#fidgety writes

[a-libra-writes]

This guy is fucking hysterical how does anyone take him seriously

#mordecai in his element: collected. smooth. level headed #the second hes .5 inches away from that element: awkward and fidgety and A Mess #rereading this is delightful also :“( #bc of rocky. yall know why #also i love mordecai's white eyebrows and underliner 10/10 character design #libra says stupid shit #not writing #lackadaisy #mordecai heller

[altschmerzes]

🌹🌹🌹 Can we see a little snippet of one of those cuddles Jamie gets in wriggle up please please please? :D

one THOUSAND percent. this is more than a 'little' lmao but. we know how i work around here.

this is from the fallout of the 2x08 debacle in wriggle up on dry land, after they've taken jamie home from the hospital.

cw for direct references to injuries caused by abuse.

Despite the late hour and despite the exhaustion making him feel like he’s been coated in lead, Ted doesn’t go to sleep right away. He changes into his pyjamas and then sits up on top of his still-made bed, leaning against the headboard and reading a book. Well. ‘Reading a book,’ insofar as ‘staring at the same page and not remotely processing any of the words on it for minutes at a time, occasionally flipping a page out of pure instinct’ can be considered reading. At this point, Ted doesn’t even remember what the book is, just that it had been sitting next to his lamp and it was better than grabbing his phone, what with all the anxiety-inducing crap that thing tended to contain at any given moment. It’s because of this avoidance of actual sleep that Ted notices immediately when the door down the hall opens.

Closing his book and setting it off to the side, Ted watches with a light frown as Jamie exits the spare room - his room, and starts down the hall. His posture is reluctant and closed-off, moving like he’s coated in the same lead that Ted is, and he makes the trip slowly. It’s hard to tell if the lethargic pace is due to pain or something else, and the thought makes Ted’s heart skip a beat.

When he reaches the doorway to Ted’s room, Jamie hesitates outside of it. The pause only lasts for a moment and then the boy is walking across the threshold and directly over to the side of the bed. Jamie is silent as he crawls up onto the mattress to Ted’s right, laying down facing the wall with his arms folded over his chest and going very, very still.

Book now entirely forgotten, Ted looks at Jamie and waits for him to say something, to reveal what it is he came here for, what he needs or wants. Nothing of the sort happens. Jamie doesn’t do anything at all. He doesn’t get up and leave but he doesn’t move any closer to Ted either. He doesn’t ask for anything, doesn’t make a sound. Jamie just lays there, facing the wall, curled in on himself and motionless - and putting all the pressure squarely on his bad shoulder, too. It has to ache something fierce, even with the painkillers the doctors sent him home with.

Ted’s heart hurts in his chest looking at him - literally. It literally, physically hurts. He watches the boy for a while, unsure what to do, his sternum throbbing and worry heavy and thick in his lungs. Jamie still doesn’t do anything, doesn’t say anything or move at all, though he’s too rigid to have fallen asleep. His arms are tucked tight against his chest, giving the impression of someone who is holding himself in a mimicry of someone else doing so.

That’s the thought that finally prompts Ted to take some kind of action. He can’t bear it any longer, watching the boy there and knowing that he needs something but not knowing what, and so he reaches out. The hand that he settles on the stiff crest of Jamie’s shoulder is slow and cautious, not wanting to do the wrong thing and spook or hurt the kid. All Ted gets in response is a muted, suffocated flinch - one he knows by now is far from an actual indication on its own that Jamie doesn’t want to be touched. There’s a subtle pressure against Ted’s palm that confirms the suspicion, even as Jamie’s body shudders with a laboured, tremulous breath - Jamie is leaning back against the hand on his shoulder.

Doing his best not to jostle either of them, Ted slides down the headboard a bit, pillow bunching behind him to create a support for the new, no longer upright angle. With gentle pressure and an abundance of care, Ted slips his hand from Jamie’s upper shoulder down to the other one, the one jammed into the mattress. He pulls at Jamie gingerly, guiding the kid around to face him and cross the gap between them, ever mindful of the pain he must be in, even still. Ted can’t stop seeing it in his mind: the permanent mental image of Jamie’s whipped back, the wounds now hidden by his shirt. The inescapable and acute awareness of the welts, the broken skin, leaves Ted as cautious as if he is handling spun glass as he curls an arm around Jamie, settling the boy in against his chest.

Jamie goes readily and without a hint of a fight. He leans himself fully into Ted’s side, his forehead pressed against Ted’s collarbone, though his hands stay tucked up in fists between them, not reaching out or holding on. Ted can feel the fabric of his shirt warm with Jamie’s heavy, ragged breaths. He isn’t crying but he is shaking, trembling all over and breathing like he’s just run a marathon as he lays, boneless and almost desperate, against Ted.

Normally, it’s a struggle for Ted to keep quiet. He doesn’t handle silences well and he never has, but this is an exception. It’s not that he enjoys the silence, really, he finds it just as disconcerting as he always does, but his brain is empty of things to say. So, because he can’t think of anything and because Jamie isn’t talking either, he doesn’t say anything at all. Ted just cradles him, holding the kid as tight as he dares to when the increase in pressure only prompts Jamie to press closer in turn, and thinks about how still he’d been when he first laid down - still and silent, facing the wall.

Jamie had not asked for this. He hadn’t reached out to be hugged, or asked to cuddle, or anything of the sort - and of course he didn’t. He had just laid there on the bedspread next to Ted, getting as close and taking as much as he dared.

It’s devastating to think about. He’s a kid. He’s just a kid, just sixteen years old, and Ted remembers being that age with a sharp and vivid clarity. Sometimes he wishes that he didn’t, but he remembers, and when you’re sixteen and something terrible happens to you, something annihilating happens to you, sometimes you need your mom or dad to hold you. And isn’t that something that Jamie probably has all but no experience with, huh. Not when his mom’s been gone for years and his dad- Well. Suffice to say it’s no shock he hadn’t been able to ask for what he needed, ask to be held.

#gav gab #gav answers #writing liveblog #fic: wriggle up on dry land #ask box games #abuse implied #thus begins a Trend in the baby jamie ‘verse wherein ted very quickly picks up on how like #this sort of constantly moving talks a mile a minute fidgety kid #coming over and sitting or laying down or standing Right Next To You #and being very quiet and still and just Being There #is how he asks for physical affection or comfort #and they’ll work on that - on getting him to be able to ask more directly or initiate it #but this is also a learning curve for roy who has No Idea for a while #what he’s doing and why until someone explains it to him like #he wants you to hug him is why he’s doing that

[ryllen]

my daughter has no personality other than being timid & poor from the start i kinda want her to pair her with someone manipulative that she trusted only because they are an octoling

#but then my daughter will probably never smile and will always be miserable #i actually kinda eyed on my friend's oc for that reason but i guess that kind of thing would be too much to drag someone else to #not that i am great at writing evil i still want to keep my daughter safe #splatoon #splatoon 3 #splatoon oc #octoling #octoling oc #fanart #i wanted to name him another language for satan or devil #but i like the part where u r named contradicting to what u are #like exactly my friend's oc that's named something bright and yellow but his aura is totally dark #https://www.collinsdictionary.com/dictionary/english-french/angel #the pronunciation of anđeo from that website is so cool #that i decided to pick it #i still think how my daughter is still fidgety around inklings like she can't really trust or understand them #while it's actually the octoling near her that can't be trusted #she is mostly comfortable befriending other species that don't talk much #or just other species really #anđeo is probably a really killer soldier but scrapped because he starts losing parts of his body like eye and leg #and those defects count him as uneffective #and now he lives on with evil & resentment in his heart #anđeo #master jellyfish #slza #oko #octarians

[2hoothoots]

Do any of them have any bad habits? I'm not thinking of anything disastrous. I'm thinking of things like biting nails, tugging their own hair due to stress, leaning too far back in chairs and falling over, and things like that.

oh, yeah, Raz has a really bad hair-pulling habit when he's stressed out

i've done plenty of angsty stuff with these three before, so if we're talking more lighthearted bad habits:

Lili has no concept of 'bedtime'. if she's engrossed in her work, or binge-watching a new show that she's all of a sudden getting really into, she will quite happily stay up to 3 or 4am (and then feel upset and betrayed when she's really tired the next morning)

Dogen has a tendency to turn to retail therapy when he's having a bad day. he's gripping his phone with trembling hands, staring at the sanrio plush he's about to order online and mumbling under his breath "this will fix me." at this point he has like a mountain of stuff he's impluse-bought over the internet

Raz does the thing where he leans back really far whenever he's sitting on a chair. his balance is good enough that he'd never fall, but Lili can never resist the urge to push him over if she's in the same room

Raz also used to basically self-medicate his adhd with like half a dozen psi-pops every day (because i hc they're packed with sugar and caffeine and small amounts of other stimulants to give your brain a 'hit' of mental energy when needed). he ended up with a handful of cavities before he managed to get his hands on an adderall prescription

Lili fidgets with her jewelry a lot, which is fine except when she's trying to heal a new piercing and can't keep her hands off it. the one time she got her eyebrow pierced it ended up rejecting because she wouldn't stop fiddling with it (which is why it's scarred over)

Dogen is one of those people that absolutely Must stop and pet Every Cat He Sees. he doesn't have a great sense of time so he will frequently be late to meetings/appointments/lunch dates because there was a really cute cat and he got sidetracked

#dogen and lili tend to keep each other company on late nights #since dogen struggles with on-off insomnia #raz is the only morning person of the three of them lol #lili would probably have more piercings if she wasn't so fidgety with them. anything on her face is almost an automatic write-off #raz would probably have more piercings but he had an earring torn out in a fight one time and it spooked him really bad #so now he only ever wears clip-ons #fsau meta #future superstar agents au #fsau raz #fsau lili #fsau dogen

[toushindai]

some nattering about how I characterize Rauru and Sonia in my Ganondorf/Rauru fics.

as I have mentioned before, usually I prefer to adhere strictly to canon when writing fanfiction, to the extent that I used to think of myself as trying to write exactly what the author had in mind but didn't put in the story. yes, I have always been this pretentious.

but then I looked at what Rauru and Ganondorf have going on and went "ah, they need to have nasty, resentful, dubcon-at-best sex about this" and I'll be honest I'm not sure played-straight loz characters (vs. various permutations of joke characters) are even allowed to know sex exists, so this was obviously a departure.

which means that Questions of Kingship exists, in my mind at least, in a strange space that is both canon-compliant and AU, and I have made characterization choices based on the story I was telling rather than prioritizing sticking to what the game has in mind. And I don't think my readings are entirely wrong--do I think Nintendo intends their King of Light to be a rapist, no, but they sure did write a guy who disregards and tramples over an implicit "no." This is what is conveyed by Ganondorf mentioning that Hyrule has sent the Gerudo repeated invitations! I didn't actually make that part up! Honestly I expected to have to defend my choices re: Rauru from some very irritated fans who forgot about the back button, but it seems that if I irritated anyone, they remembered the back button. Good for them, and to everyone pressing the "more of this" buttons instead, thank you, I appreciate you, what the fuck is UP with this guy amirite??

Anyway though,

Sonia.

Oh, I have struggled with Sonia mightily. I did not want Rauru to be cheating on her. And partially this is because I don't particularly care to write about cheating but largely it is because a huge part of Rauru's sense of superiority over Ganondorf is a moral one, and if Rauru were betraying someone he loved to carry out this affair, that sense of superiority would be chopped off at the knees. And I'm using that sense of superiority, thank you very much.

So: it became the case that Sonia needed to know about the affair, needed her to be on board with it. And well, there were very quickly quite a lot of jokes that she and Rauru had "looking for a third" vibes, and I do think that's true, and anyway that girl married a goat god. "A very canny monsterfucker" is the kernel of canon characterization that I wound up building around. Very clear-eyed, less self-deception than Rauru; an overpowering propensity to identify what she wants and go for it. It's just that Zelda didn't see much of that. I guess, is the argument I'm going for. Well, then, Sonia is someone who can play at sweet and harmless and kind until she reveals how much of an edge she has.

Does the game suggest she has such an edge? ...No? I guess it doesn't. I don't know. But if it is not possible to hide anything from Sonia, and Hyrule is behaving coercively towards its not-yet-allies (and it is! again I did not make that part up!), then she must be aware of this. And she must be on board with it. She adores Rauru--this is clear in the cutscenes, just look at the light in her eyes when Rauru is speaking sometimes--and so I make the two of them a team, united in intention. But where I write Rauru as conflicted--naive thoughts about kingship stumbling against the reality of it--I place Sonia in a more decided position. Her premises: that Rauru is good, and that a unified Hyrule is a superior outcome over disparate nations. She is aware that the latter premise is not automatically accepted by everyone, but she has unwavering faith in it so she moves to carry it out without the indignation that resistance inspires in Rauru. Resistance does not make her doubt herself in the same way. (That's worse??) She is more pointedly, more cannily political than Rauru. Rauru wants a kingdom united in friendship (genuinely he wants this, as I write him); Sonia knows that friendship is not what unites kingdoms.

She just... winds up with this strange amoral core to her. A surprising one, I think. What I find myself writing is a Sonia who seems kind and sweet and confident and only very occasionally lets anyone see the part of her where she has made up her mind and is unmovably certain of her own rightness. A part of her that doesn't need it to be a moral rightness. Am I making any sense here.

I mean for some of that startling strangeness to come out in the way she regards Rauru's relationship with Ganondorf--I don't know if that comes through. I write Ganondorf conflating Rauru's sexual submission with political submission to excess; Sonia is almost the opposite, believing that the relationship between the two can exist as a function of desire alone regardless of the political dimension. It's about wanting and having and that is all. But the very assumption that that's all comes from the position of Hyrule's dominance, an unassailable position in her mind. I'm having trouble getting at what I'm getting at, but, my point here is that she's a little scary. that's all.

@toushindai

#tou and the tearful kingdom #and we were both kings 😳 #rape mention #ya I think I'm gonna make this one unrebloggable bc this really is entirely about how I write her in the environment I need her in #I get fidgety when my posts about my fics go wandering into the totk cr*tical corner of this blue hell #oh it's work time I have to do work now #may edit this later. gotta go

[agentbluefox]

“Do you know what you’re doing?”  “Actually, it’s never worked, but... might as well give it a try.” 

-S04:E7

The recurring theme of Murdock throwing together a plan that has no right to work so he can go save his team when they inevitably get themselves caught.  

It’s also rather endearing that he actually seemed a bit nervous about this one😂 I think he and Hannibal both get to the point occasionally where they’re like “this has no business working and I know that, but I am going to test God, the universe, and all laws of common sense anyway” 

#he is so FIDGETY #I’m not sure what his energy was this whole scene - whether it was anxiety or just his normal floppiness but there IS an energy lol #yes I called him floppy #it’s the word that comes to mind every time I see him - don’t ask me to explain #let’s be real - I’m giffing this because he looked good in that uniform #but I’m not admitting that so shush #I’m supposed to be writing an essay right now #so naturally I’m making gifs #the a team #HM Murdock #Dwight Shultz #the a-team #my gifs

[essektheylyss]

So I actually like the new tumblr layout, but I do have a longtime stim involving clicking empty space on pages and highlighting text habitually, and I keep clicking the menu items on accident or remembering that I can't highlight posts from the sidebars anymore. The posts have been caged away from my puppetmaster fingers. This is not actually a problem (I'm really used to noticing and adapting to minute changes because I can tell if something in a site's guts changed based on what suddenly became highlightable or not) and it is not relevant to actual items of feedback but it is VERY funny as a minor complaint.

#reasons I am so glad writers don't stream their progress like artists do. cuz everyone would see just how fidgety my fucking fingers are. #ALL the goddamn time. it is literally incessant. I have been highlighting text in this post as I'm writing it. #I do have further thoughts on tumblr site ongoings but I will not be posting them cuz this site can't handle that kind of nuance #also I do think the segmented sections are actually good for loading iirc. #like it takes less bandwidth to load something that is moving on a portion of the screen and leaving other sections as separate #tho I may be remembering wrong.

[bravevolunteer]

yes michael paints his nails. yes he's constantly picking at and biting them.

#his hands are like. chipped nails bitten and torn unevenly FUCKED up cuticles sometimes bruised or bloody knuckles #and then the ✨ black nail polish ✨ #he has so many fidgety mannerisms he cannot help it #... me after talking about his smoking and chewing gum habit and nail biting: maybe he just needs a chew toy idk #things to post instead of writing! #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[azxremoon]

IM SO HAPPY RN IT’S LIKE I GOT THE CASE OF THE ZOOMIES

#[ × elluka talks ! ] #i’ve felt so ill for almost a week now and it sucks #but then my partner and i started talking and it made me feel so much better in seconds!! i love void so much it makes me so happy and giddy #and lovestruck and WHXIWHDOSHDKW #falling in love all over again with the same person is so romantic *melts into a puddle of goo on the floor* #will the zoomies convince me to work on my writing? HAHAHA no!!! #LIKE LIKE LIKE!!! #my hands are all fidgety and i kick my legs and giggle and smile and ❤️👄❤️

[headfulloffantasies]

Stuff I did today as a writer:

Reorganized my chapter numbers because I had 3 chapter nines. Three. How?

Googled “is it spelled armour or armor?”

Chose a new playlist because “enemies to lovers slow burn 3 hours” didn’t fit the vibe anymore

Saved my manuscript to a separate drive again. Just in case.

Hit save like a million times. Twice after every edit. Just in case.

Said “just do one more page” on my editing list a hundred times so I’ll stay on track. I am not on track

Got up for a little snack. Got up for a little drink. Got up for comfy pants. Got up to find a pen. Got up to get a little snack…

#writing #writer life #editing makes me fidgety

[treecakes]

it’s approximately 10 degrees fahrenheit cooler than last week but it’s still too hot =___=

#went for a walk bc i was too fidgety to focus #i figured i’d get more use out of some exercise than sitting there unable to focus on my readings #but i have to write a couple ~500 word assignments tonight #they won’t be hard i just don’t want to do them 😭 i’ve already done the readings necessary for those the readings i was doing earlier were #procrastination technically….

[wickedhawtwexler]

i get sooo worried about going off my adhd meds, but honestly i feel like i sometimes exaggerate how bad my adhd is because the last time i was unmedicated for a long period of time (right before i was diagnosed) i was also literally suicidal and had severe anxiety which uh. definitely exacerbated the lack of focus 🫠

#like. i'm unfocused and fidgety and i keep losing my phone and i'm sooo tired #but it's nowhere near as bad as 2021. i'm getting my work done (albeit slowly) & responding to emails #i used my extra free time this morning to practice piano for literally almost an hour??? #idk. the amount of work i'm getting done today is not up to my normal standards but it's not NOTHING #there were soooo many days in 2021 where i literally got NOTHING done #i think i'm also better at coping lol. like i KNOW i can't focus on things for a long time so i switch tasks #today i'm interspersing my work with cutting piece for a new quilt i'm working on lol #i also did laundry!!! and picked up oat milk & treated myself to a panini from my local deli #i got an email this morning that my labwork is in so i should be able to meet with my new doctor this week and get back on meds #i have 3 pills left but i'm saving them just in case #i'm worried because i was off my meds for like 4 days before my drug test so i tested negative for amphetamines #so i'm worried they're gonna accuse me of selling them or something #but it's all good. i keep a very detailed medication log in my bullet journal. i have Evidence™ #(me: i'm not that adhd / also me: writes an entire novel in the tags of this post) #m.txt

[confusedpaladin]

having one of those days where i am overflowing with the need to create but devoid of any motivation so ive been sitting on the couch feeling like my brain is folding in on itself

#i have edited photos and practiced several instruments today #im too fidgety to draw #i want to write but idk WHAT #pal speaks

[defiledtomb]

how tall or what are the heights of each RO? I know we get to choose heights for some characters (Id and L i think?) I guess I'm looking for you canon? presets?

I tried searching for an answer but couldn't find it /.\

also it totally cool that the update is simply a patch, i could literally wait a year or more if that's how long it takes :)

Either way I'm here to support you! :D your number 1 anon fan!

You make my heart sing, anon. I let out the most unholy noise when I see you in my inbox!

also it totally cool that the update is simply a patch, i could literally wait a year or more if that's how long it takes :)

Either way I'm here to support you! :D

I'm honestly so touched by this. Thank you.

Now! *wipes tears away* The heights can be found here,

but they are not canon! Just how I imagine them. The thing that shows in coding (for now) is that the tallest MC is still shorter than Y but taller than the rest, and the shortest MC is shorter than all RO's. Hope that answers your Q!

#interactive fiction #ouroboros-if #RO facts #dksjfhskldjfh nony :') I am soppy messy pile of loving goop <3 #also wraow tumblr must have done an update because their text editor when answering asks is SO fidgety now. eurghhh #anyway! im totes procrastinating from writing and you should spritz me with water BUT answering your asks is so fun :>

[herestoburiedsecrets]

I almost forgot how much fun having a hyperfixation is!! My obsession with Ghosts has been thorough restored, as well as my interest with general English history, and honestly it feels like I am in love with this show. Best feeling ever!

#cat.txt #my adhd is thriving rn #i hyperfocused on creating a little timeline of different historical eras in england and then a similar type of list with the monarchs #and yeah it took about 3 hours or so because my perfectionism decided to show up but it was fun! #i also pinpointed where in those timelines each of the ghosts would’ve died (roughly) #i really love just writing little lists and timelines and stuff like that #like when i’m bored or fidgety i currently rewrite lists of the ghosts names in order of death (and sometimes a little bit of extra info #like eras or cause of death or stuff like that) #anyway this is kind of just personal nonsense but my point is my full-on hyperfixation is back and I am so excited about it!!!

[memequeen92]

girl help im getting double teamed by my adhd and iron deficiency

#yeah so remember how i said i was on iron supplements turns out my body didnt like those ones and i need to get different ones #because why wouldnt it do that #meanwhile my adderall gives me goddamn psychosis if i take it regularly #and because i cant take it regularly i have forgotten to take it at all which is also bad #nhgnhgnhng #i wanna write like 5 different things but i dont have the attention span AUGH #i keep having to switch what im doing bc my brain just gets so... fidgety? and then it yells at me for doing the same thing too long #wack right?