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secretsideblogshhhh · 7 months

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Imagine you live in a kingdom. Everything in this kingdom was modeled after the founder of the whole city.

This means the house sizes, the utensils, the clothes, every single thing, was made for him.

And for plenty of people this is fine. The clothes fit them, the cabinets are easy enough to reach, the size of the tools are perfect.

But you're a fair bit smaller than this guy was. The clothes are extremely baggy on you. You struggle to keep them on. They get in your way and you trip over them all the time.

You can't reach the cabinets, the tools are hard to hold in your hands.

Everything you do takes so much effort because nothing here was made for you.

But everyone else gets annoyed by this, not because of the system made that makes life hard on you, but because you're different.

They hate you constantly tripping.

You mention maybe getting a belt to help with that, and everyone you know gets mad at you for even suggesting it.

"you don't really need a belt"

"you could just take some growth medicine, get bigger"

"you don't deserve special treatment just because you're different"

"well everything works just fine for me, I don't know why you have issues"

And it's frustrating. The only person who you can relate to is your buddy Tim, who's a whole lot bigger than the guy everything was made for was.

His clothes cut off his circulation, they actively hurt him.

He hits his head on doors, he can barely use the tools because they're so small to him.

He wants to make his own clothes, but he can't afford it because he can't keep a job.

No one wants to hire a guy who can't hold the tools, or who needs a break every few hours so he can take off his clothes in the bathroom to breathe.

And even if he did manage to get the money, the tools are too small. He'd have to hire someone.

And hiring someone would cost so much more.

Of course the responses he gets are similar to yours.

"you're just lazy, it's not that hard to get and keep a job"

"have you tried just losing weight? That's probably what's causing all your issues"

You and him bond over this. How the world is cruel to you for being different. You found each other because of you were different from everyone else and it brought you closer

But then people see your friendship. It would be natural to assume that your friendship makes sense. You have the same struggles after all.

But no.

People see that you're friends and say

"well obviously you're both making up your issues, it's so rare for even one of you to exist. But 2 of you? You have to be lying for attention"

You try to show them that your issues are real, because you want help. You'd love for others to understand and help you fix the way the kingdom is built.

But people look away, they ignore you. Either pretending to not see you or they just invalidate your experience.

"everyone has rough days"

"you just got some poorly made clothes"

"He just wants an excuse so he doesn't have to work"

"if you just tried harder-"

Everyone seems to have some solution for your issues, ones you've tried a hundred times before.

Everyone seems to have an opinion on your existence. Usually pity or disgust. Often a mix of both, though the disgust isn't something anyone will admit to aloud. Their actions speak loud enough though.

That's how it feels to have a disability. Especially an invisible one. You have to fight just to be heard and it's exhausting.

Everything that you do is a struggle people who aren't disabled just don't understand. And it's infuriating how they write you off just because they don't want to even try to understand

#physically disabled #invisible disability #disabled #chronic disability #disability #fibromyalgia #did system #the secret system #disabled pride #disability pride #vent #chronic pain

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theneighborhoodwatch · 11 months

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It makes me sorta sad that people constantly overlook that Poppy is disabled as per her character description. It literally says her puppet is built in a way where other puppets end up being the ones doing most of the work on-set because it's difficult to impossible for her. Poppy isn't baking cakes; she's likely directing other her other friends in how to bake a cake because she's incapable of actually doing most of the labor involved (which is probably a lot more fun when you love in a children's puppet show, and probably becomes way less fun after said show ends). Her daily life likely relies on help from her loved ones. In this case, her friends. She's not just an anxious hermit, she's an anxious *disabled* hermit who probably needs to be checked up on so long as people are able to do that. And depending on what's going on in Welcome Home that might not be a thing that happens anymore. Being left to the mercy of your own disability mental and otherwise while the world falls apart. As a disabled person in a similar position, *that* is some frickin horror.

... OH.

well, now i feel very silly for not considering this earlier, given how much i've talked about how one's autonomy (and how their life is affected by the lack thereof) seems to be something that comes a LOT in both what little we've seen of welcome home proper and what's been alluded to in concept art and some posts scattered around clown's blog. i'd point out that her bio provides an in-show explanation for why other puppets often end up assisting her (i.e. Scared) but i don't think that even has to be mutually exclusive. that fear could be - and probably is - genuine, but like. i Remember both myself* and physically disabled friends scrambling for more "socially acceptable" excuses to get out of something we knew we couldn't do before we knew what was going on with us, and continuing to do so even after finding out because you either knew for a fact that the other person wouldn't take you seriously if you told them you couldn't do (x) thing because of a disability, or because you weren't sure if they would (thanks to the behavior of people who did not.) i'm not Saying that welcome home is aiming to reflect that exact experience, because there isn't nearly enough of welcome home that's publicly available for me to make that claim, but i was reminded of that while thinking about this ask.

i'm picking up what you're putting down is what i think i'm trying to say. i could say More wrt how this ties back into some stuff i've talked about under the "wh speculation" tag before, but i have a hard time putting it into the right words and i don't wanna take too much away from the ask itself. c'est la vie. * to clarify, i am not physically disabled or chronically ill. mentally though, it's a whole other story that i don't feel like getting into on my Funny Puppet Torment Nexus Blog.

#ask #anonymous #welcome home #poppy partridge #wh speculation #....? not really speculating on Plot so much as pointing out an aspect of poppy that doesn't really get talked about #a new route that could be taken if you will #i will tag it as #findings #just in case

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fantasyinvader · 1 year

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The idea Claude is "morally flexible" is a very disturbing claim. When people talk about being as such, it's often described as them being able to turn their morality off, that if the situtation calls for it they're willing to do things they'd normally say are wrong. But this carries implications.

I think one of the best examples of this inadvertantly saying something about a character is Kira Yamato, from Gundam SEED/SEED Destiny. After getting the Freedom, Kira says he won't kill anymore but he continues to fight. But the thing is, Kira doesn't stop killing. After this point, he's shown to be able to kill if he feels he needs to. Shoot a ship in order to protect Orb (his countries)'s soldiers? People are wrong to be upset at him despite us seeing the bodybags. He's even been shown cutting a ship in half, or taking a swing at the Impulse's cockpit when pressed (despite him later saying he wasn't fully focused on the fight). The show treated Kira like a paragon, and people holding things against him was meant to say that they're in the wrong.

In crossover games, Kira is treated differently. He's called out for ATTACKING people out of nowhere, hurting others in order to fight for what he believes in. They ask him what kind of example does he set when he fights people to make them stop fighting, all while protecting what's important to him. His fighting style is called self-aggrandizing, that it's meant to make him look powerful and important, while saying that his actions would put a lot of blood on his hands. If he disables an enemy mobile suit on an active battlefield, leaving the pilot unable to defend themselves surrounded by enemies, if that pilot ends up dying Kira shares the fault. That Kira's actions would only serve to make him more enemies.

Kio Asuno, from Gundam AGE, also vows to stop killing but he's shown protecting pilots he's disabled, he's shown to constantly hold back against enemies as he tries to talk them down instead of just overwhelming them with his power, while his comrades call out his actions alongside a number of viewers…but Kio also gets treated with a lot more respect in crossover games than Kira does. Re:Creators, which had two of the leads of SEED Destiny who were screwed over when the show brought Kira back, even had scenes which called out this exact same mentality. That beating someone up and expecting them to be your friends afterwards is the kind of thinking from a show for little kids, and that deciding to kill someone when they give you no other option isn't that far removed from killing someone for fun. After all, you still decide to end someone's life because they made you struggle.

So, take that and apply it to Claude. The idea that Claude is "morally flexible," that he can turn off his morality if the situation calls for it. Why? Hopes makes a case that it's him trying to achieve his own vision for how the world should be but in a more unrestrained due to the trauma of killing his brother. That in order to make the world CLAUDE wants, he's willing to do scummy things. Just like how Edelgard is willing to do anything in order to make the world SHE wants. That they're willing to put their own desires above the lives and safety of countless others, and even worse they're freaking wrong. Devs have literally said that the world was built to support Silver Snow, a story where Rhea is the good guy, and Claude's arc in VW is in part him realizing this and recognizing his own prejudices.

Hopes, instead, sees Claude want to destroy a religion so he can shape the world HE sees fit. Or in short, Hopes Claude is committing genocide against the Central Church so he can… build a world where people aren't "othered" for being different. This isn't Claude being "morally flexible," this is Claude being a goddamn monster. This is Claude being compared to Nemesis, someone Engage uses to represent the big bads of Fodlan, and that's without Thales and his cronies playing him like a fiddle like they attempt to do with Edelgard.

Hopes Claude isn't a hero, that was the "pure good guy" version in Houses. He's just a dumbass villain.

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