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boyfhees · 2 years

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IMPORTANT ! | NAVI ( in case you want a link to all my reposts )

so after much consideration, even though it has only been one day since the whole ordeal, i've decided that i wouldn't be writing anymore. i may regret this decision later but for now, i don't. if you want to read my rant and the reason why, it's under the cut, if not, just reblog this post.

first of all, i'd be lying if i said i didn't think about deactivating. the past almost two years have been amazing, but with everything that has been going on in my life right now, i've often found myself thinking about leaving this platform. except, i didn't because i was scared. i love writing, i have always, i don't think that's going to change. it's genuinely one of the things i've been doing ever since i was kid and haven't found it a hassle or chore. i didn't want to stop writing, actually. then i had my friends here, those 4.3k people who supported me, it was a lot to let go.

i think what happened yesterday gave me an out. now that i've lost everything— you know, my writings, majority of my moots, and everything else— i don't think there's a point trying to recover all that. maybe it's just because i'm not over what happened and lost all the motivation to continue and maybe, i'll regret my decision later, as i said; but for now, i think i'm doing the right thing. now, i may come back tomorrow saying i was in my emo phase when i posted this and stuff because i'm too attached to this place, so don't mind me.

i cried a lot last night, i haven't talked to my brother ever since yesterday, i don't like how this thing is ruining my relationships even though it's his fault. i have works and ideas and i wish would see the light some day, and i'd possibly make a grand return after my college entrances with new fics and shit if i'm in the mood. but till then, this is the goodbye.

i'll stay here, i'll log in once or twice a week or something to spam my side blog and idk repost? because hell, i'm not leaving without putting up some of my proudest works. i'm so salty about this situation. i'll drop by to talk to my moots, reblogs my favourite fits and everything. there's this thing i've been working on for three months now and it's almost near the end so i might drop it too, as my last post, perhaps?

if you want to keep in touch, my discord is cael.#0329, my twitter is @/slaynez_, i'm not giving instagram since i'm not really active but if you want, dm me.

thank you for past almost two years, it has been a wonderful time. i wished this would last longer, at least till by birthday, but some things are bound to happen. thank you for reading my silly little works, thank you for the massive support. let's wait for me to possibly come back soon, i guess.

ps. i'm still lurking on this site like a ghost you know, looking for my works and everything since i said i'll be putting them up again so don't you fucking dare steal them, i will come for you bloodline. my kpop blog is @chiyuv if anyone wants to know

#—boosts.#you wont believe me i cried so much over a fanfic account really #it sounds so funny but id still cry if i overthink enough

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boyfhee · 2 years

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cael as one of the older kids (i’m assuming 🤧) on sfw enhablr (not saying ur old !! 😭😭 it’s just that there’s a lot of minors on here) how do you feel abt the current content for the maknae line? like ik it’s not always super sexualized or anything but sometimes i see stuff that’s just the way it’s worded really rubs me the wrong way ☹️ esp bc some of the kids on here are so young it makes me feel like if they see stuff like that , they might start think it’s okay for others to treat them the same or vice verse … whenever i see edits of niki on tiktok , i have to avoid the comments bc there’s almost always like a “daddy” , “how is he 16” or “you don’t know what you do to me” like wtf he’s a literal child ?? it makes me so mad and honestly so uncomfortable :( and i saw an article on kboo today too that said niki apparently has around 200 explicit or mature fics written abt him on ao3 … sometimes even the fboi trope (usually when it’s written abt minors) bothers me bc i see minors writing abt it (like 13-15 y/o) and i don’t understand why they don’t just use the term player or smtg … bc they’ll go out of their way to mention how the character has sex a lot an whatnot , even that feels way too suggestive for me personally for a minor too write let aline abt a minor too , sorry for the rant,, i was just wondering how you felt … omg also though tbh i noticed that some of the minors on here / blogs in gen seem way too comfy on here like they’ll be sharing where they live , their actual names and sometimes like giving a lot of personal info … like did they not learn abt internet safety or do they just no care? as one of the older kids , i kind of worry abt them :( i really hope everybody stays safe on here <3 & some reminders: never be afraid to block anyone ! bc i’ve seen a lot of minors on here get sent stuff from the p*rn bots or just weird dms :( & u don’t need to force yourself to interact with someone , make sure ur comfy with them first !

HELP THIS IS SO LONG I THOUGHT I WAS GETTING CANCELLED OR SMN 💀 and pls there's not a single day i dont feel old on kpopblr, it's just that the general community here holds an average age of 13-15 years :/ ALSO PLS DONT APOLOGIZE FOR RANTING IT'S FINE !!

TW : mentions of nsfw and all yeah .

as for your question, i'm sorry if my response isn't what you expected because i rarely read for maknae lines. first of all, the only 4th gen group i read for is enha, so i don't know how bad things are in other fandoms ( and i've heard abt nct blr being nothing but a pit of smuts— no offence to the writers— but i agree ) about niki though, i personally haven't encountered any such comments but some of my friends have reported seeing nsfw accounts for enha maknae lines, which is straight up disgusting because they're minors. probably one of the main reasons why i don't read for maknae line because i legit can't trust minors here, except a few that i have known for a while. the thing about minors ( 13-15 y/o as you said ) writing nsfw / borderline nsfw, whether for minors or adults, is so messed up because that's straight up wrong. i don't care if you were exposed to such topics at the age of 10 or whatever, if i spot you, a minor, writing nsfw i'm going to block you.

and smut about minors is even more messed up because it's like a gate to tell people that yeah, you can have sex at 16 it's fine, completely normal— which it isn't. moreover, how would you feel if someone wrote a smut about you when you're just 16? and not even smut, i think some people tend to see niki the way they see heeseung, which is also depicted in fiction. the point here is that heeseung is an adult while niki is not, and creating a line between how you write the two of them is very important. you can make suggestive jokes, go on, but not a suggestive work. that's weird, it's messed up.

honestly, i just don't read for maknae line in general lmao. sunoo is fine at times, but you'll rarely spot me reading a jungwon fic, and reading for riki is even rarer; same with writing. like, i know i have riki fics in works but they don't revolve around romance or whatever. i simply don't feel comfortable bcz jungwon is like, just a few months older and niki is younger than me. i think it's just a personal preference but as an adult, i prefer writing for hyung line over everyone else in the group. besides, i once saw someone writing a make out scene with niki and it was so descriptive, i scrolled so fast lmao 🏃‍♀️💨 i mean ok if you're dying to writing a kissing scene but there's a limit ??? he's a minor and you're writing about grinding i ????? also the kboo article im 💀 it's funny because if someone would sexualise a minor irl people would go off but suddenly it's all normal in fictions ( and i just don't mean kpop fics. it's wrong even if you're writing for fictional characters who are canonically minors ) and, i've seen MANY users posting nsfw right on the day an idol turns adult ( like i knew a sunoo one pls ) as if they were waiting for him to turn legal, only to write smut ?? which is so disgusting. fortunately, the user got called out for their actions.

yeah long story short : if i spot you writing inappropriate stuff for minors, i will call you out on your bs i don't care if it ends up with you deactivating or whatever

ALSO YEAH IVE SEEN MANY KIDS DISCLOSE THEIR PERSONAL INFO PLSS, like yawll have an alias for 'privacy' but would give away your school's name to one person you met online like three days ago 🧍‍♀️ there's a reason why people warn you about internet safety and honestly, if stuff hasn't happened to you doesn't mean it can't in future.

you need to watch out for yourself especially if you're on a website which is rated for users above your age ( like tumblr ) since you would be the only one responsible for your actions. btw im so tired of porn bots like a few days ago i had one send me link to her nudes ???? it was 7 in the morning . AND IVE SEEN PEOPLE POST ABOUT THOSE BOTS AND GATHER ATTENTION ffs just block them and move on there's no need to inform your moots.

THIS IS SO LONG I AM SORRY i hope this was Okay like i don't know what to say except this whole issue is fucked up so badly and i can't believe people are so hungry for porn, they're involving minors in it :/

#—anon.#i wish for minors out there to gain some knowledge abt this #tbh i have friends who r the same age as niki and i feel weird whenever someone makes inappropriate comment towards him #half of my cousins are 05 liners as well #ANYWAY ANON PLS DONT SAY SORRY ABT RANTING YEAHH #HAVE A GOOD DAY

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thedialup · 2 years

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CAEL HOLY FUCK THIS FIC I'M *aggressive hand flapping you will not believe how excited I was when I first read this* here is link but like lemme say just a lil about it also long fucking thing ahead sorry about that

It's called "Make a mercy out of me" by raindropsinautumn and oohhhhhhhhhhh myyyyy goooosshhhhhhh I'm frothing at the mouth insane for this shit king

It does start with c!SBI getting out into last life which you know I get may put some people off if it gave off "the last lifers fix the C!SBI trauma" vibes but it doesn't.

Don't wanna spoil too much but just know the author is into both the life series and dsmp so they actually get the characters and give them the screen time they deserve and just the idea they had for this fic holy shit

This isn't spoilers because they say it in the notes but basically each chapter they spin a shell for who will be the boogeyman and who dies (I think) and then they write that in so it's likely he actual session in that it's chance and they don't know and also cool stuff with the watcher's and the grian techno duo AAAAAA I AM SO MENTALLY UNWELL OVER THIS

sorry for lenght again but just their writing is immaculate and it's such a good fuckign idea and the lines they write I've put a few in my book of favourite quotes it's just so good

https://archiveofourown.org/works/40355091/chapters/101086476 <- also link if the other don't work

ooh oh my god I'm definitely gonna have to read this at some point, the concept sounds super interesting. glad you're enjoying it!

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