#cause im not trying to start shit

[j-esbian]

thinking about the time i was criticizing a male fantasy author for not including many female characters (and all but one were incredibly generic) and people were really like "be nice to the author, he's said he doesn't know many women in real life :/" like. yeah i can tell

#mine #delete later #cause im not trying to start shit #it was on tiktok so like all of that tracks lmao. i dont know if that's even true but if so. INSANE. #idk what made me think of this #but my dude if youre in your 40s thats not an excuse #tbh i feel like the book in question would have been completely forgettable and id just kind of roll my eyes and move on #if not for the fact that people whose taste i trust!!!!! recommended it!!!! #like what the fuck. the betrayal #like im still driving myself crazy thinking about it years later and trying to figure out what i'm missing #honestly could not say if the rest of the book was good bc imo the way the narration treated the female characters was too distracting #'this one is Mom. that's her whole personality.' #'this one is the hot older woman but she likes me anyway bc im the specialest smartest boy in school. #it's weird cause there's barely any women at this school anyway. she even tried to seduce me but im too in love with Main Love Interest' #'this one is the Main Love Interest and she's so pretty and sexy everyone wants to be with her. she has a tragic secret past #she wont tell me why but we cant be together and she also spends most of the book seducing other men. But I Know She Doesnt Mean It #i will learn her secret and wear her down so we can be together because we vibed pretty well a few years ago' #and then there's the cRaZy OnE #and that's it. those are the only female characters #apparently the last one has gotten her own book. maybe that's what people praise this guy for? but i am not willing to give it a chance lol #p****** r******* meet me in the pit

[sandinmybed]

can i be fr for a minute?? sending abuse to people online for holding different views than you is not activism and in fact actively hurts your cause. most people are not extreme in their viewpoints, you can give them a new perspective if you're willing to spend some time explaining shit. if someone is saying something you disagree with and you rush in there to condescend to them and call them disgusting and subhuman and dont even TRY to explain calmly why their views are harmful, they're going to shut you out instantly and double down on their views.

most people are simply genuinely ignorant to the issues they're talking about - they just pick their views up from the news and the world around them and express opinions because that's what every person does. if you run in there and tell them they're scum for it, what then? if someone does that to you, are you going to think "maybe i should do some research" or are you going to think "this person is an asshole, im blocking them." a lot of you think you're activists and then refuse to do any kind of actual WORK to support your cause.

#this is not about the isr*el thing even tho thats obviously a huge issue rn #its just a pattern ive observed online #im not saying you have to be kind to people who oppress you dont twist my words #but if youre trying to support any cause and you think calling people names is going to help #youre a fucking idiot lol #people call themelves activists and pro-X cause because they called their opposition dirty c*nts online #how the hell is that meant to help anyone? theyre just going to retreat into their propaganda chambers because you proved what the leaders #of those spaces have been telling them #you can obvs block people if you dont want to deal w them but thats a neutral action. sending abuse harms ur cause. #text #like educating ignorant people is hard work! yeah! its also the entire fucking point of activisim #and if you think its too much effort then just stop pretending you give a shit tbh #like my parents managed to change our neighbour's very xenophobic stance on migrants with a calm conversation #some people will listen and some wont and shes not exactly going out to protests for migrants rights but shes not hostile anymore #and a lot of yall think that isnt good enough but let me tell you it IS good because these things take time! #unlearning things is MUCH harder than learning them in the first place and a lot of people grew up in environments that taught them #very discriminatory and conservative views and its actually not their fault. and its hard to educate yourself differently on something you #have no idea is not true. where do you start w that?

[todayisafridaynight]

daigo jumping for joy in yk2 when kiryu's fighting someone has the same energy as ashley graham pumping her fist after leon shoots someone. to me.

#snap chats #sorry for all the crossover posts today i got reminded of this comparison. this copmarison ive made in my brain #but no do you k now what i mean. like when youre on tht fuckass platform in RE4 and you have to shoot the ganados and their weapons #goofiest shit ever. and i love them both #all four of these bitches really #see now im crying laughing cause daigo 🤝 ashley getting kidnapped #im gonna throw up trying to imagine daigo going hELp mE KiryU while hes getting dragged away #im gonna post this before i start ramblnig more bullshit vjeLKVJERLKJ BYE I KEEP GETTING DISTRACTED

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I'm frightened of you knowing who I am but, could you possibly give me your frank frankly theories pretty please idc if you only have like 2.1 I want them regardless of how many you have.

mayhaps?

ah man i wish i had some to give! i think all of my Frank theories (at present) are tied into other theory posts! he simply doesn't have a lot to chew on yet

#unlike say - wally or eddie - he doesn't have a lot of incriminating information #there's a bunch of little puzzle pieces: #the multiple hims in their house on the map / not having a backstory in his bio / im sure theres more but i cant recall it rn #but the little things we have so far are - imo - so disconnected thats it like. man idk what to do with these yet #i can very lightly speculate that he'll probably play a big role in 'looking behind the curtain' as it were #just since he's the serious Knowledge Guy #and i can imagine that out of everyone he's most likely to pursue the truth if he starts to Notice that things arent what they seem #i also imagine that that miiiiight clash with wally? #cause if frank goes 'holy shit none of this is real' its also likely that he might try to tear down the illusion / something similar #meanwhile wally seems deadset on Restoring the neighborhood and keeping things the same #could be conflict there! wait does that count as a theory? i may have lied to you #sorry my thought process works best when rambling - constant stream of thought can knock new things loose up there yk yk #rambles from the bog #homebogging #wh speculation #and dont even worry about it - i dont even know who i am! i know no one and nothing and everything is a nebulous void!

[princekirijo]

Imma be honest with you chief this week has not been fun. At all

#oh boy i had a terrible three days time to go tell my tumblr followers about it! #ah no but jokes aside y'all. #i started my job on monday and i actually like it so far! #i haven't done any actual work or anything quite yet cause its all onboarding at the moment #but so far so good! all my colleges are lovely #so you might ask why is this one of the worst weeks of my life? two words #FOOD. POISONING. #this shit is straight up EVIL #im doing better today thank god but yesterday??? omfg #“look im being uber dramatic here but when am i not to be fair” #But seriously #ill try not to go into too much detail but. 10 hrs. yeah. #my throat feels like someone has shoved a metal ball down it #i havent eaten anything today #and I'm missing two days of training over this 😭 #this is so embarrassing first week on the job and boom food poisoning knocks me out for two of them #im gonna be the food poisoning guy 😭 #i hope y'all are having a better time than i am

[wolfxe]

idk what it is about the way dungeon meshi portrays relationships but it feels so unique to me

i like all of the ships and also want none of them to be canon. it's fun to imagine literally all of them, but it's just as fun to examine the platonic relationships and what they mean

it's so refreshing to see marcille & laios' friendship but i totally get why people ship them. marcille & falin's devotion to each other is amazing to explore in any context. chilchuck & laios, laios & kabru, senshi & chilchuck, even toshiro & falin. literally every character dynamic no matter the romance/lack of it is so interesting to me

it really felt like a breath of fresh air getting into something where the relationships between characters felt both real and substantial the way they are, but also capable of being expanded upon and played with without feeling like they're betraying the main themes/ideas. man i love dungeon meshi

#og #dungeon meshi #i need to make character tags for the meshi crew cause apparently this is gearing up to be a big one #im not really into anime usually #but i had heard a lot of good things about dungeon meshi from people i follow on here that i respect so i gave it a try #watched the anime and immediately started reading the manga #im hooked man this shit is so good #the THEMES man #THE THEMES #it's literally helping me work through some of my own issues i have with myself #especially through laios #god. laios #hes so me and somehow thats helping me examine a lot of stuff about myself and my worldview and repair it a little #im eating better cause i keep remembering senshi when i think about skipping a meal #save me dungeon meshi. save me #im realizing this post makes me seem kind of like i need to be into a ship to like a fandom or something #which isnt true #most fandoms im in dont actually have any ships that interest me #which is why this feels so important. cause its portrayed things so well that i can actually like the ships #its really nice being able to genuinely enjoy most of the stuff made by fans #cause if we're being honest here the majority of fandom content are of ships #which isnt a bad thing but it does mean that if you just like the overall story or individual characters or platonic relationships #then its a little harder to engage with the community #but now i can! very fun

[jazzzzzzhands]

Isn't Painting Fun??

#i actually started this before the update but i got very very caught up in the secrets! i found everything so far i think. im still hunting! #this is my irl fingerpainting! now my art can be with wally <33 #im not experienced in making creepy or scary things! but im trying! im getting attatched to the airbrush tho!! #wally darling #welcome home #whps #fanart #wh spoilers #only cause the spiral i think #i feel so so something! like i ate an entire buffet in one bite!! #holy shit there was so muchhhh!! #i could listen to the audios all day #everyone else is having wally dreams and im SO JEALOUS!! #please please i want to help himmmm #but i had to finish this a bit quickly bc the more i look at my art the more i pick it apart so let me throw this into the void! #oh! i forgot tags! #jazzart #tw scopophobia #creepy warning #hnnnn everything on the site is just soo SOOO!!! #UWAAAAAAAA!!! #experimental art

[catilinas]

this book is um. not very well written. i hope marcus livius drusus has a narratively satisfying character arc and then dies

#sulla and silo #mr athano you have to characterise your characters you can’t just assume the reader has read masters of rome #like ok. i have read it. but hhtghhhhhhjhvvv #imo one of the best things colleen does in masters of rome is just. fully committing to it being insanely long and detailed and covering a #period of like 100 years #because it means you do get a sense of what the ‘normal’ (as normal as it gets) political functioning of rome is like Before it all goes to #shit #throwing a reader into the events of drusus’ tribunate with no context about drusus’ character #and even. only mentioning that he’s caepio’s brother in law After he has barely reacted to caepio trying to have him assassinated is like #?????? #on the other hand this book is so niche that maybe he Can rely on his audience to have read masters of rome #ALSO im still right at the start of the book so maybe it does improve #also also drusus is probably not a main character. unlike sulla who Is getting more distinct characterisation #maybe there’s still time for drusus to be sacrificed to the cause of italian citizenship………… #beeps

[themanwhowouldbefruit]

my doctor was sooooo fucking worthless and unhelpful im going to masturbate and i hope it fucking kills me

#“no need for follow up” #“yeah you did have several cysts we scrapped off your remaining ovary but. dw about it. idk why they were there. dw about it. oh also your #ovary on that side was freakishly huge but. dw about it. it might go away. dw about it #*doctor shrug emoji* “ #“go see a gyno next year maybe. but not me im too important for that. go find and onboard a gyno to your situation. next year maybe idk lol” #he barely even looked at my incision like #this fucking appointment could have been an email. or a phone call. or they just could have let me start driving again. also i forgot to ask #if i can stop drinking ensure now or after the 6 weeks? cause that shit cost $$$$. but he probably would have been super unhelpful if i had #fr fr this guy only wanted to give me the time of day when he thought i might have fun cancer inside and now he's like gtfo!!!! get your #fugly cancerless ass out of here!!!! recover from a major surgery on your own you swagless cancerless loser 🤣 we arent helping your #swagless ass!!! #anyway it seems weird and fucked up that im was never offered to see a physical therapist and i guess am going to have to blindly trust my #abs they sliced thru are healing or whatever and to rawdog my own physical recovery of my muscles? even just dumb shit like. my center of #gravity has drastically changed since the mass removal and my back hurts like shit all the time because all my posture muscles were built up #for when i had an extra 30 pounds of cyst hanging in the front and my posture and walking reflected that. and i lowkey don't know how #hard i am able to be with my healing incision because its really tight and makes me hunch forwards still. like i would really like to know #how much i can safely or maybe should be forcing my skin and incision to stretch. without damage? is that crazy #am i crazy??? #this shit is why i didnt see a doctor for 2 years until my problems had snowballed into a 30 pounds ovarian cyst that was crushing my other #organs and had one of my kidneys all backed up with piss. and even getting emergency treatment for it everyone was like. how did you like it #get this bad?? how could you not know you needed to seek medical treatment???? like. bro. seeking medical treatment isnt even a guarantee to #get medical treatment. #anyway he said my “remaining ovary seemed low key polycystic but dw about it. don't quote me on that im not dealing with it.” #bro i dont want to doctor google it i wanted an actual doctor to deal with it. fuck you. #like. maybe even a doctor who knows my situation so i dont have to struggle with getting someone to believe me and take me seriously. #but whatever. back to trying to figure out the daily protein and extra calories my body needs for recovery via doctor google i guess. #its fine 🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬

[snixx]

making new friends irl is so nerve wracking but also so exciting. I remember how much I used to panic over sending my now best friend one text or randomly calling her and look how that turned out BUT also I've given wayy too much of myself to people who ended up not caring and hurting me and it's such a gamble to trust people but I really think it's worth it but why does EVERYTHING feel like such a big step and so scary like??? can we hang out when we're not in college? how often can I text you to hang out before it becomes too much?? can I say I love you?? can I give you a high five? can we hug?? AKFHDGDHHDDH I LIKE YOU SO MUCH. and I know you like me too but I've been known to come on way too strong and and and god I can't wait to get to know you even more. yeah I'm going insane. bye

#vagueposting the shit out of tumblr dot com #and then repeat cycle #but I'm glad im back to having enthusiasm about it cause I haven't been able to summon it for a while #and I've been getting more jaded and bitter lately cause i lost some of the people closest to me #but I'm glad im getting my hope back #god its hard and i keep falling on my face but every so often. every so often ill meet someone who'll make all the trying worth it #ahhhhhhhhh #ok no. but I'm gonna be chill this time. i promised myself. i can do this. it's gonna get better #and that's not even getting started on my unreliable ass energy levels #anyway. god i should sleep

[gncrezan]

anyone get it or

#was the fig tree from the prologue intentional. maybe not. did it cause a heart attack when i reread foa. most certainly #not to mention the tone shift in the songs too. and theyre about descent. its too easy LIKE WHATEVER. #like im being realistic about how figs are quite common in ancient greece etc but lord fucking almighty.... #plus the patreon snippet of a younger pc and hermes. im going to be sick #<- about to start making some shit up about how they have shared so much with each other their entire lives #traded kindnesses and gifts and confided in the other with their worries . and the other being there is just SO EASY!!!!! #and when hermes offers seph a fruit. like of course they accept #and OF COURSE they try to share it. and like every time they've sat together (on olympus/in the underworld/in the gardens/during a party) #hermes gladly takes it!!!! it's a habit !!!!!!! IT'S AN INSTINCT!!!!! the offer is almost a surprise but hermes shouldn't have been #not really when his hand moves faster than he thinks and he realises he expects that kindness #not in an unkind way or a selfish way. but because he knows seph the way they know him !!! and seph has always been kind!!!!! #and then he realises that he expects /seph/ in his life and suddenly cannot imagine it without them !!!!!!!!!! LIKE CMON #yes this has me by the throat and im ALMOST webweaving but this is mostly about me forcing de selby onto these two #have been fixated on this moment and the sharing and the exchanging since ch8 dropped . hozier is just exacerbating the visions #('sure sunshine. let's share') <- this is not just about that fucking fig #foa

[thunderc1an]

tldr: for christmas my mom got me blanket with stolen warriors fanart

#mod rambles #i mentioned it a few months ago #but i started going to therapy #to make amends with my childhood #it made me realize #shit theres a lot of things wrong with me #things I need to work on #its hard #but im happier than I was a couple of years ago #I have a great support system now #and my outlook of myself in the mirror #makes me comfortable #shes the cause of a lot of my internal insecurities #but I know that shes been trying recently #in her interactions with me and my brothers #i think shes realized some things #it might be silly #since this is obviously stolen art #which is horrible #but it means a lot to me #because my mom put the effort in finding it #and getting it for me #shes never paid attention to my interests before #not me crying over this blanket haha #it just came in the mail today

[todayisafridaynight]

bro why ono michio in my jdrama

#snap chats #im evil i said id make curry and then start watching but im atching while making curry... im almost done so its ok... #anyway Frame One my boy in jail SHIT. but its ok cause Frame One narrator be like 'filipinos are so positive and happy' #and yk what ill take it.... we do try to be that that's very My Dadcore LOLO #ok lemme finish cookin and watchin the rest of this BYE #oh also. spoilers nakai's a lawyer named kazuma in this <3 isnt that ironic lmao #ok bye

[no1ryomafan]

My brain has gone back and forth on between which anime if arma or new is my favorite. Cause even with all its issues Arma means a lot to me, it’s the reason I got into getter and helped me through one of the worst times of my life- But then new is objectively better written and it drives me nuts compared to arma it’s not talked about ENOUGH despite all the stuff you can poke at from it’s plot and I’m trying to pinpoint that reason since the general consensus is “no one hates new and it gets a lot of fanart in the Japanese community yet it’s never deeply acknowledged so it feels unpopular”

So my standpoint is “do I keep investing into the popular iteration despite its issues or do I invested into the less flawed unpopular iteration when it comes to introducing getter to new people?” cause man as much as I’m a critical person of media I still can forgive some messy writing if I have a good time with it and can clearly tell the staff had fun making it, which is definitely armas case. (Though they absolutely had fun with new too)

#meg text #getter robo #this general philosophy I have is why im not harshly critical on SVN next to “I think it fulfills it’s purpose” #and a few other mechas I’ve seen but not gonna tag because I don’t wanna put them in their tag when this is just getter #I was tempted to make a post asking about what people don’t find appealing about new but it be on twit and blegh #I’d ask it here and if anyone has input feel FREE to put but my following is way to small to generate the feedback I want #but on Twitter people are dumb and I’m not taking the “new has bad animation” take any longer bc it’s cherry picked #next to “we all know this is better animation then arc LOL” even if that whole debate as stupid #but past that point I’m trying to understand what people don’t like to find new unappealing when it’s flaws aren’t turn offs #like Musashibo not having a proper character arc and the villains not being consistent is a big one but doesn’t make the show bad #especially because there’s still good from those issues being Musashibo still a fun character and the villains don’t ruin the pacing #you could maybe make the argument new starts off slow but also all of the introduction episodes are engaging?? #there’s not a single thing about new-let alone getter when it’s paced right-that feels sluggish #Also for a 13 ep show picking up in the middle makes the MOST sense in comparison to a longer ep series #the middle is when shit hits the fan tbh #im gonna be at war until I hear someone’s in depth opinion but I just WANNA figure out what turns off people from new #cause when I also watched it in a group I had irls drop out of it midway through but I could chalk it up to they weren’t huge on mecha #Even if I argue new is the PERFECT mecha show to recommend to someone who’s skeptical of the genre but I digress

[princekirijo]

Finally graduated haha let's go 🥹

#im scheduling this when the ceremony is over just cause #but yeah um wow. can't believe it actually #desperately trying not to cry while typing this haha thing hasn't even started #but i think this is the first time in a while i genuinely feel proud of myself. like fuck me i did it #4 years was a wild ride but here i am!! and yeah im scared about the future but rn im just here with my paper #i also realized that yeah ive been on Tumblr as long as ive been in uni #which is crazy can't believe ive been on here for 4 years (roughly) #but for all the shit that i dislike about this site and as much as it drives me nuts #i do wanna say ive met some wonderful people on here! ive made some friends 🥹 #and yeah i haven't kept up with all of them something im so so guilty about #but i wouldn't be where i am without this blog like unironically #so yeah thank you gay people in my phone you've helped me a lot. more than i care to admit #hope y'all have a great day <33 #thanks for reading my sappy ass tags on Tumblr 😅

[vivanightcity]

Look. I'm not saying he snuck back into the place where his best friend got mortally wounded, and he watched some old fuck get murdered, just to use a pool, but also, that would be a very in character thing to do.

#cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk vp #cyberpunk photomode #my vp #masc v #i was trying to find somewhere to take pics of didi to write up his bio #ended up doing this instead #feels like im learning to do shit all over again #because when i first started playing the proper screenshot function didn't work? #like it saved them somewhere it apparently wasn't meant to and when i tried to take shots using one of the filters or frames #it took a first person view of the actual location instead #it was weird so i avoided using that built in feature and instead just used steams built in screnshots #or nvidia's one #but its been working fine for a bit now #i dont know when #so im trying to get into the habit of doing this cause it does have A Quality that is really nice #but yeah leaves me feeling like it's all new again and that the in game lighting cannot be trusted so i have to keep opening up the folder #to look at shots to adjust lights vs being able to do so just in game #vibes of ivan