#gaddamn fucking shit it just never fucking ends

[luanneclatterbuck]

It’s ALWAYS. FUCKING. SOMETHING.

#this time it’s bank fraud! #gaddamn fucking shit it just never fucking ends #how many more fucking somethings can I handle??? #NOT FUCKING MANY

[randomingoftherandomness]

Let's say Yuanzhi does something bad, would Shangjue betray the Gong family for him? Or would he choose family over his didi?

I think the answer to this will depend on the version of Shangjue that the situation is being posed to

Are we talking about the Shangjue that we met at the beginning of the show?

Or are we talking about the Shangjue we met at the end?

Because my answer will depend on that.

If we are talking about the RBF-card-that-never-declines, then I would say, No. He wouldn't betray the family for him and he wouldn't choose Yuanzhi over the family. That man is someone who doesn't see himself as anything more than just a vessel for his family's interests.

I mean. We already know he was willing to let Yuanzhi be imprisoned, though yes he did give the caveat that Yuanzhi must NOT be harmed, his exact words iirc were "if he died under suspicious means". Someone correct me coz my brain is a bit of buzz.

If we are talking about the Shangjue we met at the end of the show, we should also note that that is a version of Shangjue that has been tempered enough by purpose and drive to do this 👇🏼

Dude deadass rocked up to essentially his clan leader's abode, straight up said bitches better let my baby bro loose or else I'm gonna huff and puff and blow your fucking house down. And every single one of the people there knew he meant it.

And I think that the Shangjue that is formed by the end of the show is someone who is more settled within himself. Less bogged down by his place in the family and how he can serve it. I do think that he is more open, or at least more open, about the idea that he does have a favourite didi; even if he wouldn't hesitate to look out for the rest of his kin (the reveal of him being the one to leave that note that helped ziyu master his moves will remain one of my favourite things about that last arc of this show)

Also, it just may be a "me" thing but gaddamn Lei Lei's face in this scene. The rage. The pure discontent. The sheer THREAT that came right from his chest because HOW DARE THEY （╬ಠ益ಠ) I would pay good money to see him level the whole of Yu residence tho. Who is with me and who do we need to bribe.

I think on some level, should it ever come to Yuanzhi doing some fucked up shit that violates the precepts of the Gong family, the first thing Shangjue -- regardless of the version -- will do is ask for Yuanzhi's reasoning because he's not about to make a judgement without knowing the cause for that action. Yuanzhi's brash and young, but he's the furthest thing from stupid. Shangjue would never tolerate stupidity.

Then, once satisfied with Yuanzhi's reasons, he would murder and bury anyone who could incriminate Yuanzhi. The next thing he would do is confine Yuanzhi to his side where he can see him (lbr that brocon would love it) and where he can't get up to mischief. Because while Shangjue may not put Yuanzhi above family, it doesn’t mean he isn’t wholly and utterly devoted to Didi.

He would keep him safe to the best of his ability. In a way that the family wouldn't be dragged into it and he wouldn't have to make a choice.

@romchat you wanna jump in on this, fam? ~ヾ(＾∇＾)

#my journey to you headcanon #my journey to you meta #my journey to you #gab writes stuff #mjty meta #mjty headcanon #gong shangjue #gong yuanzhi #these two are brocons on differing intensities #iykyk

[queerbuckleys]

9-1-1 5x01: Panic

if you are new here, welcome to aj screams into the void, where you get to read my live reactions- not live. I use this as a way to stay engaged with the episode so its not all that coherent, its just in the moment things, but you can most like guess when what happened when.

spoilers under the cut

T- 3 Minutes- more nauseous than ever

2- my leg is shaking

(I swear I am not too emotionally attached to this show)

I JUST OPENED TUMBLR ON INSTINCT AND ALMOST SCREAMED OUTLOUD. NEVER CLOSED IT SO FAST IN MY GADDAMN LIFE

Ajhhhh

Oh okay we’ve seen this already which helps

MY BABIES I MIGHT CRY

I just love them okay

Eddie babes you good 👀

Ah gad flashbacks

Maddie my baby glad she’s getting help but I’m so worried about her

MEETING THE PARENTS AT A CHRISTENING

JEALOUS BUCK JEALOUS KING

YASS JOSH

MMAAAAAAAAYY DISPATCH QUEEN

YASS DIVING DUO

RAVI IS THAT YOU

OKAY DO I NOT LIKE BT AS A COUPLE? Yes, AM I IN FACT VERY QUEER AND ACKNOWLEDGE THAT BOTH OF THESE PEOPLE ARE GORGEOUS? Also yes

“The world ends as we know it.” Karen my queen

Oh goddddd I’m gonna puke

I’m notttt readyyyyh

HES THE BEST DAD

"LET'S SEE WHAT MOM THINKS" EDDIE- PANICS- OMG OMG

If god hates clowns why do we keep winning

REPRESSION-called it

NO STRESSORS EDDIE MY DUDE ????

Chris being the one to say it 😭

EDDIE BABY WHY

I DONT PANIC MY ASS

ATHENA 😭😭😭😭😭

Bobby ans Harry 🥺🥺🥺🥺

I HATE THIS DUDE🤢🤮🤢🤮like I already hated him but this this is sick

The airport 👀👀

RECOVERY ARC IS WINNING

MEDIC EDDIE MEDIC EDDIE

speaking from practical experience like it’s medical knowledge I know that trick eddie you aren’t fooling me

Where’s Hudson

FUCK

doc: mr diaz didnt expect to see you so soon

buck: 👀😱

OH SHIT OH SHIT CANT KEEP IT FROM BESTIE (aka husband) THAT LONG

“Yeah, eddie shouldn’t be exerting himself” sassy worried king buck my beloved

Eddies is like ah shit a helicopter seriously?

Oh thank god

WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK THIS IS ABSOLUTELY SICK I AM NOT GONNA MAKE IT BUT FUCK

Well that was a fucken wild ride- can't believe next week im in tech when it airs- homophobic

#9-1-1 s5 #9-1-1 spoilers #911 5a #aj screams into the void #eddie diaz #evan ‘buck’ buckley #maddie buckley #christopher diaz #may grant #josh russo #athena grant #karen wilson #firefam #bobby nash #harry grant

[shuttershocky]

Fate/Grand Order NA edition: A Recap

A quick recap of some of the events that happened so far in the misadventures of Mash and Guda:

FUYUKI

A teenager (we shall call them Guda) answers an ad in the papers, ends up in a military base called Chaldea hidden in the Himalayas.

A bomb toasts everybody inside the base.

Mash and Guda time travel back to the edgiest version of Fate/Stay Night where Saber Alter rules with an iron fist.

Mash, a cute Chaldea clerk, fuses with the ghost of some guy, gets a massive shield to bludgeon people with. 

Cu Chulainn beats people up with the Wicker Man; Thankfully leaves out the bees.

Their boss turns out to be a bad guy and throws their other, dead boss’ ghost into a black hole, making her super dead-er.

The only staff surviving at Chaldea is the ghost of Leonardo Da Vinci and the absentminded doctor she’s fucking.

ORLEANS

Gilles de Raiss, unhappy with the canon ending, makes an edgy Jeanne D’Arc OC to fix it.

The real Jeanne is summoned without her Ruler powers, joins Mash and Guda on their merry stroll through France.

Some countries have roaches, others have rats. France has dragons.

It also has vampires.

Marie Antoinette pulls a drive-by shootout with the vampires to rescue Jeanne D’Arc and company.

They escape because Mozart makes the vampires vomit and/or poop themselves with a piano attached to the back of Marie’s carriage.

They bond. Marie learns what a homie is. Marie and Jeanne are super gay.

Kiyohime and Liz are first introduced. FGO is never the same.

They rescue the German hero Sumanai Siegfried from a castle. He’s pretty beat up.

They need saints to heal him for some reason. Good thing St. George spawns... on the other side of the map.

Do you really wanna hurt us this way George? Really? Take anyone else instead. Take this Mephistopheles, he’s just hanging around in my archive!

Big Bad Battle with Cheese and Dragons. Assassins recommended.

Jeanne vs Jeanne. The edgy OC is no match for the original of course.

Gilles is kicked back into the depths of FF.net where he belongs

SEPTEM

U M U

All of Nero’s forebears in the Roman empire form an alliance against her called Every Villain Is Lemons, also known as EVIL

Nero brings the company to Britain from Italy. On foot.

Mash suffocates under the overwhelming force that is Boudica’s boobs.

Nero chops down the ghosts of Roman emperors past one by one. No biggie.

Mash and Guda find their bad boss in the capital and oh shit he’s a demon from hell.

RIP AND TEAR 

The demon summons Atilla the Hun. He is later of two minds about this choice.

Nero punches Atilla in the face. Civilization will never die!

THE MOON FESTIVAL

Someone steals all the dumplings. Now Chaldea’s gonna starve.

Some booby archer pesters Mash and Guda about helping them recover the food.

Marie doesn’t remember her own homies.

Never mind she totally does.

Saint George is into photography.

Martha is into dumplings, bondage, and breaking faces. Tsk tsk, Saint Martha.

Martha makes her escape by jumping on to her dragon Tarrasque, who begins to fly by spinning around rapidly until it zooms away like a UFO. She probably puked at some point.

Altera, Atilla The Hun, the great destroyer herself, explains the differences of good and bad civilization.

Surprise surprise, Booby Archer is a bad guy- holy shit this is the goddess of the hunt?

Please don’t spook my guaranteed SSR gacha Artemis, I beg you. I’ll do anything you want just don’t come home.

OKEANOS

Sir Francis Drake, Pirate Queen.

Blackbeard. Weeb.

And lo, Captain Drake did shot the god Poseidon in the face, declaring with a mighty shout “Let there be booze!”, and the crew were drunk with infinite booze, and it was good.

Blackbeard wins the award for cringiest villain.

Drake and her motley crew recruit Medusa’s bitchy sister Euryale and her hot monster boyfriend, Asterios The Minotaur.

OH NO ORION AND ARTEMIS ARE BACK SOMEONE CALL THE COPS

The Golden Hind VS The Queen Anne’s Revenge, battle of two legendary pirate ships, FIGHT

Artemis and Orion board the Queen Anne’s Revenge during the fight in an admittedly cool action scene. Orion blows a hole into the ship.

Blackbeard is a tough bastard, but Drake literally killed the god of the seas for some booze so

Hektor, hero of Troy, won’t shut up about being an old man. Also he betrays Blackbeard.

Blackbeard to Drake: “Secretly, I admired you...r boobs.” *dies*

Drake trades upwards, gets the Argonauts as her new nemesis

Jason is just as much of a shitter in Fate as he is in mythology. Who would have guessed?!

Wait wasn’t one of the most famous members of the Argonauts the great hero Hera-OH GOD HE’S HERE WE HAVE TO RUN

Asterios vs Heracles summed up:

Guda: Well now that we lost our muscle we need reinforcements. Atalanta and David: Hi

Atalanta meets her God. She now believes in atheism.

David: Yeah I actually have the most dangerous thing on Earth with me as a second noble phantasm. Everyone else: It’s a box. David: I know. It’s got nerves of steel.

Who would win? A nigh-immortal demigod, son of Zeus and the strongest hero there is, or some box?

“Hey Jason, eat a dick.” - Medea Lily

Eating a dick turns you into a vessel for yet another Demon God. As Jason painfully finds out.

RIP AND TEAR 2.0

David: Yeah all of this time-stream dicking is my idiot son’s fault. It would be just like him, for he was an idiot. Roman: Nuh-uh! David: Yeah-uh!

Goodbye, Captain Drake. T’was an honor to be one of yer hearty crew.

HALLOWEEN 2015(17?)

An invitation? To a party? But all of history was dicked. Where are you supposed to hold a par-is that a castle?

Mash: hOLY SHIT I GET TO PUNCH GHOSTS Guda: Mash calm dow- Mash: WHEN THERE’S SOMETHING STRANGE

Kiyohime casually defies the laws of space and time (again).

Mata Hari: *Starts stripdancing* Mash: :O Kiyo: >:( Roman: :D

Carmilla uses her noble phantasm to clean a spot. I-I’m not even exaggerating this is actually a thing that happens.

Vlad is the supportive uncle who knits for his fellows.

Tamamo Cat; nothing she says ever makes any sense.

Elizabeth Bathory: Surprise! All of this was to prepare you for a special private concert from an up and coming pop idol star!

Everyone: Liz you are a bad Me, tears falling onto my phone: Liz you are a good

Liz: Y-you d-didn’t like m-m-my concert? Everyone: Boo you suck! Me: I LOVED IT BABY YOU’RE GONNA BE A BIG STAR ONE DAY

GODDAMNIT VLAD STOP BEING STUBBORN AND DROP THE GODDAMN CE.

GUDAGUDA HONNOUJI

Split psyche story

What you expected: Angry Nobu, sad Nobu, kinda freaky happy Nobu

What you got:

Rabbit season? Duck season? No. It’s Nobbu season.

A whole string of really funny jokes if you’re a fan of Oda Nobunaga’s place in Japan’s history.

Even more funny jokes that don’t require knowledge of the Sengoku Period

Arash chases after the crew while on fire and screaming “STELLAAA!!”, blows up over Ushiwakamaru’s army

Mash and friends somehow run all the way into the desert.

I give up. There is no way to exaggerate anything that happens in this event.

 It is just bonkers.

Oda Nobunaga and Okita Souji for best couple

THE SCATHACH TRIAL

DW: Boy we sure hope you’re not tired of the Fuyuki map!

Stupid, sexy Scathach: Greetings. Guda: Gaddamn. Mash: Senpai, for once can you not be a perv- Stupid, sexy Scathach: *flips her hair* Mash: Holy fuck I’m so gay right now.

Scathach casually kills ten thousand ghosts.

Scathach casually teaches her new students while crushing a skull with one hand and flexing with the other.

Scathach also gives the nicest headpats.

Brock from Pokemon Fergus joins the party.

Mash: And then, Cu Chulainn saved us in his sexy druid outfit. Scathach and Fergus: Druid outfit? AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Fergus: God I’m just super horny right now. Scathach: I’m pretty DTF myself but only the finest warriors can get some of this. Fergus: Well do I qualif- Scathach: No.

Altera: Hi Fergus: *Dies from nosebleed*

For the final part of the trial, Scathach summons another warrior to replace Fergus.

Diarmuid knows its fanservice day. He doesn’t even bother to put on a shirt.

Artemis: I’m baaaacckk~ Me: AHHH KILL IT! KILL IT!

Scathach to Artemis: From one booby servant to another, your kind of fanservice is super gross and wrong my dude. Domestic violence against men is a very real concern. Now I’m gonna spank you.

Scathach kicks divine ass. Thank you, Shishou!

Scathach: Now before I leave kids, what did we learn? Mash and Guda: That the road ahead of us is long and dark, but if we hold firm and believe in each other, we can be humanity’s saviors from the dark? Scathach: No. What did we really learn? Me: That now I can’t not have you in my Chaldea and must ask for an advanced paycheck this instant? Scathach: Good child.

#Fate #Fate Grand Order #FGO

[lifeisshitanditneedsrantingabout]

Wow. She waits till I've spent hundreds on my room. Buying a bed that I spent 8 hours building in said room that can't be taken down, spent days painting the walls so the paint looked like someone actually cared about it. FINALLY added my own personal touch after YEARS of suffering from PTSD and OCD which had me struggling to own anything personal. And then telling me that she needs money from me cos she wants to do the garden so I give her everything left over cos she's my mum. I finished a week ago and she tells me today its about time I look for a GADDAMN FLAT?!?!? WITH WHAT FUCKING MONEY?? THE MONEY THAT YOU'VE JUST TAKEN FOR BILLS AND RENT AND THE FUCKING GARDEN? THE BILLS WHERE WE DON'T EVEN HAVE TO PAY FOR WATER BUT THAT'S ONE OF THE ONLY THINGS I'M FUCKING USING BECAUSE I EAT LIKE ONCE EVERY 3 DAYS WHEN I THINK I CAN STOMACH IT? AND EVEN THEN I GO AND BUT IT MYSELF?! HEATING IS NEVER FUCKING ON AND THE ONLY ELECTRIC I USE IS WHEN I CHARGE MY PHONE! I DON'T EVEN USE THE WIFI COS I PAY FOR MOBILE DATA! I UNDERSTAND PAYING RENT! I FUCKING LOVE THIS BOX ROOM! IT'S BEEN MY BEDROOM FOR YEARS! BUT ARE YOU SERIOUSLY GONNA TELL ME TO GET A FLAT AFTER ALL THAT!!

Fucking hell, I'm the one that keeps buying you fucking cars so you can get you're shit done. I'm the one who's supposed to have rainy day money in case you need it! Then suddenly you need it all so I give it you and then a few days later you tell me I need to move out? Considering the fact I quit my job so I could be a carer for my brother SO YOU COULD HAVE HELP it's gonna take my months to save up to move out so I suggest you stop expecting me to pay for shit that doesn't benefit me. Have fun sorting out your garden. Have fun sorting out your car. And have fun sorting out your damn loft.

Jesus christ it's not like I even make chores. I use like a bowl and a spoon that I wash and they're my own bowl and spoon that I don't even use that often because cereal is expensive and your sons have no control of what they eat so I sometimes don't even get something I do buy!

If anyone actually reads this to the end and thinks I'm being petty. Fuck off. I'm allowed to rant every once in a damn while. If I speak negatively out loud here I get told to quit complaining cos its not a damn competition. "I know. I'm just asking where the painkillers are cos I'm getting a headache" "Well you're brothers got a fucked up arm is he complaining?" No cos all he does is sit on his bed and play video games then sleep.

Fucks sake.

I'm done. Rant over. I've cried and now I'm out of steam. Thanks Tumblr!

[earthquacksugarskull-blog]

#vanlife - not just a hastag

Hi there,

I am EarthQuackSugarSkull and I am a Filmmaker born and bred in London, currently residing in the north of England and loving it. just luvvinit. I moved to South Africa when I was 18 with my mum, to explore the world, travel, grow and ended up studying my BA in filmmaking in Durban. After I completed my course I moved to The North and now... here I am.

So here is my life at the moment: I am a part-time Postgraduate Filmmaking student, meaning I have school and lectures one day a week, though the majority of my course is ‘self-motivated’...ugh... which translates to: Do it yourself. Good luck. SO I am currently working on 2 films, one which is on pause to make way for the other one, which I am making progress with and hope to screen it at an exhibition at the end of June 2018. I try to leave 2-3 days a week (including school) to dedicate completely to working on the film. I also work 4-5 shifts a week at a pub, most of which are night shifts.... which makes waking up early... challenging, especially after working several nights in a row... after the 4th night I do nothing but sleep the next day...I work to make money for the film - the props, paying actors and crew, any location payments, travel expenses and festival entries. While I have managed to scrounge a little extra here and there, the film’s main budget comes from my work at the pub. I enjoy the job, don't get me wrong, but it isn't what I want to be doing. the late nights, constantly being ill from picking up snotty tissues, smelling like an alcoholic, walking home alone at night... there are many things I dislike about the job which... at this point in my life and after 6 years in the industry, I am ready to move away from. 

I consider my other skills: videography, photography, sound mixing, editing and other filmy stuff and apply for those jobs in my area. I find a couple but most of them are for a month or two at the most, and are paid in exposure bucks which are all very cute but don't pay the bills... furthermore the majority of work that I can get at my level are in London, for sporadic amounts of time at sporadic times and are also paid in exposure bucks or not enough to cover travel expenses and staying somewhere etc... so I consider: what about a regular job, an office job? tried it. hated it. furthermore, because of the film all of my spare money is going into the film and I certainly canNOT afford to survive the dreaded first month of a new job whatever it may be... so I find myself in a predicament.

I am writing this rather long-winded post because I just wanted to get this out. I have always been in love the classic VW surfer duuuuuude camper van, in particular the red ones.... luvvem. just... luvvem. And now all these damn beautiful millennial vegan yuppies are all up in them...GADDAMN IT MAKES ME MAD. but you know, I'm completely one of them - except the vegan part... but I LIKED THEM BEFORE THEY WERE COOL OK???!

Anyway - I've always thought it would be cool to put a mattress in the back and go on little road trips in it. Not until a couple of years ago, once admittedly I had come across the #vanlife movement, did I consider moving into one full-time. And now... I. am. obsessed.

Here is why #vanlife ISN’T bullshit. for me.

Please note: if there is anything I have learned from hundreds, I say HUNDREDS of hours I have spent researching vans, interiors, batteries, types of insulation, watching videos, vlogs, reading articles, blogs and so on... it is this: van life and the reasons for or against it are entirely INDIVIDUAL to the person undertaking this lifestyle. It is also important to note that van life isn't just a hashtag, it is an entire lifestyle. and it is not simply moving your apartment into a van, it is an entire change of life style. We are talking about going from stationary to nomadic homie... omg I can't wait!

I know what you’re thinking: damn millennial yuppy, living in a van is weird! well... stop right there, JUDGE JUDY! I hate yoga, I love meat, I eat pizza on the REG, I spend waaaaaay too much time on the couch, I’m slightly overweight but I make it WERK because SELF LOVE henny. I am pretty normal. though undiagnosed, I definitely suffer from depression, anxiety (you know, the usjj...), low-self esteem and all that LOVELY STUFF. But you know what? I’ve decided I don't give a shit. I’m doing it! I am buying a crappy van, empty. I am going to throw a mattress, a bucket, a storage container and a cooler in the back and FUCK THE FUCK OFF. And I can't bloody wait. But first... let me overthink this through....

PROS

I am doing this because it will help me career-wise because I’ll be able to travel TO where the work is and it will be fine if the work is sporadic because I'll be LIVING IN A VAN - a house on wheels WITH storage space?!?! perfect for being on a film set! I don't need to factor in commuting time especially when shooting runs late or starts early, I can just sleep in the parking area... easy! 

I can visit my friends and family more (they live eVERYWHERE - this makes it very expensive and time-consuming to visit them because it takes hours in the coach or train, and I can only travel at certain times because they don't run 24/7 and you can travel WHENEVER in a van. I'll also save money on food and coach/train tickets as well as trains and cabs in and around their areas. 

I have done plenty of TRAVELLING in my life and I think those experiences and lessons cannot be forgotten or lost, which is why I think this is a brilliant idea. I want to explore my weird little Island, I want to explore Europe (before BREXIT FFS), I want to drive from the North of England aaaaalllll the way down to Cape Town, South Africa because many of my uni friends live there and I NEED TO SEE THEM.

I can save so much MONEY man... seriously - in the long term, and I say after a matter of a few months, I could make back the money I have spent out for the van, and from there we are talking petrol, insurance, food and then expendable income. I can put that money towards equipment, films, festival entries, travel to festivals and other industry events or just savings.

The FREEDOM! I love being able to move about freely! I love having all of my possessions to hand - it makes me feel empowered, independent, strong and those cannot be bought or achieved with a big house, for me anyway..

CONS...

...

comfort? no... insulation, blankets and cushions... ok

Safety? - fair point, sir... I imagine an alarm, a dog and a large knife can take care of that...

there don't seem to be many more...

I’m going to come clean now... at the END of the post ok I KNOW... bear with me ok

I do not have a driving licence.

I know... I KNOW OK?! calmit... I moved to SA when I was 18 and over there it is almost IMPOSSIBLE to apply for a driving test as a foreigner. In the year and a half I was trying to book one, I went back and forth from the driving authority MANY MANY times... each time there was a new document I needed which I didn't need last time...and then when I moved back to England I found out you have to live in England for a certain amount of time before you can book a test, plus I needed a new provisional licence. I have also had many many poor months in the past year, leaving little extra money for lessons and the test itself. I booked my driving test this morning as well as a lesson with an ALRIGHT instructor, but if we’re honest... which we always are - I've been driving for years. I am a safe driver but just need a little practice. so - assuming I pass pay test in June... I should be on the road by July 2018. I should get a larger pay check in June and hopefully the film’s expenses will be mostly complete so I'll have a bit extra to play with... hopefully. if not then I will spend another month or so working and then move in ASAP before winter comes!!!

so... that’s the plan... this PROBABLY won't work BUT I have to hope above hope that it will because honestly. I can't do this any more. I can't do being tied to one location any more. it isolates me from those I love, and me being the lazy poor motherfucker I never have spare income to buy tickets and book trains to go visit my friends and family. I feel constrained. I feel flattened... I feel the weight of all of it on my back and it kills me. I need to do this. this isn't some #vanlife bullshit. fuck all that. fuck all the fluff around it. Life on Wheels is the perfect way to minimise, mobilise and empower oneself. in the world we live in today? it seems like the only option for me, unless I fall into the machine taking a 9-5 and a lease/mortgage. I can't do that. I will literally be HORRIBLE to be around. I will feel FIlTHY and oppressed and that will send me down a mental journey that I have experienced before and simply won't survive again... but that is a post for another day.

Aaaaaaanyway, if you've made it down here - thank you. thank you for listening,  thank you for the shit that you have given me today. Here, have one in return. <<SHIT>>

One love,

EarthQuackSugarSkull x

#vanlife #bullshit #someidiotinavan #filmmaker #editor

[briteboy]

stealing @bratsims format because i need a less ugly way to mass answer your messages which will hopefully motivate me to stay on top of this! at least i can say i tried

so if you sent me an anon message in the past...idk MONTH (i’m bad i know) it might be here. (older ones are near the bottom) if not, check my faq because it’s probably answered there. (and if you’re the person/people who sent the twin flame & 7th house asks, i plan to answer those separately because i have a LOT to say. get ready)

game of thrones, nuclear war, real life santis, lou theories, i’m evil, HERE WE GO!! i literally had to cut it off at the last one because it was just too much for now. i’ll try to answer some more later ok

we’re starting off on a great note

Anonymous said: gaddamn rooney's tiddies lookin' hella ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

STOP!!!!!!!!!!! THAT’S MY CHILD soaidfnjds she’s supposed to have like b/c cups (goals for me tbh, the big boob life is not fun) and sims 4 pregnancies just fuckin make them...NYOOM i’m mad you can’t edit sims’ bodies during pregnancy even with cas.fulleditmode on -___- so i let her live with her giant preggo tiddies for now

Ngl I want a kiss between Santi and Gianni (I'm sorry I'm literally trash)

then i’m here to satisfy your desires: they do kiss periodically because gianni is one of those people who’s like “why shouldn’t you kiss your friends?” free love 4 everyone

IM SCREAING AT UR YOUTUBE CHANNEL OK!!!! I LOVEEE IT, WOW

DON’T IT’S UGLY EXCEPT FOR LIKE TWO VIDEOS

hey this is kinda random but i thought joe seaward from glass animals looked kinda like santi? he has quite a weird face too lmao

oMG i actually love that, i know what you mean. that dude reminds me of a bull terrier lmao i actually saw glass animals like two weeks ago!! i didn’t really get a good look at the drummer but now i wish i did. missed connection

i just finished reading santi's story and ugh it almost had me in tears! beautiful, your story telling skills and editing skills are perfection!

ahhhhsdkgkds thank you so much ;____; that means the world to me <333

Unpopular opinion: im so done with game of thrones tbh. It's not even good anymore :/ I liked the first season but since then i've skipped through episodes because they are just sooo fucking boring and dragged out!

see like the first three seasons were pretty good because they stayed true to the books. (actually that’s a lie, littlefinger’s chaos speech in the s3 finale was real fuckin bad because guess what: it was original material LMAO) the fourth season was where it started to get messy and then the fifth season was a fucking shitshow because they completely IGNORED the fourth book and cherrypicked all the “good” parts out of it (read: the most action-y parts, while ignoring all the most important pieces of character development) and they botched the dorne storyline, oh and who could forget the iconic moment of throwing in a rape (THAT DIDN’T HAPPEN IN THE BOOKS) just for fun :) love it! but anyway if you think the show is boring i probably wouldn’t recommend the books, they’re even slower getting through them lmao. but it’s worth it in my opinion. there’s so much they don’t include in the show and it makes me Angery

Okay, game of thrones fan here, I haven't read the books (yet at least, I bought book 1) but I feel like dany is going to practically turn into her father, this season she is already showing traits like his.......

OH YEAH i definitely feel like they’re moving in that direction in the process of revealing jon as the “true” king of westeros and it’s so bad lmfao. the thing is, like...cersei is already mad king 2.0? why do we need another one?????? the entire point of dany’s arc is that she’s constantly trying to deviate AWAY from the way her father ruled, demonstrated by the fact that she freed the slaves (whereas all the targaryens before were slave owners), the fact that she’s not perpetuating the whole incest thing (LMAO GUESS AGAIN BECAUSE JONERYS HAS TO HAPPEN FOR SOME FCKING REASON), the fact that she has dragons which haven’t existed in how many years...like, if she ever ends up being like her father in the books, it’s NOT gonna fucking happen like this. but i don’t think she will anyway, george rr martin has been pretty clear about her trajectory thus far. anyway this show is so ugly, next question

rooney's eye are so BIG

just like her tiddies lmao i kno sometimes i forget how big they are and then she does one of those silly endearing animations and i’m like o ;-; hello big dumb baby cow eyes

Cows? Are you secretly Matthew Daddario?

WHO i had to google him lmao i was about to say “oh the teen wolf guy” but jk @ myself u idiot it’s shadowhunters damn i literally googled “matthew daddario cows” and

tru

I love how fragile Lou looks like but the truth is that she is strong af and you can't play with her bruh

SHE IS ;-; and that’s a huge theme in her story, i’m excited <3

ima leave ur blog and come bk and spam you so you will finally notice me

im part of this online forum of girls that talks about our period and weather or not one of us might be pregnant and once this girl posted saying that her husband invited his mom without telling her to thier honeymoon and she didnt find out until they arrived at the hotel and she was already there. the most recent part reminded me of it. but long story short, her dad moved all her stuff out of his house and her friend came to pick her up and they got a divorce.

OISOJDFAKNLJSD WHAT!!! i’m guessing you sent this because of that thing i said about the reddit post lmfaooo imagine your mom on your honeymoon. why. that’s soooooooooo good 4 her u know. u don’t need to be married to his mom as well

thanks 4 trusting my love santi. he's beautiful

thank u he thinks ur beautiful too 💘

do you have any tips for runing game in good quality and fast?

euhhhhh the only tips i have for you are to merge your cc, close all other programs while you play your game, maybe invest in a cooling pad uhhhhhh yeah idk any other tips you can probably find on google

You told that thing about unfollowing people and I thought you unfollowed me, but then I checked and you didn't and I'm crying omg

lmao omg ;-; i literally cut my following list in half, it was so chaotic and it was making me anxious. so if ever unfollow any of you please don’t take it personally (i know it’s a stupid thing to say, and it’s a lot easier said than done) it’s just my brain explodes when there’s too much going on at once and some content blends into others, i’m trying to only follow people who i’m genuinely interested in enough to keep up with their posts from now on

I haven't been able to sleep in over 72 hours thanks to the constant fear over the looming world war. I'm fine. Completely fine

Oh shit, have you noticed that the media has been putting out more 'what to do during a nuclear attack' kinda articles? This world is slowly going to shit, for real. I'm not even near any of the danger really, but it still absolutely terrifies me to see all of that bc it could very well go wrong and hit my place as well yknow? I have no idea why i send this to you but you seem chill and calm so thanks for reading my freakout askfjsls

YEP it’s pretty terrifying. but at the same time don’t let fear overwhelm you, fearmongering is an ugly, ugly thing and you don’t want to live your life constantly worrying. so just prepare yourself for what might come, but at the same time, just spend as much time with your loved ones as you can, do all the things you’ve ever wanted to do, and then if it doesn’t turn out as bad as we thought it would, you *tim mcgraw voice* lived like u were dyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyin’

@ Jesus anon: I really don't think it's the right time to complain about "using the lord name in vain" when there are people terrified of leaving their homes bc they are afraid to get killed (aka that poor, poor Jewish anon in charlottesville)

yeah idk like i want to respect everyone but it seemed to be in poor taste to bring that up at a time like that lmao. and also i’ve literally never in my entire life met someone who actually takes “don’t say the lord’s name in vain” seriously. 

I asked about the poses and HOLY CRAP THANK YOU SO MUCH! I finally have good poses to use for story telling. Thank you soo so so so sooooo much!

YAY i’m glad you found some good stuff <3 and honestly just going through lana’s blog you’ll find a ton of good poses, it’s a gold mine

Idk how much tv you watch, but have you've ever come across a tv show that used music from The Sim? Because once in a while I'll hear Sims 3 build/buy music on some random show and I'll get a lil shook because I find it so weird that the generic music they're using comes from a major game title.

OMG LMAO NO what i wish i’d come across that tho. one time i used sims 1 music in a video i made for school and someone recognized it

I love your stories gosh I check your page "it's everyday bro with femmesim flow" Lol sorry for that awkward Jake Paul "poop" ❤️

lmao thank u i had no idea who jake paul was until my friends started talking about him

yo, I also remember once in french class real life santi asked me what videos games I like to play. When I told him the sims, he looked at me for a while and shaked his head. He was like, "why do you want to watch your sims use the toilet?"

WHY DO YOU WANT TO WATCH YOUR SIMS USE THE TOILET SAME that’s all i care about when i play

that rooney face in the 5 facts is so iconic, its my fave picture of her. You should blow it up and frame it

i should tbh. i should print it out and put it in my wallet to show everyone because she is my child

sorry the bother you, merging cc makes your game smoother? can you explain to me please?

boop

hi i love you ♡ pass it on

I LOVE U

Can I say that hearing a MacBooks fans screaming for dear life as they try to cool down when playing the sims has actually started to haunt my nightmares

SAME my macbook is actually doing it right now for no reason. thanks laptop

Maybe Santi should go to therapy to talk out his issues.

maybe he should 🤔  but tbh he’s already talked out everything, there’s nothing really more to talk out. he just has to cope with it. he’s treated lou like his therapist thus far and that’s not okay

i love ur story and omg i totally get where lou is coming from with being tired of being compared to molly by santi, thatd hurt so much esp with how much she cares about him

thank youuu ;-; i’m glad you understand, this was a part i’d wanted to get out for a loooong time now, and i know you guys were always like “um why does she put up with this” lmao. she just loves him, that’s why. but you’re right, it does hurt.

My theory is very similar to the other anons in that Fiona's dad/Lou's ex had a mental illness (schizophrenia, depression, what have you) but he actually did kill himself and that's why she's not completely losing it on Santi because I feel like most people in that situation would have not handled it as well as Lou did

🤔 you’re right about the last part, and there’s a reason she has so much patience, das all i’m sayin

i started your story from the beginning last night and i am in awe. Its amazing. It inspired me to put a little more effort in learning to edit and write. It was like reading screen caps from a movie! I didn't want to stop reading. Anyway thing was a super sappy ask, but i appreciate your stuff. And i'm bad at putting my thoughts into words.

omg ;__________; when people tell me i inspired them it means the most to me, my brain just can’t process it lmao. so thank you so so much ;-; <333 THE MOVIE THING ESPECIALLY GOT ME IN THE HEART because i feel like that’s my aesthetic with most things i create because i’m such a film person lol. don’t worry i love super sappy, and you did a good job of wording everything because it got me right in the feels <33

Okay I've been snickering for about 43 minutes bc SANTI GOT THAT GRU CHINNN

WOT is that i googled it and the only thing that came up was the dad from despicable me lmfaosdkjfs but ok

Please, please do punk edits of your some of your characters! I'd die.

WHAT DOES THIS MEANNN do you mean like. those 2010 tumblr edits of punk disney characters and then the joker from suicide squad looked like one of them. do u want santi to be the joker. because my boyfriend already relates him to suicide squad joker because of his face tatt lmao

You love to make me cry

i do i’m sorry. if it makes you feel any better i love to make myself cry too. but my biceps grow stronger with every tear

I reeeally dont think those chancla comments were offensive??? Why would they be?? I'm hispanic (born and raised in the sunny Dominican Republic, received a fair amount of chancletazos myself) and I laughed out loud when i read them 😂😂

I JUST WANT U TO KNOW I SHOWED @ichosim THIS MESSAGE AND SHE LAUGHED FOR 12 HOURS AT “CHANCLETAZOS”

whATT my little brothers name is santiago n we call him santi for short!! guess it's not rly that uncommon but we live in a small country and he's also 4 so like,, no other santiagos!! idk why im saying this its completely irrelevant just kinda surprised me :'))

OMG wow hell yeah another real life santi...santi acts like a 4 yr old so he might as well be your brother

Just curious.. Do you play sims or just use it for storytelling? Sorry if thats weird haha

well my recent gameplay pics should answer your question lmao. i do like to play but i don’t have enough time to both play and pose scenes so i mostly just pose scenes for now. :[ i am gonna be off work for like two weeks tho so hell yeah gameplay here i come!!

I'm starting a Fiona appreciation movement because she is the real star of santis story RT and i love her and she is way underappreciated and I love her KThxBi

SHE IS THE REAL STAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i’ve said this before but santi’s relationship with her is the most important to me, out of every relationship he has in this story. i’m so glad you love her so much, sorry about what’s about to come in the next few scenes tho

Oh my heart, Santi is alive, god exist

I have a pretty hard time understanding Santi's story mostly because I'm not English but I'm sure I'll figure it out:)

ahh oh no D: i’m sorry i wish i spoke every language in the world lmao. if you want, you can message me off anon and i’ll help you understand it!!

Lou is an angel honestly

“there are worse things than seeing an angel before you die”

what tablet do you use? or how do you draw hair? it looks so pretty.

omg haha i don’t have one! i wish i did tho. all of the brushes i got from deviantart, i’m trying to find the specific ones but they’re all elusive wtf. i’ll post them when i find them! for now, here’s a good guide to drawing hair, by airi <3

Nah nah I always knew you'd save him.....eheheeh.....THANK YOU FOR NOT KILLING BABBY SANTEEEEEEEEE DNDDNSKANW YOU WOULD HAVE HAD SO MUCH BLOOD ON UR HANDS AS ALL UR FOLLOWERS COLLECTIVELY DIE FROM A BROKEN HEART BUT DW WE DIDNT BECAUSE UR QN ANGEL....but I toooootally knew you'd save him... /sweats/

I’M GLAD U HAD FAITH <3 i know omfg i would’ve expected a mob at my house if i’d actually killed him. if i ever killed him i would just lay down somewhere and die. that’s it for me

Lou & molly almost always have teeth showing, do you draw them on each pic?x

no, only sometimes i’ve drawn them when i felt like their mouths weren’t matching the expression i wanted. but most of the time it’s just the pose.

is it too late to send 16k dollars to guarantee santi's inclusion in a loving home with loving friends

it is absolutely never too late to send me 16k i promise you that

I just bought school books for $550 who knew studying marine biology could be so fuckING EXPENSIVE

EWW WTF...i’ve been lucky and haven’t had to spend a ton on books in my college career (one time i even went to such lengths that i got access to free trial version of one of my school books in a pdf, screencapped EVERY SINGLE PAGE, which was more than 400 pages, just so i wouldn’t have to spend $70 on it. i love cheating the system)

waIT i never saw ur selfie where is it, must see

u could probably just search “selfie” on my blog and find it, or enjoy the ugly closeup drunk snap i posted last night

Hey guys I'm a happy trans man that has no mental illnesses. I'm fucking pissed about Trump's ban. And to any one that says it's logical FUCK YOU! I'm having flashbacks to don't ask, don't tell because this is the same fucking wacked up logic. I'm so angry, like I'm a human, yes I may require testosterone shots once a month but that's it, I even administer them to myself. I pay for them with my own god damn money so fuck you transphobic bigots who say this law is fair. It's not. WE ARE HUMAN TOO Also same anon that ranted. Sorry about that I'm just really pissed and I love and thank you for sticking up for the community. We love you and I love you. And you're right not all trans people transition. We all do what we want to. Some start on T or E and have the full surgery. Some just have top surgery. Some just do testosterone or estrogen. Some never do anything. We're all still trans and we're all valid.

YES ALL OF THIS, sorry i didn’t answer this when it was all happening. but askdkjfas thank you for this message, I LOVE YOU TOO, SO MUCH <333 and i’m glad you feel comfortable enough to voice this in my inbox. yes every trans person is valid no matter what they decide to do with their bodies <3

One of those old hot topic shirts that said " if Darryl dies we riot " but with santi instead of Darryl.

OMG LMAOOOOO NOW THAT’S A CONCEPT who’s making these i want one

your use of references and reaction pics and gifs fucken KILLS ME

Crystal anon here. I googled around my area to find there are none of those y'know, crystal, candle, incense, magic type shops. I have panic attacks when I go outside and I wanted to look into alternative stuff since I'm on meds and w/e. I wanted to know if you or friends had any experience or recommendations for buying crystals online like on etsy or amazon. How can you tell if they're real?x

ooooh ok. usually there are shops like those in cities or even in towns with like kitschy little promenades with independent shops. (i know there’s one around the town over from mine, which is so random lmao) i do have friends that have crystals but i think they mostly just collect them for the ~good vibez~ and don’t really look too far into the healing aspects of them. i would say first go with the one that coincides with your birth because those are the ones that are like specifically catered to you and strengthen your being. as for buying online, hmmmmm i mean i don’t really know any specific trustworthy sellers because i don’t have much experience with this, but definitely read the reviews! those will help you a lot <3

Hello could you please tell us how you edited the pic of rooney in that one post that the anon asked for the unedited version?

i honestly didn’t do much of anything that differs from my usual editing process! i made her eyes a bit bigger by using the clone tool, cloning the top of her eye and applying it a little bit farther up...if that makes sense. it’s hard to explain how to use that tool lmao. and i think i used the liquify tool to bring part of her eyebrow down to look more worried.

there's still a part of me that says she ain't dead and molly is just in a coma lmao end mE

OMFLDKGKJS yeah she’s not dead surprise. i WILL say there is still flashback stuff that will be revealed. well not “revealed” like molly’s death was revealed, like i just still have to showcase some things that happened afterward. because it doesn’t just end with molly’s death, there’s stuff after that as well :~}

I'm Mexican, have lived around Mexicans, have been to Mexico multiple times growing up, just came back from a family trip at practically the border between Mexico and Guatemala and never in my life have I ever heard the word "joder" i had to look it up xD (not hating or anything I just thought I'd mention it cuz I found it funny...lol) k bye...

OK NOT SURE IF the ppl you’ve been around just don’t curse or whatever but...joder is DEFINITELY something i’ve heard mexican people say before lmao

Okay so this is random, but i was telling my sister the name of one your characters in ur story (santi) and she kinda just starts singing his name, and she said "santi high, santi low, santi go." And im just sitting there, like woah.

LMFAO WHATKNJDSKJGD “woah” same

u gonna incorporate fis hat into a really like emotional sad thing in her story huh

oMG i wasn’t planning on it but hmm 🤔

Why no el chingo? NO ME GUSTA (I'm joking btw ily)

LMFAOOOO because i didn’t wanna have to defile my son by downloading the penis mod RIP

let santi grow out dem eyebrows 2kforever

omg he does let them grow out except for the little line he shaved in when he was 14 that never grew back RIP

in ur bio it says "kt" and i know why,, it means killing them as in killing off ur characters slowly i see u gurl

i bet this story was just an excuse for you to see the world burn. well done.

OMG i mean, that was definitely one of the side effects of it all. but really it was just that i NEEDED to get this story out after it had lived in my brain for so long.

ur dead 2 me

I... just.... can't... too much pain Y U DO DIS 2 UZ?!?!!!

#anonymous #nonsims #saviorhide #sunny answers

[serenagaywaterford]

1. A question you asked ages ago and I forgot to answer (sorry!):"If June hadn’t been deemed a “fallen woman” and thus been allowed to stay as an Econowife, with Luke and Hannah, would she have done anything?" I remember reading Serena's question for the first time and basically having 2 lines of thoughts: 1) "Way to go and ruin the mood, Serena, by simply being you." I get why June's irritated. Honestly, trust Serena to lose the ENTIRE point. There shouldn't have been any Econowives

2. or Handmaids, you idiot! 2) Taken out of context, the question is actually pretty valid and made me go "hm". My answer is no. No, June wouldn't have been nearly as rebellious or contrarian if she had been an Econowife. To quote you, "she's a survivalist, not a bleeding heart". She would have kept her mouth shut/a low profile in order to keep her family safe. (Being obedient and meek simply does NOT cut it with the Waterfords.) Would that have made her a /bad/ person? No. No, it wouldn't.

3. June always struck me as the average woman next door (not a reckless one along activist lines, unlike her mother), who is quite content with simple things in life and is apathetic to politics until... Well, until it's too late. No, I'm not trying to imply that June's not smart. She's quite the opposite if her manipulations are anything to go by. Too bad they don't work with canon!Serena. I feel like fic!Serena could be persuaded into certain things now that she's in love with June.

4. Then again, maybe that's because her secret affair is her only source of happiness/fun in Gilead (despite all her "I'm a sinner" guilt trip bullshit).

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Ha ha, YES. I think that’s kinda like Pure SerenaTM. Totally missing the larger point and reducing it to, “But what about me? This only bothers me when it happens to me.” And there's the assumption that all other women are like her.

But that said, I agree. June seems to be shown as just an average woman. She’s not overtly political, or even tuned in. She is basically most people. Even when the bank stuff happens, she loses her job, she has to get Luke’s permission for birth control, all that stuff with sick!Hannah/ignoring the bombing of congress, etc. she kinda just... goes with it. 

Moira is more vocal and scared, and knows what’s up. And I would assume Holly was out on the activist frontlines ASAP. But June? She trusted men too. Serena gets a lot of flack for being short-sighted and narrow-minded about the future of this society she wanted. But, imo, June is on that same spectrum--just not nearly as bad obvs. She was uncomfortable, of course, but she wasn’t exceptionally concerned. She trusted her husband would protect her and Hannah, and she allowed him to take on that role. I never felt June sensed any particular urgency to the situation, they kind of laughed about it a bit like it was just something that would pass---until that protest (kudos for her going to that) when they opened fire on the protesters. That’s when things finally sank in. And June, for her part, even admits the whole heating bathtub thing. She knows her role in it.

So that’s why I asked about the Econowife thing. Cos, imo, I see her as a totally normal woman and as much as most of us would like to believe we’re a Holly or even a Moira, I think most of us would be Junes in that situation. As long as her family is “safe” and together, I feel like (like you do) that she would just lie low. Of course she wouldn’t be happy, and I think she has a stubborn streak, but would she risk her whole life (and that of her child/husband) to act out against being an Econowife? Ehhh... it really would have to depend on whether she hits a breaking point. Overall, I don’t think she would rock the boat. And just hope it ends soon. (Unless, again, something happens to threaten her or Hannah, or she sees some gross injustice in her face. Because we have seen she does hit a point where she speaks out. She may be docile for a while, but June doesn’t strike me as someone who would just go with the flow forever... I think at the very least, she’d attempt to help people more vulnerable than her. She’d help a Handmaid get out, I would like to believe.) If something didn’t change soon, I think she would begin to get impatient and attempt to disrupt the system. She does it as a Handmaid and that’s an even more precarious situation. 

But I also think, in my fic anyway, June is resistant to that idea Serena presents. We never want to think of ourselves like that. That maybe we’d just let things slide until they affect us personally or hit a particular nerve. But lbr, most of us do exactly that. I know there’s loads of shit throughout my life that I didn’t really care about until it came for me (or someone close to me) too. (That Niemöller poem is accurate and terrifying for a reason. It’s a reflection of a lot of human tendencies.) It’s not a great thing, and not something to be proud of, but it’s a reality for the majority of us. But I’d also like to think that as it happens, we start to become more sensitive to other things that maybe we would have turned away from before.

And I totally agree. That doesn’t make her a bad person at all. It’s literally Econolife or worse. She’s just normal and trying to survive.

And... LMAO. Yeah. Fic!Serena is way more malleable to June lol. Funny how getting some does that ;) But I think deep down she’s still self-serving and obsessed with self-preservation. [Or maybe canon proves me totally wrong on that with 2x13. Cos that reading thing, while partially self-serving cos she wants to fucking read a gaddamn book lol, was basically throwing herself to the lions--and knowing it likely wouldn’t make a difference, it was still “June is yelling at me about this thing and giving me that Disappointment Face. So imma yell at her... and then do as she says.” So, she will do what June wants her to do... eventually. Same with giving up Nichole. (Nic-hole. UGHHHH) That was pretty much the opposite of self-serving.]

#Anonymous

[convlicted365]

Day 1: hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days with a picture of yourself I hope by the end of this year I can carve some sort of path leading me to what I wanna do in the future. Bc rn I have no idea what I'm doing and I'm just taking a bunch of random classes to see if I can pick up some kinda interest somewhere. Like I have some sort of idea of what I wanna do but I don't know how to narrow it down to specifics. Also fuck being a nurse I hope it's easier for me to hang out with new people LOL. Ngl I have improved in my social awkwardness but I still find that when new people start trying to get all close and asking me to hangout I kinda run for my life and make excuses not to go out cause I get nervous. Like fuck what if they think my personality is fucked up outside of school/work/etc (I have been told before I'm fucked up) I hope to sign up for some sort of physical activity shit and get off my ass. Gaddamn i wish for some means of exercise every year yet all I do is buy more food . I hope I can be more comfortable with being vulnerable. Like dawg I went all my damn life never talking about my feelings (espescially during high school) and it kinda fucked me up. Idk what is expressing emotions. Can't recall. Never met her. And bc of this I think people see me as a brick wall sometimes. I hope thru this year I can find myself being more comfortable talking about me cause I realized being like this kinda affects my relationship with other people LOL ya numb ur own feelings u numb ur feelings for other shit too. That ain't good tho I need to draw more I need to save more than $2000 in the bank Also now that I have money I wanna do more daring shit. I wanna dye my hair. I wanna get more piercings. I wanna travel (might not happen but well see) Dude I'm so tired it's like late night. I'll finish this later lol

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