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Outside the Maxi

#he went to go get the groceries #that last post was embarassing let’s all pretend it didn’t happen #I’ve calmed down #bugthots #unfortch most of the reserve art I have left is like #less the content ppl have come to anticipate from me and more like the content I have forced ppl to tolerate from me #aka autobiographical comics of a sort #you can really tell I was playing a certain video game when I drew this one huh #that’s embarassing

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throwback to when all my most indulgent friends lived at the same address as me

#and could not escape the infodump #jk they ate it up #actually #bugthots #drarry #harry potter #draco malfoy #I’ve been listening to the new lost recap video all day and I still could not tell you the plot of lost s 1 #soon the script will b engraved into my brain but like #divorced from all meaning #just mishmash phonics #and it got me thinking #is this what it’s like for ppl when I talk abt shit? #tbf I have not been paying it enough attention to learn the key info of who is who and I think that might b the main barrier here

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it hurts, wanting

#bugthots #wishing for things is like #your hope makes room for something #like hole in you #and you’re hoping it gets filled but #it isn’t and sometimes it can’t be #it hurts and stuff #in a sucking pit kind of way #and it’s easy to get scared out of hopefulness #but then on the other hand it’s like #what if there’s potential here for real #hard 2 tell #s it worth the wound :( #but I’m feeling like it is rn #even tho it’s scary #I am fragile?

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#first piece of new art :) #new iPad alert gonna b so annoying w the posts for a min here probably #me fighting my demons #bugthots #2023 more like 202threlapse #slings and arrows amirite #haha #get pierced idiot #also getting ready to like take 2 on a bunch of momentous life stuff #that I was too menthol ew to succeed in the first time around #sure do hope I fuck up less this time <- person who is afraid of fucking up more #this is all negative sounding bc I’m scared first but I’m also hopeful second #it’s just scary bc it’s important to me which is a good thing #wow tag vent almost as good as therapy look at that progress now I gotta work on Believing It #just like Naruto always says #i think #cw blood

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2days journal (8/18/23)

Got a new apartment it’s got a couch in it as of yesterday and the whole place smells intermittently like it’s haunted by a 60s bridge party of Du Maurier smoking housewives and the building has a spooky unlit trash dungeon and I found a free tv in there and I might go back for a second one I saw and I’m afraid there might be lead in the water and I don’t know how to find out if there is and my good friends live a block away and half my clothes are still in their spare room and I’m going to get a cat soon and I’m going to get a coffee slushy from the gas station now

#bugthots #comparison shopping for televisions in the garbage cavern #it’s so haunted and dark it looks like dark souls it looks like bloodborne it looks like pathologic #a lot of the cat ads were so sad actually like #outdoor cat unvaccinated unfixed and declawed free because he peed in the house one time #like I’m glad you’re giving your cat away you shouldn’t have had one in the first place #sooo many pictures of little squirming kittens tho and they’re so cute

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what's ur opinion on TERFs

#bugthots #I wish terfs would stop being my friends moms #I wish my friends moms would stop being terfs #I wish terfs would stop putting their bad dogshit opinions on the internet where my friends moms can read it #I wish all terfs no platform and no voice and no influence #I wish all terfs a bad day forever #I wish all terfs were banned by god from talking abt autism and lightning when they do #I wish all terfs cold showers and rocks in their shoe #I wish all terfs no money #mad and going to go buy a Costco rotisserie chicken about it

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2days journal (7/11/23)

#yesterday technically #oh no did I miss free slurpee day!? #bugthots #I bought pants for work and everything #that’s a big deal #they r letting me train for the bar even tho I’m leaving in a month #TT I’m gonna apply for bartender jobs whenever I get settled so I’m super grateful for the experience #so excited to leave tho even tho I like the place and my manager #dudes who work in kitchens be normal challenge #impossible apparently

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Due to popular singular demand, I have opened up a print shop on INPRNT :-)

#@saintgarbanzo it’s you you’re singular demand #I’ll probably add more things kind of on a whim #if there’s anything anyone would like me to add lmk :-) #also if you have ever (or do ever) commission me for art and would like a print lmk and I can drop ship it to you for the cost of printing #cause you shouldn’t have to pay for art twice #drarry #harry potter #draco malfoy #hp fanart #if u recognize them in this one I love you #also today days old when I learnt that tumblr will just randomly unfollow ppl on a whim w out my input #fascinating and mysterious #bugthots

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#bugthots #hey. #unsuspicious #gives great advice #has good ideas #telling the truth #friendly little guy

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The Park

#holy shit #I’m so excited to live near this dog #I’m not even a dog person rly but she’s special #and perfect #a silver lining to the gut wrenching left field homesickness I felt scrolling thru my camera roll to get to old art #it’ll only be a few years and if I want to go back I can go back and it will be even better bc like #I’ll have used that time #to accomplish things and gain experience #blah blah blah #shut up and make a self indulgent zine abt it #maybe I will #bugthots

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bugthots

#bugthots #thinkings for chumps #only idiots think #I’m always fighting off thoughts w swords #they mean trouble #txt is poorly copied from Line Goes Up by folding ideas #thank god for youtube I’m basically an iPad baby #there was a time I seriously thot I’d do anything to go to med school and now thinking to hard abt how were meat makes me want to #scream out loud #or like thinking abt my implications re:existing #extremely goodnight from your future husband Draco coded #writing these tags is almost thinking I should stop

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I got tagged by @maziktheli ! I am not tagging anyone bc I did this in the least comprehensible way possible but you can see the questions here ! Sorry it’s not mice! I went to finish drawing them on my packing break but my brain is liquid and all I could make myself draw was claymation au and this nightmare wall of text. I’ll have mice later.

#bugthots #diary comic #I am so overwhelmed I can’t even do basic things #so instead I do useless things #unread messages are thru the roof #but so is my 4 way Tetris score

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Schrodinger’s mood

#stupid #bugthots #when I was in hs I did a 4 color etching that was made of my doodles #from the margins of my work and assignments #it looked kind of like this #sorry no art moving is hard #I’ll finish the New Years wips I have sometime #probably in February or something stupid

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2days journal (7/16/23)

If I had a nickel for every time a dude w boundary issues begged me like, to an embarrassing degree, to remove my mask (and like, had even literally seen my face already so ?) I would have 2 nickels, which isn’t a lot but it’s extremely weird it happened twice (2 days in a row!) (it felt like living in a busted simulation)

#it was literally the exact same conversation loop #toddler behavior like #‘Why? Please? But why? Please? Please? Aw why? Why tho? ‘ #‘but I want to see ur face’ well I want u to go away like Jesus fuck #they were both short Mexican guys too like that’s too many things in common #is it gonna happen again tomorrow!? #bugthots #good news is bar shift went rly good today TT

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#original art #study 4 a painting #bugthots #these things will melt a hole in the plastic case you put them in #it’s extremely spooky #I am in my dread era again it’s so cyclically recurring I should just rename it to dread season #dread week #which is 1 out of every 3 to 5 weeks #children’s book series like the magic treehouse or boxcar children or Nancy drew or whatever #but instead of a mystery of the week each installment is dedicated to a new overwhelming existential anxiety which is explored in depth #the mc has to like navigate the world anew after learning about like #forever chemicals or environmental collapse or mortality or whatever #n e ways

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2days journal (8/3/23)

#bugthots #:l #exhausted and drained and also tired and sleepy #hollow but also sad #indifferent but afraid #i contain bummer multitudes #I think once I get 2 where I’m going it will pass #deep down I’m excited and I love my friends and being reunited w them ik that intellectually #also hungry I forgot that one #and my throat hurts bc I did a little self indulgent aimless shriek when I realized I have to navigate an airport w out glasses #is this grounding? I am feeling more grounded wow I identified previously nebulous and blunted feelings and it helped #all bc I wanted to record my complaints in my virtual notebook should I journal fr.?. #the drawings are from that part of nite that feels #more yesterday even tho it’s today and so I backdated idk it feels true