#fucking sucks man

[nuppu-nuppu]

My beloved cat Poju has passed away

I don’t even know what to say. What are you supposed to do when your whole world is taken away from you?

Thank you for everything Poju. I love you so much. You’re my everything. You loved me so well.

#if anyone cares it was cancer #fucking sucks man #I don’t know how I will survive this #he was 12 years old #rainbow bridge #pet grief

[welcometohomeworld]

I give up.for now

Edit: thank you for the support, I will post after I take a break . Had a mental breakdown yesterday and I wrote this

#i get no followers or reblogs no matter what I post #it's absurd how I spent hours on a drawings just to get stupid hearts #and a bunch pd bots following #fucking sucks man

[fluffydice]

Why am I depressed I literally don’t want to be rn?? I have shit to do, like write fanfiction

#sad without reason #fucking sucks man #bites and tears bites and tears bites and

[wutheringmights]

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#my digestive issues are literally under the most control they have ever been in my life and they are still ruining my life #woke up fine today. went to a coffee shop. had to leave after an hour #i had so many plans for today and now i'm stuck at home because i can't be too far away from a bathroom #i didn't eat anything that would trigger this. my gut just hates me i guess #earlier this month i have a risk food but i thought i took enough precautions to be safe and it fucked me up for like #2 weeks straight #i wonder what its like for people to not have to wonder about bathroom access every time they leave the house #i wonder what its like to eat normal foods without calculating how sick its going to make you #i wonder what its like to not have entire plans tossed out the window for reasons beyond your control #fucking sucks man #i hate ibs #in exchange for my terrible gut i do have a fantastic immune system somehow but weirdly that means i never take time off work? #ok so i am so good at just managing my issues that i just power through whenever im sick. #it's not like i can afford to take time off whenever i feel sick anyway and besides once you have to take multiple AP tests in high school #while in the middle of an episode you grow a lot of tolerance for being functional while sick #but then. i just i could have excuses to take days off because i have a cold or something. get a rest every now and then #but what illnesses i get beyond digestion issues are so slight that i can just. power through. i am never ill enough to take time off #and i get so worried that one day I will need that PTO that I can't convince myself to use it for like mental health days and ugh #this is more of a personal problem than anything but still. i wish i got sick like a normal person

[boredom-thingy]

No one talks about the sheer agony of feeling the holes in your memory but not knowing what used to be there. Of being able to literally physically (or mentally) feel that there is something missing

That old meme "I don't know what I don't know" except it's fucking painful. Because I don't know. All I know is there used to be something there. I don't know if that something was important but at the moment it feels like it's world ending to not know the thing.

You don't even know what caused you to focus on the holes, but now all you can focus on is the fucking holes. And those holes are making you feel like you're slowly loosing your mind. Like you're literally going insane. Because it literally feels like you can stick a finger, multiple fingers, your entire damn fist through the holes. But you do that and you'll still come back with nothing.

And it's causing you to question who you are. You don't feel like you anymore because you can't remember. It feels like an echo chamber and you standing in the middle screaming at yourself to just remember, but it's not doing you a lick of good. So you keep screaming until even that internal voice that should be infinite, shouldn't need breaths, shouldn't feel anything feels hoarse.

And still you're stuck. Feeling like you're staring at your brain or staring at some sort of archive of your memories and instead of being full, it looks like a gap toothed grin. It looks like great grandma's old ring that's missing every other stone. And you feel hopeless about ever finding those stones again.

No one fucking talks about that. Or how much it hurts.

#i just want my own memories #im tired of watching people talk #talk about childhood memories #about core memories #and just thinking about how i donr know any of that #because i cant remember #and im not even sure what all im missong anymore #dissociative amnesia #fucking sucks man

[humandisastersquad]

hate going through my fanvid tag and seeing most of the videos unavailable due to copyright claims ://

#fucking sucks man #let me watch videos set to songs so i can cry about my blorbos

[mlarayoukai]

yeah still not working

#fucking sucks man #rob.txt

[kicksnscribs]

Hooray I’ve got the depression again whoo…*waves tiny flag of absolute bullshit*

Haven’t felt normal for a while now, tests are coming back promising but I’m still nervous about something being seriously wrong with me (why else would it all happen so suddenly?) idk I’m starting to just get tired of worrying but I’m still so on edge.

Tried working on some art and got frustrated as fuck bc I just can’t seem to get my faces consistent which is really pissing me off bc I want to start moving on with this but everything is just fucking fighting me every step of the goddamn way like it always does.

Life is boring and I can’t find motivation to enjoy my days off anymore (not like it has ever since my pops died anyway). I’m just tired of not being able to find meaning in anything anymore. I don’t want to die but goddamn I don’t want to live like this anymore.

#personal health #text post #ranting and raving #I’d be ok if I can just make SOME improvements #but it feels fucking impossible bc of money and all this other shit that’s happening in the world #can’t get no pets don’t have anything else to my name outside of one single room in this house #fucking SUCKS man #nothing is hiring at the rate I need to survive #kind of wish they’d just stop teasing us and just pull the fucking trigger already #OH AND THERES A SECOND FUCKJNG PANDEMIC CANF FORGET ABOUT THAT SHIT

[liquidstar]

Yes, Greece still exists, we didn't all die 2000 years ago. Yes, people speak Greek. You people are so fucking stupid for real. So many of you claim to love ancient shit but can't even acknowledge the actual living culture of the people whose mythology and classics you romanticize. You keep leaving annoying comments about how you just forget Greek people still exist, thinking you're being quirky because you love ancient stuff soooo much that you forgot about the people it came from. You think about it so little you don't even realize that an actual Greek person has to read this shit, making it clear how little you actually care about the culture beyond the romanticized (and westernized) mythology. Don't claim you love Greece, don't use our mythology anymore if you can't acknowledge that we're still around without making it about how little you think about us. It's mind boggling that you'd think a Greek person would read this and think you're anything but obnoxious. Explode.

#this post is edited because you're all annoying. maybe I'll turn it back someday #it sucks that people can't even be normal about a funny family story once the fact that we're greek comes into the fold #suddenly its all about blorbofied mythology shit and idiots saying ''GREECE IS REAL???? 🤯🤯🤯🤯'' yeah percy j*ckson didnt make it up #maybe it would be less annoying if they weren't all saying it like I'd think it's funny that they don't know we exist instead of like #disturbing on a personal level. like what the fuck #man if you can't acknowledge we exist in real life just name your oc Icarus something else idgaf #so yeah explode. Skase. Voulos'to. Valto mesa sto katamalakismeno mouni tis mana's sou. Psophise. etc.

[acevenoms]

Please excuse me while I go watch all of King Theoden's scenes and ugly cry

#Fucking sucks man

[death-and-axes]

You know, I'd been hearing a lot lately about how "the boss" doesn't respect the workers anymore. But yesterday I found out first hand.

I had promised both my boss and recruiter that if I ever had to move on that I would give them at minimum a month's notice but that I had no plan to do so. I've done that before only once and honestly it was a big thing! That's the biggest sign of respect I can give to my boss and company.

Well, this boss turned around within a week and got rid of me with Zero notice. He didn't even have the guts to tell me himself! He scheduled our 1on1 for the next day. A day he Knew I wouldn't be working, and had my recruiter give me the bad news!

What a slap in the face...

#yeah i just got fired #fucking sucks man

[minlex]

Sometimes I feel quite removed from the "queer community" or whatever you call it, even though I know I technically could be a part of it. I'm trans, I'm queer. But I think the reason I feel so out of place is just because while I am those things, they're not the most important part of me. I'm lucky enough to have friends and family who respect me and doesn't think twice about it, giving me more time to actually do things I enjoy rather than feel dismayed about my identity all the time.

It's more important to me that I'm a communist than I'm trans for example.

#i kind of think thats why im more comfortable discussing trans issues from a feminist viewpoint as well #most of my friends are radical feminists and are in no way transphobic #and we have a lot of good discussions about how the trans fight and feminist fight goes hnd in hand #and how we can work out the condradivtions that exist #but i can never really recount that here without being accused of being a terf lmao #when you have to spend all your time defending yourself i get that you dont have the time to discuss ideology putting you in risk of being #unfairly treated #like i really get that #its just such a shame so many trans people desperately have to spend their time defending themselves #fucking sucks man

[frozenmagz]

oh COME ON

#theyre really still going for it huh... #fucking sucks man

[bixels]

I watched Starship Troopers tonight.

#personal #dumb #my art #immediately after finishing i was pumped to watch some analysis vids on it #cuz i heard a lot of the drama about the original author being a pro military fascist and the director going “fuck that” and making a satir #scrolling through youtube search results was not promising. lots of male film buffs i would Not trust even on a first glance. #“The Critical Drinker” (pfp of a bearded man drinking alcohol) lol. #and then I saw cinemawins did a video on it and was like oh nice i haven't seen his stuff in a while but he's a pretty leftist creator #scrolled through the comments #second panel face #this sucks i'm outta here. #just leagues and leagues and leagues of anime pfps and right leaning people dogpiling on him for “not understanding what fascism is” #idk it's pretty alien and weird to me watching this movie and going “wow yeah that was pretty obvious huh” like literally the from opening #to the teacher preaching militance and only giving voting rights to “those who serve their nation first and earn it” #and then seeing droves of people online going #WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? It's not anti-fascist and even if it was it's #the director's fault for desecrating heinlein's incredible sci-fi epic vision. ermm media literacy is dead.

[beanboop]

Pet death tw

not me getting out of therapy addressing my cat's death to learn that puppies my uncle rescued got parvo and passed away 😢😢😢

#fucking sucks man #just wanna lie on the ground for a little bit but alas capitalism demands i make money #just hurts a lot #tw pet death

[chocolatemoneyrascalparty]

Rest in peace techno, miss u king

#miss him a lot #fucking sucks man #i have so much hatred against death