mentioned. Firstly, the dying profession thing. I totally understand wanting a stable job - that’s obviously of critical importance - but it’s also important to keep in mind that some career paths, including journalism, are not so much “dying” as they are just “changing.” Print journalism is struggling, of course, but there are a lot of online options now, and keep in mind that journalism is still as important to society as ever. If you work hard and really excel in a field like that, you’ll probably be okay getting a job. Secondly, the school and money thing. I’m not saying to definitely go with Psychology or any major that will require further school after your bachelor’s degree, but I do want to say that if it’s something you’re truly interested in and committed to, you probably won’t end up minding having to do more school later on, even if it seems overwhelming at the moment. Also, for many PhD and Master’s programs, as long as you got good grades, you can get much better scholarships and other financial aid than you were able to get for undergrad. I have student loans from undergrad, but when I went to get my Master’s, my university paid ME to attend. So that’s just something to keep in mind.

If you want to be super practical about it, one thing you might want to do is go down the list of majors at your school, jot down all the ones you could see yourself doing, and then figure out what careers are most relevant to that major, (sometimes, a few of the options are not what you’d expect), how popular are those careers (meaning how likely is it that you’ll be able to get a job), how much money do people in those careers make, and so on. Once you have a list and are able to compare, it might be easier for you to make a decision that way. For me, my decision for a major was a complete gut decision, and I didn’t end up regretting it at all, but I realize that some people prefer to really analyze the options, so if you think that will work for you, definitely try it out and see if you can make a good informed decision about what to study that way.

The last thing I’ll say is this - try not to sweat it too too much. For some jobs, yes, they are looking for people who majored in a particular field, but for a lot of jobs, they just want someone who has a degree, which means even if you continue with PR and don’t want to be a PR person, you’ll still be able to find a job - maybe in a somewhat relevant field, and maybe in something different where they don’t care so much about what you studied, they just want you to have a good education. (And by the way, with PR at least, it’s relevant in basically every field these days in one way or another, so that’s a huge added bonus). It’s ideal that you pick a major that will later help you on your career path, but you’re not 100% tied down to it. If you’re a bit uncertain, it’s particularly helpful to take electives and choose internships that let you put your hands in a few different pots so you can get a variety of skills that will help you in a future career - even if that career isn’t 100% aligned with what you studied. Just as a brief anecdote - my boyfriend in college studied elementary ed, and upon reaching our senior year, he was like…..shit, I don’t want this. He ended up doing online training for computer tech when he graduated from college and he now works with computers. Obviously what he did was kinda a huge waste of the money his parents spent on undergrad and I’m not saying it was the wisest decision, BUT my point is that you will always have options, and no matter what you end up choosing, it will be okay in the end.

I hope this advice helped somewhat, bub! Good luck.

#asks

[mypunkpansexualtwin]

That oc character profile thing why not your Ryder twins? If you don't want to do them then two of your choice.

Sounds good! I’ve been having a lot of fun with Logan but honestly I didn’t do a lot of thinking on Ethan until I’d beaten the game, so bear with me.

-Full Name: Logan Dana Ryder-Gender and Sexuality: Agender, lesbian-Pronouns: They/them/theirs-Species/Ethnicity: Human, mixed (Irish, Brazilian)-Birthplace and Birthday: The Citadel, July 23, 2163-Guilty Pleasures: Karaoke, team betting pools, old school Disney kids movies. (25 credits to anyone who can get through the opening of ‘Up’ without crying.)-Phobias: Falling, suffocating, flying in storms, bugs (those first three are new)-What They’d Be Famous For: (Besides the whole pathfinder thing?) Almost went drink for drink with a krogan 3 times their size.-What They’d Get Arrested For: The subsequent bar fight.-OC You Ship Them With: Ursa Cadash-Favorite Movie/Book Genre: Musicals and historical fiction. (Given all that happens, “Wait For It” is pretty high on the ‘most replayed songs’ playlist.)-Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliches: The Chosen One trope. Someone once pointed out that they align with the main points of that trope really well. Logan pointed out that they’ve also died three times, so it still sucks. In fact it sucks more now that they’ve lived it.-Talents and/or Powers: skilled with biotic abilities, good at cooking (good with fire in general), 3 ½ octave vocal range, terrible sense of humor, the uncanny ability to seem bigger than they are (which is handy when you’re 5'1" and built like Tinkerbell)-Why Someone Might Love Them: They’re funny, honest, friendly, and kindhearted almost to a fault. Not to mention fiercely loyal and again a damn good cook.-Why Someone Might Hate Them: They had to make some hard choices as Pathfinder that a lot of folks didn’t like, plus they’re associated with the Nexus and that’s an immediate strike for a lot of people. Not to mention that terrible sense of humor is kind of a coping mechanism and they’ve said some fairly… inappropriate stuff to keep from flipping out.-How They Change: They go from nervous kid more comfortable following someone else’s lead to capable badass leader ready to cut a path for all the people back home. Logan always had the skill for it, but now they have the experience and confidence in themself to know they can get shit done.-Why You Love Them: Much like every self-insert that decided to stick around as a permanent oc, Logan has turned into someone a lot more interesting than they started out as. Not to mention I love how Ryder feels like the Hawke to Shepard’s Warden, if that makes any sense.

-Full Name: Ethan Scott Ryder-Gender and Sexuality: Male, pansexual-Pronouns: he/him/his-Species/Ethnicity: human, mixed (Irish/Brazilian)-Birthplace and Birthday: The Citadel, July 23, 2163-Guilty Pleasures: Karaoke (he and Logan do a fantastic Under Pressure), dating sims, and coloring books with curse words-Phobias: Bugs, electrocution, vehicle crashes-What They’d Be Famous For: Discovering the first pun that works across at least one language from all Milky Way races as well as Shelesh.-What They’d Get Arrested For: Hacking a database he shouldn’t have. And not for the first time.-OC You Ship Them With: Nisha Wallace-Favorite Movie/Book Genre: Buddy Cop and High Fantasy-Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliches: “Still in the competition on a technicality.” It’s lazy, predictable, and frankly he’s more interested in the team that would have moved on if they hadn’t messed up.-Talents and/or Powers: Has a knack for languages (spoken and programming), biotic abilities on par with Logan’s, and good at improvising tactics on the fly (as opposed to his sibling’s “hit it ‘til it quits moving and then hit it again” approach.-Why Someone Might Love Them: Who doesn’t love a 6'2" dorkasaurus capable of hacking Avina so she only tells knock knock jokes? -Why Someone Might Hate Them: He can come across as abrasive and obnoxious and sometimes gets defensive when called out on it.-How They Change: He goes from being in a coma from not being in a coma? Like I said, I haven’t thought as much on him.-Why You Love Them: He’s just as much of a dork and sarcastic goddamn smartass as his older sibling.

Another fun fact about the twins! You know how when you’re a kid you have a specific historical period you’re way into? When they were in 1st grade Logan was super into the Krogan Rebellions (and was hyped to find out that Drack is Warlord friggin’ Shiagur’s son) and that whole period of time.

Ethan was intrigued by the early 21st century phenomenon known as “Florida Man”.

#logan ryder #ethan ryder #i didn't even rename him until after i beat the game #also in canon mom actually is from brazil #i took liberties with dad though