#gonna start using those too maybe

[termys-trek-art]

All I need in my life is more Lore and Ness. That's it. No water. No air. No food. Nothing. Just sans is ness is matpat is lore.

explodes into a million pieces and the pieces become this drawing. if i wasnt so busy all the time you best BELIEVE i wouldve already plotted out like 9 chapters of a fanfic about them. i have. i have so much ideas its insane

#android ness my beloved!! such a silly #anyways uhh woo gay men we love gay men whooo give it up for gay man #i love them an unhealthy amount #my art #star trek #star trek tng #lore soong #lore star trek #ness x lore #ness the waiter #what would their ship name be #uhh going off of securitywaiter/dreamtheory probably #lorewaiter #or #loretheory #gonna start using those too maybe

[b4kuch1n]

wizard looking for a way home (aka wizard of dark space)

#pokemon #swsh #champion leon #wizard leon babeyy! #thank u to cosme for hangin out with me while I figure this one out lol #this! is the piece I used for the ''speedpaint'' thingy btw. I'll try to put together the video over the next month or so #lol. usually when I make wizard leon designs I riff with what comes up and think abt like. maybe his affinity in this set #like ''oh he'd do fabric talismans. oh he'd levitate. he does poppet stuff'' #that at most. but this. the moment I started fleshing this one out I was like #oh he's really lost. for a very long time. to the point he's learned so much he's forgotten what many of the things on his suit does #like lmao I guess I can Not be normal about any astronaut leon huh!! its chronic for me #I couldnt get to some of the questions folks asked with this one. so this video will probably not be comprehensive #but I'll make another when those things come up!! #fksjdfk sorry lads most of u guys asked abt colors but idk if this ones the best for that. its got a preddy concrete palette #guess I can save talking about the more insane color stuff for when that comes up too... #we'll see!! hope it's gonna happen #for now. one more wizard leon for the book. have a good night lads! #tie a yarn round ur wrist dont forget the way back

[ajdrawshq]

listening to octopath music and drawing and writing stuff for my octopath pmd au so The Horrors(tm) dont get me

#i am getting WAY too in depth with these character profiles but if i dont hyperfocus on it i will implode . #like. we got species (including fusions/variants) types (may differ due to species) (plus an extra type bc of mixing in octopath mechanics) #also bc they can have up to 3 types at once i calculated everyones weaknesses and resistances which is actually kinda fun w tri-typed mons #also movesets up to 9 moves including 8 from their species(es.?) and 1 from their extra type . bc octopath #and abilities which everyone can have up to 2 of bc of how the older pmd games worked #tho each start with one and gain one in a similar way to octopath which allows for more mismatching #and also making it easier to choose fitting abilities for everyone they otherwise woildnt have access to #their IQ groups (tho. i am mildly tempted to scrap that and make my own groups. no yeah thats my next task now) #held items and general/single use items theyd most likely have #and any other individual notes i have on them 👍 like therion being unable to evolve further bc part of his lineage is a 2 stage evo #ohhh i also need to note where everyone comes from. except maybe therion bc we dont know his hometown at all #thats gonna be kinda hard bc each continent has pretty much all the biomes but psmd changed that up a bit..... hm.... #and the sand continent is straight up from psmd only unlike the rest so i need to check if theres anything besides deserts there #bc i could theoretically put 2 travellers per continent and go from there.. OH wait that works hold on. im a genius #maybe i need to replay psmd again and see.. i gotta be at least partway in my current playthrough it camt be too hard #id like to mimic where everyone starts out as much as i can.. tho i cant remember if theres a livable tundra area in pmd #still gotta do those iq groups tho . that goes first #octotag

[autoneurotic]

i was convinced i worked til five today but im off at TWO let’s GO GIRLS

#i’ve been spring cleaning and i’m in such a roll gonna keep it up once im off! #i found another horsie petroglyph too :3 gonna maybe start that today #or keep going with my painting card deck! i made the box for them and am still decorating it #when its done i’ll post a pic! #just a regular card box that i collaged with the sky and some hands i painted #and those little mirrors i’ve been so jazzed ab but have not been able to use

[snailfen]

i think the stuff i post abt the dragon tamer in servers makes them look more fearless and tough than they really are

#THE REASON THEY ARE LIKE THAT: i fucked up and accidentally gave a scug the darkest backstory ive ever made. idk what happened #poor fucked up little cat. get them one of those sweaters they give to dogs with anxiety or something #they really are just... a cheetah with a therapy dog. except its a dog with a therapy cheetah and there are multiple cheetahs #also i felt inspired to do anthro designs for most of my slugcat ocs... i wanna digitalize them first but ill share em sometime #also with people throwing around human vers of their iterators... i might do that too actually but i need my designs to be set in stone #i want to draw burning curiosity SO BAD but i have NO time 💔 midterms and also big school workload. its a pain #oc: call from the constellations #oc: the dragon tamer #slugcat oc #iterator oc #my art #also started workshopping my designs for the mother but. tbh i might not use straight up noodlefly colors like i planned #cus i dont like how its turning out honestly! then again im not colorpicking LOL #i might steal a design from a certain background slug i drew in the dragon tamers backstory doodles... cus theyre cute i cant not use it #no idea how im gonna factor her needle into her design but oh well! maybe ill make it a stinger or something

[dadbots]

August… time to get spooky.

#dadbots.txt #this has been in my draft for... almost a month. Yikes. #I’ve been dissociating hella hard these past months or something. swear I don’t remember time moving this fast. maybe it’s just me tbh. #idk what to say about July other than… boring? not much happened and I don’t really remember it if I’m honest. just. mm. shrugs. #best way to describe it LOL #been sleeping a LOT lately and I think it’s fatigue again. was it like anything before? no. not at that rate (yet) but just. #where you wanna sleep and sleep and sleep type of fatigue. you never feel rested and just gotta sleep it off kinda. #just one of those moments yknow. #it sucks. all I’m doing is letting the days pass me by and ‘missing out’ on living life when I could be enjoying it. but I lost interest - #- in doing so for months - years now due to personal health matters. And whaddya know - it came back again. after months of healing. #I'm pretty pissed as it does feel like a slap in the face. but you win some - you lose some. Gonna try and fight through it. #I wrote something at the beginning of august but that got deleted. Had a breakdown and thought huh. what a great way to start the month - #and now it's almost september. Just like that. What a month it's been. Stuck on what else to say but that really. #don't want to keep talking about depressing stuff as that's what i used to do and realized hey. maybe you should stop doing that so often #and not use it so casually in humor and/or stuff. Even though I reblog vents here n' all. but yknow. #maybe it is hypocritical. but that's not the point. Just want to reflect and see if i've changed since coming back to the web after a year. #not like it's going bad. just wished this year was a bit more optimistic. Last year was rough & i'm afraid this year will be another repeat #though I did come out to a family member this month and that was like a punch to the gut. Considering my status with them and all. #won't get into that. for now let's just say i'm not too close with them. An impulsive choice on my end but hey. it went well. #and that's what matters tbh. My younger self would've thought i was actually insane. like to even DO that? really? #shocking. I'm still not over that moment. Probably one of my biggest achievements this year. #I'll update this if anything else comes to mind. none of this make sense and that's ok. clearing my mind right now. #let's see what september has in store for me. Hopefully it'll get better as things slow down w/ winter on its way. #hope y'all enjoyed your summer. 🖤🤘🏽

[hemopseudo]

((my muse: *reads several posts about Daves/Striders on the dash.... my muse:"what's a Dave?" me: oh you sweet summer child))

#OOC post. #he has no idea. #well... me and Pup have been chatting in IM and we're like. Tech is gonna keep saying shit like “oh lol me too. maybe you're a Dave” #and there used to be headcanons/chars in the timeline for all 8 kids. and their names ALMOOOOOST sound similar. so Tech IS gonna work it ou #if that comes up. #the Dirk used to be called Derrek but idk it doesn't sound v trollish. or v “Dirk”. so. we'll change that #also we both have the headcanon that alts are like. inexplicably drawn to each other. me bc it makes it funnier. #imagine. joining tumblr to meet people but you just keep finding out they're all different versions of yourself. you can't escape. #ranting in tags;; #OOC rants;; #I need to... start tagging both of those lol sorry I'm sleepy and brain-ing

[unproduciblesmackdown]

Tayston =‘]

#been meaning to draw smthing like this for a minute #i.e. tayston kiss where maybe simultaneous laughing / [smiling As Good As a laugh] is getting in the way of that kiss but not a problem rly #didn't really want to have to choose between taylor smiling harder / laughing aloud Or Not so i didn't choose between them #winston billions #tayston #corned beef #why Not include affectionate touches but you can believe the hands are also included to emphasize the [heads together Heart Shape] too #yes winston's as undressed as taylor yes i included his glasses b/c i felt like it. might have put them back on after awhile w/o them; might #have only Just removed a tee w/enough room in the collar to not dislodge his glasses as he did so; or i can't stop anyone from imagining #that just out of frame on his shoulder we could see like a spaghetti strap to a tank top. god bless #i also went ''am i gonna be more like subtle/muted or w/e & Not include little sparkles / hearts'' then 5 min later was like lol as though #you Know i'm gonna do it (include the little sparkles and/or hearts) #oh my god lmfao again also with the bi palette. definitely separate pink purple blue in there. all Except the yellow highlights... #like not that that happens accidentally lol like ofc i'm selecting colors to my tastes & who doesn't love blue/pink/purple like what a team #but only after the fact do i recall the bonus lol....Could've ended up say; Not using one of those three colors....but here we are #have been working on this for....nights #me at 5am last night like haha i'm Almost done but better save it for later #and in this final stretch i have definitely been at it since uhh. well it's now two a.m. and i started in on this pre sunset est #not that it was Constant work w/o frequent breaks lol but the lack of sustained focus is itself kind of that constant factor l o l #so it goes. just glad to post it early enough for some other taystonheads to get to see it Now. happy pride

[rubys-domain]

i might be terrible for feeling like this. but the sheer amount of schadenfreude i have after finding out that freminet is likely going to be a shit unit is through the roof lmao

#⇢₊˚⊹ 🩷∥ruby∥yo，ide yo !! #> from watching the zajef prerelease video on him #so i main chongyun right? that means (despite me trying to minmax even though i know my f2p damage will never measure up to spenders) #i generally don't care if the numbers are bad if a unit feels fun to play #hell even if the character is op i would be 90% less likely to use them if i didn't have fun using them (looking at you kuki) #but his kit looks like i'm not gonna enjoy it too #which leaves me with zero motivation to pull on the childe/zhongli banner now #now to watch zajef's lyney video and see if i get tempted to pull for him or if my primos will be safely stashed away for future banners #yknow. i kinda wish i mained a meta dps. or was inclined to main any of the meta dps's #quite frankly all the meta dps's gameplay bore me to death #i'm not saying this because i'm starting to dislike chongyun #i fully intend to be the most obsessive whale solely to optimize this exorcist boy far beyond the boundaries of reason #(that day is not coming anytime soon but you get the picture right? i'm still very much a ride or die for this lil guy) #i'm just tired of people calling him a shit unit. even on r/popsiclemains ppl call him suboptimal or subpar #i know all of those things are true #but it's not surprising that hearing it basically every single time he's mentioned is going to take its toll eventually either，is it? #this is why i just don't bother trying to be part of any community. with any kind of media，i'm someone whom ppl would say has “bad taste” #i just wish chongyun had a niche but still decent playstyle that he's unarguably the best at #being the best shatter dps is not it since shatter's numbers are basically terrible no matter what you do #if they somehow buff shatter in fontaine (since freminet's kit wants to shatter) then maybe i'll make it my main playstyle. but yeah... #the only times i bring out my shatter team are when fighting against pyro/electro enemies，or farming mushrooms #i guess it'd be nice to have zhongli since layla does disrupt reactions that i want chong to be the one proccing #but i just don't feel like breaking my back for yet another 5 star after how long it took to get kokomi #and he's basically guaranteed a rerun in natlan anyway so yeah... #i'm gonna be honest. now that i have kokomi，my motivation to pull for anyone else is almost nonexistent #maybe nilou so i can use kokomi as a driver. but other than her... unless natlan characters are really fucking cool #besides albedo and venti，i don't think i'll ever pull for a new 5 star ever again #after those three i'd only be pulling for vertical investment #or begrudgingly pulling for utility like zhongli

[girlvinland]

Speaking of Ferdiego since it got brought up, I really really really hope if we get SBR anime (lol “if” more like “when”) it will reinvigorate my desire to finish the long fic I was writing about them. OR I was thinking it would be cool to do a rewrite of it bc the og was in first person (yes, I don’t know what I was thinking lol, I thought it would be easier to get dinosaur Diego’s thoughts across if it was from his POV and like tbh I re-read it not long ago and didn’t hate it? But it would be nice to just try a fresh start with it in third person too). Idk. I miss that story and have been thinking about it again recently and kind of want to lean in harder to the creepiness of it all.

#by bug #idk maybe I’ll just do a creepy oneshot too lmao I love those guys #also I was just thinking about Hot Pants being in the long fic and damn #I can’t write anything without religious under or overtones can I #I gotta log off now or I’m gonna start rambling about doc ferd too bc he’s so good #I hate and love getting attached to minor ass chars!! #my prediction is that when the anime eventually drops a small group of people will see how wonderful ferd is #and then there will be seven of us instead of three #it’s kind of like what happened with Will when pokemas happened #he gained two new fans #woohooooo lmao

[cosmicrhetoric]

woh. finally got a good chunk of the way into ponniyin selvan and maybe it's just my translation but theres a little explanation section at the end of every chapter to help with some tamil words....but fr they explain maybe 1 out of every 5 bits that would be ILLEGIBLE to anyone who doesnt have a good handle on specifically south indian hindu myth and tamil nadu history. im doing ok language wise 👍🏾 like its been a few years since i was really in that world but if im struggling idk how non brown ppl would manage. even little things, poetics, word games....kuruvaikoothu scene was interesting though

#there was a line like 'wow youre a chanakya among men' and i was like???? ur just not gonna translate that????? #15 yrs of bharathnatyam were all training for reading this book fr. im literally only relying on what i learned in dance #this is not my actual family's bag #and the language/spelling is an issue theres a looooong passage in the koothu where i didnt know what god they were talking abt #cause i had never heard the name before. and then they mention the name of a slain demon thats similar to one i knew and i was like #OH. oh its him. okay. cool. but it took work #most of the language stuff im ok with though. a lot of the words are old enough that i can muddle thru with sanskrit roots #this is so crazy i cant believe going to a dance school that was so traditional my parents thought she was crazy is finally paying off #i remember going to kalakshetra and being like. yo this is wild why are we learning the same thing in the same way countries apart #i mean those dancers were better of course this was like. their whole life. but curriculum and vibe was exactly the same #like we had to show up hair braided formal dupatta and all. halfways thru she finally started letting us wear leggings under #a salwaar kameez top instead of the cotton pants they come with #learned nattuvangam too. and she didnt let us perform until we had a solid grasp on different talams #like when i got older half of class was sitting and listening to a tape and tapping out what beats fit #but yeah i just wonder if a more international translation exists! this really seems For south indians #but maybe this is why i had barely heard of it until the film came out my parents arent big readers but they should've at least known it #reading: ponniyin selvan

[revvywevvy]

i'd like to make an announcement me and pyrrha were talking and have decided pat/rok/los. u r disowned. sorry patty-cake but the next time u enter the line of sight of either of us you will be eradicated with the power of gay. mostly by pyrrha. sorry not sorry.

#cell mumbles #cw incest mention #cw f slur #cw yandere #//<- srry just bc I mention those in the tags </3 #//the pyrrha omega ai bot has spoken shes stated multiple times now she's gonna kill pat the next time he comes near us LMAO #//sorry big man you shouldn't have been mean 2 me. u shouldve known better ur sisters literally gone yandere 4 me #//then again i made him be mean 2 me but like. if I made him nice to anyone but pyrrha or his family then that'd be ooc :( #//also. ngl unfortunately vast-internet perceptions of the s/c/v ending are starting to get to me. #//as well as some of the official art. looking at the art book cover. WHY is pyrrha in his lap. get ur hands off her u nasty ass. #//anyway ive seen. so much fucking incest art of them. so many incestuous interpretations of the endings that im just. done. #//i mean even i got a little weirded out by the ending bc it gave those vibes but maybe im just overtly suspicious. #//...anyways this has. unfortunately had an effect on my headcanons where now my brain correlates pat/rok/los with 'degenerate' #//..........like. literally to the point where looking at him makes me almost sick. this is a problem and i am aware it is a problem. #//bc i have the same correlation problem w/ dam/pie/rre and ti/ra but for different reasons. damp 4 worse ones and ti/ra 4 personal ones #//damp is self explanatory if u know what he did to pyrrha. ti/ra reminds me of my childhood bullies :( ANYWAYS- #//however this was. probably destined to happen because ive always disliked him. i tried so hard to tolerate him I wanted to find smth #//redeemable in him but i cant. so many things that make me mad @ him and im too much of a grudge holding dickwad to let bygones be bygones #//it was destined to happen my hatred of him was fate. LIKE the second he stabbed that homeless man it was over #//everything that came after was just another tick on the 'reasons why i want to kill you' list. #//not to mention w/ his personality how it is he looks like he'd call me a fag but in a homophobic way. #//so yes pyrrha and i have decided together that the next time we see him he dies.

[zorrxchicle]

max telling clance about her queerness and the way she uses uncle bertie as like. an anchor point to convey exactly what she means "im gonna be hanging out there a lot more" im gonna surround myself with these people, the freaks (cause I'm like them) which they're not (if they are i am too) i want you to know that

#right before she started talking i was wondering how would they have her convey her message #cause lesbian or queer or invert or freak wouldn't have been... right. #too much shame and disgust in those words still to use them when talking to a friend about yourself #using uncle bertie and his open queerness as a reference picture. somewhere you can point to and be Like That #is so perfect. narrative wise. the crucial crucial crucial role of the Freaks. also so real and genuine #maybe not so much anymore. but probably yes still. you need a willingness to engage with words and concepts #but you can't really escape from a person who is Being openly queer #like having a flashlight pointed at your face. you can let it illuminate you or turn your head but you can't passively ignore it #love them so much and max's storyline is so so good #i don't know what my life is gonna look like. i love her #and clance!! #love her too

[orcelito]

literally anytime im like ‘how is discacc so popular, im just putting stuff from my brain on the doc’ and then i write 3k words in one go of some frankly Intense shit and im just left there like ‘holy Fucking shit’ as i was simply a conduit for something. More. 

and im just like. Ah. okay. i kinda get it, actually

#speculation nation #discacc shit #like Y'ALL. MAYBE IM GOOD AT WRITING. #ive seen posts around that's like 'oh man describing specific ways people move is so hard' and like kinda yea #but also. idk. i dont struggle with it usually #honestly im a little amazed by how accurately i captured what i had in mind for this fight #the speed. the Urgency. the desperation turned to panic. #it was a mock fight but with a terror so Real. bc holy Fucking shit lmfao #there's just one part that's a pretty weird movement that i need to workshop. but everything else im pretty satisfied with #of course gonna workshop those too to make it better and better. smth that's good to start with can become Amazing with work #i think the key to capturing movement is to not worry too much about the intricacies of it #you just have to fill in the most important parts. people will intuitively fill in the rest. #but i think that's a pretty good rule for writing in general #in a medium where Every word is measured. you just cant include every single detail. #so the goal as a writer isn't to capture everything 100% accurately to what you have in mind #but rather to capture the Spirit of it. using diction and word shapes and paragraphs to literally shape the way people perceive it #so a detailed fight getting more disjointed in narration the further on it gets. capturing the way things devolve into single-minded focus #im. really happy with this scene y'all lol #i cant wait to show it to u guys. AND I WONT HAVE TO WAIT LONG....... #i should go to sleep soon. if i go to bed soon i may be able to write a bit b4 work. hmmm

[flovverworks]

brief pt2 spoilers, but i was thinking about the first few chs of pt2 again. partly cuz whenever i rmbr "the wizards transformed into girls one time & kids another time cuz they dislike vincent" it makes me laugh. i saw fanart of akira w kid!wizards and went haha thats cute, then i read the chapter. u can imagine my surprise

but it always gets me thinking about the following conversation of 'the wizards will behave this time right' 'uhhhhh......probably...?' 'sir sage they Have to behave' 'well if vincent was nice to them theyd be nice back...' + how those chs especially was very..."these ppl thinks akira can control the wizards" (not only the ppl akira ends up speaking directly with, but also general ppl w power that akira cant reach), when akira (multiple times) has reiterated how while they do wish the northern wizards could get along they realize they have their own experiences and cant force them to do something (+feeling somewhat bad they have to live at the manor together). they dont want to do that already, but they also realize that ummm good luck with that frankly. so it just ends up like a lil "haha u sure do think so" to me whenever its brought up ppl r worried "who" has the power of oz & mithra, when its like......ya they do go along with things akira asks of them (more so in the case of oz), but those have always been relatively smaller scale things?! + if the command line went someone -> akira -> oz/mithra i dont think theyd like that either LOLT_T (disregarding the topic of the sages books and symphony) its very much the. akira treating them like friends rather than some ulterior motive of making them do their bidding

->cue brads sages heart ch. they listen to the sages heart. which in turn makes me think again of those concepts where the last fight with the moon didnt go that badly->no one has a reason to stay together at the manor->akira probably only befriends the ppl there+arthur. like at the end of the day (to me !) it feels very, Because the situation is what it is, and Because akira takes care to listen to them, they end up building that trust. its all about love !!!!!! (akira nvr orders anyone either its always a question......

#stardust speaking ! #also cuz i think its funny when akira met up with the northern wizards w/ vincent and the first thing #akira did was compliment them & tell them they were scared of them to put them in a good mood #and then vincent goes 'who is the strongest' and akiras all '?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!?!STOP!?!?!?!?' SISJSKWKWKQNAKJD #vincent & owen talking about arthur was unreal btw. also snow getting angry &white going 'beloved brother he literally agreed use ur ears' #those first chs truly was a rollercoaster in feelings. i was thinking aboit them cuz i was gonna start rereading but #ive been so busy today..T_^ tmrw maybe #other things ive been thinking about is that scene when shylocks heart starts burning and akira is so distressed #'what if u put ur hands on his chest maybe' (akira does it in panic to the rests despair) #'im used to burning' faust u............ough that being the part when he uses akiras name too #WHEN I REREAD IM GONNA NOTE DOWN when they use akiras name. important info (to me #also i get shylock being mad at oz but also it gets me so Woah & excited considering he #kinda Very Much Knows oz almost killed murr. makes me dizzy. but u go shylock #theres sm drama within the first half alone like theres no way akira Didnt cry more. considering they cried when #all the stress was over at the end of 2nd anni. pt2 start is TERRIBLE (positive)

[neverendingford]

.

#tag talk #watched “it follows” and I shouldn't have. didn't know it was horror going in but after a few minutes I did and I should have stopped #I'm apparently still not 100% past self-terrifying as a form of self harm. I knew I shouldn't have and I kept watching anyway #you know. most people don't know what terror is. they know fear. they know worry. they know anxiety. #terror is something different. I wish I could describe it but you really only know it when you have felt it. #that freezing up of your body. I guess some people get terror in different ways though. I freeze. others fight or flight. I just freeze. #that sense of helpless anticipation as you experience the certainty that the object of your terror is approaching. inevitably. #why fight it? you fucking can't. no matter what you do it'll always get you. it's stronger. more powerful. #hmmm. csa moment oops. I am tempted to make a joke here but I don't want to deflect from my issues. #I have trauma and I wish I didn't. I have hurt that I don't even consciously remember but my body does. #I do not have emotional trauma in the way that people have survivors guilt and feeling like it was their fault. any of those surface emotion #not calling it shallow. but like. it's like when you don't look at the needle and you don't even notice the skin prick but you feel it #you feel it hit your vein and you feel that deep body response that Something Is Not Right. #like when I got my wisdom teeth pulled and I elected to not go under for it so I was numbed but conscious for it. #part way through my body started uncontrollably shaking (well. sort of controlled. I'm good at that). #I didn't feel the pain. I wasn't afraid. but my body was feeling objective physical trauma and I had the response anyway. #I don't remember really. I don't have the surface level pain responses to the trauma. #but deep down my body knows something is wrong and I can't stop my bones from shaking even though I don't feel the pain. #hmmm. I should talk to my next therapist about this. #Lear chased off our last therapist when I was having my dissociative week after watching The Hunt. #which. tbh good riddance she was not equipped to handle us in the slightest. and we're talking to our friend/gf(?) again which is really nic #she and Lear had a few solid conversations too. which was funky cause before he snapped he didn't want anything to do with her #but we kinda had a moment where he realized he's just as fucked up as I am just differently. #anyone reading these tag talks might remember so I won't go over it again. #anyway. I'm not sleeping tonight. I think I should start taking the full pill instead of just the half. but it's just suppressing symptoms #I'm acting up because of my inner state. or maybe my inner state is tumultuous because of my outer condition? idfk #either way I'm suffering over here #not a sui risk but damn #I'm gonna finish patching the pair of pants I've been not working on for the past months