A year ago today I had to euthanize my cat, Loki. I still miss him so much. I wrote this poem for him.
I thought it wasn’t possible to be any lonelier.
Before I met you,
And four paws and a tail crashed into my life
Before I loved you,
Before I called you mine.
And now that we’ve said goodbye?
It was possible,
To be lonelier.
I sleep alone and my bed is too big without you.
I have too many blankets, but I’m still cold without your warm heart.
I shower alone, without your careful supervision.
I fall, I cry, when grief hits me like a truck.
This couch is too big without you in my lap.
And I don’t trip over your water bowl anymore.
But you took every house we lived in and made it our home.
I didn’t think it was possible to miss you any more,
Than I did when I was in class and you waited for me at home.
But now that we’ve said goodbye?
It was possible.
It was always possible
To miss you more.