#anywhere in PA

[onlyherefortheshowmances]

TW/CW: Suicidal ideation (without intent currently).

TL/DR:  I am trying to find a doctor anywhere in the state of Pennsylvania that accepts UPMC for You (medicaid) and is willing to at least try solve to my medical mystery. Preferably a family doctor with connections to a rheumatologist and possibly neurology and/or pain management. One that will actually listen and not give up and actually care that I'm in acute pain. I feel like my own body is trying to kill me. I have for a month or more. 

I want every single blood test you can do on a person. Every possible imaging study you can do. A sleep study. Another Holter monitor. LITERRALLY EVERYTHING because I am so tired of 'try this, try this' I want to know for sure exactly what is causing this.

At this point I just need a single doctor to either tell me I'm dying (which is what it feels like is happening) or one to tell me what's actually wrong and causing all this and how we can actually treat it while dealing with the immediate pain.

I'm tired of going to ERs every week. I'm tired of doctor's who are more afraid of the DEA than they are of their patient's dying. Because I don't want to wake up with this pain tomorrow morning. I cannot live life like this. 

This pain and the fact that no one in the medical field (other than my PT) seems to care about it at all. This pain that my current PCP respond to "I want someone to actually figure out what's wrong with me." by saying "We don't know." as if it is not literally her job to figure that out. I went through the entire appointment saying "What about the pain I'm in right now?" And all that happened was she took me off Lyrica which had side effects I couldn't deal with and prescribed Savella instead and told me to come back in a week once I titrate up to the correct dosage. What about that week? I don't have enough meds from the ER to last until next Tuesday ma'am. I was there on Saturday and they are legally only allowed to prescribe 3 days work of narcotics. He did give me 10 days worth of flexeril for which I'm grateful, but that on its own isn't enough, and my PCP won't give me anything at all. I literally told her my previous family doc only checked my TSH level not T3 or T4 (thyroid hormones). Did she order the additional tests? Has she ordered any tests at all in fact? NO. And she keeps saying insomnia when I tell her I have to take the oxy and flexeril to be able to sleep through the night. THAT'S NOT INSOMNIA. THAT IS ME BEING IN SO MUCH PAIN THAT I CAN'T SLEEP. At my appointment today I told her that almost every morning when I wake up in excruciating pain, I wish I wouldn’t’ve woken up at all; that death feels like a better option and that that thought scared me as someone with a history of suicidal ideation and attempts, and she literally did not care an ounce.

My Rheumatologist keeps trying to give me prednisone which DOES NOT WORK! And says take 2 Aleve twice a day. If Aleve worked for my pain do you think I would have been to the emergency room FOUR times since March 16th? I wouldn't have requested to see you sooner if Aleve did anything.

Not one person has cared about my sudden onset fatigue spells that keep getting more frequent to the point I'm hesitant to drive very far unless absolutely necessary because one of these times I'm gonna actually pass out. That's probably what it'll take for the medical professionals to care. Me falling asleep while driving. I think this may be POTS, because I also get random bouts of 'benign' tachycardia at the most random times.

They just keep slapping labels on things instead of just actually checking or even asking me half the time. I'm about 80% sure I have EDS, but apparently the closest person that will even test let alone diagnose someone over the age of 18 is in Philadelphia and I'd need a referral from my Rheumatologist to see that person.

#pennsylvania #medicaid #medical care #help #doctors #Rheumatoid Arthritis #Fibromyalgia #osteoarthritis #POTS #EDS #so tired #just so so tired #lancaster pa #philadelphia #pittsburgh #harrisburg #anywhere in PA #I do not care how far the drive is

[puppyeared]

ouppys and kibbys

#finally got around to designing lucky and auggies ma and pa ^_^ #parhelion means sun dog and is a light refraction phenomenon. eudora is the name of an ocean nereid hence the rain motif #it was hard balancing some of the parents traits so they show up somewhat evenly but- auggie inherited the flecks in eudoras hair #instead of raindrops she has stars. also takes after her with brown hair and cat ears #although its only brown until she swallows the star which changes her hair to pink and white. vincent also inherits that #but she got her dads blue eyes and lighter skin tone!! #lucky has a darker shade of parhelions hair + dog ears and tail but inherited eudoras brown eyes and darker skin #the green part is supposed to resemble a four leaf clover to mirror auggies star shaped bangs but he kinda looks like a carrot lol #very very happy with how these turned out!!! #i havent put this anywhere bc its not solid but if i had to give them a last name it would probably be byrd. the byrd family #my art #myart #my oc #oc #augusta #lucky #parhelion #eudora #eye contact #staring

[tanglepelt]

Dp x dc idea 163

Danny learns while being held by the Giw that he can in fact make portals. For whatever reason he can call the portal even with anti ecto cuffs. They start out small and unstable. Disappearing with the blink of an eye.

It’s only when he is being dissected it’s a fully formed portal. Only lasting long enough to engulf him. Table and all.

He has no idea where he’ll end up. All he knows is it’s somewhere on earth and he is still strapped to the table.

Some potential places he could end up. The Kent’s barn, in front of Martian manhunter, in the middle of the gala, the middle of a legion of doom meeting, the middle of the justice league, maybe even in the middle of a Wayne family dinner.

#dpxdc #disection #Danny is not having a good time #but hey #he can make portals now #literally could end up anywhere #imagine it’s the gala then the next month brucie Wayne adopted the kid #Martian manhunter. nop he isn’t having that. how dare whoever did this #Superman home for a family dinner. poof heartbeat in the barn #ma and pa will help and take in that child #so many places he could end up #the Giw are gonna have fun pretty soon #my thinking on why it works is cause he was born ghost wise from a portal #he is calling to it #not using his powers #just manipulating what is around #idk #that’s my thought process #tangles ideas

[smuddee-papabear]

Really need two massive demons to wreck me from both ends while making out with each other. I think that would fix me.

#monster fucker #I like the idea of being rammed on both sides but it's only super hot if it's monsters and they're into each other as well #and like maybe one of them uses his tail to wrap around my waist so I know I'm not going anywhere until they're done #pa-bear ramble

[sylladextrous]

I need to play more irl pinball. who wants to go on a pinball date with me where I infodump the whole time and make you play pinball with me

#VPX and PFX3/PA can only get me so far..... #ESPECIALLY since i cant find the twilight zone table anywhere shdkdkd #i think the new pinball fx has it but like. i dont wanna pay MONEY #ill probably cave and get it eventually #UNLESS someone has a link to a VPX/VPMAME download for a table???? #pinball #chloe.txt

[game-of-kinks]

Parking pas vraiment privé Toutes les cartes sont dispo sur @tire-une-carte / English version is at @play-my-game Bon jeu !

#Parking pas vraiment privé #kinky-card-game #Anytime anywhere

[analogboii]

i filled out one of those feedback things for my apartment and in it i wrote 'parking is an absolute nightmare' and then they called me today and offered me a discount on a carport space lmfaoooo

#you bet your ass i took that shit its like half off #now i dont have to walk a million miles im right next to my apartment eheehhe #just for a small fee a month now #might just stay here after all lmfao #i also just dont wanna bother with moving again #ive moved like every year since i was 18 #the longest i stayed anywhere was in pa. i was there two years #same apartment and everything too

[jewishjeffmoreau]

the last line is so frustrating to read.

It [Hamas] has warned Palestinians in Gaza against cooperating with Israel to administer the territory, saying anyone who does will be treated as a collaborator, which is understood as a death threat.

which on the surface level makes sense if an independent palestine is the goal - but the entire article just laid out how the nominated officials are viewed as collaborators with israel.

this, on top of the united nations report that just came out that puts half of all gazans in category five (catastrophic) food insecurity.

what is the goal here? why care so much about who is collaborating with whom when half the people you represent are starving?

#not to mention the blockades and restrictions mentioned on the egyptian border #idk. take everything i'm saying with a grain of salt. i'm not on the ground in israel or palestine. i'm halfway around the world. #the pa doesn't even have authority in gaza anyway. that is all hamas and has been for years. #and it is not like they have authority elsewhere. they're essentially useless as far as my understanding goes. #idk. again i only know what i have read. have no experience living anywhere near the conflict. just observing as an outsider. #politics

[pessimisticprincess]

very very stressed out over work and how badly i’m handling my life

#there’s a lot of shady stuff happening at work with paychecks and overtime on top of them listening into us on the cameras #which is illegal in PA and after trying to talk to the owner who i thought was a resonable human being #and getting a talking in circles ‘i know the laws but i don’t want to follow them’ conversation #i decided to report them to the department of labor and to the attorney general #but i’m disheartened that ive worked here since before they opened and theyre really fucking with everyones money #changing clock in times randomly not paying overtime messing up payroll like every other week #it really sucks because i dont want to leave this job but ive truly never seen anything like this anywhere ive worked #and then the girl ive been working the most shifts with really stresses me out she’s not a nice person and living back at home #everything is just like crushing me dude

[iero]

Me desperately wanting to buy a Fall Out Boy ticket so I can finally see them live after never seeing them in the, like, 17 years I’ve been a fan vs. me not wanting to drive across the river to Camden... Fight.

#personal #It's so funny. I have no problem driving anywhere in PA or any other state surrounding it... except NJ. #Even though Camden is barely in NJ. Geographically yes but barely LMAO #I just *clenches fist* fucking hate NJ drivers... #(Sorry Frank and everyone.) #I do appreciate FOB choosing some not major MAJOR cities but the other part of me is still like 'WHY were there no PA dates...? :('

[quillheel]

"Death cannot stop true love. All it can do is delay it for a while." (Harry to Kim)

They’d been standing outside of the Martinaise bookstore ( Crime, Romance, and Biographies of Famous People ) for upwards of 20 minutes by now, not entering, not perusing, the time occupied exclusively with the Detective’s staring; eyes clouded the way they become when something occupies him, the edging-on-vacant look he sometimes acquires when he looks up into the cold sky and murmurs under his breath. Locations. Distances. A gridwork of nerves under the city streets; or rather what they were built atop; that despite the efforts of the shivering, terrible absence of memory in his brain persisted in reaching him. Useless information heralded as jewels. The names of streets. Seeing from another angle.

For the last 5 of those 20, Kim was beginning to worry on if Harry had suffered some kind of stroke, perhaps caught between the conscious and unconsciousness, the way fainting seemed to be becoming a habit for him ( or at least, so he’d learnt. ) and his body simply hadn’t fallen, knees locked, keeping him stable. There’d been the temptation to gently nudge his shoulder, a tap to see the structural integrity under that disco blazer, on those snakeskin boots, but he answers before he fully settles into it & the consequences it may harbor; the words soft and raw like fruit fuzz left to rot, quiet on the wind, and all the Lieutenant can do is nod sagely, peering over at whatever it’d been to occupy him so thoroughly. Nothing interesting to Kim, maybe, but all encompassing to the other. Some days, Kitsuragi considers spending entirely on dissecting- ━ no. not dissection. he would not to kill it. ━ considers spending entirely on understanding what it is that goes on inside his head. Part of him whispers that to do so would be to ruin the magic.

Another part of him offers the refute of ‘I wouldn’t know’ in answering Harry, but he decides against that, too. It was too critical, too good at shutting things down. I wouldn’t know is to say I don’t know and I have nothing to say so can we please move on? ━ at least sometimes, it was, to him. Too vulnerable. Too much. Too little.

Kim adjusts his glasses, removing them. " I suppose that is true, Detective. " he relents, almost, but curious eyes give way to his unprovoking answer; an unspoken question of continue?; as the Lieutenant adds on, offering more as he cleans the lenses of the water built up from snow with a handkerchief. " Something about the eternity of a love that can persist past everything, even death, is an appealing thought to many people… " ━━ he tries not to study Harry as he says that. as if anticipating, as if proving himself correct.

#━ ♔ cardinals with snow-brushed wings : asks. #━ ♔ Souvenez-vous la prochaine fois; Que vient la neige et le fracas / On n'va pas tous mourir ━ KIM/HARRY: playedbetter #playedbetter #MUSE / Kim Kitsuragi #━ ♔ to jump from anywhere & make it home : threads. #━ ♔ you sing but only the pavement listens : ic. #disco elysium //

[crossover-enthusiast]

fun canon fnf fact! the location in week 2 doesn’t take place in a old abandoned house but instead actually takes place in girlfriend parents house

Ohhh wait yeah I remember hearing about that! It was some old house they never use wasn't it? Orrrr am I misremembering

#I vaguely recall seeing that PA clip where he mentions that #And that it's some random house they own somewhere else to explain why Skid and Pump would be anywhere near it since they never leave town #Friday Night Funkin

[therogerclarkfanclub]

Do y'all remember the time when the entire fanbase went crazy with Roger singing Aqua's Barbie Girl? Pepperidge farm remembers and so does the every RDR2 fan.

He did a replay when he went to Sci-Fi Valley Con in June 2022

Video edit by cartz.99 (IG)

#roger clark #Instagram videos #barbie girl #Aqua's Barbie Girl #sci fi valley con #altoona pa #Comic cons #'UNDRESS ME ANYWHERE' THANK YOU ROGER FOR SETTING MY IMAGINATION ON FIRE 🥵 #Not that it takes a whole lot anyway 😉

[perenlop]

d.did castor's packer melt too

yknow what as an homage to you. sure

#DSGLKJDFG:LKFDJGL:FDJGLFDKGJ:LFDJGLFDGJLFDGJFDG #he leaves sinnoh and underestimates how hot it is anywhere else #moonscape #mail #i was referencing the fact that atlas steals castor's eviolite bc he drops it when they first meet #but im fucking obsessed with the imagery of that but its a melted packer adn thats how they meet and fight and fall in love #asha: pa how did you and dad meet #castor: he stole my fucking penis

[bqstqnbruin]

So I’m thinking about my captain Jillian Dempsey and like, if they get rid of the Boston team, she’s probably done. As a teacher in the US, you really can’t move states and just teach somewhere else without pay hundreds in fees for new tests and a new license for whatever state you’re in. If there’s no Boston team, there’s no Jillian Dempsey unless she wants to find a new profession

#woho #like I can’t just show up in MA and find a teaching job without jumping through MONTHS worth of hoops with the MADOE #my PA teaching license isn’t good anywhere but PA

[sumechiayuu]

To cure my self loathing and second guessing people trait I remind myself that this is Nagito and tokocore so I stop dead in my tracks immediately

#Sumechiaspeaks #I feel like someone doesn't like me #THIS ISNT A TUMBLR THING BTW THIS IS D****RD #Not me censoring #this reminds me why I should never discuss my d********pa opinions anywhere #Not me venting in tags #No because I swear this person doesn't like me #But I'll keep everything vague I'm not evil