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bbina · 14 days

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cant believe btl ended. gasped gagged silenced jaw dropped. i feel so empty now that we will get no more yn eunseok bicker, ynbin, anton sassy moment or js the whole backstreet boys chaos like..... whats the purpose of life.......💔💔

well anw this proves how much youre such a GOOD GREAT GLORIOUS WRITER BBINA bc oml i dont think i can move on from this ever..... will reread it in a couple of months.... or weeks.... or days....😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔

also icb eunseok got himself a GIRL LIKE WHATATWYGDGEGEHEHEHDHEHDBDBFFB like its been a yr obviously we couldve seen it coming but i thought jinsu (yes him even though he broken up w his exgf like 1yr plus plus ago) or taro wouldve gotten themselves a gf first after ynbin got official🤭🤭

thank u for creating and writing such an amazing, wonderful, glorious, enchanting, perfect, cutest wonbin smau bbina like btl will forever be carved in my heart as the best binnie's smau frfr 🤞🏻🤞🏻 (also the wonbins text when he inserted the "read between the line" gagged me ngl like that ate sm)

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still hasn't sinked in tbh.... like wow... its all over now... the story is all wrapped up.... ITS OVER.... no more backstreet boys, no more the ballad of songs and sungchan... no more my baby..... no more w ♥ no more btl....

the rereadability of btl needs to be studied like tell my why i'm still stuck at drunken words until now.. like mf its been WEEKS since i posted it but yet im still at the restaurant 💔 i really outdid myself and i can say that bc i reread ALL of my shit from all blogs i had in the past 😫

EUNSEOK GOT A GF CHAPTER 🔜 ⁉️ jinsu got his heart broke and never tried ever again 😭 hopefully his new smau can heal him ❤️‍🩹 TEEHEE

thank you sosososososoos much for always tuning in and sharing your thoughts !!! it rlly makes me smile when i see people come through and share what they feel about each chapter i posted! that was my motivation lowkey... loved LOVEDD LOOOVEEDD hearing everyone's thoughts because i like how it all varies depending on the person.. and how yall started a little therapy session with me as the therapist for everyone's situationships like okay i did NOT expect that 😭

gagged y'all with the "read between the lines" shit from wonbin huh... the story really did come in a full circle and the fact wonbin mentioned the title of the own fic he's starring at... GAGGED YALL SO HARD .. jk i gagged myself ... lets all pat ourselves on our backs for a job well done!! i could've done this without you guys so again, even if i sound like a broken record.. THANK YOU 🫵

#mailbox #btl ask #★.mail: ⛄ anon

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dist0rt1on · 2 months

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Welcome to the one and only, Dist0rt1on tumblr blog~

Feel free to call me Dis (any pronouns are fine)! Just like lots of other accounts; I'll post writings (mainly x reader fics), drabbles, or just silly little thoughts of silly little characters.

Anw, I write both SFW and NSFW (i think...) NSFW are going to be rare but i'll put up warnings so MINORS DNI ON THOSE POSTS!!!!

I have a giant writer's block a lot of times so expect me to appear and disappear from time to time (my 2020 wattpad account is crying on its grave)

I don't really proofread my works so much and my first language isn't english so so sorry if there are a lot of grammar mistakes 😭

If you're somehow still here (HOW but okay :3) I'm interested in many medias!! But my main/comfort media is actually Mob Psycho 100! I only add a media to my masterlist once I write a character on it so you might expect this one to come...

Aside from Mp100 I'm interested in Hi3, Genshin, Hsr, Pjsk, One Piece, Bsd, Crk, JJK, Mashle, and many more 🗣‼

Also my top 3 characters are all fool fraudsters 😭😭😭 Vill-V (Hi3), Reigen Arataka (MP100), Sampo Koski (HSR) they slay fr fr

If you're ACTUALLY still here (damn!!) I hope you'll like my writings as it is ^^ I struggle trying to 'perfect' my works. But in the end they still don't give off that 'wow' aura I want in my writings... Trying my best though 😔😔✊✊

Get well soon dis!!! (Maybe I'm mentally ill...)

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tearsona · 3 years

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true beauty | h.c. with fem!reader | part three

a/n: i’ve really been enjoying writing this so far tbh… anw here’s part three! pls let me know what you think i love receiving messages. i wonder who y’all want y/n to end up with lol… (: also i apologize for any typos/errors, i tend to notice them after like 3 times of rereading the post…

part one | part two

after spending the last day of the trip doing team-building activities, they finally give y’all a break and let you enjoy the rest of the night with live music and more food like last night. seojun, whom you’ve barely interacted with all day, wanted to eat dinner minus the commotion, so now you’re waiting for him by a bench far enough from the group of people.

“ya, where did you get this?” you gasp in disbelief as you bring out the bottle of soju from the paper bag seojun brought along with the containers of food he’d taken from back there, but you quickly put it back in fear that someone else might see it. “this isn’t allowed!”

he shrugs and tells you “just ‘cause” when you ask him why he has alcohol when he’s never really been a drinker, let alone on a school trip. you’re not entirely convinced so you raise your brows at him, and then he goes, “kids can’t drink,” as he steals the bag away from you.

and then you take out the containers from the other bag one by one and you’re like “wow, han seojun!” and give him two thumbs up because he didn’t disappoint in getting you as much of your favorite food and extra sauce packets as you always liked.

he smiles proudly and replies with “i know you so well,” when you’re patting the space beside you so he sits and you lay some of the containers on his lap.

suddenly he goes, “i’m sorry.”

you look at him all confused and mumble, “why are you apologizing? weirdo,” as you tap his arm twice to get him to move away a little for more elbow space and he obliges.

it’s because he remembers seeing you walking away last night, and he says he thought you were mad that he wasn’t able to hang out with you. you hand him his pair of chopsticks and tell him that it’s nothing, that you went to bed early and when were you ever clingy with him? because for a fact, you’ve always been the easy-going, low-maintenance type of friend… never once pushed yourself on him or whined whenever he cancelled on you (which didn’t happen often).

it’s partly true - you did go to bed early, but you don’t tell him that you actually stayed up for another hour or two overthinking what you’d seen until finally settling with the belief that it was none more than friendly between seojun and jugyeong so now you swear that it’s nothing to you anymore.

you can’t help but be curious though as you watch him open the bottle of soju for himself and dive first into the food, so you tell him you saw jugyeong crying to him that night and ask him why she was.

“jugyeong… likes lee suho? and what about it? i mean, it’s obvious he likes her back.”

seojun scoffs. “she thinks he likes someone else.” and he makes eye contact with you at the words someone else.

and just like him, you think it’s ridiculous.

so you finally dive into your food and once you’ve swallowed, you go, “well, you could’ve spared her the tears and told her the truth. you’re not that cruel, are you?”

the word ‘cruel’ makes seojun stop chewing his food in guilt, blinking a couple times at you as you wait for an answer.

“i… didn’t want to.”

you tsk and you’re about to scold him, but when you open your mouth, he shuts you up with “i-like-lim-jugyeong” and you freeze. he initially waits to see the reaction on your face but then all of a sudden, he’s feeling small under your gaze and looks away, because this is the first time he’s actually said it out loud (excluding all the times he’d done it to lee suho without actually meaning it) and he’s not sure if the pounding in his chest is due to pain or excitement.

the silence is agonizing because he’s not sure what’s going on in your mind, but he’s thinking somewhere along the lines of ‘see, karma’s a bitch’ or ‘you get what you deserve’ or ‘you’re on your own now’ or maybe worse, and he readies himself for the onslaught…

but it doesn’t come. how? when you’re unable to form words… as your mind is too busy willing your now even more fragmented heart to cooperate with you - at least long enough to last through dinner until you can be on your own again - plus, you’re suddenly feeling quite suffocated.

“h-hey, stop looking at me like that. i—eat your food,” he says, taking it upon himself to pick up food from the container and urge you to open your mouth with an “ah.”

but then your brain finally catches on and you push his hand away gently and quietly mumble, “i can feed myself.”

the next morning, as you’re waiting for the buses to pick you up, sua pulls some of her friends and a few others from your class into a game of truth, so you’re all sitting down in a circle on the grass, holding inflatable hammers and passing the lie detector around.

“lee suho! have you kissed before?”

jugyeong looks at him with hopeful eyes. you’re curious yourself if suho has already had his first kiss during the time you’ve been separated. i mean, it’s unlikely but… who knows?

but suho hesitates until the time is up and he’s hit by a bunch of toy hammers.

so he’s next and he attempts to challenge seojun with “love or friendship?” and the question surely has some layers in it, with the way he’s looking at the other.

but seojun looks all serious when he grabs the lie detector and answers “love” without even giving it a thought - as if it were the easiest question in an exam. the device pings without a shock and seojun looks satisfied with that. you’re not entirely sure what that means but your face falls and suho doesn’t fail to catch that.

sua cringes and goes, “ah, must he be so cheesy?” and then tells everyone to get him so he’s attacked by the bunch and you don’t participate.

you’re still distracted by your own thoughts when suddenly seojun’s pointing his hammer towards you. “am i handsome?”

there’s a smug look on his face while he waits for your answer, so you say “no” pointedly but the toy betrays you when it sends you a shock, and you barely flinch because you’re annoyed. you know he’s never going to let you live that down.

suho straightens up in his seat when jugyeong enters the bus and he calls out her name as an invitation to sit next to him, but he receives only an awkward nod from the girl before she finds herself a seat near the end of the bus.

seojun takes advantage of this opportunity to sit next to her and normally you wouldn’t mind, if only you didn’t know he had feelings for the girl… so you’re left feeling disregarded and you mindlessly drop down to the nearest empty seat before you can even realize that it’s suho next to you when you notice him stiffen… so now you’re looking at each other and it’s an awkward situation you’ve put yourself in.

you grab your phone as a distraction and soon you’re swiping and tapping at it harshly as you continuously ignore the new message notifications asking you where you are and what you’re doing…

and then eventually you get tired of it so you lock your phone and shove it in your bag with a sigh. slowly, you turn your head to look at suho in curiosity, who happens to also have been looking at you.

“um…” is all you say before settling to just looking at the back of the seat in front of you for the rest of the bus ride.

meanwhile, the boys are hollering and seojun is the object of their teasing. you hear him say “wake her up and you’re dead,” but this only causes them to tease him further, calling him a simp and saying that he’s whipped so you sneak a look and jugyeong is asleep on seojun’s shoulder, and the boys are taking pictures until he tells them to piss off.

he catches your eyes and looks a bit surprised to see you because he’s been wondering all along where you’ve been sitting but before he can even mouth anything to you, you immediately shift your gaze back to the front.

later on, boredom gets the best of you and soon you’re unexpectedly poking on your seatmate’s arm to get his attention and he looks at you perplexedly.

you mouth ‘what are you listening to’ but suho merely stares back at you with eyes that speak why are you talking to me before turning his attention away and back to the window.

you resign with a small pout, resting your back against your seat and mentally cursing at yourself at the poor decision. you close your eyes instead.

but then you open it not long after and there’s a hand offering an earbud in front of you, much to your surprise. you try to hide your disbelief and take the earbud from his hand before he even changes his mind.

your ear is met with a familiar tune that you haven’t heard in ages and you gasp, looking at him with wide eyes and a grin. “you still listen to this?”

suho nods his head once in response. it’s barely noticeable, but you catch him smile a little and you can’t help the warmth that spreads across your chest.

“remember when we competed over this to see who could sing the highest note?”

“o,” suho replies with an initial frown, before he chuckles slightly at the memory while you giggle.

seeing his smile almost reach his eyes makes you feel a little bolder and more comfortable so you say, “ah, let me see what else you have,” when you grab the phone from his hand. he’s startled and defensive at first but lets you do it anyway.

you scroll through his list in a mix of both amazement and excitement. “wah, lee suho,” you mutter as a wave of nostalgia hits you at the sight of the different titles of old songs you used to love together before everything went… downhill.

you hum along to the music and tread through different memories, laughing and arguing over which person remembers the details more correctly, and you’re careful not to step anywhere near the sensitive line so as to not kill the mood.

to be honest, you’re not sure where the line is, so when he points out and says, “that was on seyeonie’s birthday…” you look up because you weren’t expecting him to mention his name or acknowledge his memory even once at all. you feel comforted by that.

you don’t even realize that you’ve been smiling at each other, or that the bus had pulled into a stopover sometime ago, until you’re pulled out of the bubble by a familiar voice calling your name.

your head shoots up to the source and seojun is giving the boy next to you the iciest glare you’ve ever seen, but then he switches to look at you and it’s less piercing, but he doesn’t look happy with you either. you quickly pause the music and the movement steals his attention, so now he’s looking at the phone in your hand.

you’re used to the tension that’s always forming whenever the two men are in close proximity with each other, but this one feels a bit unfamiliar.

seojun drops a plastic bag from the convenience store on your lap and you take a brief glance at its contents. you see snacks and what’s looking like hangover pills. (you’d accidentally gotten drunk last night after, well, you know… and he was actually forced to take care of you without being caught by the teacher.)

“learn how to answer your texts,” he says coldly before walking back to his seat.

you feel like you’ve just been caught in the act of committing a crime, but then you try to laugh it off to ease the awkwardness. “ah, don’t mind him…”

part four

#true beauty #lee suho #han seojun #true beauty headcanons #han seojun x reader #lee suho x reader #hwang inyeop #lim jugyeong #moon gayoung #cha eunwoo #team suho #suho #team seojun #seojun #suseo #tbhc

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kreidewaltz · 3 years

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YEAR END LOVE.

happy holidays and advance happy new year everyone!! this was supposed to be for christmas but.. yeah hope u had a great time w your loved ones <33 this is for my friends who helped me get thru shitty times, who made me laugh so hard, and made me feel appreciated :) to my mutuals, thank u for taking ur time to talk to me!! any interactions from u guys makes me so so happy <3 im proud of you for getting through this year!! this is gonna b a long one .. hehe <3 sorry if i didn't mention u!! i still love u :( this is in no particular order dw dw ily all d same

to my followers, mutuals, and people who likes my stuff in general ツ

AAAAAAA guys ily you rock !! thank u for supporting me and just being there for me (esp for the ones who listened and stayed w my shit !!) ty for liking, reblogging about my stuff, or just interacting w me!! pls pls talk to me let's have some good convo hehe i hope no one will send me or any blog hate bc that isn't cool >:( happiness and love only are allowed people!!!

@sunakissses ツ

my bestie, my bae, babe <3 you rock val if im honest :( even tho we haven't been friends for a long time, we just clicked !! and yeah talking to u is just makes me at ease n u have that comfy vibes :)) and our interactions r so funny and wholesome <33 i just love when im talking to ya you know :(( and idk i love ur supportive aura whenever i do something hehe :( lets keep going next year and be more closer >:) and yes u and suna r going to be the cat's first ever aunt and uncle <3

@romaune ツ

okay .. the literal meaning of sunshine, yes you gracie baby :( you're so wholesome i wanna cry thats me 2 u !! i love your aura and just everything, i get so excited when u reply to my asks fr, because ure so enthusiastic n i like that a lot !!! :( ik we don't talk a lot yet but from our interactions (or just us screamin abt our mans winks) i know i gained a friend, a good n funny friend for that:) and ure so like hinata i wanna squish and hug and talk to!! i love how we scream abt our ongoing suna brainrots HAHA can't forget that <33

@cryoqi ツ

people put ur hands up 4 the coolest person ive met !!!! >:( istg you're so kind and so funny even if thats not ur intention T_T at first i was intimidated by u but then yeah <33 we vibe :( only the real ones know abt us and me bein your bread anon <33 ure rlly great and can't forget d time us and dove sang thru texts ...? yes that i cried while laughing HAHA, and yes i love the way u write 2!! so you and just amazing overall :)) n yeah i like to talk to u a lot in the server !!! ure so funny & relatable at times hihi

@miyasangel ツ

arden bae !!! you're so ... cool and pretty and one of the people i want 2 talk to in here <3 you're like cool and the way you write is chefs kiss >:( and i love it whenever we talk abt random things AHSHS and when we talk abt atsumu <33 i love love that !! n yeah good thing i interacted w u b4 on ur old blog and get to talk to you more !!! i was so shy n nervous while sending you asks sometimes LMAO idk why :(( ure rlly a great friend <3 n i think u also became a factor on why im liking inarizaki :D

@cafemiya ツ

omg hail to issy !! i know we don't talk that much yet but i literally like u a lot >:( you're rlly great w your long fics !! n handmade heaven lead me to you and ur asks <3 and you're so chaotic too HAHA i like that :) dw ill always shower u w compliments bc u so deserve it bby !!! and i squeal sometimes when u reply to my asks w the same energy :(( n yes i just love you and your vibe in general <3 and im so excited 4 the collab !!! <3 thanks for reaching me out hehe or my slowburn fic journey wont happen :( anw ily and keep slayin issy baby!!!! :D

@kuro0luvr ツ

omg kieran .. the big phat supporter of chlojime is here people !!! <3 i just love loooove talking to you esp in the server & we scream abt anything n everything :( and thank u for always giving me support and everyone else when we're down!! you're one of my sunshines 2 :( i love how we just talk and instantly b close friends you know!! even tho we dont chat like in dms we r so close hehe :( and yes ill never forget how happy u got when i complimented that u have akaashi vibes <3 ty for being a good friend n supporter to me :(((

@oikawasbliss ツ

milo everyday !!! >:) i missed our interactions tbh :( you're just so chill n i vibe w u a lot!! your themes omg i want em its so aesthetic and everything <3 and uhm i love ur love for oikawa >< i mean who wouldn't but whenever i see smth kawa related i think of u immediately T_T and yes ure just so so cool :(( lets talk more soon gah and maybe talk abt aot hehe smirks <3 and yes i just like ur themes and vibe a lot <3 lets talk more soon gah >:)

@himichii ツ

I KNOW we didn't talk really like until few weeks ago but ... you're so funny and kind n lowkey sweet HAHA u were so intimidating before i can't talk 2 u <//3 but im glad i did !! not me writin this and listening to the playlist u made for me :( omg thank u for that and the other that u posted, i felt nostalgic and (good) sad on d inside <3 HAHS lets talk more omfg idk what 2 say :( OH oh ure a greatt writer :( the angst u sent yesterday made me sad gah <3 let's talk more in the new years!!! :(

@hajimine ツ

oml lexy bae where do i start??? omg ily like <3 because you're so nice n sweet n so funny 2!! glad i started participating in your ask games and on that we became friends hehe :( i love how we just talk abt anything on your asks <33 like ur life keeps me entertained HAHA and when u became more chaotic n all that .. i liked it!!! :( and oh u write so well if u didnt know >:( can't wait 4 more interactions w you bae !! <3 and ugh omg ily <3 literally cannot express how much :( you have good vibes n i wanna have that too !! and love how we just scream over one man ;D

@lcaita ツ

omg kai ... hi <3 HAHS sorry if im so awkward wtf but ure so cool and so funny !!! i like ur vibes always even tho ure not always around <3 and when youre around i just get happy !!! >< for some reason i love ur name hehe and uhm i love ur aesthetics hehe on ur acc !!! >:) and yes thank u for being a kind friend hehe :( lets talk more next yr abt anything!!! maybe abt ur mans (kaashi, semi, others) hehe ;)

@kemochie ツ

nea !!! i just . wanna say that you're a sweet human being :( and deserve the world :( ik we didnt interact much yet but !!! i love u already n your aura in general <3 and i just get soft on ur username for some reason T_T i love our little interactions from time 2 time n i wanna boost that more on the new years!! <3 idk i like u :( that's it thats my say :(

@nightmareupondaydream ツ

kana baby !!! im so grateful for u whenever u send me sweet words at random times ... and when i need it <3 and i missed our chats in dms :( lets do it again sometime !! im gonna be here for u okay :( and you're so sweet fr i love u,, and yeah just talkin about how shitty life is or how my writing goes, let's do that on the new years oki!! <3333

@ravscrii ツ

thank u for being there like really >< ik u have own probs to solve but you still helped me :( ty for being a great listener and supporter hehe <3 u deserve great things !!! and pls dw okay we're good even tho we arent talking that much :( i miss that hehe n ure a kind and funny person ASHS esp in the server ur replies n everything make me laugh :( lets talk more soon like the old times AAAAAA i miss it hehe <3 and goodluck on genshin HAHA pls entertain me w it even tho i don't play </3

@rintaroll ツ

olivia babe <3 omg i missed u sorry 4 not checking on u :( forgive me <//3 just wnna say u totally made my 2020 better n a little more bearable <3 i like ur vibes sm and ur name .. olivia wow i like it :( and oh you're so aesthetic like ur blog in general ??? hello pls step on me :( and u also influenced me (for some reason) to like tsumu more ?! which i dont mind at all .. i like it when we scream over tsumu or i tease u n him getting horknee :D yeah and god i can't forget the time we fangirled over gojo on ur asks ... and u sent me gojo gifs which made me scream <3 one of my unforgettable moments w ya!!

to my hajime anon + mod ツ

thank u for always being here :( and you just chatting w me makes me so happy <3 i hope you'll see this hehe and just thank u and ily yknow :( when im down or happy, or shitty you're just there, supporting me always <3 im so grateful for that!! and hajime anon mod ily :( thank u for taking ur time to chat w me and make me so happy hehe <3 take ur time okay :)

to my baby, stella ツ

AAAAAAA idk if you'll see this but shoot me an ask if u saw :( uhm i love ur vibes and you're so cool !! promise <3 and your theme changes r always so beautiful <3 pls pls i love you so much agh im so worried when u deactivated :( pls dont overwork okay whenever ure working :( i love talkin to u always in ur asks !!! ure so sweet and lovely grr >:( u deserve all d good things okay ily stel :((

#advance happy new year !! <3

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tangerinefluff · 3 years

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before i can freely dive back in on tumblr after being gone for a long time, i just wanted to address some asks i got during my inactivity:

where do I start lmao. so i’m not sure if I understood the asks the way the anons intended to communicate them. could be because of a little language barrier? and im actually having trouble deciphering hate or disrespect because i have almost never in my life been hated or received serious hate in any form (i was THE good girl, on the outside that is, my entire life no one messed with bc i dont really do anything hateful like it’s just not in my nature to respond in that way 😅 anw very besides the point) so you may talk to me again if that’s not what you (anon) intended.

to the first one who said this:

hi! i get ur suggestion but maybe word it differently? bc that was kinda rude. first off, this one (garbage) writing is for you too. second, i appreciate the cute hearts at the end to go with the insult in the beginning 😅 (but also) third, you’re on MY blog. i mean,,, with the first words i agree? LMAO. i apologize i don’t have the best thoughts but no i won’t change things. this is literally my own space and im sharing a little of what’s on my mind and they don’t have to be useful and significant and a WOW moment kind of post to everyone lmao. fourth, you can locate the unfollow/mute button yourself. im not actually sure what writings you meant, if it’s the unrelated or personal posts/asks, or the blog-related shitty posts. and i’m not very tidy with my tags either so i’ll try harder on that! will tag unrelated texts as “garbage.text” and blog-related texts as “hq.text”. fifth, that’s what i keep my following tabs open for actually. i follow a lot of even betterrr blogs with content like mine and esppp amazing artists you should check out yk instead of sending people ask like that..haha. lastly, i hope you don’t go around sending blogs asks like this one and just filter out the stuff you want to consume yourself. let’s be careful with words bestie! (edit: also my blog now is 90% reblogged art so.... why the big issue).

candidate #2 who quoted a tag on my post and said:

aah what i meant there is that i am actually having a hard time remembering.. in general. (cue the victim card script) yes dramatic but i feel like my memory’s deteriorating. can’t remember names of people i just met or friends from a long time. things i just did or the phone i just put down 30 secs ago. conversations and with whom. read somewhere that it could be due to mental health problems. and i cant keep track of all the interactions here so i mess things up sometimes which is why i’m less active. and its not bc my friends here are insignificant!!! lmao. dw i remember, i have my close friends’ UNs and names listed on my notes too :D

yk i wanna bite harder than this bc im a real B on the inside and i wanted to make light of this (somehow funny to me because ik i shouldn’t respond bc it feels like twitter behavior) &&& i wanted to show off my clean record that i haven’t ever been hated before lmao until this moment that is. im just super shocked cause i’m 22 and JUST realizing, oh so this is the dangerous stuff on the internet! like i thought i could’ve avoided them because im.... literally... nice that i’m almost boring here and unproblematic and trying my best and just talking about stuff i like. bestie is not special over here.

to those who have been following me from the first (cringe) days, would know i post reallyyyy randomly. it was more original posts rather than reblogs. and i minimized on that when my following increased. there’s 4.4k amazing people following this blog in just a little over a year. so i toned down the personal stuff right away. honestly got conscious and i didn’t like it because the blog started to feel less like it’s mine. i can’t openly switch to a different content/media or just scream nonsense. i can’t answer personal asks freely. can’t interact with mutuals. then i just decided that i won’t mind anymore. as long as my post isn’t offensive and/or rude, i will post as i wish. i don’t normally engage in hateful posts because it bums me out. like a minute into reading these asks they really upset me then writing my response and letting this sit in the drafts made me think i won’t bother anymore because i could just let the asks get lost into the void and it’s not like i did anything wrong, but i guess i had a little energy today. and yes, will be turning off anon asks from here on out.

i hope this one won’t get dragged out and i’m not expecting any interactions from this because i just wanna talk about stuff i’ve been getting into lately, back to regular programming.. AAAAHHHHH!!! not sure if this will reach the anons (expected they unfollowed because that’s the smart thing to do) but I still wish them a good day/night and a peaceful tumblr experience! (^^)

#garbage.text #hate asks cw #hate (?)/ rude asks #anon asks #please please dont open if reading rude asks makes you uncomfy!

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daysafternights · 4 years

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Living in a world where no one's innocent Oh, but at least we try

Yes, promised to have more updates. If you can't see, I'm trying my very best here. So my clinical started and yes neurosurgical is pretty tough I must say. Very very tired from clinical.

So I am already half way through my attachment like wow?! So week 1 was practically just trying my very best to break all sort of ice with the SNs, SSNs and CAs. Trying to show some proactiveness, initiatives and potential so to get gain some confidence level they have in me. So usually clinical we will have Clinical Instructors (CIs) who are supposed to be the ones guiding, helping and teaching us while we are on the job. Also, they are usually ward based meaning they are from the same ward we are posted to. However, this time round our CI was not from our ward like she was from the education department and she is new. LOL. Totally disastrous. Not saying she is bad, its just inexperience but okay give chance because we are student nurses as well and patients are giving us chances as well.

Anyway, she was late for our first day of attachment? LOL she said she got something to attend to and what's more important than your students? LOL you are a CI and you are work 8-5 office hours and you only have one job which is to take care of us and you aint even in the ward. Great first impression. Anw did a lot of junior work in the first week and got to know a lot of the SNs and SSNs. & good news they are all super nice and friendly. GDLL taking time to teach us the actual ground work in the ward and explain to me in details. Maybe they saw how my CI is like LMAO and also understand how tough nursing students life can be in a ward. There are a lot of junior SNs (3-4years working experiences) in the ward and they are so so so nice.

Anw we had to take case from week 2 onwards and this was actually stressing the shit out of me. LOL taking case means you are in charge of the patient from taking over the patient from previous shift, to handling the patient matter, to medication, to charting, to writing progress notes and to handing over to the next shift. LOL and tbh I was not very prepared. & honestly everyone case was so complicated to me HAHAHA fuck this is what happened when you didnt study hard and also forgetting everything you had studied before. Anw got help from the nicer SNs to learn how to write notes, do handing over and reading the medication system. So took the same case from Wednesday till Friday and my SSN asked me third day taking same case and you still don't know why this patient on this drug HAHAH I just gave a sheepish smile :) Anw I think I would give myself 50/100 for doing just a decent job. Got to be harder on myself in order to grow and learn more.

Anw so during week 2, our ward got another CI and lets name her LIHO cuz their tea suck. She is full of herself, always talking in a faking condescending manner and always poking her nose in to every matter in the ward. Anw cuz my own CI is new and LIHO is more senior so LIHO will put my CI down in front of students and other nurses. LIKE DAFUQ? LIHO will be damn dramatic whenever she finds something that is not align with like teaching guideline/ textbook answer. Then she will take photo and report. LOL isn't nurses supposed to help each other? FUCKING JOKES. Anw just to do some justice, textbook knowledge really should just stay in textbook. Not saying that nurses in wards are practising the wrong skills but some things are just not feasible to be carried out in textbook manner. If not one shift 12 hours also not enough for you to do la and your patient most prob die liao la GAN.

Also, there was still one incident that happened in the ward. So Patient X was known for having constant large amount diarrhoea and that day in the middle of a PT session, his diarrhoea leaked out of his diaper and like onto the floor. PANIC PANIC okay jokes. So my SSN, LIHO and I went to help to clean up etc. Anw Patient X was like confused, on restraint and not being able to take instructions la so its slightly harder to clean up and change. Throughout the whole incident, she was just putting me down. “Student, are you sure your gloves is clean? Student, you don't touch the curtain with your dirty gloves. Student, how about you just go get the bathing trolley for me?” Honestly I really just wanted to get out and let her do it on her own since she is so good but nvm since my SSN was inside and I feel bad enough for her already. & halfway changing, she actually said to my SSN: “Should have asked the male CA to come help!” SO WHAT AM I TO YOU? FUCKING BITCH THAT JUST COMPLETELY DISREGARD MY PRESENCE AND EFFORT. So I fuck you not bitch.

LOL anw got a lot of readings to read up and understand so I can survive my next two weeks! Hopefully I will find more motivation! Meanwhile, stay safe friends.

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viktuurificwriters · 6 years

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AO3 Writer: dropsofblue

Username: dropsofblue

Tumblr: intvicates

Name: Cate

Preferred genres in writing: Mostly AUs, Fantasy, Canon/Canon Divergence,Fluff, Smut, Angst. Overall though I don’t really have a preference and I tend to experiment based on what I can come up with.

Works:

I’ll start with the longest fic I’ve written which is “These hours are short;this heart says otherwise” which is basically an angst-filled Time Travel AU where Viktor and Yuuri try to repair their relationship as they were given more time with each other after being sent to the past. It follows a ‘redo’ of what happened in their relationship 4 years ago before tragedy struck. Mostly Angsty, a dash of emotional lovemaking and some fluffy flashbacks.

Another angsty one I’ve written (wow I can’t believe I introduced the angsty fics first;;) is entitled “Hold tight (you’re slowly coming back to life)” which is more of a character study on Viktor Nikiforov and how he came to be. There are some takes on Viktor’s past as well as studies on his possible experiences before he met Yuuri. I think this also falls also under Hurt/Comfort.

So moving on to the fluffy fics I’ve written, they’re all part of a series I made solely for AUs. Be warned though that the fics I write for this series (especially the ones with potential sequels) may not be posted chronologically. The first work is “With these hamsters, I am god" which follows Phichit and his attempts at matchmaking his best friend and their boss at the Magazine company they are working for. This is mostly fluff/humor with some innuendos here and there and briefly implied smut. The next part of the series is "Pine & Poetry" which is basically a secret admirer fic set in uni with cheesy poetry used for flirting. The poems used here were all written by me (p.s. they might get really cheesy or somewhat cringey but anw). Viktor and Yuuri pine for each and Viktor waxes poetry about Yuuri to get his attention.

About:

I write…a lot? And also art on the side. I’ve been writing for years and tbh I’m a fandom oldie. I have anxiety but writing and reading serves as a way for me to destress and relax. I just graduated from university and have been using my free time to just do whatever. I have a lot of planned and half-written WIPs which I haven’t posted but I’m starting to finish them one at time. Currently working on to the sequel of With these hamsters, I am god along with some small AUs and two massive ones;;.I’m very open to experimenting as a writer and hope to try a lot of genres (I hope to especially try writing something science-y since I was a science major in college). Anyway, I hope to improve a lot more in my writing and I am open to making new friendships in this fandom.

#writers #introductions #AO3 writer #experienced writer #angst writer #fluff writer #smut writer #submission #dropsofblue #yuri on ice #viktuuri #victuuri #yuri on ice fanfiction writer #viktuuri fanfiction writer #yuri on ice fanfiction #viktuuri fanfiction

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justmeinstead · 6 years

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Sun, 6 May

hey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!after so long for not updating my profile for tumblr theres alot to talk about tho. I just dk where to start with really heheh, well i just gonna go with the flow tho. Usually i update it thru my phone but i find it smh difficult cause need to type and it gets irritating at times, right now im at work and my office comp is able to access to tmblr so is much easier to type with the keyboard. Especially when you know you have content to talk about. Before we start where we left which idk whr, i would like to say tht is been 1year alrd for me and my ummi. See the girl in my DP pic shes been the best tht ever hppn in my life, nothing cn take her away from me plus we hve our princess tht will always hold us tight tgtr and both of us will do our best to guide her and raise her well. One more thing have fun reading ummi. ILOVEYOU IT HAS BEEN AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE.

Lets Begin;

So whr did i stop after so long??? hmmm guess what fgt about it is alrd 2018 a brand new year and is alrd May guys Ramadhan also around the corner...if we were to flashbck for 2018 hmm smh theres kinda alot tht had hppn alrd..lets lay it out shall we, i will list down the importants of it only ok? Lets go...

1) Savings plan for our marriage is a lil bit bumpy as we just used it up for our trip to bangkok. No doubt we hve alrd plan to pick up our savings.

2) 1st year anniversary falls on 11/04/2018 and on the 21/03/2018 is also our 1st year of knowing each other. For this story of our anniversary i will try to keep it nice and short to read. It has been a bumpy ride for our r/s knowing is been alrd 1 year were tgtr so blessed and thanks to him above who plan our path to meet each other. Ofcrs the mainstream part of anniversary is the exchnge gift, im actually speechless when i recieve mine,you guys wont believe the creativeness in her to do wht she did is just beyond wow! heheh let me tell about wht she did, she did a flipbook with just papers and each pages has it owns unique style of animations is all DIY evry piece of details and attention she did is done perfectly. For hers i buy is all a last min item heheh wht i bought is a laptop bag and a notebook, knowing she loves to write and her diary she needs a new one plus is green her fav colour but guess wht shes smh now hooked with the colour blue which my fav colour ^^ is true laa how come shes not into blue evry time when we go out as family cnfrm whr blue most of the time heheh. Wtv it is alhamdulillah we manage to pull thru wtv tht we face tgtr the ups and down. Now all we need to do is to be strict in our savings and wait for the big day inshaallah amin.

3) Bangkok Trip

For this trip is a 4d3n trip for us we were so excited for it and at the same is sad. why sad? is bcs we cant bring along our princess along as distance away w/o her is sucks. Nvr the less we keep our heads up and proceed, so how the day when from day 1 till were bck in sg? Let me see if im able to cut evrtyg short and squeeze all the stories tgtr or nah..wish me luck heheh..[ 28/04/18 1st day; ummi hve to work from 7am -2pm, while i was still sleeping. So i fetch her from work and first thing we proceed to clementi mall and chnge some amount of money once we did tht we straight proceed to changi as our flight is at 1800hr. Fast fwd, we rch changi airport take our boarding pass and we go find food, keep searching we decide to eat McDonald. Continue story once landed ^^ We reach Bkk alrd heheh thts a very fast forward from mkn to land at Bkk, once rch we got to freaking walk 500m just to rch the arrival hall..rch the arrival, chop passport,all done we go and get our simcard as internet access is major must since we are on our own, get simcard done.Next we get into line for a cab and guess what once we get a cab it cost us about 500 Thai Baht whr my friend says you can get at about below 300 baht..well anw we manage to rch the hotel and settle btw we stay in Bangkok City Hotel.] [29/04/18 2nd day; Theres a lot for 2nd day as we were out from noon till night and most of it we do is shop and walk nothing much just exploring the city tgtr. Food wasnt so difficult for us as our hotel is near to a mosque and therefore theres Halal food, we had lunch in one of the shop near the mosque.. All we had was just one plain rice with 2 omelletes thts for ummi and i had rice with beef and basils, not only is cheap is freaking delicious and the serving were just right and is just a good meal to have. Well actually nothing much to say for this day..main thing is walk around and shopping thats all guys.][30/04/2018 3rd day; for this day also we didnt do much just go out shop and we when to the night market which open at 5pm onwards. End the night early get bck to our hotel pack our stuff get ready for heading bck on the next day.][01/05/2018 4th day; woke up, freshen up, get ready say one last goodbye to the hotel and chckout. We tot we cn get a cheaper price ride to the airport infact is the same price as we took when we first landed. well anw we still got money left so we just pay for it jelh.]

So guys thats the update from eversince we last posted anytg and to my ummi happy reading to this post..Till more to come Inshaallah Amin!.ILOVEYOU UMMI IT HAS BEEN AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE, IMISSYOU SO MUCH UMMI. Blessed to have you and kakak thanks to him.

-Justmeinstead ^^

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myfirstandlast · 5 years

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OMMMMGGG this feels like a fever dream or something because i left tumblr (i know u hate it but twitter is superior....) for a while and i just came back to see how the site was ig? anyway i ended up back in your profile because 🤙 u know why and i saw you tweet about bunny anon and i rly was like omg that sounds so familiar and then i made a lil scroll on ur asks and omg yea i get why its familiar now 😔🥰😔😔 1/2 - 🐰

anw i bet this writing is sooooooo different from that dramatic confession (i still got it saved in my notes idk if thats #Tmi but i outdid myself…. only love letter EVER cant believe it was my first) back in april 😰😰 i didnt even expect you to rmbr it or something, but i admit im kinda happy you did? oh god now i can’t word it but i hope the way i described you was sth you liked, and that if there were ever any parts of u that u didnt love and i did, that you can love them now! 🐰

(i lied, this is the last one!) i think that letter was may have been too raw? so i’m a bit embarrassed to go back and read it, but i hope it stays as a positive thing to you! the intention of the letter was never to make you sad for not reciprocating— if anything, i hope that in the future u can look at it and think! it’s so lovely people can like me this way! or, i am worthy of being loved (you are!) 💗💗💗 i hope you’re also doing well, i’m wishing you lots of happiness, xx - 🐰

I CANT BELIEVE U SAW THAT POST LHCKYDOYFLUFKFY EVEN MORE I CANT BELIEVE U CHECK UP ON ME????????? OH MY GOODNESS

twt will never be superior so we can end that right there BUT i’m sad u left :(( WAIT I JUST REALISED U SAID U SAW ME TWEET ABOUT BUNNY ANON SHHDFBNDJMFU babe………they’ve brainwashed u

this writing /is/ super different from that confession yea but that’s part of why it caught me so offguard at the time bc this is how u usually spoke in your regular asks to me?? that’s why i thought u were so cute

it’s not tmi but i’m very surprised that u did save it and very flattered that u expended ur first on me like Wow i don’t think i could ever be worthy u know, and it’s ok!!! i know what u mean about it being too overwhelming to read again, i’m always like that when i spill my feelings and when i look back it’s like who Was i literally who wrote this

i don’t think i ever considered reading the letter that way simply because i was so worried about the way you must have been feeling letting all that out, so maybe now i can go back and read it and try to look at myself more positively, just because you asked!! it’s very kind of you to look back on the event that way i think it’s a very tenderhearted reaction

but i do still remember u and i’m rlly rlly glad to hear that ur doing ok!!! idk how much you’d like to remain anonymous but i would like to get to know u if that was possible, i could even pretend like twt is ok for 2 seconds and give u my @ so u wouldn’t have to make a whole entire comeback to tumblr, but anything ur comfortable with is fine!! it’s just rlly rlly nice to hear from u again seriously

#WELL I HOPE UR DOING OK AND GET BACK TO ME SOMETIME FR OK???#nobody else has to open the read more btw lmao keep scrollin #answered #🐰 anon

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