#do i need to cook my own food

[ineedtherapydesperately]

need more chaggie wing fics where charlie is just absolutely obsessed w vaggie's wings like look at her face

she's obsessed and with good reason too

#chaggie #hazbin hotel #vaggie #charlie morningstar #do i need to cook my own food #please im just a struggling uni student #feed me before im forced to feed myself #okay but imagine charlie just absolutely mooning over vaggie's wings and vaggie is just embarrassed as hell #like charlie i appreciate this attention and i love you but what are you doing they're just wings #omg and the angst potential of vaggie just hiding her wings 24/7 bc they remind her of her dark exterminator past #but then she gets wing pains and cramps #and charlie finds out and then helps her preen but her heart is absolutely breaking for vaggie bc vaggie shouldn't need to hide this #ugh the endless potential for angst and hurt comfort #this is a need not a want #hazbin vaggie #hazbin charlie

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Hiii everyone, say, how do your Hawkes go go about sharing their estate? If they do it at all? Is everyone free to come and go or are they more private? Or do they only invite their LI to stay? I'm curious!! :)

#lay rambles #my ocs #oc: liam hawke #oc: lilian hawke #both my hawkes are very social w their friends but i love comparing their boundaries around it #theres variation in rules for specific ppl with both of them ofc but theres still general differences #with liam its all very open and everyone can p much come and go whenever #they dont get extra keys (theyll get lost and he doesnt want randos finding them lol) but they know where to find the spare key #and bodhan and sandal and orana know to let them in whenever #hes very lenient in this this regard but he does have rules abt what he does and doesnt want them to do #mostly its about not making too much of a mess lol bc liam prefers to clean himself #(he doesnt trust the crew with his household and also he has particular ways of doing things and Hates when theyre done differently) #so things like keep your dirty garb at the entrance dont cook by yourselves (this was banned after they did it one (1) time lol) etc #also no fucking allowed. do that somewhere else for the love of the maker he does NOT want to walk into that in his own house #(and it also comes back to liam not trusting them with cleaning but also Not wanting to clean that up lol) #also he is not fond of them going into his room uninvited. most of the house is chill but that is *his* space #he accommodates these rules by e.g. having spare slippers and a little washing basin in the entrance hall for dirty shoes/feet #always makes sure to have snacks in stock that he knows they like #food will have notes abt what to leave for leandra/orana/etc but otherwise food is prepared with his friends in mind #and in general he'll make sure to adjust the space/routine in little ways to accommodate them #(air out when fen isnt there cus he doesnt like drafts; keep curtains open cus anders prefers open spaces; etc) #lilian on the other hand doesnt like when her friends come into the estate without a heads up (cept for emergencies) #but once they have her 'ok' its basically mi casa es su casa #dont yknow. overdo it and get too rowdy but otherwise do whatever #however. she also expects everyone to clean up after themselves. she aint here to play maid and youre all adults #also liam has a general 'please try to not be too wild when leandra is here' and lilian doesnt #not cos she doesnt care but cos leandra is bothered by sth she can speak up herself #oh and lilian uses the basement space as temporary refuge for anyone who needs it (mostly escaped mages) #also side note: both offered gamlen to stay but he refused (out of pride/remorse) #...this got long and i ran out of tag space lmfao so this is it for now xD

[yuelaos-codex]

more babygirl™️ sketches in addition to my prev post. made the tattoos more detailed + added another on his waist bc why not

variations under the cut:

i think i prefer the blue tattoos over the golden ones now lmao. makes him look more... asgardian

#to the girlies who will say 'you just wanna see him nakd!' Well. YOU GUYS ARE RIGHT!! no one else is doing it. im cooking MY OWN food and #eating it. smh. sorry i think i yassified him too much here. something something rose colored glasses #heimdall #gow #gow heimdall #heimdall gow #god of war #god of war ragnarok #hannya art #appendix entry: heimdall #need to draw him with ylva now ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

[toxiccaves]

Sworgrader Chapter 3 is out! I think we'll be looking at one chapter every 3 months.. but personally I'm a little more enticed after this chapter!

I was very surprised at the new guest we'll meet next time!

#brave universe sworgrader #there are 3 people posting about this on here. its fine #anyway semi spoilers in my ranting or if u saw me on twitter but- #i am soooo obsessed with sworg and like. a lot of the concepts they layed out here. its so funny #i knew id love the food truck robot but he has his own KITCHEN in his CHEST and anyway i need sworgs asmr eating channel #can we get a cooking game with sworg. next cooking mama #but my usual complaints of the series still stand with the moe-ified women and the multiverse braves just feels like a quick nostalgia grab #and not much happens over the course of one comic either.. hopefully that changes but at least the main character is silly. i will make do

[transmechanicus]

It is sunday night. I remain exhausted.

#my stuff #i tried everything this weekend and nothing is healing my Existential Ambivalence #like i know i cooked and i saw friends and i did my hobbies and normally i'd be proud of myself for all that but i just...don't care #i wanna call out sick or something tomorrow. I'm worried about my finances and i genuinely think im gonna have to move somewhere cheaper #like i was expecting my tax return to offset the slow bleed of money from my savings each month and that Is Not Happening #And its not like i have any way to Make More Money #bc im a grad student and we're contractually prevented from doing so #So that means i'll need to move when my lease is up this summer and i really don't fucking want to #i like where i live i just wish it wasn't so goddamn expensive on rent #even like $200 cheaper would be world changing for me #but no instead i gotta look at my bills after power and car insurance and food and be like oops guess i lost $100 this month #and god forbid i get coffee or eat out in the cheapest way possible bc somehow that adds up to like $100 the second i look away #im sick of being anxious about this!! im not eating enough as it is!! #i also don't wanna get a fucking roommate bc i don't want someone in a space i've come to consider my own #like sorry but im transgender do not fucking look at me stranger #so the only real solution is to move and that's such a fucking hassle and it doesn't solve the problem now and i just want this to get bettr #i wish all students a very $2000 raise forever #and all landlords a very Scrooge Moment that makes you cut my rent in half #ave omnissiah

[im2tired4usernames]

It's so frustrating when you look for "affordable" ways to live it's all

"get a roommate"

"live at home with parents"

"live in a tiny home that costs a billion dollars and needs a property to be set on"

"get finical aid that no one can actually get because there's so many hoops"

"live in a million dollar van"

"live in a absolutely desecrated fixer upper home that has holes in the floor roof and rats the size of a small dog and is unlivable "

"work three jobs don't use your lights and eat one meal a week you don't need your meds either"

"find a shitty run down appartment that MASSIVELY over charges will continue to bump rent up after You've stayed so long there and has a six month mim wait period"

I have no fuckin hope of ever bettering my life or gaining freedom and independence

#i really don't know why I'm even bothering I'm so tired #I'm not asking for much i lit want just three rooms a place to sit a place to cook and a place to shower/poop #and i want to have food and medicine and lights on at night and heat in the winter #maybe that's too much to ask for maybe i need to lower my wants n needs #maybe i need to just find a fucking tree to crawl into and die #i just cant keeo doing this #life only gets worse and worse IT NEVER GETS BETTER IN THIS HOUSE #i need to map out and plan what i want my future to look like and start makoysteps to it get a better job get a place of my own #figure out how to get a job n place across seas so i can support myself there get a visa. and the ability to legally be allowed to work n #live there find a job that pays enough to live and insurance and leaves me with enough energy to continue house work and then energy to #enjoy being alive #i have to start moving on if i don't put the steps into it I'll be stuck here forever but GETTING A HOME WOULD BE STEP ONE AND IMPOSSIBLE #i can't keep doin this though

[lyrikmumare]

"message for scorpios for what to expect for THIS SOLSTICE 😆😆" do you want to trigger my ocd so fucking badly i don't take any potential advice you're going to give me bc you're scaring me more. fucking hate future-telling astrology and divination and witchcraft pls just leave me the fuck alone

#clyde.txt #they always say the same thing too like MAKE SURE TO START GETTING A MOVE ON ALL THOSE MAJOR LIFE PLANS YOU'VE BEEN COOKING UP 😋😝 #LIKE I KNOOOOOW BUT YOU'RE PUTTING ME IN FREEZE MODE A BIT AGAINCAUSE YOU'RE SCARING ME‼‼ I HAVE OCD AND YOU'RE SCARING ME‼‼ NOT HELPING #astrology is fun insofar as guessing and assigning fictional character's signs but good lord this is just evil and not helpful to me at all #literally don't tell me what to do or make me feel like if i don't do anything i'll die and live an unhappy life forever and have bad #things happen to me BC THAT'S HOW YOU'RE MAKING ME FEEL‼‼ YOU'RE MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO HAVE TO KMS EVEN IF I DON'T WANT TO #IDK WANT TO HAVE TO FUCKING. LIKE MANIFEST OR CHEAT THE LIFE SYSTEM yes i'm well aware i'm responsible for my own success and happiness #and i do indeed plan to do something about that hopefully sooner rather than later but also like.... i already worry enough i'll never be #happy and will just have no option other than to kms like.... like? shut up. i eat good food and pet my cats and hang out and talk to my #friends i don't need to be on the fucking grindset. but fine i'll call the stupid healthcare provider tomorrow. MAYBE #if u want me to realize my potential than how about we stop having a world and society that isn't hell 🤔🤨 how abt i don't feel valid in #feeling scared to leave the house...? 🤨🤨🤨🤨 #the problem is i feel justified with the way i feel abt the world so strongly that idk what's gonna happen that's gonna prove me wrong #and then i can't cope with it either .... which is why i need Mental Help. or epic money

[sunless-not-sinless]

its 1am so i thought people wouldnt be in the kitchen and i could cook in peace

i was wrong

there was a bloody candlelight vigil

#what the fuck #i speak i ramble #i just wanna cook without needing to talk to people for once in my god damned life #cant cook at home and cooking at uni kinda scary #why cant i cook at home? #parents dont like the kitchen smelling like food #parents dont like it when someone is in the kitchen and they move through the house #parents dont like it when someone is in the kitchen and they want to use any adjacent rooms #parents dont like it when someone is in the kitchen and they want tea or coffee or diet coke #my parents want me and my sister to be out of sight out of mind and still give them affection #they want us to be dolls. pretty‚ to be shown off to others‚ but not alive. #not to be our own living people with our own lives‚ personalities‚ and issues. #argh i hate my parents. AAAAAA #i feel like i need to say im doing a degree - im an adult who pays taxes and shit - and im the youngest in the house. we all adults. argh #vent

[crabfin]

It's crazy what you don't realize is gone from your life until you have it again- but man I really missed eating puerto rican food regularly.

#talkfin #i need to ask my mom how to cook. i need to stock my pantry with all the right shit #if theres one thing i never want to do again is live a life where i eat my own cultures food less than once a month

[foxgirlmoth]

I've been so stressed for so long and I just felt such intense nausea after sobbing/screaming in my car for several minutes. I'm so tired of just so so much. I'm fucking tired of working retail I don't wanna go back to it since I don't have an internship or fuck all planned for the Summer break. I don't wanna keep doing college which is designed to fucking kill people with learning disabilities or just really any disability in general. I'm tired of waking up in pain every day for the past 15 years. I'm tired of being unable to afford medical care and wondering what the fuck is wrong with me. I'm tired of being unable to progress with prep for bottom surgery I'm tired of shit ass family watching me suffer and doing nothing, and in fact forced me to pay for my own medical needs as soon as I hit 18 because I'm trans and left the cult church I was raised in. I'm exhausted and I'm so fucking angry at the shit in the world we can change but are forced to live through because of the biggest shit stains in history. I'm tired I'm tired I'm tired I'm fuckiNG EXHAUSTED.

#rant #don't. mention I'm posting this. #I'm just so tired #I almost threw up from sobbing in my fucking car. #I just wanna be able to live and accommodate myself with my pain and problems and not have to feel like I'm hurting myself #In the long run just so I can get through days months and years of existing in the fucking blender of an economic system we call capitalism #I wanna get help to see what can help with my costochondritis and what can help with my leg pain #I wanna eat well and cook my own food I wanna be able to live in a body that fits my needs I wanna be able to fucking live #I wanna live so bad #But everything is so terrifying #I'm constantly scared and tired and scarred from the fucking live I've clawed through #I just wanna live and be happy and do what I love and make art and help other trans people and be full of love #And the world fucking hates that.

[mishkakagehishka]

And do you guys also get hit with "in case of war" every five minutes. I feel like there hasn't yet been a life skill I was taught by my parents that wasn't taught to me "in case of war"

#improv cooking? in case of war you need to know how to cook with what you have on hand #gardening? in case of war it'll be good if you can grow your own food even if the bare minimum #mending? in case of war you need to know how to mend clothes and it'd be good if you can sew new clothes too #even PE😭 every time i'd complain ab PE my mother would tell me ''well do your best because PE will be good prep in case of war!'' #i swear ''ako dođe rat'' is so ingrained in me even i'm thinking i need to learn to sew in case of war

[july-19th-club]

every time i have a really bad bout of insommnia i realize all over again that im not going to be able to trust my ability to sleep for a very long time...the last time i had even a little bit of trouble sleeping was months and months ago, and i was still able to nod off before 1:30am and get a more or less full night's rest. now it's 2:16am, i've got that fluttery feeling of unrest in my chest that i haven't felt, not really, since last summer, and there are so many things in my mind that i feel like i have to take care of that i just can't relax. i nodded off for about an hour and woke up just before 2am and felt immediately a) sick to my stomach b) the sure and certain knowledge that it might be the most sleep i got at ALL tonight and just the thought of that brought me right back to wide awake. maybe it was something i ate today maybe it was the myriad of things that have gone weird this week - have to finish paperwork for my job for fundraising and the boss wants it (very literally) yesterday, so of course my ability to satisfy what he wants has to be hampered by sleeplessness and exhaustion; i've got a fun family gathering all weekend at an amusement park that i've decided to actually go to this year despite ducking out on the three previous years for work reasons and covid reasons and all very good reasons but now i'm going and good lord i'm terrified of getting sick because i'm just too stupid to stay home. and i fucked up and got the weeks wrong for my most recent therapy appointment and i haven't heard back from her when i texted her to ask what the actual date was so i'm just. starting to think she's dropped me unceremoniously and i'll never hear from her again and it's my fault because i should've been more on the ball to begin with. and who i WANT to talk to about all this is the therapist but. well. ive screwed up somehow and i'm terrified to reach out again because what if that just pisses her off? surely this is not the right way to think about that situation but i need her to tell me what the right way IS. and well you can see my conundrum. anyway it's now edging in on 2:30 and the only thing i can think to do is work on my fundraising paperwork now, at 2am, so that if i call off sick tomorrow on account of no sleep and, probably, impending actual sickness because why else would i not be able to sleep? the last time i had this much trouble i was actually sick, like with a flu, so . anyway if i work on the paperwork NOW then i can send it in tomorrow from home and at least i will not be a complete failure of an employee. fuck my stupid baka life

#not encouraged to reblog this one #gOD i feel like i'm either going to have the world's most belch or throw up #and i have no idea why . like what did i eat. was it the hummus for dinner. the spectacular lunch? chicken n basmati #was the chicken not cooked . do i have some kind of food poisoning #that would almost be a relief because it would be a concrete answer for why tonight sucks so bad #and i would be able to not go crazy over it #ive sent my mother like. seven or eight long ass midnight texts. that are basically all just this post. pathetic #and she knows i do this and she's fine with it but she also (for her own sanity. and sleep.) turns her phone to do not disturb at night #and reads my misery ramblings in the morning #and that's fine! i'm cool with it she has insomnia too and since this started i for the first time in my life really appreciate how bad tha #but like.............i NEEd to talk to someone about how scared i am and how shaky my chest feels and how bad it all fucking sucks. #so me and my upset stomach and my ten useless milligrams of melatonin are on tumblr. that bastion of the sleepless and the nocturnal #have love song by mariee sioux stuck in my head which is not a BAD song to have stuck in ur head during insomnia #but i dont want the insomnia to ruin the song u know what i mean

[nerdie-faerie]

Pie time 🥧

#ace tries cooking #shes ugly as hell <3 but i dont even care its food and im hungry #its nearly 11pm because thats the level of procrastination im at atm but i can finally eat the pie i made after the pastry took forever to #be done and i got impatient and turned the oven to max for last quarter or so of an hour and our oven doesnt have any labels #so i dont even know how hot that is #but ya girl got no money and needed to cook so had to use what she still had in the flat cus no groceries until i get paid since i paid #for summer rent i just cant afford it so i made a lil chicken pie with the last two chicken thighs i had some carrots and onions all from #the freezer with some potatoes and gravy and made some garlic and thyme shortcrust pastry instead of buying puff pastry like i usually do #for pies and i always got butter and flour so why the fck not make my own pastry? gotta stop being so lazy now i got leftovers for the week #even if my gravy betrayed me and pooled out onto my pastry in two places smh

[protect-namine]

there's nothing in the dottonari tag that's specifically about how I think they would interact ugh that means I have to write this myself 😭

#mine musings #liveblogging genshin #SPECIFICALLY boattore not the other dottore clones. tighnari would beat them up but he would tolerate (passive aggressively) boattore #anyway the polite passive aggressive thing they have going on was really interesting. too bad boattore died #do i need to spoiler tag this... okay just to be sure #genshin spoilers #why do i fall for the rarepairs in this game. that means i have to cook my own food

[oatbugs]

i literally cannot spend another summer holiday at my parents' house im going insane .

#need 2 hook up w smn need to go out and do things i enjoy #need to go to cafes every single day need to not have everything i do observed questioned and critisised #need to be allowed to make mistakes need to be allowed to cook my own food buy my own gorceries #organise my own room and only let pleasant ppl into my space #everyone who ever was like . hurr durr adulthood sucks youll miss not paying rent and not doing taxes etc . fuck you u were so wrong #like paying for anything sucks but literally living w my parents over holidays before uni starts drives me insane #and i love living alone i love kissing ppl in my room and not being afraid of anyone acting like im possessed for being an adult #i love love love doing things when i want to do them i love finally having control over my own life i love the space to breathe #and to not be judged for everything . like . rly genuinely this isnt it at alllll . moving into my own place late sept but contract ends #august meaning i have to like . save up enough to get an airbnb for holiday months bc bro #if i have to spend another holiday in this house in this town full of the worst memories ever i will literally . implode

[milo-is-rambling]

I think I wanna write a letter or a speech or something for my dads death anniversary but I don't want to do it and my make mom extra sad or anything but the six months is gonna be March 18th and idk what to do for it

#in my dream future I have my own apartment and I host a dinner with me and a couple close friends and we smoke weed and I cook some food I #remember from growing up or remember us eating together and we all drink and I can do a little speech that I can worry about and edit for #days/weeks ahead of time (forcing me to think about my dad and the emotions that come up with the passing of time) #and I can read it out loud and cry if I need to and we smoke and drink and it's a happy memorable occasion between me and people who love me #that's what I want #i want happy memories and stories and respectful friends who can joke around with me #i just want those forever friends who I can invite to a dead dad anniversary dinner and not make me regret it later on #ugh #i miss my dad man :'(