#god. its so hot 😖 let me leave

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#i experience an emense amount of guilt ovet not being able to focus on work. go into the lab and run into a lab mate and hes like #u leave Thursday? why tf r u here? and that makes me feel a lil better lol #ive just being data entering all day. that takes so fucking long. and then helping an undergrad #exept my code was out of date so i was like welp i can only get u this far bc i did not write this code. i do not work with the #supercomputer on a regular enough basis. and i gave my 30 days notice today so ill be working remotely until the 18th #i probably should have done it way before but like ive still got so much to do i might as well get paid for doing it #the undergrad was like id probably work to the end bc i feel lost when im not working and i was like. bro. im so fucking brunt out that ppl #around me r like yo r u ok? theres a thing as too much work. dont cross that line. snd ill still probably work to the end bc i dont wanna #have to do it on top of other shit. but god. in a few days i never have to go back in that building again #sometimes having to be in that lab would make me feel physically ill i thibk just bc i have so much stress associated with standing at that #lab bench but woof i will not miss it. its not great. the ppl r nice but like the institution kinda sucks. but i probably #wasnt the best fit for the school. i only cane out here for my advisor and on that front i have no regrets #god im so tired tho. just make it Thursday already so my parents can b helping me move >~< lets fucking goooooo #srry for not posting much drawing wise. i prob wont b able to for a while as i transition across the country lol #also. a note to myself. i should get a proper sketchbook so i can actually draw out ideas and store them in a place. that would b convenient #god. its so hot 😖 let me leave #unrelated

[thisfanisgonesorry]

HIII ! CAN YOU DO HOBIE X FEM!READER. 😍

So basically they Reader is having a shower and Hobie appears in her window and hears that she is in the shower , then he joins her and like fingers her & eats her out 😘

( srry if this is toooo much to ask 😖)

ty!! dw, its never too much of an ask <3, sorry it took me a little bit mwah x

tags: god i love puns, smut, estab, vaginal fingering, pussy eating, shower sex, clothed sex, the gloves stay on, light temp play, women and their scalding hot showers smh, light pov switch. light mentions of poc hair care yaa

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He slinked in through the apartment window, his eyes scanning and noticing that there wasn’t a sign of life anywhere. He closed the window behind him, his ears perking up at the sound of an active shower and he moved slowly towards it.

He removed his mask, placing it on the kitchen counter as well as a bag of what he intended to be a thoughtful act. He carefully opened the bathroom door and sighed softly at the sight, is it really peeping if it’s your girlfriend? The door shut behind him with a quiet click and he squinted his eyes at the light layer of steam that filled the room. 

He finally stepped into the shower, turning the cold water tap and resting his chin on the shoulder of his unsuspecting victim lover.

I arched away from the suddenly colder water, “Hobie!” I hissed, trying to pull out from underneath it completely but his strong body held me in place as his arms found their home wrapped around my waist, holding me flush against him.

“Darlin’.” He spoke sweetly, he smiled at the contrast of our greetings and started pressing soft kisses into my skin, nuzzling the wet hair out of his way. “Lookin’ lovely, as usual.”

My fingers reached to adjust the temperature again and he quickly caught the hand, bringing it to his mouth and pressing kisses on it.

“Yeah, yeah.” I rolled my eyes.

“What? ‘M not sayin’ that ‘cuz y’re naked.” He pressed a strong kiss on the base of my neck, feeling me melt under the contact and planning to leave a hickey. “Well.. I am but not ‘cuz only that. Y’re beautiful. With clothes ‘n’ everythin’.” The grin on his face was a large, cheesy one, he knew how corny he sounded and it was completely intentional.

“Mhm, that’s sweet, and this has nothing to do with you joining me fully clothed?”

“Don’t got a lotta time. Jus’.. Swung by for a visit.” His kisses got more ‘passionate’ as he mumbled into my neck. “Got you food, gonna be back later.. We’ll, uh, watch a movie or somethin’. Pro’ly cuddle.”

“Not have sex?”

“Love, we’re shaggin’ right now.” He joked softly as his hand dipped lower, feeling his way to the part he loved most. “Needed y’so bad.” He sighed. “Couldn’t focus on shit.”

I tried to move us further away from under the water, but stilled when his fingers pressed between the lips, pressing against the warmth with a low groan.

“I’d ask ‘how’s work’ but I think this is a good answer.”

“Tells you all you need to know.” He agreed. “Need to fuck this cunt s’fuckin’ bad. Almost got hard on the job.” He laughed softly, his hands moved slowly back and forth between the lips and he stifled a whine into the flesh of my neck.

“This is one way to greet me then.”

“Y’were undressed, all pretty f’me, what was I meant to do?”

He retracted his fingers before I could reply with something snarky and pushed me against the shower wall, my back flinching against the coldness.

“You just won’t let me have a hot shower.” I cursed.

He let out a low chuckle, silencing me with a kiss on the lips before going downwards, leaving a trail from my throat to my belly button. His hands rested firmly on my hips to the point where if he wasn’t wearing gloves, you could pinpoint the crescent shapes his fingernails would leave by digging in so harshly.

He pressed a kiss on the ‘mons pubis’, looking up with his large brown eyes. He had a dumb grin on his face as he glanced down to eye up his prize after a long day.

“Hobie, your hair.” I chimed in with realisation as the water continued to drizzle over us lightly.

“Couldn’t care less.” He mumbled, lifting one leg over his shoulder and holding onto my thighs tightly, making sure I wouldn’t slip. He pressed a kiss on my clit, closing his eyes as he basked in it.

“Hobie—”

“I don’t care.” He growled again, feeling the water drench his side and knowing that I’d mention it. “I’ll deal with it later, right now, need you.” He groaned, as he dipped his fingers into the warmth, his gloves creating a rough texture that dragged against the walls.

His desperation took the floor as he did all that he could, his fingers pressed all the right spots against the squishy walls, knowing just where to go to blur my senses. He needed this; he needed to taste me on his tongue to get him through the last few hours of the day, and it was evident in the way he desperately sucked and lapped at what he could.

“Come on.” He pleaded. “Love how y’taste s’good.”

I took a handful of his already wet hair, tugging on it to make him work where I needed him to; he’d already have to fix his hair later so I wasn’t hesitant to manhandle him, knowing I couldn’t make it worse.

He started to grind my hips against his face, moaning pornographically at the harsh grip I had at his hair. “Like that.” He mumbled into the flesh, letting the slickness coat his face.

“Like that.” I mirrored with a breathy moan, throwing my head back despite the overwhelming need to watch him devour me.

“Want y’to cum on m’face.”

“Gonna, fuck, keep going.”

He knew the perfect ways to use his hands (obviously), and he knew exactly how to get me right to the edge on his own whim. 

“Y’gotta make it quick before the city realises ‘m gone.”

“Hobes, baby.” I moaned loudly before biting my lips. “Mhm, it’s gonna be quick.” He groaned in response to my words, digging his face closer, letting me feel the vibration against my skin.

“Love you.” He mumbled to himself, trying his earnest to keep as much of it in his mouth as possible, inwardly punishing himself for wasting a single drop.

I let out a loud cry, covering my mouth with a stifled moan. “Neighbours’ll hate us. It’s barely 6 pm.” I joked knowing if he ate with any more vigour, he’d probably eat me alive. 

“Let them. Close?”

I pushed my hips forward, moving where his fingers hit until my legs almost collapsed beneath me. I held onto his luscious hair tightly. “Yeah.” I breathed out.

“Love it.” He mumbled into the flesh. “Love when y’grab me, tell me what to do ‘nd make me fuck y’jus’ right.”

“Shit.” I cursed out, feeling the way his mindless praise went in one ear and straight down to my stomach. I was slowly gaining in volume as his actions continued meticulously, working me towards finish. 

“Can feel it. Y’right there.”

I grabbed harshly onto his hair, tugging him as I felt it right about to hit me like a wave I could drown in. He let out a whiney moan, his eyes closing in bliss as the vibrations rattled through me.

“Y’can do it.” He praised, feeling the helpless clenching around his fingers as I tensed up beneath his touch. “Want.. Need to taste y’r cum.”

“Ah! Fuck! Shit, Hobie—”

My cries fell on deaf ears as he didn’t let up his actions, seemingly unaware of my warning as he continued to (practically) abuse the sensitive spot inside my walls. I tried to bite back as much as I could, though my volume would peak past any form of muffling, making it all futile. 

I arched myself into him, crying out as he looked up at me with intense longing; he basked in every detail of my face as I took all he’d give me, riding out the wave. I saw white and slumped against the wall weakly, relaxing around him and he retracted his fingers slowly.

He hesitantly moved his mouth away after a moment of making sure he collected everything he could, placing the fingers in his mouth, trying to get the slickness off the fabric of his suit.

“Jesus Christ.” I huffed. Parts of his face still glistened with my own spend, and after a moment, he wiped his face away from the excess, though he wasn’t pleased with himself for wasting any.

“That’s what I needed.” He panted with a grin, pulling away completely and standing up from his knees. He pressed a chaste kiss onto my lips. “You gonna be alright on your own?” He hummed, holding my hips and moving me back under the water.

“Mhm, course.” I nodded

He turned the hot water up, and I flinched at the sudden change, though relaxed quickly as the warmth washed over me. “I’ll see you later tonight.” He spoke, kissing me again quickly before carefully leaving the shower, trying to not get water through the entire apartment.

We both pretended to ignore the tent in his suit pants which would hopefully disappear within the next few minutes or else the tabloids would probably have a field day. 

“Enjoy the rest of your shower.” He spoke, letting the bathroom mat soak up as much of the wetness from his feet as possible. 

“Enjoy the rest of your ‘shift’.”

He gave a weak two-finger salute before quickly leaving the bathroom. Briefly, I could hear his damp feed padding around on the wood floors before he was leaving the apartment and going back to his duty.

#asks #marvel #hobie brown #smut #spiderverse #hobie brown smut #hobie brown x reader #hobie brown imagine #hobie brown x reader one shot #hobie brown x you #across the spiderverse #spiderman atsv #hobart brown #hobie x reader #atsv #atsv x reader #spiderman x reader #spiderpunk x reader #spiderpunk #atsv hobie #hobie brown fluff #spiderpunk x you #hobie brown fanfic

[issa-pheonyx]

Yandere-sub!Konig X Fem!Soldier!Reader🔪🌶️

𝗞𝗼𝗻𝗶𝗴 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗶𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲. 𝗛𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝘀𝘁𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗹𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝘆. 𝗛𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗺𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝗼𝗳 𝗮 𝗴𝗼𝗼𝗱 𝗯𝗼𝘆 𝗵𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝘁𝗵𝘆!😖😫

▌│█║▌║▌║ L̳͈͉̅̊ȍ̸̢̢̮͚̐̚v̸̵̝͙͆̈ͤę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ M̶̷̲̊ͥ͋͟ę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ L̳͈͉̅̊ȍ̸̢̢̮͚̐̚v̸̵̝͙͆̈ͤę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ M̶̷̲̊ͥ͋͟ę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ L̳͈͉̅̊ȍ̸̢̢̮͚̐̚v̸̵̝͙͆̈ͤę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ M̶̷̲̊ͥ͋͟ę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ L̳͈͉̅̊ȍ̸̢̢̮͚̐̚v̸̵̝͙͆̈ͤę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ M̶̷̲̊ͥ͋͟ę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ ║▌║▌║█│▌

It was not what he wanted. He wanted you to be his partner in crime, but you ended up with Soap and Ghost. Those two may have you smiling and have chemistry when out and about. It still dreads him the only time you both are able to talk is during cafeteria hours. He decided to skip it and meet up with you. "(Y/N), I need uh-" His eyes avert around the place to think of an excuse. He should've predicted this through. "Konig, what's wrong?" You asked. "Training! I just need someone to spar with me." You shrugged and accepted his offer. His heart is beating so fast he can not believe you said yes. Usually, you tell him you can't, because of Soap or Ghost or both. The thoughts running through his mind of possibly the three of you doing...no! You would never do that. Ever...

Moreover, you both made it in the training area as you took some gear off to have more breathable mobility. You sigh feeling the weight off of your body. "Okay, now is there a rundown or you just want to go ahead and risk it?" Konig stood there like🧍🏻‍♂️making you tilt your head,"Konig?" He shakes his head,"Ah, yes we can do grappling." You nodded and got in position as he did too. Your focused face was on and he was ready too,'I must do it here. No one will hear us. No one will disturb us.' And so both of you were off when the timer ticked. 'Sixty seconds is the time I have.'

You were pretty good at grappling as you use your advantage on his weight, but as he is a giant. His strength can not compare to yours. Eventually, when the time ticks he was counting them down. If he doesn't get this right he is aware you will just get up and leave. Both of you are sweating, panting, and parry each other. That's when the time beeps off, signaling the game was over.

"I win! Lets go!" You cheered as you were sitting on his chest with your hands up. Konig was defeated, but no. He must do it now. "I can't take much more!" Your face demonstrates confusion as he grabs your legs, wrapping them like a snake, and grips on them that you could not slip away quickly enough. "K-Konig!? Wha-" He turns to have you lay on your back,"I don't like it when you pay attention to them!" His voice was hurt and...despair. He pulls down both your pants and underwear down to reveal your cunt. Probably, sweating from the grappling and hot,"N-No! Konig, stop-ooohh~"

His thumb was circling around your clit as his eyes looked up at you. His eyes tells everything. He needed you so badly. "Please, only pay attention to me, shatz. Just me. Just for once!" He lift his mask and starts going down on you. The way he roughly holds up your legs and shoves his face into your pussy, licking your pussy all around not missing its shape and form. You moan uncontrollably as you couldn't do anything to stop him. "Ah, Konig, fuck~" He sucks on your clit letting it pop away and goes back to do it again, proceeds on kissing and sucking all around next as he moans. He is asphyxiating himself from forcing himself to taste you not wanting to miss anything. Like a wild animal not being to have his feed in days

"Oh my god! You're gonna make me cum, oh yes~" You want to stop, but at the same time...seeing him this way wanting to prove himself and that he simply missed you got you riled up now. The orgasm was peeking as Konig pushes his tongue inside and flicks then pulls out to trace up to your clit and flicks it firmly. You scream it out as your juices served his mouth well-relieving his thirst and even some soaked part of his mask. He does not mind it as he will be able to smell it throughout the rest of the day to be reminded of this moment~

▌│█║▌║▌║ L̳͈͉̅̊ȍ̸̢̢̮͚̐̚v̸̵̝͙͆̈ͤę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ M̶̷̲̊ͥ͋͟ę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ L̳͈͉̅̊ȍ̸̢̢̮͚̐̚v̸̵̝͙͆̈ͤę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ M̶̷̲̊ͥ͋͟ę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ L̳͈͉̅̊ȍ̸̢̢̮͚̐̚v̸̵̝͙͆̈ͤę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ M̶̷̲̊ͥ͋͟ę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ L̳͈͉̅̊ȍ̸̢̢̮͚̐̚v̸̵̝͙͆̈ͤę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ M̶̷̲̊ͥ͋͟ę̷̵̧̖̫̗̆̊ ║▌║▌║█│▌

𝗧𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗸𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴! 𝗜 𝗵𝗼𝗽𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗲𝗻𝗷𝗼𝘆𝗲𝗱 𝗶𝘁. 𝗠𝘆 𝘂𝗽𝗱𝗮𝘁𝗲𝘀 𝗱𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗮 𝗳𝗮𝗶𝗿 𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴. 𝗦𝗹𝗲𝗲𝗽 𝘄𝗲𝗹𝗹~🖤🫣

#yandere #konig #konig modern warfare #konig mw2 #konig cod #konig x reader #konig call of duty #spicy content #lemon #lime #yandere male #mdni #minors dni #no minors allowed #smut #cod mw2 #cod x reader #cod mwii #mw2 #call of duty #modern warfare 2 #modern warfare ii #modern warfare x reader #modern warfare two

[kamiversee]

kami ur lying. ur fucking lying.

ARE YOU REALLU TRYINH TO CONVERT ME INTO A SUKUNA GIRLY??? CAUSE OMG ITS WORKING

JESUS CHRIST THIS SHIT WAS SO GODDAMN DIRTY AND SECY😫😫🫵 I MEED HIM SO BAD ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY WNYMORE. I NEED ALL INCHES INSIDE OF ME NEOW.

AND HOW DID YOU KNOW I HAVE A SPIT KINK KAMI…(nah im kidding) BUT IT SURE AS HELL AWOKE SOMETHING INSIDE OF ME I SWEARR

GUYS I AM SCREAMING LORD HAVE MERCY THE WALLS ARE WHITE AND MY KNUCKLES HURT FROM HOW HARD I WAS GRIPPING THE GODDAMN SHEETS. SUKUNA IS SO HES SO HES SO

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHJHJHHHHHHHHHHHHH🦅🦅🦅‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

IM MELTINGGGGGGGGGGG

🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️i summon ryomen sukuna🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️

GOD I WAS FED A FULL COURSE MEAL WITH THIS CHAPTER SWEARRR😫😫😫😫😫😝😝🖐️🖐️🖐️

THE FUCKINH SPIT SCENE AND THE FUCKINH FILTHY ASS WORDS THAT MAN WOULD BREATHE OUT. GOD I LOVE BREATHLESS MEN LIKE OMG PLEASE THEY SOUND SO HOT OUT OF BREATH RAHHHH🦅🦅😫 I NEED SUKUNA SO BAD ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY ITS ACTUALLY CONCERNING.

HE CAN LITERALLY FUCK ME ANYWHERE SWEAR

WHAT DID SEXY RED SAY IN SLUT ME OUT??🗣️‼️

I TURN YOUR ASS OUT IF YOU LET ME🫣YOU CAN ROCK MY CHAIN WHILE YOU NECK ME😫 IM A HOOD BITCH, I LIKE FREAKY SHIT COME PUT THAT DICK DOWN MY THROAT🫵 COME HOT AND READY NO SOFT SHIT ILL LEAVE A GUY DICK SWOLE 😤 CHOKE A BITCH ASS, MAKE MY FACE WITH YOUR FICK🤭🤭🫢🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣 SPIT IN MY MOUTH I WNAT ALL THAT SHIT🫡 FUCK ME FROM THE BACK, PULL OUT THE PHONE AND MAKE A FLICK🫨🫨🫨🫨🫨🤫🤫 EAT MY COOCH PUT AND THEN GIVE A BITCH A KISS🤗🤗🤭 DICK ME DOWN THEN. EAT ME OUT🤪🤪😜😝😝 I SEEN YOUR DICK PRINT I MEED IT NOW🤬🤬🤬😡 BEAT THIS PUSSY OF THE BED IM FINNA PUT THIS PUSSY ON YOUR HEAD😖😖😖🥰🥰🥰😋 PUSS SOAKIN WET PUT THE PUSSY ON HIM LEAVE HIM WITH THE SHIVERS🥶🥶‼️‼️‼️🦅🗣️🗣️🦅🦅

IM GOING FERAL. ME WHEN SUKUNA^^^^

-🍦

According to some other anons, I’ve converted a lot of ppl with tht whatif 😅

#kamiversee!answers #k!ans: 🍦

[ad-hawkeye]

Hi! I read your blog and you wondered for a Vyn stan's take on his 2nd anniversary card. I am a Vyn stan and I really really love that card. Also, as far as I know most of my fellow Vyn stans love that card too.

His proposal card is an antithesis to his confession card. In his confession, he asked MC to wait as he prepares a perfect time and venue to confess in his personal chapter 4 when MC was about to tell him her feelings. Everything went according to plan, everything was in control. In contrast, his proposal plans were disrupted, he was also going to ask MC to wait as he prepares for their future when MC asked him why he was so busy but then everything went haywire, he panics and he just decided to "fuck plans" and decided to propose on the spot.

His proposal is so endearing and so sincere because he is a perfectionist. For him, everything must be perfect, every situation must be within his control. He has always been calm and rational but when it comes to MC, his emotions tramples rationality. His behavior in this proposal is a culmination of the development Vyn underwent as their relationship became deeper.

During their time together, Vyn has slowly let his guards down. He was afraid at first to show his "imperfect" side but MC assures him that it is fine, that she accepts every side of him; that even if he falls into the abyss, she will be by his side and lift him up. Because honestly, Vyn has issues that stems from childhood. Vyn became more and more comfortable to show his vulnerabilities and to confide his fears.

Their relationship is equal, Vyn supports her as MC supports him. They respect each others thoughts. They always talk about their issues and come up with solutions. They learn and grow from one another.

The bathroom scene is hot but is also symbolic of Vyn's trust on MC.

Even if he thinks that his proposal was not perfect enough, for me, it was perfectly imperfect. It was "Carpe Diem". He was willing to let go of all his plans out of his "desire" to propose not because it is "time" to propose.

An added bonus is we finally meet his mother and see their relationship which adds to his family lore.

Sorry for the long ramble, I just can't help myself 😖 I could go on more and more into detail why his proposal was perfect but I think this is long enough and it'll be incoherent hahaha

I haven't read Artem's proposal card but I'm sad that it was like that. He's my 2nd favorite though I haven't been following his relationship progress. Perhaps they will address this issue in the future?

YES!!!!! THIS IS THE INPUT I WANTED TO HEAR SO BADLY!!! oh my god don't apologize at all, i genuinely think vyn is a fascinating character and this card, like i mentioned a while back, did actually shoot him up on my preferences list. i love it when characters have contrast, so someone like vyn who MUST have control of a situation having his proposal fall to shambles was so SO endearing to me. this type of human error is why artem's older cards appealed to me, so i was so happy to see vyn get similar treatment.

thank you so much for reaching out, anon! i'm genuinely so so happy and thrilled to hear most vyn stans liked it; i was afraid it wouldn't be liked due its departure from the typical "vyn is in control" deal because i really liked how OUT of control he was. for Everything.

even for someone like me who finds it hard to get into fanservice, it did its job character wise, and didn't feel like it betrayed vyn as a character (in fact it matched w the vyn w no control deal), i just wasn't sure if vyn stans felt the same way.

cannot express this enough, i am SO glad vyn got such a funny and endearing card. hoping you get more like it in the future! i'll leave it here since i have nothing more to add, this meta for vyn is so concise and wonderfully written, i adore it.

#asks #anon #tears of themis #tot spoilers #vyn richter #this deserves to go in the tag #what a lovely bit of meta for him seriously #meta

[fuzzyhorsesharkparty]

I don’t wanna wait … The thought of you missing me makes me I don’t know I can’t do this anymore let me want who I want to want get your own stay in your lane damn it is this crazy enough?? I don’t think I would ever like someone who would smoke their heart black I hate the smell of smoke it’s bad I don’t want to drink I know it’s bad but for some reason it’s hot hahahaha are you there? I miss you want you even if it’s someone else who is there come to me I’m scared I don’t want to annoy you my life is not together I’m still broken I’m in pain I’m tired I don’t want to hurt you I need to forget haven’t slept longer than 24 hours today you make me stay up even though I don’t know you where are you why did you leave I know you would have left if I stayed I hate you I feel gross safe…. I don’t know you let me be reckless poison uncomfortable hate this shit mad angry too many walls want you alone but I feel that it’s not right I’m gonna get bored I don’t wanna be in pain or heartbroken need to take care of myself get my emotions set adapting to what to my life if it changes or stays the same ….?… I never liked fuck you fuck me but now you are there I think I like it??? I don’t know I don’t want to miss you im in pain leave me alone don’t talk to me anymore let me better myself adaptings a bitch please dont leave I miss you but I can’t I have to keep going what if I get bored I don’t want to be broken God help want to maybe hurt myself and hate God😖 😩 help stay make the effort even if I don’t damn it holding on for dear life your smile is the cutest youre so tall giant hot wrap me up so we can cuddle when I’m cold and depressed butterflies first touch unexpectedly trying don’t trust myself or you to be honest i can’t believe you had to wait Makes me happy just cuz I was in pain but I feel bad everyone has to wait too long too much to bare getting angrier everyday will you ever read this I don’t know I hope so where are my letters please don’t throw this away scared I want to be with you do everything together I wanted to be your number one trying to get over it please don’t tell me I’m too late feeling guilty if you are here cuz you are married how could you I tried to get your attention thank you for caring you make me happy am I friend or best friend or someone you just care about or maybe it could be more you near makes me more aware of what’s going around me and it gives me a panic attack and angry cuz I shut things out and don’t know notice small things if you talk to me I won’t forget you your face will be on my face do I wanna fall no catch me build a life be my eyes lead me when I don’t know what’s going on around me if you get mad at me I might cry if I do I will just shut you out make you feel the hurt I’m feeling I don’t want to get bored tell me the right thing to do even if it’s hard maybe the right things is nothing maybe everything is just right it’s so hard me for to say I don’t want to say it it hurt thoughts of I think invalid feelings I wanna sleep over even if I miss my house and want to leave cuz it’s not my bed or what I’m use to don’t want to be awake at night feeling like is this all there is…. Don’t want to be broken don’t want you to disappear without telling me want to be in control even tho its hard trying not to I don’t know passion but safe if there is even such thing lol why can’t I bring myself to buy you something that is not in my head since I’m broke expensive 🥴🥺 what is your shoe size what is your fav color I don’t want wrinkles are you awake what do you eat I wish we grew up together or maybe lived close growing up but maybe I feel like I wouldn’t have stayed I’m sorry but hopefully realize you are for me don’t want to be in 2 yrs of being together and being bored and feeling nothing but don’t want to be broken don’t die I don’t want to die I need more time thought the world was ending cuddling a pillow is like cuddling you first time I remembered you I don’t remember what I was feeling that day just small things I knew I couldn’t be with anyone and didn’t want to but you were there