#go hug someone you love guys

[crescentfool]

having the hc that minato is ace is incredibly funny sometimes when you think about how ryoji is oh so very bi because it's like. "ah. death stole my ability to be attracted to people," in the same way that ryoji stole minato's eye color and energy level. like wow, thanks ryoji, you just keep finding things to steal from minato!

#persona 3 spoilers #minato arisato #hc and au nonsense #lizzy speaks #happy international asexuality day to my fellow aces out there i hope you know that you are loved!!! 🎊🎉🥳 #i like viewing minato with the lens of him being gay / ace. esp bc it stems from my own experiences so it's fun to look at- #him from that perspective even if that's not what was intended by atlus y'know? #and im sure others have other hcs from me that are informed by their own life experiences and i think that's great ^_^ #something that i found interesting while playing FES was how. stilted? minato's animations felt when hugging the girls #you could definitely go with the perspective that it's a graphical limitation or they didn't have time to polish the animations #and that's def true!! but sometimes i see the hug @ yakushima beach + the other hugs and then i compare it to the sou/yo hug in p4 #and there's like... a noticeable difference to me with how intimate and close together the hugs are... #that said i do know that the animations for reload are updated and the hugs are much more natural (good on them tbh!) #the other thing is (pensive sigh). the way you couldn't reject any of the girls when doing their social links in FES #objectively speaking i'm glad that they did away with that and i like how the rejections were handled in reload. it feels naturally written #but also a part of me enjoyed looking at the “hey atlus what the FUCK” moment and thought of how to interpret it differently #specifically with the idea of minato having like.. little to no autonomy and kind of going along with the relationship #it kind of reminded me of myself tbh with like going along with the rship without considering what you want bc #it's what others want or expect out of you... LOL. i dont think atlus intended for someone to interpret it this way but #eh i think that's the fun part of hcs and looking at characters with certain lenses! #regardless of how you perceive minato i do think there's something to be said about him being the kind of guy who molds himself- #into someone that is needed. not wanted. but needed. important distinction here. #the one caveat my brain runs into when im like “minato is ace!” is when i remember thanatos exists and i go #“you know what these ideas can exist simultaneously” GKLHFHDFHD when in doubt schrodinger's headcanons #anyway that's all i've had this thought in my brain in awhile and haven't sat down to share it properly until now 👍 #have an excellent weekend everyone !!! lizzy loves you all lets all nurture our inner yippee!!! 🥺💙

[navree]

i’m willing to give seward a pass for being somewhat unhelpful while van helsing is having his king laugh minor meltdown because in the space of like five days this man has been stabbed, tried and failed to save the life of someone he loves, is running on what appears to be four hours of sleep total, is grieving, also trying to comfort a friend who is grieving, had to help deal with the after death stuff like lucy’s mom’s batshit inheritance and the funeral, and i don’t know if anyone other than van helsing has even so much as tried to give him a hug 

#personal #dracula daily #jack seward #you guys KNOW that i love him he's my son #someone give him a hug!!! #he's going through it!!!! he has BEEN going through it!! #has anyone even redressed the fucking stab wound from when he was FUCKING STABBED

[tricksterlatte]

It always makes me sad whenever stories with hopeful messages or lighthearted moments are sometimes dismissed as unintelligent or weaker than tragedies. Isn't joy and hope what makes a dark journey worthwhile? Not every story needs an unhappy ending to serve as a lesson.

I will forever be a fan of stories that say hey, maybe the world is a rough place, and it will always be this way, but you can make a difference with the people who matter to you. Even if no one else will know, even if no one else will remember, the ones you loved, and who loved you in return, will remember. People who are holding onto you, even at the end of everything else. People who remind you that new beginnings are born from the ashes.

My favorite stories will always end with love, hope, and the sun rising on the horizon after hell and high waters. The world can be so cruel, but we can choose not to be as individuals. Joy is as human as anger and sorrow. Joy is what we reach for when we are at our lowest, whether we realize it or not. We want what was lost back. I love stories where the characters reach the light at the end of the tunnel, emerge on the other side, and are allowed to heal. Even if they’ve done bad things, even if they aren’t perfect, isn’t that true of all of us?

#Parker says things #writing stuff #I’ve been going through some big changes this year and honestly every year up til this point #I’m tired. but I’m healing. I like writing about similar #I’m damaged. I’m flawed. I’m a little broken. but I can still be good #I can still seek light after everything that’s happened #this time last year I was writing out of desperation. putting something out there in case I didn’t make it #but I made it. I’m still here. even if I flubbed along the way #i spent a lot of time hating the person I was this time last year? now I just want to hug him #he’s gonna be okay. kinda funny the stuff I wrote to stay alive led me to someone who changed my life for the better #and I changed for the better too? special thanks to my clown frogs and my Kanonno squad #I don’t talk about stuff and idk if you guys are seeing this but just know you mean a lot to me #it’s late and I’m rambling but reading and writing about light in the darkness led me to my own light #so I’m going to keep at it #thank you especially to Nyx. don’t know where I’d be without you but I love you so much #tricksterlatte writes #this is sentimental but I don’t care #expanded version of a post from bird app

[altruistic-meme]

yeag. i very badly need a local support system.

#i wish i knew how to make friends 😭 #bc i need. a hug. i need. someone to come over and sit with me. #i need someone to lay on the couch with me and tell me im okay #i need someone to drag my ass out to do something bc the thoughts are heavy #and i!!! dont have that!!!! #and it sucks #like. even the closest thing i HAVE to a local support system is. mybsisters. #and ive said here how thats gone for me #(none of them comfort me. none of them are ever actually THERE for me when i need it most. #none of them go out of their way to make sure im okay. none of them do anything even when i tell them im not.) #so uhhhh yeah. #i love my online friends dont get me wrong yall are awesome and i would not be here if it werent for the support #and tbqh distractions i get drom you guys #but it is.... different. #sigh #shh ac #im just rambling dont mind this #seriously shut up

[boxwinebaddie]

is there a reason as to why jers really did NOT like being called sweetheart?

okay, hmmm.

i think it's because he finds it...Condescending?

honey, sweetheart, angel, baby...

they're all terms of endearment, but jersey only does infearment, ergo: getting cutesy-woosty, fuzzy-wuzzy lil pet names from people, specifically adults, make him feel like you are likening him to a weak, helpless domesticated animal that's meant to submit to you, infantilizing/inferiorizing him the way you would petulant child or a blubbering baby, that you're praising him but secretly patronizing him...that you're basically belittling and looking down on him.

...when in reality, you're literally just trying to be Nice.

jersey played basketball all through high school, so he knows ALL about offense and defense, or rather:

being offensive and defensive.

like, at the grocery store, if the old checkout lady is like "do you want a bag for that, honey?" <3 kyle is like She Thinks I'm Not Strong Enough To Carry My Groceries ( aka apartment groceries that kyle is not even going to eat anyways, rip jersey's ed ) and will carry 7 huge bags to the car, huffing and puffing, cussing her out.

tldr: no matter how many times you fill the glass, jersey kyle's is always half full -- when it's not Empty -- which it usually is because again, jersey doesn't drink anything but water or red wine. he covets cynicism, thinks everyone is secretly out to get him/preying on his downfall and that no good deed goes unpunished.

more than that...jersey’s never had a Reason to be soft.

he's a machine. he doesn't know what to do with his fingers when they aren't curled around a pencil or fashioned into a fist. he doesn't think he was made to do soft things. sentimental things. to him, being gentle & loving were meant for kind people. the kind of people,

...who can love things.

and jersey does not think he can love things.

again, it's part of the jersey can't say i love you ask meme, that i think i'm just going to slowly distribute through these other ask meme answers, but i am of the belief that sixth grade pre!rm jersey either told stan he loved him and then stan died the next day or that jersey kyle was abt to tell stan he loved him and then he died...

either way...i think that traumatized the Fuck out of him.

so he was, one, never told i love you by his father...ever, doesn't think that he's meant to love things because he's a unfeeling cyborg whose only purpose in life is to Succeed, love makes you vulnerable which makes you weak which disgusts him. but mainly: he'd stopped believing in love full stop after he lost his stanley marsh...

...but now his stanely marsh is back.

and kyle's whole world is in color again.

once jerseykyle and ravenstan start dating, and even, i think, during the period of time when kyle thinks he has a crush on raven of c.d., finds that his heart, which was hard for so long...is softening. he had no reason to be kind or gentle, but now...wants to be soft and gentle.

for stan.

( he is very touch tank by quinnie coded )

like kyle doesn't care about other people or how they're handled or mishandled, but if stan even frowns, kyle is like cracking his knuckles and looking around before checking on him in the cute gentle ky vc.

someone asked me if kyle's ptsd goes after after he gets stan back, and yes...and no. it gets better, tbh i think taking the clozapine actually made his psychosis worse so when he got off that things were better, but getting stan back unlocked a new fear which is...

that constantly in danger of losing stan again.

so sometimes in the middle of the night if stan gets up to get a glass of water or pick up more cat food for curb, if kyle wakes up and sees stan not there, it'll trigger like a full blown panic attack where he's like "ohgodohgodohgod!! none of this was Real i just fucking hallucinated stan, this whole thing was a lie, stan is gone, stan is dead!! sTAN???"

and thinks he imagined the whole thing/stan is GONE again, start like yelling his name, freaking the fuck out, totally breaking down and stan just comes out of the kitchen w/ his glass and then immediately drops it and runs over like "ky, did you think i was gone again? :(" like putting a blanket over him and holding his face and giving him one million thousand kisses like "shhshhshh it's okay, calmate, cariño. </3 i’m here. i'm not going anywhere. you're safe. go back to sleep...

I Would Never Leave You."

wHICH! V SICK N TWISTED THAT STAN LEFT!! DURING THE RAVESEY DIVORCE!!! KYLES ONE TRUE FEAR!!!!!!

KILL ME

but we are not going to be miserable this ask meme!

we are going to be lovely and kind because that's how kyle is when him and stan start dating like...WHEN I TELL YOU NO ONE HAS LOVED ANYONE MORE THAN JERSEY LOVES RAVEN!!!!!

like nobody! No! ONE! NO!!!! ONE!!!!

like idc idc idc if he can't say i love you, he has trauma, and the literal trauma of losing stan is a large reason why he can't say it, but also the reason why kyle is so Attached to stan when they're dating is bc when kyle thought stan was dead he thought that he was gone forever...so now he's committed to spend every second with stan like it's his last and spend his life loving him.

ugh, i just...kyle would do ANYTHING for stan.

like he's so sweet and soft in a way he isn't with Anyone.

when stan was getting sober from alcohol and he was throwing up nonstop, fucking crying and dying with his matted hair sticking to his forehead from how much he was sweating/how feverish he was, literally shaking, so fucking miserable w/ his face pressed into the toilet seat like "kyle, i can't fucking do this. i'm not strong enough. i feel like i'm going to die. i can't i can't i CANT." :((( kyle was just like gently gliding his thumb over stan's cheek like "you can do this. you survived so much more than this. i know it hurts now, but i'm here. and i will be with you every step of the way." and kisses his forehead.

and when i tell you kyle's fear of contamination and his intense ocd has him washing his hands and spraying you with bear mace if you even breathe near him, it doesn't matter when it's stan. like he loves and cares about stan so much that he does not give a shit what happens to him or weird fluids or being sick and i'm...AAAAAAAA!

or like omg, speaking of stan getting sober, those first couple of concerts after stan stops drinking and has to do raven things or preform in front of thousands of people, he used to do shots and have to drink a lot to be comfortable out there, so he has huge panic attacks sober. and kyle just reassures him from off stage and squeezes his hand, blows a kiss & sticks his tongue out.

FR EVEN HANGING OUT WITH THEIR FRIENDS!!! bebe and tweek and kenny and craig and marj and jimmy are all on the couch and kyle and is like "baby, will you find the colander in the kitchen please?" and stan is like *squints in dyslexia* but is like "okay, be right back" but then kyle is like "wait you forgot something" and gives stan a little kiss AND EVERYONE IS LIKE "wAit yOu fOrgOt SoMEthiNg" and kyle is like "yEAH HAHAAHA REAL FUNNY ASSHOLES!!!! ITS GONNA BE REAL HARD TO LAUGH W/ YA TEETH ON THE FLOO--"

but stops midword bc stan makes a tiny whining sound like "kyyyy? i'm so sorry, but i can't find it." and kyle's face immediately softens and he's like "stan, what did i say about apoloizin' when you don't need to? i’ll be right there, sweetheart. <3" and everyones like i'LL bE RiGh-- and kyles like “tRY IT AGAIN, IDIOTS!!! SEE WHAT HAPPENS SEE--oh god, stan, don't cry!" :'c *races over*

girls, gays and theys!!! my sons are in LOOOVEEE!!! ;-;;;;

but yeah, no, when ravesey starts #hating, kyle calls stan sweetheart like alllll the time, all the little cutesy-wutzy, fuzzy-fuzzy nicknames that he claimed to hate because stan just makes his heart so warm. also jersey kyle saying "baby" in the jersey accent??? like saying sweetheart, baby, honey...I KNOW IT SOUNDS CUTE!!!

( ky does also call ravenstan zeeskeit and stan does call jersey mi sabelotodo like in his letter, btw xx )

okay, last thing, is that honestly learning how to love things and being vulnerable and soft is how he realized he wanted to be a guidance counsellor and provide support to kids like him who didn't have it growing up/being gentle with them and patient and nurturing.

the post!rm soft kyle psychology major/elem guidance counsellor era is my faaav like his character development is CRAZY!!

my comfort television shows are say yes to the dress and masterchef (which means that kyle's favorite comfort tv shows are them) and kyle is so gordon ramsey coded in that with all the adults he's screaming at them, calling them worthless and idiot sandwiches, but with kids he just like kneels all the way down and speaks sweetly to them and is like "i'm not leaving until you laugh" <3

like i think a little girl is in there one time ( i think it might be nova, who is the ravesey kid bc i had them adopt one of kyle's troubled guidance counsellor children...also she looks like this, yes i made her look like havana rose liu because i'm obsessed with her. she's a qt )

but yes, so a little girl starts crying in kyle's office and he's like patting her on the back like "it's okay to cry. don't be embarrassed -- look." then pulls out his phone and points to his lock screen and its stan in a black cd tee-shirt with all the tattoos and piercings and eyeliner in like a pair of ripped skinny jeans and the combat boots.

then jers is like "okay, so this is my boyfriend. and he cries alllll the time. over very silly things." and is like "like, the otha day we were goin' to the store and he saw this tiny little dog, even tinier than you, and she was wearin' this pink sweater and he started crying...bc he thought she was cute. like full waterworks, everything." and the little girl starts laughing and he's like "there we go! c': see, it's all gonna to be okay, my friend. take a piece of candy on your way out. see you later." and fist bumps her bUT SHE HUGS HIM AND HE'S LIKE AAA

anyways...actual angel jersey kyle...my beloved.

-uncle nina, who is leaking out of her eyeballs

#i am the jersey kyle being the softest person in rm secretly agenda #i will always be in the trenches for jersey i love him so bad #no one has loved anyone as fiercely or endlessly #than jersey loves raven like jersey kyle is a SIMP #its v unserious like i love when goth boot stan is like my feet hurt and kyles like stan i told u not to wear those and carries him anyways #like smh...does anyone hear a whip cracking #but no kyle jut doesnt like pet names bc he thinks ur looking down on him bc his brain is all hardwired for attack #but when him and stan start dating he just gets really soft and gentle and loving and idk hes really nice to little kids #its so nice i love u kyle hes so cute #i know that little girl hugged him and he sat in his office smiling for a long time and texted stan like AAAA STAN GUESS WHAT AWWW #anyways they are gay! move along! #sorry this is kind of written insanely i am very tired have like 145 asks and i am busy at work so if its spelled or worded weird #thats just the way its gotta be guys i'm sorry #my fav thing is ky verbally evsicerating someone like stopping to kiss stan on the cheek AND THEN GOING BACK LMAOO #“LETS GET ONE THING STRAIGHT AHOLE I AM GOING TO” “hi baby <33 i missed you” “AND ANOTHER THING BITCH!!!” #he is my hero lol #MY BABY MY BABY MY BAAAABY ;-; #stan on the kitchen counter while kyle cooks and hes like stan get off the counter get the fuc--baby will you please get off the counter? #like ur so cute ur distracting me ( but like totally lets him stay and feeds him all the little veggies n stands between his legs ) #they are so cute i am fucking sick

[angelguk]

About you not having any storylines to write, what about exploring alternate genres or newer characters or original characters. Maybe you can try reading again (that is if you don't do it already) and exploring newer styles and genres of stories to inspire you. Just a thought lol

U r so wonderful anonnie! I'm currently reading cleopatra and Frankenstein which is definitely inspiring. As for storylines I think I would maybe do more original characters if anyone would be interested in reading them. I just (literally not even an hour ago) experienced the worst heartbreak from someone I'm still in love with but I told him I hate him on his brothers wedding and now it's really over

#guys how do you make someone love you again #I'm going crazy I live with him #I just want to hug him and breath him in right now #I can't even cry #cause I'm hungry and he's in the kitchen talking to our other roommate #my life is ridiculous #sorry I'm ranting

[mars-ipan]

“humans are inherently selfish because it’s in our nature to only look out for ourselves” shut the FUCK up even if by “ourselves” you mean “other humans” you’re fucking wrong and trying to find excuses to be cynical so your misery is justified to you

ahem. sorry. got ahead of myself

anyways humans (and animals in general) do this little thing called mutualism where we make friends with another species basically. this is how we domesticated dogs. and cats. and basically every domesticated animal. when dogs were wolves they easily coulda killed us and vice versa but we both recognized that we could be stronger together so we worked together and now we have little animal companions we keep with us. when people used canaries to measure co2 in coal mines they built boxes to seal the canary from the co2 and connect it to an oxygen tank so it wouldn’t suffocate. we rehome bugs instead of squishing them. people see squirrels on the street and smile. we pack bond motherfucker it’s like a huge part of what got us to be the Big Species we wouldn’t be here if we didn’t love not only each other but also every living creature on this planet

love is human nature and human nature is love Do You Understand

#marzirants #you WILL recognize the inherent compassionate nature of the world and you WILL smile #and yes even with this love we have the capacity for violence. if you have a pet and you wouldn’t go john wick for them you’re a liar #it’s called devotion #anyways back to my main point #humans pack bond super super hard #it’s why we take care of plants and smile at animals and play with fish #and get so happy when we learn that rats giggle when they’re being tickled #i could give examples forever you understand #it is literally in human nature to look at a little guy (any shape and size) and fall in love #we are so full of love. that we sew and make little soft creatures that we can hug so hard #so we can express that excess love without killing an animal #and also because they bring us comfort and joy #WE HAVE A WHOLE HORMONE THATS MAIN PURPOSE IS TO REWARD YOU FOR CARING ABOUT SOMEONE #OXYTOCIN. THE FUCKING HUG HORMONE. WE’RE ADORABLE WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT #look. are there bad things in the world? yes. is the world unjust? cruel even? yes. #but to blame it on ‘human nature’ not only prevents real change from happening and shielfs you from responsibility for your inaction #but is also just fucking insulting to actual human nature #we love. we are loved. this is human nature #if you’re loveless then i’m talking about compassion and the desire to look out for each other #‘love’ is just what i’m using as shorthand for that. i mean kindness #anyways *gripping you by the shoulders* do you understand. humans care that is our one consistent thing we care for everything

[savage-rhi]

🙌🏻

#I gotta get over some bullshit #if I see you wrote something #i am liking and reblogging on sight #if you worked your ass off on a thing #it deserves to be shared #and as someone that struggles with sharing their shit #i gotta do better #cause most of the stuff i see on here by mutuals #needs to be passed around #and this bitch right here needs to put in more effort to be like #LOOK AT WHAT MY FRIEND DID #we should all be encouraging #and reblog at least once #and god damn it like it #cause in this house we love peeps when they're creative and in the fucking zone #even if they're going to town on a blorbo #🙌🏻💯💙🫂 #i love you guys btw #and im tired af and dealing with pain #but take a cyber hug #i would give you a slice of butterscotch pie that i made today if i could

[dodgebolts]

nearly 250 responses already \o/ dtblr really is alive and well

#hi everyone who's been leaving me kind messages or just ranting in the extra parts section I love u all #also rwrb person I have a really cool fic for u there's an amazing dn.f au stars snobs and aristocratic stripes it's SO good I recommend it #drea.mbur main u and I are holding hands I love them both dearly #there is also someone looking for competitive league (as in LOL) friends so if you are send me an ask so I can connect u guys #kar.lnap anon u have my condolences I live near the american dream mall that jimmy went to and I regret not going so much 🫂 <- a hug for u

[heterochromicnachos]

FUCK I MISSED MY BOY’S BIRTHDAY OH SHIT I MEAN I CANT BE TOO MAD I WAS BEDRIDDEN BUT STILL *SOBBING*

*SLAMS DOWN A BAD DOODLE*

HAPPY (BELATED) BIRTHDAY YOU FUCKING MORON /POS /AFF

GOOD JOB BEING SEXY OR SOMETHING I DUNNO IM AROACE

#cross sans #xtale cross #x tale #underverse #my art #doodle #happy birthday cross sans #even though I’m a day late #hey who cares #this man needs more love god dammit #someone drag me away from this guy before I hug him so hard his ribs crack #nacho talks #nacho talks while sick #nacho needs to go back to bed #which I will do #have fun #also friendly reminder #just liking a post doesn’t let more people see it #this is tumblr not twitter #so reblogs are appreciated and I will scream with happiness if you do #/Pos #/nm

[m0e-ru]

just watched chaircar adventure. again. biggest smile on my face for seven minutes straight until my cheeks started hurting too much I had to stop and massage it physically. would say a million things about it. me when I'm full of love.

#kommento #// I love masamisan so much I need to kill tohruadachi right now. these statements can coexist btw #// flashes the rest of the vl duology in my head at 7x speed so I can feel everything else at once oh my godd whathe fuck giuys #// I hate gay people oh my god nobody should put me in that theater I would make ten thousand standing ovations and cheer raceously #// I love stageplay so much I started crying when I heard the music no joke man guy who cries to gay manzai skit #// this is the part where I watch it eleven times and nitpick the acting and breathing and character and actor chemistry and cry again #// I miss my gas station so much guys you don't understand <- still crhing #// I need to be a mangaka making promotional material for their manga while it gets adapted into anime and breathe keyart like #// everyday like my life depends on it.cafe collab in my head cmonguys wear the apron put on the fucking cat ears already LET'S GO LET'S GO #// I need to draw ambiguous ink art of people hugging and make every fan in the vicinity doubt the on-going currently releasing plot #// 'are they going to die. are they going to kiss.' I don't know either guys. put this in a daily account without context and a broken link #// you thought this was only about blorbo. im a fucking expert at MACRO thinking bro. #// now imagine if i was the english localization casting director. imagine if I was the merch supervisor. the REAL alternate universes #// I wish I loved media so much I could create with careless abandon again. I have been missing things for months when they're RIGHT THERE #// but they are so distant at the same time. someone hold my hand and watch chair car adventure with me in the same room please. one day.

[timeisacephalopod]

Lmao @ supernatural for stopping the writing in of so many brother fucking jokes after they learned some fans enjoyed the brother fucking 😂😂😂. Seriously you can watch the 'haha isn't it funnie that people mistake these brothers for a gAy couple' jokes die off the more selfaware the show is of the wincest ship 😂😂😂

of course they could have avoided this by not writing Sam and Dean into a weird amount of romantic tropes For Joaks and not making brother fuckin jokes every 2 episodes but you know.

#winters ramblings #this show is so homophobic its homoerotic and its SO homoerotic for something trying desperately for it not to be #this show is a hilarious and terrifying romp through the Perils of Toxic Masculinity and mens insecurities and damn #someone give men a hug yall are so desperate for affection from each other but terrified itll be read as gay #that sucks bro #also lmfao when you write brother into Funny Romantic Comedy Style jokes dont be shocked when fans go hmm #just fuckin saying You Guys killed off all their love interests except cas

[jemmo]

takara-kun to amagi-kun is an actual work of comedy genius

#and at the same time is so fluffy and cute #but also at the same time is one of the best portrayals of young love esp in this high school setting #everything about their relationship feels new like it really is a first #but also in a very specific gay way like the keeping things lowkey the distance they have to maintain with their separate friendship groups #the longing stares and the innocent smiles and waved and takara looking away so that he doesn’t ruin his cool guy image by getting blushy #the simplicity but absolute pure joy of walking home together holding hands and sharing hugs #that kind of contact that you very specifically you only get from a romantic partner and they’re slowly exploring it #takara being just the best in respect of not wanting amagi to be uncomfortable and always being there to comfort and reassure him #amagi very rightly voicing how he feels about progressing to doing stuff and how he needs time but to also take things slowly #and takara’s very fitting and realistic isolation and boredom he feels around his friends and how that’s erased when he’s with amagi and he #can he himself like him taking ballet and not liking it as a kid just fits so well bc he probably was that shy precious kid that wanted to #do something different even if he ended up not liking it #and the comedy omg the way takara walked away when amagi’s friend was asking about him then doubled back #that is comedy gold but still doesn’t beat last ep and amagi’s reveal wearing takara’s clothes #that shit gets me every time #fuck I just adore this show it’s wholesome in a way that doesn’t feel watered down or softened at the edges #it’s like the purity and fluffiness of it is real it properly conveys that want to be close to someone in an environment where it feels #weird but you try to go after it anyway but with the absolute purest heart and best intentions #bc you’re always terrified of fucking it up at any point #agh it’s just so how that young late teen love feels I can’t even with words anymore it’s just fantatsic #takara kun to amagi kun

[halewitzka]

god damn it why is my brain hellbent on making me feel nothing but foggy paralysis

I keep sitting there in a state of weird suspension because I want to tell a group of people I barely if ever speak to that I hung out with them for a week and now I love them all so much and I miss them and how can all of you just return to life so easily as if you're not caught up in the blues?

But I can't actually DO it because I'd make myself way too vulnerable by admitting that I love that easily, and strongly, and I'm terrified that it's not reciprocated at this intensity. It'll be weird and awkward and I'll be clingy and overattached because I needed the escapism of a week on a dusty campground that badly.

I know it's all in my head. But I still can't tell my friends that I love them, and I keep sitting here in limbo until I do because the sensation of it and the need to say it are holding my brain hostage to the point where I can do nothing else.

Blergh blargh graahh

#i keep just hearing one of them tell me #us making you part of our bro club really meant more to you than you want to admit huh #and i keep thinking YES FFS it meant the world and i love you okay but i cant fucking TELL YOU #because i dont know how to #and it would be supremely awkward to just bust in the door like #hi there's zero context for this bc thats all in my brain and i dont expect You'll have much of a reaction in you beyond an Ok cool thanks #but i really fucking miss talking nonsense with you while we're drunk off our faces and you mean a lot to me now #even though we've never really spoken much before and i dont expect us to now because bruh what would we even talk about #i sure as hell dont know i just miss you and i miss the way i got to be part of a little trio for a week #because i just dont have that in my life #i miss the illusion that i can just have a friendship like that because missing it now is very clearly showing me that i dont #i want someone who’s going to call me a dumbass and a loser and then hug me like they love me so much #and there's no one #and i know the camp guys dont either. not beyond that week and the 2 day blues after #im lonely man

[lungfuls]

I often think of the ex who factually actually would shoot me dirty looks when I said things that he thought were uncool to his friends. he would buy me clothes that weren't my style and get mad bc I didn't want to wear them. I bought razor blades during an active self-harm period and he made fun of me for it. he went with me to an Al-Anon meeting bc I wanted moral support while finally seeking help for dealing with my mom's alcoholism since kindergarten and he ended up speaking up about how hard it was for him to deal with his alcoholic roommate/best friend (who he'd basically laughed at when he asked him to help him stop/slow down drinking) and my mom (whose alcoholism actually traumatized me), using the language that these other people in the group used to describe actual abuse at the hands of the alcoholics in their lives to describe his own experiences. crazy. one of the nicest guys I ever dated. like. legitimately

#everyone came up to him after the meeting like welcome to the group bro we're here for you we know what it's like #while i just stood off to the side lol people were like hugging him and stuff #he wasn't being malicious he was just caught up in the emotional moment of the group #but i found it to be one of the most hurtful things a partner has ever done to me #and the man i was with for 3 years after that guy used to like drink and call me names and shit #it was worse to watch someone who dismissed my trauma receive the love i desperately needed to heal it #bc he co-opted my chance to open up to people who would understand #i could have spoken after him but iirc he was the last person to speak right at the end #and i had told him i wasn't comfortable speaking yet my social anxiety was really bad at that time #like voice shaking body going numb if i had to speak to 2+ people at once

[kelin-is-writing]

hi kelin!!!

KIRBYYYYYYYYY QUEEN!!!!!! HOW ARE YOU? 😭💜

#answered #kelin responds #kirby 🍬 #nah because that gif is so accurate 💀 #once i hug someone i stick to them for at least 30mins like– i just love hugs so much guys 🥲 #and kirby if we ever met in person you'll get the biggest and longest hug istg #you'll literally have to ask me to let you go 😭