#bc they're weird in the exact same way. bc they're family.

[corvigae]

Me: Not all of my OCs have to be autistic and/or ADHD. Some could have other mental health struggles - for example, Ori has severe social anxiety.

Also me: Hm. Okay, but have you considered - he has severe social anxiety because he's autistic?

#anyways ori canonically autistic now i do kake the rules #he and nova are that teope of your family members not thinking you're weird #bc they're weird in the exact same way. bc they're family. #ori: having really specific sensory things you can't stand bc they send you into a near-meltdown state is normal #nova (adhd): of course - naturally. #nd to nd communication #also i find it kinda funny that actually gen 1 of the leonard family are largely completely neurotypical #and then in gen 2 you've got adhd...bipolar...dissociative disorder...and that's all just cosmo! #oc stuff #the leonard family #my ocs #orion leonard #wrote this at like 4 am and i'm not fixing the typos in the tags just deal with them

[laststandx3]

There are many bad things about wish, but one of the most annoying is how it fails to pay off its own set ups.

It's established Asha's father believes in the magic from the stars. He died of an illness (never specified), that Asha's grandfather (her father's father) never got his wish granted in YEARS, well now to me this feels targeted.

Follow my thoughts for a minute, how easy would have been with this already established set up to add the part where it's Magnifico who killed Asha's dad because he was promoting a different kind of magic that would undermine Magnifico's power? This would've established Magnifico as an actual villain from the start, manipulating people's perception of him with magic and the lengths he would go to keep his power and crown.

This would have impacted Asha's journey as well,instead of asking Magnifico to grant her grandfather's wish immediately (which imo is a good reason for him not to hire her, she literally asks for favoritism the moment she arrives), let her instead be perfect for the position, not clumsy and awkward but make her qualified and respectful of the king's secrecy about the wishes. And still she's still not hired. And then she starts questioning him, she's studied, she's ready and it's not enough and the king seemed to like her until she mentioned her father.

And then she talks with the people of rosa about the king, if that was unfair of him maybe , but the answer is that the king is good and kind and doesn't he grants everyone's wishes, isn't that so wonderful of him? (and maybe this can be a song) and at first it sounds like she just doesn't want to accept that she wasn't chosen but after the forth person answers the same exact thing, well then this starts to feel more like a script than an original thought. Just then she looks at all the wishes Magnifico's granted so far and they're all material, it's all about people owning bigger houses, better clothes, riches, nothing is about community, knowledge, about people becoming something(musicians, teachers, scientists, artists...) . The guy that got his wish granted last year also got it granted a few years ago too, Isn't that weird? Some people never get their wishes and this guy twice? And also his wish was so selfish? He wanted a swimming pool! How in the best kingdom, with the best king, nobody wishes nice things for others? And isn't that weird that she and her friends used to make graffitis and jokes on the guards but when Sleepy gave away his wish at 18 suddenly he doesn't make jokes about Magnifico's beard anymore? He's so respectful of the rules now.

And idk maybe Asha doesn't just wish upon a star and everything is given to her. Maybe Magnifico's source of magic is Star and she frees it and that's why Star tags along. The magic of the starts was real, her father was right! Star knew her dad, he tried to save the magical pet but he was killed instead! Now it's not just about freedom and justice she wants revenge. And this is maybe when she fucks up because she was too reckless, she got discovered. Her friends/family are watching how she's getting arrested/executed for treason and that's SO UNFAIR such a cognitive dissonance it breaks Magnifico's brainwash spell.

Now a song about revolution makes sense. But singing about revolution bc they want to be able to wish? Are you kidding me? Not only the movie established that you can have new wishes and that they make you whole again, but also girl, you all read the terms of services when giving Magnifico your wish. You give it to him and if he finds it worth it, it'll be granted. Making questions about the king choices is the opposite of living under a monarchy.

Ultimately I agree with everyone who says this movie feels empty, because it's true, it's a bunch of disney trope stitched together with easter eggs that don't makes us feel anything and that contradicts its own message. The fact that disney doesn't want to make grey characters anymore it's felt. And it mirrors the way people have started to see enjoying stories as media consumption, everything that alludes to people being flawed is an endorsement of abuse. So disney's characters have all turned is these empty shells of heroine tropes. They're always bubbly, their worst flaw is being clumsy, but the worst is that they're always right. Asha's quest to free the wishes is based only on her conviction that the king is wrong in not granting everyone's wish. It's never even hinted in the movie that the subjects of rosa lack something. It's a fairy-tale kingdom in every aspect (maybe the king is a bit egocentric but that hasn't hurt anyone so far), except that her grandpa's wish wasn't granted and so the king must be wrong. If it wasn't for Magnifico's long exposition of I don't accept criticism she wouldn't have questioned him. And even then, that's what living in a kingdom means, that you follow the king's rules. I'm sorry but singing about revolution and then ending the movie still under a monarchy is just contradictory with the whole premise.

#wish spoilers #disney wish #Wish 2023 #Wish rewrite #Asha #Magnifico #Grey characters? Not in disney anymore #Where is the flynn Ryder type? Starts selfish becomes a better person #Elsa's self discovery? Anna growing out of idealized people #Moana tries to live on land to make her parents proud! It's only when her grandma gives her the heart that she leaves #Mulan disappoints her parents and leaves to save her dad #Not every plot has to involve the fate of a kingdom. Sometimes it can just be one person #Mulan pretending to be a man is still seen as a terrible thing by the society she lives she doesn't change everyone's mind just the people #She actually interacted with. Yeah and the emperor but she literally saved his life. He'd better be forgiving

[muzzleroars]

Hello, i finally had another dream!

All happened in a weird white void, and in there Michael was on his knees and hugging a lifeless Raphael, with Uriel's corpse also just behind him, there was no blood.

In front of Michael there was the fully standing lucifer (in his rebellion form) just looking at the kneeling angel.

It was heavily implied lucifer was the one who attacked, also Gabriel's body was nowhere to be found, but he sometimes appeared instead of luci.

I like to think this is a nightmare Michael tends to have after he has accepted Gabriel as a demon, but before he finally archieves inner peace.

As if the prince thinks all he's experiencing is too good to be true.

eats up this symbolism bc it essentially sums up the whole of michael's internal state by the time of the au...he absolutely blames himself for the fate of his brothers, and he believes he has completely failed his family with their destruction now only a matter of time. lucifer is representative of this core failure, in two senses - he was the first victim he could never save, and after the countless years of lies michael has been fed about him, he represents intrinsic evil he has no power against. because gabriel was in some way weak in his faith, michael had stayed close by him to bolster him with his own unwavering loyalty to god, while gabriel in turn often pulled michael back from the edge when he was going too far. but now, in michael's foolish absence, he has lost him the exact same way he had lost lucifer and now gabriel suffers a very similar fate to the former prince of heaven. everything surrounding lucifer has become a nightmare to michael, the war and his loss severely traumatic but the intervening gaslighting done to distort his memory of lucifer making him vile and horrific in michael's eyes. so he's constantly torn apart inside over it, retaining still the love he once had in some untainted form but everything around it so corrupted he doesn't know why he loves lucifer. this constant confusion is part of the reason why he decides to be so harsh with gabriel - he can't trust his own love, so he looks only at what he sees in front of him. fallen. a demon. evil. it simplifies the process, but makes it no less internally devastating to carry out. and he must control gabriel, as lucifer must be controlled, because if they're not, he stands to lose everything. his love and his mismanagement in taking over lucifer's office will bring it all to ruin, gabriel has now gone and raphael and uriel are left entirely vulnerable if michael gives in to any weakness or hesitation. yet...he feels it is inevitable. it will come to pass. his love makes him waver and give in to gabriel as a demon, causing one horrible dread to be replaced with another. he was never meant for this, and he doesn't know how to save anyone anymore.

#michael genuinely trusts NONE of his own emotions #that's why he operates the way he does. all of his feelings are treacherous #he could only do right in taking over lucifer's throne by operating directly to the letter of god's law #because he believes without question that his emotions and judgment is tainted #THANKS FOR THIS it's very VERY on point for mike!!! #and really let me word this bc i haven't gotten to the root of his trauma til now uwaah #cake answers #michael #rise and fall au #gaslighting tw

[piratemadi]

Even if you're never going to write it, please share how you'd integrate Flint (and Miranda) into your modern au. To make a life has such god tier characterization and I'd love to know how you'd insert Flint.

its me and @wordforworldisforest 's creation! basically miranda and thomas are best friends since childhood in a very expensive ivy feeder private pre-k-12 school. in high school flint gets a sports scholarship (i think we were originally thinking soccer altho im liking the idea of boxing or wrestling makes more sense?) to their school. blah blah blah throuple years and then thomas is sent to conversion therapy camp where he commits and thats for real sorry thomas. in revenge miranda and flint kill thomas's father, but he's super rich and super influential so they're forced to go on the run and they do that for 10ish years.

they reach the town that the rest of the group lives in about a year after the first one ends, so the baby is born and the six of them have very much settled into a routine. miranda gets a job as a bookkeeper in town and flint gets a job on a fishing boat, which is where he meets anne and vane. miranda meets madi at the library (she keeps up w the news in case there's anything abt her or thomas's families). miranda gets close w madi first and flint develops an incredibly antagonistic relationship with vane. later flint vane and madi will bond over communism etc they'll get him to start reading more and finding purpose in life again bc when he and miranda first killed thomas's dad he had all this righteous rage but after 10 years of just running around the states it's mostly burned out

miranda's actually first to spend more time with madi and then max bc the three of them have drastically different perspectives on life but in a weird way it is complementary. so flint sees that first that she starts brightening that she starts really liking the town and bringing up the idea of staying there. she eventually drags him to the bar to see jack anne and vane perform (there's love here...and music......) which is where he meets silver for the first time. and hates him!

anyways...i dont really see flint being as close to the rest of them as miranda will end up being like that's something him and vane will end up having in common which is that they dont feel close to every single person in the group but as he falls in love w silver and months (and eventually years) go by he finds real peace purpose and love in having roots/family for what's kind of the first time in his life.

he and max end up as bitchy gay lion drinking buddies which is good for both of them. him and anne work out together he teaches her to box but they dont really talk. him and jack aren't particularly close, altho they do talk about books sometimes with miranda. him and vane will never be FRIENDS friends, and in fact for the first few months literally cant be in the same room together, but madi likes and trusts flint, which softens vane up, and they do end up respecting each other. him and silver develop a weird codependence which is slightly less pronounced than the show since miranda's alive and still flint's close friend but i was thinking that they grow to have some distance as time passes bc they were so close for so long and it was so painful for both of them. so they both develop other relationships that are probably healthier.

miranda madi and max end up really really tight like a little girl friend group they're all very different but they are all talkative in exact complementary ways so they spend a ton of time together. miranda doesnt know how to talk to anne but likes her a lot. she doesn't know how to talk to vane either and likes him way way less. as for jack him and her click very very well bc his music is the first thing that makes her take the idea of staying seriously and they're very stimulating to each other like they find each other super fun and hang out all the time

thats the vague premise. idk what the plot would be but thats what we wouldve written if either of us had the time or inclination. if you read all this you're odd but thank you <3

[chelemlem]

I love love love trade offer! The line about it stressing lando out how much Oscar doesn't seem to need her hits so good, and I was wondering if you had any hcs about what that looks like. Or any headcanons about Oscar being unbothered by her all dressed up for galas, and if that hurts/bothers her

to me at least, after the initial will-they-wont-they seal is broken lando doesn't really harbor any misconceptions about how hot oscar finds her. it's more like oh lol this is what does it for you? freak :/ (fond)

my timeline was they started messing around on the last leg of the 2023 season, so i feel like her insecurities would've crept in over winter break when they barely got to see each other. lando even in a non-au is self-admittedly v emotionally reliant on a core group of people and talks about how most of his friends are the same tightknit bunch from karting. oscar being the exact opposite is quite well-documented as well: he's been living an ocean away from his family pretty much since he was 14 and even back in his renault days mia used to say he's wildly independent and fine on his own in the paddock.

in general lando's also experienced her older, [subjectively] cooler prev teammates who always seem to have their Own Things Going On and is a little wary of being left behind or forgotten (see: carlos not having lando's number saved during that covid era call on stream). it would be little things like oscar taking 18 hours to text back bc he was asleep or giving some weird normie response and ofc since they're zoomers they can't just like. call

but once the new season begins and they get to know each other more both as people and as people in a (maybe not just fwbs but an actually exclusive 😱?!? jk it's still too soon for that) relationship she realises that well, yeah, obviously oscar is obsessed with her he just has his own way of showing it.

thanks for the ask!!! i'm so glad u enjoyed <33

#answered #i think about them a lot... #after her first win lando's like look. do u just want to be my boyfriend #and oscar is like why yes thank you 👍 (secretly goes insane)

[songbirdstew]

Been a helluva long week

(but longer for my poor coworker who's been going through it and doesn't seem to be getting any help from anyone but me and our occasional project manager, which is WEIRD, and also adding to my long week)

(tw skip this paragraph for under-nail injury content) Among other things he's dealing with, co-worker has a toe injury, and had to choose between seeing the doctor OR picking up his paycheck one day, so his payday got delayed by a couple days, AND he's in pain. His sister made him go to the doctor, and I said, "She's right, homie," and he said, "I know, but I'm still mad, bc now I feel like I'm working for free." It was a bad week for nail beds. Somehow, while cleaning under a work microwave, I managed to ram my thumb into it in such a way that I cut open my nailbed? Something underneath my thumb nail? It hurt like hell for about two days, and I keep finding dried blood under my nail, at the line where your actual nailbed stops, if that makes sense? It feels better today, but still sore if I use my thumb-tip a lot, which it turns out, is a lot fucking more in a day than you realize. So anyway, waiting to die from sepsis or dysentery, it's fine

(gross content over)

I turned 42 (FINALLY. THE ANSWER. I.... will have it??) on Thursday (WAIT). We got burritos (bololo). Because it's my birthday weekend and I don't want to be uncomfortable or eat ham (I do not like it, Sam I Am), I declined my brothers' broaching the possibility of Easter dinner this weekend. We got Chinese takeout tonight. For my entire life, as long as I can remember, my parents were staunchly loyal to the one Chinese restaurant in town that didn't trigger my dad's fish/seafood allergy, and always got the same takeout order every single time. So for my birthday every year, I get the exact same thing. (Great Wall in Springfield, Happy Family for 4, no crab puff, extra order of Mar Far Chicken.) Royal got those THREE fortunes out of ONE cookie. wtf.

Royal continues to be the best and brightest spot in my life. We crack each other up. We just played Tenzi for like an hour. At one point, while I was winning, they muttered, "Motherfucker," and I said, "No, just Mother." and they wheezed. Tomorrow, they want to play Scrabble and/or Monopoly. They're an avid DND player, and they just said, "I really want to make a gnome barbarian," and we're both dying. Now they're imagining a Lawful Good Necromancer. Now an Orc Monk. A Goblin Ranger. "An Asexual Bard. They're just a therapist."

They are taller than I am and wore my black jeans to school by accident recently.

Middle brother (BRO) gave us the pictured bottle of wine for Christmas, and I decided right then to save it for my birthday. I am drunk enough to not know if I just finished 2 or 3 glasses. CHEERS

[wearethewinx]

here’s a winx question from a noob to maybe get you back into the mood. what do you think of the pixies concept? (maybe how would you handle it in your AU? Yeet? Keep? Change?) Like, later seasons sometimes had Little Cute Things to follow the main characters around but the pixies tended to actually have personality or some interesting things to say, so I mostly have fond memories of them… compared to the little animals where I don’t remember anything about them at least.

HEEHEE THANK YOU

I'm ok with the pixies as a concept, but their execution is a little toyetic and annoying imo. Like, the species? Cool. Aisha being tight with them is also a fun detail. But their fucked up baby proportions, the fact that their function to the plot is pretty much exclusively to be helpless squealing macguffins, and the fact that there's one to perfectly pair off every member of the main cast all irk me. OH but I do like them being quasi-sexless beings that are spawned from a magic tree. It's pleasingly goofy and whimsical

SO, my main changes would be

design. obvi. doesn't need to be extreme though, really just toning down the proportions- but i think it'd be cool to make them look more alien too

introduce the pixies in a block that ISN'T conveniently the exact same number as our cast

don't have them all conveniently bond with the winx instantly at the same time

ditch the Bloom/Lockette pair almost entirely. they're BORING. but i would like to touch on Lockette's portal magic and Bloom's search for her family

just. adjust Musa's whole relationship with Tune. it's not bad but it needs to be thoroughly recalibrated

get Tune and Tecna together!!! my Tecna is autistic as hell and struggles with social cues, Tune is the pixie of etiquette. it's a no-brainer

relating to above: the pixies (mainly Amore) can so easily turn into an ex machina that magically fixes the winx's personal problems so i also don't want to do that. but at the same time it's deranged to have a character whose entire thing is 'love' not get involved with more of the love plots

keep them around consistently after season 2 jesus

I'm actually ok with most of the winx/pixie friendship dynamics as-is tbh, I'd just have them be friendships that develop in the story. Tecna and Digit being gamer bros, Chatta pushing Flora to be more confident, honestly I would dial Amore and Stella's relationship way up bc Stella has so much baggage with her parents' divorce, and Aisha's weird guardianship over Piff all work for me. Bloom I think needs a new pixie entirely to interact with but I'm not sure who that would be yet

thanks for asking!!

#winx club #winx #lost planet au

[angelcasendgame]

omg renu finally someone else who appreciates dean and amara!!! i need to stop being so shocked that you and i share the same opinions so much alskflfl;f but literally i feel like fandom always writes them off as a "weird noncon thing with no chemistry" but like.... regardless of how it started i just think they ended up truly caring about each other in the end!!! and i actually do think it's interesting how they could never really hurt each other and the nature of their bond and what it truly meant. because it's not something as simple as "amara forced a connection onto him" when even in season 15 she thought it was something chuck did to them!! anyway sorry for rambling but i just love them <3

Hello Moogs beloved!!! 💜💜💜💜💜💜

I was thinking the EXACT SAME THING!! We are literally one I love that for us 💜💜 yes exactly to what you said!! Like she's this ancient being from before creation whose brother locked her away for the universe to be born!!!! It's more complicated than that which makes it all the harder to figure out!! GOD THE S15 THING AHH. Okay ideally I wish Dean and Amara after the Mary talk would be on better terms and instead of destroying her, they'd recruit her but thats spn for you. Also you have unleashed a beast bc I have so many emotions about Dean and Amara and I'm gonna subject you to them under the cut because you just Get Me <3333

Okay so idk if you're aware of the story, the ones who walk away from omelas but the general premise is this beautiful perfect town, Omelas where people are happy. But then it turns out there's this one single child locked away under the town and as long as they're miserable, the town continues to be okay (and most people, once they find out, can't handle the guilt and walk away, hence the title but that's besides the point)

I can't help but think of both Amara and Dean in this way. Like Amara was literally locked away for creation to exist, all of this, the entire world is here because she was imprisoned and miserable. And Dean was locked to his family to keep all these strangers and his dad and his brother happy. And obviously Sam was abused by John too, this is not Sam crit at all, but from Dean pov, he always felt obligated to stay imprisoned to this life out of wanting to make John happy and Sam happy and these strangers that he saves happy. So we have two beings locked away in their own way for the happiness of others. But the difference here is that their respective "towns" weren't happy. Dean was never enough for John and always made him feel inadequate. Sam literally ran away even though Dean had the opportunity to dip with Sonny but chose to come back for Sam (not Sam crit, I 100% support his decision to gtfo) but he feels that betrayal. Even though Dean keeps killing monsters, there's always more, by season TWO the life was too much for him. Like all this happiness he sacrificed and for what?? The people he loves always leave and he keeps failing the people he can't save. And Amara was literally imprisoned for all of creation, she finally gets to see the world and all she sees is the bad. This is what she was locked up for?? All this misery and hatred? I would also destroy the world the FUCK

This isn't saying that the child in the book doesn't deserve to tear the world up, but I'm just looking at their dynamic

But Dean without John around is learning to have a better place in the world. He's farrrr from perfect (see: the entirety of the show) but like Cas said, Dean has so much love for the world and people. And this is what Amara learns from him too by the end--the thing that stopped her from destroying the world was the literal power of love despite the horribleness that exists in the world

And I think this is the connection she was looking for. Dean and Amara were linked from the moc but I think she latched onto him bc she saw herself in Dean. And all the consumption of souls was yes for power but part of me thinks she was looking for something to fill the void (uh darkness pun not intended). And then yeah, she understood after speaking to the woman feeding the birds and understood what she was missing from Dean which was love for the world

She got her closure with Chuck and then bounced to explore the world (you go girl) and I do think Dean got closure from John in Lebanon when he truly put the idea behind him uh see this post lmao, where he just wants the idea of John but not John himself . And I just WISH s15 would have been them coming together after healing and taking Chuck down together who implemented the whole fucked up system to begin with!!

There's just so much to explore in their relationship and like this doesn't even TOUCH Amara bringing Mary back to life and saying she did that to give Dean the opportunity to know the real her and not the false one John made up (also ahhh Chuck and John as gods and authors, I could go on about this forever too fhskhdkshs)

#I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT THIS #i am SO GLAD you stopped by mwah mwah MWAHHH i love you!!! #i think a lot of people tend to brush off dean-amara and call it dumb but there's so much they're missing out on #i feel like I need to make an announcement that says im not shipping dean-amara #it's just about their dynamic #but YES #sorry for rambling idek if any of this makes sense #LOVE YOU #mailbox #moogs tag 🔮 #amara and dean

[magentagalaxies]

Jessamine Accidentally Writes An Essay About Two Conversations Ze's Totally Normal About

one of my beloved mutuals (@souplover13) is reblogging a lot of queerpunk posts tonight which just reminded me of two conversations i want to document. yes this story involves paul bellini why wouldn't it (fr tho i was considering not making this a post bc i was like oh god do people really want to hear me ramble about these 63-year-old gay dudes again maybe i should give it a rest but whatever it's my blog and if people don't like it why are they even following me this is all we do here)

anyway the story actually begins with a conversation i had with my parents earlier today. now, i'm lucky enough to have parents that are constantly trying their best to be good allys and are always learning to do better. they're not perfect, but they want to learn. while at lunch today my dad took a picture of me and my mom together since i won't be home again for a few months and he affectionately said "my girls." i've been out to my parents as nonbinary for around a year, but i let it slide since my gender wasn't the most important part of that sentiment, more the fact that it was a nice family moment.

a beat later my mom corrects "girl and person," and while i am grateful for her seeing that i'm not a girl, this type of correction always makes me feel more awkward than being misgendered. like, the point of my dad calling me "his girl" was this tone of familial affection, but the word "person" just feels cold and distant, which is something i struggle with in a lot of gender neutral language. but beyond that, it's just this weird separation. i jokingly correct my mom again, saying "hey, we're both people."

the conversation continues and eventually my mom asks if it bothers me when people call me "girl" like that. and the truth is: i don't know. it bothers me a little, but the forced neutrality bothers me more, and honestly i don't really care what gendered language someone uses for me as long as they mean it in a way that shows me they care. like, i'd rather be called girl affectionately than be called "genderqueer nonbinary person with a strained relationship to androgyny who uses ze/zir pronouns and feels represented by the word transfeminine" in a derogatory way. I respond "it's contextual," but that's not a satisfactory answer. the conversation moves on to a nonbinary person who stops by my mom's work often and how my mom's had to correct some of the older employees to stop calling them a girl, since times are changing.

the second conversation is from a few weeks ago when i first visited canada to help with the mouth congress concert and got to have lunch with paul bellini beforehand. at one point the conversation developed into paul asking me what being "nonbinary" means for me personally. it was clear he wasn't intimately familiar with the concept (though to his credit he did have more experience with it than i expected), and some of his assumptions were inaccurate to my experience, but he listened intently as i described my experience not knowing how to specifically label my gender but just knowing i don't want to be seen as a cis woman while also having no desire to be fully male. he related it to his own experience as a gay man with his own complex relationship to masculinity and femininity, acknowledging it's not the exact same, and by the end of our conversation i truly felt like he respected my unique relationship to gender even if there were certain parts he still needed to process.

but most importantly, it was funny. granted our conversation was a unique case since both individuals were queer comedians from different generations, but approaching the strange concept of gender identity with humor made it so much more comfortable. paul described being a little feminine gay kid and thinking "i'm not a boy or a girl, i'm a god" and i responded that's it exactly. i brought up the mouth congress song she-male: master of the universe, saying the vision of a vengeful genderqueer space goddess is the most represented i've felt by a piece of media, only half joking. but also there were times when i made jokes about failing at gender (e.g. referencing a group of "girls" at my high school who made me realize i'm nonbinary since i always felt weird for being the least feminine person when we hung out, and then the fact that several of them came out as transmasc after graduation meaning now they can be better than me at being trans as well) and while paul acknowledged the joke he also assured me i was exactly where i needed to be in terms of my gender presentation, and honestly i'm kind of tearing up just thinking about it.

paul never asked me for my pronouns, but to be fair i did somewhat volunteer them in the form of a joke: "i use any pronouns, but i will silently judge you based on what you do with that information." that line got a laugh.

I told the same line to my parents after our "girl" conversation today, earning only confusion, and it made me realize something: so much of modern trans allyship centers entirely around language, be it pronouns or recognizing the lack of neutrality in our everyday speech. and while these things are certainly important, that's not understanding. cishet allys so often want to be able to say the right thing, so they approach the subject as learning the rules for how to incorporate this new approach to gender into their lexicon. i think there's something to be said for how this parallels how we're often taught about cis gender roles: these are the rules you follow to be a man or woman. when you find out someone doesn't fit neatly into those boxes, it's natural to ask "okay, what are your rules?" this also leads to some cis people (even gay cis people) complaining about how "you can't say anything these days" since it's portrayed as just another set of rules you need to learn.

but honestly, i don't know what my gender rules should be. my approach to gender lately has been the equivalent of "idk dude i just work here," i don't know where i specifically fit in but i do know how i feel inside. the answer "it's contextual" doesn't give you the cheat codes to gendering me correctly, because even i don't know how to gender myself correctly half the time. however, more importantly imo it gives you a window into how it feels to be me, a nonbinary person with complicated relationships to every facet of gender who's decided to stop expecting language to fully represent me but still has to deal with language being applied to me all the time. my nonbinary gender is confusing as hell, and i'm tired of having to pretend it's not as if that's the only way it's worthy of respect. every gender (including cis genders) is confusing as hell, and it's only when we all accept this fact that we can actually make a meaningful connection.

as my parents and i were driving away from the restaurant my only thought was i wonder how my dad would've referred to that photo if it was my brother and my mom in the picture. would he have said "girl and boy?" or "girl and person?" or would he have simply said "family"

#soup i tagged you bc i feel like you'd be interested in this #tbh i didn't plan on this being as long as it is but whatever i clearly needed to process something #tbh i'm kind of rolling my eyes at myself like ''ah great another paul bellini post'' but like #having an older queer comedian mentor actually really means a lot to me and i think i'm allowed to celebrate that #also honestly didn't realize how much the genuinely compassionate response to my high school joke actually meant to me until this moment??? #like in the moment i was like ''no that was a joke isn't it funny the same group of people made me feel inadequate in multiple genders'' #but now i'm like wait. oh. i've been holding onto that idea that i'm not good enough. insert crying cat meme #also shoutout to another anecdote from that paul conversation: #apparently he has a younger cousin who's a trans girl and he brought scott with him to visit them for christmas this year #and he said ''that cousin and scott ended up having one of those conversations where everyone around them is on edge bc any second someone #could say the wrong thing. it was awesome'' and like unironically i agree??? #like yeah having someone say something accidentally transphobic is shitty but one thing i enjoy about scott it he's not a performative ally #if he doesn't get something he will say it. and tbh at this point i've been around enough people who know all the language #but don't really get it or worse think the opposite #that watching someone like that is honestly refreshing

[golbrocklovely]

Hiii friend I seen ur post about posting pics and distancing from social media and I’m telling you I died a little bc I feel the exact same. I have a feeling we’re around the same age and idk it’s so weird floating through life right now cause everyone my age is doing drastically different things and I’ve never felt like I belonged to begin with but now it’s even more apparent being out of school for awhile bc it still feels like everyone is still so superficial and fake. It’s so strange honestly

hi anon :)

one of the reasons i wanted to distance myself from social media was bc i lost my old friend group back during the pandemic when my ex best friend of 10 years decided she didn't want to be friends anymore (for a bunch of both bs and real reasons). and since then i've thought about just up and disappearing from social media just bc i know how chaotic it would kinda be in a way lol

and i do agree with you that social media is where, for the most part, ppl post their best selves, which usually isn't the truth.

you are 1000% right about ppl around our age being in all different places. i know ppl from high school that have kids and a partner and a house and i know ppl who are like me, with none of that stuff. from what i can tell about my old friend group, they're all kinda in the same spot as me, which sorta makes me feel better bc we were always the outcasts of our hs. but since i'm not friends with them anymore, it's just been kinda weird. bc they all hang out still and i'm just… here. right where they left me.

i do my best to not compare myself to others in my generation bc my life is not the same as my peers. especially having two disabled parents, now one of them being dead. i've lived a completely different experiences comparatively to my peers, so while at times i feel extremely out of place and so far behind, i try to remind myself of all the shit i have accomplished and all the things i've had to endure.

there is no roadmap to life. there are no milestones you have to hit. it's all just social bs.

i just wish i had friends to hang out with irl. that's all i kinda miss for the most part. bc while i love my family and i don't mind my coworkers, i'm not really close to anyone else in reality. and i just miss that connection.

and i think my issue is i don't know how to make friends. like…. where exactly do i go to make new ones? hinge? bumble? no thanks lol so i'm just kinda stuck at this crossroad of where to go next in life. and i'm completely unsure of where to go next.

#ask #personal

[kurjakani]

Character interactions with Sirppi the near ganic runner pt 1

Just sm random thoughts abt canonical characters from cpunk meeting Sirppi & the dynamics bcs Im sleepy and just thinking abt what I could do with this AU 😴😴 for context, this is an oc insert au for Sirppi, not a V for the game, just sm silly stuff!!! I'll make an another for the AI Mona too but a lil later...

Misty — they would 1000% be a repeat customer. Sirppi isn't particularly spiritual, but they would find comfort in the calm of her shop, and get fairly regular tarot readings from her to clear their mind. I think they could be near friends too, to be honest. Sirppi is a little distant and hesitant so there would be some difficulty, but especially after the loss of Jackie, I think they would really reasonate with Misty and find joy in spending time with her, in silence or otherwise.

Viktor Vector — I think with some research (maybe help from Nix? He has sm familiarity w older tech so shrug emoji) Viktor could prolly work w Sirppis ancient cyberware, anddd they could really get along. Sirppi loves scary people, but Viktor has a sense of safety about him; they would circle around him from time to time, nibble at that comfort, run away like a scared cat but come for pats and scratches from time to time.

Panam, Saul, other Aldecaldos — tight as bunch!!!!! Sirppi wouldn't really count as a nomad, but would be very near to that, and would probably have a lot to do with nomad groups. There would prolly be some hesitation there of course, "why is this kid on their own", but I think their connections to other nomad groups (their own ripper is a nomad from further away) & their independant spirit would help them get along w others. Shyly running to them like a kid who recognizes family members in a crowd. Would get in trouble with Panam, though would be more embarrassed and bashful about it. Would be particularly interested in hanging out with the vets- not really for war stories but for stories about life alongside the war. Would hide behind the vets when panam is scolded by saul 🙄

Goro Takemura — i am trying SO hard to figure out how this would work- they would be SO funny, because they have kinda the same like... personality but exact opposite ideals? Sirppi is about freedom and anarchy, Goro is about loyalty and corpo pride, but they're both kinda goofy, sweet, weird, very genuine/earnest.... cannot think of a way that Goro would meet some weird scruncly courier. Maybe during cpunk2077 events, it'd have to be.... eating at the same place every night, Sirppi is the first person 2 be nice & polite to him in the city and they just hang out and Sirppi has NO idea who he is bcs they don't watch the news nor do they keep up w corpo chatter. They would talk abt food for hours, Sirppi would be so miffed about his pickiness, they would show him some weird recipes like putting cereal between toast and horrify him. They would be so funny I love them. Maybe thats the start of nomad Goro au?

Judy — Sirppi would have an aversion 2 braindances, as they would remind them of having tech in their head- and, they'd never be satisfied by them. Their favourite sensation is driving along a long stretch of land with no end in sight; only there they feel belonging, and nothing else compares. They're also kinda... grey ace/demisexual, and rarely into sex, so they would feel a little bad about not understanding a lot of what Judy does. However, if those two did talk- they could definetly bond over the feeling of missing/yearning for something lost, and what could have been... don't think there's like huge crossover potential for them tho???

Royce, Dum Dum, other Maelstroms — babygirll they would hang out w Maelstroms on ACCIDENT before being infortmed how DANGEROUS THEY ARE. Near ganic little thing, who's uncertain and says the weirdest shit, looks at u like ur cool when YOU say the weirdest shit... most likely possibility being becoming an experiment in a maelstrom rippers room BUT THATS NO FUN and the funner option is, them stumbling into Totentanz and SOMEHOW ending up next to Royce NO IDEA WHO HE IS chattering endlessly about the pros and cons of augmentation as the complete opposites of the argument (though Sirppi has nothing against augmentation, they just can't take it themself). Honestly, I ship them, kinda, kinda not, don't think Sirppi would have genuine interest in Royce but it'd be cute if he had the most non-hardcore cool guy crush on them, like the least badass little hearts above his head kinda thing.... again,.im just drawn 2 whatever is the funniest option here, and royce following around some weird gangly whirlwind who doesn't get the hint from the most straightforward machissimo guy on earth is funny.

Ozob Bozo — sirppi would IDOLIZE this idiot. He's both horrifying AND chill and makes the WORST jokes. Sirppi would be ALL googoo oogle eyes and actually talk so they could get him to talk and make his stupid jokes. I don't even know how they could meet, literally however, maybe more taxi services for Ozob, Sirppi would not be able to help him with any of his murder and they would yell at him for it but. They would also b like ah hehe twirls hair u r kinda funny tho so.

#cyberpunk 2077 #kaniocs #kaniocsirppi #long post #on mobile so i cabt readmore pls dont murder me

[queer-lemons]

saturdays in a college town are so fucking funny. and also highkey one of my favourite times. like there's normally this town background noise, which you can't hear, but it's there. and on saturday you're like 'why is it so quiet??? the town feels positively empty' and it's bc twenty thousand of your residents are either asleep or hungover.

also like, only the townies are out?? and people who only know the town thru the college (students and their families) are like 'ooooo the townies are intimidating! they're kind of weird!' and it's like ??? the guy just chilling in the drugstore drinking his beer is way more normal than a squad of twenty year olds in crop tops who are all dressed the exact same and probably in a sorority.

#college town shit

[transmasc-wizard]

Hey so nico I realise now that I copied way too many options from the ask game my apologies

If you have any, what are your special interests?

What are your most common stims?

Do you headcanon any characters as autistic? If you want, tell us why you headcanon them as autistic.

Do you find it easier to get along with other autistic people?

What kinds of things are sensory hell for you?

Are your friends and/or family accepting of your autism?

Do you enjoy hugs? Or are they sensory hell?

Tell us something about your special interest.

If you could have any item related to your special interest what would it be?

Are you generally a loud or quiet person?

What's something you find hard to do because of autism?

no problem i like to Answer Questions

what are you special interests:

i have two!!! the long-running one (ive had since i was 10 or so) is just like. fantasy stories? in general? epic fantasy first and foremost but it also bleeds into urban fantasy and more fantastical horror. this manifests mostly in writing, because the mechanisms of fantasy stories in particular capitivate me, so. writing them is fun. i am less unhinged about this one but still unhinged

the second one, which i am EXTREMELY unhinged over, is the magnus archives!!!!!!!! this special interest really only started to develop a few months ago but i know it will have its hooks in me for a very, very long time kjdhkdfg

most common stims:

listening to really loud music with a lot of Noises in it, sort of like shaking in place, hand flapping, making the motion to snap but like with all my fingers at once

headcanons:

jonathan sims, head archivist of the magnus institute, london !!!!!!! reasons: he canonically had a tendency to run away as a child (eloping), preferred books to making friends, has a very specific sense of humour others dont always get, often doesn't realize other people are joking, tends to show signs of low empathy but high compassion (not realizing people are upset, not knowing why they're upset, but wanting to help them Not Be Upset), likes things to be ordered & logical, tends to have rather black and white thinking at times/a strict (if admittedly... very strange) moral compass, and, most importantly: he is my skrunkly and i say so

i also hc Gansey from the raven cycle and Katniss from the hunger games as autistic! gansey mostly bc of vibes and parallels (the way he acts around most ppl vs his friends reminds me a lot of masking), and katniss bc of her horrible social skills, one-track mind, and. also vibes

do you find it easier to get along with other autistic people?

yes and no. other autistic people tend to be more understanding of the way i think and act, and we often share a lot of more Odd(TM) traits. but also. like . i have lived with an autistic person for over a decade (my brother). and i love him, he is my brother, but our needs as people are so incredibly clashing that it is hell to spend more than a few hours with him at a time. so yeah sometimes the answer is "yes" and sometimes it is "no" skdhfksdskdjf

sensory hell:

most noises? aksjhkdshf. just. yeah. most noises. also very light touches, they actively hurt. i also dont like the texture of velvet or anything with a strong smell.

are your friends/family accepting:

hmmm lets separate "friends" and "family" into 2 separate boxes there

friends: mostly ! sometimes they say/do stupid things abt it (like when my one friend got upset at me for losing speech and made it about her) but for the most part theyre fine.

family: dad? great. he and i think the exact same way (tbh hes probably autistic too). mom? ... sort of. only when my traits are convenient for her. rest of family? yeah mostly. they dont actually Know i dont think (except my cousin) bc no one's bothered to tell them, but theyre like "oh haha thats our nico, hes just really weird but it's fine".

hugs:

i am like a cat in that my preferences on any sort of touch change randomly at all times, but i ALWAYS need to be the one initiating it. if i want a hug, theyre great. if someone else tries to hug me without permission, i am going to bite them

tell us something about your special interest:

when season 5 of the magnus archives was begining production, it was the start of the pandemic and a bunch of people were starting up podcasts since they were bored. Alexander Newell (voice of martin, a soundscaper, and the director) was like "oh shit the microphones i need might get sold out, this is bad" (bc he had to get multiple microphones to every actor in season 5, needed backups, etc) so. he just. went (in person or online) to every single store in the country that sold them and bought EVERY SINGLE MICROPHONE OF THAT BRAND. like, he owned every single microphone of that brand in England except the ones people had previously bought. people were asking on podcasting forums "hey do you know where you can get these mics???" and he would read those and just be like. ha. hahahahahaha

if you could have anything related to your special interest, what would it be:

the official Rusty Quill "The Spiral" themed spiral notebook. 1 because i love the spiral, 2 because haha spiral themed spiral notebook, 3 because its so pretty, 4 because i have a notebook problem <3

also maybe the spiral or eye hoodie, the What The Ghost hoodie, the extended sounds of brutal pipe murder shirt, or the ex altiora shirt !! those all slap. but theyre more expensive skdhfksdfj

are you a loud or quiet person:

around new people? quiet as hell. when i'm tired? also quiet as hell. when im comfortable and not tired? pretty loud skdjfhkdhf

what's something you find hard to do:

remembering to do shit like brushing my teeth and eating 3 meels a day. also, stuff like making friends, knowing how to interact with people in what way, comforting people, etc.

#asks #will/lee #ask game #autism ask game

[sunnybugz]

papyrus, orchid, cactus, and daffodil for the ask game :)

papyrus : if you put your on repeat playlist on shuffle, what's the first song that comes up? what do you like about it/associate with it?

touch tank by quinnie !! it makes me think about my ex oops 😭 i used to listen to it and fantasize about us living together in a cute apartment and being in love 🙃 (almost two months post breakup and our 5 year anniversary would've been two weeks from now so im yearning srry) . i do still like the song bc it's horny bubbly yearning music which is my whole personality

orchid : what's a song you consider to be perfect?

ok this is so hard bc i LOVE music but here's a few :

red side of the moon - trixie mattel

good luck, babe! - chappell roan (BEEN ON LOOP SINCE IT CAME OUT)

broom people - the mountain goats

intersection - slaughter, beach dog

sober to death - car seat headrest

a pearl - mitski

townie - mitski

bridge over troubled water - simon and garfunkel

landslide - fleetwood mac (i want my first dance at my wedding to be to this song 💗)

riches and wonders - the mountain goats

cactus : something you're currently learning about ?

ok most of the stuff im learning is school stuff which is just theories of media whoops . learned a lot of music lately though !! i just finished my honour band program which was so fun and i learned so much about playing my instrument (trumpet) and a bunch of new music that actually challenged me

daffodil : do you have siblings ? in what ways are you similar or different to them ?

i have lots of siblings !! 4 or 5 (complicated question, you'll see why)

d (technically oldest sister) : ok so she's Very Dead like . died 20+ years before i was born but the only reason im including her is we look the EXACT SAME . which is weird bc i look exactly like my mom and we don't have the same mom ? but yeah

p (oldest sister who i count, 31) : we are scary similar 😭 once again we look the same (i look like my mom, she looks like her mom, our dad has a type) . we're both very positive people who love to look on the bright side, we're both very interested in activism, both extroverts, and we're both very resilient :'-) most of our differences are generational-- she's 31 and im 19. but she's also more forgiving than me oops i think i hold grudges a lot more which isn't necessarily a bad thing.

r (older sister, 28) : we are not very similar at all-- i don't get along w her very well bc of this and because we weren't raised together. however we both have very strong senses of justice and work at nonprofits !

r (older brother , 23) : we aren't very similar either-- he's rlly introverted and focused on his interests which differ wildly from mine (comics and dnd mainly). but we're both very friendly + very focused on our individual interests even if they're super different (aka the Autism ...)

d (younger brother , 16) : we are so different but also the Same Fucking Guy . my fav family member he is literally the fucking realest . idek how to explain our similarities he's just the only sibling im close in age with (2.5 years) and we Get Each Other . differences wise he's an athlete (star wrestler + football player) whereas i quit sports 5 years ago, he plays video games and i don't, and he gets pissed off way easier but yk . 16 year old boy 😭 we also look SUPER similar especially when we were younger, except he has brown eyes and mine are green (and his eyebrows are 1000× better than mine NATURALLY)

#personal #asks #soleil speaks

[synonymouswithanonymous]

just for fun!

Thoughts, opinions, and a just for fun timeline. Google and a couple tumblr rabbit holes later....disclaimer lots of rumors with receipts for rumors.

I too find it weird that the same people talking about Johanne used to describe MK, Rikke, and Fanny the same exact way. Down to the same wording. Except they used to go after MK'S tattoos like they're a bad thing. People were awful about her, and the rest. Now Johanne and his family and friends are getting it too.

Now they act like a friendship, spanning 7 years, is something "more"  bc he likes her posts. Lol I bet he likes a lot of people's/friends posts, guys and girls. Probably a lot of private accounts too bc a lot of his friends went private bc people kept posting his friends' videos and pics. I don't understand why he can't like any of the accounts he follows without it causing a stir. Lol liking a post isn't a big deal lol. People can be friends, it's not like he doesn't have TON of female friends lol. I doubt he's still pining for her, and probably hasn't for a long long time.

It's not like he hasn't dated since or before (Olivia who rejected him supposedly 2017).

And he's older now and probably has sown his wild oats and wants to settle down with the woman he loves (Johanne). And I think, personal opinion, that now he has someone who matches him, loves him as he is, and let's him be just who he is. All goofy funny husky puppy energy Alex. That's great imo.

Busy boy in 2018.😂😂😃😃 he was young.

Short timeline with receipts:

Threesome rumors:

Jan 13-14 2018

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People were also posting about topless photos of Gee with Alex. They're deleted now.

· Mar 9, 2018When she finally responds to your desperate love letter text that you know she opened 35 min.… twitter (while in England)

Strange tea about Alex, take with grain of salt etc

May 17 '18#1310

"Does anyone follow Alex H. on instagram? His story yesterday so much cringe, or the hashtag #phatasswhitegirl = Alicia A.  :eyeroll: she's the white girl that has fame for being a white girl with a big ass after that scene with Ivar, trying to get her attention alluding her? she's way out of your league, kid."

"He is a creep, he follows her even on spotify when she goes under a secret username but she doesn't follow him back :rofl: smart girl."

Lipstick alley source (I google alex hogh gee hirst threesome and it popped up, the above links. And quote/gossip came from there.)

May 29, 2018 the weekend/pics he took of MK were posted. Cryptic post from her around this timeframe.

Jun 17, 2018 alex hogh with rikke westi red carpet its official twitter:

"Alex Høgh with Rikke Westi via alexhoeghandersen: "Rikke has always been too cool for school, but now it’s official. Watch out. She’s special. Huge congratulations my friend"

August 20th, 2018, Anonymous asked:

"What kind of relationship is there between Alex Høgh Andersen and Mary Kate Slattery???"

"As far as I know they are friends. For a hot minute I thought there might be something but that passed"

So they stayed friends it seems. Maybe they just realized they're better as friends? Maybe the rejection was mutual after all? Maybe he wasn't trying to be serious, just seeing how it goes? Or vice versa we will never know. Good for them. That's mature to stay friends. 😊 Her boyfriend type seems different from Alex. Not a bad thing to each their own.

Late 2018-2020 he dated a few others, one I think named Kaja? I've researched enough for a day. 😆 😆  there were blondes and brunettes, several women, one at the Zulu awards. One sitting on his lap at distortion which was posted on tumblr May 30, 2019 (edited to fix date).

That twitter/x post and IG posts don't seem to be focused so much on privacy. As some claim he's all about, I've always thought he was only private when he wanted to be. That's his choice. 😊😊 So I'm still not getting how Johanne ever "violated" his privacy.

So MK only likes his RC posts/posts that have Johanne in them. That's sweet she probably LIKES Johanne too. She's probably happy for her friend.

Seems like what friends do to me! Like posts and Support each other and be happy for each other. 😊😊😊

Another long post, but as ever don't expect it to be read. Just want to say what I want to say. 😊😊😊

PS I don't think it's weird that he's dated around before finding someone serious. You gotta shop around, see how the "clothes" fit before you buy them. Dating is what people do before they find their match. You gotta figure out what you like/want/need and what you don't like/want/need.😃

#alex høgh andersen #johanne milland #Instagram

[islandiis]

A lil bit of Fannar rambling under the cut bc I worry sometimes that the way I write him appears inconsistent (specifically in regards to how he opens up to others) and it's one of the points about him I'm quite insecure about? but tbh it's just very dependent on lots of different things and it can be very variable but there IS method to the madness he's just rly weird and overthinks everything and I love him

First tbh Fannar's extreme difficulty in opening up is like... It's kind of weird, because it's actually harder for him to open up to the people he trusts? He's terrified that if he shows the people he loves the parts of himself that he hates, they'll think he's too much trouble and he's scared of that. I actually think he finds it harder to open up to the people he cares for compared to people he doesn't trust/know as well, because he doesn't have to worry so much about losing them. His biggest fear is going back to being alone, after all.

But then, weirdly, it's not really that much of an issue with his family? He has a lot of guilt with his family for the exact reason that he doesn't worry so much about showing them these parts of himself: they've already seen him through the worst times of his life. He feels so indescribably guilty that they have to deal with him, but then he also knows that they've seen him through worse in the past and so he doesn't worry about showing them these parts of himself in the same way that he worries about showing other people.

He does worry about it, but in a different way. For most people, it's "I'm a burden, what if they see these parts of me and realize I'm a bad person/I'm too much work/etc and decide they don't want to be around me? So I'll close myself off so they don't see these parts of me" but with his family, it's more, "I'm a burden, they shouldn't have to deal with me like this, they deserve better, I'll close myself off so they don't have to deal with me". The same end result, but from different feelings and for different reasons.

It's also weird bc he can open up about some things and not others, and sometimes they're different aspects of the same topic. He can mention his back scar in passing, for example, but can't show it or allow it to be seen. He can talk about his lung problems, because he's sort of got used to explaining why he coughs All The Time (I don't write it unless it's relevant in some way, like discomfort/nervousness etc. but he has a constant cough, even if its just clearing his throat every few minutes or something brief like that) and he could even talk about what Laki did to him physically (though I think that would still be a very brief thing, he might struggle to go into any detail) but he can't even touch on it, emotionally.

I think emotions are his big issue with communication. He can generally talk about the physical effects of things, because they are objective, but when it comes to how he feels, the thoughts he has, etc? He has no idea how to open up. I think he can detach from the objective parts of it enough that he can talk about them without emotion, but the subjective parts and the way he feels, which are all emotion...

Part of it is because he never learned how. All his social skills and such were learned manually, but they were all interpersonal, and not about him. He never learned how to direct these skills inwards, and so he just doesn't know how to talk about his negative feelings. He can write them in his journal no problem, which is really how he deals with everything - but talking about them to someone else, having to worry about how they perceive him and what they must be thinking, and also just feeling so seen - that's too much for him tbh.

His mind just works in really weird ways, and the way he navigates vulnerability is confusing. Trying to get him to open up can seriously be like pulling teeth, but he can manage some very basic, surface-level admissions that lack too much emotion. Sometimes he can't even manage that though! Sometimes he gets inside his own head too much or he doesn't have enough time to decide on the right way to word things, and he closes up before he even manages that.

I worry all this makes him appear inconsistent in the way I write him, but his reactions are just very dependent on circumstance. If he's caught off guard and has time to prepare an answer or think about his exact wording, if he knows the person he's talking to, if he's well-rested or exhausted, etc. It's really interesting to explore bc he can be so difficult and confusing, but it can be very variable :'D

#headcanon. #this is LOOONG #but yeah I get insecure about this bc his mind works in mysterious ways sometimes #but there is method to the madness!!! #he's just weird <3