#gonna need a job ASAP

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Actually, now I think about it, Barnaby will put his face in Howdy's fluff whether or not he's unhappy.

SO true. maybe im just very tired but im getting the mental image of him like... tugging on Howdy's apron like "hey c'monnn im so unhappy rn im seriously so angry, just gimme the fluff itll fix me right up-" In The Middle Of The 'Busy' Store. and im finding it extremely funny

#absolutely no shame smh #frank starts herding julie and wally out of the store #howdy shoves barnaby out asap and quickly creates a No Dogs Allowed sign #cue barnaby staring through the window with the biggest shiny puppy eyes while everyone shops and howdy tries to ignore him #he's literally at his job... so unprofessional... having the fluff out is NOT work attire... #rambles from the bog #laughingstock #yassified howdy <3 #adding this to that tag cause like. well you all know lmao i dont have to explain Jack #oh god its 10 am? its 10 am. i need to go to bed #OR DO I #yeah i do.... #i have to make a tiring phone call at 6 im gonna need all the energy and mental fortitude i can get #i will fall asleep picturing these shenanigans

[lover-of-skellies]

Me: loads up my queue with a month's worth of incorrect quotes at a time

Also me: wants to die as soon as I realize I'll have to edit more, save them to my drafts and add a bazillion tags, then very intricately and strategically schedule them so that I don't post two quotes with the same character(s) appearing in both on the same day

#rambles #not skeleton stuff #sighs heavily #i love doing the incorrect quotes #don't get me wrong #but sometimes it feels like such a chore #or a job that I'm not being paid enough to do #yes this is absolutely because i just realized I'm gonna need to do this again soon #i only have enough for the next 5 days there #i need more asap

[vro0m]

The dilemma between not wanting to reparent your parents because it's not your place to do so, it's incredibly costly, and they were supposed to be parents to you and not the other way around

And having to reparent your parents because it's impossible to have a relationship with them as they are because their own parents didn't do a good job and they just don't know how to communicate and the way they are hurts you

(and optionally: feeling sorry for them for what they went through with their own parents just like you feel sorry for yourself now and resenting them both for not being enough and for making you feel sorry that they couldn't be.)

#off topic #I have been home for like a month how the fuck am I gonna survive I need a job so I can get out of there asap

[dockaspbrak]

I don't think i feel ashamed of anything as much or often as i do insomnia....weird. Annoying. Nothing wrong with it i wish i felt less ashamed

#stupid brain doesnt know when to shut off #i always vividly walk thru the fear i felt as a teen when my dad woule be getting up for work at 5 am #and the series of chores hed go thru before deciding if i was gonna pretend to be asleep or not in case he came to make sure i was up #and often he didnt id just be waiting for him to scamper bc #im so easily hurt by even simple #barbs or even prodding about lack of sleep #my dad going oh still up? with disappointment is like 100 f grades #i cant even remember his insult. just an immediate deep guilt and shame and disappointment #sometimes he'd even laugh and jokenw me (rare but treasured) but still the shame #hm #i probably need to be in therapy rn #depression snd unemployment hitting hard!!!!!! gotta get a fuckin job asap

[upperranktwo]

I need to stop looking at new places to live knowing A) I can’t afford it B) My lease doesn’t end until November but sudsadsadas

#I rlly wanna move!!!!! #It's not that i hate my room I just HATE living with other people who don't shut the fuck up #I rlly rlly RLLY wanna live on my own and not have to share my kitchen and all that stuff #I'm considering moving to the city when my lease ends tbh it's further out but there's more places #I need to get a job ASAP tho so I can start saving #but I do need to wait for another 6 weeks until my courses ends #wanna get something before my masters starts and before obvi my lease ends because I don't wanna be homeless.... again :) #sky rambles #I'm the only MF who cleans up this place as well :)))))) I just cannot STAND the people I live with #yeah I'm not gonna extend my lease I will 100% move to another place #the people here are not good for my mental health AT ALL

[izzy-b-hands]

im sitting here, first edible of the day kicking in, and i just realised i haven't been yelled at for picking my lips in months. im safe here, i can stim like that and Housemate doesn't care and that's

really really lovely. wish I'd realised it sooner!

#text post #i mean should i be picking the skin off my lips NO but #it's a stim ive been doing since i was four years old with multiple tries over the years to stop doing it #sometimes bribed with prizes by family or teachers other times punished and my hand slapped or #made to hold a tissue there if my lip bled (tissues are major BAD TEXTURE for me so that was torture. nearly made me sick once or twice) #and none of it ever worked so like. maybe this is just one of those unfortunately gross things i do #i try to keep it to when im alone or at home only now at least so the worst coworkers used to do was comment my lips looked bad #like thanks could you try doing your job instead of making unasked for comments? no? cool I'll do your work and mine #and you wax on about how it doesn't matter that sometimes lip makeup is a bad feel for me i just haven't found the right chapstick or lippy #that would make me stop but ooh they've always a brand recommendation on hand too! #bless their dumb asses bc they meant well but my lips and i are just gonna keep bleeding over here for now #tw skin picking #if y'all need any addt'l trigger tags msg and ill add asap!

[toonfinatic]

The most difficult thing to decide is what i want to study at uni

#i have like 10 things i wanna study #history!!!!! culture studies!!!!! geology!!!! biology!!!!!! all kinds of stuff!!! #i would start next year because my vocational studies should end in a couple months and then i gotta move #and get a job so i can live #if i have to move momentarily back to my dads house im gonna lose my mind #hes nice but his house is sensory hell and he sometimes is kinda. conflict seeking. #also he lives in a town where i know no one and people my age who live there are mostly people who study at the christian academy thing... #and i have heard that people in there arent super queer friendly... yaaay.... #anyway its a whole thing. im positive i'll get things in order but i do need to move get a job asap when i finish my current studies!

[the-kipsabian]

once again fellas, its time to Stress

#i still havent applied to a single job this month cause listings to stuff i could actually do full time dont exist #im limited on all physical mental and educated side so my what i can reasonably apply for is. not a lot #and with them now stopping to list summer jobs. theres like fuck all left whatsoever #and the month is halfway through and they most likely wont be getting much better as we go on #on top of that three of the four places i applied for last month have taken the listings down and i have not heard anything back #i mean i think one place said they start going through them early april but the other two? just gone and no contact #both positions were said to be filled asap and its been like two weeks so :) fuck me i guess #AND now im sitting here like. okay if i dont get a job school applications are open for two weeks #i looked at one place and their application tasks and immediately got so overwhelmed #i have no hope in this world fellas. i dont belong here im not meant to do anything in here. i dont fit anywhere and nobody wants me #im so close to a mental breakdown again YAY #i know you dont care i just need to barf this somewhere sorry im gonna go. yall dont need this either like said i dont fit anywhere #night is an absolute mess on main

[johnadamsbignaturals]

didnt get the living history job i wanted and i know that this genuinely isnt a big deal and that i can re-apply when i have more museum work on my resume but this might genuinely send me into a spiral

#this was meant to be my BACKUP JOB. #i had already worked for the company of the first one i applied to for TWO YEARS and slaved for them with no overtime pay #and they fully ghosted me- like they didnt reply to any of my emails for months #and i was by far their most dedicated worker #gonna be sick!!! 👍🏽 #i need to move to germany asap

[tincansamurai]

yknow shit is working out pretty good for me now that i’m putting as little pressure on myself as possible

applied to a bunch of shit through a temp agency’s website yesterday, today got a call to set up an interview with them for tomorrow, which will be right after i get a haircut so i’m gonna look soo professional

the barrier to entry for jobs for me is getting someone to interview me. if i can get interviewed, i have the job. i think if i can get a temp position, it’ll be like a month before they decide to hire me on for real. since there’s an interview with the agency, i think i can get the recruiter to want to recommend me for shit. i just need something with a consistent schedule. i wanna know i can plan to do things with any spontaneity. would also be nice to have a normal weekend, but i’m not that picky. simply having two days off in a row would be crazy

i also kinda want it to be a little fuck you to aldi for stringing me along about promoting me. you’re gonna hype me up about a promotion and then as soon as i come out you go radio silent for two months? fuck off i’m gonna do data entry for the same money and less killing my body

#i'm not gonna come out as nonbinary anywhere else tbh it causes so much fucking hassle #for the purposes of professional life i am a dude from now on #fingers crossed i pass enough that everyone assumes i'm a guy and i don't need to deal with any more bullshit #i will need to actually go to the gym after i leave aldi though lol #normally i would be worried about jinxing this but it doesn't matter what job or when i am gonna leave aldi ASAP regardless

[fabulouslygaybean]

im terrified to turn 18 next year but also i basically just confirmed with one of my best friends that we're gonna find an apartment together and be roommates so suddenly the future doesn't seem too horrible

#we both hate the idea of living alone rn and neither of us are moving out of the state just yet so we're gonna live together #that way we can split the rent and save up our money for whatever we wanna do #im taking at least a year long break after i get outta high school before i even THINK about going to college bc otherwise ill die i think #and she might also be taking a break before she goes to college #so it'll all work out :') #only issue is that this is the girl im kind of confused abt because i cant tell if im crushing on her or if its just platonic #so this might complicate things. but whatever #she's one of my best friends first and foremost and being roomates will be nice #bonus points for us bc it's gonna be a household of trans folks lmao #we still gotta talk about logistics and all that and we still don't know how its gonna work out but #im happy #even if i get kicked out by my mom the second i turn 18 i know ill have a friend who ill be able to get a place with #i have to find a job asap but i dont think it'll be too crazy hard #my soon to be roommate is begging me to join her at the grocery store she works at and my brother is begging me to work with him at an - #- escape room #so im probably just gonna join one of them soon bc i can #also im planning on taking my drivers permit test next week which is. kind of terrifying but i need to learn how to drive #the public transport here is alright but it just doesn't cut it sometimes so i need to know how to get around via car

[amtrak12]

Job update: senior leadership continues to play hard ball -- by not taking the court at all -- so I'm upping my game.

My salary is based on my job title... Which hasn't matched my responsibilities for years. I just discovered the job title Data Steward (with multiple open positions for full time remote work!) that lines up almost exactly with what I actually do for this company. There's a 30 grand difference between my salary and the low end of a Data Steward's salary range.

So I'm going to make a full report comparing job titles and duties between my current job title and this new one, prove where my current responsibilities fall, and then request a salary increase and job title change IN ADDITION to keeping my one office day a week schedule that they refuse to consider.

What are you going to do then senior leadership? Gonna keep ignoring me and let me walk away? Pft!

#only if they want to shoot themselves in the head #Literally in our VP's goals last year was training a back up for me because they realized if I even went on vacation for a full week #they had no one who could fill in #NO ONE #all we managed was training a couple of people on one very small aspect of my job #I still don't have a real back up #They'd be FUCKED if I left #So they better fucking listen to me and my needs asap #And I'm gonna CACKLE when it nets me a salary increase too #Like all you fuckers had to do was let me keep my schedule #But NOOOOOO we gotta adhere to a universal 'company policy' when literally no other aspect of our jobs are equal #So now you have to pay me more and give me my required schedule in order to keep me #Get fucked

[mejomonster]

hi all <3 i have a studyblr @rigelmejo if you happen to also be studying chinese or japanese, feel free to rant to me ur study methods or things ur into and liking over there (or responding to my rambles lol)

the studyblr was initially made to be just a study journal to keep myself accountable, but i also link resources i find over there, and if i have discussions on study methods/articles i find then i post them over there

also, if you are studying chinese in particular to read, i heavily recommend the heavenlypath.notion.site they have a lot of good tools linked, a great FAQ for how to start reading and progress, and a lot of great novel recommendations with details learners would find useful (like unique character count, total word count, difficulty etc)

#rant #studyblr #i technically study chinese japanese and french but im gonna be real. i mostly only focus on chinese #my japanese is scraping by at where it is so there's little pressure to improve it #and likewise my french is great reading wise which is all i need it for. so its low pressure to study unless i get a french job #then i'll need to buckle down for a few months asap lol

[chicago-geniza]

NISHT REBLOGN

well roommate is moving out in. 3 weeks. lol. & i guess paying next month's rent & maybe july but after that i am, uh. suddenly responsible very unexpectedly for $400 more dollars a month when i do not have a regular income & had budgeted very carefully to live off my savings. so that's cool. haha. i've mentioned my mom helping me pay for things before & overheard them on the phone (not on purpose, our apartment has no soundproofing to speak of) saying something about them not being sure what my situation was but "[they] think [my] mom has money" & it's like dude. we are not talking "generational wealth that can pay my rent" we are talking "can help me pay for OTC meds & occasionally wire me funds for food delivery when i can't walk" lmfao. i can't afford to cover our whole-ass rent for more than a few months max & now i'm in an annoyingly pressed position. not as pressed as 2020 covid eviction & not as pressed as 2016-17 couchsurfing homelessness but it's still unpleasant given the uncertainty & instability of everything else right now. come on, man :(

#guess i'm selling some stuff!!! #& trying to find more. freelance work i guess #i'm not fuxked-fucked but i would be if i weren't insane & hadn't contingency planned #& assumed i should be miserly & monkish & pinch & scrape to give myself a buffer #Just In Case #bc we live in uncertain times lol #but it's kind of a dick move to give 3 weeks' notice the month our rent is going up by $100 #like i'm gonna be broke in 4 months if i don't get a job & also i need to move out now ASAP

[kowaindar0u]

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head hurts so i think i'm done writing for today ;_;

but i'll be around more tomorrow! yaaaaaaaaaaaY

#out of blades #YAY SORDS #also feeel free to msg me on d!scord! the link's on my links page lol #gonna go find something to munch on...probably watch some schitts creek and chill out lol #GAH i need a job ASAP i gotta get my crunchyroll back on by april ;_; #i'm so stoked for the honnouji anime agh

[be-good-to-bugs]

i NEED to take a break from work

#the bin #:/ hhhhh. #well. i think i can take a break in the second half of march #if my next paycheck is big enough and my sister pays me back soo like she said she would then i will request like 10 days off #im tryna get my life fixed. it was doing ok for a bit but my apartment being a mess makes it hard #im gonna try to get that fixed asap. i was preoccupied with a new source of stress this past week but its gone now i think #idk. there was time recently when i was cooking food nearly every day even thevdays i worked and being more functional and i wanna #get back to that but my apartment is just too big a mess for me to do it #well. hopefully i can actually do it. i always feel like work is gonna totally drain me but my job is really ok #idk why i so often have this stress reaction to going to work :/ its so stupid #i dont wanna use my requested time off just to clean so i wanna get stuff cleaned before i take time off #i just really need a mental health break. im dealing with way too much stuff and i need a preplanned proper break #theres so much stuff im tryna fix. i hate having all this mess on top of it. i hate that my sister just completely ditched me and left it #for me to clean up myself #i wanna be completely free of her altogether #i wanna focus on fixing my weird brain issues. not all this trash. hhhh.w #i wanna ditract myslef but my brain is like incapable of enjoying anything without making me feel weird. i hate it. i git into some stuff #more recently and my brain did the thing again where it makes me feel cringe for it. why?? i hate it so much. thinsg are either boring to me #or i REALLY like them and my brain makes me feel weird abt it. i just wanna escape from reality but my brain makes it so hard to