#get your cat out of my apartment

[mostlymobilegames]

What did u say to him, he's sad now

#get your cat out of my apartment #romance club #rc soulless #romance club soulless

[mitskiluvr]

replaying mystic messenger is so crazy because why am i gentle parenting these grown men and teaching them how to handle their feelings

#mystic messenger #mysme #jumin han #saeyoung choi #this post is mainly about those two #i get so mad whenever jumin enters a chatroom like get out of my face im not joking I DO NOT LIKE YOU #like i get it blah blah blah CEO with a cold heart trope and you melt his icy exterior But im so tired... #i don't want to explain workers rights to him #or... basic human rights actually #when he goes “jaehee i need you to work overtime again” and my face contorts in disgust and horror as a sitcom laugh track plays in the bac #also seven's route is so frustrating #like there's genuine reasons for him acting cold and whatever and i get it #but i actually dont want to watch you break a robot cat and then change ur pfp to a dark and broody photo of yourself #I ALSO CANT TALK TO ZEN IM SORRY I HATE HIM SO MUCH #zen lovers do not hate me... i am just a simple person #at one point in seven's route he was like “omg there's an explosive in the apartment? i should send a pic of myself to comfort you...” #I CANNOT HANDLE YOU GO LOG OFF YOUR PHONE #sorry wow im really into this game #i played it four years ago and now it's come back to me #also all of my points are nullified by the fact that saeran is my favorite #doing his route is like pulling teeth and eating socks #i say that with love

[bonebabbles]

with the disclaimer that I don't know all the context since I haven't read it, how WAS he supposed to handle a contagious illness in a society that doesn't have any form of masks or sanitation? Temporarily quarantining contagiously sick cats away from healthy ones just seems like a completely different and much more reasonable thing than kicking out cats permanently for a disability because they would be a "burden".

@halogenwarrior

Ok, going with you having no context for this, he wasn't suggesting a 'temporary quarantine' for sick cats. There is already a quarantine, with only the medics approaching the sick. Following everyone having a Hearty Chuckle that Clear Sky 'cares about other people' now by saying we're "all in it together," Clear Sky shares his full plan;

He nonsensically believes that no sick prey is living in the burnt part of his woods and the fire "cleansed it", so all of the healthy cats will abandon the sick to die in their camps and come live on his territory and 'wait it out.'

His plan is that all the cats who become sick will die. It's not quarantine in the sense that they will 'help the sick but keep a distance', he is essentially suggesting a reverse leper colony where everyone who displays symptoms gets kicked out to fend for themselves.

And, in the past, illness was always part of his talking points for throwing cats out of his clan. It was why he tried to throw Frost out, where he would die alone. I went back to Thunder Rising to grab the passage,

This is after he shoves Thunder's face into it and tells him to lick it.

So, it's wholly inappropriate, imo, that Thunder essentially does a little eye roll and a cutesy sigh at this suggestion. "Ohh that's my dad and his ruthless streak." His dad has historically been a monster towards the sick and infirm when they "stop being useful" with this rhetoric. Burdens, disease, weakness. In this moment, he is proposing that they do to an unknown number of cats exactly what he commanded Thunder do to Frost.

Additionally, at this point in time, they don't know how the illness spreads. They're guessing that it's via contact with sick prey, and using leaves as rudimentary tissues/gloves. Clear Sky DOES know, though, these two things;

One Eye knows how it spreads and is not telling.

Many of his cats have been exposed.

He has no idea which cats have been exposed, or how many, or even how long it takes between infection and first symptoms. All they DO know is that symptoms are rapid onset and debilitating. By the time you know a cat is sick, they're covered in sores, have a bloated stomach, and are unable to hunt for themselves. The only thing that is for sure is that turning them out is a death sentence.

And yet he is confused at the idea that Thunder has an objection about leaving Morning Whisker, Wind Runner's kitten who isn't older than a month or two, alone to die.

The solution that the groups eventually come up with is that the clans will remain isolated from each other as to not spread illness, though it doesn't seem to work because infected prey still moves around freely.

Also note that the first time Clear Sky actually gives a damn about an infected person is when Jagged Peak's pregnant wife catches it (After Jagged Peak 'proves' he's useful now by leading a medicine-seeking patrol thanks to Gray Wing). Wind Runner's an "ex-rogue," a group Clear Sky has disdain for, and he doesn't think to have compassion about her baby.

So to answer your question directly, he was 'supposed' to handle it the way the Moor cats did and were, with some basic safety precautions. Not regress to trying to use the illness to get all the cats into a single Clan in his own territory where he could continue to throw "useless/dangerously ill/disabled" out into the wilderness "where the maggots will find them".

#tw medical gore #It's worse than I mentioned but I was trying to be brief about it #Because if I dove into every little thing that is SHOCKINGLY bad about Clear Sky I wouldn't be able to get through the book #I swear im trying to be charitable about the fact his first suggestion was just... #''Kill your sick friends and children and join a brand new camp in MY territory'' #''I totally won't assert myself as your leader and make you throw out your friends and family For The Greater Good this time'' #''I've been thinking it's a great idea to gather all of the cats in one spot as a contagious illness ravages the forest'' #''Don't worry we won't get sick because we'll leave all the weak people behind'' #You can think about this for more than 30 seconds and see it fall apart #So isn't it very very convenient that his ''i've been Thinking'' idea involves consolidating power under HIMSELF??? AGAIN????? #At *best* he is so stupid he is inventing a superspreader event #At minimum his plan involves killing a LOT of people via abandonment #And at worst it's actually just another ploy to gain power. But I have to rule that out even though it's the most interesting idea #Because it's Clear Sky Redemption Arc Time and the writers are dead set on not letting him be an interesting character

[sashimiyas]

reina i beg 🙇‍♀️ can i ask if the reader and osamu gets back together/him remembers their past in the burden of being fic (i think that’s the name 🥲) cause like… my brain is remembering how reader mentioned that being with him in this state would only be a heartbreak for them since reader will remember all the past but osamu doesn’t… and and!!! that would be too sadge even if they do get together 🥲

god minnie, i’m so happy you brought up the burden of being. i’ve been sad bc i’ve missed being caught up in a story the way that the burden of being had me.

but you can rest easy. they do get back together :) i actually don’t imagine osamu gaining back all his memories to be honest. there are some things that come back to him, i think the bavo-kun memory is one of them because it’s one of the most recent ones but for the most part, he does navigate reconnecting with reader and all the members of hyogo ward instinctually.

it’s kind of like when you show up to a family reunion and you have all these aunties and uncles saying they knew you when you were this tall. that kind of thing. like he knows these people have been involved in his life some way or another and that he’s meant to be kind and receptive to their generosity. but truly, he cannot place them in his mind prior to remeeting them again.

osamu initially loves her like it is second nature. he cannot explicitly say why he does. he just knows, deep down, in his heart and soul and body, that he does. he loves her. it does make for difficult courtship in the beginning but they are able to restart their relationship as two absolutely different people. because reader from the beginning of the burden of being is absolutely different than the one from the end. the same, obviously goes for osamu.

osamu also never goes back to cooking for a living! he does enjoy it as a side hobby, but he ends up staying on his pro volleyball path. he does leave msby after his falling out with atsumu and i think he finds himself on a division 2 league. he’s still good but a lot of time had passed since he’d taken a break and part of the reason he got a position of a division 1 team is because of atsumu.

akaashi ends up owning o.mo.ide all on his own. reader eventually hands over the restaurant solely to him and she does find her cushy it job so she can continue to spoil osamu just like she wished.

#reina.receives #i hope this answers your question #if not. i’ll try again! i do have this particular scene in my head #osamu’s still hesitant in stepping inside reader’s apartment when he finds out they used to live in it together. they’ve gone on some dates #already and the two of them awkwardly stands outside her door. akaashi is peeping through the eyehole as they speak lmfao. but the dates #have been good. they both know this. and this one was extra spectacular. they’re getting it down. allowing themselves the moment rather than #being latched onto by the past. and she offers if he wants to come inside. osamu has his hands in his jacket pockets and he waves them about #as he sways on his heel. he wants to. but is he ready? he doesn’t want to ruin already what they’ve had. but he decides to. and so he goes #inside. you’re opening the door as akaashi scrambles to act nonchalant. bokuto is there as well to lessen the awkwardness #and mumu has shown to hate every man that has walked through your doors. but at the sight of osamu. he gives him a stare that lasts minutes #and then he curls himself between osamu’s ankles before ricocheting off to cause some mayhem in akaashi’s room. mimi was never a cat that #*mumu #osamu fed. but it just goes to show. how osamu’s scent has stayed in your bed and in your sheets despite that fact that you can no longer #smell them. he’s been there. he always has even if you could no longer find him.

[bluejaybytes]

@snowshinobi Hiiiii :3 I'm responding to your tags on a new post and not the original since the original was already somewhat lengthy, and I plan on being LONG and RAMBLY, but I have sooo many thoughts on what you said and I'm going to say them. Also my browser crashed TWICE (TWO TIMES. 2) when trying to write this post so I'm really fighting for my life out here to get my silly little OC posts done. Also it's under the cut because it's looooong as hell LMAO

Firstly, you're so nice to me forever <3 Secondly, I think you've basically hit the nail on the head. The majority of the issues Maggie has coming back from death and her 9 years gone are really tied almost exclusively to her close family, because she... never really had anyone else. While in-universe it's only 9 years, realistically the jump in technology and culture is around ~20-30 years (Maggie died in the 90s/early 2000s essentially, and wakes up in a just barely futuristic city), but... the most jarring thing to her in terms of what she missed out on is just. Flipphones are no longer popular. Other than her family, she's only close with one other person... who just so happens to be a ghost, and therefore both 1. Wouldn't change much over the timespan due to how long she's been a ghost and 2. Unlike her family, was aware that something happened, since she could see the ghost-of-a-ghost Maggie left behind (The ghosts name is Opal, she positions herself as a sort of "guardian angel" figure, though she's not actually, and serves as just another parental figure for Maggie while also getting after the ghosts that constantly harass her to pass on messages to the living). Maggie has no real relationships outside of her family, and while her relationships with her family are massively impacted by her unknowing death, other than that... the timeskip itself doesn't weigh on her because she had no one regardless. Her struggle to adjust to everything thats happened would've happened regardless of the timeskip for her, because she was such an isolated shut-in that it's the same whether it happened the next day, or nearly a full decade later

So another very interesting thing is that you've actually completely seen where I was going with everything, in spite of everything I said being very surface level and not actually delving into the plot at all. I completely skimmed over Jenna (She's very important to the plot, but she's by in large a regular person as opposed to Maggie's... everything), but for some additional context, Jenna has a horrendously shitty homelife, so her moving in with Maggie is both a gradual process (It goes from spending time there, to spending nights, to eventually just never going back home and moving in fully), and also serves as an escape for her. Part of that is also, so vitally, the food aspect. For some additional additional context, souls essentially serve as a persons lifeforce, practically every bodily function is improved by a soul that's stronger, though the "strength" of a soul is essentially entirely random, and not dependent on the individuals actions of any kind. Maggie had a generally weird soul before (Seeing ghosts inherently means she has to have something going on with her soul), but when she wakes up after her death, her soul is now even weirder, and part of that is that it essentially lets her get away with bad habits she absolutely should be seeing more consequences for. She barely eats, and when she does, it's basically exclusively crackers and whatever other safe foods she has around the house, because actually making food is a level of care and effort she just... doesn't give to herself in the slightest. Part of Jenna staying with her is that Jenna, without really discussing it, entirely takes up the mantle of caretaker of the apartment, with the biggest task being food prep, Jenna sees Maggie's unwillingness to take care of herself and silently steps up and starts making her actual meals so she's eating properly.

The problem is is that this also kinda... just straight up sucks? Jenna doesn't think much of it, it's something that needed to be done so she's doing it, she wants Maggie to be well fed even if she won't do it herself, and she's already been responsible for making all of her own meals for years prior anyways, so it's just another thing she does. Except that's shitty! Maggie's seen firsthand how terrible her homelife is, and it really weighs on her how even in her escape from that, Jenna's still being put in a position where she feels like she must care for her or else she just won't eat properly. So food is such a massively important thing to both of them, it's this symbol of love for both of them, it's love on the part of Jenna, for stepping in and taking care of Maggie when she can't do it herself, and it's love on the part of Maggie, for realizing how her own bad habits impact the people she cares about and wanting to lift that weight by taking care of herself better. It's also very vital for Maggie because she just... doesn't... have hobbies. Learning how to cook becomes really her only hobby and she puts all of her love and care into it, because for the first time in a long while she's actually passionate about something! ...Unfortunately she also is very very bad at it. She's inventing new dishes like "Burnt Salad" and "Please Help I Fucked Up Kraft Mac N Cheese" and still having to have Jenna come in and help her. But it's the thought that counts, and it'll only be a matter of time before she can make something vaguely edible.

And finally, the stuff about names! I didn't post it here, but while idly talking about her in a Discord server I'm in, I definitely think that had I made Maggie like even a few months later than I would've done she would've been nonbinary. As it stands right now though, I'm saying she's probably some form of genderweird but too busy trying not to die to think about it <3 Growing up knowing that ghosts are real and routinely being shut down by authority figures in her life about it has made her very aware of how bullshit a lot of things are and how the people who claim to be knowledgeable tend to not know what they're talking about (Beyond just the "people don't think ghosts are real", she's also got ghosts willing to tell her when people are lying because they've got nothing better to do than just gossip) , so if she spent even just a moment thinking about gender as a social construct she'd instantly recognize that and probably take up some form of genderweird label, but as it stands she's just too stressed with Being The Protagonist to think about that

Now, the thing with Margaret. I'm not even going to lie to you, I think you made a better connection to how a name connects with community in terms of the narrative themes than I did. The thing with Margaret denying the name "Maggie" existed for two reasons, the in-universe explanation is that, with the little scrap of soul Margaret has leftover from Maggie, it's essentially working overtime just to keep her vitals working, it can't dedicate time and energy to making her an individual with preferences and a personality, so part of that is that she doesn't respond to "Maggie" because ultimately, that is not her name. Her name is Margaret and she's not going to respond to "Maggie" because "Maggie" isn't her name. Of course, out of universe the reasoning is that I wanted an easy way to distinguish between Maggie as she is the protagonist, and the version of her that lived in the years she was gone, so different names makes the most sense.

I think your connection to how name relates to community genuinely works on a level I hadn't fully pieced together myself yet and I really love that because I think that absolutely works with everything. One of the main conflicts of the plot is how Maggie is entirely disconnected from her family thanks to the years she was gone, with Margaret having no priorities beyond "survive", she basically never spoke with her parents or brother for years. While her family tried to reach out to her repeatedly (Especially given that, while they're unaware the truth of what happened the night Maggie was murdered, they do know something happened, and they believe that whatever it was severely traumatized her, and that's where the sudden and drastic shift in personality came from), there's a point where they just... gave up. She wasn't trying to talk with them or contact them in the slightest, so around a year or two after Margaret moved out, her parents gave up on her. Her brother would still be there a bit, but he also didn't really... try... anymore.

When Maggie wakes up, she tries to call her parents... and they don't pick up. They'd grown resentful over the years, and now that Maggie wants to talk to them, they don't forgive her for the years of not speaking to them, and aren't interested in whatever she has to say after nearly a decade of trying to reconnect with her and being met with nothing. It's her insistence that she wants to be called Maggie that actually gets her brother to realize she's telling the truth and that something happened. She shows up at his door, already something that Margaret wouldn't have done, and that combined with her being visibly upset when he calls her Margaret and tells him that's not her and that she's Maggie, it signals to him that whatever's going on is real (...though he would've figured this out eventually, given that she also literally 17 again and not in her mid-20s, and has a giant glowing stab wound in her chest). I think it works absolutely perfectly as being a symbol of community, her disconnect from her community is what led to her being called Margaret, and her desperation to be returned to that community is when she's Maggie again. So uh. Congrats on getting the themes of my OCs better than I did <3

And uhhhh closing thoughts! I honestly did still skim over the majority of the plot (Literally never even mentioned Eli or what's going on with her stab wound </3), but I think you reeeeally hit the nail on the head with everything I'm kinda getting at with these OCs, which is... frankly wild given how little main plot I actually got at. Basically everything I mentioned in my original post was the setup, not the main plot. But waaaaugh thank you for being so niceys to me and also giving me another excuse to ramble endlessly <3

#my OCs #uhhh MAGGIE FUN FACTS: #Animals can tell when a soul is weird so she has a colony of stray cats that hang around her apartment door #she doesnt even LIKE animals that much (She barely takes care of HERSELF shes not taking care of any animals.) #but they all like her weirdass soul and keep hanging around because of it #When the plot ends she gives one of the stray cats to her parents as a 'sorry i died' gift #The cats name is Marge- named by Jenna and also specifically its 'Marge' said in a Simpsons impression. any Simpson #It's Jennas FAVORITE cat out of the strays bc she says she looks like Maggie. also Marge is a male cat #Neither Jenna nor Maggie know how to tell the difference between a male and female cat reliably so they assume Marge is female- hes not #Also Eli's the closest to the 'main antagonist' the story gets. hes an old coworker of Margarets and basically her only friend #and Maggie's too scared with her whole 'is actively dying' thing and doesnt know how to tell him 'hey im not your friend- she died' #ELI thinks that Margaret is essentially have some sort of extreme mental breakdown and is trying to get her help bc he cares about her- #-unaware that Maggie is essentially a different person and doesnt know him #anyways uhhhh Maggie attempts to beat him to death with her laptop once. sorry Eli. luckily shes 17 and scrawny as fuck- #-so he's able to throw her off of him but its still. BAD #Maggie's got INSANE insomnia for a large variety of reasons- and falls asleep on the floor one night while on her laptop #Eli- having gotten off work late and going to check on Margaret- who hasnt shown up to work in weeks and isnt answering her phone #-spots Maggie passed out on the floor and assumes shes having some sort of medical emergency #Margaret had left her spare keys at work which he'd grabbed- so he lets himself in to get her to a hospital #Only for Maggie to wake up. With a strange man in her apartment in the middle of the night. Wuh Oh ! #THIS time however- when she's home alone (shes not alone Jenna's asleep in the other room) and she spots a stranger in her house- #-she ends up with a fight reaction and NOT freeze <3 #also her full name is Margaret Elisabeth Newell and her brothers name is Hawke #one of the very few times i will give my OC a full name- and entirely bc my friend suggested her last name LMAO #also she believes in bigfoot. GHOSTS are real and theyre WAY less believable than 'big ape' so she fully believes it #Opal keeps trying to tell her no that ones ACTUALLY not real and shes like uh huh. sure. ill believe it when i see it

[m1d-45]

you understand me. you get it. creator might be having a fuckshit time but at least you can be a creature! but i’m also imagining… imagine just hanging out with your favorite characters as some kind of little animal bc sure they’d kill you if they knew you were the person they’re hunting down but pets and scritches are so nice…… worth risking your life for? yes. god yes. absolutely.

is this days late? yeag. i’ve been busy doing Things and god there are so many things to be done - teddy anon

i thought your last ask abt this was like two-three days ago but…. no…. i posted it ystderay…. huh-?

anyway you’re still so right. be a snowfox and hang out a albedo in his lab. shift into a cat and stick around the angels share. diluc let’s you stay. be a bird and fuck w the wanderer. just stay away from the narukami shrine.

like i…. if it was some sort of defense mechanism or like something you fell back on when injured…. razor following the sound of whimpering to you, an injured wolf pup, your form small in your weakened state. you can’t convince me zhongli wouldn’t help a bird with a hurt leg. beidou checks w the crew before saying yeah, kazuha can bring his friend of a stray onboard, since cats always land on their feet don’t they?

oh, and good luck on your Things!

#m1d : [chats] #m1d : [secrets] #teddy anon #oh to be a creature…… laying in my beloveds arms……….. ugh #translation it’s been way too goddamn long since you’ve had any sort of positive contact with another #if in your fear you bite at zhongli’s hand nobody can blame you; not even himself. he just picks you up gently #he wonders why he’s so insistent on helping a bird that doesn’t want to be helped but when he’s got you reasonably patched up and you trust #him a bit more he’s glad he did. being a god can get lonely and the fact that you willingly stay with him despite your unclipped wings… #or maybe ventis not allergic to you—because you’re not really a cat—and begs diluc to let him keep you because he’s never actually pet a cat #before and holy shit cat’s fur is so soft come on diluc pleaseeee? #he agrees with a sigh—he’s sad to see you go—and venti immediately takes you to whatever apartment he has that he doesn’t use #yeah he doesn’t have proper cat food or enrichment toys but it’s fineeeee he’ll figure it out (he won’t) #you end up eating cooked fish for like the next two and a half weeks while he convinces diona yes he actually does have a cat and yes he #genuinely does want the best for said cat so please just believe him and tell him what he needs to get. he’s so confused. what’s catnip. #oh to be a creature……. laying in the arms of my beloved….

[biteapple]

i really fuckin hate my current roommate situation for multiple reasons. one of which is due to him deciding to quit her job immediately after i moved down here i had to be the only leaseholder with a secret roommate situation. and now. their gate system is changing and uses an app to open the gate with a verified occupant's phone number. fuuuuck im like banging my head against the wall

#ordinarily i wouldnt mind a secret roommate situation but its to the point with this guy that i have to handle everything on top of this #and he does not like me all the while. and it sucks so bad #this whole venture down here has been really chaotic and messed up #i cant imagine them ONLY using the app. like. what if my phone dies when im out and i live alone right? #i just gotta call them tomorrow and ask. but it just blows to have to worry about this #in the wake of them deciding to quit his job immediately after i moved in with her #like we talked about them quitting his job before i moved in but i didnt realize it'd be for..... so long. so long. #so long that i had to get us a new apartment that he didnt want to make any input in with #she just wanted me to handle it #and when i broke my foot and was homebound i had to move us both out and repair the previous place up #and after a few months of living here in the new place where we had plans to travel out together and make texas temporary.... #she ghosted me for 4 months (WE LIVE TOGETHER?) and then went ''yeah i wasnt being fair to you this isnt working.. - #-i dont like your cats and didn't realize how much i valued living alone'' #thanks. im being ditched here. what am i supposed to do now #sorry for always talking about this shit. its my current life situation rn. its not nearly as bad as i've been through but it just sucks

[joyridingmp3]

boss just sat me down and basically asked what's wrong with me again

#i went home sick last friday and i guess someone said i did something wrong at work #when im 99% sure i didn't?? #anyway. they also think I've been quieter lately #i feel bad. im mad because of the whole situation with my shitty coworker #but my boss slipped up and said 'we're friends - well. sorry. we're not /friends/ I'm your boss but -' #so clearly he views me as a friend but is trying to set professional boundaries #I just feel guilty #i don't even know why this is getting to me so much #i guess it feels like someone just listed off all of the things I'm doing wrong and pointed them out to me #and that paired with the fact that I was caught off guard by it #i hate being caught off guard #idk #anyway the apartment cat came over to hang out for a bit but she was distant #so the perceived rejection really hit me #i swear to god i don't realise how insane i am til i write all this out #anyway. i don't have any drugs left other than some random opioids #which is basically russian roulette #in terms of dosage because they're all wildly different #so I'll probably stay sober tonight #which is for the best :/ #if I want to wake up on time to work tomorrow #it's not even anything. im mostly just trying to avoid my creepy shitty coworker #but i can't say that! so i guess everyone just thinks i hate them noe #now* #and they probably all secretly hate me #since he said that a few people have mentioned that I've been quieter lately #so I'm not even doing a good job putting up my ♪~ ᕕ(ᐛ)ᕗ facade #which is like. my only skill and asset #anyway. time to think about dying and never eat again ig #mine

[orcelito]

Honestly hate how hard it is to start writing again when you've gone too long without it. Like for fuck's sake man Why's shit gotta be like this

#speculation nation #daydreaming of the early discacc days when i wrote 70k words in 3 weeks. those were the days... #im just... so tired and wrung out and everything is so fucking hard #im barely even Doing anything besides working. my apartment is in horrible shape rn. #what is it about grief that makes life so hard to live man. you lose a cornerstone to your life and suddenly everything is in shambles #and i know he wouldnt have wanted this for me. for me to be Barely functioning bc my brain has been so bad in response #im alive im going to work im feeding myself and showering every day #but i havent been doing the dishes i havent taken out the trash theres Stuff all over my floors and cat messes i havent cleaned #and i dont have the energy for any of it. i get home i eat and then i climb into bed. rinse and repeat. #im just... tired. im so very tired. #i keep wanting to turn to my hobbies to cope with things but it's so fucking hard to stick to #constantly oscillating between manic moods where i think i can finally start moving on (but i dont have the focus to do writing) #and depressive moods where Good Fuckin Luck doing anything besides laying in bed #if you couldnt tell im in the second boat right now. in bed as we speak. and so i shall remain until it's time to go to work #at least ive been going to the woods almost every chance i get. it hasnt given me the power to write but it's been good for me i think #get out of the apartment. experience nature. pick up a snail. you know how it goes. #i kinda feel bad for entering a fandom and trying to dig out a place for myself and Kind Of succeeding #i have a good handful of followers. people who wanna see more of my analysis and fanfic #but i havent posted anything significant in like a month bc i have belonged to the void. all month. #losing family will do that to a person i guess. doesnt stop me from being frustrated though. #negative/

[graysongraysoff]

I feel like a bad cat mom my baby deserves better 😭

#my apartment will feed/check on your cat for free while you're traveling #i only booked them for the 24th and 25th bc i was getting home today #and last time i booked them for the day i came home they ended up coming by like after i had already gotten home and was eating dinner lol #but then my flight got delayed 😔 so i didn't get home until late tonight #and i emailed them at like 1:00 when i first found out my flight was going to be delayed asking if they could check on him #but i should have called #anyway when i got home he had gotten into a bag of his treats bc he was hungry and i feel so bad 😭 #(he might also smell my step-mom's kitties on me he is giving me big 'welcome home cheater' energy) #i'm so sorry yooj 😭 #yuji tag

[crescentmp3]

sudden images of my childhood (7yo) house for some reason

#i do miss it there! it was a rented apartment with a little garden and we lived at the bottom floor. #we had five cats at the time - one mother‚ four kittens #i've told about them here before but i do have newer mutuals and followers... #it was about to be winter‚ and my mom forgot to close the kitchen's window one night. #then a cat‚ colored mostly white with tabby and orange spots‚ her eyes green‚ decided to walk in and own the place forever #mom could not get her out she found a way back in each time. #eventually we adopted her‚ which made little me very delighted. the cat did not like me #little me was quite reckless with cats though which is fair to the cat for not liking me in exchange. #we had nicknamed her anne kedi‚ translated as mother cat‚ on assumption of her probably being a mom #the nickname stuck so that was just her name now. #then‚ one day - aha! she was pregnant. mom cat indeed #some while later‚ it was a delightful summer night. little me was asleep in his little bed‚ trying and failing to fall asleep on account - #- of insomnia probably. #then‚ out of nowhere - whats that? its kitten mews! #i thought nothing of it‚ assuming it was coming from outside in my sleepy state‚ and fell asleep. #the morning after i woke up to mom cat protecting her little kitties from me and my mom petting mom cat #there were four! they were all wonderous little creatures. #one was named şeker (sugar)‚ he had the same colorings as his mom but had blue eyes. he was playful and cuddly and would fall asleep - #- instantly if you dared let him hop onto your lap. #one was named zeki (smart)‚ he was a tabby with green eyes‚ and he was a little man. did not live up to his name #one was named maskeli (masked/with a mask)‚ a tuxedo cat who looked like he had a mask on and had green eyes. he was much the same as - #- zeki‚ but more explorative #zeki and maskeli would play ball with snail shells putside #the last one was the only girl between her brothers - kömür (coal)‚ a nearly-black cat with a white little stomach and lava orange eyes. #she hated everyone (her siblings) and would sunbathe. she didn't like to play a lot unless you dare bring a string into her presence #then she was a monster. a cute one at that #they were all very dear to me but due to our Landlord (derogatory) we had to move away and we couldn't bring them with us. #little me cried a lot! #it /was/ roughly eight years ago so my memories of them are indeed blurred. but i still loved them! thats for very sure #♚ — rambling !

[fizzlehead]

do you guys think i should steal the outdoor cat that’s been roaming around my apartment complex and just keep her in my apartment. know that if even one person says yes i will probably do it

#she very clearly belongs to someone like she has a flea collar on (with no information on it mind you). but she’s just been like #running around the parking lot and hiding under cars and we’re right next to a really busy road!! and she keeps coming up to my #screen door and meowing and if i go out on the patio she’ll sit with me for like an hour at a time and if i walk outside sometimes she #comes running to me :-((( she’s like the sweetest cat I’ve ever met and she should not be roaming the parking lot!!! yesterday she was #fully asleep in the MIDDLE of the parking lot I had to pick her up and move her into the grass #i’ve already named her. and we’re bonded at this point i don’t know that i can live without her (it’s been 3 days). she’s my best friend #one of my neighbors has already told me i should keep her. if it weren’t for my sister’s cat she would be in my apartment already. #but im considering it anyways. i could make it work #also like i don’t necessarily WANT to steal someone’s cat but as far as im concerned if you choose to have an outdoor cat yoh surrender all #ownership of thag animal. if someone decides they want to take your outdoor cat and keep her inside and give her a safe life that’s their #cat now. you don’t have a cat anymkre. maybe try again when you learn how to take care of animals #anyways uhmmmm. this is my situation. i have not been able to think about anything else for 3 days because I’m so worried about her getting #hit by a car or something. so at this point stealing her would be for my own mental well-being. but also i definitely should not do this. so #OH ALSO. there’s a second cat that also definitely belongs to the same person that i discovered last night when I was looking for the first #cat. and I definitely cannot steal both of them. so keep that information in mind when you are giving me your final decisions. #maybe I could steal both of them. this is ruining my #life #taylor xoxo

[rocketonthemoon]

I have had. The fucking worst weekend. And the cherry on top is the flat tire I’m staring at right now. Any good thoughts would be super appreciated y’all

#Status Update #fucking bolt down your fiberglass truckbed tops #because someone’s gunna hit it on the highway after it flies off and then I’m stuck hitting the remains #my apartment ac’s out my roommate peaced out and left me with no warning to take care of our cat #my cat now #it’s supposed to get to 100F tomorrow and I’m already over budget this month #and everything’s fine cause I have support but god is it just a fucking lot #so y’all. good vibes would be stellar y’all l

[slippery-minghus]

it's funny, i spent extra on this trip to stay a forth night thinking it would actually let me relax. and like yeah, it certainly meant i didn't feel rushed, but... i really am looking forward to going home

#though maybe that's the point of a good vacation? #you go and have your fun and then you realize you actually enjoy your little life and get a bit homesick? #and then when you go back you're both a bit refreshed and also thankful to be back to your normal things? #idk. i haven't slept this well in months (thanks to the walls at home getting violent) but i also miss being home #i'm still a ball of anxiety but at least at home i know what kind of trouble happens around my apartment #here in the snow in the middle of nowhere i KNOW nothings gonna happen but at night every time i look at a window #i can't help but expect there to be a fucking face in the dark looking at me #at least at home it's just homeless folks in acute mental distress to worry about #i'd feel much better here with a guard cat like my old lady sady #when things DID come out of the dark she was always there at the sliding glass door ready to fight #it's funny that i'm even looking forward a little bit to going back to work on monday #with the unpredictability of the weather there's a slight chance i won't be able to go home tomorrow #if the roads aren't clear enough i'll have to crash at a hotel and wait it out #but i'm pretty sure it'll be fine #personal

[drawnecromancy]

one thing i find very funny about my dad is that he will listen to me ramble about stuff he does not care about. he was very surprised when i told him that you CAN train cats to do tricks (because he does not like cats and avoids interacting with them), and kind of impressed when i told him a friend of mine actually teaches her elderly cat a bunch of tricks because said cat gets Bored easily.

it's the little things, you know ?

#also before someone goes 'wah red flag your dad doesnt like cats' #he's not mean to them. #he's allergic and heavily used to dogs and Cannot Decipher Cat Language #so cats mostly just make him easily annoyed and he'd rather just leave them alone #and would much prefer being left alone by them #he's lived with a cat before bc my mom had one for a while before my grandparents took her (long story) #he was the only one who did not freak out when the cat got stuck in impossibly high places #and is the one who would pick her up from the 3rd floor of their apartment building to get her back home #because he was like. ah yes. my girlfriend's cat. she likes the cat #i'm helping the cat #also the cat was called El Sushi #no idea why that combination of words passed through my mom's mind

[sugardoodle]

I have 2 days to decide whether or not to spay my accidental new cat before she has her babies. She's like, t-minus 7ish days until birth so I have no idea what I should do. Like they might be viable at this point so it feels more like euthanizing an entire litter than just terminating a pregnancy. Like you can feel them moving and kicking if you touch her belly. I've been dying the past 3 days over this decision but I'm almost out of time.

Also if anyone thinks to berate me for allowing her to get pregnant, you can go kick rocks, because I brought her in from outside over a month ago since she was a stray and it was almost winter. She came like that so it's not my fault, and they couldn't get me in for a spay any sooner because of the high demand for the low cost clinic. It was originally scheduled for December 1st but I wasn't sure if she'd still be pregnant at that point, so they were able to get me on the cancelation list. But not as soon as I wanted and now I'm in a pickle.

I dont regret bringing her inside at all, but I do wish I'd been able to just fork over the couple hundred extra it would have cost to have her spayed at my actual vet rather than waiting for the clinic to have a spot. But now if I decide to back out and let her raise the kittens, itll cost that much anyways to have them all fixed and chipped and vaxxed and whatnot. So it didn't matter much in the end, ig? Unless I can live with myself if I make the decision to have the babies aborted. Which in humans like, your body your choice. But this cat can't make any choices so it's on ME to decide FOR her and she would probs be fine either way since she's an animal. But I'm having a problem with it so UGH what do I DO now.

#sorry to randomly vent on your dash but im so stressed out #genuinely idk what decision to make here. its crushing me to consider having the babies terminated when theyre basically days from birth #but can i afford to take care of them? like i have savings but i live month to month so im not exactly adding to it rn #and what if i cant find homes for all of them?? #i live in an apartment and this second (theoretically) temporary cat is ALREADY against the lease #they probably wouldnt ever find out but what would i do if they did. idk how long id be stuck with a million cats #what if my fridge breaks and maintenance tells on me and i end up with days to rehome them or get evicted #or something idk i havent lived on my own for very long. maybe im overreacting on that point #my heart says let them live but my brain says that theres already an overpopulation problem and its more financially responsible to spay #esp since im somehow supposed to pay for next semester when i forgot to fill out the FAFSA for another loan #now THAT i cannot afford. and this would make it even worse #you are free to put opinions in the replies btw. its only fair if youve read this far already tbh