#cuz now I have pcos

[moodboardsbysarah]

"youre a misogynist if you tell the truth about what hormonal birth control does to womens bodies"

is the original

"youre a right wing fascist if you tell the truth about covid vaccine side effects"

#health #birth control #the pill #misogyny #people are so bloody delusional #hormonal birth control #im so glad i never went on it #tho i did take a lot of plan Bs and it probably damaged my body #cuz now I have pcos #covid19 #covid vaccine

[doyouknowhoyouare]

ok so i either have anemia pcos or some sort of thyroid disorder 😸

#😭 #i joke but also not … #like i’m pretty sure i have pcos and anemia lol #they should’ve never had me working with health books cuz now everytime i see a symptom i have i’m like oo perhaps i have this disease 🧐 #anyways today i was cataloging a book ok pcos and i was like wait….

[virgincels]

weird question lol but how did you know you were ugly ygm like what makes you think it if you don’t mind answering

haii

umm so i just want to preface this with like I don’t want anyone to think I’m trying to yk. compliment fish or that I want pity or reassurance I’m just going to answer this frankly?

tbh I think I was ab . 12? I don’t know I have never felt pretty and my mum has never called me pretty like just my bare face but she always used to call my cousins pretty and she calls my sister pretty now and only really says it when I lose a substantial amount of weight and wear makeup all at once! not to like single her out lol my mum loves me very much I know I’m not pretty she’s very pretty like a model but yeah I sort of have known that I’m not very good looking since I was a kid I used to get a lot of like idk bullying / racial comments too? when I was really little so it kind of stuck with me

but the moment it really got to me was when I was ab 12 my pcos had already set in cuz I got my period very early and it was making me bloat I had cystic acne I have always been hairy cuz brown + pcos and I was always . like idk I had big boobs even then LOL and I think I was sitting on the school bus and I went to a super super white secondary school so granted every boy was mean to me and tbh it wasn’t just the white people that were mean to me it was everyone and idk I had a few friends but I don’t think they really liked me bc I am. Idk autistic and ugly LMFAO

but I was legit just sitting on the bus frustrated by like hair loss, acne, weight gain and I was looking around and everyone was just? every girl at least??? was just effortlessly pretty? I know a lot of girls don’t feel that way esp when growing up but I don’t know they were all skinny without trying and ate what they wanted to eat without thinking too much about it like I know I don’t know everyone’s life story but y’know these were normal white secondary white girls and like idk they had really nice hair it wasn’t fly away and it didn’t fallout like mine and they had clear skin and they were just?? features wise just pretty and I think I got home that night and I was like so confused because I knew I wasn’t cute but I just didn’t get how they could do things so effortlessly? Like it’s just not fair that I have to put effort in and I try hard and still can’t. Succeed in that? ugh sorry if this is super long winded omg

#sorry for dumping ack I just didn’t know how to say it simply #inbox 💌

[godtears]

The last few days (minus yesterday, I only ate 903 yesterday) I've just barely managed to eat up to 1200 calories and I'm VERY proud of that. And some time last week I managed to just once, for the first time, eat 2000 calories. Which is AMAZING. But it made me feel so sick afterwards, I hated food so much.

I genuinely do not understand HOW you people can eat around 2000 calories a day????????? Do you eat like. Barrels of food? Do you eat things that are like calorie thick somehow? Like. The doctor I saw was like "you should at MINIMUM eat 1500 a day if you can't eat the required 1800-2000" and brother I can't even get that far majority of the days. And if I do get close to 1000 I feel so sick after. Hell, yesterday (Monday) I only ate 903 and I STILL felt sick after. I still feel sick right NOW and it's after midnight (technically Tuesday) and the thought of food feels disgusting. Like. I don't get it. I genuinely don't understand how people are able to eat more than what I can stomach. I feel like what I eat is a normal proper amount, since it makes me feel comfortable. But then I tell people what I've eaten and they're like "Dude wtf are you starving yourself?" and its like no I'm not!!! Why are you saying that!!!

I'm just baffled. I don't know what to do. But like!!! No one fucking believes me!!! Because they look at me and see that I'm fat and assume that I'm lying and that I overeat. That is such a bad problem that one of the doctors I saw gave me a hunger suppressant despite saying OUT LOUD "now I know you undereat BUT" like LADY if I'm UNDEREATING then WHY are you giving me a HUNGER SUPPRESSANT?

I don't know why I'm fat! Okay? I do everything I can to exercise anywhere from 30 minutes to 4 hours a day. That includes walking, carrying things, squats, bends, stretches, dancing, stairs, carrying things ON stairs, etc. I used to do PARKOUR as a kid and would be seen walking and running around and climbing trees for up to 12 FUCKING HOURS.

My diet has always been as healthy as I could make it despite not having a lot of money growing up. We were lucky to have family who grew their own fruits and veggies and would give us some. I only really ate fresh foods. I rarely really ate any junk growing up. I don't really like eating junk all that much now. Majority of my diet is vegetables. I eat small amounts because larger amounts make me sick. Sometimes I can manage bigger amounts, but at a cost.

So like. Why am I fat?! "oh PCOS makes you fat" okay but EVERYONE I've talked to says that even though I have PCOS I can still lose weight with diet and exercise. I took metformin to help with my insulin resistance from my PCOS. And the doctor told me "oh you lost 10 pounds! But you're not gonna lose any more. You're stuck like this forever." but WHY?! The only time I genuinely lost weight was when I would go without eating for 1-2 days at a time. Do I need to do that again? Like fasting? I don't know! I don't understand!

I just feel so miserable being like this. I can't fit into clothes I like. I can't fit into any of my clothes anymore. I can't really buy new clothes easily. No one takes me seriously, especially not doctors. I get harassed. I get stared at. I get judged. I get bullied. I can't do things normal people can. Fuck I'm asthmatic because of second hand smoking but people are blaming it on me being fat and bully me for being asthmatic! I can't be "queer enough" cuz I'm fat. Transphobes use my weight as an excuse to call me an "ugly predatory man". Someone told me that my daughter was going to kill herself because of how fat I was. I black out sometimes and people have brushed it off as being because I'm fat. I live with someone who constantly makes me feel worthless for so many reasons including because I'm fat. I can't live like this anymore.

I don't know what I'm doing wrong.

[darlingsfandom]

Hi bestie 💖💖 I'm sorry you also have PCOS but I'm glad you know you're not alone now, you can dm me anytime you need to cuz I'm here for you 🥰🥰💖💖 solidarity for us!! 💪💪 Love ya!

Hi bestie !!!

PCOS is such a pain in the ass literally! I don't know about but I get the cramps from hell that literally feel like someone walked up and punched you in the ass!

You can message me whenever 💜 love ya !

[genderqueerdykes]

I saw your post about intersex people not being told they were intersex and I have a question if that is okay. Around puberty I started growing facial hair (I'm blond so it is pretty light but definitely there) and while I did menstruate I stopped around 16 and now have to take progesterone every 3 months to induce one. They've ruled out PCOS (T normal) but my Dr said I likely have a genetic sensitivity to androgens cuz my grandma was the same way. Could this be intersex? Drs tend to dismiss me.

it's def okay to ask a question like that!

it could be possible, unfortunately i can't tell you for sure. doctors really love to dismiss reproductive health issues as nothing, because it's not actively attempting to kill you, but it doesn't mean there aren't other issues going on. some people who are not intersex do grow light facial hair due to high testosterone, i've known a lot of afab people who grow light facial hair for one reason or another. this can depend on genetic factors and depending on what ethnicity you are as well, some folks from certain parts of the world are just naturally way hairier than others in certain places

generally speaking for intersex conditions there are normally some other factors at play as well such as muscle and fat distribution not being "normal" for your agab, extra or "abnormal" genitalia, flat, malformed or non existent breasts than just the presence or lack of facial hair. it's not necessary, but for many people there are a few indicators. again, I don't know your situation well enough to pass judgment though, so i'm not saying you 100% are not!

i am sorry you are struggling to have your situation taken seriously by doctors, and i'm def sorry to hear you're having issues with your reproductive health. there could be a few different things going on there, i would recommend trying to reach out to a gynecologist/obgyn to see if you can get some further help taking a look at what's going on, and why you're having issues with your reproductive health, as well as other things.

i wish i had a more concrete answer for this- if any other intersex people would like to chime in, feel free! i just can't really say much either way as a stranger. either way, you deserve to have your situation taken seriously by doctors and if you want to figure out what's causing those things, that's your right. i wish you the best of luck in getting things figured out, take care

#asks #answers #intersex #questioning

[siennaditbot]

Today's mood:

Had one (1) picture taken of me for a school thing

I now wish to rip my entire face off and I want to never eat again

Aka

I probably have to go see a dermatologist or smth for my constant acne my parents like to remind me of

And I should probably quit sugar altogether cuz PCOS not happi and start to regularly exercise or smth but TIRED

I have made changes and I've been intermittent fasting for a while but UGH I HATE MYSELF AND I DON'T WANT ANYONE TO SEE ME

Also new life situation and I'm lost and stressed out and this. is. not. helping.

Anyway continue with your day, no need to interact with this, I just wanted to vent and my mom is both asleep and immediately going to tell me to do things which I do not want to hear right now

#pcos #insecurity #SDB rambles #overweight #acne #why does nothing work #why does medication make things worse #i don't want this

[intersex-support]

hi, i’m questioning being intersex, as i was diagnosed with pcos with high testosterone levels a few years ago, but looking now into both pcos and ncah, ncah seems to explain a lot that isn’t explained by just the pcos (like the huge early growth spurt but short adult stature, late first period, last time they checked i didn’t have any cysts but still wasn’t getting my period or anything)

but anyways, i was wondering if u had any good resources that talk about ncah specifically, cuz a lot im finding focus only on classical cah. also, i’m potentially looking to talk to other intersex people as i figure out if i’m a part of the community, like talk experiences and struggles and shit, so i’m wondering if u have any resources for that too (specifically spaces that would be trans-friendly)?

thank you very much

Hey! Cares Foundation has some resources about NCAH. This page has a list of symptoms comparing PCOS to NCAH. This website is all about NCAH, but uses cissexist language and refers to "female" throughout. I love their infographic about what tests to get, though.

That's really all the resources I have that aren't clinical studies or research papers, so feel free to send an ask if you do want academic sources.

You are welcome to join our intersex discord server feel free if you send an ask off anon!

Sorry I don't have many more resources, and if any other intersex people have more resources they love please add on.

-Mod E

#asks #ncah #actuallyintersex

[byemizumikahago]

Debunking Mizumi's reddit ban response

So, back when Mizumi's main reddit account + art account got banned from the danganronpa subreddit (for sending inappropriate messages to a minor), she tried to convince the mods to unban her, by lying her way out of punishment, fabricating evidence, and then just insulting the mods. None of this helped her, and when she stayed banned, she proceeded to delete both of her accounts, along with all the posts she made with the screenshots from her convo with the mods.

Luckily, I found an archive, and today, I will be debunking some of Mizumi's most egregious lies in her ban response from dms to the mods, as well as pointing out more examples of her showcasing manipulative, rude, and toxic behaviour. So, without further ado, let's get into it.

(Also, I will be censoring the name of the victim Mizumi s3xuaIIy exploited, to protect their privacy. I'll use the colour blue so that you know when she's talking about the victim vs. when I'm just censoring other stuff/people's names).

Post 1

Already, Mizumi tries to make excuses and lies to get unbanned. She immediately claims that, whatever it was she did to [Victim], they "asked for it". She also states that [Other person] made false claims about her fanfic. [Other person] claimed that the fic should've put a non-con/r4p3 tag on it, when in Mizumi's fic, no actual s3xuaI violence occurred, only a non-consensual kiss (Or, at least, I think that's what she's saying. I don't know, Mizumi's grammar is so atrocious, the most difficult part of these dms wasn't finding them, it was having to read them).

So let's break this down, starting from her first claim; that [Victim] "asked for" whatever Mizumi did to them.

This... is disgusting. I don't think I have to say what's wrong with this sentence. I think anyone reading this right now can tell why this is awful.

Second claim; she states that she shouldn't have to put a non-con tag on her fic, because no actual s3xuaI violence occurred, only s3xuaI assault.

This is completely unrelated to the actual topic at hand. No one cares whether or not you tagged a fanfic incorrectly, the reason you got banned was cuz you groomed a minor. And the way you addressed THAT, was by hand-waving away, claiming [Victim] "asked for it", before moving on to some completely unrelated drama with your old friend. NO ONE CARES ABOUT THAT.

Anyways, the next 3 slides are DMs between her and [Victim], that show them "asking for it", which are basically the same as the victim's document, just with their name uncensored and with direct context, that was previously provided by the victim themself, being obviously cut out. Not very subtle, Mizumi.

Post 2

So, to summarise what's being said, Mizumi fully admits to having sent inappropriate dms to a minor, but still maintains the belief that it was okay, because 1. they "asked" for it, 2. becuase the victim was an asshole and harassed Mizumi, and 3. because the age of consent in Germany (where Mizumi lives) is 14.

Let's get the stupid claim out of the way, no, the age of consent in Germany isn't 14, it's 18. 14-under 18 is the minimum age requirement for a person to have a relationship with ANOTHER 14-under 18 year old. This does NOT mean that, say, a 14 yo can date a 30 yo, it simply means that a 14 yo can date someone who is 18 or younger. Although, German law states that a person over the age of 21 CAN date someone 14 or older, IF "the younger individual's lack of capacity for ****** self-determination is not exploited". It's up to the victim to explain whether or not they felt their s3xuaI self-determination was exploited, so I'll leave it at that. https://worldpopulationreview.com/country-rankings/age-of-consent-by-country

Mizumi still maintains the belief that [Victim] "asked for it", by claiming they went into adult spaces by themself, sent Mizumi s3xuaIIy charged dms too, admitted to watching po(pco)rn, and harassed Mizumi.

So what? [Victim] may very well have done the things Mizumi is claiming they did (tho I highly doubt that's true), but even so, that doesn't make it suddenly okay for Mizumi to do those things back. She's an adult, she's the one with authority in this scenario, and if she really didn't like the fact that [Victim] was sending inappropriate messages to her too, it was up to her, as the ADULT, to shut down the conversation, or, hell, just frickin BLOCK them.

Also, I can't get over how idiotic this quote is;

"maybe my behavior towards her was wrong and i should have known earlier what a cunning asshole she is and that she'll haress and backstab me even a year later. but i now learned and im not interacting with any teenagers anymore."

Mizumi is so clearly not sorry for what she did to the victim. She doesn't regret sending those dms to a minor, she only regrets sending those dms to a SPECIFIC minor. Fucking gross.

And I can't believe she told the mods to unban her art account, because it "has nothing to do with this". No, Mizumi, you moron. That's your ALT account, one you can easily just use to go on doing the same thing you've always done.

Post 3

Here's where Mizumi just devolves into insulting and swearing at the mods. What I take massive issue with is how Mizumi sees herself as some martyr, that her ban is some kind of injustice, being enforced by a corrupt dystopian government, determined to crush the spirits of an underground rebellion. It's (and I apologize for using an overused term) cringe as fuck.

I do want to commend the mods for remaining so level-headed with someone as volatile as Mizumi. I know reddit mods have a reputation of being power-hungry neck-beards living in their mom's basements, but here, I think the mods did a fairly good job in this scenario.

Unfortunately, Mizumi's evaded the consequences of her actions, showing that she's clearly learned nothing at all, by creating a new reddit account for posting her art, known as u/MizumiKahagoArts

yes, she literally used the exact same name as her old art account, just added an extra letter at the end.

#mizumikahago #danganronpa #debunked #mizumi kahago

[kaiba-fangirl]

If you follow my main, you know I've been focusing on medical stuff again. Just went for bloodwork last week. 13 pages of things to test for, I think 8 vials of blood. I finally got the results back this morning, and I've been going over them, comparing flagged things to symptoms. A few of these results could be connected to low sex drive. Not one of my symptoms, but I was reading everything anyway. These are disorders & conditions related to organ damage, where the symptoms may either be nonexistent, or just 1 symptom, or mistaken for other things, or even written off as nothing. But this actually isn't about my medical journey. That's long and confusing even to uncaring professionals, and I of course have to wait to at least see what my endo says about it all. This is cuz... I'm 35, been on this journey since I was 12, and finally staring at hard numbers from my blood that most likely mean organ damage from 29 years of untreated hypothyroidism. So I have some delicate life experience, that I hope others are willing to not bite my head off over.

...especially cuz it's June.

. But I'm also putting this HERE, on kaiba-fangirl, as a reassurance that I am not trying to write this off the other way, either. Because, my hardest headcanon for Kaiba, since 15, through all the shipping through all these years, even way back then, whenever someone would ask me who I ship Kaiba with, (& let's be real, they meant-) do I like Puppyshipping - or even alone, did I think he was gay? In 2003, I didn't know what to succinctly answer except, "I don't really think he'd be into anyone..."

. Kaiba & Joey stuff was usually hot cuz they're independently both hot. Kaiba & Serenity was just to get Joey steamed, & again both hot in fanart. Kaiba & "blue-haired-girl" (before her name was reliably translated) was just cuz BEWD destiny ancient egypt. Kaiba & Mai - just my 2 faves, so put together? Eh... 🤔 Nahhh.

. Probably 10 years later before I finally learned "asexual" & was like "FINALLY" - but not for myself. Ohhh very much not myself lol. But I finally had a word to describe Kaiba.

. So, as I hope you can guess by now, I'm (probably making a huge mistake typing this out loud) here to combine these 2 things to tell you: Low sex drive *CAN* be a medical indicator that something is wrong. And it could be a singular symptom, but a closer look at extensive bloodwork can tell a larger story. I *look* perfectly healthy. On average, I usually feel pretty fine. Which is how it took 29 years to find my hypothyroidism, during which time it's caused other organ damage (adrenal glands, kidney, pancreas. & then heart disease if I can't get my cholesterol under control, diabetes if I can't get the insulin resistance under control) & hurt my life greatly. And I don't know what treatment is going to look like from here on out.

. Yes, asexuality is valid & I even feel I do understand it. I do know it doesn't just mean low sex drive; I know you can be asexual with a high sex drive. I know it's not about that; it's about feeling sexual attraction, or not. I know it's not absolute but a spectrum. But for a lot of people, it does seem they also say they have low sex drive. And if that is so for anyone, then please do not ignore the fact that it can also be a medical symptom. You probably already know it's also a side effect of SSRIs.

. I certainly do not care who wants to claim asexual for any reason. That has nothing to do with me. But - please - don't let a hidden medical thing - like the autoimmune disorder that hypothyroidism is (& whatever else may be wrong with me) or the metabolic syndrome that PCOS is (a possibility my endo is looking into) - destroy your actual organs just because you didn't want to check.

. I'm just older & don't want anyone else to go through what I have with all of this. I have had to fight since I was 12 to get a blood test workup like this one. & it's probably cuz I'm just going to reportedly "the best" practice within 50 miles, which means no insurance & throwing a credit card at them. With gas & tolls round it to $500 first visit, $250 followups. First time in my life some of this stuff is getting tested. 29 years before my thyroid was ever tested. @ EVERYONE, get your thyroid tested. Endocrine issues are so misunderstood or little understood, can hide as so many other things, or get written off as absolutely nothing, but they affect everything in your body. It's basically how your brain tells your organs what to do. It's so important. But no one pays attention.

. I understand the sensitivity, but not everyone who tells you to check low sex drive medically is just trying to write off asexuality. I'm saying get it checked cuz too many symptoms of actually serious things get written off as nothing. THIS is the kind of "something medically wrong" we're talking about. Kinda need your other organs to work to keep your body alive to even be around to be asexual. Okay?

. And this applies to so many other things I'm seeing on these lists. Anything. Don't ignore it. Do whatever you can to see a good doctor. If reddit doesn't die, find a community there to share stories & experiences. This just seemed to be the one thing I've seen people get defensive over, taking it as only an identity thing, when there can very much be serious physical reasons behind it. Take care of yourself. 💙💙💙

#hypothyroidism #endo tag #kaiba is ace #ace!kaiba #...& now that i typed it all up i'm worried about actually tagging that... =/ #anyone? someone tell me whether this'll get me dragged out into the street & shot 😩

[cozysafechaotic]

Today's vibe was: "If 'feminine' was a Lacroix flavor" and I've never had such a gender euphoric day.

Some body positivity (???) Rambling with more details below the cut

Okay, so exciting moment. It's 935 and I'm only just now changing out of jeans.

I normally hate wearing like "going out" clothes because they don't fit well and it feels uncomfortable. Like, get home and instantly change to sweats and a looser shirt.

Cuz like, I'm a bigger woman and it's pretty damn obvious its a female figure so any attempts to dress mask or androgynous really don't work well but I recently got like, legitimately diagnosed with PCOS and insulin resistance.

So I've been on phentermine to help with appetite suppression and after the PCOS diagnosis, my gyn told me to look into getting on metformin to help with the insulin resistance. My PCP like, wouldn't do it without confirmation confirmation. My bloodwork showing high testosterone and that I have insulin resistance weren't enough. I had to see a secondary doctor and when I brought up that I'd been officially diagnosed via ultrasound she asked if I wanted to be put on metformin to help with weight loss. I told her the gyn had suggested that but the other doctor wouldn't put me on it. She had like, a barely repressed eye roll and asked if I wanted to be put on it.

So now, I've only been on the metformin two weeks but my clothes already feel looser. The phentermine was helping the appetite and hunger pains I was dealing with but it was SUPER slow progress. With my other doctor, it was often a week or two before the pharmacy received my prescriptions. She put it in with me there, and less than 2 hours I picked it up. I was down 3 pounds after two days of taking it. Almost like body needed that freakin help.

I'm starting to actually like being in my body because it's no longer betraying me.

But mega take away: aesthetic tags of "if female was a Lacroix flavor", "boho cottagecore" and "Ms. Frizzle" are gender seratonin.

#Tori Bean's rambling #body image #new aesthetic discovered

[cupid-styles]

my periods have been horrible this last year and instead of every 30 days like they used to be they are now every 21 days :’) and they’re super heavy and crampy, and ofc I get the breast pain but this little benign tumor they found in my boob has been hurting esp when I’m on my period. I see my obgyn at the end of the month and we’re going to seriously talk about uterine ablation which is what we talked about last time I saw her which was like a year ago. she said I had to decide if I wanted anymore kids first because I won’t be able to have anymore with this. I’m pretty sure I’m going to have it done cuz I’m exhausted and tired of feeling like crap and maybe this will help some other issues too as far as hormones go. and with my son being special needs he needs all of our attention so I don’t think I’ll be having anymore kids. anyway sorry for the long rant lol I just saw y’all were talking about periods.

omg don't be sorry!! its honestly crazy how much hormones can impact our mood so I truly don't blame you for thinking about getting that done. I have a long history with depression, anxiety, and weird period things and my obgyn had me get blood tests done a few years ago to see if it could be pcos or just some sort of hormonal imbalance (it wasn't, but it's still so frustrating as a person to go through all of that)

it's just so exhausting on top of all of these regular, monthly things we deal with to have to make these longterm decisions for ourselves :( like I'm nowhere near ready to have a child but it's something I want within the next 5 years or so and I 100% have anxiety about fertility-related things bc of my hormonal history!!!!!

bottom line I think they just need to let us live laugh love as girlies im tired!!!

#bestie asks

[brolantra]

So I’ve struggled with my weight and my perception of myself since I was a little girl. I won’t get into why, but I’ve been actively trying to correct my relationship with food for a little under a year now. I used to eat a lot of sweets, and junk food in general. I’d eat my feelings instead of feel them. It’s crazy cuz I used to do drugs years ago to run away, and I got clean. But it took me so many years to realize I was using food in that same way. I have pcos and a family history of diabetes.. the one thing those 2 things have in common is insulin resistance. Last year I realized if I didn’t change my eating habits I would continue to suffer. One way or another. I had to take certain things out of my diet to accommodate for the pcos. Red meat.. processed sugars.. red meat is a high inflammatory food and was making my periods so painful. I figured it out after I took red meat out of my diet for a while and decided to randomly eat a burger.. figured it wouldn’t be that bad. Boy was I wrong 😭 I miss burgers and sugar or whatever a lot but my periods are far less painful than they used to be.. ive also recently realized something very odd lol. Because of the pcos, my periods have always been quite irregular. But now I always know when it’s on its way regardless of how irregular it is because I start craving sugar and red meat it’s so weirdddd. And I just feel hungry all the time. I think ima start fasting when I get my periods. I fast periodically anyhow.. I wonder if that could help get rid of these weird ass cravings

[gonegirl1996]

Please what are you doing/using for your hair? My hair is so thin and brittle and stringy and just won’t grow past my waist.

Omg I should be the one asking you for hair advice 😭😭 your waist? That is so long!!! My hair is up to my chest and It’s the longest it’s ever been. My entire life my hair has been up to my collarbone.

But yeah I’m on the same boat as you my hair is so thin and brittle too and I’m shedding hair daily.

I have tried expensive and luxury hair products and items like oribe shampoo and conditioner and hair oil, morrocanoil brand, olaplex, Amika, living proof, k18 , dyson tools throughout the course of 10 years(some of time are newer products) and let me tell you none of this shit worked to restore the quality of my hair. Shampoos, conditioner, masks and hair treatments and oils from these brands.

If comparing to drugstore then yeah initial application of these feels amazing but long term it didn’t restore of the vitality or heath of hair.

Then I have tried minoxidil 10% solution which showed results at an exponential rate. Like my hair got THICK and looked longer too. You could not see any inch of exposed scalp cuz my hair was just growing and growing and growing but I experienced awful side affects and ultimately had to stop and so my progress went away and I lost the new hair growth.

I will admit that my hair does feel a TINY bit fuller and a tiny bit look longer than what it was but it is only noticeable to me and not anyone else cuz my hair progress barely noticeable. I started taking vitamins like zinc, b-vitamins, magnesium threonate, vitamin d, vitamin k for general health (although I am on and off with them cuz I have shit memory but whenever i get reminded like right now I take them)

And then I took a bloood test cuz I was experiencing pcos symptoms and found out I have high testosterone which can be the causation of my hair not growing, hair loss, hair thinning, brittleness.

So to be honest I don’t have a clear answer for you because I’m on the same boat as you. But I’d recommend to get a blood test done to check for deficiency in zinc or testosterone to see if you have any underlying issues for your hair condition.

And if blood test is good and you have a good diet and everything is well and you have a good hair routine and no underlying conditions but your hair is still thin, brittle and won’t grow then sometimes genetics could be the reason.

But so far I’m using these products for the sensorial experience and cuz they smell good: ouai shampoo and conditioner or R&Co shampoo and conditioner (I’ll switch it up based on mood), morrocanoil or oribe hair oil after showing, and sometimes k18 treatment. I don’t use heat on my hair/I don’t style it. I transitioned to using a comb to brush my hair. I’d say the most drastic and important thing here is transitioning to a comb cuz it’s much gentle on the hair.

I am in the process of switching to a better diet to testosterone low and incorporating aerobic exercise and see how that affects my hair and overall health.

[feisty-yordle]

i kinda wanna start a pcos blog cuz i totally forgot why i stopped time restricted eating and also why i was briefly doing ramadan-style fasting and now ive gained weight and im not sure what all changed when

if i had diary entries i could look back...

i think the ramadan eating was because i was having lots of caffeine and theobromine and wasnt getting hungry/tired during midday so eating only early and late made sense

but then i think i was having trouble sleeping with how late i was eating and wasnt sure if i should keep going

and then i think i decided to just eat lightly without time restriction? whole foods but no milk? i really dont remember this phase

anyway nothing seems to work as well without time restriction so imma go back to 16:8 especially since i dropped caffeine and chocolate

#txt #dear diary #pcos

[godtears]

I am just heatedly reminded that doctors have been neglecting me for so long that I had to do research myself and try and force them to test me for shit to get anywhere I am now. This is the first time a doctor went out of their own way to check something I didn't previously consider.

Me: I have x issue, here are my symptoms

Doctor: It's because you're fat

Me: Actually I might be pregnant

Doctor: I guess we can test you

Doctor: lol you were right I guess

Me: I have x issue, here are my symptoms

Doctor: It's because you're schizophrenic and crazy

Me: I think it's ADHD actually

Doctor: I doubt it but I guess you can go see a specialist...

Me: Hi yeah specialist says it's actually autism

Doctor: That can't be right idk

Me: I have x issue, here are my symptoms

Doctor: You obviously just don't know how to take care of yourself so you have dry ass skin lol

Me: Actually I think it's psoriasis

Doctor: We can check

Doctor: Oh shit yeah you're right

Me: I have x issue, and these are my symptoms, but honestly it's probably just cuz I'm fat, I can't think of why else I'd be like this tbh

Doctor: Yeah I'm like... 99% sure you have PCOS

Me: Well damn good job at being the only competent doctor I've ever met