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soldier-poet-king · 1 year
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My boss stop talking about losing weight for her son's wedding challenge
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liquidstar · 14 days
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my wrist pain is starting to get really bad again, i hope it wont be a longterm issue like it was back in 2020ish. i know how to deal with it better now but that was genuinely a really sucky time bc on top of Everything Else going on i couldnt draw which is just. SAD! and also its annoying bc i literally get so bored when i cant like move my hands
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opens-up-4-nobody · 5 months
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#tfw u spend the day being catastrophically depressed then u remember how kush1na uzumak1 is treated by the plot of#narut0 and u get so fucking angry that u stop thinking abt how miserable u r for 2hrs as u furiously draw out an idea#it makes me so fucking mad. but like in a way that fun bc its like who cares its not that serious#and when i get depressed i just like. i dont give a fuck abt anything. there is a film between me and everything and nothing can touch me#except apparently my fucking insane feelings about narut0. like im genuinely so embarrassing when ppl irl make the mistake of talking abt#narut0 to me irl. like i get SO excited. i move my arms a lot and stamp my feet and just get real enthusiastic and my voice goes all weird#and i cant get my thoughts straight bc i have so so so much to say. which is like fine. its just embarrassing to me personally#bc i kno i tent to stay on the subjects im interested in for way longer than most ppl would probably enjoy#and after i watched star trek into darkness in hs i was like at my peak star trek phase and i was talking a mile a minute#and then my sister was like: y is your voice all weird? and it was like she slapped me in the face. slapped me thru time. u bitch 😭#this is y im not allowed to enjoy things 😭 also bc im annoying abt it. ugh. anyway. point is i got so mad abt the misogyny of kishimoto#that i forgot how fucking awful i was feeling for a minute. so thank u for hating women so much u fucking bastard lol#when will i post the idea im planning? who tf knows. its gonna take. well idk how long itll take#unrelated
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Update on the uni sitch their website fucking sucks so I filles out the form online like 4 times and everytime I tried to pay it took me back to the beginning and so I called the uni office, and the most unprofessional person ever told me to "just wait for a while, maybe it'll fix itself"
So I am now watching anime and cursing whoever set up their website for them
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oatbugs · 1 year
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eye pain is the WORST kind . worse than teeth even maybe
#esp when u cant rub ur eyes or itll maoe things worse#typing this w my eyes closed i hope it is comprehensible#anyway whwt the FUCK i am in so much pain from one eye only and its like . im aftaid#the flap they made during frmto lasik has moved or smthb. and itll wont end#bc whenever i open my eyes/blink iy is painful#resolved to do that very rarely . anyway eave me x . avcording to my doctor/surgeon i actually had#a scar that was imperceptible initially on each eye and thats why thos whole thing has been so#excruciatingly painful . like apparently ur notnsupposed to rly feel anythiny in femto lasik but it was#literally the worst pain i have ever felt in my whole life (i have a rly high pain tolerebce due to reasons);#anyway i have a feeling this may be due to the wounds/scars too idk...#also i had fat grafting to fill in my under eyes and like . it was suchba slight procedure and was done when i was under#anaesthesia for another procedure...that i forgot abt it. bc i dont rly touch my under eyes. anyway during lasik they#use this device which puts pressure around ur eye sockets which ahould have been fine#but it was putting a lot of pressure on a newly grafted area of my face and i was like . oh i see ! i want to scream !!!!!#but i couldnt say anything bc it was cutting a hole in my eyes and i was like yeah talking rn is a bad idea. but afterwards the nurse was#like . you look like you are literally going to pass out oh my god are you ok ?? and i told her abt the under eye thing and she was like.#YOUBSHOULD HAVE SAID THAT EARLIER like yeah ik im sorry 😭#personal#anyway lol its fine i just want to rub my left eye sooooo bad it is so . annoying /painful UGH
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Ypu know whwn you uh are in a weird panicky state (acute stress apparently) and you alternate vetween that and dissociating and you lose track of reality and overcompensate and undercompensate and want to fucking throe a grenade at your head
#and you were fine then youre hyperventilating then youre chilling then yojre crying then youre like#why am i here i have been through this at home and lived then you think of being home rn and want to violently hurl and kys#setting be lkke#and then he doesnt respojd and you feel like youve been super annoying and weak and emotional lately#i am frustrated in n my inability to communicate my actual thoughts#sometimes its bc theyre unwordifiable#sometimes ots bc i start w a half baked sentencw ik is wrong but th en i have to run w it and change it as i go or ill cone across a fool#but i come axross a fool anyway bc i just lose traxk of the#fucking fuck fuck fuck fuvk fyck#im going to ban myself from my phone tomorrow i cant keep typunf retard ed rants bc it makes me feel more insanw and angry at myself#for aforemebtioned reason of#i cant put my brain into words and i cant comprehend it in my head#but maybe itll be easier to if i try to not write it out and just think#but i like organising things and um thinking too hard in too much depth always ends w me crying or pissed off so#will have to acceot thst and just ball#in the lesst ick way it is nice? veing here bc like i said setting tgere is nonway incould (easily( kms so im less stressed#and i literally get to sit here in a plain room with 100 percebt cotton blankets which r my favourite thig right now and be Alone#nobody can reach me here#i fuvking detest everyone#i miss * so much#i miss *#i wanna cut but the plastic knife i finessed from dinner sint do much#smuggled in m stig this time w
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minimoefoe · 1 year
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my mum got me a treadmill and we put it up today and I realised storing it in my room is gonna be such a pain like there's nowhere for it to go when it's not being used that's not really annoying 😭
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etoilesbienne · 8 months
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im going to be a lil ship hater for a moment but itll be a readmore so dw
i ammmm so not on the 4h bandwagon. first of all dont see the chemistry it does not a thing for me second of all it feels a little forced? like i feel so goddamn unsatisfied about the fight immediately resolving with a date like that. it was so anticlimactic... like sure the date was funny but it was like why are we doing this? what happened to the fun arc about revolting. ive been so fucking excited for a revolt arc !!! it had headway!
frankly in general im beginning to outright despise 95% of 4h fanwork because so much of it does not care about bbh as a character. like i know most people do not care about bbh outside of people who watch him directly but do you know how frustrating it is to have a really funny stubborn asshole of guy whos whole deal is that hes really sick of how people aren't treating him like a person get flattened into this lame obsessed with forever writing
i dont get mad at fandom like this usually i just complain about being vaguely annoyed!!!! but like!!!! im actually mad mad for once!!! i also dont fucking like this perception bbh fans are the root cause of all the drama when there's frankly only bbh fans collective as a large group on tumblr. that shit does not exist on twitter in NEARLY the same capacity. nor do i get why bbh fans aren't allowed to complain about people taking out shit on him or refusing to watch his povs (& then getting mad at his character for a completely understandable character move). like sue me! we all said at the start of the server everyone gets to be a main character we won't let dsmp happen again with people being relegated to side characters. And like. No we did do that. That happened again.
^ anyway before anything is said NO CC DESERVES HARASSMENT THIS IS JUST MY PERSONAL ISSUES IVE BEEN SEEING LATELY. also no hate to anyone who likes 4h if u like it u like it that's fine. i just don't. its a personal opinion.
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[ texts Rafayel ]
omggg that's cause I'm scared! It's your career.
Anyways, the most shocking thing is that you are not shocked or annoyed?
Are you thinking of breaking up with me?!
You can't!! I'll start doing all that vodo? Vudu? Whatever that is called on you!
I'm sorry babyyyy please :(
I didn't mean to do that, also here's the picture of the mess i created.
[ sends image ]
ONG then when are you coming home when will you make that painting what if thomas get to know oh god oh god
Come back home soon, my angel
Kids miss you >.<
- 🌷
did you think i was going to be upset?
its a painting
it didnt seem complete to me but i wasnt sure what was missing
the paintings already sold though
so maybe there might be some issue
nah you see the person who bought it doesnt even know the final product
dun worry baby im not breaking up with you
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it looks perfect actually
just what the painting needed
dun worry thomas wont know because even he hasnt seen the painting
itll be fine baby
wait for me
im heading back now
🌊 glub glub glub
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daenystheedreamer · 9 months
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omaegorverse au stuff its daenys marrying into the starks and having the worst fucking time of her life with her gay misogyinst husband who hates her and her problematic homophobic mother in law ^_^
anyway so in omaegorverse walton and alaric did a rebellion and got absolutely FUCKED like fully dead and burned up rip alaric stark sorry u couldnt befriend alysanne 😭 its canon that torrhen's sons and the early targ-era starks HATED the targs. i think if maegor omegafied his nephew and took him to wife theyd consider that the last straw. plus the old gods are whispering in their ear or something ^_^ there’s also a mercenary company in essos called the company of the rose i thought that was SO fun so they go back to westeros to fight in the rebellion :3
anyway viserys is crazy at this point cos he’s had three forced childbirths and people keep dying and its his fault (its maegor its all maegor. of course its maegor's fault but maegor's like um well maybe if u werent a whore they might have lived 🙄) so he begs maegor to end the rebellion peacefully. plus if they blast the starks the north will HATE them. maegor is like fuck that noise and viserys goes well ok guess ill kill myself and the kids then. so maegor's like fuck ok fine 🙄 gods youre so dramatic women are so annoying -_- nudges his squire goes heh the wife amirite always nagging and bitching!!
viserys is deeply traumatised and only halfway in reality. he arranges a marriage between daenys to walton+alaric's brother for peace and hes like itll be ok cos youll be far away from maegor. you just have to be a nice demure wife and have babies like look how happy that made me!! itll be fine also maegor will 100% make you the prize in one of his fckn tourneys if u stay unmarried for much longer O_O. and daenys is all well the angels are telling me to murder-suicide maegor and im having gay thoughts about aunt rhaena again so i guess running away from kings landing  is a good idea (kings landing is kind of alive in this it kind of tortures the targs).
it is not! she marries the new lord stark (his name is cregard:3) and he's DEEPLY targphobic. his mother was the second wife of brandon the boastful, making walton and alaric his elder half-brothers. his mother is also a bolton! her name's barba bolton she's crazy! she and brandon the boastful married as a covert bolton-stark alliance against the targs in preparation for possible anti-targ rebellions… the stark family consists of barba + her four kids: myranda bolton, cregard, lysara mormont and sybelle dustin. the starks are very weird rn cos half of them died and the other half are hated by the north. the daughters are all married off and do a lot of diplomacy, so its just barba and cregard in winterfell. boymum and her mummy’s boy that’s so normal!!!
barba has had the revolution burned out of her thanks to her husband and stepsons getting burned to death at the gates of winterfell. she couldnt intern their bones either because balerion fckn ATE them. she agrees to the marriage because there’s no way she can’t... also because the political situation in the north is very tense. everyone is mad that the rebellion failed and that their sons died, and they start a conspiracy that barba had sabotaged the rebellion for bolton power. barba had refused to let her own son fight, despite him being fifteen (which is war age for sure) and they think this was her being cunning. they think she had conspired with maegor and his catamite WHORE into letting her and her children live. and she hates the northern houses back cos she gritted her teeth swallowed her pride and surrendered to save THEM!! so if she doesn’t want some kind of usurpation she needs the backing of the targs. plus this princess has a dragon…
ALSO it was viserys the catamite FREAK who specifically intervened and begged maegor's mercy which the northerners all see as a slight on their honour. barba is also super pissy about it :3 homophobic QUEEN! on paper it is such an honour to wed a targ princess but everyone thinks the mpreg babies are abominations, the starks especially. but they cant say no since maegor mercifully didnt blow them all up.
cregard's character is very stoic and angry. he's got that stark iciness + honour/justice, but he's also got the stark wildness!! he's 14 years older than daenys (30 and 16 at marriage ew) and he sees their marriage as a transaction and security for the north. he was fifteen during the rebellion and hates his mother for locking him in winterfell. considers this an evil bitch act of emasculation but he’s also an absolute mommy’s boy. he's very classically sexist like Well a wife's job is to support her husband and give him heirs. i will give her whatever she wants materially but emotionally she is an object she is not a person. if that makes sense :3
daenys is very shy and autistic so barba thinks she is weak and will never be a good lady of winterfell she isnt Hard and Stoic enough. cregard thinks she's an airhead freak but treats her with that sort of chauvinistic chivalry. like he treats her decently enough he doesnt beat her but also her duty is to give him sons. cregard does NOT do the nedcat sept because the optics of that are SO bad. as she has married into the family he expects her to convert since well she's a northerner stark now. not that anyone is treating her like that... anyway she mostly spends her days with the horses in the stables, in the glass gardens or with her dragon:3
and YES she has a dragon and brought it north. it is very small the runt of the litter. it is from dreamfyre's clutch and daenys named her dreamsweet and calls her sweetling. the starks are very annoyed by the dragon because they were hoping for a big dragon who they could use as leverage. instead they get a runt. just like daenys :) she doesn't ride dreamsweet much, though dreamsweet is large enough to ride. cregard DOES have a large stable made for the dragon which also stunts the dragons growth but they dont know that. everyone steers clear of it and daenys turns it into her special safe place :) she paints it all pretty and uses it as a sept. its round and maybe the size of a smallish school gymnasium. it has a conical roof with a large skylight, though chains are kept over the opening. dreamsweet is allowed ONE outing a month...
not getting into the marital bed situation because sad and also thats not fun and i do this au for fun. but i guess picture the handmaid's tale if youve ever read the book :( barba is there and its all mechanical and emotionless. cregard thinks his wife is an abomination + is sexistly gay. he is nawt getting anything out of this. actually havent really thought about the gay thing all too much i just did that cos i thought it was funny tbh. maybe he’s got medieval rentboys or something.maybe he’s got a tumultuous homoerotic situationship with one of the northern lords. You decide :3 i think barba is like your vices are disgusting and dishonour house stark. use your wiles to seduce that effette lord manderly into supporting the starks again.
daenys and barba are very weird cos daenys has never had an actual mother before. barba’s like late forties when daenys marries cregard. they’re the only women in winterfell and daenys outranks her and daenys is a fucked up abomination and barba is one of those insane boymoms whos like I am the most important woman in my son’s life. i would like it if she slowly grew to respect daenys and they could have a normal mother-daughter relationship but. I doubt that. i think daenys is terrified of her and barba hates her but theyre also forced to interact, forced into the most intimate relationship women can have!! motherhood ahh!! god this post is too long. okay my final message. goodbye<3
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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months
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#head instructor to the TAs in the lab section i TA for: how r u guys feeling abt the workload?#me who hasnt graded anything since week 1 and spent an hr that morning filling out a patient safety plan: 🙃#listen. we r experiencing symptoms that make us shitty at our job. which is not helpful for a positive outlook#i was also experiencing horrible cramps at the time bc i lost my ibuprofen and 2 days ago i stopped the birth control in a desperate effort#to stop feeling terrible. but in this moment i feel alright. its wild to go from drastically unhappy to like lol wtf was that? anyway stop#being a bby loser. for no obvious reason. im gonna start the birth control again to see if i get depressed again or if that was just me lol#i dont think my therapist understands the depth of my executive functioning issues tho. bc im a grad student and can meet deadlines. like#let me tell u im a fucking disaster abt starting things. i will go back and forth and get nothing done forever. or i do things halfway and#make everything 30 times more difficult later bc no one else understands how my brain works#ah well. itll b fine. sometimes i just get freaked out that i wanna b better and i dont kno how to do that. so i spiral in despair a lil#ill b fine. im good at catching myself before i get too out of control. annoyingly tho i am not currently beating the bip0lar allagations#bc whatever tf is wrong with me i do probably fit the diagnostic criteria for bip0lar 2. i dont kno y that freaks me out so much. i guess#its bc it feels like something i cant just make better thru force of will and i grew up in a home that was very obsessively#health conscious to the point my dad gets anxious abt taking a single ibuprofen. so like ive been conditioned to get freaked out by#medication. literally my grandma will call me and tell me to b suspicious of doctors and to not take medicine unless absolutely necessary.#like lady u r the genetic reason i have 0cd shut the fuck up. also it feels like something that would more negatively affect how ppl think#of u than saying oh yea i get depressed or i have anxiety. like the connotation feels worse im used to just telling ppl whatever tf#my problem is. so the idea of holding something back feels weird. which annoys me bc i dont think there should b so much of a stigma. its#bullshit. anyway idk. im tired. i was trying to think of a comfort tv show with my therapist and all i could think was the terror#when im depressed i wanna watch those English mother fuckers suffer and die. i just lov that show so much. harry g00dsir my beloved. the#most me coded character to ever exist#unrelated
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ot3 · 1 year
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HELP???? like.. "hey wtf i blocked ur ass lol... anyways i reblogged ur post im so silly"
in general i find people who block me still reblogging my posts pretty annoying because like i can respect that someone doesnt want me interacting with them online at all, that's totally fine. but you'd think in that circumstance it'd be common politeness to extend the courtesy the other direction. but like not the end of the world because for the most part i dont realize if a given person in my notifs have me blocked. but to just like, say it where itll come up in my activity feed???? cmon dude....
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nightfallsystem · 1 year
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hi! i just wanted to let y’all know that i’m a cane user who has fibromyalgia, disautonomia, some form of hypermobility disorder (doctors literally were like ‘idk man it’s disordered hypermobility but fuck if we know the disorder) that causes constant pain in my knees, and i think that if y’all want or need a cane y’all should get one!! it really improved my pain when i started walking with a cane, and seeing other people in public using a cane makes me feel safer and less self conscious.
also, people don’t really stare much tbh, plus i’ve only gotten one comment about it from a little kid asking their mom why i was using a cane when i’m a young adult / not 90 years old lmao and the kid was quiet about it and wasn’t rude or anything. I will say that medical professionals can be kind of annoying if they see you(&) using a cane, i had a nurse hover over me the entire time she took my weight and height because she was convinced that me letting go of my cane for 4 seconds would kill me or something ig?? but other than that honestly its been fine. obviously your(&) mileage may vary depending on various factors, especially because i dress like a literal clown at all times (worm on a string earrings my beloved,,,) so i get stared at anyways and just didn’t notice an uptick in staring.
good luck on the cane quest !
oh thx!!! this rlly helps ^_^
im sure itll be fine. plus extra stuff to put fun stickers onnnn :P
i mean if i use my own logic on myself then if its not hurting anyone and in this case if it helps then who caresss...
tysm !!! :D
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chap 5 review i finally have time lets go i hate school:
tommy learning asl just to fuck with wilbur lmao
also when wilbur stepped up for tommy after he couldnt speak was awesoem i love crimeboys
its so interesting the relarionship between tommy and his old coach bc its such a complicated mess that really fucked tommy up but it hurts more relaizing that the entire public saw it (or parts of it) too and nto saying anything until his mom was lkke hey thats gfucked up loike the public knew that old cheif only cared abt racing while phil cares abt tommmy
crimeboys are becoming friends <3
also damn wilburs accident was pretyy severe.
im kinda excited for when the new team figures out abt tomys trauma and insecurites (if they do lol)
also imagine walking into a pillow fight. phil be like "alright then"
also i like all th e side characters too especaillh purpled and aims
chapter 6 too bc yeah:
beach beach beach
also wtf why is wil tht good. he has no right.
toomy stop hating on urself phil cares abt u
give wil false hope lmao ope theere he is right thwre
stop. tommy stop. stop hating on urself being deaf is fine phil isnt gonna hate u anyway how u constanty compare everything to old cheif is very important bc it shows how its different
hes being kidnapped lets go i love beach scene beach (i actually ahve horrible memories from florida beaches we went at the wrong time of year)
george founder is an absolutely badass name good job on that one
dream isnt the old cheif relally???? im genuienly surprised but thats cool. nice to actually see him in a dsmp fic where hes actually chill. also sapnap i forgot he cuased the accident that must be awkward af (tommy stop blaming urself)
yeah no u show his lack of self confidence/esteem perfectly u take so many W
oh my god 🦀 makes an appearance hes such a celebrity
wait fuck all my brain proccessed was crab legs its a hermitcrab
mother of twitch prime. that is a tommy thing to say
yeah take em aids off that must be annoying as hell
is it just me or do i sense that tommy isnt accepting that hes HOH now hmm :/ | yeah losing smth as important as a sense must be scary if u've had it for so long
istg is wil gonna bully him into- and he did (also was it him 🦀? is he in the full throttle?)
hes learning asl im so happy oh shit not them waves i once got rolled by waves its scary af
oh no old cheif angst again ahh. and wil being concerned ahh this will be character development. this is crucial scene alret. oh they laughing awwwww oh he smile a /gen smile !!!!!!!!!1 crimeboys brainrotting full throttle version commence omg he likes wil now- ope nvm
"theyre different from his old crew. all of them are" YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
hes not that worried in sim. anymore abt being good
oh no his left ear but itll be ok
"hen slips away to his room to ruminate on the fact that never—not in his whole racing career—has he felt so loved by his team as he does now. He’s not worth it. He’s a fuck up, a failure, and he’s going to disappoint them.  He doesn’t want it to end." i will live for the moment when he fucks up. its gonna be so great for character development
ok this chap. is very long so im splitting to parts byeeee sorry this took so long school sucks :( but full throttle does not :)
Ahhh thank you!!!!!
Yeah, I don’t think Tommy really realized how much the public knew until that interview with Wilbur, either. The public saw and knew (to a certain extent) that something was wrong or “off” about Tommy and his chief’s partnership for a long time, but no one ever tried to step in and ask about it, or tell him that he should leave him and find a new chief, or say anything at all on Tommy’s behalf… Writing that part hurt.
Idk how far you’ve gotten by the time this response comes (lol sorry it took so long. University stole my soul for a little while), but… the moment he “fucks up” will definitely be coming 👀
Thank you for the message!!! I giggled at the hermit crab😂
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covenscribe · 7 months
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Anyways not diving into it Im just annoyed when any critique is framed as "This character wouldnt love you" because wanting to be loved is fine, and also thats not the only reason people have for liking a character. Block people who engage with character content you dont like and refuse to support and itll make your life better.
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i had an ok day i went to a fair thing with my mom and i got some really pretty yarn for a couple projects and yesterday i went to ikea and got one of those glass cabinets and i have all the stuff to make it into a greenhouse so i was cleaning today to make sure there would be room for it and found that my cat had peed in a spot that was behind something and the carpet was like kind of mildewy so that sucks. i put it outside to wash it and it’s wool so itll be fine just annoying bc the rug was under some stuff that i had to move and now i’ll have to move them back when the rug is clean which will probably take a bit bc it needs to dry well whatever. anyways im gonna clean for a little longer and then go beddy byee
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