#ebitch speaks

[ebitchwriting]

Aeon Dynamic Change Of RE4RE:

There are a lot of things about the RE4RE game I love, but I just wanna focus on how the dynamic between Ada and Leon changed between the original and remake.

In the original, I still stand the analysis I made in my other post on Aeon and Cleon(which is in my pinned post if anyone's curious). Ada is one of the very few people he made a connection with when he was young and innocent, and saw who he was before being coerced into working for the government in exchange for Sherry's safety. Leon's afraid of letting himself get close to people for fear that they'll die because of him, and Ada is someone that seemingly keeps coming back from the dead, so he knows he can allow himself to love her. Plus he remembers how Ada, while still pretending to not be a mercenary in the events of RE2, kept trying to persuade him to just escape the city and save himself. In Leon's eyes, he knows Ada is more than what she portrays herself to be.

However, in the original canon of Resident Evil, I always thought it was debatable whether or not Ada was in love with Leon as well. That isn't to say she doesn't love him, she absolutely has a soft spot for him and has time and time again come back to save him directly or indirectly. And judging by some dialogue in the second animated Resident Evil movie, they've already started a sexual relationship. But the OG!Ada always struck me as someone who just... doesn't really feel romantic attraction, or if she does, she never allows herself to indulge in more than a night of fun, not with her profession.

In the RE4RE, I fucking love the changed dynamic of Ada and Leon(I love conflicted relationships with tons of angst, sue me). Leon here is just as attached but far more jaded and overtly depressed than OG!RE4Leon. The innocence that the young man held is eviscerated in the wake of the government "recruiting" him, barely coping with the trauma of Raccoon City and being unable to save so many people, but his desire to save whoever he can is still there. As a random side note, I do find it interesting that while in neither version of the game was Leon surprised to see Ada alive again, in the Remake they decided to make it so he didn't know she was working with Wesker. I wonder why they decided to change that, were they worried that this new version of Leon wouldn't move past that?

Anyways, Ada here is interesting. They not only decided to make her soft spot for Leon a little more obvious, but they're focusing on Leon impacted Ada just as much as she did Leon. She's still a cunning mercenary that's extremely careful with her words, but looking at her actions and what she chooses to say to Leon, it's clear he had an impact on her. She still tries to get him to leave Spain and save himself. "She's lost no matter what," there's a rare vulnerability to how she says these words that she hardly shows. Even as much as she thinks it's pointless to try and stop the Illuminados, and that Ashley is doomed to die, she still reaches out to Leon to point him in the right direction when she notices Ashley has been taken. Though what she says to Leon on the boat is what's really grabbing my attention.

"You haven't changed. You just think you have." Once again, that rare vulnerability that we almost never see. More than that, it just perfectly encapsulates how she sees Leon. Despite how much we the audience can see Leon has changed, she still sees that idealistic young man going against insurmountable odds to save whoever he can.

When Leon asks Ada if she's changed, she avoids the question with "What do you think?" Which doesn't surprise me. Ada is rarely direct and has to be read between the lines and through her actions to see her true thoughts and emotions. I feel like, especially when she purposefully sabotages Wesker's ability to get the Amber by pulling the gun on the helicopter pilot, we already have our answer. Up until that point, it was more that she had changed but thought she hadn't. Once she learned of the full devastation of Wesker's desires, she couldn't pretend she hadn't changed anymore.

I really hope we get a DLC centering around Ada for the Remake soon... and if they ever do a full remake of 6 they don't cut her out and instead rework how she and Carla fits in the story entirely.

#resident evil #re4 remake #leon s kennedy #ada wong #aeon #ebitch speaks

[frosted-confusion]

I’m kind of crying

So it’s only been this year since i started fantrolling and i want to give thanks to @tiredprosecutor @fantroll-ikea @hollowed-hearts @goddesstrolls and @kaztrolls for helping me get started  Kaz you helped me set up my blogs appearance and xkit , Ikea and Tired you dudes helped me bring my boy to life for the first time giving him art and Bast and Beasty you two helped me get into having him develop into who he is so i want to thank you for helping me!

#dadmin speaks #it's not even been a year #and there are so many others to thank #but im being a mushy littl ebitch #he's blown up so much!

[takhun]

Willingly Opened Myself To Failure..

I'm just writing on this because nobody on tumblr cares if I'm bein a little ebitch and I just feel like opening my head a bit -_-.. (mamimi over flowing) status... So I suck when it comes to girls, I can talk to them, I can have secks, I can maintain stable communication, I can provide, I can support, I can even understand due my bullshit of a childhood..  BUT FOR THE LIFE OF ME, I CANT KEEP/MAKE A RELATIONSHIP lol

When I get this way I cant help but repeat the lyrics to a Motion City Sountrack song that goes.. “Now ive apologized a billion times, when I went “Off the Wall” like Bustah Rhymes and pulled a stupid stunt that left you thinkin there was something wrong with me.. You threw a few choice phrases at my way and I ignored them all as best I could, except that TINY BIT how I just “cant commit”. there some truth in what you say.

and even their other song You Hold Me Down <3 I love resorting to music to say the words my feelings wont let my head/heart speak. Its weird but personally its draining in a weird way..

#mamimi #personal struggle

[ebitchwriting]

Aeon and Cleon Ship Thoughts

Well, you know why you're here. Let's talk about Leon's two most important relationships with Ada and Claire, why I think both are canon, and why both won't be canon in the way you think and how it's all tied to Leon's not dealing with his issues.

Both individuals he met during the chaos of Racoon City and the original T-Virus outbreak when he was dumb, young, hungover, and desperately trying to save whoever he could. By the end of it, he saved at least Claire and Sherry but watched Ada die in his arms/right in front of him(depends on which order you played the game). Seeing the dead rise, families be torn apart and brutally destroyed, and finally, the city blowing up leaving the survivor numbers in the single digits, and then subsequently being forced into an agent position by the government to keep Sherry safe, it's no wonder that the man has PTSD, displayed less seriously and more jokingly in RE4(or at least from what I remember playing as a kid). His PTSD, and alcoholism, become a lot more obvious RE6 onward.

With Ada, it's been clear for a long time he loves her. There's the trauma connection and that adds an element of realness that he can't have with hardly anyone else and that she's one of his last connections to his innocence, which is only intensified by the fact he thought she was dead until RE4. While Ada has sexual attraction to Leon, whether she feels the same level of emotional turbulence and need from Leon is another question entirely. They have been in a sexual relationship, or at least had been suggested in the second Resident Evil animated movie Damnation. But sex and romantic love are NOT the same things. Ada has always struck me as aro, so the way I see it Leon to her is a fun, casual relationship that she takes advantage of when she has the chance. Meanwhile, Leon is constantly yearning for more but doesn't see himself as deserving of it, and only takes what he can get. Both of them are also smarter than to try for anything serious with the instability of both jobs(and illegality of Ada's), and the rising threat of bioterrorism.

Claire, on the other hand, well Leon loves her too. Just as equally as he loves Ada. Claire was the one he managed to save. The only other one that shares the same trauma and has a connection he can't find anywhere else. Who had that connection to his innocence, and probably the only one he lets see who he is when he isn't on guard. They don't canonically see each other very much, but when they do they're ecstatic to see each other. Until Infinite Darkness, when Claire asks for the chip to expose the government, to the surprise of Leon who was expecting a dinner catchup(reads as a date by subtext), and after being honest and refusing Claire, they presumably parted ways. (Which as much as that chip needed to be revealed, it needed to be done strategically, so don't exactly blame Leon for not giving it to Claire, however, there could have been more negotiation made)

Now, why would he constantly choose to chase after Ada, someone he knows won't love him the way he loves her, and even if she did there would be a future? Why would he choose to sabotage his relationship with Claire, someone he knows could love him back the way he loves her and could have a future with her? Answer: because he hates himself. He doesn't think he deserves to have a future. He's also afraid that eventually, he'll fail Claire and she would end up dead because of him. He thinks he's cursed and pushes Claire away so she can live. He chases after Ada, someone that seemingly keeps dying and coming back to life(he had NO idea who Carla was and that she was impersonating Ada), someone he knows won't get so attached to him that it risks her life(more than it already is). It's a doomed relationship. He'd rather have a half hour of fun every year or 2, then back to being alone with his issues than have a wonderful relationshop cut short by tragedy than be alone with his issues.

If Leon saw a therapist, then he'd be still fucked up but he'd be dealing with his issues far better. But, ya know, this is Resident Evil. Very few of the Raccoon City survivors have tried to healthily deal with their issues. Arguably I'd say only Claire and Rebecca managed to healthily move on from Raccoon City.

#ebitch speaks #resident evil #leon s kennedy #claire redfield #ada wong #headcanon #... More like an essay #aeon #cleon #Edited out reference mistake #resident evil headcanons

[ebitchwriting]

This is a personal headcanon of mine that I've had since I was a kid playing Resident Evil 4, but Leon absolutely made sure after Ashley is safe and back at her home, he went back to the village with other agents to do a further sweep, making sure all B.O.W.S. were eliminated. Throughout the sweep he made sure to look for that dog he saved from the bear trap. Which he does, but because this is Leon Kennedy, certified workaholic and alcoholic, he knew there was no way he could keep the dog.

So he helps smuggle the husky-labrador mix over to the States to Claire, who he knew absolutely loves dogs. She named him Guillermo and adored him and how vocal he was. He lived to the ripe age of 13, and Claire keeps his ashes, a vial of his fur, and a paw print mold to remember him by.

#ebitch speaks #resident evil #Headcanon #leon kennedy #claire redfield #resident evil headcanon

[ebitchwriting]

Sherry Birkin Headcanons:

Poor little Sherry has precious few good memories of her parents. Not because they were physically or emotionally abusive but because they were both workaholics and inadvertently became neglectful. They were very attentive in the beginning when Sherry was born, but when she was six, and they both got negative annual reviews from their boss, it started going downhill. A few missed bedtime stories here, missed parent/teacher conferences there, then missed birthdays because their deadlines are just too important to ignore. To the point that by the time Sherry is 12 in RE2, she's practically independent. Making sure she goes to bed early, that all her homework is finished and perfect, and making her own food.

It wasn't all bad, though. There were nights were William would take his little girl out for night drives, switching on the radio and letting her pick her favorite pop station until she fell asleep. Vaguely aware of her father carefully scooping her up, who knows how long later, tucking her into bed with a delicate kiss on her forehead. Other nights Annette would take the time to teach little Sherry baking recipes and simple little dishes like scrambled eggs, tuna melts, and mac and cheese. There were a few times her favorite pop singer or boy band just so happened to be performing in the same city, and despite both parents absolutely hating 90's era pop music, they knew Sherry loved it, so they took her to each rare concert, calling the school that she was sick the next day so their little girl can sleep in from the lively night. Sherry even had some happy memories of Uncle Albert, as even more avoidant as he is. Mostly of him babysitting her, relenting on her watching whatever movie she wanted, and him taking her out that one Halloween. He didn't want to wear a costume, but Sherry wouldn't have that and got a sharpie and drew on whiskers and a cat nose. S.T.A.R.S. Team gave him so much shit the next day when the Sharpie wouldn't wash off.

Of course, the precious good memories were buried beneath the traumatic event of Raccoon City. Of being left to fend for herself until Claire and Leon came along. Of being kidnapped by Chief Irons. Of watching her father literally morph into an unrecognizable creature dead set on hunting her down, and that horrific moment where he, it, caught her and implanted the G-virus in her. Everything changed after Raccoon City.

It's already pretty well established how Shery looks up to Claire and Leon as parental figures, and they both did provide her with wonderful memories while she was growing up under the thumb of the government. How they would give her the newest cassette tapes and CDs of her favorite bands. New stuffed animals so that at night she wouldn't feel so alone. New science fiction books and magazines. But, as the years went by, the visits became fewer and farther apart. Letters came less and less, to the point that several years would go by before Sherry was allowed to see either or receive any letters.

As her contact with her chosen parents lessened, the experiment the government would force her to undergo would increase more and more. Specifically when she was transferred under the supervision of Simmons. All under the guise of utilizing her G-Virus antibodies to create vaccines, hopes that the healing properties found in her would be useful against other viruses. Things that no one in their right mind would object to, no matter how painful or invasive the experiment was. If Sherry ever dared to object in her youth, well, Simmons was quite adept at turning it all around to villainize her and shame her until she gave in and continued to be an experiment.

As a result, Sherry as a teenager, was depressed, angry, impulsive, and self-destructive. Sherry couldn't help but obsess over the horrible moment the thing that was her father implanted G-virus in her, forever changing her life. How her parents practically abandoned her at every chance. How stupid she was to think that Claire and Leon would be different from her parents. She would impulsively throw away all the stuffed animals, rip the magazines and books to shreds, and smash the CDs and cassettes. In soul-crushing guilt and shame for assuming the worst and destroying her memories of her chosen parents, she would mutilate her arms, only to see them heal right back. No matter how many broken shards of CDs and broken mirrors she would shove into her appendages, it all healed right back.

After her understandable mental breakdown after the never-ending experiments and never being able to see her chosen parents, Simmons was forced to stop the experiments on Sherry by the government. She couldn't bear it anymore, and the government didn't want their prized humanoid BOW to find a way to kill herself. Simmons was also forced to let her have all the letters and gifts he's been withholding, to allow Claire and Leon to visit her again, and, more importantly, to allow Sherry to start attending therapy.

Therapy was the best thing that ever happened to her. Gave her the tools to reteach herself how she saw herself, what happened to her, and the most important people in her life. Instead of viewing her parents as people who couldn't care less about her, she came to view them as "consumed by their work." As much as she wanted to help and make her infection mean something, she realized all the experiments Simmons was putting her through were destroying her, consuming her as much as her parents' work did them. She realized there were more ways she could help stop what happened to her from happening to others, and took inspiration from Leon(still not knowing he was forced to become an agent).

Which to me explains her mentality and behavior in RE6 and how she explained what happened to her. It clearly still weighs on her heavily but it isn't the mentality of someone festering in guilt, regret, and trauma like Leon or Chris. It's more like Rebecca and Claire, who truly survived and learned to thrive again, to use their experience to motivate them to help in the best way they can. Even when it's revealed that Simmons is behind the creation of the C-Virus and all the attacks across the world, Sherry didn't break. She felt guilty and stupid for trusting Simmons, but she moved forward and set out to stop him.

To Sherry, Jake, and especially when he struggled to accept who his father was and what kind of person that made him, he reminds her of when she was younger and angrier. When she was convinced that she was a monster because of her parents. He reminds her of a person she could have become had she not taken control of her life. She wanted to help him realize he was more than his absent father, more than his C-Virus, and that there was more to life than money. Post RE6 Jake makes her so proud that he took control of his own life and truly becane his own person like she did.

Side note: I also think Sherry and Ashley met through therapy and became fast friends once they realized they were the only ones that could truly understand the trauma they shared of forcefully infected but had the infextion halted before the infection could reach past it's infancy stage. I can see them bonding over their shared desire of being an agent to help stop bioterrorism(a path I don't think Ashley managed to go down unyil post RE6). And of course, them bonding over Leon and how important of a parental(Sherry)/mentor(Ashley) role he played after saving them.

#resident evil #resident evil headcanons #sherry birkin #ebitch speaks #still not able to write my fic while job hunting but I managed to do this

[ebitchwriting]

Question for older RE fans:

Why is it that there's damn near nothing out there for Josh Stone or Sheva Alomar? They're the only BSAA members we know somewhat in-depth about aside from Piers, and like Piers only showed up in one game. They both genuinely have enjoyable and unique personalities that make them feel like real characters. Plus there could have been a potential side game dedicated to just the two fighting bioterrorists that decide to use poorer countries with little military defense as testing grounds for experimental bioweapons, criticizing how many richer countries can and have destroyed many countries in the Middle East and Africa for resources and then kick the refugees while they're down by refusing them proper aide. Yet, we get nothing. We don't even know if Sheva and Josh are alive RE7 onwards!

Who else wished these two characters were given a little more love by Capcom?

#Resident Evil 5 #Josh Stone #Sheva Alomar #ebitch speaks #Just... so much potential wasted #Capcom has dropped so many amazing characters after 1-2 games #so i'm not surprised #just disappointed

[ebitchwriting]

So... I've been gone a while. Sorry about that to the eight people that follow me. So here's a life update for y'all.

After 2 and a half months of job hunting, I'm still shit out of luck and stuck at my prep cook job. Literally no one wants to hire anyone who isn't already a master in their field, fuck the fact it's an entry level position, nor does anyone want to pay more than the state minimum wage. Just... really, REALLY, over it and how I'm trapped in the food industry.

In the mean time... I've been writing more chapters of my Dragged Into The Blood fic and been trying to get fully caught up to where I was in the original fic. One of the chapters in the original I'm going to move way after the ReRev2 arc because frankly it doesn't make sense for it to be where it was originally. A couple other chapters from the original I'm going to cut because they serve no purpose, which should propel me into the beginning of ReRev2. And the original dynamic I had between Lea (oc) and Moira I also decided made little sense so I'm going to be redoing that while I'm working on the newest arc.

I'm gonna try to be somewhat more active cause the whole point of this blog is to be a writing blog for my fandom interests and original projects. And I can't really expect people to engage or ask questions if I'm dead silent most of the time, right? But, ya know, still job hunting.

#ebitch speaks #also warning to the wise #don't apply for primerica #their sales rep thing is a straight scam #no benefits #only hours are 3 hour training phone calls three days of the week #and no wage just whatever you manage to get from commission #plus they spend most of the interview trying to sell how you can become a millionare in six months #so many red flags

[ebitchwriting]

I feel like Sherry Birkin would be highly nostalgic of the 90's, and the second she was able to leave the confines of Simmons' house and have slightly more independence, and especially after she gains full independence, she would go ham on owning everything related to the 90's. Listens to nothing but Spice Girls, Backstreet Boys, Celene Dion, Mariah Carey, and Jewel. Her casual clothes are bedazzled and denim. Loves to watch the 90 rom com movies that her parents used to take her out to. Anything that reminds her of a happier time, of when her childhood wasn't ruined, and a time more familiar to her(I genuinely doubt that Simmons would bother to keep her updated on the changing world and technology when he had her as a test subject).

#ebitch speaks #Resident Evil #Sherry Birkin #headcanon #Sherry Birkin headcanon #resident evil headcanons

[ebitchwriting]

Resident Evil: Apocalypse Movie Review

So, finally kicking procrastination in the balls and actually continuing the movie reviews on a movie series that genuinely was very formative in my youth but now find it more disappointing than anything. Mostly because of how in every single sequel to the W.S. Anderson Resident Evil series seems to depend on retcons in one way or another, varying wildly in quality between each movie. Apocalypse, the second movie in the six, I'm very torn from because there was not only a major retcon in terms of the timeline of the viral outbreak in Raccoon City, butchering of original game characters, but also really interesting concepts that COULD have been amazing but... just falls flat.

Firstly, the retcon. At the end of the first film, Alice is slowly walking down the desolate streets, the city devoid of life, and heavily implied that the viral outbreak had already taken place and killed nearly everyone. Alone she stands, with nothing but a thin hospital gown and a shotgun with no extra shells to spare. This ending was a great setup, suspenseful, filled with tension, anticipation, and dread. Especially with Matt being placed in the Nemesis program, we could have had a wonderful story fusion of Resident Evil 2 and 3 with Alice eventually finding her way to the Police Department, not only for more ammo but hopes of finding survivors. Perhaps she finds one, an idealistic rookie cop who just started his job and now has been surviving on his own for a week, trying to reach someone, anyone for help through a radio. Perhaps she runs into a young girl, scared, alone, and helpless, and now Alice has to protect her from the zombies and infected animals, and the Lickers. You could have Nemesis constantly chasing her, trying to eliminate her, with perhaps a few moments where he struggles and forces himself to run away, leaving a wounded Alice alone. These were all things I hoped to see, and instead, it's reconned in favor of Alice awakening in the climax of the outbreak rather than the aftermath, yet all the tension of it being the climax is nonexistent. No value is truly given to any of the people who lost their lives. It might be just because as a kid I've always preferred the zombie films where it takes place in the aftermath rather than the climax, but the retcon of the timeline and its narrative and character handling was a major flop.

Secondly, the introduction and subsequent butchering of many video game characters into the films. The only one I actually liked the handling of was Carlos, as they not only captured how much of a fun-loving, flirtatious, genuine guy he is but also how seriously he takes his mission and truly believes he's there to help people, not clean up after Umbrella's mess. Jill, the Ashfords, and Nicholai were all massive failures of their characters. Jill in the games was not just a badass with great intuition and perseverance, but a strong sense of compassion and comradery, and so willing to help everyone she was able to. Meanwhile, the movie version just feels like a cheap distilled version that purely focused on her badassery, making her feel like a 2-dimensional character rather than a 3-dimensional character. Plus, where's the rest of S.T.A.R.S.? Where's Chris? Barry? You can't just cherry-pick one and ignore the existence of everyone else on the team. Then, Nicholai, the bastard that constantly antagonizes Jill and only sees value in data, money, and what serves him and him alone. The world collapsing? A life-saving vaccine that the world will inevitably need when containment breaks out? Who cares, it doesn't give him a big enough paycheck in the end. Yet in the film, he's so two-dimensional and forgettable that it isn't even worth getting into what little he does before he's killed by an infected dog. This seems so pointless since it seems they shifted his role in the game off to Major Cain. At that point, why bring Nicholai in the first place? For shits and giggles? Pointless added death to the survivors to show how bad the outbreak is? Regardless, it's just a disappointment.

The Ashfords, both the Doctor and Angie, are interesting yet disappointing. It's something that completely differs from what takes place in the games, by a fucking mile, yet the concept of a father inventing a virus to help his daughter live a life without struggle which inevitably the virus gets stolen and abused by a cold, heartless corporation IS something I think could have worked and almost did work, yet still falls flat in the overall poor writing and handling of the film in general. And honestly, I also wouldn't be so ticked had they not slapped the Ashord name on there for sake of having an easter egg from the game, and instead just made this concept and these characters truly their own, like with Alice, Rain, and Matt.

Another concept that I was truly, truly, looking forward to the most was Matt, aka Nemesis, and how they would handle it in the movie. In the game, Nemesis really had no backstory, just a B.O.W. that was programmed with killing all S.T.A.R.S. members and anyone that could potentially ruin Umbrella's reputation. By creating Matt, the movies gave this memorable monster a wonderful and depressing backstory of having everyone he loves destroyed by Umbrella, then experimented on and enslaved by them. Forced to kill innocents just trying to escape, and the one person he has the closest ties to now, Alice. This could have been wonderful, filled with angst and grief, but unfortunately, the piss poor writing of the film just makes all of this feel so flat and wasted. We get a little hint of what could be when Nemesis remembers he's Matt, his experiences in the Hive, his sister, and Alice, and chooses to ensure she and the rest of the survivors escape Raccoon City. He sacrifices his life because he knows despite he's still breathing, his life ended in the Hive. He's suffering and wants it to end, and there is no chance he would be able to have a life outside of Umbrella, and would rather take his final breath knowing Alice and the others got out safe, and that Cain is dead.

The ending with Alice as we know it being dead, and now following her clone, as well as her being a good bond for the T-Virus WAS a very interesting concept at the time of it's release(though little did I know it was foreshadowing for a major downfall of this movie series). However, Jill, Carlos, and Angie magically showing up to save Alice without a fuss from Umbrella, completely unexplained not only here but in the future sequals really tick me off. But that little rant will have to be saved for the review for Extinction as this is already long enough.

In conclusion, had W.S. Anderson decided to a) keep the movie universe and game universe completely separated and kept only original characters, or limited himself to just one or two game characters; b) not retconned the timeline established in the first film; and c) not focused to much on action and focused more on suspense and horror like in the first film, this truly could have been a slam dunk. 3/10 STAAARS purely for the few concepts that were intriguing and carried the film.

#resident evil: apocalypse #resident evil #W.S. Anderson #ebitch speaks #ebitch reviews #movie reviews #I couldn't resist the STARS pun

[ebitchwriting]

This is all rambling thoughts and ideas about Resident Evil, Project W, and how it ties to my story.

Something in the Resident Evil Games I've noticed and I'm surprised wasn't done, especially at the reveal of Jake Muller, was why wasn't there a revival of Project W? Logically speaking you don't just do a single experiment to try to disprove your hypothesis, and I know original Project W was done with hundreds of "adopted" orphan children that supposedly displayed a superiority of intelligence at a young age, but why was it just the one project? Yes, I know that the Resident Evil Games are infamous for having really interesting concepts but not continuing it more than a DLC; as well as the fact that Project W was hypothesized with a eugenical belief, which is inherently unscientific so why would Spencer actually follow the ethics of logic of science regarding his hypothesis.

But as a plot point and conflict point, Project W should have been delved into more deeply. Especially when they introduced Jake in RE6, that could have been a perfect moment to reveal how Spencer started a second round, but instead of focusing on "adopted" genius orphans, they decided to genetically modify fetuses during development to create his bullshit superhumans.

And, I actually already stated this on my personal blog, I am under the belief that Jake's mom was actually an Umbrella mercenary who agreed to carry one of these Project W fetuses, got too attached, and decided to escape to Edonia, changed her name, and raised Jake by herself. To make sure she and Jake were never found, she refused to go to a hospital because she knew she could be tracked, even when she fell ill when Jake was a teen. Anytime Jake asked about his dad, she told him a lie that she still loved him and that he would return one day because she had no idea who his father was, that Jake's just an escaped experiment, and she didn't want to hurt him with the truth. So she took the truth with her in death, until Jake was kidnapped by Carla and Simmons in Re6. Like, that shit would have been so fucking cool had Capcom decided to pursue Jake's story in a later game, but nope! Nada, zilch, nothing.

In fact, this is actually how I came up with my fanfic idea, but OC is part of Project W Revival, and it's supposed to follow her and her path trying so hard to reclaim her life and not allow herself to be dehumanized and used as a weapon. Granted, it hadn't been revealed in my current iteration of the story, but I'm working on revealing this much earlier in my rewrite just so the story is more coherent.

#ebitch speaks #resident evil #Project W #Jake Muller #resident evil headcanons #headcanon

[ebitchwriting]

Random Writing Thoughts Ahead:

When it comes to super healing, whether that's related to supernatural means or science fiction means, the immortal always seems to be pristine in imagery. Not a scar or pimple in sight. Alongside that, no matter what the injury, they heal not only quickly but perfectly.

Now I get the no scars thing, but acne isn't related to injuries at all and is more of a hormonal issue(at least to most), so the super healing shouldn't affect that at all. And just because something heals doesn't mean it heals correctly. I mean look at the hell of setting in bones in severe fractures where the bone is sticking out of the skin. Or vertebrae shifting after repeated impacts to the spine(personal experience there...)

The healing quickly but not perfectly thing can be PERFECT for turning a gift into a curse and to torture the immortal. Rip their limps from the sockets and watch the body stitch itself back together, but the ball didn't go back in the socket all the way or the way the muscle fibers didn't quite heal in the right layers. Snap their shin bones out of the skin, and let them sit there as the healing factor heals around the protrusion, damning them to more torture to fix it or to not walk on that left again. Give me some consequences to the healing factor. Show me how it doesn't serve the immortal any favors.

Sounds mean as hell, but I would love to see a new take on healing factors.

#ebitch speaks #writing thoughts #writing ideas #healing factor? more like healing curse.

[ebitchwriting]

Hi I came Fanfiction.net and I enjoyed your Dragged into blood novel and wanna know if you still write and where I could read it plz.

Hi, it's nice to see an old fan! I'm still writing it, more accurately I'm rewriting it to fit my current writing style. Currently the first four chapters are fully rewritten amd edited, the 5th chapter is in the middle of a edit after rewriting it. Once that's done, I'm going to reupload my story to Ao3 and here on tumblr on a biweekly schedule as I continue to rewrite amd edit future chapters.

So yeah tldr currently my story is still on ffn but it will be on Ao3 and here on tumblr hopefully by the end of the month. Thank you so much for asking!

#Ebitch speaks #Asks #Seriously it is actually so nice to hear people asking about my story! #Thank you!

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Random Thoughts on How I should write Uroboros in my Dragged Into The Blood Fic:

So I know canonically we don't know much about Uroboros except that those two properly bonded with it instead of it mutating out of control are: a) meant to be super-humanely strong, fast, and regenerative abilities, and b) have autonomous control over black tentacle/leech like tendrils. If you don't properly bond with it, most often the mutations are out of control tendril growth alonside mass cell reproduction leading to a larger to insane body mass. Other than that, we know nothing.

To flesh this out, I decided that the most logical reasoning regarding the speed and strength is that the Uroboros virus destroys the physical survival limiters in our brain, but that leaves one crucial problem:

We have those limiters in place because if we were to actually use our full strenth and full speed, we would shred our muscles, obliterate our bones, irreparably destory our teeth, etc. Our bodies only allow ourselves to do that if we're in a life-or-death situation.

Which is where the regenerative abilities come in. If we can heal instantly, then the consequences won't matter that much. But how to make that logically. I could argue that there's a massive uptick of white blood cell reproduction in response to constant massive tissue damage. Actually that's my only idea but idk that sounds so simplistic.

Another thing I think makes sense is that a power or god complex is just a symptom regardless of how you bond to Uroboros because there is a never-ending release of endorphins and hormones that puts the infected in a constant state of high.

Do these sound like good ideas? Half-baked? Any suggestions?

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Writing Update on Dragged Into The Blood:

I just finished the latest chapter that brings Lea into Revelations 2, and working on rewriting chapter 4 for the revamp.

Sorry for not talking in so long. I just moved, and in fact had to move back into my dad's place since the housing and rent market is fucking atrocious right now. Also, I fell down the stairs. No broken bones, I'm fine, but I am in quite a bit of pain and it's making everything a lot harder than it needs to be.

Hope all is well with you, dearhearts.

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I have been out of power and hot water since Saturday because of the Ice Storm Gerri. About 11,000 other people in my county are also out of power, and our energy companies has informed us that we may be out of power through the weekend.

At least we have chips, Lunchables, bread, and peanut butter, and figured out how to get relatively hot water with tea lights and a flipped-over muffin tin so we can have coffee and tea. Could be worse.

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